#YOU SONT UNDERSTAND THEY MAKE ME GO INSANE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I -

[friendlynaborhooddisapointment]

gonna share a batlantern comic i drew on my stream, as a treat here u go

[daddyjackfrost]

im trying to fish for my tobio hcs but the tag is so DRY its agonizing ☹️

IT IS SO DRY. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? but you came to the right place, babe. i got you 😩😌

kags definitely paints his nails. it started when he was young. his sister always knew she wanted to go into beauty, and she only had ten fingers, so she would paint tobio’s nails. perfecting her strokes and designs on her little brother, as tobio was just happy he could be useful and spend time with his sister. much older, tobio doesn’t paint all his nails, but he always has one nail painted. when he told you the story of his nails, you decided that you would match his nails too.

kags can play the piano. hear me out. kags feels so much. he didn’t know how to control his emotions, much less his frustrations, and therefore he couldn’t express his emotions. after a year or two of your relationship, you introduced tobio to music therapy. at first he was hesitant, but after he learned a few songs, he realized he really liked it. kags learned many songs on the piano, and even began composing some of his own music on the side. now, when he’s stressed or frustrated, he lightly taps the keys to the sont he composed of you on his thighs. kags can play the piano, and he plays it for you.

kags remembers everything. everyone who knew kags in high school knew that he wasn’t the brightest academically, especially in english, due to his memory. you knew this as well, which is why you were insanely surprised when tobio remembered your favourite chocolate brand, and went out of his way to get it for you at an away game. one night, you asked tobio about his memory and his usual lack of understanding, but when he answered with “but it’s you”, you walked away with a blush on your face.

kags believes in materialistic things. as someone who wasn’t told that he was loved (or appreciated) when he was younger, kags began to value materialistic objects for affection. after his high school graduation, hinata got kags and him matching pinky rings, knowing that tobio would know that the rings were hinata’s way or telling him that he loved him. with you, kags wants to spend every last cent on you. he tells you he loves you, but he wants you to know, he wants you to know that he adores you, and he knows no other way then to shower you in gifts of every kind.

kags loves cuddles & kisses. before you, kags didn’t think that he would like affection of any kind, but when you first hugged him, tobio realized that he was touch-deprived, and he actually did like affection. he loved it. at home, you’re not allowed to not be touching the man. he wants you in his arms at every corner, and he wants to lay in your arms at every moment. and kisses. tobio loves kisses. all kinds of kisses. he loves kissing your lips and your cheeks and your forehead and your neck and your hands. tobio loves you, and he loves affection. pls drown this man in affection.

kags is childish. he didn’t get to be a kid when he was younger, and his whole life has been a clouded by frustration and expectations. after high school, tobio learns how to better communicate and he realizes that it’s okay, he’s okay. when tobio is comfortable, he becomes childish. he loves pulling pranks and doing things he never got to do. his attention can be caught by bubbles or bright colours, and he loves the aquarium and amusement. kags just wants to experience things he never got to do, how could you not indulge him?

kags is loved by the elderly. kags doesn’t know why. if anything, the elderly should hate him. he’s curt and arrogant and not pleasant to be around. except, he is. with the elderly, tobio becomes this soft, hesitant boy. he finds everything they say extremely interesting, and he loves being able to make them smile, especially since they resemble his grandfather. you love watching tobio with the elderly, because it’s the most beautiful sight to behold. to see a tall short-tempered man turn into this soft and adorable man. all the elderly love tobio, because they see him. they see this man with an overly big heart who doesn’t know how to handle it, and they adore him.

[leviathanlazarus]

Hi... I'm sorry for all the stirring-up I've caused. I don't mean to cause anyone stress, particularly me or you! I guess I was tryong to say that I don't expect anything from them, either, because I don't see that as part of their job. Maybe I have odd ideas about what celebrities do and sont need to do. I don't care about social media, if they did post about issues I wouldn't say I'd discard it but... I'd discard it. Idk what's going on with them, what they're thinking or feeling 1/2

I think they're trying to live their lives how they always did, they may wven be regretting becoming so big who knows! I know I would if this was the whole haze I was surrounded in. Idk, I'm kimda losing my train of thought... basically I'm sorry to bring this up in the fandom I wasn't trying to make it a *thing*, I'm not mad at you or anyone else, and everyone has very valid points, we just interpret what their job is differently I think” 2/2

I’m on desktop right now, sorry.

I’m gonna say right up front that GVF is not that big. Even just as a small reference, they have not even made it to 770K followers on instagram (I wonder why?) and that number hasn’t really moved in a long time. Do I think they’re one of the best bands in the world right now? Yeah. Do all of us in the fandom? Probably. That doesn’t mean they are actually big yet, though, and they won’t be if they do not change their current style.

Bands in the 60s, 70s, 80s did not have social media and they still made it big, yes. How? A lot of that comes down to engaging with people and the public in other ways. Surprise! PR. TV, radio shows, magazines, etc. Each time GVF has been in a magazine I’ve had to hear about it from someone in the fandom, not the band themselves. I don’t understand why management isn’t even letting people know something of that nature. But they don’t let us know about interviews either. The last one with Sam & Danny wasn’t posted about on the band’s page. Their parents are giving more to us than they are. 

Speaking of the band’s page...I really don’t care if the boys as individuals post content. It would be wonderful to see that and I will be forever replaying Danny’s golf swing instagram story in my mind, but my larger concern is the band’s page. There has been nothing. That’s not a good thing. I’ve always appreciated how they aren’t all about social media, actually, but posting literally nothing for months is not a positive thing in this day and age. Sorry y’all, we live in a world run by social media. If the boys want to have a more fulfilling career that involves more outreach, more fans, more music, more money, they are going to have to get with the times a little bit.

I can live without content for my own personal benefit. That’s not my utmost concern at the end of the day. But I want to see GVF thrive and I want to be able to experience them at their brightest for years to come. The way they’re doing things now goes beyond personal feelings--at this point, they are a business, and their business is being run poorly. They have a whole team of people at their disposal to help with social media at the very least. It seems like they either need better people behind them or, as I’ve said, they need to learn to advocate for themselves. 

I am not here to ruffle anyone’s feathers, ever, but I am also never willing to not speak my mind. I love this band so fucking much, it’s actually insane, and I will be devastated if they fail so soon into their career. Also, you know I love you, Lulu, so please never think otherwise! 

[bagilgulhaze]

God sometimes I feel like a dnd character with 20 charisma and 0 int and that's how I'll get by in life. I'm third year law school and I'm completely failing like all and every exam, dont attend single class etc, hadn't been functioning through the end of last year really. And yet I just..... meet people that are relevant and they keep getting so charmed by me they give me phone numbers with connections. It's insane.

I already had a chat with a lawyer I met late at night in a cafe as I was studying for exam who works closely with the committee against torture, my ideal internship place that rarely have any intern spots at all. He was so impressed by me, my legal understanding and opinions, that hes been fighting for me to intern there personally vouching for me making all connections for me from one conversaction.

Now I was sitting in cafe to study, and people walk in with cameras clearly following a man and a woman who are conversing. I hear they're discussing law cases, but I mind my business continue writing my assignment and let the camera people know: I can easily move if you need me to be out of frame! They assure me not to worry etc they're fine as long as they dont bother me I say not at all. After few minutes they change their mind, apologize and say can we please ask for you to move. I say of course, and casually ask what they're filming. They point at the people and say those two lovely people our prosecutors/attorneys and they've agreed for them to film them sitting for dinner after work. I say oh, I'm a law student haha. The man looks at me and say really? You should consider us, or something along those lines...... I make a comment about how ideologically would not work in the public sector especially not for the prosecution (obvious anarchist + prison abolitionist + no.1 hater of the criminal "justice" jstem and the legal system in general reasons lol no need to explain ) and this developed into a 20 minute conversation with me because they enjoyed talking to me so much, all filmed ?! And at the end they gave me their number they were like, you wouldn't want to intern with us, but we'd still like you to see us closer, and there is someone you should meet because she is lovely - it's an organization of ( accompanying? Escorting? Like the legal term) Victims which is something I'm super into..... so I mat have a job lol.... and maybe even internship idk....... what's on the table. They told me they hope I speak in class because I'll be making it more interesting and enriching to everyone for sure bc I speak so well (lol I truly can in hebrew when I want to when I'm in the zone sounds fake right but I can be EXTREMLY coherenentnt5) and I said like I dont speak in class much (DIDNT WANNA SAY I NEVER ATTEND CLASS LOLLLL) the conversation was mainly about change from within/from outside like they're prosecutors but you could see they're good people I'm glad if anyones doing that job in our fucked up system jts people like then despite not agreeing . Like you see they fare about their job and have some sort of nuance etc so like . It really was interesting talking to them and they were extremely understanding and respectful to my opinions which were a polite way of saying your work is shit, so that was nice of them.

Anyway. I just left the cafe and the prosecutors were like. But CALL us we weren't joking! Dont forget. And well connect you with (x woman who escorts victims of crime) and I said I will dont worry tyvm and the crew was like. Can we use the content you appear in and I said..Haha yeah sure ofcourse if you want and said kinda like thank you? Sont know why also bc I forgot my umbrella and they gave it to me and they said . No thank you the entire crew here is lawyers and you gave us hell of a content you dont understand what you just did this is so excellent for us. And I was like I'm glad 😁 and then the prosecutors were like, you will change your mind yet abt us ;) and I was like well see! And the woman was like. You should come visit us once and well take you on a court, you should go with him for one of his cases. And the man said with what looked complete seriousness "I'd let you speak at court even I have a feeling you'll do a wonderful job".

Zjkkdkwmfkazkmwmdmwmrkekdjwmekckxkwjdkekfkemkfd hello!? Hello I'm a failing student I got now officially half of my internship chances through like. Meeting people who are incredibly impressed by me lolll

[ilygsd]

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the only reason i even like this ugly fkn cunt is because we’re so similar. or at least were, he’s grown a bit more than me so i obviously appreciate his help and experience and knowlege or whatever.

but fuck him in the fucking asshole, not only is he a white man, not only does he get triggered by ”i hate whites/men” and ”ppl listen to u cus ur a white man” and takes it SUPER PERSONALLY and accuse me of fucking attacking him and shit. hes acting like a fucking dick when we’re fighting and the thing is……. HE REFUSES to admit when i say we’re similar in the way we fight??? he’s like ”no, im not” and im like YES BITCH YOU ARE YOU’RE ACTING LIKE A FUCKING CHILD

he’s so fucking aggressive, manipulative, guilt tripping and just…. COLD. i swear what the fuck is wrong with him? i’ve met him 3 times, and we’ve fought 2 times. ive known him for like 2 weeks and we’ve already had 2 major fights??

the only reason im not fucking murdering him on the spot is because 1. im not a fucking idiot. i know my limits. i CANT control him, i CANT manipulate him. i dont have any power over him and 2. i fucking like him?? if i dont apologize he’s going to go on for fucking ever and eternity??? i like him and im actually genuinely sorry that he’s hurt even if he’s a fucking pussy who got triggered over smth as petty

like excuse ME!! the way he fights is REALLY triggering for me??? the first time i was terrified. it was like flashbacks and shit i cried for a whole day and i hadn’t even met him back then. i was SO SCARED and SO SHOCKED. because IT IS I who usually have his position. it is I who usually put people in their places, NOT the other way around. i HATE being scolded, feeling like a worthless little piece of shit

i knew that i should’ve blocked his ass because that can really be SO damaging to me. also there’s a risk im goong to explode as well and we’re just gonna trigger each other and fight to death…. but i didnt because i was too god damn curious of what he had to offer. is it really possible for me to be happy as well? is it really possible for me to heal and grow like him? ERHM well obviously he’s not in his ”complete form” yet, fucking psycho when he get angry, but he’s pretty happy and kind and positive generally

i worried so much about me draining him with my anxiety and issues but he said he wouldnt let me drain him. he said he always put himself first and the he basically would leave if i try to pull anything on him. why the fuck did i even worry about him when he’s trying to manipulate and guilt trip me?? I AM SO PISSED. HE REALLY TRIED TO DO THAT THAT STUPID MOTHERFUCKER.

during our first fight it worked because i was SO SHOCKED, as i said. and i was SCARED. but fuck him in the asshole he really- he really tried to FUCKING DO THAT TO ME

he accuses me of being disrespectful of his limits when he goes fucking bananas, everythings happening so fast i cant even process what just happen, i dont even have the time to apologize cus hes all over and everywhere. and he’s so fucking threatening. he’s like ”if you dont…..” and he doesnt realize what the fuck he’s doing?? i apologize because 1. i hate these fights and 2. i like him i dont want to hurt him but he’s like ”i have nothing to apologize for”

STUPID FUCKING CUNTBAG YOUR UGLY TECHNIQUES ARE WAY OVER MY LIMITS, YOURE DISRESPECTING ME 101919X MORE THAN I EVER DISREPSEXTED U BY CALLING U A WHITE MAN.

(also can we talk abt how this motherfucker understabds that whites and men are privileged but he still doesnt get why reverse oppression isnt a thing and that it is GROUPS that are privileged and NOT individuals??? like he’s that fucking dumb)

that shit actually HURT!!!! i think he’s really immature during fights, i think he’s really fucking pathetic and i’m glad i’ve come to that conclusion rather than beating myself up. yes, i now understand that this is probably what it feels like for the counterpart when im fighting with them and im fuckig sorry that im acting like this psycho

BUT!!!!!! what really HURT was that he HONESTLY TRIED TO MANIPULATE ME. if i hadn’t called his ass out this time he would have gotten away with it AGAIN

bitch, he’s fucking 23 years old. he’s 4 years older than me. he also KNOWS!!!!!! i have a stupid crush on him and he STILL!!!!! TRIED TO GUILT TRIP ME, TRIED TO MAKE ME OBEY AND SUBMIT TO HIM, GET DOWN ON MY KNEES AND BEG

im so pissed and a part of me wish i would just have exploded but i couldnt because it was fucking 1 am and my family was asleep and i couldnt fucking shout at someone over the phone. also it actually made me feel a bit superior and mature when i was all calm and he still was upset (even though he wouldnt admit it, stupid proud brat. his voice changes distinctly). okay YES, i MAY have patronized him a little but also NOT!!! i was just really tired and sad and i still liked him so like….. i was just upset and trying to calm him down

its kind of hilarious how i had to tell him to stop sounding so aggressive and he was like ”im not” and i was like ”yes you are” and so he actually KIND OF stopped and it was easier to talk to him. wow i feel so powerful lmao. omg in really not any better than him am i? i know im not because no matter how much he denies it…….. im literally exactly the same when i fight 😔😔 i tell myself i wasnt like that because i didnt WANT to, because i want to be MATURE but a part of me honestly thinks its just me knowing my place. i like him more than the likes me, he can use that to his advantage, there was no reason or possibility for me to dominate him.

im still very pissed though and just because i like him i still REFUSE to follow him like a little puppy. ive been so worried ALL this time that i wouldnt be able to keep up with him intellectually, that he was too good for me, too smart and too kind. PFFFFFFFT!!! im sorry but i swear i was just idealizing him or smth. its his fucking voice and scent, its like a drug it makes me all calm and dizzy but objectively…. dont fucking let him manipulate you. if he ever makes you feel like yo should apologize and that tou did wrong, ask yourself WHY. an east escape is not the right answer. call him the fuck out. i think and hope he avtually would appreciate it as well……. even though he’s so fucking stubborn and proud OMG HES SO PROUD I CANT, I AM PROUD TOO BUT NOT TO HIM. or maybe a little since i now refuse to fucking message him, maybe a little bit manipulative but no, im still mad, the way he acted lady night was fucked up. why does he have to be so proud with ME???? is it because he doesnt feel as emotionally connected to me as i do? yeah probably

that stupid motherufcker…. when i told him ”instead of threatening me that you’re gonna hung up if i dont ’respect’ aka BEHAVE accordingly…. you could just say ’hey im not comfortable talking right now, i need to hung up’ AND HE WAS LIKE ”but we’re not that close-/but we’re not that emotionally-” or something like that and i was like……. is this dipshit clown really serious?? ”uhhh its more like COMMON SENSE AND RESPECT” and he was like ”yeah maybe…” YEAH MAYBE? NO YOU KNOW IM FUCKING RIGHT

god that piece of shit really thinks he has me wrapped around his finger or something. im attracted to him but what he doesnt understand is that he’s still a plain white man. he had NO IDEA how much im controlling myself by even letting myself fall for a white man. does he really think he can like…. i sont know?? i fucking asked him. because i said ”i dont demand or threaten you” and he was like yeah i know. and i was like woahhh…. wait a second….. ”do you think i dont because i like you? do you think i would just follow you whatever?” and he was like ”im not gonna answer that”

oh my god he really thought didnt he. stupid ass white boy really thought i would choose him over myself or any of my siblings of color. smh poor jack.

im going nuts. okay…. if he EVER pulls something like this again i wont be so sure i’ll be able to handle this on a mature level. the worst thing is though that i HAVE TO. because even when i DO, he’s so fucking ptronizing. like te WHITE MAN just jumped out???? if i were to lose my shit……. ITS SI FRUSTRATING AND ITS EXACTLY WHY I CANT BE WITH A WHITE MAN. i was avtually very fucking calm and he STILL managed to make me feel like i was the ”bad guy”.

ughhhh im fucking insane. this…… whatever the fuck our relationship is cus this boy is apprently only interested in me what the fuck that now even means?? okay so we can like hang out and be physical and cuddle and shit but we’re not a couple and its NOT limited to being exclusively us. apparebtly i should still feel flattered though?? cus he doesnt find anyone attractive and he needs some sort of chemistry??? im sorry boy but i am NOT flattered. you do you, i get it, it takes time for you to fall in love with someone but im obviously still much more emotionally invested. that not your fault. thats my problem. my abandonment and attatchment issues. honestly im so fucked i cant even differ my feelings. my feelings for him are strong but idk what they are. some days i feel like platonic friendship, other days an older brother, a romantic partner and sometimes even a dad/parental figure. like im that fucked up i just need a STRONG BOND i dont care what

i low key hate myself for how i ended the call yesterday. thanks to that, now i cant bring this up again. its too late. the fight is ”over”. i was like ”i still like u bye goodnight sweet dreams” but now im like ”i hate u ugly bitch”.

god my head

[cflaesgems16]

A Caroline (and Maya) in Amsterdam

Last month, my oldest and one of my best friends, Maya and I met up in Amsterdam for a weekend trip. This was one of my favorite trips of the semester because it was so much fun exploring this cool city with one of my favorite people in the universe. It definitely is a different experience to travel alone, in a group, with new friends and old friends. Nevertheless, I am so happy I got to share this experience with Maya!

DAY ONE

Our first full day in Amsterdam, the first thing we did is take a Sandeman’s free walking tour of the city to learn about its history and to understand its layout. One of the most interesting facts from the tour is that 18,000 bikes are found in the canals each year! Bikes either are thrown in or even blown into the canal by the wind. That’s insane to me! The city will take the bikes out of the canals and “recycle” them and sell them again. Also, most people in Amsterdam have two bikes, one crappy one for everyday use, and one nice one for work.

After the tour, we went to the Anne Frank House, which was an emotional experience (Photo A). Visiting her home and concentration camps, like Dachau, although I felt two different emotions at each place, both make you think and reflect. It really hard to describe how you feel at these memorials. You just feel so gray, emotionally and mentally drained, with a knot in your stomach. Maya said that the Anne Frank House was “very powerful, especially seeing how she decorated her room and how dark and small the space was. It’s kind of easy to think of children from the past as being different from us or that we’re really separate from what happened, but seeing where she was and getting that sense of how she lived really put it in perspective by showing that she was like a normal kid that put pictures on her wall like I do”.

Photo A

It was especially powerful seeing the actual physical diary. Being American and not alive during WWII, relics and memorials like these, remind you that this atrocity did happen; it was a real event, not just something in a textbook. Anne Frank actually touched those diary pages. It made me think, that after her family was found by the Nazi’s, did she know she was going to die? Was she scared to die, or was she relieved to leave the torture she and her people had been facing? Visiting any Holocaust Memorial has you asking tough questions, it’s a very intense and unforgettable experience.

After the Anne Frank House, Maya and I took a boat ride through the canals. We were tired from walking, so this was very enjoyable and relaxing. There was an audio guide that told us some history about Amsterdam. It was also nice to see the houses from the angle from the canals. It was a nice hour boat ride. The boat ride was one of Maya’s favorite parts, “getting to go in the canal and seeing how the city was connected by all the bridges and rivers.” We grabbed dinner at Ramen Ya, near the Red Light District, and it was delicious; big bowls of ramen at a great price (Photos B & C). We then explored the city’s night life getting a few drinks at the bars.

Photo B

Photo C

My comment about the Red Light District, is to at least walk through the area, it’s definitely interesting. Our hostel was in the Red Light District, so we couldn’t avoid it. It is a little odd seeing the girls in the windows, but as long as they are safe, in my opinion they can do whatever they want professionally. The Red Light District is actually one of the safest places in Amsterdam!

DAY TWO

Our second day in Amsterdam was mostly spent at the museums. We got up and got some huge Dutch pancakes for breakfast before heading to the Van Gogh Museum (Photo D). I love Van Gogh, he is one of my favorite impressionists, so I was very excited for this museum (Photo E). I enjoyed the layout of the museum and actually learned a lot about Van Gogh. I didn’t know that he started his painting career until his 30s. He also painted 75 painting in the last 70 days of his life. Maya also learned a lot, she never really knew how many stages Van Gogh went through and how his painting style evolved in such a short amount of time.

Photo D

Photo E

Van Gogh was so talented, and I wonder what would’ve happened if he had lived longer. Would he still have become famous? I also wonder what caused him to cut off his ear, in the museum it said that he had epilepsy and acute mania. Could his illness be cured with today’s medicine? Was his mental breakdown, somewhat like an artistic breakthrough? Obviously, we’ll never know the answers to these questions, but we can all agree that Van Gogh was a talented artist whose life ended far too early.

Nearby the museum area, there were little kiosks and street vendors. Maya and I got some hot dogs for lunch (that were delicious), before continuing to the Rijks Museum (Photos F & G). The Rijks Museum is dedicated to Dutch artists and history. Some of the most famous pieces found in this museum are done by Dutch artist, Rembrandt who is considered one of the most greatest visual artists in the history of art (Photo H).

Photo F

Photo G

Photo I: Syndics of the Drapers’ Guild

After the museums, Maya and I met up with our friends, we climbed all over the IAmsterdam sign (Photos I & J) . With help from Maya’s friend Eric, I was able to climb on top of the “A“ with only minimal screams (Photo K). We tried some of Amsterdam’s Manneken Pis fries, and Jenna told me about her trip to the Kinderdijk, which is known for all the 18th century windmills (Photo L).

Photo I

Photo J

Photo K

Photo L

I fell in love with Amsterdam and I wish I had more time here to not only explore Amsterdam more, but also to visit the Kinderdijk and also Rotterdam. Honestly, I believe one of the main reasons I enjoyed this trip so much is because I was with Maya. Maya and I don’t get to see a lot of each other because we go to two different colleges, and her university is in Massachusetts. She is an amazing friend, and the smartest person I know and I’m so lucky to have her in my life. I can’t wait to see what other adventures we have together in our lifetime.

Le dernier mois, mon plus vieux et l'un de mes meilleurs amis, Maya et moi-même avons rencontré à Amsterdam pour un voyage de week-end. C'était l'un de mes voyages préférés du semestre parce que c'était tellement amusant d'explorer cette ville cool avec une de mes personnes préférées dans l'univers. C'est vraiment une expérience différente de voyager seul, en groupe, avec de nouveaux amis et de vieux amis. Néanmoins, je suis tellement content que je partage cette expérience avec Maya!

JOUR UN

Notre premier jour à Amsterdam, le premier chose que nous avons faite c'est de faire une excursion pédestre gratuite à la ville pour connaître son histoire et comprendre son plan. L'un des faits les plus intéressants de la tournée est que 18 000 vélos se trouvent dans les canaux chaque année! Les vélos sont jetés dans les canaux ou ils se sont envolé par le vent dans les canaux. C’est fou à moi! La ville sortira les vélos des canaux et les «recyclera» et les vendra à nouveau. En outre, la plupart des gens à Amsterdam ont deux vélos, un nul pour un usage quotidien, et un bon pour le travail.

Après l’excursion, nous avons visité la maison d’Anne Frank, qui était une expérience très émotionnelle (Photo A). En visitant sa maison et ses camps de concentration, comme Dachau, bien que j'ai ressenti deux émotions différentes à chaque endroit, les deux endroits vous font penser et réfléchir. C’est très difficile de décrire comment vous vous sentez dans ces mémoriaux. Vous vous sentez si gris, émotionnellement et mentalement drainé, avec un nœud dans votre ventre. Maya a dit que la maison d’Anne Frank était “très puissant, particulièrement en voyant comment elle a décoré sa chambre et voyant à quel point l'espace était sombre et petit. C’est facile à penser que les enfants du passé sont différent de nous ou que nous sommes vraiment séparés de ce qui s'est passé, mais voir où elle était et avoir son sens de sa vie a vraiment mis en perspective en montrant qu'elle était comme un enfant normal qui a mis des images sur son mur comme moi”.

C'était très puissant à voir le véritable, material journal intime. Étant américains et non vivants pendant la Seconde Guerre mondiale, les reliques et les mémoriaux comme ceux-ci, vous rappellent que cette atrocité s'est passée; C'était  un événement réel, pas seulement quelque chose dans un manuel. Anne Frank a touché ces pages de journal, vraiment. Cela m'a fait penser, qu'après la découverte de sa famille par les nazis, savait-elle qu'elle allait mourir? Avait-elle peur de mourir, ou était-elle soulagée de laisser les tortures auxquelles elle et son peuple avaient fait face? Visiter n'importe quel mémorial de l'Holocauste: vous avez posé des questions difficiles, c'est une expérience très intense et inoubliable.

Après la maison d’Anne Frank, Maya et moi, avons pris un tour en bateau des canaux. Nous avions très fatigué donc c'était très agréable et relaxant. Il y avait un audio guide qui a partagé l’histoire d’Amsterdam. Il était également agréable de voir les maisons à l'angle des canaux. C'était une belle promenade en bateau d'une heure. La promenade en bateau était l'une des parties préférées de Maya, «aller dans le canal et voir comment la ville était reliée par tous les ponts et les rivières». Nous avons mangé le dîner à Ramen Ya, qui est proche au Quartier Chaud, et c'était délicieux; grand bols du ramen à un bon prix. Puis, nous avons exploré la vie nocturne d’Amsterdam, prendre quelques verres aux bars (Photo B & C).

Ma remarque qui concerne le Quartier Chaud, est au moins traverser la région, c'est vraiment intéressant. Notre foyer était dans le Quartier Rouge, donc nous ne pouvions pas l'éviter. Il est un peu étrange de voir les filles dans les fenêtres, mais aussi longtemps qu'elles sont en sécurité, à mon avis, elles peuvent faire tout ce qu'elles veulent professionnellement. Le Quartier Rouge est en fait l'un des endroits les plus sûrs d'Amsterdam!

JOUR DEUX

Notre deuxième jour à Amsterdam, nous avons visité beaucoup de musées. Nous nous sommes levées et mange des grandes pancakes hollandais pour le petit déjeuner avant de partir pour le Musée Van Gogh (Photo D). J’aime Van Gogh, il est l'un de mes impressionnistes préférés, alors j'étais très excité pour ce musée (Photo E). J’ai apprécié le plan du musée et en fait j’ai appris beaucoup de Van Gogh. Par exemple, je ne sais pas qu’il a commencé sa carrière en peinture sauf ses 30s. Aussi, il a peint 75 oeuvres au cours des 70 derniers jours de sa vie. Maya a appris beaucoup, elle n'a jamais vraiment su combien d'étapes Van Gogh a traversé et comment son style de peinture a évolué en si peu de temps.

Van Gogh était talentueux, et je m’ai demande ce qui serait arrivé s'il avait vécu plus longtemps. Serait-il encore devenu célèbre? Je me demande aussi ce qui l'a fait couper l'oreille, dans le musée, il a dit qu'il avait une épilepsie et une manie aiguë. Sa maladie pourrait-elle être guérie avec la médecine d'aujourd'hui? Est-ce que sa crise mentale était un peu comme une percée artistique? Évidemment, nous ne connaîtrons jamais les réponses à ces questions, mais nous pouvons tous convenir que Van Gogh était un artiste talentueux dont la vie était trop tôt.

À proximité de la zone du musées, il y avait beaucoup de kiosques et les vendeurs ambulant. Maya et moi avons obtenu des hot dogs pour le déjeuner (qui étaient délicieux), avant de continuer à le Musée Rijks (Photos F & G). Le Musée Rijks est dedie aux artistes hollandais et l’histoire. Certaines des pièces les plus célèbres trouvées dans ce musée sont réalisées par l'artiste néerlandais Rembrandt, considéré comme l'un des plus grands artistes visuels de l'histoire de l'art (Photo H).

Après les musées, Maya et moi avons rencontré nos amis, nous sommes montés partout dans le panneau d'IAmsterdam (Photos I & J). Avec l'aide de l'ami de Maya, Eric, j'ai pu monter sur le "A" avec seulement des cris minimes (Photo K). Nous avons essayé certaines frites Manneken Pis d'Amsterdam, et Jenna m'a parlé de son voyage au Kinderdijk, connu pour tous les moulins à vent du 18ème siècle (Photo L).

Je suis tombé amoureux d'Amsterdam et j'aimerais avoir plus de temps ici pour non seulement explorer Amsterdam plus, mais aussi visiter Kinderdijk et Rotterdam. Honnêtement, je crois que l'une des principales raisons pour lesquelles j'ai beaucoup aimé ce voyage est parce que j'étais avec Maya. Maya et moi ne nous voyons pas beaucoup parce que nous allons à deux collèges différents et que son université est au Massachusetts. C'est une amie incroyable, et la personne la plus intelligente que je connaisse et j'ai la chance de l'avoir dans ma vie. J'ai hâte de voir quelles autres aventures nous avons ensemble au cours de notre vie.