#Zefir Wants Attention | OOC

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Some small update information under the cut

First off, I’m going to be changing my Alias here to Zefir. This will go into implementation relatively soon.

Second off, I’ve reorganized some of my OC muses on the muse list, as well as updating the bios I am working on

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I see a "desktop monitor dash game" and I have the need to contribute. Apologies for the lorge screensize. @strykingback​ my contribution.

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thedesolateplace -> imaginariaarbor

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I’ve thought long and hard about what’s been going on these last several months. Between a few friends having misunderstanding lobbed into their face, and others being run out. I’ve been lied to, I’ve been backstabbed. I’ve had several people in my life die on me as well. It’s been one continuous fuck you from the world.

First off, I want to politely thank anyone that’s put up with my bullshit, my spazzy nature, and my forgetful memory. You are all precious who interact with me, who give me time and who are there for me just as I wish I could be there for you.

Now then, I think it’s a good time to reflect on some things. I have been around tumblr- documented to the best of my ability since the beginning of 2013, my very first blog was deleted to remake to something else so I cannot give an exact date in 2012 when I started but my second ever roleplay blog I can remember began in Feb 2013 under the handle @female-allen-walker, who was purged and restarted only to fall off the face of the earth. A quick search of tags and posts relating to such can be found but please be warned they are when I was in school and therefore suck.

I lived in the D. Gray Man Fandom for a while, eventually coming to run some 76 blogs in said fandom. Now, sadly due to how many there were, I cannot and will not list all of them, in fact most I do not remember the specific URL. However, my first multi-muse was created in Dec 2013 as @ater-albus-pennae after I burned myself up with school, and I had been running the blogs consecutively on a day to day basis. From there I branched out, creating separate blogs for muses in the Bleach Fandom, such as @endlessandvoidless and @maboroshi-no-ken. I had an incident there because I strayed from the absolute canon at the time, got wound up tied to someone that ended up dumping me to the side like a sack of potatoes and leading to my outing of the fandom. It was during this time I was MIA from the RPC that I worked on my first icon blog @iconsofthemall, which within the last couple years was moved to @the-void-archives due to tumblr error.

I lived with panic and fear every day thinking I was going to be hunted down and prosecuted again by the people that had caused immense drama. The people I thought were good people and friends. Every time I saw a blog after that from that fandom I’d end up disappearing for days and weeks on end due to the sheer amount of panic I had. However I did try and recover those blogs, but ended up moving and creating a new multi-muse; @malicioussouls,  then @catacombofsouls which moved to @starlitdeus and now to the blogs I have now.

Now I’ve thought long and hard on this. I’ve tried keeping open doors, and I’ve tried being a mediator between groups, not wanting to take a side and not wanting to get involved due to the fear of things going south again. I want to continue to be in the RPC, I want to continue to icon manga and shows, I want to continue to be here.

So I’ve decided to look over my followers and my friends closely. This is my notice to all of you that have either journeyed with me or are new. Come with good intentions or don’t come at all.

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Back to the grind on muse bios on my google doc page

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So Psychi and Elysia have had an update to their name

Psychi Hirawa and Elysia Skotadi are they full official names and will be reflected in their tags going forwards.

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I’ve given them too much power, shit need to abort. Fuck—

SORRY GUYS I NEED TO INITIAT A TACTICAL RETREAT.

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There are many sets of eyes upon thee for the choice of that latest meme.

Sucks to be them- I gotta get my angst somehow.

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The “I want to do good cute things” has turned into “Let me flesh out this character’s trauma and angst from her childhood that has emotionally scarred her so bad she doesn’t understand positive emotions”

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So many ideas, so little time.

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First time in a couple weeks I’ve had coffee, I’m vibing. Maybe I’ll have motivation to actually do something here.

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When you live to protect people

Long enough to turn into the monster

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KAZUHAAAAAAA. HE CAME HOME ON MY FIRST PULL HELL YEAH.

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Me, making a google docs Muse Page and Abouts? More plausible then you think. Already got several muses done that don’t have stuff on the muse page here.

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Hey-o I’m alive. Though probably not gonna due much tonight since it’s 11:30 but- I am back! I took a small trip to Florida and have returned today! So yay.