#Yata is momentarily surprised and then he smiles and is like you idiot you could've just said so earlier

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How about something with post-reconciliation sarumi finally getting past the awkward phase and just returning to a comfortable friendship, when saruhiko (in an ooc moment where he isn’t as emotionally constipated) realizes that what he feels for misaki is definitely more than friendship. he panics and tries to push yata away again to try and put an end to this mess, but even though yata’s completely oblivious to the reason,he’s not about to make the same mistake again, so he just keeps (1/2)

I can definitely see this happening, like now that they've become friends again and Fushimi's trying to become a healthier person and all that he suddenly realizes that not only do his emotions exist but he's having an awful lot of emotions for Misaki and he assumes that this will totally ruin his rekindled friendship. Fushimi doesn't have the confidence to believe that Yata would ever actually love him back and he thinks that there's no way he could just keep this a secret, like somehow he's going to screw up and tell Yata how he feels and then Yata will reject him because why would anyone love someone as screwed up as Fushimi. Not knowing how to handle this at all Fushimi falls back on old habits, even with him trying to become better he's still got his old shitty coping mechanisms (or lack thereof) and he doesn't know any other way to handle his mixed up feelings other than trying to push Yata away. On some level he knows that really he's just making the same mistake again, breaking his friendship because he assumes it will be broken without even knowing for sure if that's the case, but now that he's accepted his feelings for Yata the idea of Yata leaving him or hating him is too painful, Fushimi would rather shatter everything a second time rather than have to deal with Yata leaving him behind.

Fushimi doesn't go for out and out betrayal this time – because there's nothing really to betray and even an idiot like Yata will figure out that something's wrong – but he tries to just like subtly push Yata away again. He starts canceling any plans they make together, always finding a reason why he can't go drinking or spend the night at Yata's place, avoiding Yata whenever Homra and Scepter 4 end up working together, and just generally trying to act as if his relationship with Yata doesn't exist anymore. Yata has no idea what's going on because they were doing better and here suddenly Fushimi's pulling away from him again, but he's also not going to make the same mistake again and this probably just makes him even more determined to get close to Fushimi and find out what's wrong.

So the more Fushimi tries to shove Yata away the more Yata keeps showing up to talk to him, like oh okay you don't have time to go out because of work that's fine I'll just stop by your work and bring you something to eat. Fushimi's best attempts at turning him away don't work at all, Yata just keeps appearing and talking to him and being all gentle, as if he's dealing with a skittish animal who could run away at any moment. And of course this makes things even worse for Fushimi because now he's falling for Misaki even more, every time Yata looks at him with those understanding eyes and smiles at him and tells Fushimi to take his time Fushimi just falls in love all over again (and maybe Yata even says it out right to him at some point, like I know you’re trying to avoid me but I don't know why and until you tell me I'm just gonna keep showing up okay and Fushimi has no idea how to respond to that because he can't bring himself to just blurt out his feelings even though his heart is pounding so fast right now with Yata right there beside him staring at him).