#a cont. of the snow one bc i couldnt not do it

[dizzybizz]

arrived home

[wanderrlust0]

cont.

i ran out of character space so heres part 2. its off topic but i wish i had more asian friendsLOL im so serious. i kinda wish i could have other asian friends who could relate to me and share the same interests in me. some would even share the same interests as my bf just bc were both slightly weebs lolol but in a chill, not excessive way. i think thats why me and snow got along so well from the start without even meeting bc theyre my only friend who is also a nerd like that. were both foodies in our own way and were always down for asian food lol. theyre also my only “goth/emo” friend so we have the most similarities when it comes to our sense of style and like id honestly love to have like a cute goth/emo friend group. whenever i see my mutuals on ig who have those friends and they post pics im like..you guys look so cool together and im jealous lol and im jealous of the friend groups that take cute pics together fr. but yeah idk, id like to meet more asian people but how could that happen, its so specific lmao the only thing i could think of is that app but i cant just start using it without discussing it with my bf and thats what id be nervous about bc like wth i feel like its such a strange requestttt LOL and im scared of judgement so yeah. theres like a slight, slim chance hed let me. i feel like the only way hed really be down for that is if we could share the acc on our own phones. (i think im actually gonna see if thats possible). he at least wont be turned off about the opportunity of making potential friends! he barely has friends to hang out with and i feel bad that he doesnt have a true friend group to do stuff with. his best friend lives in florida (like mine), him and his close friend went separate ways in life, and his school friend is no more in the picture. so like everyone he genuinely hung out with is just unavailable & all thats left are like the little friends that arent life long, yknow. i would like for him to find people he can share the same interest with but even when he tried finding them online they didnt stick. so yeah thats been on my mind. another kinda off topic thing is how hes been bad with replying lately!!! like he’ll just fall asleep early without saying anything to meee. like I KNOW hes on his phone from the time hes eating and in bed ready to sleep. the least he could do is send me a msg!! itll be like 9pm and he disappears:( its the worst on days where im so busy at work so i barely talk to him but then once im finally out hes not always responding fast enough, so again, barely talking that day. he’ll go out to eat lately and not share what he eats with me or send msgs in general! ik it sounds extra i guess but like he can at least send me a pic of something! im always sending him pics when im out with other people and sharing with him what im experiencing and he lowkey sucks at doing that. ill literally ask him to show me pics of places hes at bc he doesnt lol idk maybe its bc i like taking pics in general. but anyways, hes been replying so slowly lately so its been bothering me and also the weed!! how he starts to go nonverbal and then knocks out early when we take edibles bc he takes an insane amount of mgs and so were just on two diff levels of high as the day goes byyy. when we were eating out that day i suddenly told him that i think he overdosed on the edibles lmaoo i couldnt keep it in any longer. he now takes 500mg of a punch bar!!!! he gets the 1000mg bar when he used to get the 250mg one. he would take 2-3 squares. then it was 3-4. hes done the whole 250 maybe multiple? times (ik at least once) now its always 500!!!! &if im being truly honesttt, i dont like it. i dont like how hes like out of commission early. i used to throw up so much from bad trips and turns out i was just taking too much lmao i would get bad motion sickness or id eat too soon/too much. so id be so out of it and i hated that feeling so much and he would be awake and fine. id eventually come back to reality & wouldnt feel sick anymore but now its like the opposite, except he doesnt wake back up!!!!!