#Xiomara shepard

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Heartless. (~540 words)

People have called Shepard many things over the years. Back when she had just enlisted, there were the slurs spat out by grunts with puffed out chests during basic — stupid names meant for FNGs from Earth, easy to nip in the bud by breaking someone’s nose.

The names didn’t get personal until years later, when she finally had a career to speak of; because that only happens by making tough choices, and of course those choices are for civilians and pencil pushers to criticize. Out loud. In public. And right in front of her drink.

Butcher this, barbarian that… and when someone was feeling dramatic, the one that amused her most: heartless. As though the heart had anything to do with doing her job.

But right now, Xiomara lies in bed looking at the man beside her, and thinks that maybe they were up to something.

Kaidan’s profile is barely visible in the dim light of the room. When he breathes, the rise of his chest under her hand allows her to feel his heartbeat… and Shepard feels a silence settle inside her that she hasn’t found in two or twenty years. Something like a sigh of relief, leaving her from the depth of her aching bones. Something like the thought that she could stay here for a long time.

A message on her omni-tool paints a corner of the room in an orange glow — the tenth in the past few minutes. Even with the thing on silent, she’s aware of every notification that has come through since they got into bed. She knows they will keep coming, that something is probably already going to shit in her absence. She also knows that, the moment she figures out what the next crisis is, Kaidan will follow her into it without missing a beat. These days he seems to be there at every turn. To make himself useful, he says in public; to make up for lost time, he says in private.

A message pings again. Shepard keeps her body still as she ponders that making up for lost time also means watching him sleep like this, unbothered, like he did the night before Ilos. She remembers the surprise on his face when he woke up then, blinking and with static in his hair, like actual rest had snuck up on him. It is strange to have a memory from before Alchera come back to her so clearly — but who else would be the reason if not him?

She wants so badly to keep him where he is. It’s selfish and she doesn’t care. She has to at least try.

What ruins most subterfuge work is overthinking one’s movement, making oneself artificially slow. Shepard rises in one quick, fluid move and stands by the bed on her tiptoes, like a teenager sneaking out of the house.

And she waits.

Kaidan shifts in bed. His arm reaches as if looking for something, and Shepard is sure that she’s busted… but then she sees him find her pillow and pull it close, burying his face in it. There is a long, deep breath as she watches him soothe himself back to sleep by hugging something that belongs to her.

There it is again: that feeling in her chest when she remembers that he wants her. A flutter that eases into warmth and makes it harder to leave each time.

She smiles as she steps away.

They can call her what they will when the war is over. She will give up whatever she has to — but not this, not tonight. For that, she doesn’t have the heart.

[cannot-rest]

@udon2nom3-blog replied to belated Ashley Week thank you:

There’s a new piece- Things That Fit - on Ao3 for Ashley Williams appreciation week!

Whaaaaaaat?! Oh my gosh, if the writer's on here I don't check other websites for a Tumblr event, sorry!

Here is the fic, team:

Things That Fit by GrayWolph Graphic depictions of violence; FShepley; M rated; ~8700 words

This is for Ashley Williams Apprecation Week 2024 Ash tries to figure out where her infatuation with Xiomara Shepard fits into her perception of herself.

[pirateisabela]

RULES: Choose any three fandoms (in random order) and answer the questions, then tag 10 people you want to know better.

Tagged by @redribbonhood

Three Fandoms:

1.       Dragon Age

2.       Mass Effect

3.       Jane the Virgin

The First Character You Loved:

1.       Alistair in Origins, Bethany Hawke in DAII, Dorian Pavus in DAI

2.       Kaidan Alenko in the trilogy, Liam Kosta in Andromeda

3.       I fell in love with Jane Villanueva /Gina Rodriguez the second she appeared on screen

The Character You Never Expected To Love So Much:

1.       Shale

2.       Grunt

3.       Rogelio de la Vega

The Character You Relate To The Most:

1.       Dorian Pavus

2.       Samantha Traynor

3.       Jane Villanueva (because of writing and stuff)

The Character You’d Slap:

1.       Sister Patrice

2.       Illusive Man

3.       Rose Solano

Three Favorite Characters (in order of preference):

1.       Isabela, Dorian and Alistair are tied

2.       Garrus Vakarian, Tali’Zorah vas Normandy, Urdnot Wrex

3.       Jane Villanueva, Xiomara Villanueva, Michael Cordero Jr.

A Character You Liked At First, But Don’t Anymore:

1.       Sebastian Vael

2.       Jacob Taylor (because of bad writing)

3.       Adam Alvaro

A Character You Didn’t Like At First But Do Now:

1.       Evangeline de Brassard

2.       Miranda Lawson

3.       Petra Solano

Three OTPs:

1.       Hawke x Isabela, Inquisitor x Dorian Pavus, Warden x Alistair

2.       Liara x Shepard, Tali x (fem)Shepard, Garrus x Shepard

3.       Michael x Jane, Petra x Jane, Petra x JR

 Tagging: @autistic-danvers @gaysparkler @sporesman @gaydragonwizards @therenaissanceassassin @latebuthere @sonixaly @seeker-athena @can-i-please-go-home-now @theremembereds0ul

[arielxday]

Hurts my heart to see baby boy like this.

[favoriteblogonthecitadel]

Do you ever just think that Women

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I thought the best part of learning to use Blender would be making a face that looks like Xiomara, and I wasn’t wrong, but I also wasn’t expecting the sheer euphoria of remodeling outfits to give her more body fat and make her thicker like she deserves :')

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"You know the Commander?" "I used to."

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Step 1. Miss Xiomara

Step 2. Open ME1 for about 10 minutes, take screenshots, get distracted, shut the game down

Step 3. Repeat

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Bastó mirarte, volver a amarte Para perderte de nuevo.

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And nothing bad ever happened again :)

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In other news, Xo got the short hair treatment for ME1 and I don't think I'm ever going back<3

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Hace tiempo que no agarro a nadie de la mano

Hace tiempo que no envío un “buenos días, te amo”

I’m swooning over this beautiful comm from @ulenehlervu !!! Thank you so much for drawing them, I love your art so freaking much. 🥺

If you would like to help with medical expenses for Laura’s mom and possibly get a lovely commission in the process, consider checking these out!

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Temporarily revisiting ME1 to fish for some lore and I always love looking at her. <3

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No context just Xo with stage 1 renegade scars

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"Violence is a means to an end. Power is that end."

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I am a collapsing star with tunnel vision But only for you But only for you