#a new danganronpa game would also probably get me but i dont see it sucking me in as bad

[gemharvest]

I feel like out of any of my previous fixations, I would be drawn back into MP100 the quickest if there was any new content. Fortunately for me, the anime is done so (remembers the Reigen manga exists and hasn't been adapted) fucj

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[chichorie]

what are your pre-game headcanons about the cast??

theres a LOT of characters to go through so ill try to keep this as short as possible but, its still probably gonna end up kinda long. so basically im gonna list some people who i think would be most important in a pregame setting and maybe then some.

ndrv3 spoilers!!!!

kaede akamatsu: 

“i’d be perfect for a killing game. i dont have any faith in humanity” says a lot about her, and i really like that she says this with a chipper tone and a smile on her face. she might have had a personality similar to ingame kokichi. 

kaede is also kind of mean to shuichi in the prologue, yelling at him to shut up while he’s panicking for very valid reasons (they just got fucking kidnapped). shes probably impatient, rude, and dislikes working together with others.

she also says that she thinks the world is very rotten so shes also rather cynical. like most of the pregame cast, i think she would have to have a very bad past to be willing to participate in a game as dangerous as dangaronpa and essentially throw away her life.

shuichi saihara:

in the audition, hes very timid, very nervous and stutters a lot. in the prologue, hes prone to panic easily and does not speak/carry himself in a confident way. much like ingame shuichi.

i do think he has some kind of survival experience, or knows how to escape easily in some kind of bad situation as he led kaede through the halls with the exisals without getting caught.

he’s very passionate about danganronpa, willing to do whatever it takes to participate. its basically his whole life. i think he mightve been sucked into it because of a bad homelife, watching it as a kind of escape. (”tings might be bad for me but there are people who have it worse”)

decides to participate because hes tired of living in the real world and wants something new and exciting. he doesnt really care if he dies in the killing game because its better than continuing to live the life he already is.

tsumugi shirogane:

i think she worked for danganronpa since she was kind of young, either making costumes or acting as junko during the final trial. i dont think she ever participated in a game until the very last season.

shes kind of a loner and doesnt view herself in a good way. she thinks shes boring and uses her fictional characters to give herself something to live for. her characters have more life than she does, in her eyes.

after being given full permission to go wild with season 53, i think she did most of the planning. she wrote the script, picked 14 students from the auditions, wrote their characters, designed outfits, etc. she really wanted to make sure she made her first season the very best one the world has ever seen.

she was the one who decided rantaro would have to participate in season 53, and also asked team danganronpa to create kiibo to serve as the audience’s proxy. she herself decided to join as the 16th student because she really wanted to be able to live in a fictional world that she created.

k1-b0:

doesnt really care about danganronpa. he just knows he has a job to do and has no say in being in the game or not.

likely in some kind of testing stage, making sure his ai can develop properly in the game setting and trying out different personalities for him to take on. teaching him basic things like speech and action.

is likely rather quiet. he doesnt say a word in the prologue and probably doesnt speak unless he is spoken to.

unlike ingame kiibo, he only views himself as a tool and doesnt think he is very humanlike at all.

rantaro amami:

this ones kind of hard because he was already in a past danganronpa, so his personality in the prologue is likely that of the ultimate adventurer from season 52, and not the rantaro amami who auditioned for that season.

hes cool and level headed, having been able to survive the past killing game. he can see things from all angles and doesnt let emotion or bias get in the way from his goals and his survival.

hes also selfless and willing to sacrifice his own freedom if it means someone else can escape the killing game. i think he’s ok with dying if it means he can help someone.

kaito momota:

a very scary guy. not friendly at all. you probably do not want to bump into him in any kind of situation.

very strong and can likely win any kind of fight. he probably likes fighting, too. he says hes willing to kill everyone if it means winning danganronpa.

greedy, didnt join the game for any reason other than the prize money. he chose the rold of ultimate astronaut because he wanted to be something flashy and cool.

miu iruma:

shes still rather brash and has thin patience, as seen from the prologue, but i dont think she’s a very sexual person. she doesnt like to make jokes or innuendos simply because she didnt have time for it.

she chose the role of ultimate inventor because she wanted to be recognized for something other than her beauty. she wanted to prove that she was more than a pretty face and had what it takes to win.

unfortunately, is often looked past due to her nice body, and has to use it to get people to pay attention to her, even if she doesnt like it. its likely the only reason she got into the game, much to her dismay.