#YES THIS IS EVANGELION. HAHA

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Maybe it isn't a joke anymore. Maybe I have, indeed, decided to shove the Triple Cone Cup trio into the shoes of the Children. So here are some clothes. Get in the robot Capsaicin.

I'm going to get less than one hour of sleep dear God.

[screwpinecaprice]

World piercing alien laser beam vs the indomitable human spirit?

Commissioned by @jeshuamorbus-blog!

Part of Steven's skin is mildly holed out due to the laser beam, (the pink is melted off his body as it's literally him, but he is healing while taking damage.) Though you would have to zoom the image for those to be clear. I wanted it to look more violent but I do have to admit to my limits than deny+force it and delay this commission further. ( I am not joking when I say I draw slow, guys.😬) So thank you so much jeshuamorbus-blog for ordering and for the patience!

[fennthetalkingdog]

I'm just figuring out how important music is in my life! This is coming from a long while trying to cut down on my music use, mostly because I was listening to it so much that it felt more like I couldn't do anything without popping in some earbuds, and partially because of other personal reasons. Some of my routines changed, forcing me to not listen to music while doing certain things, and it ended up becoming that besides working on homework or drawing, I didn't listen to music at all. But I've given myself a break today since I have nothing to do and since, for reasons, I'm feeling just a lil crappy today—and boy, I'm starting to realize again just why I love music!!

I love the diverse music taste I've developed over the years! My family is not only big about music but big about listening to it loud, so the majority of my music taste for most of my life has just been Christian hiphop (Lecrae, KB, Andy Mineo, Trip Lee, and ironically Tonex, whose album where he was struggling hard with his gayness has been my favorite concert movie since I was 5) and gospel music (Kirk Franklin, Tye Tribbett, etc.). And music was one of the few connections between me and my race (I grew up feeling pretty estranged from my blackness as a kid, but the popular songs they played at the YMCA in the 2010s were some of the few things I could use to feel more connected) and between me and my classmates/friends at the Y (I still have fond memories of playing FNAF songs in mat forts and reciting lyrics at pool parties). But I got tired of knowing I could never bond with anyone besides family friends music taste-wise when I was in high school, and so I started listening to secular music on my own time. And that's how I first found Ghost and Pals, a vocaloid artist and one of the first secular music folks I listened to as a kid (can you smell the religious trauma yet? Lol), and that's how I bonded with one of my best friends in early college (ironically, also my first time being publically queer). Now I listen to Kpop, anime songs, songs from warriors MAPs, songs from musicals (Hamilton and In the Heights <3), latin songs, metal songs, and even some secular songs young me would've been too scared to listen to.

And music has always been one of my biggest sources of stimming! I can't dance to save my life, but music will sure get me to flick my fingers and hit my fist against my shoulder furiously. Music was one of the first clues that I like stimming with vibration too (since I love laying against the car door and turning up the music loud enough to feel the world shake around me). And music was one of the first things that made me look into ADHD or autism (specifically, listening to Ghost and Pals songs for a month straight and getting my friend at early college [who also has ADHD] to start looking at me funny when I was discovered doing chores and listening to one of three songs for the fifth time). Music is so cool it'll get me to wax poetically. It was one of the things that kept me together during my roughest times and soothed me during my best. I listen to it while I write, while I cry, while I hang out with my friends and family and while I chill by myself. It's how I relax after a long day, and it's how I feel safe. I feel kinda emotional finally having music hit that spot in me without feeling like I need it to do stuff.

[peerreview3d]

Talking about the parallels in my stancest art/fic because this is my blog & I get to do what I want.

The art itself is directly based on the infamous hospital scene from End of Evangelion (down to the cum splatter position, yes) but the fic is then based on the art so there will be some difference.

Tangent, I hate that the hospital scene has been memed to death because it contained so much but "haha what a nice friend visiting his coworker at the hospital I sure hope nothing bad happens"

Asuka was critically injured, Stan was experiencing the lingering effect of the memory wipe (figurative death), the only people so close to Shinji/Ford, basically dead. Shinji/Ford were at their lowest point, they're both barely holding onto reality by a thread, nobody could even fathom what they went through, it all so fantastical that Ford would sound insane to anyone else, and Shinji is bearing a burden so special that no one can relate to.

They are both scared and helpless, uncertain about their future, everything, but they had to keep going, because they're born with a "gift", a burden. But the person who should be by their sides aren't there.

Shinji wanted Asuka to relentlessly mock him and make him feel like he is something real and alive. Ford wanted Stan's affection, to feel loved by the only person in the world who's capable of it, to make him feel alive.

This is the only way they can form a human connection with the ones closest to them, expressing their unrequited love for other in the most primal way with mock intimacy they could never experience, because they both couldn't get themselves to open up to others, living in this self imposed emotional isolation and continued to hurt the people they love in the process.

"I'm so fucked up" A repulsive display of an act of love, something they can only express through vulgarity. It is the physical that connect them because they are too scared for emotional connections.

[feyd-meowtha]

Nine ppl I want to know better tag

Thank you very much @weimarweekly for the tag!!

LAST SONG? – Born Slippy by Underworld has been on pretty constantly for the last week or so while I've been writing my fic of the same name (check it out here if you haven't already https://archiveofourown.org/works/58271047/chapters/148392448). I have also been on a bit of a late 2000s recession pop revival so Sexy Bitch by David Guetta was on before that lol, I think 'Your Woman' by White Town might have been on before then? I was also at a reggae bar earlier so whatever they were playing there though I do not recall anything i recognised.

FAVORITE COLOR? – Pink then blue then purple. I do not fuck with warm colours any which way.

CURRENTLY WATCHING? – Big Brother UK season 5 (from 2004, its absolutely incredible TV and makes me miss home so much and if anyone spoils it I'll scream) Durarara season 2 because I was Ikebukuro last week and the Final Destination movies (currently done 3 out of 5)

LAST MOVIE? – no word of a lie.... Dune (1984) in a random cinema in Japan (because they decided to show it four days in a row?) It was incredible, the folding time scene on the big screen in 4k is a religious experience.

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY? – Spicy then Vinegary if thats an acceptable answer, ideally very spicy and very acidic, I like food that makes me hurt. Kinky I know.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS? – Tragically for the lot of you....taken. 7 years this September and that makes me feel very ooooold. (yes i have made him watch all the dune films (and the sci-fi channel show) several times)

CURRENT OBSESSIONS? – The Our House universe lol. Also the Evangelion Tarot cards that I saw in the Eva shop and I neeeeeeeed, The Summer Hikaru Died, The House of Leaves, thinking about what might have happened to Damien Nettles and finishing all the endings in Fear and Hunger 1 and 2.

LAST THING YOU GOOGLED? – Details of a Psytrance Festival happening a couple of weeks from now lol (it's not necessarily my favourite music but it's happening in the mountains outside of Tokyo so I'll fuckin bite haha)

I shall tag @lvsifer @feydfuckernation @hootaran @calamity-cain @trashbag-baby666 @duesternis @swifty-fox @lisanalgaibweakestfedaykin @thebuckys

[egoborderline]

tagged by @doppelgangerleaverite !!! Yay! I finally didn't forget to do one of these that you tagged me in, haha. :3 Thank you for thinking of me!!!

shuffle your ON REPEAT playlist and list the first 10 songs

i've had a few weird hyper fixation moments this month so this is an odd bunch, lol:

Witchcraft - Pendulum

Annie Waits - Ben Folds

All Along The Watchtower (Live) - Bear McCreary (yes this has also been in my top five songs on my wrapped playlists for the past two years. shh)

The Most Wanted Person In The United States - 100 gecs

Crush - Pendulum

The Less I Know The Better - Tame Impala

Soul Meets Body - Death Cab for Cutie

You Know My Name - Chris Cornell

Dumbest Girl Alive - 100 gecs

The Call - Regina Spektor

list your top 15 tv shows because it reflects your personality

No particular order! Just putting them down as I think of them.

Neon Genesis Evangelion

Classic Star Trek (TOS, TNG, DS9, VOY, ENT. Yes, all of them. Haven't seen TAS.)

Battlestar Galactica (2003)

Adventure Time

"Nu Trek" (LDS, SNW. I don't like DIS + PIC is on thin fucking ice).

Puella Magi Madoka Magica

Barry (I haven't seen the last season. I'm saving it.)

True Detective Season 1

30 Rock honestly

The Good Place

American Dad (no criticisms at this time. Thank you! c:)

Serial Experiments Lain

Breaking Bad (how could I forget Waltuh)

Midnight Mass

I'm running out! Does Jeopardy! count?

tagging @scrubdowner @yofukit @flyesthairstylebadge @orangejiuce @damianwho @lionsroar83 @kaiju-kush @outerheavenly @mosukehinata @chipmunkchiptune and. You know what. All my mutuals. Only if you want to of course! :)

[salamispots]

I woke up at 3:45 am with shrine music in my brain so I'm gonna yell a little about totk spoilers below fhhhhh mostly about game things no real plot stuff haha

the intRO :'D that mononoke touch ahhhhh idk why but specifically the scene/shot of link's hearts going down from the wiggly worm demon smoke thing is stuck in my brain/makes me feel emotional

also the whole 'I was gone for a bit and the world looks different but sort of the same/everyone moved on' made me feel a little like the evangelion movie when shinji wakes up and he's still the same gives me feeLINGS not necessarily bad; maybe a little bittersweet? idk

I keep giggling at how GOOFY some of the weapons look when they're fused and the names (like...thick stick stick or something LMAO)

the glee of using a rocket for the first time also I'm building the most basic shit hahah I'm not particularly good/creative at stuff like this

ahhhh I loved how there's still those big stone talus in the game and the first one I come across is disguised as a base for bokoblin

the instantaneous fuck off panic of running into those red arm/hands and panicking because you run out of stamina while running away hahah

speaking of tHE MUSIC OH MY GOD I love the shrine music so much? and the first time when you go to the depths when you're falling the tone shift is so eerie

exploring too far into an area where you're too underleveled and getting one hit killed by something haha

when you leave the sky islands for the first time I was hanging out at the very top and was like...surely they're not saying just to jump off? I thought you were supposed to build something to get down but I sorta just fell off for the heck of it and I was extremely charmed by the fact that they said yes you can jump off and just dive into some random body of water from miles above in the sky and again I love the music for that/when you're first introduced to the sky islands

sky islands fun but it's nice being on the ground hahahfg/having a glider now and not constantly breaking into a sweat at hEIGHTS haha like....I went to the top of the temple and crawled all the way around to the other side of the locked doors lmao but the amount of times I slipped and fell of those tiny ledges

I still love freefalling and using the glider at the last second

running into a tree for the first time HAHA and the ominous tiptoeing after you

also yeah controls feel better now/just had to play more but I still definitely keep pressing the wrong buttons for things

I think once I got off the sky islands and to the ground that was kinda when I got fully invested? like again before actually buying the game and playing it I was kinda like ehhh I'll probably play it some point

also the game reigniting my need for link zelda ganon ot3 content :'D

the fondness of having character designs be 3/4 torso ahahha

PURAH I love her ouTFIT

the little detail of chasing fish and the fish trying to escape actually beached themselves on the shore??

LINK HUMMING WHILE COOKING I've only recognized one song so far (saw someone on reddit say they also heard song of storms and it clicked in my brain so now two haha)

oh! I love the amount of nooks and crannies to explore! like all the wells and caves >:0

ngl didn't end up finishing botw (I absolutely did look up the ending before I played totk HAHA >:'D ) because I ended up exploring the majority of the map/got bored after that and I didn't particularly like how the map felt empty/the same after a while? idk if the same thing will pop up again for me in totk but I do like how there's some new enemies and it feels more lively so far? we'll see

ALSO LMAO fighting bokoblins with a moblin and the moblin just straight picking up a bokoblin and throwing it at me??

[kcuf-ad]

Aight bet- I’ll start off with some things I like you may already know XD

Well written female characters given equal amounts of flaws and development in both character and strength depending on the type of media to the male characters, that’s given for almost any show I like really

MONSTROUS CHARACTERs. I’m not taking about like oh cute petite anime girl/boy with like a tail or some horns I’m TALKING MADOKA MAGICA WITCHES THOS GIANT WEIRD THINGS IN EVANGELION. I WANT MONSTERS THAT LOOK LIKE THEIR AN EXSTENTIAL NIGHTMARE!! It’s so gender envy ngl ✨💕 wish that were me

FATHER DAUGHTER DUOS, BONNEY AND KUMA?! DID NOT CARE THAT MUCH EXCEPT TAHT BONNEY WAS RELATABLE IN HER LOBE FOR FOOD AND IMMATURE BEHAVIOR UNTIL I FOUND OUT THEIR FTAHER AND DAUGHTER BACKSTORY IN THE MANGA AND VIOLENTLY SOBBED

Also Father son duos are a treat for me, but I love father daughter duos more on a personal level (Haha daddy issues go brrr xDD)

SNAKE THEMED CHARACTERS! I know that you know I love snakes Fran XD

Symbolism in character design, the backgrounds, abilities names, I’m a sucker for shows and medias that have me over analyzing everything I could in terms of a character as a whole as well as their Morality, Psyche, biology, etc. just any character or moment I can just daydream about breaking down to their rawest moments and just analyze it til there’s nothing left for me to analyze over

The protagonist has flaws, and genuinely doesn’t win everytime (Yes even though I love Yusaku I mean this whole heartedly) XD

Angst bait and whump bait characters ig XD, I want to fall in love with a tragic character and immediately start hunting down angst and whump about them or just make my own ximssjsm

Also characters that I just wanna coddle and adopt XDDD

Bratty or cocky characters, that have utter fear of god instilled into them or absolutely gets knocked down their pedestal and it’s EMBARRASSINGLY AGONIZING FOR THEM, I’m not a sadist I swear :D

Theirs probs more but I can’t think rn and it’s already at ten I think that’s enough XDD

Oh~ This is such an interesting list, and I am actually pretty sure that Bleach has almost all of these.

Yeah, that is pretty much of a given. Orihime wants to protect her friends, but something happens to her powers and she feels horrible about it, she has real flaws that any girl would have.

Espadas, Just the Espadas. More specifically, Ulquiorra Cifer and his Ressureccion looks like a genuine devil in Bleach.

WE HAVE THAT! WE HAVE KENPACHI ZARAKI AND YACHIRU KUSAJISHI! And it is actually so cute, because this menacing beast of a man that loves to fight to death,

has a tiny little girl on his shoulder, 24/7. And when he is angry, he just doesn't even think about harming her at all, he just thinks about the people he is about to fight.

4. If you count Isshin and Ichigo, then yeah, we have that. They are a perfect duo. Legit hilarious and Isshin actually loves his son and will protect him.

5. Yup! Cyan Sung-Sun

6. Yeah it does have that with pretty much every character in this show, even the jokey characters like Asano Keigo. There are hundreds of videos just talking about these characters.

7. Ichigo gets his ass kicked like every arc, at least. Not to mention, the internal battle that he has with his inner demon, both literally and narratively. This guy has more layers than an onion.

8. Pick one. You want angsty antagonist? Coyote Starrk. Angsty protag? Ichigo. Angsty female character? Rukia Kuchiki. Angsty side character? Uryu Ishida. It is filled with angsty characters.

9. Rukia, Yachiru, Yuzu, Karin, Nel, Toshiro, Momo, pretty much, anyone that won't kill you, but knowing you, you will adopt all of them.

10. Renji FUCKING Abarai, this boy is the most hilarious boy on the planet and I love him for that.

Soooo~ Interested?

[dontvap0rdawave]

haha funny Pizza Game oc goes brr

anyways yes, their name is a pun, please laugh

Fun facts about them!!1!:

- They’re both French, Kam doesn’t speak any English unless it’s with friends and Bertt is her translator.

- Kam has a cheese shop/dairy/whatever you call it called “The Second Floor”

- She makes all of her cheeses by hand, which counts for sleepless hours almost every day, but also for her being really strong since she can carry those big cheesewheels with her bare hands

- She delivers artesanal cheese to everyone, yes, this includes everyone in the Tower, Peppino and even Pizzahead.

- No, they didn’t know he was a sentient pizza man, so that’s why Kam is screaming “MY GOD, IT’S THE DEVIL” at the top of her lungs.

- Bertt is an old man, really old, and he has a fully functional rifle which he will not hesitate to use if things get out of hand.

- He is really sticky, and he also hears a hat despite not having any hair. He respects work etiquette.

- Kam really likes anime, her favorite is Neon Genesis Evangelion.

-Yes, she’s met Marie. And yes, Pizza Tower is technically canon in the Star Trackers universe.

[samasmith23]

I always enjoy your write ups for every Eva episode, and I really liked your analysis of episode 13. I feel like the episode is quite underrated and under-discussed by the Eva fandom/community, and that’s a shame because I love this episode. It’s a very important episode for understanding Ritsukos character, and it’s just a fun change of pace of the usual angel fights we see at the beginning of the series.

Something I’d like to “add” onto your review that I personally found very interesting is Misatos presence inside Magi alongside Ritsuko. I think Misatos presence is intentional, especially on a subtextual level, as Misato realistically could have been cut from that entire scene if Anno didn’t want to expand on the relationship between Ritsuko and Misato. You mention the inside of Magi being like a womb, and to me it’s also like a private or almost sacred space to Ritsuko. For example, we see Maya looking inside the Magi to look at the sticky notes but she is never allowed inside MAGI. Yes Ritsuko relies on her, but it is quite literally from afar, she does not allow Maya to enter into this (very conflicting) but personal space. This is seen through the entire series witth Ritsuko and Mayas relationship. Misato on the other hand is seemingly allowed to not only enter Magi, but help Ritsuko, handing her tools and assisting her. Ironically, a sharp contrast to Misato a few scenes earlier when she told Ritusko that she never asks for help and wants to do everything on her own (side note it’s sort of funny how Misato drops that very personal remark in front of literally everyone). Regardless of the truth within that statement for Ritusko, she seems to take Misatos words to heart and allows her into Magi to help her, and by extension allowing Misato into this deeply personal, and likely painful space. I have no doubt that Ritsuko relied on Misatos presence mentally over the physical help Misato gave her. I also think inside Magi it is a showcase of their true selves, not beholden by rank or status. Misato drops titles and calls Ritsuko by her name while in Magi and Ritsuko shares likely very confidential information about MAGI at Misatos request and opens up more about her mother. Misatos school quip is sweet as well, and her VA nails a very soft voice for Misato during this scene. I don’t think it is quite accurate to say that inside the MAGI is like being inside Ritsukos heart, but I think there is heavy significance to Misato being the only person besides Ritsuko ever allowed inside MAGI.

I 99.99% know that there was never any intention by writers to ever imply that Misato and Ritsuko harbored any romantic feelings for each other, but it’s episodes like this where I wonder why there’s not more slightly delusional people out there like me haha! (The idea that Ritsuko could have a VERY repressed crush on Misato since college is so intriguing to me, but that’s a can of worms for another time.)

I hope you don’t mind my geeking out over this episode in your inbox, I just really enjoy episode 13 and I’m glad that other people view it in a similar way as I do. Looking forward to your next reviews.

Thank you very much for the positive feedback! I hadn't considered the interpretation of the MAGI as a "sacred place" for Ritsuko, but that does also make a lot of sense as does how Misato's presence helped provide some physical and emotional support for her best friend inside the tunnels of the supercomputer! Discussing this is a major reason why I love Evangelion so much! It's so multi-layered and nuanced that there's no universal interpretation for the show's plot and character developments!

[pretentious-art-love]

Comic Reviews #4 - Tokyo Ghoul by Sui Ishida

At first, I watched the anime, but it skips a lot of the story, so I didn’t like it. The manga, however, is a different story, and honestly, it's much better. The story is about a guy who lives in a world where ghouls exist—beings that look human but have stronger abilities and, on top of that, can only eat humans to survive. Eventually, the guy ends up becoming a ghoul due to an accident, and he has to struggle with the fact that he needs to eat people if he wants to keep living.

I felt at times there were too many characters. There was a point when I also felt that the manga had moved away from the core conflict of what it means to be a ghoul and shifted more toward power scaling and gang wars, but then I realized… that wasn’t the point. The point of the manga is the suffering we inflict on and receive from each other when living with other people. Two phrases that deeply impacted me were:

"To live is to feed on others" and "We have to learn to live with the losses."

And I fell in love with the story. By putting you in the shoes of someone who destroys humans to survive, the comic forces you to confront the idea that at some point, you will have to step over others to achieve your dreams, even if it’s just to inconvenience them slightly. The comic asks: what does it really mean to be human and take from others? To make them suffer? And if you’re a ghoul—which could symbolize being a selfish person—how much are you willing to take to justify your own existence?

The protagonist of Tokyo Ghoul goes through that phase where he becomes much more powerful after suffering a lot. Now, yes, maybe this romanticizes a bit the narrative of martyrdom, which we know isn’t the healthiest (if you look up Tokyo Ghoul, what comes up the most is the protagonist acting all crazy, almost like, “Haha, look, I’m the Joker! They made me crazy!” and it’s almost laughable). But even so, the comic stays focused on his story and never idealizes the protagonist, instead showing him as someone driven by his pain. Evangelion tried to do something similar with the hedgehog analogy, but I think Tokyo Ghoul achieved far better results.

8/10

[1up-girl]

20 Questions

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 10 works.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 131,856

3. What fandoms do you write for? Only Zelda right now, but I have done stuff for Evangelion and Teen Titans in the past! Also looking to add a Shingeki no Kyojin piece in there soon.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Reverdie (413), Fragmentation (290), After the Rain (200), Tacet (188) and Finding and Keeping (175)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Always! I'm very greatful for folks taking the time to read and comment on my stuff. It really means a lot to me, so I like to show my gratitude in the comments.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Ooof uhhhh like none? I think I did some themed one-shots that were downers but like...I really can't bring myself to end on angsty notes.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? They all end happy, but I think Love Stayed With Me has to be the happiest by default because [TOTK ending spoilers here]

8. Do you get hate on fics? Thankfully, no! It would be okay if I did, though. Like whatever, a hater isn't paying for my service so I wouldn't really care if they were wasting their energy in my comments section.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes! It depends on the situation, really. I'm a big fan of smut that is sort of exploratory and almost innocent, where two characters are exploring these feelings with one another and discovering that bliss for the first time. But on the other hand...I am like, beyond ready to write Link getting pegged LMFAO. I'm not too picky about smut.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? No... I don't think I have. I think I planned one when I was like 13 but I can't remember the fandoms or anything.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Have had stuff reposted without my permission on other sites, but my name was still attached to it. So like...not entirely stolen haha. No one reposted under a different author's name.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No, but I WOULD LOVE THIS

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yesssss! Currently worked on A Song of Storms with @deiliamedlini!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? I really think Zelink takes the cake for me. I've never simped so hard for a ship. I love how they are cosmically entwined, soulmates which can come in really lovely, heartfelt forms, or angsty, miserable forms. They aren't limited by one iteration. gOD.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? As much as I wish I could, I don't think a longfic is in the cards for me. I'm frankly not creative enough to keep the momentum up ;_;. Maybe if the right inspo hit. But at this point I write shorter things and I don't expect to not finish them at some point, even if they take a while to crank out.

16. What are your writing strengths? I like to think that I have strong ideas on characterizations, and that the prose carries the ideas that I'm trying to convey. (Particularly about Zelink.) I love the poetic imagery for them and enjoy metaphoers and loooove religious imagery for them as well.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Absolutely fucking plot and also finding the balance between like, wanting langauge to be flowery and not overdoing it. I am always tearing my hair out over it.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? Oh I'm very down lol

19. First fandom you wrote for? I think would have been Teen Titans when I was like 12.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written? UGHHHHH I don't know, maybe Reverdie because it was so music inspired? And I loooooove writing pining Link and the sexual tension between them. Part of me actually thinks about rewriting that and making it longer, dragging it out even more than just 4 chapters, but I think that's me being sadistic haha. Love Stayed With Me was also so personal to me because it was crafted sort of in real time with playing TOTK. And of course has all my own personal baggage tied into it.

THIS WAS FUN THANKS FOR TAGGING ME @zellink! I'll tag @deiliamedlini @wanderingnightingale @itcantbe @softlessly and anyone else who wants to do it!

[grayintogreen]

Soooo... Hypothetically (and I mean that) of someone had a chance to gush over your work to Matthew Mercer himself, would you be okay with it? In a "oh yeah, please do!" way or more of a "haha, sure, please don't tell me about it though" kind of way?

[EXTREME CROAKING NOISE]

Okay here’s the thing I don’t KNOW how the CR team feel about fanfic beyond being super supportive of it but also probably can’t read it legally due to them owning a publishing house now, but I also know Dani does read it (I don’t know if she had to stop since becoming Lorekeeper), so like I already assume simply on the basis that LitMoR has two of the longest fics in the AO3 tag that she might be aware of them and might have mentioned them. SO LIKE… i don’t want anyone to make Matt weird about fanfic, but I also do kinda want him to know “hey this person loved Cree so much she’s written one million words about giving her a fair shake” and would never have the courage to do it myself. Or would never think to do it myself. (Seriously I’d be too busy trying to stumble through telling Taliesin my story of how I discovered him through the Evangelion commentaries and his nerdery rewired my ninth grade brain.)

So all of this is a long way of saying you can let him know someone out there loves Cree SO MUCH she’s done feats of insanity over her and gauge the temperature of the situation, but obviously don’t make him uncomfy. Also the fact that you’d talk to Matt Mercer and say stuff about ME is making me flop on the floor like WHAT. Omg.

(And yes I wanna know what he says if you do it…. Even though the idea makes me want to throw up in my mouth a little. I still want to know if it makes him happy to know he created a minor character that barely ANYONE cares about and gave her an epic story.)

[modormouth]

I think each one was at a different stage? Some were, yes, the adam embryo but with blue hair and some were at the later stages

This isnt even my wildest evangelion themed dream i have 2 or 3 more haha

Very very intriguing. If you're alright with it, tell me more about the other dreams?

[akiangelz]

OMG i knew you like evangelion but i didnt know about beach house???? i love that band so much

YES omg they’ve been my favorite band and comfort band for so long now, since maybe 2014? They’re the best fr fr I’ve seen them live 4 times haha

[decepti-thots]

#what. where? when??

the TF x Evangelion crossover was mostly a thing where an MP-10 Optimus toy got an Eva-01 themed redeco, and they had some fun coming up with a little bit of Tie In Lore TM to explain why there is an Eva-01-themed Optimus running around. it was a little web microfiction serial thing (in total, I doubt it exceeds 1500 words, haha). here is what angel Starscream looks like!

and yes, the evangelion masterpiece OP toy is obscenely goddamn expensive these days. i've never seen one below £350 or so, i don't think, lmao.

remember how there is canon transformers material about how g1 starscream, as a ghost, posessed one of the angels from fucking evangelion. remember that