#a lot of their writing suucks.

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whats your most rancid take about anything at all i am a bitch for drama and i know you're bored in uni JSJDJSSJDKJS

leee!!! 😭😭 it‘s not that i am particularly bored in uni it‘s more that i am in fact crying and screaming and throwing up as we speak. the lecture hasn‘t started yet tho, so lemme get back to your question.

my most rancid take on anything??? damn i have been blessed with sooo many right opinions it‘s insaane, but here is the first one i can think off:

people are too obsessed with “not being cringe”. newsflash everyone. you are cringe. so fucking cringe it fucking hurts. actually want to rip my eyes out levels of cringe. about to drown myself in a bucket of stagnant water levels of cringe. but you know what??? but we’re ALL cringe. i can guarantee you there is at least like 5 things you either do or believe i think is cringe af. and there is at least 5 things i do or believe you will think is cringe af. maybe you think i am cringe while reading this, too. will it change anything at all in this big ass world? n o. actually being so obsessed with whether something is cringe or not and letting this stop you from doing it or liking it. that iS CRINGE. more cringe than anything else. so stop. take responsibility for your shit. cuz you finding stuff cringe is 100% on you and you alone. stop taking your shit out on others. people don’t have to adjust to your very specific and very subjective view on what is okay to do and what is not. especially in fandom spaces. self inserts? cringe but fUN? self shipping? cringe but who gives a fuck. writing mary sue fanfics? cringe but it won’t kill aNYONE (i do all of those things okay and it’s cringe but i won’t be embarrassed about it because cringe is merely ✨an iLLUSION✨ shiggy is my boyfriend. sanji is my husband. i made a self insert for eVERY SINGLE FANDOM i have EVER been apart of and all of them were mary sues and the earth has continued twisting and turning in the cruel and unforgiving grip of the sun’s rotation and the sun rose and set and died a slow and painful death over and over and over and the birds tweedle deed and tweedle dummed and sat together on a wire before one of them tried to fly away and the other watched them close from that wire and said he wants to as well but he was a fucking liar and-

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If this is your first time breastfeeding/pumping or your experiencing nipple tenderness, I'd go with the Lansinoh, it is gentler. I think this is because each pump on the Medela is directly connected to the motor by its own independent tubing. The Lansinoh is one tube out of the motor which splits into two after about 18". Full suction on the L is about 40% suction on the M. I've turned the Medela up a little higher a couple of times but always turned it back down! I think the Medela would have just caused more pain when I was first starting to pump. I like the Ls let down cycle more than the Ms. The L also has a better visual representation of the suction where Ms is a dial I find somewhat difficult to read with sleep deprived eyes in the wee hours of the morning. The Lansinoh is also easily battery powered by normal batteries in a built in compartment. You have to buy a separate battery adaptor for the Medela. The Lansinoh is just a touch easier to disassemble for cleaning though it has slightly more parts. The Lansinoh also has a built in timer which I really like.

The Medela has it's pros too. Mine is just the pump, not the pump built into a bag, so it is just a little cube, with small Cary handle and side net pockets for the tubing and power adaptor so it's a very neat and tidy little package. I find the Medela easier to use if I'm only going to be pumping one side. The M also has noticeable longer tubing so if your pumping hands free you have more wiggle room in mobility. The biggest benefit to the Medela is being able to use the 2.5oz bottles to pump into instead of the 5oz size. The bigger bottles are just plain discouraging when you just start out pumping or your pumping after a feeding. 1-2 oz in the little bottles just feels like more and more worthwhile or successful than the same volume in the big bottles where it barely makes it to the first measurement markings. I'm glad I have both pumps. I mostly use the Medela to pump once each morning. I use the Lansinoh when I'm going to be away, like pumping in my car in a parking lot. When I was gone for a three day weekend and had to pump exclusively I took both pumps, used the Medela for the first day and a half, then the Lansinoh. I had similar output using both pumps and as I said, I think the Lansinoh is gentler. The other big difference is that the Lansinoh allows the user to adjust the suction pattern independently from the suction force. It's hard to explain, better to hear but: the L has three settings in addition to the letdown. The letdown is suck/suck/suck with no pause but you can adjust the suction force from low to high. The. There are three pumping levels. Suck..suck..suck..suck again you can adjust the force from low to high. A medium which is more Suuck...Suuck...Suuck...low to high force adjustable. And a high which is more Suuuuck...Suuuuuck...Suuuuuck also adjustable force. Basically how long the suck is held before release. The slight pause between sucks stays the same. On the Medela, the suck pattern is directly linked to the force, so if you have it on high it's gonna have lots of force and hold the suck for longer, low will have less force and hold the suck hardly at all. The Medela also has a letdown pattern which is a rapid suck and it's force is slightly adjustable, though I find it more difficult to do. I don't use either the Lansinoh or Medela bottles for feeding. We use the Kiinde Twist bags/bottles which I absolutely love! And they do have an adaptor for this newer large mouth Lansinoh but as of now you'll need to contact them directly to get it, it's not in their kits yet.Read less702 people found this helpfulHelpfulComment Report abuseHamburger1.0 out of 5 stars Like being in a bad relationshipReviewed in the United States on March 13, 2018Style: Pump with Tote Bag and Pumping EssentialsI hate this thing with a passion. And because I exclusively pump and have to use it 6-8 times a day, it's like being in a bad relationship. My main complaint is that it leaks. It leaks from the flanges, unless you bend almost completely over. It leaks from the top if you turn it even slightly sideways. And it doesn't have to be full -- it leaks as you pump so it can leak from the first drop.

Today was the final straw that made me write this review (I review most of my Amazon buys, but I got this pump via a company that supplies them through private health insurance. But you people have to know before you buy). This morning while I pumped, I turned toward my son next to me on the couch to practice smiles. After 20 minutes I noticed I didn't have much in my right bottle. After doing this for months, I'm pretty familiar with my output. And then I saw a little puddle on my blanket. No big deal, there's usually one every time I use this piece of crap. But still, I had twice as much milk in my left bottle so I kept investigating. The puddle went on and on. It soaked the entire top half of the blanket, through to most of the bottom half of my shirt and the top half of my shorts. As most pumping moms know, loss of milk is HEARTBREAKING. Especially since we usually pump for heartbreaking reasons -- premature babies, babies with mouth issues, sick babies, irregular breasts, low supply...even a few drops lost is upsetting, but when you lose ounces...there is a reason we call it liquid gold and why we have all literally cried over spilled milk. I don't cry anymore, now I get infuriated. Usually my first morning pump yields 8-9 oz. Today I got 6. So at least 2 oz leaked silently into my blanket and clothes while I smiled at my baby. And let me tell you, the leaking is the only thing silent about this monstrosity. It's so loud that my husband has to jack up the TV volume which isn't the best thing at 10 o'clock at night when there's a baby finally sleeping in the next room, or at 2 am when everyone but me is sleeping. Let me get back to the leaks. There are leaks from the flanges too, unless you bend over. The neck has to be at a 45 degree angle or more with the floor, or what you pump drips right back out of the mouth of the flange. I don't even know how this is physically possible with the suction but it is. I have not tried a hands-free bra with this pump for this very reason. You have to sit and hold the flanges in a very specific way or all the milk just comes back out the front. I don't think a bra could achieve the finesse it took me weeks to develop. And there are still leaks. They're just smaller and have become tolerable. And there will be more leaks and drips when you remove the breasts from the flanges, due to all the milk that has accumulated around the mouth while pumping, regardless of how you sit. How you sit just prevents it leaking out. It's going to accumulate at the mouth of the flange no matter what. Now, the flanges. Besides the leaks, there could potentially be a sizing issue. They apparently only make 2 sizes, standard and large. I knew the standard ones weren't really comfortable for me, and from my research I didn't think bigger ones were the answer, but I had to try. No, they weren't. I know now I need smaller ones, but they don't make them. So my whole nipple plus some of my areola gets sucked in and wrung mercilessly for 40 minutes at a time, 6-8 times a day. The nipples are fine, this is what they're made for. But I now have a semi permanent (I hope semi, maybe it will turn out to be permanent after a year. Who am I kidding, I'm not going to make it a year like this). red, distended ring around the very inside of my areola, outside the nipple. It's like a pre-nipple. No longer areola, but not part of the nipple. My breasts are like those collapsible camping cups. And it's sore. Not the nipples or the areolas, just this one area that gets sucked into the flange neck that shouldn't. What else...oh the tubing. I got this pump because it's a closed system, which I naively thought meant milk couldn't get sucked back into the tubing. Apparently that only means that, once it does, it can't be reintroduced to the main system and collection bottles. That's great because my tubing is full of old dried milk (that's where it goes when it doesn't leak out all over you). I had read horror stories of mold growing in non closed systems which is what I wanted to avoid. And honestly, in this Southeast Texas climate where humidity hovers constantly around 70+%, I'm not sure how mine hasn't turned moldy. But if/when it does, it will have to be replaced because it's impossible to clean. The best case scenario is just to let it dry and hope for the best. I'd like to say a little more about positioning. Besides the leaks, it's hard on the body. Hardest right after birth. I can't speak to standard delivery but I had a c section and hunching over to prevent leaks was not comfortable. It still isn't, but less so with an 8 inch wound in your abdomen. It's also hard on the back, more so if you have pain from your epidural because that's right where you have to bend to prevent leaks. And even after you're recovered, the acrobatics still take their toll. I get what I call my "pumping headaches" about every day, sometimes multiple times a day, because of the head and neck strain of hunching over the collection bottles.

Finally, it's overall poor quality. The printing on the buttons started to come off with the first use and now is completely gone after 2 months of use. Thankfully there aren't many buttons and I know what they do. But what crap...you don't make a product FOR breastmilk and then make buttons with icons that can be erased by breastmilk. I would get another, different pump tomorrow (I would have gotten one 2 months ago) if I knew which one to get. But all the reviews are similar. The next time this one leaks half a feeding all over me and I chuck it into the street, I'll probably rent a hopital grade pump instead, because I had no issues pumping at the hospital and they're like $2k to buy.

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I’m gonna do so bad in this essay... i kind of just want to submit it and get it over with, so bad, but I know its not done, there’s a lot more I can/need to do on it but I just suuck so bad!! I really am not good at research essays at all and I’m very stress and sad nd anxious my teacher is going to mark it and say ‘wow, this sucks!’ I know I have potential and I KNOW I write decently but my structure is all out of whack and my evidence is so weak and my referencing research is really not at the level they expect in university but its like. im trying... im tryinggg!!!! i just want to tell myself ITS OK and just get it done but like :/ bleh.

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The week of doom.

Off the weekend! - Sweet!

- but because I was "given" the weekend off, I was in turn, scheduled for the next eight days straight.. close, open, close, open, and so on..

Monday- mid year "self" eval. I thought I was prepared.. I was not. Basically told in a niceish way that I suck at my job. Lovely. Got my period. Greaaat! Car fire in the parking lot. 4 cars annihilated.

Tuesday- had a call off at work, had a lot to get done. Ended up working service counters instead of actually getting notes completed.

Wednesday- my son is sick. Misses school. I end up leaving early to take him to doctor. He throws up in the doctor's office, turns out he has strep. Had to write a check from my checking account that was already negative in order to cover the $45 copay. Had to write another check on my account that was negative in order to cover the cost of his medication, and hope neither of these checks cleared until after payday.

Thursday- get to work ten minutes late because I put my daughter on the bus prior to coming to work at 7am, I have communicated this multiple times, to multiple people, every time I open, I have to put her on the bus first. BUT today it was a problem and we had to get yelled at in a meeting, and then have an email sent about it, followed by another meeting about it. About being punctual, aaand blah blah blah.

In the afternoon, sat in on an investigation for close to three hours.

Didn't realize I was basically hemorrhaging through my clothing. Go to slide over for my boss's boss to sit down and find a giant pool of blood instead. Of course, he sees it too. However, he was a gentleman and once everything was said and done, got everyone out so I could clean it up and get out of there without anyone else being aware. But still, fucking mortifying!

Had to buy new pants and underwear so I could rush from work to parent teacher conferences for my three children. Essentially they're all not doing well in school. My littlest one is really struggling and is going to be tested for a learning disability. My middle child is smart but has anger management issues, and simply doesn't want to be there. My daughter was being bullied and missed a lot of school, and would be an honors student, but is depressed and has anxiety and panic attacks because of the bully situation that is now being dealt with by guidance.

Friday- my car gets hit by a box truck, denting my fender aaand annihilating my mirror. Then I get pulled in by my bosses, because my performance suucks aaand apparently, that conversation on Monday wasn't enough for me to understand that. Moral of the story? Im a piece of shit I guess.. whhhoo the fuuuckk knows.

I was annoyed so I started to cry. I barely ever cry, so once I start I can't pull it back and everything just wants to come out. Don't ask me to open up to you when you're being shiiity to me.

You don't care about me.

I don't matter.

Im not special.

I am replaceable.

I already know this.

Even my husband replaced me.

I guess I deserved it? But, still.

So then I'm finally getting ready to go home, aaand some random customer o.d's in the parking lot.

He lived though.