#abt the conflict with the elders??? hm. false.

[seoafin]

man i can’t comprehend the stress shoko must go through. she’s a doctor and has to heal all these sorcerers—even KIDS—from near fatal injuries. and she cant save everyone... sometimes the damage is too extreme. she know many sorcerers that died—but she’s also experienced them dying in her very own hands. faces she had talked to just hours before taking their last breath right in front of her...

when she’s at work, of course she puts up a front. she has to be cool and collected in emergency situations. but as soon as her shift is done... after she heals the last person of the day... after placing a white sheet over a lifeless body...

her hands shake. she leaves her workspace and fumbles for a cigarette. when she sees her packet is empty she leans against the wall... sliding down to the ground and placing her face in her hands, elbows resting on her knees.

she doesn’t cry. she cant. she won’t. if she breaks, she loses control. and if she loses control, she cant save anyone.

so she takes a deep breath, gets up, and goes to buy a new pack of cigarettes.

this made me so......🥺