#Wishing your gayness would go away. Discovering that being gay is grand and glorious.

[remembertheplunge]

The Exclamation Point

August 7, 1990

I watched a beautiful episode of the TV show “Family” tonight.

I loved it. Willie’s friend Zeke comes out as being gay to him. Zeke says “I still am allergic to strawberries. I’m still the guy that you always knew. The same. And, Zeke, like me, learned at age 13. He slept in the garden a few nights, at age 13, in hopes it (being gay) would go away. It didn’t.

Willie was furious. They were long time friends. They shared everything but he exclamation point (Zeke was gay) 

This is why I have dropped Sam.  So afraid that “knowing” I’m gay  might hurt him. For, I believe that he, too, is of the" exclamation point." And, if so, that he is predisposed to self destruct over it. I never want to play Williie-Zeke roll with him. It’s best that in silence we just end it.

And yet, on other plains, my gay life blooms here and there. I come into my culture, or, we come into each other. And, how grand and how glorious it is. A splendid way of being, really.

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“Family” was a TV show that ran from 1976 to 1980. It was about a white family which included a son, Willie, who was probably in his late teens.