#YEAH I WISH FICS FUCKING WROTE THEMSELVES HGOLY FUCKING AHIT

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

#ooooh hope you don't mind that i add on but lile #Chuuya is the one considered the alcoholic of the two but we do see Dazai with at least half a dozen bottles of sake #so like. they both drinl #my personal hc is that chuuya drinks more conservatively but more often and in social situations #while dazai goes on a bender once a month's or so and gets so smashed he wakes up in the hospital 5 days later with no memory #so like. chuuya might leave dazai voicemails shouting and blustering before hirotsu takes the phone and apologies amd hangs up #but i can imagine dazai. still so young. 18-19 years old completely alone in some isolated part of the mainland #away from everyone he's ever known away from the mafia away from his culture and his city and CHUUYA #drunk on the cheapest alcohol he could get (sake most of the time) and completely blacked out. so smashed he can't even stand #and chuuya gets a voicemail full of hiccuping and slurred words talking nonsense from a burner phone #or sometimes dazai manages to get his hands on wine and in those voicemails he laughs and comments on how chuuya would hate him #so much more than he already does if he could just see goe cheap this wine was #and how he'd say it tastes like bullshit. and in those it sounds suspiciously like he's crying #ough i just. completely blackout drunk Dazai having breakdowns all cold and alone and only remembering Chuuya's number #even when he's too drunk to comprehend he shouldn't be calling he still remembers the number and he still remembers Chuuya's name #and even better is that all those hiccupy voicemails are the only guarantee chuuya has that dazai is still alive #sometimes he doesn't get any for a month or three and something in his stomach grows heavy and he can't quite sense why #until he wakes up with a missed call and 20 minutes of complete nonsense and he knows Dazai is out there somewhere

#dmskc sorry i just. ough #they're kids they are!! children!!! #little Dazai completely on his own half crying and he can only think of Chuuya and he still trusts him and calls him #without even knowing why himself

tags by @/ap-pren-tice. uhm leo im going to bite you for this one

I have this vision of a drunk Dazai sending Chuuya voicemails but like, back when he was in hiding, and idk what to do with it