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joanofexys · 4 months ago

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Hi! Sorry for randomly dropping anon into ur inbox, but I’m kind of in love with ur oc’s and I was wondering if you could tell me more abt Ilya? Ik u said they’re just some guy from Penn state and for some reason that really intrigues me lol.

Never apologize I love anons and I'm so flattered you like my little guys. Also sorry this is gonna take a minute and there will be many typos cause I'm typing one handed on my laptop while eating an icecream/my cat tries to steal my icecream bar, not that you needed that info

ANYWAY litte recap on Ilya:

22 years old

5'5

he/they, transman

youngest of 4, has all sisters

Played for Penn State

Now plays for Olympic Court

Goalie

Number 7

I haven't decided on what he majored in yet

Yeah he really is just some guy. He's the only athlete really in his family. One of his older sisters ran track in high school, but otherwise their family is full of musician. Dad is a middle school orchestra teacher, mom is a music professor, his sisters all went into the arts. He can play a, quite frankly, ridiculous amount of instruments and he enjoys them all but he's not particularly passionate about it.

His parents signed him up for little league exy because he saw exy on the tv once and wouldn't shut up about it/was begging them to play. His parents just wanted all of their kids to be happy so they caved very quickly and Ilya developed an intense passion for the sport that obviously never went away.

Ilya's oldest sister (Liliya) is 7 years older than him, the other one 4 years older (Kateryna or just Kat), and the sister after (Tanya) that only a year and a half older. They're all incredibly close despite any age gaps while also very much having a dynamic of lovingly bullying each other

Ilya kind of always knew he was trans and they were always in a safe space to express it. His parents used to joke that they had "3 girls and an Ilya" and they didn't even bat an eye when as a kid he went straight for the "boys clothes" and asked to be called a prince instead of a princess and only responded to being called a boy. At school it was different, in elementary school other kids didn't care but the teachers could be weird about it, and then as a teen other kids started getting mean about it. But his parents and their sisters were always accepting and they filled their house with enough love that Ilya never thought about being closeted or pretending to be someone he wasn't.

He gets recruited to Penn State's team as their starting goalkeeper as an openly trans athlete. His team's respectful for the most part. There are some people who just don't seem to get it, but they're never outright rude or transphobic to him. There are sometimes snide remarks and something Not Cool said on accident and Ilya is always quick to correct it and most of his teammates are decent enough to apologize and try to do better

And he talks A Lot about being a trans and generally queer athlete. He's happy to be one of those people out and proud for everyone who can't be. Ilya has always, unapologetically, taken up space. Not even focused on his queerness, just in the way he exists as a person. If he's in a room you're going to know he's there and you're probably going to know their every thought as well.

They care a lot and they take everything to heart. They're very much a "don't cry cause you'll make me cry" type of person. He's much more willing to take on people's pain and share their burdens than he probably should be.

And he has zero filter. While he's absolutely paving the way as a queer athlete and he has a lot to say to the press about that his press time also has to be limited because he will just say shit. He has insulted other teams, insulted specific players, shared information that he definitely shouldn't have, said "fuck" on camera too often to keep count, and a lot more. He is keeping the Penn State vs Edgar Allan Ravens twitter discourse alive and well with all the shit that comes out of his mouth

He makes his best friend his junior year. She's a sophomore named Alice and she's a defensive dealer. Her sophomore year she comes as trans, MTF, and Ilya is the first person she tells becuase he's one of the only queer people she knows. After that they're pretty much attached at the hip and Ilya would kill and die for her. Her family isn't super accepting so he takes her home with him for the holidays. His family becomes hers and they're more than happy to add one more girl to the family.

Ilya makes court right after he graduates and it's with Jude, Em, Mara, Florian. you know the drill at this point. They're the ones I never shut up about. And I think I'll largely be repeating myself and I don't want to be annoying with that so we'll stop there

Some other fun things about Ilya though:

he never learned how to ride a bike. he will never ride a bike. fuck no (he fell over and scraped his knee once and despite all the balls to the head playing exy that was his breaking point for some reason and he never got on a bike again)

he's a cat person

he teaches Florian ASL and it's the main they talk to each other cause Florian likes to go nonverbal

they were such a huge fan of Jude it took everything in them to not be starstruck when the two first met

the two instruments they stuck with were the violin and the piano

they have an addiction to strawberries

is almost always playing jazz music on a vinyl when they're home/have people over

he has a shitty autograph and Flor has begged him to "get better handwriting" since he signs so much stuff but he's fine with it being an unreadable disaster (Florian's autograph in comparison is gorgeous)

he is an unapologetic foxes stan after they win finals

#asks #anon #this is all over the place i'm sorry #my ocs #oc: ilya kostyk #aftg ocs #aftg

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blackstarchanx3new · 11 months ago

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FSR Rambles 16

Dark spiraling into an episode is halted by a "Distraction" aka a flower.

Shadow being disturbed at Dark's response to eat it, just goofy shit.

Dark doing horrible to thinks he supposedly "Likes" is a trend with him. I discussed the "dark eating flowers" symbolism awhile back.

Dark just settles into being kinda forlorn again.

"I like Vio the most" pisses off Shadow. Obviously.

Dark's reasoning for liking vio is just "Everyone else does".

Which. Is just an implication he is feeling the vibes of everyone else and how they feel towards Vio. Thus. Dark likes Vio.

Lore about Dark Link's creation:

Vio's panicking was a caducous in a way to why Dark appeared in the form he did.

Dark Link wasn't entirely aware of his own presence at this time until Vio noticed him.

Dark continues to just point out Shadow's past wrongdoings lol.

I don't think many people noticed the shift in Dark's hair here to match Shadow's hair and not Vio's becoming a warmer shade of purple.

I ALSO don't think people noticed what Dark said here wasn't his own opinion. At least the 4th panel.

His immediate "hm?" as if he had no clue what the hell Shadow's reacting too made that more obvious.

Dark quickly gets mad at the notion he'd think something like that when that was smth he was just parroting from Shadow's internal thoughts.

Repeating what Dark actually thinks of Shadow and himself: He thinks Shadow Link is an outright monster and he himself a hero.

Dark being high key delusional about his standing in the world is just par for the course.

He keeps pissing shadow off and gets angry about that himself. Really in darks mind he isn't doing anything wrong so everyone else is just being unreasonable. 🫠

Shadow tries to deliver the same sentiment that Green gave him earlier to...different results.

Darks lovely thought process:

Family. Link had a father. His father was his family. Thus, if shadow is his family, Shadow is his dad.

He even elaborates that him having a father is a lot like link lol.

Shadow, is reasonably confused as hell at this response.

Shadow tries and fails to explain they're just friends not THAT kind of family. But Dark is stubborn and insists shadow is his dad now.

Repeating that shadow would drag his "son" to be an accomplice in lying to the others about being a part of Gannon.

Shadow tries to justify, and is worried about how dark even got this info to begin with.

Memory shinanigans.

Shadow cant deny cool powers when he sees em but darks lil internal monolog (a first with him having a thought bubble if I remember correctly) he expresses confusion at Shadow not being able to see into others memories too.

Dark just assumes everyone else can do what he can haha.

Shadow pushes for dark to do the right thing. But dishonesty isn't smth dark likes to do so, dude just roasts Shadow again for his lies.

His word choice of "I don't like lying" not that he DOESN'T lie is pretty accurate as to get shadow to accept him he lied XD he just didn't like doing it.

Well. Someone sleeps like a rock.

Dark just wants to kiss people lmfao. A weirdly sweet and creepy gesture from him towards vio.

Asking his dad if he can sleep, obviously that's just how that works hah.

Dark's wings haven't made an appearance in a long time lol.

Dark is now a key item. Lmfao. My way of putting off dark and vio talking rn hahahaha. Not yet...we're not there quite yet. 😈

Shadows inventory being call backs is just funny to me personally.

Obviously the triforce of power, the cups he used to drink with vio and his sword.

Shadow continues to admit he doesn't like dark what so ever lmfao.

Poor vio fell asleep while reading again lol.

... Someone's not talking...how suspicious.

Hahahahahaha. Not responding to your "name" is kinda odd.

WELL OKAY THEN.

Vio thinks he's Link lmfao. No wonder dude wasn't speaking.

Smth to consider...

If everyone is talking and speaking normally, but Link himself was silent.

Who was causing link to be mute?

A horrifying thought:

What DOES happen if a Four Sword user pulls the sword twice?

There's no true guarantee that it'd split them the exact same way as it did previously.

Especially after 7 years...

Who's to say this is "Vio" and not, a part of Link who thinks they're Vio? How would they KNOW for sure they are 1 to 1 with the Vio that was created all those years ago?

Even if the sword COULD do that...it's been 7 years. Link is a VERY DIFFRENT person since he first pulled the sword.

Whatever made up the previous four Links, could just NOT exist or be different now.

After all, they all LOOK different now. They don't even have the same face as Link.

How much is THIS Vio the Vio from back then?

Hey Vio's using his big boy words again.

Shadow references when Vio was talking about his home back in the flashback chapters.

So we FINALLY get an answer as to what freaked Blue and Green out back in page 108.

The presence of Mr. Demon king.

That was a LONG time for pay off lol had to do other stuff. XD

...Green. Your eyes are green. :)

Leave Vio alone Blue he's exhausted and his brain is working at 5% capacity atm.

Shadow and Green having a fun ol convo about how Green lowkey doesn't trust Vio right now hah.

He did catch Vio staring at the sword pedestal after Link ripped that thing out like a bayblade.

Shadow gets pissy about the implications.

"you trust me don't you green?" he asked in a very untrustworthy way.

I get it Green this dude spent your entire mission being an enemy and tried to kill Vio, trusting him is going to be difficult. Even if they spent 7 years together.

Shadow trying to urge Green away so he can talk to him in private. Perhaps share a smooch-

Anyway, I love this moment between Vio and Blue in the background of these pages. XDDD 💙💜

Blue willing to beat Shadow's ass at the drop of a hat lmfao.

Considering how Vio and Shadow's "Friendship" ended up last time...I'll let you decide if Blue's being over protective or not.

Blue points smth out that's been a visual thing for awhile: Vio's the most covered up one out of all of them.

He has gloves + arm guards, chainmail under his tunic, and is the only one with his sword visible at ALL TIMES.

Vio from a visual standpoint is always ready for a battle/on the defensive.

Huh. Okay. Vio's arm is scarred to hell. Wonder what that's about...

Blue's concern continues to be cute to me.

Haha it moves. It moves when you feel bad about it.

Vio's dismissive about it though.

Oh hey! It's our bestie Dark! Doing his job still hahaha.

The transition to real world to the headspace is one of my faves just because it's so quick.

Whipped his head around to see who was talking and bam. Dark Link.

Visual notes for the headspace: it's visually COLD here.

People didn't get Dark's cruel reference to it "being cold in the house' as him messing with Blue over the fact he was frozen. 😭

Unlike Vio, he doesn't get a real response out of Blue....So he baits again to no avail.

Dark's hair shifts to being blue, a clear sign he's mimicking someone directly and acts. well a lot LIKE Blue. Getting angry Blue is "Staring at" him, proclaiming Blue is "Boring" for not responding to him.

Dark's form starts to melt away as he promises they'll have fun "Later" whatever that means.

Vio: The master of tugging on people if he wants their attention.

Blue's helpful. Even if he's a dick about it.

HAHA WHAT DOES GREEN'S STOMACH LOOK LIKE AFTER VIO WHACKED HIM?

I'm not tellin'. Just alluding to it's existence.

Dark being cute as hell and for what.

Shadow deciding it's "Safe" to confide in Green about Dark is an interesting choice.

Hiding it would have meant issues and Green IS mr. Leader so. It makes sense.

Of course...Shadow ya don't need to shake Dark around and grip him so hard. Really makes you no different than vaati in that sense.

In the final panel you can see Dark's hair is just...Vio's hair. And he's in a very bad mood.

For whatever reason he doesn't want to come out even on Shadow's command.

Cut off time! Bleh.

#fsr rambles #four swords returns #four swords adventures #four swords manga #four swords returns au #four swords #loz fsr au #loz

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blindedguilt · 1 year ago

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Apparently the dialogue in Japanese during the "Leonard's lament/hunger" is a lot more explicit about his inclinations, would you know anything about this? I've heard that the fairy explicitly tells him to do the nasty to the fallen child soldiers but I've seen no confirmation of this

What WAS Changed from Leonard's Hunger to Leonard's Regret - Drakengard Analysis

//Hey anon! I assume you're talking about the game, right? Because I actually DID translate the full script from the World Inside 10th Anni box for the Leonard's Regret/Hunger chapter a while back (It was the only translated part of an unfinished project to do the WHOLE script that likely won't be finished), but that has in-game comparisons between the NTSC-J and NTSC versions as well! I'll link it here if you're interested. Note: This covers only the EVENTS in the game, and not actual in-game dialogue, as I haven't translated that. Sorry! For ease of access, I'll also provide a hopefully adequate summary below the cut detailing the differences between the original script (Later edited into what would be the NTSC-J version of the game), the Japanese version of the game, and the English localisation! Believe it or not, there was actually more cut content between the script and the Japanese version of the game than the Japanese and the English (Which certainly does have it's blunders, but nowhere near as steep.) And of course, if you have any other questions about this, feel free to reach out to my Discord at barnabism or just send another ask! :) Here's the info, strap in for a LONG post ahead:

So to start with the first scene in Leonard's Hunger, there's a couple points of interest right off the bat, actually!

Pointing Out Leonard's Survival

While it was toned down in the Japanese and toned down even further in English, when the Faerie points out the conscripts in the script it was actually an intended jab towards Leonard's absence "Hiding under the trees" which led to his unintentional survival!

(NTSC) "Hark you, hark! Look in the shadows of the trees. The ones hiding away are probably fine." "......" (NTSC-J) "Hey, hey, look carefully through the shadows of the trees. The ones who hide beneath them might be alive and well! Ahahaha!" "...Kgh!" (SCRIPT) "Hey, hey! Look carefully through the shadows of the trees. The one who does that might survive alive and well! Ahahaha!" "...Kgh!"

I wouldn't chalk this up to "censorship", however (At least not in the case of the English), it honestly kinda reads like a bad game of Telephone which is something you'll see a LOT with the English translation. Where the Japanese seemed deliberately toned down to give more "Insinuations" at best or just to outright write around it at worst, the English seems like its trying its best to pick up on that nuance without... Actually knowing where it's coming from? Without that base point of reference (The script), it seems like there was a lot of grappling around in the dark for those poor English localisers to do. :( *That said, there are some instances where things are explicitly written in Japanese but unable to be fluently translated, like Furiae's confession scene, or sometimes... They ARE just outright changed, like the infamous "You smell very nice" line from Ending D. The Drakengard fanbase DOES commonly assume that the latter is the case all-around, but there's a lot more to it than that! Moving on, here's an example of something that was VERY intentionally taken out from the NTSC-J release to the NTSC release.

"Something Else" - Deleted Snippets From Changed Lines

(NTSC) "Oh, it smells fishy. What will you do? Doesn’t it feel dangerous? Are you shaking? Over here! Here! Here!" (NTSC-J) "It smells fishy. What will you do? Can’t you sense it? Isn’t it dangerous? Hahah! Oh? Are you trembling because you’re scared? Or is it something else…? Ahahahahaha! Here! Here! Look here!" (SCRIPT) Faerie (Maliciously): "You can’t see them, but you can smell them, can’t you? Can’t you? That lively scent is your favouriiite~! Right? A large army of smooth, pallid, soft legs is here!"

So as you can see here, the bit from the Japanese - "Oh? Are you trembling because you're scared? Or is it something else...?" was taken out in the English release, but this original Japanese line that appears in the game is COMPLETELY different from what was written in the script!

And if that edited line in the NTSC-J edition of DOD wasn't clear enough as to what the Faerie was hinting at, here's something that's DEFINITELY more explicit. But unlike the English completely removing it over concerns to content, here it seems toned down as a result of differences in writing systems.

"Inexperience" - Pay Attention to the NTSC-J Line

(NTSC) "Right, right! Young soldiers right out of training, gutted like fish!" (NTSC-J) "Right right, ahaha! Still just sweet little things, lacking and inexperienced!" (SCRIPT) "Right, right, ahaha! Boys, boys, beautiful boys! How appetising~!"

Putting aside the Script's description of the young conscripts as "Beautiful" and "Appetising" (Hard, I know lmao), the edited NTSC-J version VERY cleverly used Katakana to it's advantage to make a point that... Honestly, if you ask me, is even more direct than the Script counterpart. Here's a look at what I'm talking about:

(NTSC-J Original) 「そっ、そっ、ウキャキャ! まだまだケツの青い甘チャンばかりだぜ! 」

I've bolded and coloured the Katakana referenced here with the whole article bolded itself, "Ketsu no Aoi", which as a whole can mean "Inexperienced" or "Lacking in x" (Skill, in this case). The interesting thing here is the use of Katakana on "ケツ" here, which, typically when written like that, is used to refer to someone's bottom. So it CAN be taken as "young and inexperienced" or quite literally, "Their ass is inexperienced" which... *Cough* Yeah. This, of course, is a VERY particular use of Katakana, so I honestly can't blame the English localisers just going "Fuck it" and making it their own.

Scrapped Ideas

An added note before we go onto the next scene, which I believe isn't EXACTLY what you're looking for but something I thought you or anyone else reading this would be interested in. There's also something interesting to mention about the "Garrison" that was brought up here ("If the garrison is here, then the prisoners should be, too."), and that's three things:

This WAS originally going to be a type of "Side-quest" where you go save your Union allies from the garrison and defeating the "Monsters" (I believe subhumans) guarding them, and THEN the conscripts begin to attack you in desperation. Unfortunately, it looks like this sidequest was scrapped, though I question what circumstances led to such a specific line pertaining to the quest still remaining.

At one point, it actually WAS thought that items could be used and included - Particularly "Crystals" and "Smokebombs", though looking back, I wonder if these "Crystals" mentioned here were later saved for the crystals you use to find your path in Drakengard 2....

Remember that one conscript that summoned a ghost at the end of the chapter? All conscripts were originally planned to do that. For better or for worse, it didn't go through.

Necrophilia Jokes

As the title suggests, when you mentioned the faerie explicitly goading him on to do it with the dying/dead conscripts, there actually IS something like that not in the NTSC and certainly not the NTSC-J games, but in the script! You'll find a pretty clear example in the very first line!

(NTSC) "Hey, hey! What’ll you do about the bodies? Stab them again?" (NTSC-J) "Hey, hey! What will you do with the bodies? Hahah! Is your torment growing?" (SCRIPT) "Hey, hey! Are you even lusting after corpses? Ahahah! Aren’t you pent up!"

Which of course is it's own can of worms, but shines MUCH more brightly paired with the Faerie's next line, after Leonard states his commitment to give the fallen conscripts a proper bruial:

(NTSC) "You have time for such luxuries? Well, do you? Do you? Do you?" (NTSC-J) "Hahahah! Is this the time for such a deliberate process? Hey, are you listening to me-? Hey, hey!" (SCRIPT) "Ahahaha! This isn’t the time to be toying with corpses. Hey, are you listening to me-? Hey, hey!"

Of course, the Faerie teasing Leonard about necrophilia can and WILL go even worse into the active goading of "Do it, buddy, I dare you" it will give later on, but I want to intercept that with something the Conscript here does in the scripts that really caught my attention - The Conscript, under the influence of Red-Eye, using the weakness of his inclinations to their own advantage.

The Conscripts "Manipulation"

I'm not gonna lie, when I first detail it really brought me back to this fucked up little fanfiction I saw on Pixiv where this conscript ends up seducing and subsequently disemboweling poor Leonard. As you might be able to tell by my mentioning, it's kinda stuck with me. Pixiv is a fascinating place.

(NTSC) "I’m afraid." (NTSC-J) "I’m… I’m afraid…" (SCRIPT) CONSCRIPT (Alluringly): I’m… I’m afraid…

Through the script, there are different dialogue tags to denote the tone in which that particular line is spoken. While this tidbit in itself isn't much, I figured it very worth mentioning just for its role in the general topic of "More controversial things that were snipped out of either the NTSC-J or NTSC versions of Leonard's Regret/Hunger", not to mention the implications it has on the wider nature of Red Eye Disease as a whole! Think about it - Taking into consideration that the script implies the Conscript "Knew" about his inclinations enough to use them to his advantage, Leonard mentioning that this conscript share's his brother's voice is a detail that definitely catches my attention now. I wonder if it was just tragic coincidence, Leonard being unable to judge correctly in his grief, or perhaps RED allowing the conscript to mimic his brothers? Which is an actually TERRIFYING thought, but hey, I absolutely adore it. There is a plethora of writing material and silly thoughts to have from that alone, which, as an RPer, is probably among the best things I can have. XD

The Faerie's Goading

Back to the faerie, there's a final detail in its teasing for this scene:

(NTSC) "Oh? Oh-oh-oh-oh? Feeling pity? For the enemy? Can’t start wavering now!" (NTSC-J) "Oh? Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh? Are you just happening to feel sympathy right now? For the enemy? Now’s no time to tremble. Hey!" (SCRIPT) "Oh? Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh? Are you getting ideas already? For the enemy? I wonder if you’ll go all the way? Just as I thought! Ahah!"

As is the recurring theme here, the script is MUCH more explicit than either, where the NTSC opts for snipping out a couple more details, which in this case is the line "Now's no time to tremble". There's nothing special I have to say about this outside of jesus fuck, of course so we'll wrap it up with the final event scene in Leonard's Regret/Hunger real quick!

Another Note

Just to add, Beholders and Gargoyles were among some of the enemies planned to be put into this level, along with... Treants! It's a popular bit of folklore across Germany, particularly in regard to the Black Forest (Though it came from France) that scared the crap out of me as a kid, so I was pleased to see them here and VERY upset they didn't make the final cut :(

The Final Scene - Leonard's Botched Confession

GOD, from the first time I saw this scene, I was so disappointed. All that tension, all those hints and build-up for Leonard to finally break and be asked "What's going on here? Why are you acting like this?" You'd think you'd get something better than "It's a secret." You just know that this was a scene that got rewritten last second, and it turns out that in the NTSC-J version, it's the same exact case - but in the script? We finally get to see what was intended to be put there (And my years long grudge against that scene was finally, kinda, put to rest.)

So, when Leonard falls to his knees and asks for forgiveness, and Angelus asks (Or perhaps Caim) asks "Why this wasted pity?", the faerie responds for him (Which, keep in mind, Leonard responds to this by immediately begging for Caim to kill him right then and there):

(NTSC) "He won’t say! He’ll never say the truth! It’s a SECRET!" (NTSC-J) "He won’t say! Haha! He’ll never talk about that. It’s! A! Secret! Heehee. Ahahahaha!" (SCRIPT) "He won't say! Haha! That boy was too cute for him to say. He wanted to hold him, among other such things. Heehee. Ahahahaha!"

To add to the bit "He wanted to hold him", the exact word used is "抱きたい", and while it DOES typically mean "To hold, to embrace" among other things in certain ~contexts~ (Like Furiae's confession scene, where the same word is used) it can also mean "To have sex with". The rest of the scene actually doesn't have next to anything changed outside of a tiny added "...You can't." when the Faerie addresses his wish for death that got trimmed from the script, though I will add for context an interesting thing in the same quote a detail added that wasn't originally in the script, similar to a couple other things we've seen so far, is a distinction that can only be seen in Japanese:

(NTSC) "Huh? What did you say? Helloo! You couldn’t die, could you? Just gave yourself a little nick. So sad. Didn’t you make a promise to live with me, big brother? I can’t survive alone anymore, you know. A pact. We made a pact. Don’t forget." (NTSC-J) "Haah-? What are you saying? Helloo? You couldn’t die then, could you? Just gave yourself a small little scar! …You can’t. Didn’t you make a promise to live with me, big brother? I can’t live alone by myself anymore, you know. The pact, the pact! Ahahaha! Take care to remember!" (SCRIPT) "Haah-? What are you saying? Helloo? You couldn’t die then, could you? Just gave yourself a small little scar! …You can’t. Didn’t you make a promise to live with me, big brother? I can’t live alone by myself anymore, you know. The pact, the pact! Ahahaha! Take care to remember!"

It's actually indistinguishable in either translation, so I'll highlight the Japanese text here:

(NTSC-J Original) 「はあ?　何言ってんのお?　もしもーし?　アナタ死ねなかったんですよねー?　ためらい傷バリバリ!　……やだなぁ。俺といっしょに生きてくれるって約束したじゃないですか、お兄さん。俺、もうひとりじゃ生きられない身体なんですよ。契約ね、契約。フヒャヒャヒャ。おねがいしマッス。」 (SCRIPT Original) 「はあ?　何言ってんのお?　もしもし?　アナタ死ねなかったんですよねー?　ためらいバリバリ!　……やだなぁ。俺といっしょに生きてくれるって約束したじゃないですか、お兄さん。俺、もうひとりじゃ生きられない身体なんですよ。契約ね、契約。フヒャヒャヒャ。おねがいしマッス。」

Again, it'll be hard to find a difference through all that, but you'll see the game actually added a term to the script's "ためらいバリバリ" - "A hesitant nick", with "ためらい" meaning hesitant and "バリバリ" standing for a small little cut or scar! Together it really is it's own term meaning "A shallow (hesitant) scar" The game, however, added a character - 傷 - which on the surface, doesn't seem to add much, as by itself the character quite literally just means "Wound". HOWEVER, put together with ためらい this creates a very specific term, ためらい傷 (Tameraikizu) which quick literally means "Hesitation wound", and stands as an exact term for the wounds left over when someone who attempts suicide fails and is left with lasting (Usually permanent) scars because of it. And recalling Leonard's failed attempt to slit his throat in his introductory scene... You know, I honestly wondered how permanent that scar was. Either way, I hope this post has the answers you're looking for! I really enjoyed writing it, and of course, if you have any questions, feel free to message me (Via asks, DMs, or Discord!) and I'll be happy to get back to you! Thanks so much for sending this in, just being able to talk about our boy is a treat, so again, I really enjoyed it~ :3> Again, thank you, and I hope you enjoy! :)

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pixies-and-poets · 1 year ago

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Wow, I haven't really followed the paper mario fandom, although I loved the games. But that sounds really bad. If it's not too personal, what sort of things happened? (if it is i totally understand if you'd rather not talk about it)

Wheeew! Let me tell you a sad story. At least what I experienced from my perspective.

So, I first got into the Paper Mario fandom not long before Super Paper Mario's release. This was back on deviantArt, mostly. I adored the first two games, and when I heard about SPM, I was skeptical at first. It was more like a platformer? Why was the art style so strange? ...But when it came out, it ended up being my favorite! I knew that as soon as I finished it.

Of course, not everyone felt that way, and there were already people who didn't like SPM because of how different it was, or the story didn't resonate with them. But to be honest, I didn't interact with those people very much. I was mostly friends with other SPM fans, and at the time, if they liked that game they probably had played and liked the first two as well, or at least one. It was a happy time as far as I was concerned. Most people, even if they didn't like SPM, seemed to think it was just going to be some kind of weird spinoff and they'd get back to the traditional gameplay soon enough.

....And then years later, Sticker Star came out and its complete blankness of story and personality hit us all like a speeding truck. This is when things fell apart pretty quickly. Pretty much EVERYONE in the existing PM fandom hated it, for good reason in my opinion. This is also where I became more sharply aware that certain people had a resentment towards SPM, since it was either seen as the "beginning of the end" as far as the gameplay starting to go off the rails, OR people outright blamed the story for being too out-there and emotionally charged which caused Nintendo to put the brakes on all that and go in the complete opposite direction (which was backed up by dev comments that came out around the time).

So from here on out I started to feel more and more like a weirdo for maintaining that SPM was my favorite, and a game that means a great deal to me personally. But after Sticker Star, the PM fandom just became an irreparably damaged and bitter place. Initially, the blame was put on Miyamoto because the understanding at first was that he had mandated the PM series 1) put less emphasis on story and 2) no longer be a typical RPG, really, since the Mario & Luigi series also existed to fill that niche. There were a lot of ageist comments made about Miyamoto in particular. Over time, as more info came out, the blame largely shifted to Kensuke Tanabe.

Things only got worse when Color Splash was announced and it looked like more of the same. People said the worst things about the devs, especially the people in charge, and looked for any reason to hate the new game and wish for it to fail. Even though Sticker Star and the soon-to-be-released Color Splash didn't have many defenders of their own, a lot of the larger Mario/Nintendo fanbase began to grow tired of old-school Paper Mario fans, as they... we... started to develop a bad reputation. And with good reason! Looking back, the complaints were understandable but the behavior was often unacceptable. And you know what? I got caught up in it too. I'm not gonna pretend I was above it all. Those were easily my worst days as a fan of anything. I didn't go out of my way to be vocal or mean about it in Nintendo's replies or anything, but whenever I did bring it up personally or on my own stream or discord or whatever, I was bitter. In the past few years I've sometimes come across old comments I made that I'd cringe at now. You might think of me as someone who is largely positive and tries to focus on spreading joy and dwelling on what I love, not what I hate. But the PM fandom at that time was bad for me. Between the Sticker Star and Color Splash days, I was definitely not the kind of person I try to be now.

When Color Splash came out, I didn't even play it for a couple years. But in that time, I largely stepped away from keeping up with the fandom, and I mellowed out a lot, and continued to grow into the person I strive to be today. And then when I finally did play Color Splash in 2018..... I liked it!!! The writing, the scenarios, the general creativity and even the gameplay are just SO FAR above Sticker Star and I think most people didn't even give it a chance, and because so few people own a Wii U, it might be forever doomed for people to just assume it's a slightly better Sticker Star unless Nintendo ever ports it.

And by the time Origami King came out, I was soooo done talking about the series and debating it. I had just totally burnt out. But I was at least tentatively looking forward to the game itself. And whlie I don't love every choice made for Origami King, I liked the experience as much as Color Splash, if not more. It's a nonstop interesting game with utterly fantastic graphics and music, and further steps back in the right direction as far as characters and lore go.

And that brings us to today. There are people, sometimes people that I myself have known for years, who NEVER stepped away, who never stopped acutely feeling the pain of the Sticker Star days, and wage a campaign of complaining to Nintendo to this very day. Meanwhile, Origami King (and to a smaller extent CS and even SS- what I'd call the Real Paper Trilogy) has a sizeable fanbase of its own, especially among younger players. Oldschool PM fans tend to see fans of the newer games as simpletons who have no taste, and fans of the new games often write off people who miss the old style of PM as boomers who can't accept change and are forever bitter and annoying. And then SPM fans just kinda feel like our own thing sometimes, the black sheep of the family. But as someone who likes (almost) all the PM games, I've had people be rude to me just for talking about any side of the issue. One time I was talking about how much I liked Profesor Toad from Origami King only to have some stranger, unprompted, reply to me about how ALL OF TOK'S CHARACTERS WERE SHIT AND THEY ALL SUCKED AND HAD NO PERSONALITY and I'm like no??!!?!? That's not true!!! That's not true AT ALL! I didn't stream TOK when it came out, I wouldn't fucking dare, because when I did play Color Splash for the first time it was on stream and I had to deal with at least one person coming in and being like "why are you playing a terrible game?" despite my repeated warnings that I didn't want to get into a debate on the game's merits. And on the other side of things, I've seen people come up with the most specious arguments to claim that TTYD is actually a Bad Game because it has some backtracking or whatever and that PM as a series was never actually good. There's just... so so many frustrating things I've encountered in the fandom that I'd have to double the size of this answer, which is already a novella, to enumerate them all.

But yeah. I kinda want nothing to do with it anymore. I'm just going to keep appreciating Flavio in my own time.

#alter answers #bramble ramble #I'm not about to tag this with PM because I don't want to get into arguments lol #THIS IS JUST MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE #look how afraid I am of anyone beefing with me

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dk-wren · 2 years ago

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Buddy Daddies Finale Theory

I can't say what I'm really basing these thoughts on. I also am not sure if this is an actual theory or just my hopes/musings. But here we go:

Kazuki, Rei, and Miri will all make it. Kazuki or Rei might get injured, but nobody in this sweet, little family is dying on me!

However, I do think there is going to be a loss and after the end of Ep. 8, my bet is on Kyutaro (though I hope I am wrong!)

For a variety of reasons, all of which are valid, Rei, and perhaps Kazuki too, are gonna go after Shigeki and Ogino. If not outright killing them (perhaps symbolizing that Rei and Kazuki have changed and are different from them), they will somehow be out of the picture, leaving Rei as the head of the Suwa family/organization

Rei and Kazuki will continue to stay in that world or business, possibly to try and change the practices of the Suwa organization or still feeling too tied to it. So, Rei will step up to become the head of the Suwa organization, except he's doing things a little differently from his father. Rei will be handling that during the day while Miri is at school. During the same time, Kazuki will somewhat retire from missions and instead take over Yadorigi from Kyutaro, maintaining the place as both a cafe and location to exchange/gather intel. (Just let this man cook and be appreciated for his food/drinks)

Like Rei said in Ep. 8, his home is the apartment where he, Kazuki, and Miri live. And that's gonna stay the same. Their apartment will continue to be their home. Nobody is going to move to the Suwa manor and that place will instead become like an office or workspace for Rei. While they may all somewhat spend their day apart from each other, this little family always comes together at night in the apartment for dinner and family time.

Not fully related to the above, but also just wanted to throw my two cents into the conversation about this: I don't think we've crossed over into the present yet (or, we're still in the flashback). I feel it would explicitly be said when the show jumps back to the present or there would be overlapping events that clearly allude to the merging of the two timelines. I haven't watched a whole lot of anime, so I do not know if this is a common story technique or not and if there is like a trope or narrative device used in these situations.

I do agree, given Rei's growth and development in the relationship he has with Miri, going back and rewatching that first scene, Rei's reaction seems a little out of character now (like he still does not really care about Miri). But, and I saw a post about this earlier (sorry I forgot your @), if it's not actually Miss Anna calling, and instead Kyutaro or someone else with the voice changer, this could explain Rei's response. If this call is being made to lure Kazuki and Rei into a trap, and Miri does not actually have a runny nose or fever (I kinda forgot the specifics), then Rei's seemingly unfazed or uncaring reaction could be him simply trying to appease Kazuki's overprotective papa dramatics. Rei's "I guess" could be he truly didn't notice anything wrong with Miri because nothing is, she's just being used as bait. Regardless of the how the organization gets its info on Kazuki and Miri, they will know how much she means to both of them and what they are willing to do for her. That is why calling them and saying Miri is not in outright trouble or danger, but simply needs the love and help of her papas will quickly draw them to wherever the organization wants them.

I could be completely wrong, but just some of my thoughts about how the rest of the season may play out. I think the wait for next week's episode is gonna be a lot harder for me than previous waits.

#buddy daddies #buddy daddies theory #buddy daddies potential spoilers?#kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #miri unasaka #too many incoherent thoughts #might write some more later #late night babblings #might delete later

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doodle17 · 2 years ago

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🧿🔮Welcome to the blog weary traveler🔮🧿

Howdy. The names Doodle17, but you can just call me Doodle.

I'm just a girl who enjoys Drawing, Gaming and a little bit of writing on the side. I also really like talking. A lot. So don't be shy to drop a little message in the ol' askbox. I don't bite, promise.

Been drawing for 9+ years and don't intend on stopping. I use the good stuff for drawing. Sketchbook, pencils etc etc. For digital you can see me use the fantastic Clip Studio Paint.

I love games. Video games, to be precise. And though I may post a lot of one fandom, I'm Multifandom. Meaning I post memes, art and other things for any fandom I like, when I like. I love talking about my current interests, but hey, if you find something I might be into, don't be afraid to tell me about. Like I said, I do love talking.

In case you haven't noticed, this blog is run by a half-wolf-girl and a small cartoony dog looking creature. These are my little characters that I use to represent me. They are both me, yes. Dont ask how, they just are.

Christian in Faith, and welcoming of everyone. But, I'm afraid if you outright harass or threaten Christians, or anyone of any faith for that matter, let's do us both a favor and don't bother me, okay?

I'm sorry, but Politics are a big No No here. This Blog is for Art, memes and goofy things. A serious post or two may come up, but I'm trying my best to avoid that kind of thing.

This blog will have a few icky things, like swearing and violence, some traumatic stuff here and there, and some suggestive content. But I can assure you, you will never see me get involved with any NSFW anytime soon. But if any of the above topics still bother you, then feel free to block tags, or just not interact with me at all. I understand.

In case you need anymore info, here's my card.... Oh wait, that's just a coupon for Chick-fil-A... Hrmmm... Oh well.

I also own a Side-blog based on the popular Bendy Franchise if you'd like to go check that out, if you're into that. @ask-the-devilish-darlings

I hope you enjoy your stay here. Just a more few things before you get started are, Reblogs are greatly appreciated. Not saying you have to but, it'd still be nice.

Hope to see you around soon.

-Doodle17💙💜🩵

#Updating my pinned post because I thought it needed some reworking #It's supposed to be mysterious and stuff #But I'm actually a huge nerd :P #Anyways #Hope you guys like the drawings I poured my blood sweat and tears into #I shouldn't have added so much detail to them but I did it cause I felt like it #Doodle88 #my blog #pinned post

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justaduckarts · 1 year ago

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Hey! Is there any particular part of any of your AUs that you haven't had the chance to talk about that you'd like to? Anything, anything at all. I like ur lore n' stuff and I like reading the little extra worldbuilding posts ye make.

Hello!

Actually, yes. There's SO MUCH stuff I wanted to expand upon.

Like the map for the parks in DLNS. I've always wanted to draw up a map for it with all the different attractions! (Tragically, I don't understand maps)

I had a hard time conveying this in DLNS but the park is BIG. Like. Universal Studios big. It's not small. And each section had sm going on, ugh. <3

And how the sense of touch works for animatronics! Here's a snip from something in my drafs:

"So, before I get into washing techniques, let's talk about something important. Your companion may have already clued you in to this," Orlando pushed his glasses up, "but they have a network of touch sensors on their body that allow them to feel. This 'Touch Network' works much like the nerves in the human body- they are constantly receiving and sending info to the core processor. The processor sorts that info and determines which stimuli to respond to. The sensors can detect heat, cold, texture. They can even simulate sensations, like being tickled or pain."

"Hold on," Daisy shot up, "pain?! Why would you do that?!" She looked horrified. There were solemn looks all around the room. Fang looked at Monty, wide-eyed. Gabriel patted Roxy's back knowingly. Freddy hung his head.

"Yes," Orlando nodded, choosing his words carefully, "the pain response is designed to help them recognize when someone's being too rough or aggressive. It also helps them identify damage to their bodies." Daisy looked at Chica, then threw her arms around the chicken with a little whine. Orlando cleared his throat.

...

"Oh! Report it to maintenance! Electrocution could be fatal," she said confidently, "um, before you continue... If they can feel pain, doesn't it hurt to open their panels up?" She twisted the fabric of her corduroy skirt.

"How about we let one of the animatronics explain? Any volunteers?" Orlando looked around. Freddy got to his feet.

"Put simply," he said, "pain is a sign of damage. An open panel isn't damaged, it's designed to move. It does feel strange and having hands or things inside the panel is uncomfortable, but it's not painful. Think of it like... Like opening your mouth for the dentist. It's not fun, but it's necessary. Does that make sense, Daisy?"

I think I've mentioned before but the amount of stuff I post is much smaller than the amount of stuff I write ^^'

I've also wanted to touch more on some of the wider world lore for SH. Like if the gods have human forms, can they have animal forms? (Yes) And I can't wait to get into more stuff about familiars and oogh there's a lot goin on there <3

That's another place I really wanna map out.

While I'm at it, I wanted to touch on one more thing.

In Below The Surface, you may have noticed that the Eclipse Octopus isn't named Eclipse outright. His name was chosen for a special reason.

Fun fact: Pallfish and Sunfish are the only fish to receive names from Elusia. The other fish don't have distinct names like this. Moonfish is definitely an oddity among the other fish.

Sometimes I wonder why that is. :)

Anyway. I think that's all the lore I can really parse out through the fog. Thanks so much for this ask, I hope you've enjoyed this random bunch of headcanons/lore/worldbuilding <3

#justaduckarts answers #star holder au #DLNS #sunfish au

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golbrocklovely · 2 years ago

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who is shea and why is do ppl hate when colby is around her.. are they like a thing or something?

i feel like i get this type of ask every couple months haha

i don't mind it, just find it a bit funny.

shea is a friend of colby's that's he had in his life since 2015/16. he's done a couple collabs with her on his personal channel way back in 2017, and then one in 2020 (i think).

they have been shipped in the fandom since day one, which is why a lot of ppl either assume or believe they have dated or are dating. this also depends on how new the fan is or not.

as for why ppl don't like her, it's a bit complicated.

i'll try to explain this is the quickest and simplest of ways.

basically since ~2018, she has constantly been very coy about their relationship, even tho colby has outright said they haven't dated or aren't dating. way back when, during a livestream that i saw, she was asked multiple times if her and him were dating and she would just say "guys, you know i can't tell you" or shit like that. instead of, you know, outright sayin him and her weren't dating which would be the truth.

constantly likes edits/pics shipping him and her together

is in group chats with fans telling them info about her and colby, but mostly colby

liked (and still does) edits that shit on the girls colby is friends with/is shipped with also

this caused her to get into some hot water bc she liked hate edits that shitted on amber scholl, then got called out for it, didn't apologize at first until it finally came to a head, only to then send an apology to her gcs who then posted her apology. but when fans called her out for THAT, that's when she finally publicly apologized, saying that "women need to support other women" and that she likes everything and that she didn't notice it was a hate edit and that she'll be more careful about it in the future (which she wasn't, she just didn't get called out for it)

told a gc of fans that colby and andrea russett back in 2019 weren't dating (bc ppl were shipping them two at the time) bc andrea was in a relationship with someone else, someone that andrea herself never even came forward with to her own fans until the relationship had ended. the only reason shea did this was bc it ruined the idea that shea kept telling fans: that her and colby were together.

there was a fan that was both popular and hated in the fandom back in 2019, i'll name her m. reason ppl didn't like her was bc colby gave her notices, and then on top of it her """"fans"""" wanted ppl to ship her and colby together. ss spread of m saying she was dating colby (idk if this was true or not bc i never saw it myself), and shea commented on one of the posts of m's ss. m messaged shea, shea left her on read. a couple days go by and m gets dms telling her that shea is talking shit to other fans about m. m messages shea again, gets left on read again. then m gets even more dms about shea talking shit about her. shea was telling fans that both her and colby don't like m and that they were going to "address the situation" in a video. m messages her again, left on read again, m reaches out one more time, and then shea blocks her. then on twitter, someone asks shea about this fan and the things she was apparently saying, and shea pretends to not know who this fan is and has "never heard of them".

liked comments last year, or the year before, saying that fans ruined her friendship with colby. and while this isn't problematic, it's fucking not true and also hella douchey to put the blame on young fans instead of your old asses.

random other shit ppl find sus about her:

she buys followers. like a fuck ton of them, on insta.

lied about her age/birthday (or that famousbdays got it wrong)

ppl got photos of her from her mom's facebook and then she tried to pretend that that facebook wasn't her mom's (even tho it definitely was) and say that fans were trying to start shit by doing this. idk this situation was a bit messy and i didn't really understand most of it.

her fan accounts always seem to pop up just in time for her to post something/something with colby (aka she's telling them when she's gonna post something with colby)

things that she alledgedly has done (but i haven't seen proof of):

her fans planned a coordinated attack on stas on here via sending hate to my askbox about her

has been called out by girls colby has been hooking up with (on a livestream a girl said that shea was colby's watchdog, a possible ex years ago said that colby needed to "keep his bitch on a lease", another girl said that shea just looms over colby and will be rude towards other friends of his that are girls)

she apparently told fans that years ago she rejected colby and that's why they weren't friends for a hot minute back in the day

multiple fans of hers constantly say they are secretly dating and usually these are the fans that are close to her

there is probably so much more i could say if i really went thru all of the asks i've gotten over the years, but this is mostly it.

now this isn't me also saying that colby has no part in this. he does. i think he knows to some extent the shit she has done but doesn't tell her to knock it off. not to mention he also likes edits shipping them or comments praising her. he plays into the game just as much as she does, the difference is she does it more often then him, and even that's not completely true.

#ask #personal #cb ll

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la-hannya · 2 years ago

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Seems like I was right, Takahashi didn't really want to kill off Kagura, she even cried..!

Also... I saw an interview from 2020 where she says the mother of the twins didn't change $esshoumaru, so the raisins took it as their ship being canon. First off eew! But she had said two females had changed him, R¡n, who was like a daughter and made him respect humans more, and Kagura, who gave him what he thought he didn't have, the ability to fall in love (demi King?). This interview is, if anything, implying SessKik as R¡n had already changed his view on humanity, and didn't introduce him to love like that for the first time like Kagura. That's how I interpret this at least.

But them celebrating that their "queen" didn't change anything within him... Just a cold-blooded r*pe on someone who didn't matter to him at all even though he saved her life and they travelled together... Just how messed up are they?! So I might be aromantic with no interest in romance, maybe even repulsed towards some. But this... Is outright depraved. If anyone of them are somehow married (because I doubt they'd date anyone not being a $esshoumaru daimakura due to lack of interest in anything else), do they get off by him looking coldly at them and not caring about them??

Sorry for the delays in answering. I didn't want to clutter the tag answering everything at once.

I think you meant Sesskagu there instead of Sesskik if I'm not wrong?? Please correct if I am. English isn't my only language sorry.

Honestly, killing off certain characters the way she did felt like a bad idea looking back after all these years. I could be wrong but it was clear she rushed the final arcs cause she stopped vibing with her work and just wanted an easy way out of the love drama Inuyasha had. Example how she just wrote off Koga. If it wasn't for the anime we would never see him again at the end really.

Anywho, my friend, so that 2020 interview was pretty vague to be honest and then in some bubble on the side it mentions "Rin: the girl who changed Sesshomaru" if I recall right, which still wasn't wife or woman tbh but then it got blown out of proportion. Though it could be she didn't want to spoil shit... Everytime Rumiko discusses Rin either she talks about her "as a kid" or plays the game of the "Rin is lava" seemingly trying to avoid the topic. Since the hogosha interview I haven't seen her discuss her again though. At least publicly. Everything else has been either from Sunrise staff's mouths or Shiina. It's become a sensitive topic for her ig.

Also after the fic with budget ended, she moved complete focus to promoting Urusei Yatsura (and the new anime looks like it was done with love and care unlike HnY).

So, when the fic manga finally ends she probably won't give an F about doing anything good about Inuyasha for many years or none at all. As any interview suggesting to her more sequels as been met with her giving passive aggressive answers like: "No, I don't think so. When a work is finished. It is finished no matter WHICH work it is"

Like she were talking specifically about Inuyasha. Guess she regrets her decision. Good.

And well about those sauceribs. I think they have a lot issues and via using Rib as a fleshsuit they just proyect all that shit to the point they're willing to die on that hill. Everytime, their bubble gets bursted by info from her or even Shiina himself—they try to find a way to go into cope. But it's not surprising since they act like a cult. Sometimes I think they don't even care about Sesshomaru. The basis of their whole ship is sex after all.

#anti rinsess #antisessrin #anti sessrin

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 7 months ago

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AITA for not telling my mom about my heart surgery?

I already know this is going to be a bit long winded so sorry in advance, there's just a lot that I feel is relevant here.

I (21 M) had a heart surgery about a month ago now. It was cardiac ablation, and for anyone wondering, it went just fine and I'm already fully recovered and walking around like normal. I had known about it for weeks prior and of course had been calling my dad and keeping him updated about all this. However, I hesitated to tell my mom, and ultimately never brought it up to her. I still haven't.

For a bit of backstory, my parents split when I was 16 because, to be blunt, my mother was being abusive in just about every avenue. She was mean and cruel and sometimes violent. I don't want to get into all the details because I don't think it's really necessary, but know it was bad. After she finally left I went no-contact with her, as did my dad and older sibling. This seemed to really upset her and she repeatedly tried to reach out to me, sent me expensive gifts, etc. After a while I made it clear to her that the only way I would ever even consider speaking to her again would be if she went to therapy and sorted her shit out, then gave me a real apology for her behavior, and even then she'd be lucky if I spoke to her afterwards.

And, being perfectly fair to her, she did it. She went to therapy, she did the work, and from what I've seen she has really put in the effort to change. She wants to keep me in her life and once I made it clear I wouldn't budge, she got her ass up and did it. She even gave me an apology I wasn't expecting, where she admitted that she only stayed with my father because she was afraid of being a single mother, and she took that resentment out on me and my sibling for most of our lives. Over time, I've maintained contact with her and we have a relationship now. Not sure how great it is, but we have one. She takes me out to lunch sometimes and I actually answer when she calls me.

Back to the topic of my heart, I've always had palpitations here and there, usually three times a week. I thought it was normal. Then after a pretty scary morning that landed me in the ER and lots of testing, the doctors decided surgery was the best option for me. I called my dad, like I said, but I just couldn't bring myself to tell my mother. And it wasn't out of fear or anxiety or not wanting to worry her. I just... didn't want to.

My dad said she had a right to know as my parent, if I was keeping contact with her. I spoke with my therapist about it, and while he didn't outright say I shouldn't tell her, it felt very much like he was leaning that direction. In the end, I never said anything to her, and she's still unaware it even happened.

It's been weighing on my conscience a bit. I had no reason to not tell her. There was nothing stopping me from being up front and honest with her. So I wonder, am I an asshole for not telling her?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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timegears-moved · 1 year ago

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totk rant anon back again with one (1) potentially positive piece of info: turns out the froggy set DOES work as advertised, you just have to upgrade it twice for the set bonus. or at least i haven't slipped while wearing the full set since i upgraded it. but anyway that's enough about totk for now.

good luck with getting through aoc! i personally find it a lot easier to excuse the questionable writing in that game than in totk because revali is in it and i am deeply biased. that said, the game is definitely more fun if you pay less attention to the main cutscenes and more attention to the little character details in sidequests & mid-battle dialogue (sadly, i don't think there are any comprehensive compilations of said dialogue, though i have been planning to make one for at least revali. one of these days.)

aoc also has the same problem that botw (and likely totk as well) had, where the english localization is just... off sometimes, which compounds the writing issues. for example, in That cutscene, where english revali is complaining about "this nobody", his original dialogue is him demanding "why is LINK the leader" in the most petulant tone ever, and it's way funnier in my opinion. (i also don't think he refers to link as "failed" at the end of the medoh battle either??) plus, for that one sidequest that claims revali called the flight range upgrades "adequate", as far as i could tell other languages outright state that he seemed pleased with the upgrades. it's not a huge difference, but it's a little less "wow it's so surprising revali was exhibiting basic decency" and a little more "he was acting like he didn't care but he clearly cared".

oh yeah and the "you're good, but i'm better" line was originally more along the lines of "impressive, but that's as far as you go". again, a subtle difference, but more appropriate for someone who believed he was in a life-or-death battle with a legitimate enemy at the time. i could go on, but between this and botw (do you know about his original dialogue when firing on ganon. because it's really something.) there's... a lot, so i'll leave it at this.

but yeah i think it's hilarious that regardless of timeline, revali is just constantly trying and failing to get link to pay attention to him. absolute loser. i love him

OH OKAY! i didn't really bother with upgrading more than once because i was disappointed with it still slipping but i'll keep that in mind for any future playthroughs!

"revali is in it and i'm extremely biased" why are you literally me wkhejsjksje. same tho i'm willing to look past the weird way aoc writes him just because i'm so happy to see him again. also omg if you do make a compilation for revali please send it my way!!! i need more content to feed on no matter how small sjhsjejjd.

AND YEAH like it's such an important distinction to make. i haven't seen the original text for the aoc cutscenes but from what you've said it really just sounds like revali's issue lies with not being the centre of attention (which definitely fits him a lot better), rather than being rude to link for the sake of being rude. honestly in japanese revali just seems to be a lot more immature and that's why he's so abrasive and cocky, at least to me that is.

in japanese revali does openly admire and respect link!! like there's no hesitancy to his praise like there is in english and it gives more weight to his dejection at link not reacting to his skills and seemingly not seeing him as equal. also yeas i just rewatched the firing at ganon scene OUGH the way he goes from calling himself the "key" in ganon's defeat to using that same phrasing for link after medoh is freed drives me insane. like he can finally admit that link is the better warrior!!! the english version making it about link's "luck" drives me insane but for a completely different reason because literally what the hell.

i just rewatched that one video going over all of the small but significant changes made between both versions and like. they really did just add a bunch of unnecessary insults in there huh. like there's a huge difference between revali questioning if link understands the importance of his gale in japanese to straight up insulting his intelligence in english.

but you're right. regardless of discrepancies between languages, revali will always be so gay it makes him look stupid.

#asks #ty for discussing revali with me i appreciate others who Get Him so much #anonymous

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viderchia-sucks-artblog · 2 years ago

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General Thoughts about Kris Deltarune

Hello!

I've been thinking about writing this for a while, and I really like a lot of those in depth Deltarune text posts analyzing theories, so I decided to take a crack at it.

That said, I'm not particularly good at it, so this isn't going to quite be a formal essay so much as it's me spit balling ideas at a wall and seeing what sticks. Interestingly enough, I haven't personally seen a big deep dive into Kris and resetting, but that may be because I haven't dug too deep on the theory crafting there. I dunno, maybe I'm just repeating what someone said already.

I'm not implying any of this is even accurate, nor do I actually care. There's probably going to be a lot of holes in this, and you can pick them apart all you want, and I'll probably cry uncontrollably like a sad little mouse, but that's for you to do. In the end this is all going to mean nothing (probably) or maybe I'll have uncovered some huge snippet of lore. The main reason this isn't a comprehensive thing is that I just don't have the skill to write a skillful essay on it. If you find it interesting, make connections about it on your own. Just don't fight each other over it in the comments pretty please. ALso please don;t be mean to me =(

Also, this is loosely inspired by @determinators and some ramblings they made about "Kris reset apathy" on their posts, and I'd like to give them credit because if I didn't see them talking about it, I likely would have never started thinking heavily about this. That being said, I assume they've made a theory on it, but I haven't actually... y'know... read it... so this is just my thoughts bumbling around my brain.

A FEW MAIN IDEAS I'M TALKING ABOUT IN ROUGH ORDER:

General information about Kris resetting

What role Kris serves in helping us through resetting

What role we serve in helping Kris

GENERAL INFORMATION ABOUT KRIS RESETTING

So, first of all, let me lay out some general info about Kris's resets.

It's implied, to some level, Kris has at some point had the ability to reset in the game. I'll get into this more in the next two parts, but I believe that both: 1. Kris has at some point lost this ability to reset, and 2. Kris has not reset to the point the other characters have (such as Flowey.) and is thus not completely apathetic.

So, how do we know Kris has had resetting abilities? Throughout the game, and also notably in the Spamton Sweepstakes, Kris performs actions very specifically. It seems like a lot of things they do are basically routine. While we don't see much of this in chapter one, we see further glimpses by the Sweepstakes event and chapter two. I think the classroom scene described in Sweepstakes is a notable example of this, but I'll get into that later.

From what we see in Deltarune, Kris is completely apathetic about 99.9% of things that happen in the game, barely being phased by a large number of shocking scenes on the main routes and even being desensitized to pain. However, Kris isn't completely desensitized. And a lot of it may just be hidden from the player (Although Kris is noted as being generally reserved, anyways.) Kris shows clear affection to their friends and is a notable jokester type. We can't say Kris is either almost completely apathetic to things, or if they just outright aren't, but the fact other scenes don't elicit a "Hey, are you ok?" scene like some (Notably Spamton Neo's fight) makes me feel like they do feel some level of apathy to things they've come to expect.

The fact they do show a lot of emotion, however, does show they likely have not reset to the point of murderous curiosity, like Flowey, or that the understanding of resetting hasn't turned them completely apathetic like sans. *NOTE: This may mean nothing, so I'm going to put it as a simple note and I'm not too keen on it myself, but the exterior of emotion with a hidden layer of extreme apathy is an interesting connection between the two characters. This links back later, so I'll discuss it more soon, but as far as we can tell Kris is somewhere on the tight rope of being heavily (but not completely) apathetic, but also having a heavy understanding of many aspects of the world and what to do.

The apathetic side of Kris can also be seen in the Spamton Sweepstakes. Kris is completely unphased by Susie's antics, no matter how intimidating, like they've come to expect this. The way they don't look up for a while, and what they say, could very well be something they've just known is a code to follow at this point. Also, to note, the "Gamer reaction speed" might not be reaction speed, simply an expectation. Y'know, routine. Look cool blocking this apple, catch it, eat it, done. They also check up on Noelle, despite having no way to know she's there, and just kind of closes the locker. They know she's there and lets her know for... Some reason.

I feel the second example would be more fitting to talk about later, so let's put a pin in it.

WHAT ROLE KRIS SERVES IN HELPING US THROUGH RESETTING

So, how does Kris help us through their ability to reset? As stated earlier, I think Kris lost the ability to reset, but has maintained the memories of the resets. Interestingly enough, however, I don't think they remember when WE reset in Deltarune. I believe the reason for this is the way that resetting works in UTDR. It's implied the reason Undertale starts and Flowey lost the ability to reset is Frisk falling into the underground, therefore filling the role of most determined and gaining the power of saving and resetting. However, I don't think that power belongs to Frisk. It belongs to us, as the player. There isn't much evidence on mind, but there are some loose threads. Kris obviously doesn't have the ability to reset during our time playing Deltarune. And if memory serves, I think Frisk doesn't show any signs of remembering a previous reset?? Sorry, I'm not digging heavy for references. This isn't supposed to be a heavily professional thing.

However, Kris's assistance to us comes in the form of the fact they clearly do have memories - and specifically foresight. The Spamton Sweepstakes shows we know Kris does things very specifically, and this is shown again in the chapter two ending. The steps Kris takes to open a dark fountain are, again, very specific.

They turn on the tv (Specifically to static? Maybe.), open the door, check on Susie (Aww!) and open the fountain. It's almost ritualistic in process, but it's definitely also practiced. This isn't to say that Kris hasn't opened other fountains, but here, in Sweepstakes, and commonly throughout the game, Kris very conveniently knows exactly what to do, even when it would seem they happen to be heavily underequipped to do so. When did someone, infamous for not being a good talker, get the ability to smooth talk a Head Hathy perfectly? How did they know to jump to save Susie from King's bullets after being defeated (Awww!). The implications of Kris knowing what to do in most situations to a T overlap too well with the implications resetting has in Undertale too strongly to ignore, at least to me.

But returning to the how Kris helps us with this, the way Kris knows what to do (AKA foresight) is subtly implied. Kris interprets dialogue choices in a favorable outcome (this is very directly a play on the idea that whatever choice you pick doesn't matter in games), and the way they so specifically perform actions to our benefit almost seems like them exercising their own control, specifically to help us. The way Kris literally rips control away from us is an example of this.

When Kris creates the dark fountain, they know exactly what to do. However, the fact they do this at ALL is completely out of left field. Why would Kris even feel the need to do this? An analogy I can think of to describe it is someone taking the controller and showing you how to beat a puzzle. Maybe the creation of the dark fountain is important to "continue the story", and they take the soul out to do it. Like "Man, I was stuck on this forever, here, let me take the controller, this part's BS."

I assumed the fake out for chapter one was to imply Kris, y'know, doing their stuff. Showering, laundry, eating a whole pie. The stuff. But while it could do that, Kris may have been setting up something important, too, that they would know from experience needed to be done (Not implying any Knight business involving the chapter two fountain. You can think that over on your own, and it isn't relevant to discuss anyways.)

While freedom is a contentious topic in Deltarune theory crafting, I think this implies that Kris does happen to have their own level of control, too. There's the obvious of them performing some actions out of our control and interpreting dialogue how they feel, but also that they understand what to do and how, then work with us to accomplish that. It's like a symbiotic relationship of control! A happy possession!

WHAT ROLE WE SERVE IN HELPING KRIS

A lot of people have noted that for one reason or another, we seem to have been brought on board to help Kris, for whatever reason we can help with something that they can't do. However, I'm a fucking lunatic and I'm going to ignore all those much sounder conclusions and go for something much more out there, particularly involving the Spamton Neo intro fight scene.

During the intro to the Spamton Neo fight (non-weird route, by the way), Kris seems to just... Sit there. They literally sit there, and basically accept getting killed by Spamton, before Susie comes in to save them. I've seen this interpreted as Kris feeling so betrayed, they don't can't even foster the will to get up and try to survive. However, I have a conclusion that's much stupider, and a lot of my stuff here hinges on it, so I don't expect it to hold up well against scrutiny.

I think the way Kris sits there isn't out of a feeling of betrayal, but they are... "Resetting". The reason I feel this is about how they don't get up after Susie saves them. Kris only gets up after they get the yellow soul.

*Note: Here's a hole in my theories, and I'm giving it away for free! Kris doesn't get up when the soul turns yellow, but instead when the fight begins, which may imply the fight starting is what made them get up, not the realization of the soul turning yellow.

The reason for this, I believe, is that Kris simply hasn't ever beat Spamton Neo. This is where we come in as a player, because through us, Kris gains the ability of the yellow soul. Kris wanted to "reset" to before confronting Spamton because they know fighting him is a lost cause. Without the yellow soul, they just couldn't evade his attacks (This is assuming you can't beat the fight without the yellow soul, but I doubt that was an actual consideration when designing the fight.)

The way Kris reacts after the Spamton fight is what leads me to believe they haven't beaten the fight, because Kris completely loses the apathetic demeanor. If Kris had beaten Spamton, then why would they react in such a way? Kris didn't have freak out when Jevil started talking about freedom, because while Kris understands the concept of freedom, that's simply par for the course. We know you can beat Jevil without any soul add-ons, or in Kris's case, external help.

Finally, this comes to where we can help (or "help") Kris.

Kris may have foresight and know what to do, but Kris hasn't explored every avenue available to them. They haven't lost it to apathy and may not have done a no mercy / weird route, but Kris isn't omnipotent, and they have hit brick walls. They've had closed doors that simply won't open, and we come in to open them. The reason Spamton Neo was so traumatic was because it was so wildly unexpected, they've never seen it. It's an interesting relationship, because while Kris clearly exercises their own level of control through said foresight, they've never had full control, and they have to confront that in these situations.

About those closed doors, though.

While Kris has had things they simply can't pass in the normal routes, implying Kris hasn't at least tried the weird route (the audacity of me to imply!!), we may also function to "open paths" for them there. If they decide to follow, in a "The ends justify the means" sort of way, or if the whole purpose is to unleash Kris of their strings, I'm not sure. That being said, it might just rip control further away from them. If Kris never went on a weird route, they literally have no idea what to do beyond what they already do on a normal route. Kris loses that foresight, and what little control they do have feel like band aid fixes. Not letting us see what goes on with Noelle at all seems a desperate attempt to remedy an awful situation (at least that's the feeling it gives to me.)

Now, that's all I can really think of as of now. So, to summarize:

SUMMARY

Kris uses the foresight they have from when they could reset to assist us to some capacity

Kris suffers from some level of apathy, likely due to the resets

We can infer from the reaction to the Spamton fight why we might need to assist Kris - to give them opportunities they couldn't have reached before.

This implies why Kris needs us, and maybe even why we needed Kris as a vessel - a sort of symbiotic relationship of control.

Through the weird route, we may finally liberate Kris and grant them a higher level of control; or completely remove them from it.

And that should be it! I might return to touch up on some ideas I didn't present well with new evidence. This isn't a comprehensive thing, and I didn't write it with that in mind. I don't have the skills to, and I never bothered writing down my ideas so I can't really do that even if I wanted to.

I might return at some point to do another theory (This actually ties into another idea I've had - how the fun gang as characters defy the typical three hero archetype) but I don't really know if I'll have the motivation or support to do that. It would be a heavily tamer theory, anyways.

Uhh... Closing remarks... Don't steal this and repost without credit, and don't follow for Deltarune stuff? (I don't post about it often, I'm focusing on Touhou a lot; and not theories either.)

Sorry if that felt a little harsh...

This wasn't a perfect translation of my thoughts, and I basically stitched together random ideas together best as I could without writing them down. If someone wants to take this make something more comprehensive about it, then I would be glad! Or maybe someone can point out that there's already been something about this.

Anyways, have a good day! Hope this was at least a good read, even if a completely incorrect one!

#Deltarune #UTDR #Kris Dreemur

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tspud-whiteboard · 1 year ago

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Update 2023-06-11

Alright, listen up! Entries have slowed down immensely, interest seems wavering, cities have started to crumble to dust and I'm not getting any younger, either. So I'm putting a demi-deadline, consider it a first warning shot if you were still considering to throw your artworks at me: The End Of June, 2023! It would be very nice if you could send me your Stanleys, Narrators, Timekeepers and Curators before then! If by the end of the month it turns out that, in fact, there ARE still a lot of new entries coming in, I might change it around and pretend I never said anything about the End of June, but for GOODNESS' SAKE, gimme. I've equipped the pinned post with the updated info and latest versions of the Whiteboards (now with 10% or so more Fancy, getting them ready for their final looks - also 100% less Rainbow Bucket Sticker, sorry about that. You can still find it in the Googly Drive Extras though, and the rainbow is in your MIND, you gotta believe.) And you know what? PLEASE tell your favorite TSP artists and best buds that they absolutely NEED to be part of this! Well, don't outright terrorize them or anything, but there's a good chance I haven't actually managed to reach them yet. I'm not overly well-versed in the more active corners of the TSP artist fandom, in all honesty. I'm just a little creature sitting in a computer. There, I said it. So.. yes. End of June! Save the date.

Wait. Deadline™??

#Status and Previews #The Stanley Parable #TSP #TSPUD

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hi! i'm moon/maya/maddox and this is my kin blog (my main is @new--moons). my kin identity is a little bit complex as i'm technically a fictive, but for all intents and purposes i'm kin with moon from wings of fire, and kind of clearsight in a weird confusing way i try not to think too hard about because it has absolutely fried my brain in the past. i also have a few warriors kins, and i may end up posting about that here occasionally, but for the foreseeable future it's a wings of fire kin blog. (you can read my full kin list here.)

i have two different timelines as moon, both of which are very canon-divergent. the important thing about both is that i was raised for the most part on the volcano. while on the volcano, because of my powers, i participated in a lot of things i'm not proud of, interrogations and torture and the like. it wasn't really my choice, and i didn't do everything that was asked of me, but i did do a lot of it. i feel that it's important to mention that here, both as context for my posts going forward and so anyone who might feel uncomfortable with nightwings because of what they did knows i'm not an exception just because my source character was. (there's a longer post sort of roughly outlining both timelines here, if you're curious.)

currently, i plan on mostly posting general thoughts and recollections and maybe a few jokes and memes here and there. i may post more personal memories in the future, but i'm a kind of private person by nature. that said, the point of this blog is partially to force myself to open up some, so i don't mind questions or anything, i just might not want to answer.

i'm not sure where else to put this, but: i write image descriptions any time i post pictures online to make them more accessible, and i'll try to make sure there's a description for any image i reblog. that said, any post with undescribed images will be tagged as "no id". please let me know if there's a better tag, by the way, i've been on and off tumblr for so long that i lose track.

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i do more or less consider myself a nightwing, and am comfortable being referred to as such on this blog. i am not comfortable being referred to with moon's full name under any circumstances. i am definitely not comfortable being referred to as clearsight without explicit permission. you can call me a fictive if it's relevant, but otherwise, i'd prefer to be referred to as kin. (more boundary info here, with a tl;dr if you need it.)

i'm not actively seeking sourcemates, but haven't ruled it out, and would be open to chatting with anyone who comes from a similar timeline, both out of curiosity and because frankly i owe a few dragons apologies for being, just, the hugest bitch. truly unparalleled.

i'm totally okay with doubles, but would prefer that you not joke too much about us being doubles unless i know you well. i don't feel the need to block anyone from interacting based on their kins, but i'd appreciate if any morrowseer keeps their distance- you can interact, just don't get too familiar.

i don't have a specific dni, but i will block people who i catch being bigots or assholes. this includes being racist, islamophobic, antisemitic, zionist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, and so on. i'll also block anyone i see promoting things like pedophilia or zoophilia, participating in harrassment or doxxing campaigns, or outright evangelizing.

i'll also block people who try to dictate who can and can't call themselves queer, plural, or kin without a very compelling reason (see above), but i'm not planning on scouring the blog of everyone who even likes one of my posts because i know i wouldn't be able to catch everything even if i did have the time or energy. (to be as clear as possible, this is an endogenic-safe blog.)

if you aren't kin, a fictive, or similar (it's up to you how you define that), it's okay to interact with my posts, but please be mindful of the fact that they're not really for you. for my part, i'll try to tag properly to avoid breaching containment, but this isn't a fan blog and i'd prefer you not treat it as such.

i don't plan on posting anything nsfw, and would say this is generally a 13+ blog in keeping with tumblr's terms of service, but i would also urge minors to use discretion when it comes to any blog they interact with, especially kin blogs. i was very young on the internet once and i did a lot of very stupid things, and i get it, but seriously why are you people trying to find canonmates at like 14-15 years old, i don't think you grasp the potential consequences of putting incredibly personal details about your canons on the internet. please take a moment to consider how this information can be used against you, especially if it's a part of your spiritual beliefs. be safe !

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i don't plan on posting about anything super sensitive in detail at all, but i'll likely mention torture, death, child abuse, and injury in my posts. i'll update this section if anything changes and add content warnings to the beginnings of any posts that will be under a readmore and add a tag to any that won't.

(note: i think it's important to talk about death, and as such i typically don't use euphemisms, aside from sometimes using "passed away" when it feels appropriate. this is non-negotiable.)

i also might post about drugs or while high because i use marijuana both recreationally and medically (it's complicated) and occasionally have weird kin breakthroughs while i'm high off my ass. i'll tag "drug mention" if you want to block out these posts.

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