#absolutely fucking ILL about evan kelmp

[itsgonnagetinspiringsoon]

This is the only home I've ever known. I would give it up for them to be safe. They're the only friends I've ever had. I would be alone again for them to be safe. I would lose them to save them. I can only help them by leaving forever.

[performing-personhood]

My therapist literally watched all of MisMag because of me.

I just kept going on about how crushingly fucking Perceived™️ I feel by Evan Kelmp and how this line specifically was a sniper shot through decades of trauma from an unseen upper-floor Parasocial Relationship window directly into my soft core self. (Sam's breakdown about how she interfaces with others and what her value is in the world deserves its own post, because that discussion about people pleasing was absolutely the dark horse existential crisis i didn't expect - another one of those careful "oh shit wtf i've been shot" type of soul-exposing mackerel-to-the-face moments.) She was like "I get it. It was incredible obviously but I'm so glad I did this because yeah, I get it" and then told me she wonders if it's ethical for her to require some of her clients to watch it too.

So thank you, Brennan, for Seeing me and the innumerated silent army of traumatized people like me. Thank you, Danielle, for your vulnerability about the personal horrors and tragedies of people-pleasing. And endless thank you to Aabriya for so lovingly crafting and nurturing the world in which these people could exist for us.

My therapist is also almost certainly on tumblr too and is in the fandom so there's a real chance imma out myself with this post, but she's the realest I know she'll be cool to pretend she didn't (hi girl sorry love ya, ill take this down if u want hmu)

why would you do this to me