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endykelopaedia · 3 months ago

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omg, i thought i was the only person who felt that? like, when i picture a man i think i could be hypothetically attracted to, i only feel anything if i imagine him as a butch, and my mind sort of automatically does the switch if i try to imagine any real scenarios. even when i see guys i recognize as attractive irl, all i can think of is like why couldn't that be a handsome butch instead of a man 😭

omg yes its exactly like this for me too like yea this guy hes attractive but im always kinda disappointed he's just some guy & not a gorgeous butch. id much rather imagine gender non-conforming and genderqueer butches, who are so hot & handsome & perfect with some dude's aesthetic than the some dude himself. but i guess i keep trying to "find" that same attraction in men anyway? even though i know its just not the same.

#important note that when i say women i'm using shorthand. im not a woman & my partner isnt a woman #ik its not a perfect term but i think comphet describes the experience best #i identified my attraction to women when i was very young #in the kindergarten wondering why nobody wanted to be my girlfriend kind of young #and i didnt have the most accepting family. not then and not now #i was very young and scared. still young and scared #there's comfort in being able to say oh yea yea i like dudes too. trust. i CAN be normal #maybe that is biphobic. idk. sorry bisexuals #after i came out as a lesbian that mechanism to convince myself of attraction to men became this #a weird rigorous lesbianism tester #putting my lesbiansism in a gladiator battle with every fat tittied man #lesbianism still wins out im afraid #lesbian #lgbtq #.txt

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