#Yall this song is so buss... you dont know

[running-with-kn1ves]

Satin Pillows To Cry On

CW: coercion with money, age gap(7 yrs), transactional marriage, obsessive/yandere behavior

gn! reader

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You’ve got nothing else, no one else to rely on. 

‘You’re something he bought to keep from growing old.” 

Your clothes are worth small countries. Your cars stacked in 3-level garages. Diamonds, emeralds, pearls hanging from your wrists and ears, satchels made of endangered animal skins, different shoes for each day of the year. 

Your boyfriend of three years spat at your feet when you told him what you were doing. 

“His money can’t love you, not like I can.”

The wedding was only two months away when you broke up with him, told him you couldn’t live in his broke-down apartment anymore, that you couldn’t live with debt trailing wherever you went. You went so far as to make him hate you, to tell him that you never wanted to see him again, that you never loved him, that he better not bother showing up to the wedding. You didn’t want him there, you never wanted to see him again. 

“You’re lying to me; he’s making you say these things, he’s using you against me! You’ve known him what-- two seconds, and you’re going to marry this man?! He’s nearly a decade older than you!” 

Seven years of an age gap or not, he was still a thousand times more independent, wealthy, and a safer choice than your boyfriend. You weren’t some fresh college student new to the world, you had graduated over two years ago, still finding no luck in getting a stable income-- forget about whether or not it was in the field of your degree. 

You left in a single day, fitting all of your scavanged belongings into one of your fiance’s awaiting cars. You left anything worth of value with your ex-boyfriend, knowing he’d find more use out of it than you would. You would even leave the rest of your things there if he could find use for them, but you knew they’d just be one more painful reminder of your betrayal. 

He did as you said, not showing up to your wedding, staying clear, never appearing in your line of sight since the day you left. It made it easier…. For both of you that way. 

And now you were happy-- well, maybe not happy, maybe not even content, but you were… safe. You had everything you needed: a working car, a stable job that you felt productive in, a clean and comforting house to come home to, a spouse. Sure, maybe you didn’t get your new job yourself, or your house or your car-- but did that really matter, in this economy? Who wouldn’t trade their life and their independence for this kind of wealth?

And your husband… he wasn’t all bad. He might have only wanted you for the sake of having you at first, like a new jewel or the latest technological invention. But he was doting and caring in his own way. Maybe just a tiny bit too invested in you, in your schedule and who you talked to. A little too hateful towards your ex-boyfriend, the one who had you before he could. But everyone had character flaws, and on good days you could distract him from his grumpy mood and stress and obsessive behaviors by being the loving and oh so perfect spouse you had trained yourself to be ever since he asked to marry you. 

“Colder than all that gold…” You repeated in your mind, the words your family whispered to each other at your wedding reception only a few feet away from you. 

That was over six months now, though… the honeymoon phase never existed, you rarely saw your husband except for his midnight appearances back from the office, and whenever he would whisk you away for a weekend vacation to savor the time he had with you. For someone more sophisticated, much wealthier, and dare you say handsomer than the average man-- you were surprised to find he didn’t have a line of divorces behind him. 

No; he said, he had been “waiting for you.” whether  you or he knew it, he understood right from the moment of meeting you that you were the one he’d have for the rest of his life, even if it killed him. That severity… scared you. But in a sick sense, it made you feel relieved. Forever? This could be yours, forever? Your family would never have to struggle again, you would never have to worry where your next meal came from?

“I cleared your schedule until tuesday; we’re going to the isles. A mini vacation, you might call it. Get your things.”

He was cold, that was for sure. But, was he any worse than your ex-boyfriend, especially when he was offering you an expensive experience on top of that?

“All right..” You acquiesced. 

And now, you lied sunken into the bed feeling his loving, hot breath on your navel. Going so sweetly slow, so oddly and uncharacteristingly lingering with his touches as he gazes into your eyes. You didn’t like this; didn’t like that when he was cherishing you, making love to you, holding you so intimately, he was appearing… like a husband should. Where did he get the nerve to ignore you everyday, to have hardly any time for you, only to come back and beg for your love when it was convenient for him? 

But you keep your mouth shut, like you should, if you want to keep eating breakfast in bed, keep wearing silk robes while watching the view of the ocean outside your window.

“So beautiful…you’re like a work of art, the kind no amount of money can buy.” 

That was funny, hilarious even. Enough so to make you cry. 

A familiar face passes by the slightly ajar door to distract you, likely one of the housekeepers leaving for the night. But you swear the man’s figure reminds you of someone from your past, someone you loved and left for good. 

Your husband brings back your attention by placing a gentle kiss to your temple, blindly undoing the clasp of the necklace he bought you.

“I’m so lucky… so lucky to have been the one to catch you, forever. No one could’ve done it, not without what I have.”

He wanted you to kiss and caress back, but sometimes lying still was just enough. It was enough for him to witness you, basking in the glow of everything you wore from him, lying in the Egyptian cotton sheets he paid extra for, your body molded to the diet his personal chefs cooked. 

Even as he pushed a knee between your legs, traveling from your navel to your stomach with open-mouthed sucks and kisses in the rawest form of affection, you couldn’t help but turn your face deep into the pillow. So soft, the soft purple shielding your eyes from his tender gaze.

You might’ve given up love, given up everything familiar and those who you’ve cared for-- but at least you had satin pillows to cry on, and the finest jewelry to wipe your tears with. 

[nylwnder]

GUYS IM BACK AND I FINISHED WATCHING ALL OR NOTHING WITH MY CUZ LAST NIGHT.

i’m def like not okay, but tbh when am i okay with these guys?? 😭😭😭

i was straight on vibing between 1-3, then in 4 i knew what was gonna happen and what the last episode would hold. in 5, like we legit had to stop to just mentally prepare!!! it broke me ngl.

just some stuff i wanted to say, random things i was thinking, etc :

THE FACT THE WILLY WAS HALF NAKED THE WHOLE FUCKISJH TIME

NO NO THE AMOUNT OF THIGHS I SAW OMF PLSSSSS. I WAS DEAD WHEEZING WITH MY COUSIN 💀💀

FELIX! PABLO! ZEUS! AND MUZZY’S DOG!!! ICONS!!!

UGH I LOVED RELIVING ALL THE SEXY GOALS

ALL THE INJURIES AND ALL THE BEHIND THE SCENE TREATMENTS WHETHER ITS IMMEDIATELY OR DAYS, WEEKS, GAMES LATER. LIKE I HOPE ALL THE INSENSITIVE ASS PPL KNOW THESE GUYS ARE HUMAN. PLS PLS PLS DONT HATE THEM FOR BEING SLOW OR SHIT. LIKE THEY ARE TIRED AND IN PAIN. THIS SHIT ISNT EASY.

SPEZZ!!!!!! THATS MY DAD <3<3<3<3<3 i was living every time he was on the screen

OMG YALL DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANTED TO CRY EVERY TIME FREDDIE WOULD COME ON. AND LIKE SEEING HIM IN HOODIES AND COMFY CLOTHES 🥺🥺🥺 NO BUT HES SO QUIET AND SOFT I JUS WANTED TO CUDDLE SIR

zachary martin hyman, why would you hurt me like this. why??????????? 💔💔💔💔💔

DID I SEE FOLGINO’S ASS????? serious question……. didn’t need it💀✋ (it was when he was getting treatment)

bogo crying about his grandma….. 😢

kyle dubas pls be my therapist. he’s just so calming.

WHERE IS MY KERFY CONTENT???? OR TJ????? BITCH I BARLEY GOT ANY

jt n aryne n jace n axton,,,, they’re so cute omg!!!!

nah i had to legit mentally prepare cause i knew jt’s accident was going to show. i just had to keep telling myself he’s alright now 😭😭 so everytime he smiled i was so happy

the stuff they were telling him tho, sobs omf that must have been horrible

I DEAD ASS LAUGHED WHEN THEY STARTED TO PLAY ‘BUSS IT’ CAUSE ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS MY JT FANCAM WITH THAY SONG (it’s on @tmlvibez on instagram!!!!!)

OMG WHEN WILLY AND SANDY AND ALEX WENT TO DRIVE THOSE CARS,,,, THAT WAS REAL SEXC I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO DO THAT WITH THEM 😩😩 it’s just the way willy holds the wheel idk bajssjaosiiakakdjk

SOME MORE THIGHS THIGHS THIGHS

the ��f bombs✨

but chief keefes yelling! i know i would prob do the same but if that man would yell at me i would cry.

THE SINGING!!!!! AND WHEN THEY PLAYED SINCE U BEEN GONE I LAUGHED 💀💀

i wanna be the hair stylist so i too can get all the secrets ✨✨✨

WHEN JT CAME BACK, JUMBO AND WILLY SLAPPING HIS ASS AND JT IS UNBOTHERED!!!! ICONIC. 😌✋

JACK BAWLING AT THE FUCKING END. I WAS DEAD ASS BROKEN. I NEVER WANT TO SEE THAT AGAIN OMG I HATE IT. I HÂTE IT. I HTAE IT.

AND THEN ALL THE OTHER BOYS SOBBING LIKE SHUT UP STOP

and SPEZZ!! SPEZZY, DAD, U DONT DESERVE THIS!!!!!!!!!

anyways, i loved this!!!! i just wanted to see all the inside of their world and i think it delivered cause we def have new insight!! but do would’ve loved some more hangouts of the boys!

10/10 duh!!!!!! 💙🤍 (acc maybe a 9/10 but, idk i love whatever they give me 😩)

[details-later]

I highkey hate taking a french class because now i get french songs stuck in my head. So like yall know when you get a song stuck in your head but you forget the name of it? yeah thats the worse part cause how the fuck am i going to explain a french song to my english/spanish speaking friends LIKE THESE BITCHES DONT EVEN KNOW WHO EDITH PIAF IS LIKE NOT EVEN THE MOST BASIC FRENCH ARTISTS

YALL EXPECT ME TO ASK MY SPANISH AND ENGLISH SPEAKING FRIENDS “YO DO YOU KNOW THIS SONG *starts bussing down the lyrics to fucking papaoutai by stormae* “ THEY DONT EVEN KNOW WHO STORMAE IS

[ixhor]

All of the TMI questions - Danny

1: What are you wearing?-jeans and my chorus polo2: Ever been in love?-yes and im very much in love still

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?-nah

4: How tall are you?-5′3

5: How much do you weigh?-like uhhh 186lbs i think 

6: Any tattoos do you want?-LOTS okay i want two full arm sleeves, some on my back, and after i get top surgery then ill get some on my chest

7: Any piercings that you want?-medusa piercing and a rook maybe

8: OTP?-me and olympia 

9: Favorite Show?-atm its probably bojack horseman, ive been binge watching it for a while

10: Favorite bands?-a day to remember and linkin park tbh

11: Something you miss?-this one house i used to live in that i loved so much, it was two stories and it had such a beautiful spiral staircase 

12: Favorite song?- a toast to the future kids by emarosa 

13: How old are you?-2 

14: Zodiac sign?-sagittarius sun!!

15: Hair Color?-dark brown

16: Favorite Quote?-like i said before, the iconic quote from olympia “do you think god leaves angels on read”

17: Favorite singer?-amy winehouse

18: Favorite color?-yellow!!!

19: Loud music or soft?-loud 

20: Where do you go when you’re sad?-my room ??

21: How long does it take you to shower?-like 30-40 mins

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?-10 mins

23: Ever been in a physical fight?-lots

24: Turn on?-here lets see uhh (multiple busses pass by) and those are all my turn ons thanks for listening to my ted talk

25: Turn off?-

26: The reason I joined Tumblr?-i have no fucking idea at this point

27: Fears?-large bodies of water and drowning 

28: Last thing that made you cry?-my anger

29: Last time you cried?-when my mom decided to be a fucking asshat to me and i got so angry at her i cried oof

30: Meaning behind your url-the url “ichor” was already taken so i substituted the ‘c’ for an x

31: Last book you read?-a solitary blue cos i havent read it in forever

32: Last song you listened to?-help by papa roach

33: Last show you watched?-freaks & geeks!!

34: Last person you talked to?-shay

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?-my friend

36: Favourite food?-yall already know its empanadas 

37: Place you want to visit?-greece!!

38: Last place you were?-uhh my kitchen

39: Do you have a crush?-ya

40: Last time you kissed someone?-recently

41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?-again, recently and he called me a cunt (IN A JOKING WAY THO)

42: What colour underwear are you wearing?-blue 

43: What color shirt are you wearing?-dark blue

44: What color bottoms are you wearing?-light blue

45: Wearing any bracelets?-dont wear em

46: Last sport you played?-its not a sport but i had to chase anthony around campus today cos he stole my fucking phone

47: Last song you sang?-some music for chorus

48: Last prank call you remember doing?-i dont remember

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?-couple weeks ago actually

50: Favourite movie?-idk 

[drenchen-gang]

This Gurjins song when it comes to the Skeksis lets argue 🤣 I know he wanna beat they ass

-Lyrics in case yall ain't finna listen to it so you can still see what I'm seein and yes I'm adding emojis cuz yall gon feel my EMOTIONS-

You muthafuckas pitiful I'm too sick of you

Ima walkin visual you boys refillable 🤣

Unforgivable once you cross me hoe 🤷🏿‍♂️

Now you a muthafuckin stain to Lil Cut Throat

Let the gun bang, nuts hang drug game ain't the same

Savage tatted on my face

Grade A 🚶🏿‍♂️

Blazin while we hotbox

Fucka badge fuck a cop even if the K hot

Watch me buss on any block 👌🏾

Norf side naughty

Scope on the shotty

Semi blow ya body

Tony grippin on the Tommy bitch 👊🏾

I bite the head off a bat like I'm ozzy

You gotta problem muthafucka come n try me

I'm nothin like whatchu punk boys wanna embody

Norf norf east side *59 tony grip the Tommy

Fuck around end up witcha body autopsy

I be that walkin zombie bath salts eatin bodies

3 choppas and a shotty shootin everybody

Cigarette wet bumpin Boosie Badazz

On them drugs jiggin jaws locked clenchin

Trigger finger itchin if you think I'm kiddin

Smoke leakin from the sticky that we smokin boy

Fucka backwoods swishers what I use boy

Smoke what I choose do what I wanna do 👌🏾

Muthafuck you and yo punk friends too

Ruby blunt lit lungs itch bitch I like the sting

Smokin potent thinkin I'm the chosen one bitch Ima KING 🙏🏾

I can hear my dead homies sing

Now my eyes always hurtin wipin tears with diamond rings yeah aye

Hol up fuckboy, who tf said we cool?

Man I quit smokin with hypebeasts back in 2002 😂✌🏾

What it do muthafucka? Ima fool

Ruby Da Cherry is ghoulin with goblins

If ya gotta problem then you better move

From tha womb to the tomb

Bustin out early bustin out soon

Blackout the city I'm back on them 30s

In bout 20mins we'll be on the moon

Drugs got me fucked up sluts got me drugged up fuck

Slap my face against a pill to crush it up

Government ID helps me get high

Seein stars in the mirror like I'm lookin wit a bright beam

Lime green paint but the rims lookin Spike Lee

Mighty sloppy might be cocky, am I in the right scene?

Highly unlikely n I'm willin to fuckin BET

Leave a pussy wet then I leave a pussy WET 😂

Ima fuckin vet ima muthafuckin threat

G59 the set G59'll make you sweat

I dont give a fuck is my fuckin epithet

Lace up my Nike Decades meet me at heavens gates

7th ward by the lake until my death

[baebladerbitch]

Rules: List 10 songs you are currently vibing to then tag 10 people

yay another thing thank you for the tag!!!! @werechasingmavericks

These honestly are straight from my last fm cause i cant remember shit i just know i listen to my vibes a lot yall

1. Kittie - Until The End

2. Gangsta Boo & La Chat - Buss it

3. Dry Kill Logic - Nightmare

4. Purity Ring - Crawlers out

5.  Melvins -Night Goat 

6. Paramore -  Rose Colored Boy 

7. Paramore -  Hard Times

8. Juicy J - Feeling like Obama

9. Mac Demarco - Salad Days

10. La Chat - Don’t Like Me

lol  trying to tag people i haven’t before so no one gets too annoyed (sorry if you dont want to do this lol ignore me! ) @whileyoureinschoolidothisallday @yue-rose-fiction-trash @bestrongbebrave49 @fox-rants

I have no idea who was tagged or not so I’m sorry if you’ve already been tagged.