#a little demotivating if u ask me

[hoonitizer]

[venuszn]

☆ : The Elevator

Summary / You and Bada are rival choreographers under the same company. Bada has always treated you differently and you didn’t know why. You convinced yourself that you hated her for it. But you’re both forced to face each other one evening when the company elevator breaks down and there’s no where to hide - from each other and ur feelings.

Cw / Enemies to lovers, Angst, Fluff

Authors note / So I wrote parts of this sober, tipsy and then hungover . . . And then wishing I was drunk lmao. It’s not my best piece of work I’ve been feeling a little demotivated but here u guys go <3

Wc / 2.3K words

“We appreciate that the two of you are this company's top performing choreographers. That is why we asked you both here today, as we would like to discuss the possibility of the both of you collaborating together to create a new, fresh, but distinct style that will suit our new girl groups debut.”

“I understand. But personally, I believe that my style is enough on its own and does not need additional input to achieve the vibe you are aiming for.”

Bada’s words smack you across the face and you feel your eye twitch. Your nails pick at the fabric of the chair beneath you as you force your anger down, swallowing the words of bile bubbling in your throat.

“No offence of course, to you.” She doesn’t even look at you as she says your name.

Your mouth stretches in a wry tightlipped smile. “Oh no, none taken. I actually feel the same. I’m confident enough in my own abilities. And I feel like collaborating with a dance style such as Bada’s might throw the vibe off entirely - which would be unfortunate. But of course no offence to you, Bada.” You say as you turn to face her, offering an empty smile.

Bada scoffs.

You’re both snapped out of it when you hear the aggressive clearing of the director's throat. “Well, I've heard what you both have to say. As much as I would have hoped for a little more professionalism, we do not have the time to waste trying to force you both to work together. So this is how it will be - the both of you will create your own separate choreographies and will perform them in 3 weeks time. We will be choosing one for the debut. Good luck to you both. You’re excused.”

You both bow and make your way out of the office and into the corridor. You walk ahead of Bada, irritation fuelling your steps as you enter the elevator. You turn to see Bada, a few steps behind you and out of pure pettiness you repeatedly press the button to close the elevator doors.

But to no avail as her long legs play to her advantage and she catches the doors just in time.

“You can’t keep doing that whenever you see me. You’ll break the elevator.”

“Then maybe take the stairs.”

Bada rolls her eyes.

Bada stands beside you, hands in her pockets as she looks ahead.

“My dance style might throw the vibe off entirely ?” She echoes your words from earlier with amusement.

“Yeah. What are you going to make those poor girls do ? Grab their crotches and start thrusting ?”

Bada scoffs and leans over you, a little too close for you liking, to press the button for the ground floor.

You feel her presence infiltrate your personal space like a bulldozer to a glass wall - because to Bada you were as transparent as can be and she could see right through you.

“Big talk coming from you.”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean ?”

“It means that I can see through this act you have going on and that I know you don’t hate me.”

You wish the elevator would surpass the ground floor and plummet into the fiery mouth of hell.

“Go to hell.” You hammer back.

“You didn't deny it.” You can almost hear Bada’s smirk.

You feel the rage rise within you - rage once tamed like the flame of a candle now igniting a stick of dynamite as you feel yourself losing your composure.

“I do hate you actually.”

You spin to face her, eyes locking with hers, the amusement evident within them as she raises a brow.

“I hate how you look down on me.”

You hold your ground, eyes bearing into her soul as you continue your barrage of words.

“I hate how you dismiss me. You have never once given me a chance. I don’t know what I did to you but one day you decided that I wasn’t worth your time or effort. You do not know me, Bada. But you have decided that you hate me.”

Bada’s eyes stare back into yours, void of amusement but replaced with another emotion unknown to you.

“I don't hate you, actually.”

The elevator comes to a stop as it arrives at its destination on the ground floor - regrettably not hell.

“I don’t care about you enough to hate you.”

Bada brushes past you and swiftly exits through the doors without sparing you a glance.

You stand frozen as you watch her leave. Her words bouncing around your ears in a dance of jest.

Only that it wasn't amusing.

In that moment you promised yourself that you did, in fact, hate Bada Lee. And that you would never take an elevator alone with her again.

How wrong you were.

Three weeks quickly passed by and it was the night before the deadline. Despite the fact that it was a Sunday evening, you found yourself back at the company building in hopes of quickly squeezing in one last practice before the morning - and what better place to do it than in the very room you would be dancing in.

You approach the elevator doors and you hear footsteps approaching behind you. You turn and scoff as you cant believe your luck, or lack thereof.

Bada walks towards you, cap donning her pink and black hair as she looks down to her phone, not yet noticing you. You deliberate for a moment whether to shut the doors on her now that she's not paying attention or to suck up your pride and let her take the damn elevator with you as it’s nighttime and you’re probably the only ones in the building.

The angel on your shoulder won and you folded your arms taking a step back to lean against the wall as you watched her approach.

As she gets closer, Bada lifts her head up and her eyes meet yours.

“Oh, fuck.”

“Are you stalking me now ?”

Bada scoffs in incredulity and steps in.

“I guess we both had the same idea.”

“Yeah, I guess.”

You press the button to go up and you both stand there . The sound of the elevator making its ascent fills the void of silence between you. You stand there in disbelief of your luck, wondering if tonight could get any worse.

It did.

The four metal walls begin to quake as a shrill cry of metal scraping together slices through the once silent air.

You feel your body jump in shock as you grip onto the railing. Your head snaps to look at Bada but her eyes are already focused on you - wide and alert as you see her arm almost instinctively stretching out for you.

Before you can register anything, your bodies are bounced around once more and the electricity crackles and hisses before it blacks out entirely.

The elevator comes to a halt and you are both swallowed in darkness.

Bada immediately calls your name, voice laced with concern.

“Bada ? I'm here. I’m sitting down”

“Are you alright ?” She makes her way over to you, following the sound of your trembling voice before she crouches down in front of you as you sit on the ground knees to your chest.

The emergency lights flicker on, your eyes adjust and you blink to see Bada Lee mere centimetres away from you as she looks at you with the most emotion you've ever seen her show outside of dancing.

Bada blinks back at you, eyes staring into yours as she manages to observe how shaken you are. A feeling squeezed at her heart and she internally scolds herself.

Bada quickly rises to her feet. Now able to vaguely see, she takes a couple steps towards the elevator buttons and wastes no time in ringing the alarm.

Silence follows the rings as you both hold your breath, waiting and praying for someone to pick up.

“It’s a Sunday night, there’s probably no on-”

You're cut off by the voice of a man on the other side. Bada lets out a breath of relief and she takes control, explaining to the person your dilemma and securing you both your release.

Bada then makes her way back over to you and you feel her sit besides you. The dim overhead light permitting you to see her but only vaguely.

“Are you alright ?” She says your name tenderly.

You feel your throat tighten and you swallow hard. “I’m fine. Just a little claustrophobic but I'll be alright.”

“The maintenance guy said a minimum of three hours.”

“Yeah . . .” You mutter into your knees as you hold your arms around them tighter. Insecurity crawling its way around your mind. “Sorry you're stuck on here with me. We don’t have to talk or anything.”

“Stop . . . Just, stop.” Bada removes her jacket and places it around you without another word.

You both sit in silence, besides each other. You don't know how long it has been but it feels like forever and you pray that the girl beside you is unaware of the pounding echoing in your chest and the chorus of thoughts overlapping each other within your mind. You curse at yourself for getting into this position; ‘what kind of sick game is the universe playing ?’, you ask yourself.

“You know, when I said I didn’t hate you I meant it.” Bada’s words pull you out of your thoughts.

“Like you also meant that you didn't care about me. Which I can understand, we’re not friends. We don’t really know each other.”

“What if I want to know you more ?”

“What ?’

Bada shuffles in her spot beside you and clears her throat. She begins by saying your name gently.

“I don’t actually hate you. Or not care about you.”

You freeze in your spot, eyes locked on the vague darkness in front.

Bada continues, eyes locked but on you.

“I know that you don’t hate me either. That made everything so much harder.”

“W-what do you mean ?”

“I mean that I needed you to hate me. I needed to act like an ass around you and push you away before we even got close.”

“But why wo-”

“Because I have feelings for you.”

You feel your heart skip multiple beats.

“Fuck. Ever since you walked through those company doors you caught my attention. The way you carried yourself, how hardworking you were and how insanely talented you were - it all blew me away.”

You slowly turned to face Bada.

“And of course, how beautiful you are. I knew that I couldn't have you. I have a rule I've always stuck to which is not mixing work with pleasure. Then I saw how you would look at me and I knew I was done for. So I started to do everything to avoid you and to push you away.”

“Oh how selfless of you.” You say dryly.

“You made me feel like shit, Bada. For how many months you made me think I did something wrong or that I hurt you. You’re such a fucking coward.” You sniffle as you bury your head into your knees.

“I know. I know and I won't deny that. But here now, with you, I’m ready to step up and to face my feelings towards you. I can’t ignore them any longer and I can’t ignore you any longer. There’s been so many times where I’ve wanted to hold you - to touch you. To laugh with you or comfort you. I want to do all of that and more. That’s if you'll accept me . . .”

Bada gently guides your cheek and you let her, turning your head to face her as she holds you tenderly under her fingertips.

You feel heat travel through you from her touches and you lick your lips in nervousness. Bada’s eyes immediately flicker down to meet the sight of them. Her eyes then meet with yours, the both of you allowing the gravity of your attraction to pull your faces closer together.

Lips mere breaths away from each other, your hands find their way to rest on her shoulders as Bada slightly tilts her head and your lashes flutter shut.

“Is this my answer ?” Bada whispers onto your lips.

You inch forwards intending to close the gap.

But the sound of the doors prying open interrupts snapping the both of you out the moment causing you to jump back away from each other.

The bright light of a torch shines through the doors and you turn to see that you are being freed.

You look over at Bada, face a little flushed. Bada clears her throat and rises before offering you her hand and helping you up.

You feel butterflies travel down your arm to your stomach.

You both thank the guy and quickly exit, making your way out of the company doors before you realise that your hand is still in hers.

You blush and attempt to let go but you feel Bada grip your hand firmer as she leads the both of you out into the darkness of the night.

“Come on. I’ll walk you to your car.”

You smile to yourself at her words and you find yourself lowering all of your defences for Bada Lee - the person you swore you hated.

Tag list / @princhii , @lil-elliesgf , @wiselight @nimixe ! If you’d like to be tagged for future Bada fics lmk !!

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bryce Hfj Nd Headcanons u Say... ? Share them Pretty Pleas? wuld Love 2 Hear ur Thoughts Bout that Guy..

i see him having anxiety, clinical depression, c-ptsd and autism

the depression part is kinda obvious as to why if you pay attention to his character but ill elaborate later

the anxiety part is actually technically canon, since he has thalassophobia, which is an anxiety disorder (plus the fact i dont think airy would just randomly add a fun fact to their extra sections - a phobia caused by an actual disorder differs from just an irrational fear so yeah (also caney has epilepsy listed in his extra sections which is a disorder)) i'd like to incorporate that along with the cptsd part since it causes anxiety obviously

as for autism its more of a headcanon for fun rather than with factual basis but ill elaborate on it also

my reasoning for him having c-ptsd is not because of the competition but his childhood, his mom's behavior was so bad that stella had to out of her way to keep bryce away from her

i say complex ptsd specifically because of how he asks if she's having "another one" so we can assume it happened consistently. he also didn't have any way to escape (aside from stella distracting him) considering it was domestic. i dont really think his mom abused him in some way ? but the consequences had to be destructive enough for stella to assume their own home was unsafe for a small child. we don't see much about bryce's relationship with his mom (or his parents in general) but that 100% carried on to his adult self - especially if it happened frequently, and it was super early too because i dont think he was any older than like 7 in that flashback

another factor for this is stella's death ofc, we know how much their relationship mattered to him and how losing her affected him so i dont think i need to overexplain it

as for the way its shown in the show: compared to everyone else, his startled response feels more severe for me, like he always goes on fight or flight mode rather than just freaking out a little. i want to point out one 10 specially

liam shows up at bryces door after 7 months and just stays there for an entire night, during all that time liam just rambles about one and his mere presence is a reminder of one for bryce. one was a traumatizing experience for everyone, but bryce processes it differently, being reminded of that just sents him into shock:

he can't think of how to react until 10 hours later. the way liam reacts at first suggest he thinks bryce is just being rude and purposefully ignoring him, he thinks bryce shouldn't avoid talking to him because he thinks he didn't go through the same amount of pain he [liam] did on the plane and he shouldn't act like he did; but he isn't aware of how anything that remotely reminds him of a bad experience can send him spiraling back to that place, he may not have stayed as long and not have suffered as much (or worse) as liam, but he's been living with this mindset for so long that it's just an automatic reaction. he can panic at anything:

(and i wanna point out how on the first one the shot focuses specifically on him)

and that may seem obvious like, yeah of course he would panic in one 10 of course he was trying to process seeing liam out of nowhere after almost a year but i only went on this tangent and brought that up bc i wanna link it to another thing ....

in one 13 bryce says how "his life was miserable before the competition" and "now that its over he has an incentive to do something with his life". kylie also says that after bryce came back she feels like "he's taking his job more seriously". what i wanna touch on is how the way they put it seems like bryce is trying to like find a purpose in his life, but not exactly find peace ? i don't know exactly how to put it. like he says he was pretty miserable and demotivated he had a stupid chungus life whatever. it feels like he was trying to get his life in order and get more done, rather than facing what was holding him back in the first place and try to make peace with that. he felt unproductive when that's not really the main cause of his misery. which brings me to..

his whole thing with the waiting room. he didn't have any panic reaction, but he was definitely clinging to the past, in this case his childhood and the moments he got to feel safe with stella

now i know the waiting room is designed to make you want to go to whatever's calling you no matter what, but metaphors exist ok . so im gonna consider it a metaphor for his cptsd in bryce's case

he spends the entire episode clinging to the manifestation of stella, but liam stops him from actually going w her because he wants them to solve the whole airy thing first. by the end of it, bryce stops seeing the suburbs as well as stella. when liam and bryce finally get to rest, he says:

he didn't realize that his tendency to ignore his suffering in the past doesn't prepare him for when it pops up again. it send him into terror, he can't help but go back to reliving it, this cycle just kept making him feel worse but he insisted in doing better instead of reconciling with himself

his childhood and one were two different traumatic experiences, but accepting he can't just live what he went through in that competition behind makes him realize he doesn't need to be scared of his past so often. he had to realize he can't just constantly try to repress what happened and move on without reflecting on the way what happened scarred him and continues to affect him; even if he supresses it, it will come back one point and make him go through all that all over again (which is another reason for me to think that people saying bryce dislikes liam is stupid but thats not the point !🙄)

as for his depression season 1 implies it a lot, specially with the flashback sequence in one 7 i can see him having executive dysfunction and it being one of the reasons as to why he tried changing so much after one he also has problems with sleep, and the irritability that comes with experiencing depression in general. also stella's death once again contributes to it

i see him being autistic mainly because he's this trope basically:

(sorry this image is the only way i could put it . you have to understand . ) kylie says how he's not very expressive, and we see how he really isn't. monotonicity is very characteristic of asd, in his case it feels specially like a symptom considering how, in most cases, people don't mean to be as monotone as they are. we know bryce isn't exactly the most chill person in the world he just has a hard time managing and expressing his emotions

bringing up executive dysfunction again, its also a common trait in asd

another thing is his hypersensitivity (which i already talked about a lot), overstimulation can lead to panic attacks you get what i mean. i think he fits as being sensory avoidant

the way he handles most social situations in the show (specially on the plane and with liam on season 2) i can see him being oblivious to social cues

not exactly factual basis just a little analysis, i interpret him being low empathy but high compassion. i think the low empathy would be more related to his irritability

[the-s1lly-corner]

THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS FLUFF ALPHABET

Deciding to do the fluff alphabet for TADC! Copying my list I did for the creepypasta alphabet with some tweaking/swapping out some of the letters for other prompts! More info under the cut regarding rules and the alphabet itself!

Same deal with wanting to do the entire circus + caine

You can request multiple characters, at the trade off that you can only choose less letters

1 character: any number of letters, yes including the whole alphabet

2 characters: 10 letters max

3 characters: 6 letters max

4 characters (max): 5 letters max

Obviously you can request multiple times! This is just per ask + I trust you guys wont go bananas

Same deal as normal requests, dont pressure me to do yours faster since its demotivating, I tend to usually do my requests in order of when they were sent

Now onto the list!

(A)bstract- how would they feel if you abstracted?

(B)onding- how they spend their time with you + general activities ?

(C)uddling- who's the big/little spoon? Do they like cuddling? How often do you guys cuddle?

(D)ates- ideal dates? What do you guys do in the circus, since its limited?

(E)motion- who's the more emotional one? How emotional are they in terms of the relationship?

(F)amily- if they ever escape the circus, and you two meet again, would they want a family with you?

(G)ift- how often do they give gifts? Do they themselves like receiving gifts?

(H)arsh- how often do you guys get into arguments? Who makes up first?

(I)n house adventure- do they pair up with you during Caines activities? How successful would you guys be at achieving the final goal?

(J)ealousy- are they a jealous partner? By how much, how do they get when they're jealous? How do they handle it?

(K)iss- where do they like to kiss/be kissed? Do they enjoy it?

(L)ove Laungage: how do they express their love to you/what makes them feel loved?

(M)ended- if you abstracted but somehow came back, how would they feel?

(N)O- dealbreakers? What could prevent or ruin a relationship with them?

(O)ddity- what is a quirk of theirs? Habit? The like?

EDIT I FORGOT P- PDA!

(Q)uiet time- how do you two spend moments of silence? Is it uncomfortable?

(R)oses- do they give you flowers? If so what kind? Do they like receiving flowers?

(S)HH- secrets! Do they keep secrets from you?

(T)unes- what is "your song" that you two share?

(U)pset- how do they get when they're/you're upset, what do they do about it?

(V)alentine- while it's hard to keep track of time in the circus, what would they do for you for the holiday?

(W)ant- what do they want in a relationship?

(X)oxo- small acts of love, what do they do?

(Y)earn- how do they cope with separation?

(Z)zz- sleep, if they can sleep in the circus, what would it be like to share a bed with them?

[systemsonas]

I don't mean it in a bad or anon hate way, but I think it's a bit disrespectful of you to let people waiting for so long. I was planning on requesting after requests open again, but I don't think I will. I'm really not trying to be mean, it's just that if it's a bit anxiety inducing for me waiting for requests to be open, I can only imagine what it must be like for people who are waiting months on end for their requests to be done :/

hey i understand where ur coming from and i apologize to u and everyone else who's been waiting but pls remember that we are a system with an irl life outside of this blog. i answered a similar ask like this here. its seriously demotivating to be pressured into getting these things done as it causes me to panic because it feels like im being given a time limit and it just makes things worse especially when we make these edits for fun.

i have a retail job thats already draining as it is and leaves us with little to no energy sometimes especially on busy days. we are also still recovering from the aftermath of an individual who has hurt us immensely the last few months. i also couldnt do some of the requests because it involves my tablet pen that had stopped working and i just now recently fixed it. there's just been a lot going on and we're sorry for the long wait to reopen requests but believe it or not, this blog was made for fun and as a side hobby. its not our job or priority. if you are not patient to give us the time to get things done on our own time, this is not the blog for you.

[sttoru]

i want to start writing things here but i dont know where and how to start it

do you have any advices?

you are so kind and talented!

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heeellooo!!! ^_^ thank u sm for ur compliments lovely xx means a LOTT! im gonna give u some advice based on my own personal experience on tumblr for the past 4 years (also had a previous writing acc with 4k+ a year or two back) :

start with setting up your writing blog! it’s important to let your future followers know what they’re getting into by following you and what your boundaries are. essentials to make: “blog rules page” — put your DNI (do not interact if…) section and BYF (before you follow) section in there | “request rules page” is also important if you want to take on requests from anons | “masterlist page” to put all your published work in one place | “about me page” if you want to tell people information about yourself.

for examples on how those pages can look, you can click on my profile & see how i did / set up my pages + take inspo!

it’s also partially important to have a easily navigable / aesthetically pleasing theme or layout. this will capture more attention of others. well, that’s speaking from my experience. something aesthetically pleasing to look at adds so much to the appeal !!!! i personally love it when writing blogs have a cool / cute / interesting theme bcs it catches my eye and makes me check out their works more.

after setting up your blog, you can start publishing a work of fiction. use the tags wisely and accordingly. jjk related fic example: ‘jjk x reader’ , ‘jjk smut’ (only if it is smut), ‘jjk fluff’ (only if its fluff), ‘gojo x reader’ etc etc etc ! you can follow what the writers you follow do with their posted fics. but make sure to tag properly. (p.s if you created a separate new acc, make sure that you give it a day or two bcs tumblr has to confirm that you aren’t a bot before your account is visible in tags)

keep in mind; gaining notes and followers can take days, weeks to months !!! please don’t get easily demotivated because your fic isn’t getting the notes you thought it would have. especiallyyyy at the start of your writing tumblr acc!!! i know how it feels, but i can reassure you that there will be people who will show up and appreciate your work one day!

interact with readers. interact with people who leave comments, show them that you appreciate the support they give you !! u can also make appreciation posts for ur readers and thank them for their support to let them know that it means a lot!!

interact with other writers!! reblog their fics, leave comments, pop up in their inbox with a small message — that’s how u mostly start making mutuals. mutuals will literally get u FARRRR on tumblr (ofc dont just use the other writers solely for the purpose to make ur fics get more notes . . . people easily get blocked by many if they do, they would by me too). but im sure many writers on here dont mind to spread your fics without you directly having to ask for it. if u just interact and make friends, that will follow automatically!

write what you want, when you want. getting ideas for fics can take some time, but when you do have an idea, write it down somewhere. you dont have to instantly write the entire fic — take ur time!!!!! don’t feel pressured to constantly post fics, i’m sure your audience understands that you have a life outside of tumblr.

but! posting constantly at the start of your tumblr acc can take u far as well. if u constantly appear in tags, ppl will get curious abt ur account. but don’t feel pressured to bcs it can easily burn u out !! just a little thing that i did at the start of my acc

[gadriezmannsgirl]

So im the anon who asked when you'll publish again cuz I missed it and I just wanna say sorry im so late but i jus saw ur post. BESTIE i dont even know where to begin. so first im gonna say i just read the new fermin fic and it was INCREDIBLE. SO CUTE. AND I LOVED IT. second, i want to give you my complete understanding. of course im not a writer but it takes very little empathy to understand why a lack of engagement would make you demotivated to write. im so sorry and im sure others here too that we dont give u the appreciation u deserve. for me personally, its the fact that im afraid to come off on anon and comment with my account, but i realize even i can give feedback through anon. whenever you are ready to come back, even sporadically, i will talk to u more here because u deserve to hear what we think of the fics u so cutely write for us to enjoy. let me just tell you for now that i have never found someone that does non smut in such a mature way. i cant even explain what i am thinking so bare with me i hope you get this. often i just want to read reality and what a real relationship with these boys are like. that's the stuff that makes me kick my feet and giggle fr. but you are one of the only ones that can do that in a way which is perfectly descriptive and realistic. your fic with Gavi for the fight after he waves a sandwich in your face??? BBG. i cant believe i never told u how much i loved that detail. of course it was a shit thing for his character to do but that is the kind of stuff that realistically happens in a relationship fight and leads to a silent treatment and argument -> discussion -> solution like in ur fic. i was reading it with my mouth covered like damn she got it JUST RIGHT. i legit read ur fics over and over they are so SO good and SO well crafted. i really feel like i am in these stories. and i know it wasn't your intent so please dont feel bad for your well deserved post to my anon note, but i feel so embarrassed that i never gave u the credit u deserve. please dont look at this anon and let it pressure u into writing again because that is nowhere near my intention. i just want to say take your time, relax and also GET READY. cz im gonna talk to u more and more like i should and all ur followers should. te queremos!!!!!!!!!!! i even learned some slang from ur culture clash fics

Hello dear anon! I hope you're doing great! :) First of all, I'm truly glad you liked the fermín fic and thank you for taking your time to write this lovely message, it means a lot💖

Thank you for also understanding my point of view, I don't really want to come off as rude or ungrateful, that's not my intention and it will never be. It's just really hard to come, write for hours, wanting to do something enjoyable for others and not get any feedback (I know it is not mandatory but it would be very nice for me and I can take constructive criticism to improve in new writings), but it's also something that it's going to the point where I reblog any ask game or tell you guys that I'm bored and wanna chat with any of you and only two or three asks pop up in my inbox (And I don't even know if those two-three asks are from the same person😭🤷🏻‍♀️) however when I post that my requests are open, I can assure you that my inbox can be 0 but once I come back +20 asks are in there and it makes me kinda feel like I'm just here to write. write. write. write and write😭

I also understand you, if I wasn't a writer here I would also go to my favorite writers inbox and tell them my thoughts as anon but like you said you're writing on anon, which means I don't know your account (or anyone who writes on anon) you could be also commenting on my post/reblogging/etc and I wouldn't even know it's you! Either way I respect that🙏🏻and I appreciate the fact you'll be on my inbox more often either if it's to rant about your day, talk about a fic or anything, even if I'm not as active with writing as I used to be, you can still sent me an ask and I will gladly answer you!🌻✨

I try my best to do the fics as realistic as possible, obviously I don't know the guys (sadly😭) but I try my best to imagine how they can be outside the pitch and insert that into a real life couple with ups and downs but gurrrllll you even made me go back and read the sandwich fic 😂lol. Anywho, I'm really glad you like my fics and go back to read them again when I'm away for a bit. Slang🇻🇪 is very chevere, hopefully I get to do once again Latina!reader😌 Once again thank you for your message and once more I don't want to be rude or ungrateful. 💜 yu guys too, hope you're having a great day/evening/night!

[tadpolesonalgae]

helloooo, i hope this isnt weird at all.

u really inspired me to start writing one of the wips ive had cooking in my head for 10,000 years with CBMTHY (i love your interpretations of all the characters across everything youve written, even dark! versions of everyone).

but how do you get the thoughts in your head onto the page :( its a little demotivating to not be as good of a writer as I'd like. so im terrified constantly that the story isn't coming off correctly. it certainly doesn't help that I've been stewing on this fanfic concept since i initially read acotar and tog, (crossover shit woo!) but the scenes are so vivid in my imagination that everything i can actually type out seems to fall flat or seems jumbled with the amount i try to include.

like, i posted a part last night after having it ready to go for months (there are several more im hiding 😭) and have reread it 3 times and have to remind myself its fine and i dont need to delete it. but idk if im just being crazy tbh. Im also very much the same type of person who needs feedback in order to continue with creative projects. however the idea of even asking about it here is intimidating, especially after your stories helped push this lil amateur to write. But any help would be so greatly appreciated, especially becsuse theres no one ik personally who enjoys the series who would be willing to chat about it 😅

again, i hope its not weird that im not sending anything in directly related to ur work and asking for advice 😅😅 but i hope you have a good rest of ur day/ night !!

haha, don't worry about it! I'm not sure I'm the best person to offer advice on this since I'm just kind of writing what I want to write though, but I'll try and help.

What you mentioned about struggling to get thoughts down on the page - I think an element of it is probably feeling comfortable enough to put them down there in the first place? That and also having the words to know what you mean? Read around, listen to music, chat with people if you can and see if you can find stuff you resonate with and then pay attention to what it is and try to figure out why. And it can take a while to find the right words, so let yourself breathe.

Suddenly jumping into a project you've been hyping up in your mind won't come out pristine immediately, it might be a case of writing paragraphs once, then writing them out again beneath that but trying to improve on what you've already written with a thesaurus in hand. It might also be a case of listening to music that simulates the emotions you want to write out and then trying to articulate them in the moment. Also writing without thinking can help. Or writing exactly how you're thinking, I guess? It doesn't always work though, so I'd sincerely suggest trying to write some smaller things to start with or have on the side to help practice.

In terms of trying to find people to give feedback, I think interacting with other writers can help. I'm not the best person for this since I like being away from my computer/phone as much as possible, but chatting to writers off anon, or if your writing blog isn't your main one then switching to your writing blog to leave a comment or reblog and leaving notes in the tags is a really great way to show other people you're interested in acotar/tog and writing. If the idea of coming off anon to interact with writers is (like I find it) absolutely terrifying, you can always keep anon on but sign off using a specific pseudonym or emoji that will be recognisable! That way you can get used to chatting without entirely compromising your anonymity and hopefully become comfortable. Asking other people what they do to help them get their thoughts down too can help since you'll be more likely to find someone similar.

I'd also recommend that if your story is long to try planning it out roughly as chapters or bulletpoints so you don't have to store it all in your brain. Have playlists on hand or boards on Pinterest to look over.

I think it's great that you've posted a chapter though - if you have a project you want to do well it's so easy to get caught up in wanting it to be a good as possible that you never actually get around to posting it, so I think what you've done is a great start. If you're unhappy with it after a few months or so you can always edit, nothing's written in stone.

And if you want to write in again please feel free to! I promise it doesn't have to be about my writing and I would think other writers would feel the same. If you want to turn off anon that's fine, and if you want to use an emoji as a sign off that's cool too, you can work your way up to chatting more openly about the stuff you enjoy :)

Also, if anyone else thinks they have some good tips for writing, getting thoughts down, keeping up interest/motivation with a project please add them!

And anon if you want to send in a link to the first part of your story feel free to, or if you want to chat with me directly I'd be interested to have a peek at what you're writing? I love acotar but tog still has a special place in my heart so I'd love to read more content around it too. I know how scary it can be sharing stuff you've worked hard on :)

[iceunhie]

admittedly very late but have some questions for the ask game !! it's ok if u don't answer them all

- Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

- What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

- What area of writing do you want to improve in?

- What’s your favorite fic you’ve posted?

- Who is your favorite character to write for?  Has this changed since you’ve started writing for that fandom?

- Have you noticed any patterns in your fics?  Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

- What are your favorite fics at the moment?

- Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

[ ask game here! come and drop a question, i don't bite :3 ]

- do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? how do you come up with titles?

my writing process is literally just an entire random wheel dictating the typing of my fingers on the screen, but fic titling often goes two ways.

usually, when i write a oneshot, i title the fic after the writing process. that way, the title feels authentic and doesn't really stray from the plot i established. i also do this because i get too focused on the plot to bother titling things 😞

for multi-character fiction/headcanons, i tend to pre-write the title after i've mapped out a general plot ☺️ i enjoy titling things prettily and formatting so it's not surprising that that is the direction i lean towards

- what area of writing do you feel strongest in?

HOOHHH boy this is a hard one..... not completely aware of it myself, but personally, i think writing character dialogue and exposition are my strong suits.

- what area of writing do you want to improve in?

description and overall writing tone. there's something in my writing that still feels lackluster (at least, to me), so i'm a little prone to being demotivated whenever that happens.

also, establishing common elements in my writing style! im very indecisive and a huge perfectionist that i often forget that writing is a journey, not a goal where i have to get the highest score in to feel happy 💦💦

- what’s your favorite fic you’ve posted?

ummmm okay okay so i KNOWWW i shouldn't be bragging but a personal fic favorite is definitely breathtaking (wanderer x reader) and heart to heart (aventurine x reader)

also, if any old readers know, my old wanderer fic that was about 10k words in length, which im currently rewriting 🤩

- who is your favorite character to write for? has this changed since you’ve started writing for that fandom?

this is going to sound so controversial. and basic as fuck but it's obviously scaramouche/wanderer! he's the entire reason why i established an account in the first place 🙏

fun fact: my baby blog days were almost consistently posting about him like i could not shut up lol

other faves include aventurine from star rail, jing yuan, jiyan and lyney!

- have you noticed any patterns in your fics? words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

i love making things turn heartwrenching and establishing characters to be absolutely in love and down bad for their respective readers. also, i notice that i tend to lean towards expressive readers more than usual and have a liking for adding mini character traits that make them more like a mini oc than a self insert....

- what are your favorite fics at the moment?

anything by @ddarker-dreams, @daosies and @sixosix! some other recs include

≈ translation (aventurine x reader) by @/yinyuedjun [ NOTE: CONTAINS NSFW CONTENT DESCRIPTIONS, MINORS DNI ]

≈ needles and pins (ratio x reader) by @/inarvii

≈ you're a pain in the neck (literally) by @/xiaowhore [ go check their other works because they're also god tier ]

≈ how to woo the acting grand sage 101 (al-haitham x reader) by @/baeshijima

≈ crushing on sunday and robin finding out (sunday x reader) by the GOAT @milksnake-tea

- do you have any writing advice you want to share?

keep practicing and practicing! also, write like no one will read it; this is advice that helped me so much because it allowed me to be authentic in my writing style. aside from that, try to incorporate styles you like from your favorite writers and slowly develop your own elements from said style to create your own! we're an amalgamation of the things we love and cherish, and your writing style is no different.

finally, write like you're in love with writing. yes its it's cringe as hell but writing quality advances by leaps and bounds when you love the trope and/or prompt that you're writing for.

as for improvement, always take it one step at a time. overall, writing is a very hefty process that sometimes makes you feel utterly tired and hopeless due to the many talented writers in active proliferation, but i assure you, your writing is wonderful. keep at it, and write, write, write. (ang corny Neto amputa sorry i just got sentimental for a second)

[woahjo]

hey i read about your advice to other anon about writing. really nice. i want to ask if you have any advice for a writer that's just starting? i want to start writing because the made up scenarios in my head i feel are just so good and would be perfect for certain tropes but when i realize i would actually have to WRITE write it (me everytime i get that realization 🤯) i get so demotivated because when i actually try to, my brain stutters within the first two sentences i put out because i am very much not confident in my english skills, i see so many other good writers and when reading their work i go like, 'wow i have never thought of it that way before', 'wow, how did they even think to phrase it like this?' and then i start doubting my knowledge in grammar/vocabulary because i think what if i really barely know anything if there are so many things i never thought of putting it in a way that they do, how can i start if i am not as skillful as they are with their words? i lose that spark everytime i have that thought and then i'm back to just daydreaming about these little fun scenarios in my head that i really want to put out but can't bring myself to have enough courage for to actually just go ahead and do it whether i mess it up or not

i thought of using grammarly and start paying for a subscription just for my writing to be improved better in a way i never thought to do lol 😅

(tldr: english is not my first language and i really want to start writing but i fear i lack a lot of knowledge in my vocabulary which will result in a bad story that won't make sense, how do i find confidence to just start regardless of?)

hi anon!! glad u enjoyed it LOL

the nice thing about writing is that no one just wakes up one day knowing how to write and craft beautiful stories!!! it's a skill built up with time and practice, but it starts with an idea and the desire to write it. everyone starts in a similar place and yeah!!! it's amazing reading something and thinking "wow i haven't thought of it that way before i wonder how they did that?'" experiencing that feeling is one of the great joys of writing and ofc it can be intimidating, but it can also be SO SO inspiring with a small change of perspective. besides, you never know if someone will read the work that you want to write and have the same thought.

as for the language barrier and vocabulary worries, vocabulary grows with practice even when you're speaking in your native language. the more you write, even if you don't post it, the more comfortable you'll become. that AND you can always look it up! if you're not sure about a word or want to use something stronger / with more variation, you can ALWAYS ALWAYS access an online thesaurus and find synonyms. i do it all the time, thesaurus.com is literally my holy grail.

the best advice i can give you for starting is to just start writing. i know that's super obvious, but the only way out is through!!! what helps me when i've hit a block or im feeling less than confident is reminding myself that i love writing, i love storytelling, i love fanfiction, and that when i write, i do it for myself. it sounds so corny, but if you center your driving force for writing as yourself, it becomes a lot easier to do it just because. my advice would be to imagine writing as a stream of consciousness at first rather than something fully developed. just try and let the words come out you without worrying if they're good or bad because you can always go back and change it later!!

i hope that you do start writing and that when you do, your anxieties surrounding it recede into the background!!! have a good day!!!

[pianostarinwonderland]

Hey! It’s octatrio representing the past, present and future anon, and also exceedingly long ask anon, and I just wanted to say that your brain is amazing???

Whenever I share a crumb, you take it and make something so great???? You’re analyzes are so good and they’re such a joy to read! It makes me wanna study the Octatrio more and more (not you + gacha luck being the reasons Jade is in my top five now).

Thank you so much for sharing with us!

[Past, present, and future ask here!]

GIRL STOPPP ALFJASLFLALFALFJAJ I THINK I GRINNED STUPIDLY THE FIRST TIEM I SAW THIS AND I STILL GRIN STUPIDLY UNTIL NOW

idk why i didn't reply to this right away, i think i was going to but then tumblr ate it and demotivated me :((( booooo

BUT. THANK YOU sobbu I am so happy that you love my posts. You don't know how much hearing that means to me ;u; getting compliments like those sometimes is the only thing that keeps me from leaving this blog and this fandom. Especially now that there's been some sort of wave of exodus of Twst fans once again due to the fandom's toxicity, I'm really really glad that people like you who do visit my blog and interact with me have all been really nice 😭 AND REALLY SMART TOO LIKE SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA HAND THIS BLOG TO YOU GUYS BECAUSE YOU ALL HAVE BIGGER BRAINS THAN ME......... honestly so blessed to have a great audience

sorry for the little ramble 😭 I just get really REALLY happy about these kinds of asks and try my best to really show how much I appreciate them huhuuu but really, I don't think I can truly show the depth of my appreciation and gratitude.

[gaolerdeathmetal]

IDK IF YOU READ ASKS BUT since i dont reblog stuff pretty much ever i thought id send one !!!!! that fanderg art is SO GOOD and id definitely comm u for shit like that absolutely !!!!!!!!! its just downright astounding i adore the look and i love lookin at em !!!! (particularly kaycee and mags but im biased since i always loved the way you draw kaycee anyway ..)

anyway just thought id let you know for reassurance !!!!! theres def ppl out there dont worry ur stuffs gorgy and id throw money at ya just for existing mwah peace and love friend

AWH THANK ill keep that in mind if i wanna open comm!! i love drawing for people but the polishing stage is an absolute drag and demotivates me, if people are ok with my drawings looking a little messy like those pics that would make me feel way better actually lol

[ifweweretogether]

It’s been 3 days since u gone and it feels like forever.

You remembered? 2 nights ago when I called at 3:45am and you didn’t pick up. I should have seen that coming but still I tried. You didn’t pick up. How could you, haha. You must be already asleep by then when I saw the last time you were online was 3:15am. I felt that all of me shattered into pieces. I needed to talk to you so badly.

When I woke up, the idea of reaching out to you was just haunted me. I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

I guess all I need was an assurance that you do care for me.

I know that you’re not good with expressing yourself, don’t worry I have all the time and patience.

I know that you’re not really into all the social media things, well, I can just pick up the phone and call you.

I know that you don’t know how to take the initiative, well, it’s good enough that one of us know :))

All I ask is for you to show that you like me, and you care.

Maybe it is too early to say that I love you cuz we’ve only met for 2 months and only hung out for one. Maybe I should have shown up more often and then we could have spent more time together.

I remembered after seeing you the first time I was taken aback. I guess I was so used to the closed knit of the group that I was a-bit stutter seeing you there. As one introverted do, I tried to stay close with my group of friends while trying to taking in all the little things.

I remembered telling my friends when I came home from the camping trip that I met a few people my age but they’re leaving soon. And, my friend did tell to go for it :))).

I remembered staying on the bed trying to talk myself out to go volunteer because I know that would be the only place I could see you. I failed that battle and only showed up 3 weeks later 😂.

Sometimes I could be a bit too shy in a crowded room so forgive me if I seemed cold. I remembered we only started talking when we thought everyone left and we turned out made Ole waited for 20m :)). Then, on ours way home, we decided to go out for salsa.

That Thursday, showed up on my first day having brace and you showed up knowing nothing about dancing. Not the best night but it was something.

And then, I saw you at the next Sunday, you came to me start talking about school and all the fun things you get to do. Tbh, every time I meet someone after a while, I needed a bit time to adjust. Oh ye, you didn’t know that the Saturday before I went out with my friends and then I did talk to them about I am having a thing for you but you were moving soon. And, I secretly love it when seeing you wearing swimming suit hâhhah. You looked so gooddddddd. That man is an 10/10. Oh, now thinking of it, that was not the first time I talked to my friend about you. I talked to others also when they tried to catching up with my life. I was straight forwardly telling on a subway ride that my type is Tarzan, manmaid 😂😂. Oh ye, we went to play billiards after that and we talked about our life and family until we both became too tired to stand. I saw you off at the buss station right in front of the place. This Sunday we were at the harbour 😂

The next Thursday we met was in the munch museum, we should come back there to see 3 versions of the screaming next time. I came right after tennis on a beautiful weather day. It was both sunny and rainy so I felt like a kid. We stayed for ice cream and talked about your dream. I think that was before I realised how dangerous is the profession and started to become paranoid over it. And sending you demotivated messages 😂

This Sunday was the Sunday I asked u to join me and other to billard then,

And then on Tuesday when I was with Rita you called to tell me that you decided to stay for a whole month. I knew that u fall for me then hahah.

Sunday at Sørenga and i arrived to see you were in the water already. We talked about the bbq and the pride parade. After that I joined u, will, Andrea, Livar for Sank-than. I tagged along with you guys to see you off.

Sunday again and we went to clean up I think this time was close by the opera house. I have no clue what we did after that now. Did we went for pool? Maybe we did at Buddha cuz I remembered you paid for it. We only when because we couldn’t do paint ball. That was the day we decided to go camping also.

Maybe the Tuesday after we went hiking at sognvann?? Not pretty sure about the timeline now but we went for a swim afterwards and the last was Ramen. Oh, they had something of Belgium beer there I think.

And Friday came, we camped at Lutvannet for 3 days. That was when we decided there would be nothing between us cuz you were moving soon. I remember that we hiked barefoot and I didn’t want pictures:))). We paddled around the lake also. We played games and we ended up not talking on our way home. And then I pissed at u and talked nonstop. I thought that it would be the last time I saw you :))). But no, I changed my mind after a day and I see you Tuesday for another hike 😂😂😂. Yep, that’s me :)). Typically me hahah. I was so happy texting my friends that I might have a long distance relationship soon loll. And then u said no afterwards. Oh ours stuff got stolen :)))

Tuesday, I was unready seeing in the store cuz I didn’t know what to think or what to say. And damn, I couldn’t control myself whenever you look at me with those eyes. So unfair that god gives you those blue eyes. This time was with Phương cuz I couldn’t do it alone with you.

Now thinking back, I was the one who didn’t let you show your emotions but I did it anyway:)))). We went camping on gaustadtoppen and we just talked about us, about you, about diving. And then, the next day we went sauna and it was the best moment. Oh ye, it was strange seeing you opened those eyes while I was half asleep. I was not ready for that. We snacking and singing all the trip :))), or at least I did.

Thursday again and we went swimming together. I ended up borrowing your short cuz I didn’t have my swimming suit with me.

Friday, we went oysters picking. It was fun doing it and it was good food also. We stayed til 3am to talk and we slept on a rock hahahahahha. I enjoyed it so so much. That night, when you hug me so tightly, I felt like I was everything to you. We could literally talk about everything. Next morning we went for a morning swim, having some breakfast and then went for a hike, boba, graveyard and fortress. We came home really late that day.

Sunday, you got sick and went home early.

Tuesday, we went for IMAX cinema

Thursday, we started our camping trip to sjoa. We didn’t really have time and space to be together.

Monday, I came to say goodbye and to get my gift but ended up having you staying the night with me.

Now, I kinda forgot the reason why I’m trying to recall everything. Maybe it’s a short time but we were with each other so much and it felt like I’ve known you for forever.

I feel appreciate having you in my life even though it’s just a short while. I guess that you will always have a space in my heart no matter what. I’ll try not to be sad anymore but trying to stay appreciate instead.

So you said you knew there was something when I saw me the first time that day. Since when it’s getting stronger and stronger?? Every time I feel like I just have to force things out of you. How long will I have these feelings?? I don’t know. All I know is you were the right person at that right time and I did not regret.

[the-s1lly-corner]

Fluff Alphabet!

Decided to cave in and do a fluff alphabet! I couldn't find one specific list that I liked in it's entirety so this is going to be an amalgamation of several as well as some (hopefully) unique prompts! Alphabet under the cut, but first, some basic rules and stuff so this doesn't get too too chaotic

Same basic rules that apply to my main posts will apply here; some characters are blacklisted (off3nderman and jul1us the dressmaker) as well as limiting characters that are originally minors in source (personal boundary, I don't feel comfortable writing romantic stuff for them, not that I will condemn others for it!!) and of course please don't rush or pressure me to finish your request- it can get demotivating :(

For a request with one character you can request up to 10 letters, with two-three characters you are limited to 5 letters! Anymore than that gets 3, just to help keep the post from getting too terribly long and cluttered. Max number of characters is 5

I'm not sure how long imma be doing this, probably for a while since I love alphabet stuff so!!

A- ATTRACTION (What they look for in a partner/find desirable, their type)

B- BONDING (What activities do they do with their partner?)

C- CUDDLING (How do they feel about it? Who's big/little spoon?)

D- DATES (What does a romantic night look like for them? Do you stay in or go out?)

E- EMOTION (How emotional are they in the relationship? Do they wear their heart on their sleeve or pick up a cool and collected mask?)

F- FAMILY (Do they want children? If so how many?)

G- GIFT GIVING (What gifts do they bring to their partner? What gifts do they like receiving?)

H- HARSH (How often do you two get into arguments or misunderstandings? Who tries to patch things up first?)

I- INJURY (How do they cope when their partner gets hurt? Are they able to care for their partner? Or if the roles were reversed, would they want their partner to take care of them?)

J- JEALOUSY (How jealous do they get? How do they handle it?)

K- KISSES (Their favorite place and way to kiss you, and their favorite place to be kissed)

L- LOVE LANGUAGE (How they show their love)

M- MARRIAGE (Do they wanna get married or are they content with a long term relationship? Marriage isn't the end all be all, after all)

N- NO (What are their deal breakers? What can and will break the relationship apart?)

O- ODDITY (What are their quirks or habits?)

P- PET NAMES (What do they call you? What do they like to be called?)

Q- QUESTION (Curiosity! What common questions do they ask you?)

R- RISK (How far are they willing to go for you?)

S- SHH (What/How many secrets do they hold?)

T- TUNES (Your song! What song do you guys associate with the relationship?)

U- UPSET (What is it like when one of you are upset? How do you cheer the other up?)

V- VALENTINE (How is the holiday spent?)

W- WARRIOR (How they feel about you working alongside them in their work/fighting)

X- X-RAY (How well can they read you?)

Y- YEARN (How do they cope with separation, if they struggle at all?)

Z- ZZZZ (What's it like to share a bed with them?)

Tags below in tags aren't really all the characters I do but a majority I can confidently write, if I can't do a character for whatever reason I'll let you know!

[reel-fear]

Genuinely, I reblog everything I like, if I liked smth it will eventually go into my queue to be reblogged. It is not that hard, if u can't reblog stuff from ur favorite artists bc they're not worth the effort... Maybe think about why you think you're entitled to art but they're not entitled to at least COMPLAIN about never getting their stuff shared. It hurts, I've been there, I've also had plenty of young artists send me dms or asks after I reblogged their art telling me thanks for the reblog or the tags I left. It makes a difference. When I was a young artist I literally screenshoted every reblog with tags I got.

Imagine being such a piece of shit you think it's not worth your time or anyone's time to take a few seconds to give someone that joy.

When I look at my old Transformers art, yeah I still like it but when I see maybe 4 or 5 reblogs on art I considered some of my best [most of them by me], it hurts. It was unsustainable, I just knew I couldn't keep going on the hope that if enough people liked it, it would be pushed up in the tags. It's human nature to like sharing what you create or your thoughts and having people enjoy it n tell you why. I can't think of a mindset more rotted by capitalism than thinking those people aren't even allowed to complain about how little people share their creations. If an artist putting reblogs > likes on a post bothers you that damn much...

Fucking make the art yourself asshole. Cause eventually those artist will get demotivated and stop posting, then you'll get what you wanted! Nobody will complain about how little traction their art gets when nobody is bothering to share their art anymore!

[itoshi-s]

Oh no, zari :-(((

whatever that ask/thirst was, i do hope that it didn’t demotivate you as a writer. I know that there are a lot of tropes out there that are inspired from other fictional works too, and it is reasonable enough that some fics might have similar settings/plot.

but do know that your writing is unique and i enjoy every single one of ur works, so don’t feel pressured and keep in mind that i will always be (and the rest of your readers) here supporting your fics 🥰

Also, hoping that readers would learn to respect writers by first of all, reading their blog’s rules! It’s sad to see them feeling down bc they felt used to generate free art huhuhuhu

nonnie hello !!! i’m so sorry i’m only replying now ! qwq but thank u sm for sending this in <3 i don’t feel like it demotivated me that much but it is definitely a bummer to see repetitive asks in my inbox, the very same ones that other writers have published. the main point of this blog is to make it a brain rot-safe space for y’all lol i want it to feel like we’re having a fun little sleepover!!! just vibing and thirsting over our favorite boys lol. there’s nothing i love more than 2 see u in my ask box sending me thoughts that i correlate w what i post !! so when i see an idea that i rly do love but then realizing it wasn’t really tailored just for me is a bit sad asfsfalh u get me ?? </3 idk if i’m phrasing it correctly ,, but yeah u_u

but yep !! yep that last sentence is so true lol that’s the best way to put it tbh. ty for ur kind words bbie,, i really appreciate it !! sobs you’re so sweet <3