#aOk! OK! OK! I NEED TO LIE DOWN FOR AN HOUR | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

qualityrain · 8 months ago

Text

in shambles thinking abt hny 36 because yk. the mirror. yk how in 8 satoko has this flashback of how when she was a kid she would look at her scar in the mirror and know that it makes her undesirable but she shows it to shinpei and is proud of it even calling it her badge of honour and then in 36 she once again sees her scar in the mirror and realises that shes getting so thin her ribs are showing and she knows shes looking more and more undesirable and ugly and shes so ashamed she tries to hide and pass it off as a lol i havent been eating thing instead of it being yk. her chronic illness thats supposed to kill her. and she literally expects shinpei to think shes disgusting or something like tachibana. tachibana. i am on my knees take all of satokos pain and suffering and give it to literally anybody else

#claude txt #shaking crying and throwing up because literally everybody in her life is like #always saying her illness is bad and undesirable and nobody will want her #and like. URGHHHHHH ASAGIRI.#shes like ohh u dont have sex appeal nobody will want u dont u want to have sex w shinpei when ur still beautiful #LIKEFUCCKKKKK OFFFFD FUCK OFFF FUCK OFF #and the way its so understandable. that her family always sees her ws a burden because of her illness #and so shes like very very particular abt not beinfba burden to others.#so shes terrified of being in a relationship w shinpei because she’ll just become more of a burden #she cannot change it shes only going to become a heavier burden and its FUCCKKKK FUCKFUCKJFUFKFKCUFCKKK #FUCKKK #aOk! OK! OK! I NEED TO LIE DOWN FOR AN HOUR #URGHHHHH THE WAY ITS LIKE HER PRIDE TOO THAT SHES PROUD THAT SHES MADE HERSELF #LIKE YEAH SHES INSANEKY BEAUTIFUL BUT ALSO SHE MAINTAINED IT RIGHT #AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS TOBBE as desirable #and and. losing that.#she doesnt want to be seen as. lesser i guess?#from her loved ones and i THEOW UP SO HARD PLEASE #IM ON MY KNEES TAKE ALL HER PAIN AND AUDFERING AND GUVE IT TO SOKEVODY ELSE #JUST MAKE SATOKO HAPPY ONCE W/O STRINGS ATTACHED PLEASEPLEASPLEASEP

9 notes · View notes