#YEAH I'M BLEEDING

[psygull-arts]

Clubbed to Death (Kurayamino Variation)

Medium: graphite, photoshop, bullets

Bit of a redraw of the cover of Furious Angels by Rob Dougan, one of my all time favorite album covers. Original and behind the scenes under the cut:

was a bit stumped as to how to achieve the bullet holes until a friend suggested i print it out and he would take it with him when he next visited the shooting range. so that's what we did

MIXED MEDIA EXTREME EDITION

[welcometogrouchland]

Disgustingly messy and crusty sketch dump but I couldn't get my own terrible theory out of my head and ended up making a bunch of sketches about it. Also at the end a bonus dickbats and Damian doodle bc I was reading an issue of their Batman and Robin run (IDs in Alt)

[bonkalore]

Feels fitting that I've been wanting to get more out of Cyprus drawn and laid out lately and it also happens to be the start of Mer May! He's a character that I had around since around the beginning, but didn't really start getting to incorporate him much more till more recently and I'm glad for it.

Ended up with a polycule I guess (don't worry Jayce, you will eventually be included too). I kept shying away from it officially bc for some reason that's a thing that people still get worked up over still, but that's what it is! Jayce and Lucy get together and also their boyfriend Cyprus lol Anyway, this is some stuff of how he and Lucy first met that I was trying to get out. He has some interaction with the Bureau as an ambassador and has to sit in meetings. With recent events and the former Primus gone suddenly, Lucy moved up in position suddenly and also had to sit in on said meeting. Things have been chaos. He ends up joining in the Primus tournament and was also sick of the way they handled things. He and Lucy have some of that in common to start~

Bonus Jayce faces lol:

[skrunksthatwunk]

actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.

he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.

a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).

but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.

and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.

he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.

and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal

[saints-who-never-existed]

Okay so this might be glaringly obvious to everyone else but it's only just sort of struck me the more I've thought about it:

The ambiguity that so many of us seem to have found in that shot of the smiling Marines in the hunting blind actually makes so much sense if we think about it as being directly from Goodsir's perspective.

Like, it actually does a really good job - whether intentionally or not - of putting us in his position and his mindset.

Goodsir is, as the script itself says, 'socially helpless' at the very least and I know there are many out there who perceive him as more explicitly neurodivergent too. Either way, it seems likely and not unfair to say that he himself mighty not be fully picking up the social cues he's getting from the Marines.

And I think that does matter! I think that contributes - even in some small, unconscious way - to the feeling we the audience get from that scene. Like, we're not entirely sure of how to take the reaction of the Marines because we're seeing them from the perspective of a character who isn't entirely sure of how to do that either.

[hrokkall]

What's gabriel in this au?

Some loser, probably.

[post-it-notes7]

A secret bonus to this previous post

[vaguely-concerned]

say whatever you want about the combat in this game it's ultimately a subjective thing what form of gameplay you enjoy more, but c'mon tell me you don't understand the thrill and High Romance of setting up a detonation combo with your LI as rook and hearing then exchange little pleasantries about it as everything goes BOOM

[wickedcriminal]

Drew something for that Deltora Quest book about masks that eat your face

[ying-doodles]

forced blindness

a little what if demon king acheros actually did eat lloyd's eyes? :)

(this is a very unhinged drawing lmao)

[earl-grey-crow]

it’s me, hi, I’m the white witch, it’s me

[bonkalore]

I had been sitting on this since summer and have been wanting to share but it wasn't quite finished!! Think I finally can say it's mostly done now tho and am mostly satisfied lol

This is the end form design I have for Jayce when he finally opens the coffer with all the Dread Magic and he is just FUUUUCKED up on that shit and there's hardly any of him left in it at that point and it's very angsty and intense but I still plan to save him. Still working on how I resolve all this but sort of have a plan. It's gonna be a rough time for everyone.

I really messed with his designs for a while on how fucked up he should get by the end and didn't feel satisfied, but then ended up with a fucking kaiju demon anyway, whoops. I just wanted a design that felt worthy of something that actually felt apocalyptic. :) (normal form Jayce is there for scale lol)

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Garland Cowl by Galzanne Knits.

Made this delightful cowl for a friend's birthday using hand-painted pure mulberry silk by Araucanía Yarns (which appears to be a thing they no longer make?? We won't talk about how long I've had this stashed). The big worsted-weight lace was a lot of fun and worked up quickly once I got my gauge issues sorted out. I'd never worked with silk before! I'm a fan. Learned a new cast on for this, and I turned my bamboo knitting needles and fingers VERY blue, but I sort of like when my crafts stain my hands--it's bright evidence that I'm Out Here Making Things, y'know?

[miles-before-i-sleep]

it would probably be a great big giant pain in the ass but i would love a fanfic where Kayne was forced into John's position, maybe with someone else, even, not Arthur. and that poor soul, too, bc you KNOW Kayne would hate it and fight it and be a huge prick about it the entire way. but there's something about the all powerful laid low and made to feel helpless (even if in reality they're not) that really interests me. "here, see how this shoe fits - terrible, isn't it?"

[hiveswap]

I hope whatever i have is nothing serious bc i've had that enlargened lymph node for like two weeks now and i've been feeling two others that usually arent as prominent as they are 😐

[punch-love]

writing a scene you like so much you start punching the air