#What. first off i remembered this being weird now but what the fuck. second im not a wonder woman fan and this shit is now heinous to me.

[sleepyhouse2art]

i fucking hate the term "outsider artist". daniel johnston was an ARTIST. wild man fischer was an ARTIST, and made way cooler stuff than zappas exploitative ass ever did! just because i have schizophrenia, that means i cant be a regular person and a regular artist? i have to be an "outsider"?

i also think it's a way for normal people to feel cool for knowing about someone "obscure", even though any kind of cultural currency from knowing "obscure media" should have died when we all got little computers in our pockets. you're not cool for knowing "weird" stuff. you're not special. fuck you. anybody could know what you know.

i think people simultaneously fetishize mental illness and also condescend to the actual real people who have severe mental illness. they treat us like we're babies who can't do anything right, or like being crazy makes us lesser than them. i already get treated like a baby by almost everyone i know irl. drawing is really the only thing that makes me feel good anymore and one of my only remaining interests. i usually draw upwards of 8 hours a day. i don't like being regarded as weird because i try so hard to be normal and it's so hard for me to do the things most people do automatically. i feel like they know something about life that i don't. before my first break and my diagnosis i was so much more capable and now i can't even do most of my adls anymore because i keep having them and having them and my brain is so different now. im in and out of the hospital so much. people keep an eye on me. my husband gets frustrated with at me for acting like a baby. i hate it and it sucks.

but having schiz shouldn't mean im dumber than other people or less than other people even though that's how i feel most times. i wish people wouldn't be so rude. people are so rude to me sometimes just because i have a problem with my brain. i went outside for the second time in a year this week and a man laughed at me in the store. i couldn't remember how to swipe a card and the lady got frustrated and took it from me. i felt awful.

im sorry this is so long. im sorry to complain. i think this shit really pisses me off!!! i really resent the way people treated daniel johnston and wild man fischer. fuck everybody who made fun of their great art and acted like they were just a stupid joke, or felt cool for knowing about them. they deserved so much better.

[ghostofsnails]

so did you guys know theres this character called tristan vik disventure camp and

[themyscirah]

I very much know this is because Jessica Cruz's origin story was written by Geoff Johns in a shitty comic, but by God is there so much going on there. Like damn.

Like there's the really, genuinely compelling stuff, for example the presence of ring horror and loss of control w Jess and Power Ring/Volthoom + the implications of that (character wise, both before and after JL 50) which is just SO interesting (and angsty!) to me personally

But then there's also more plot holes than you can shake a stick at as well (where did Jess get her ring. Guys it just showed up who died where did she get it from GUYS-)

All interspersed between some of the worst character writing for other Justice League members in existence (Wondy fans you know what I mean) and crazy ass plots out there

[sludgekludge]

what are some of your most minor pet peeves with hellaverse?

this is a funny question. i like it

whining about silly things under the cut

the white on imps sometimes being scars and sometimes not throws me off because i can never tell what's meant to be subtle indications of a characters history (especially fun for bg designs imo) and whats like. a spot

i honestly think the main 3 in helluva have pretty good design synergy with each other and it makes me hate loona's design because she throws off every group shot

niffty being designed so similarly to the morningstars (stark white skin with red cheek spots) bugs me more than it should

it wasn't so bad in his first appearance iirc but ever since then asmodeus consistently gets drawn with a really tiny head and i can't not notice it

i struggle to really articulate why and this is probably dumb and snobbish of me but the form everyone gets where they get bigger and scarier being called 'full demon' just feels oddly juvenile to me. what does that even mean. full demon. are they like, half demon at their basic self? make up a cool word instead. it sounds like something i'd have written into my cool death reaper umbreon oc at age 9. i hate it. i dont even know why. it just sounds so dumb to me. like peak 'a child wrote this lore'. watch out guys im going full human (permanently injuring a muscle in my body because i stretched slightly funny while over the age of 25)

this feels mean to say but cherri's voice actor doesn't do a very good australian accent at all and it's incredibly distracting if you're even remotely familiar with how it should sound. similarly maybe it's just auditory processing issues on my end but i can't even tell what accent valentino is meant to have

his design is otherwise fine comparatively but i hate the eyes on pentious' tail. breaking up his shape and like. you slither on those. floor in your eye. at least 10 floor hairs in your eyes. i dont care if theyre just markings i hate them

remember when viv said vaggie's name wasn't vagina and then canonised her name as vagina (the only lesbian main character across both shows btw) and also instead of changing her name for real after she restarted her life from scratch she just changed the pronunciation instead of just the whole fucking name, so like clearly it bothered her just not enough to change it fully like she for some reason wanted to keep in part the name 'vagina' given to her by a misogynist man she hates-

i'm irrationally irritated that emily and sera's underwhelming. 'full angel' forms i guess turn up for a split second, it felt so weird and useless to reveal them now for nothing

in fact why is every angel we meet personally in heaven in s1 a normal humanoid even though there's a diverse variety of designs in the background. imo adam is the only one who has an excuse to just be some guy. furthermore where are st peters fucking ears. why were ears deliberately ommitted on his design and no one elses. he has no fucking ears viv

saint peter

[princesssmars]

another one of my dreams that i have to write out because it flabbergasted me and two of my friends. but this time about hazel from bottoms.

ok, reader is the new girl at school. in my dream i was kind of a loser (accurate) but because i can write what i want (and i've read @ptolemaeacles cheerleader headcanons ten times) im changing it.

so reader is trying out to be cheerleader! it helps you make a few friends, isabel being the best one because she’s amazing, beautiful, and a little weird in a really endearing way. she finds you interesting, given your natural talent for dancing and how despite doing vulgar dance moves on the football field, off of it you can be a shy and sweet person!

because of this isabel, brittany and you are pretty much always together. and since they're popular and seen everywhere, that means you are seen everywhere!

which means hazel cant take a fucking break.

walking to sit with pj and josie during lunch and means almost having a heart attack when she sees you handing out flyers for the next school event, looking so ethereal in your cheer uniform she nearly trips over herself.

or when every morning she sits two rows over from you in math class, not so sneakily staring at you for minutes at a time while doing her worksheets.

despite being close to a genius, she thinks there's no way in hell you have ever noticed her. never seen the way your eyes will drift to her when she's sitting in the bleachers while, you're practicing, how you're heart will race when the teacher is calling names for project partners with the chance that the brunette could be in your group.

so sure you had a crush that was going nowhere, but you had a nice bunch of new friends, so people we're starting to like you!

all except one.

mrs. fucking barnes.

for whatever reason, your second period english teacher had decided on your first day to make your senior year a living fucking hell.

put a good amount of effort into an essay? you get a d minus!

want to share a comment you had about the book the class is reading? shut up silly, jeff is going to popcorn read and stutter over a basic sentence!

but one friday, you decided to skip class and the next week she went ballistic.

now, since moving to town, you had noticed that the people here were a little odd, regularly seeing a normal interaction or conversation go to the extreme in seconds.

so, when you're hovering over the toilet in the girls bathroom, a small thought in your brain that loves to say what if's asks: what if somebody bursted in here right now?

when you finish and stand up to pull your jeans up, only to be interrupted when the stall doors bust open with a loud bang! you think for split second that god can literally hear your thoughts and is making you pay for whatever sins you've committed.

those sins must have been fucking murder to make up for how mortified you felt standing in a cramped girls bathroom stall, your pants down with three people staring at you/

the first, mrs. barnes, wearing a look thats a mix between anger and regret.

the second is nettie brown, a girl you recognized from your art class who you remember complimented your heels and you did the same for her coat.'

and then, standing in front the sinks with eyes that look as big as fucking saucers, hazel callahan herself.

your brain catches up to your body and you manage to splutter out a string of curses and yells, forcing the door back closed as the teachers splutters out an excuse about someone telling her you had started doing weed in the bathrooms.

you hear her and some more shoes shuffling out of the bathroom, taking a minute to gather your bearings before you leave the bathroom. when you open the door again you rest your hands on the counter, your eyes closed as you take a breath. when you look up to your reflection, in your peripheral you see a figure standing awkwardly at the back of the bathroom, blue eyes avoiding looking at you.

"hazel?" you ask under your breath, turning around to look at her dead on. she flinches to attention like a child called to attention.

"uh...i just wanted to make sure that you were alright, what she did was really fucked up."

"oh," you mouth, grateful that after something so embarrassing this girl who you barely knew was waiting in a crappy bathroom to make sure you were alright. if it was possible your crush on her just grows. "thank you. that means a lot to me."

her face lights up so brightly you think it could light up a city.

"no problem! i mean, really who cares that much about weed, anyway? i've never cared about bush anyway-"

the room gets silent.

as she quickly rushes out an apology and leaves, all you can think about is how its weird you've been shocked like this twice in a span of ten minutes, and that you have got to ask hazel callahan on a date.

i made this a lot cuter than it was in my dream. i was in the bathroom, looking at these really nice coats on the counter ?? when the door opened, hazel just said "y'know ive never minded bush" and the sheer confusion made wake up.

i put my senior year english teacher in here because. i still hate that bitch.

[mydearesthrry]

hey love, im absolutely in love w your writing and wanted to ask if you could write something about harry asking reader/(y/n) out? maybe he’s super nervous cause he’s been crushing on her for awhile <3

obvious - h.s.

a/n: thank you for the request, lovie! this got a little messy but i hope i lived up to your wishes a little. enjoyyyy <3

🎀 warnings/cw: nothing, fluff ofc, harry being a little nervy boy

🐇 pairing: actress!reader x harry styles

💐 wc: 1.1k

summary: y/n thought she was being so obvious- looks like she was wrong.

“You look incredible,” Harry mutters, eyes trying to stray off of his script in an attempt to memorize it for the scene the next day. “I’ve been thinking we should try something crazy…” He pauses, trying to let the scene play out as accurately as possible. “Let’s have a baby.” 

A few beats pass. “What?” YN follows, a bewildered look in her eyes. Harry just smiles, eyes flicking down at his script, nodding when he remembered his line. 

“I mean, not right this second, obviously, we don’t have time. But…” Throwing the words around in his head, trying to ignore his chest squeezing at how accurate his next words were in reference to her, “I love you, and I want more of you, and now I think I want a little you. I don’t know. It’d be an adventure.”

Their eyes catch each other, and they share a look that they both couldn’t explain even meant. YN dropped her gaze first before clearing her throat and shifting on the sofa. “Yeah, that was great, H. I think we’ll do well tomorrow.” 

Harry sniffed and looked down at his script, flipping back to the title page. “Um– yeah, we will.” 

Fuck. Harry thought. His hands kept fidgeting, left leg bouncing up and down. He wasn’t even anxious, per se, but he felt so incredibly nervous because of the pretty angel sitting next to him. He’d been pining over her since he was a teenager, watching all of her movies the day they came out, and listening to all of the tracks that she’d sung on every soundtrack. He even went on a spontaneous trip with the boys when they were in New York just to see her perform on Broadway. 

So safe to say, when he got the call back that he’d gotten the role of Jack Chambers in Don’t Worry Darling, he was doing somersaults when he found out who his on screen wife would be. It felt crazy to him that his dreams from when he was in tenth year had finally come to fruition— kind of. The two had a weird relationship at first, YN being extremely closed off and standoffish at the beginning, but she slowly let Harry break down her cemented walls that she’s had up for so long. She didn’t know why, but for some reason, Harry was one of the only people that she allowed to get to know her– fully, at least. 

“Okay, pretty boy, it’s getting pretty late, and I have an earlier call time tomorrow than you do, so I think I’m gonna head out now.” Standing up, she brushed off the front of her gray sweatpants, showing up to Harry’s flat in the most comfortable clothes possible since she knew she would be there for a while. She picked up their now empty wine glasses, them having shared a glass or two throughout the course of the night. 

Harry didn’t give any response and an awkward silence filled the air, almost suffocating as YN stared at Harry in confusion. “H?” 

Nothing. 

Harry was lost in his thoughts, seemingly. I need to do it now, but what if she says no! What if I’ve been misreading her this entire time and she’s just being nice? But that wouldn’t even make sense, would it? She’s been picking up what I’ve been putting down… I think? Has she? Fuck… Wait, wait what? Is she leaving? Why’s she slipping her shoes on?

“Wait,” Harry managed to choke out, YN halting her movements immediately. “Don’t– um, don’t leave, please? Come sit down, I wanna… I wanna ask y’something.” 

Fuck, he was really doing this. 

“Been trying to tell you that I’m leaving for like, ten minutes now, Babe.” She laughed, toeing her shoe off, dropping the other one she had in her hand onto the floor. 

“What’s up? What’s the matter?” She traced his face with her eyes, clocking his distant look that was written all over his face. 

“Bug, have t’tell y’something, but if I’m wrong, y’have to tell me, promise?” Harry mumbled, eyes flicking down to his hands where he was fidgeting with his ringless fingers. His rings were in a velvety cinched bag that YN, of course, had gotten him at a little thrift shop they found. 

“Promise, babe. Now, what is it, is everything okay?” She gripped the bottom of his chin in an attempt to get him to look at her. It began reminding her of the scene they filmed earlier of their characters in the living room in a very vulnerable state. 

He was too nervous to say his next words to even realize she'd called him babe. “I… I- um- I don’t want this t’ruin our relationship, but I have t’tell y’cause it’s been basically eating at me, but I… I really like y’and I want nothing more than t’take y’out on a date. But, if y’don’t feel the same don’t worry! I jus’ didn’t want to not tell y’and ruin our friendship or anything, even though now I fear I’ve made it wors-” 

“Oh my God,” She cut him off, giggles that soon turned into full on cackles filling the air. He watched her in fear, a worried look now on his face at the thought that she was laughing at him. “Harry, sweet boy, I would love to go out with you.” 

“I- you- wha- what? I… I don’t think I understand?” He stumbled, her actions and words not adding up in his YN clouded brain. 

“I thought I was being so obvious about how I felt about you, H. Sorry for not being more clear, that’s on me. Is this why you’ve been so distant and weird with me lately? You’ve been acting like this just ‘cause you have a crush on me?” She tried to understand, but by the look on his face she could see that he was really not getting what was even happening right now. “Babe, I’ve liked you since I watched you in the crowd of the first AMA’s you went to. I didn’t even get to meet you, but I’ve liked you since I’ve seen you, and it honestly’s gotten worse since I have to pretend to be your wife on screen.” 

Harry was bewildered. “So, y’telling me, that all this time I’ve just had to ask? Instead of torturing myself every night?” 

“Yeah, bug, that’s what ‘M telling you,” She giggled, moving closer to him on the couch. “We’re doing this backward, I think. How’s it that I’ve had your literal tongue in my mouth before you’ve even taken me out on a date?” 

“Well, when you put it that way!” He laughs, pulling her onto his lap like he’s always wanted and waited to do. They sat in silence for a few beats, letting their eyes roam around their faces without worrying about the director yelling 'Cut!'.

“What’re you waiting for? Gonna ask me out officially?” She whispered, moving her face closer to Harry, them being able to now feel their breaths waft between them. 

“Nah, gonna kiss y’first, officially as us, and not as Jack and Alice.” Harry mumbled.

"Yeah?"

"Mhm."

And when their lips finally touched as Y/N and Harry, the teenage boy in Harry was practically doing backflips and somersaults, knowing that his dreams had finally come true.

[ppppxseur]

characters that i believe are black

what are my qualifications you may ask? i'm black. thats it those are my qualifications

also if i see a single comment about "blackwashing" i will lose my SHIT, i swear to god

also theres no fandom order for this so good luck trying to figure out what's coming next

MINA ASHIDO (MY HERO ACADEMIA)

she breakdances, she's spunky, she's energetic. she's deffo one of those black girls who wears cookie monster pajama pants to school and adopts shy kids cuz she doesn't have that type of shame

like... need i make myself clear enough?

also she definitely has some sort of vitiligo

IZUKU MIDORIYA (MY HERO ACADEMIA)

i mean... he has no father. horikoshi practically screamed in my face that this kid is black as fuck.

he deffo cant cook tho, which i like to think is something that bakugou teases him relentlessly for

also this boy is tenderheaded as fuck and cries when mina does his hair

LUCINDA (APHMAU MCD/MYSTREET)

LOOK AT HER. look me in the eyes and tell me RIGHT now that that is not an albino black woman

you cant, im simply correct on everything

god i miss my girl. lucinda you deserve the world and you deserve all of the screentime and i cannot believe that bitch aaron SNATCHED the screentime that was rightfully yours

THE STRILONDES (HOMESTUCK)

"but do you mean all of-" YES. ALL OF THEM. they are all black and they are all jewish hussie told me so himself, argue with the GODDAMN wall.

ARADIA / DAMARA MEGIDO (HOMESTUCK)

my favorite weird girl <3

"but the megidos are asi-" WHY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE. SHUT UP.

first of all the fact that damara's typing quirk was just Straight Up Japanese (and not even GOOD japanese either) is NOT the best fucking look if you want to potray another race. but also people can be biracial that is a thing and i hc the megidos as being blasian.

there is everyone happy? good now lets keep going

NEPETA / MEULIN LEIJON (HOMESTUCK)

(my second favorite weird girl)

(my THIRD favorite weird girl)

i dunno. theyre my faves. i love them. therefore they are black. i feel like i dont need much explanation other than that

KARKAT / KANKRI VANTAS (HOMESTUCK)

ugh. the thing that sucks about ones with family (or... i guess in the trolls case, the closest thing of "family" you can get) is that you have to make them all the same race or otherwise you have to explain the weird shit

kankri is lightskinned and uses his white passing privilege for evil.

also before you even THINK about trying to pass off white vantas: LOOK at their fucking storyline. just LOOK at it.

(before i move on from homestuck, i just wanna mention a quick side note: i didnt include gamzee or kurloz for one Very Obvious reason and thats the fact that, just like damara and her incredibly broken and bad Japanese as hussie's horrendous attempts to include other races in homestuck, i simply believe that the notion of all purple bloods being naturally incredibly violent is Not A Good Look. especially adding in that the only reason why gamzee is pacified is because he's doing the troll equivalent of hard drugs. and you can make an argument because... well.. what about kurloz? and to that my response would be WHAT ABOUT HIM? because i dont remember dick diddly and SQUAT about him and i dont really care.

so yeah i didnt include the makaras because while i do believe they are black i dont believe theyre the best representation because the only reason why people think that is because of the incredibly racist undertones of it)

ANYWAY i'm doing ONE more because this thread is already so goddamn long

POPPY AND VIVA (TROLLS)

the silliest girls possibly in the entire universe. i think they're black and hispanic mixed (im thinking maybe dominican or cuban)

ANYWAY! end of this long ass fucking thread. i cant believe my first fucking post on this account was this monster of a thread

anyway, follow me if you like any of these fandoms ig

[seerofmike]

Mike's Media Medley; September and October 2024

so it turns out having 3 jobs and being a part time student means i dont wanna do anything ever so this will be kind of a lightning round in which i just state some brief thoughts and give a score on all the things i experienced for the very first time in september and october 2024.

Movies (2024 releases): Blink Twice, My Old Ass, Transformers One, Saturday Night, The Wild Robot

Movies (non-2024 releases): Rear Window (1954), In The Heat of the Night (1967), Tár (2022)

Video games: Touhou Mystia's Izakaya (2021), Cult of the Lamb (2022), Sonic x Shadow Generations, Balatro, and Mouthwashing (2024)

Blink Twice

this is zoe kravitz's directorial debut and im gonna be honest this kind of slayed. i saw some people complain about how long the build up goes but i think the build up makes the twist work even better. speaking of the twist PLEASE take the warning at the beginning of the movie very seriously.

really enjoyed it and might watch it a second time to see if i can pick up new details but i think seeing it two times will exhaust its appeal to me, i think that's like the max i can enjoy it. really good movie but it hinges on the twist.

btw the title card popping up EXTREMELY briefly during a camera flash? 10/10 no notes

77.5/100

In The Heat of the Night (1967)

i think this movie is like, Fine. definitely a solid movie with good performances. i think the cultural context it was made in elevates it and i understand how BOLD this movie would've been back in the 60s (especially when sidney poitier slaps a white man) but as far as like. police procedurals/mystery solving etc goes its not my favorite but that's not necessarily the point.

decent watch, made better with the cultural context of its time

65/100

My Old Ass

this movie was ALRIGHT and i barely remember anything about it. i didn't hate it i don't think. i didn't love it. i think only one moment made me truly laugh and i can't even remember what that moment was.

40/100 on the basis of me liking it i.e it didnt piss me off like some other movies ive watched but maybe the score should be lower because i dont remember a thing about it idk

Rear Window (1954)

i meant to watch this in theaters for its 70th anniversary but i had to work both days it was showing so i rented it from my local library. this is my first hitchcock film and i thought it was REALLY good, definitely way better than i was expecting based on plot synopsis alone but that just shows i was a fool sorry for doubting alfred hitchcock

that being said watching old movies rly makes you notice how many young women get paired up with men twice their age and its narsty and i wanted the mc to die for most of the movie. im only half kidding. didn't care so much for the personal drama side between crusty ass man and his girl tbh

incredibly good suspense. might watch it again but idk if i would like it as much on repeat viewings

80/100

Saturday Night

i couldnt understand a word anyone was saying in this movie because of weird sound mixing and how intrusive the music was especially at the beginning which feels rly uh bad considering how talky this movie is.

wish i could give it a higher score but alas i didnt hear 75% of the plot or jokes which SUCKS because I AM RACHEL SENNOTTS BIGGEST SHOOTERRRRRR

40/100

Tár (2022)

i was kinda bored by this. i got the point i just got bored. i dont rly remember much except thinking it was incredibly funny she got punished by the narrative into orchestrating video game concerts

technically very well made and cate is obviously putting her pussy into this it was just not for me.

45/100

Transformers One

now this is what im fucking talking about

i didnt think i remembered much about transformers but i watched this w my mom and the whole time we were going omg starscream omg soundwave omg i am optimus prime yassssss

choreography is fucking epic. jokes landed for me 75% of the time. but the obvious highlights are the character development and backstories for optimus and megatron. this movie was epic and you should watch it for free on your favorite pirate website because fuck paramount lives and SHOUT OUT TO BRIAN TYREE HENRY OF LEMON FAME WHO HASNT MISSED YET IM GONNA WATCH ATLANTA ONE DAY KING I PROMISE

85/100

The Wild Robot

gorgeous movie. lupita fucking killed it. cried at the end. dont think i would rewatch it much but i greatly enjoyed it. no notes go watch it

85/100

viddy games

Balatro (2024)

girl help

Cult of the Lamb (2022)

ADORABLE art style, lots of mechanics but not necessarily very in depth. the perks just feel kinda eh but i love the aesthetic and the music. also usually not big on things with religious themes but i let this one slide cuz its a cult doing. bad cult things LOL. also i love my little guys

Mouthwashing (2024)

theres literally so much i want to say about mouthwashing but what can i say that hasnt been said already...ill save it for my end of the year review because it is DEFINITELY making my top 7 unless these final 6ish weeks of the year are full of fucking bangers

Sonic x Shadow Generations (2024)

ok so i never played the og sonic generations much, i rented it on redbox once and my brother rented batman arkham city at the same time and we had one xbox so i barely played that thing before we had to return it becuz his stupid ass hogged it all weekend and im not bitter about this still at ALLLLLLLL but god i fucking love shadow the hedgehog so much hes truly the little guy ever

Touhou Mystia's Izayaka (2022)

so i haven't sunk a WHOLE lot of hours into this game because i keep getting distracted by other things but i think its VERY cute and chill and pretty fun and i might be tempted into the touhou project dark side maybe

[fruitbasketball]

you sound like you would know bc u know the game- what happened in the first like 10 seconds of the final four UConn vs Iowa game? It’s driving me crazy bc I don’t understand I was so baffled bc it looked like kk passed Paige a perf ball to start the game and like idk something weird happened and they fumbled it?? like plausible she just dropped it but maybe im blind and also there seems like a 0.000001% chance of that happening

uhhhh i wish i could answer this question but i genuinely do not remember what you are talking about baby i’m sorry 😭😭 i just remember that first half being some of the best basketball they’d played all season

i would go back and watch it to let you know, but i’ve unfortunately sworn off of that fucking game for at least a year it’s just too painful to watch lol

i did clockthat paige was weirdly off that game. like. it was so strange. i didn’t see the like fire in her that i see every other game, and maybe i’m exaggerating it in my head now that it’s after the fact but… paige was weird. she was weird before the game and she was weird in it. idk why for sure, and i have my theories, but imma sound fucking CRAZY if i say shit, so i’ll mind my business.

[sleepyhouse2art]

https://www.tumblr.com/sleepyhouse2art/774057026027421696/i-went-outside-for-the-first-time-in-a

hey, sorry if this is invasive i'm just genuinely curious -- why haven't you gone outside for a year? (i deal with a lot of stuff too that prevents me from leaving the house for long periods of time like this as well, so trust me i'm not judging, if anything it's just nice to not be so alone in doing this if that makes sense lol 😅)

hey!! no no it's not invasive <3 this might be a little long im sorry

i've struggled pretty bad with agoraphobia before. there was a period before this where i didn't leave my house for two years but that was more because my schiz was really bad. after those two years i was fine for a year, i could go out without too many problems at least. but something happened to me last year.

so last year on dec 5th i was walking home from the gas station and a white van pulled up beside me. i looked at it and thought, 'oh shit it's finally happening, it's finally happening', and then i didn't have time to think anymore because i heard running behind me. as soon as i turned my head there was a man in a balaclava and he said to me, 'shh shh shh babygirl'. suddenly i was on the ground. i genuinely thought it was the police for a second and that i was being arrested. then i realized they would have yelled at me first and i knew it wasn't. if i didn't realize fast enough he would have cuffed me. he had handcuffs. when i saw the glint of the handcuffs that meant death to me. so i fought.

i am like 5'2 and 88 lbs so i am not good at fighting and i am not very strong. i struggle to pick up my largest cat, lol. i don't even know how i struggled enough for him not to be able to cuff me dude. i think he got frustrated so he just picked me up. i was saying no no no no no no no. he started carrying me to the back of his van. i was kicking him and hitting him. it didn't do anything at all. i saw the fence of the motel beside us and i saw the lightening purple sky and i saw the dead plants crawling up the fence -- this is my street, i wasn't even half a block from my house -- and i knew if i didn't get away right now that i would never see my husband or my cats again. i carry pepper spray in my coat pocket every time i go out cause im scared of men, and i carry it open so all i have to do is depress the button. i remembered just then that i had it. we were inches from the back of the van. he was going to put me in the van. i knew what would happen to me if he put me in this van. he was going to rape me and kill me and nobody would ever know what happened to me, my husband wouldn't ever know what happened to me, i would just disappear. i pulled the pepper spray out off my pocket and i just sprayed it behind me. i had never used it before. having it, and having it open like that i think saved my life. cause he fucking went down. i went down too, because he was carrying me. i started running. the weirdest thing was i tried to scream as i ran to my house but i couldn't even get a real scream out. it just wouldn't come out of my mouth. i don't know why. this is weird too -- i know i got pepper spray in my eyes but i could see perfectly until i got into my house and shut the door, because once i was inside and safe i legit couldn't see anymore. i had to shout for my husband to come help me up the stairs.

i have had really bad fucked up things happen to me and i have been raped more than once and i have had guys pull weapons on me before but nothing has ever scared me more than that man trying to pull me into that death van. i couldn't go outside after that. i couldn't even open the door to check the mail. i was so afraid he'd be there. and i read in the local nextdoor website about how other people had seen the white van too, how he'd followed a teenage girl on MY STREET again on her way to school and a nice lady had asked her into her car instead because she'd just dropped off her own kids and she saved her and drove her to school, how a woman waiting for the light at night had been trailed by the same white van with the same lightskin guy in it and she'd flashed her gun and he'd got spooked and turned around. i knew he was out there. i couldn't leave. i don't know what happened to him. i'm still really scared he's out there. i worry he still drives around in my neighborhood and that he'll see me and he'll kill me. i don't know if i will ever go outside by myself ever again. i can't imagine it. it's weird. i don't know.

so that is what happened and why i haven't been outside until today. im sorry you have struggled with not being able to go out too, it really sucks. it feels so shameful and you feel trapped and just shitty and like a burden, or at least i really do. i hope things are good for you right now, or at least if they aren't good i hope they are at least okay.

sidenote this is sort of funny -- he broke my glasses and i lost my shoes lol (my husband had to go back and find them in the snow) but he also took the chips i was bringing home from the store. i know because when my husband went to get my shoes and look for my glasses they weren't on the ground anymore. lmao

reminder to everyone everyone everyone but especially afab people PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE carry pepper spray and know how to quickly use it. it saved my life and it could save yours. the one i have is this police-grade pepper spray that may or may not be legal that my husband bought off some dude, i forget the brand but it has like a wildcat or a dog on the front and i don't like looking at it but he says it's a good one. don't cheap out on pepper spray because when you need it you really need it!!! you can get a good powerful pepper spray for like $20.

anyway, thank you for weathering this extremely overlong answer and i hope your night/morning is decent!!!

love to everyone who reads this <3 please be careful and safe and warm!

[callsign-relic]

hi!! liveblog! its. very long. 3 episodes! but mostly im yelling about episode 2 because character intros <3

SEASON 2 EP 1!!

newwww season let's go BABEY!!

oh shit it starts out like RIGHT where it left off.

blackarachnia seems to be back to normal... smart move leaving during the initial confusion

Megatron smackin Scorponok and Waspinator fhksbffbfkjfk??

uh oh!! its not over yet!!! quantum surge...

"sneaky ball of legs"... i LOVE all the weird nicknames and monikers so so so much. every new one is a delight 

OHHHHHH TARANTULAS IS STILL IN HER HEAD... OHOHOOOO SO FUCKED UP

OHHHHH SOOOOOOOO FUCKED UP HES CAUGHT HER IN A WEB IN HER OWN BRAIN...

also ehehehe... big spoder.

side thought. i enjoy tarantulas but i would NOT want to be a tiny around him. hed eat u (a win in ANY other circumstance) bUT i feel like hed be so nasty about it. so truly awful. 0/10 experience.

ITS THE FIRST EP OF THE SEASON- HOW ARE THERE SO MANY UH OHS ALREADY- OH MY GOD?????

whats happening to everyone!!!!!!

DID TERRORSAUR JUST DIE? he fell in the lava!!!!! TERRORSAUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:

what IS happening to you Megatron?!?!?!

CHEERING YELLING at Tarantulas and BA being stuck together for the time being. 

"h-hey! im uh... gorgeous!" RHDKFHSK RATTRAP

OH SHIT they got fancy robotic beastmodes????

cheetor can FLY????

oh no the poor boy

RATTRAP HAS WHEELS... he looks like a cat toy xgufkghckgjx

oh my god. what about the predacons

waspinator is the same...

OH GOD. Megatron... somehow MORE intimidating than before

oh tarantulas has also undergone some changes (??)

oh shit yeah. rhinox was alseep for all that

WHAAAAAAAAAAT was that OPs spark?????

spinning rattraps wheels... how scandalous Dinobot :3c

oh shit is scorponok also gone???? ARE THEY ACTUALLY FR DEAD??? i dont know what to do about this! IM USED TO THEM COMING BACK...

CHEETOR YOU CAN FLY NOW YOULL BE FINE

these new forms are strange but also REALLY fun mechanically.

OH!! cheetors got a tail whip(?) ill miss the guts gun but this is pretty neat

hmm. its interesting that now cheetor actually looks more cheetah-like in his bot mode more than his beast mode, with the prominent spots and all- oh. his butt is still spotted in beast mode.

"rrroyalty! youve come for me!" aw inferno...

AW HE KINDA DID COME FOR HIM ACTUALLY. THEY'RE RETREATING NOW

new forms has its ups and downs i suppose. learning how to control them is one issue lmao

OH????? OH TWO NEW CHARACTERS??

HELL YES HELL YES HELL YES!!!!!!!!!

fuck!!!! i just remembered. WHENS MY MANTA RAY BOY APPEARING. that didn't look like a manta ray environment. so i assume not yet...

oh god. is this going to be another situation where it turns out that the character/s that ignited my interest in the show for to only appear really late in the runtime... PLEASR. IVE ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THIS WITH TFA BLURR, SHOCKWAVE AND SWINDLE... PLEASE................. also tf armada...

i mean ill have a good time regardless but AUGH,,

anyway. terrorsaur and scorponok are GONE gone it seems DDD: 

im significantly more sad about one than the other hskfnndbd sorry scorponok

id say the same abt OP but uh. with Optimuses track records in other continuities... he's probably fine.

S2 EP2

:0 what are the Fuzors.

YES lets go new character intros!!

i love that Megatron has like. rollerblades now. i take back what i said about him being more intimidating. hes got rollerskates.

what does waspinator know? what does DINOBOT know?

HRJDFHKDHD Dinobot sneaking up on the camera HFJFHFKDNFKDNFKD REALLY GOOD!!!!!!

THE DISCS... Hkdfhjs i wrote that and then waspinator said it half a second later bskfbdksn

WHAT is the significance of the moon- "EARTHHHHH........"

WHAT!! what do you MEAN the discs give a record of the future!!

oh fuck i forgot they got sent back in TIME

awwwwwww NOOO waspinator oh my GOD hes been UNMADE- HE GOT CUBED?????

HE GOT CUBED!!!!!!!!!

Tarantuachnia!!!!!!! i cant. merge their names. tarachnia.

i love that she keeps kicking tarantulas' body along LMAO

oh waspinator is fine :]

HRJSOSJDKNEKBGKEBGKE AWWW NOO BABY... "oh Suuure! dont MIND waspinator! waspinator just LIE HERE and SUFFER... drag HIMSELF to CR TANK..." awauauauuaujhdgfhhtn4nmdmx

Tigatron: after you, my lady <3

aw... off they go............ 

oh!!!!!!!!!! we're getting THREE???????? BOTS??

RT: crack the egg and say hello! 

or not :( one's a dud. 

this is how OP comes back... or Starscream.

PLEASE not Starscream.

critical scanner damage!! 

WHOS THIS!!!! 

THE VOICES. i love them!!!!!!!!!!! 

HRJDKFHDKWMFNEK THE ONE THAT JUST WOKE UP AND IS LIKE "I bet i can THRASH yer tail" HELLO????? oh my GOD what is he. that was a cobra tail thing. it ALSO HAD A FACE. WHAT IS HE!!!!!!!!!!

also whats the OTHER one

WOLF

WINGED WOLF?????????????????

hes like. a deviantart creation. 12 year olds cool wolf angel oc. i love him.

scorponok... TWO. scorposnek.

TARNATION! whys he a COWBOY!! i was like. oh he's got an accent- NO!! HES A COWBOY!!!!

wait actually hes a scorpion and a snake, those ARE desert-y cowboy animals. fair ig

inferno: "FOOL! pain is my friend! allow me to introduce YOU to it!!" hehehe

oh my god hes THWACKIN him around by the tail ahdjdbs??

awww angel wolf is standing up for the cowboy! even though cowboy just tried to beat him up!

oh my god. dinobot and him have the potential to be great friends. they have similar values.

a knight and a cowboy... what a combo to introduce.

wait.

WAIT

IS THIS SILVERBOLT? hes all chivalrous... 

i know you mentioned him when i first asked abt beast wars. is this your boy...

"what? you TRUST this tinhorn TOAD?" 

hes so dramatic. I LOVE this cowboy- QUICKSTRIKE!!

YESSSSSSSSS I WAS RIGHT HE IS SILVERBOLT!!!

hes FR a deviantart OC. the way he DESCRIBED HIMSELF im HWEEZING he's fantastic. "PURE, STRONG AND FAST..." he was even framed dramatically by the moon!!!

OHHHHH i love both of them. 

Quickstrikes design with all his scorpion legs on one hand is uh. A Choice though LMAO

rattrap: "primal's been vamped. dinobot's DISSAPPEARED. stripes and the bird lady are on some world CRUISE" dhdkdjjsksnfme he says it like theyr on holiday

rhinox is going offline?? 

awhh... Rattraps gettin left alone... :((!!?!

WAIT NVM CHEETOR IS STILL HERE WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABT.

Ehdjfodjskdjdkgnlsbdkdndhdk sir?????? YOJ SENT HIM AWAY 

oh my GOD Dinobot is Hamleting again!!!

"to be or not to be..."

whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing, end them... fun fact back in highschool i had that whole soliloquy memorized.

my god hes having a crisis out here. just like hamlet 

HES *STILL* SOLILOQUIZING

the discs ARE a mystery though. very very fun. 

oh hes HIDING them

yesssss... YESS................ hes BACK! MY WEIRDBOY!

i LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!!!

oh this is FASCINATING. 

Megatron: "Teamwork and cooperation, those are the Predacon watchwords..." 

QS: "how about backstabbin, and treachery?"

so so so fascinating that Megatron fully knows whats needed for a cohesive team (teamwork and cooperation), but those aspects so often go against the values of the characters that he'd align himself with. 

the cobalt kitty! i love the fact that they give themselves silly monikers as well.

silverbolt............ hes too nice for the predacons

MEGATRON CAN FLY TOO

giddyEUPP!! YEEHAW!!!!!

im torn. im discovering that i actually do not like Quickstrike very much.

its been like. less than 15 minutes after hes been introduced and im just like. oh youre terrible and annoying.

but . BUT. i know im gonna have a GREAT time when you're onscreen because some FREAK SHIT is gonna happen. also i still really like his silly cowboy accent dhfjdbe,,, but i but i do not like Him.

oh god. rhinox is in danger.

Dinobot is hiding the disc 👀?

BIG GUNS!!!!!!!!!!!

rattrap is so FAST!

OH SHIT. Tarantulas can still control BA!! 

so fucked up!!! SO FUCKED UP!! awful awful man!!

"yoo hoo! waspinator here too!" HES SO CUTE.

OH NO. SOME MORE COWBOY BULLSHIT IS ABOUT TO GO DOWN.

is that a CLOCK? what a cool clock design

whaaaaaat is going on with Rhinox!!!

oh these cowboy shots are really cool actually.

i LOVE the dramatics

to be continued!!!!!!!!!! FUCK i forgot this was a multiparter!!

in that case ill include the next ep in this set too

S2 EP3

HRJSHSJS SO many shots. THEY DECIMATED THAT ROCK.

they really are out numbered atm

TRANSMETAL TARANTULAS ZOOMIN whskfbemrhek??????

awwwh... SILVERBOLT

OHHHHHHHHHH THE NEW BOTS ARE FUZORS. because. theyr. fusions................ okay yeah fair hajfkfksmfbekgb,,

where's Black Arachnia...

Rhinox!!!!!!! Is he going after OP?!?!

Megatrons room again... OH THERES HIS RUBBER DUCKY 🥺

SB: "These Maximals are Fools!" ehkrjfke

UH OH MEGATRON FIGURED IT OUT THEYR GOIN FOR RHINOX!!

doggybot! oop. there he goes.

RHSJDODJEKNFKDNFKE THE SUDDEN  CUT TO DINOBOT BOPPIN UP AND DOWN AS HE GETS TRANSPORTED BY RATTRAP whdkfkflfn

oughghhh... Tarantulas and Black Arachnia's dynamic is So so so messed up here its great

HE GOT SQUASHED AGAIN

she's so SNEAKY <3 

awhhhh BUPPY. hes got puppydog eyes!!! HES CUTEEEE

awh silverbolt... he's had the idea of defecting put into his head >:3c

rhinox went somewhere where all are one...

LETS GO! ITS PRIME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i assume anyway

the cowboy musical stings are actually Really good. LIKE REALLY GOOD. i came around on those. it works so well.

of COURSE they gave Quickstrike fucking cowboy spur noises for his footsteps.

"WELL THATS JUST PRIME."

LETS GOOOOOOO

hes got a HOVERBOARD??

i wonder if the creators of the show just happened to be watching a ton of western movies when making these episodes. why's there so much cowboy stuff.

SB: consider that my resignation, Megatron!

HECK YES

"well, i like your resume" LMAO??? his resume contains: Megatron Yelling

LMAO?? RATTRAP TOOK OVER OPS QUARTERS.

black arachnia >:3c ohohoho im so excited to see what she does.

i assume that the new transmetal forms were partially made in order to sell new toys LMAO. i wonder if others will get transmetal forms later on as well :0

i actually prefer the look of their og forms (i. love animal), but i really like the functionality and fun designs of these new ones...

I really like Tarantulas and Cheetors new forms in particular !! I think only Tarantulas looks definitively Cooler in my books, but that's also because his design was pretty Silly before imo. stripy....

ahdkfhsk SORRY I TALKED SO MUCH THIS ROUND,, THERE WAS JUST SO MUCH TO COMMENT ON,,,,

id have just done eps 1 and 2, but 2 and 3 is a two parter... anyway ill probably have a longer gap between liveblogs again so im not just. taking up So Much Space on your blog and in your askbox shfkfbdndn o7

- init

[blueskittlesart]

hiiiiiiii so um. ik a while back you posted a doodle of yourself with short hair and i’ve been thinking about cutting mine short—do you have any tips about picking a style or anything that might not be obvious about having short hair?

oh fuck yes I do! I've had short-medium hair in a few different styles since I was thirteen (im 20 now, so it's been a while) and I recently buzzed my head for the second time so i'm pretty experienced in this area lol!

first thing you should know is that if anyone has ever suggested that you don't have the "facial structure" for short hair or that you're not gonna look good with it is full of shit. no one tells men they don't have the face for short hair. i promise it's gonna look good. chop that shit off

in terms of style, be aware of the amount of work the style you pick is going to take. when I first cut my hair short the reference photo I gave my stylist was of a heavily styled cut--something that would take gel and hairspray and a lot of effort to maintain every day. The base cut was fine, but it didn't look like my reference photo without a ton of effort on my part, and at 13 I wasn't really willing to put that kind of effort in, so my hair ended up unstyled and kind of flat and weird for a while. if you're someone that doesn't like to put a ton of work into styling their hair every day, pick a style you can just wake up and go with. my personal favorite lazy bitch haircut is the buzzcut that i currently have. insanely low maintenance and comes with the added benefit of stopping weird men from talking to you in public. perfect haircut.

Also be aware of how your cut is going to grow out and/or how often you're going to have to get it trimmed to keep it looking the same way. that was something i remember being really surprised about when i first cut my hair off--when your hair gets to a certain length, it grows more slowly and you don't have to cut it as regularly to maintain its health and your look. when you have shorter hair, your hair grows FAST, and if you're not planning on growing it out you're going to need much more regular trimming to keep it in check. Make sure that that's in your budget or that you have the time and skill to trim it back yourself! Alternatively, if you're planning on growing it out after the cut, look into how it's gonna grow out so you know what to expect in terms of look and styling. I like to buzz my head mid-summer and let it grow out for about a year before shaving it all off again, because I know that I like all the stages of growing out that cut and I know how to style all of them. there's always gonna be an awkward stage of growing out your hair, but make sure that you're not gonna spend a ton of time hating your look just to get your length back if that's your plan!

my final advice: if you're looking for a specifically masculine haircut as an afab person, do not go to the same older female stylist you've been going to since you were 10 years old. trust me. You can show that woman a picture of a whole grown man for reference and you will still be leaving with a karen cut. she is incapable of giving you what you want. Either try to find a stylist who you trust to use your reference faithfully, go to a male barber, or cut it yourself! especially if you're going for a simple buzzcut or something similar, it's really easy to cut your own hair at home with a pair of electric clippers from amazon. I've been cutting my hair with safety scissors and some clippers borrowed from a friend for going on 4 years now. it's easier than you think!! youtube tutorials are your best friend.

now onto things you might not know:

listen to me. this is the single most important piece of advice i can give you. buy spray-on sunscreen and SPRAY YOUR FUCKING HEAD. there is no hell like a peeling sunburn all over your fucking scalp. it will happen and you will not expect it and you will want to die. you are going to think your hair is thick enough that it won't happen and it is going to happen anyway. do not take chances with this shit

you do NOT need nearly as much shampoo and conditioner for a short cut as you are instinctively going to put in your hands after years of having long hair. think, proportionately, about the product-to-hair ratio you were using BEFORE your haircut, and do not squirt out more than like a nickel-sized pool of product at the absolute most. your bank account and your hair will thank you.

short hair still needs to be taken care of especially if you're bleaching/otherwise chemically treating it regularly! if you're putting harsh chemicals in your hair you should be using restorative treatments afterwards regardless of length. no matter how short your hair is it can still get stringy and gross and break!!

in that same vein, you CANNOT be applying bleach to your short hair in the same way you do for your long hair. listen to me. Drugstore bleach cannot be sitting directly on your scalp for more than 20 minutes. if your hair is short, any amount of bleach you put in it is going to end up sitting directly on your scalp. i know it's tedious to do multiple passes but chemical burns are even more tedious. please do not put bleach on your skin

also in regards to bleaching/color, keep in mind that your semipermanent color is probably going to have less longevity in your short hair than it did in your long hair. Since all your hair is close to your scalp now, it's taking the brunt of your shampoo regimen and therefore the dye is going to wash out quicker than it would in long hair where most of the dye is further away from the scalp. if you're regularly trimming your hair to keep it your desired length, you're also going to be cutting out a lot more color than you would by just trimming dead ends on long hair. you may find yourself spending more on hair dye if you dye your hair regularly!

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

holy fuck, this gives the zenin so much more lore than what we got in the manga. like the potential is right there to have this great inter-clan generational dispute and cold war but gege just breezes past it and then gets rid of it completely.

with all this cool new shut we’re getting about them, im almost glad that megumi was born a boy. like could you imagine just how much worse the zenin would have been to him if he was a girl? they already have the whole misogyny thing going for them and then their version of jesus pops up and it turns out that it’s a girl who wields their prized technique?

god, i can’t imagine just how much more controlling they would be towards megs, although im still not sure if the whole training until ur bones fall off would still happen. i feel like naoya would be different towards megs but we also know that the zenin are totally okay with incest so i hate where that would go.

It would have been bad.

See, I think the entire training until your bones fall off thing would still happen, but there would be an added layer of cruelty towards it. Because megumi was a little boy who was being trained in a way that even adults couldn’t have handled, so of course he spent a lot of time getting hit and a lot of time crumpling under the pressure and exhaustion. There are very, very few instances where he remembers actually leaving the training room on his own two feet. He usually was pushed until he collapsed and woke up later in the room they kept for him. But if he was a little girl in the same circumstances? They’d make every “failing” about her sex. They’d blame her being a girl for it and constantly use it as a source of sneering superiority.

It would also be bad because she would very much be seen as a source of descendants. Boy Megumi wouldn’t necessarily be exempt from that, but it would happen sooner for girl Megumi.

Bloodline is very important to the Zenin. Inheriting power, techniques—they want to continue the flow of power through the generations. And most of the Zenin clan (and the wider jujutsu world) believe that Megumi is the most powerful Zenin alive right now, if not Gojo’s equal, and the only reason why hes being graded as a Grade Two sorcerer is because gojo’s purposefully sabotaging his development. Like. Mindset is a huge amount of jujutsu ability. Yuuta went from getting beaten up by normal high schoolers to having some combat ability but needing inumaki to handle a semi grade one to being the second most powerful person alive in the span of a few months. He absolutely blitzed the previous second most powerful person alive when he would have lost that same fight a few hours previous. There’s a lot of people convinced Megumi’s on Gojo’s level but he’s been keeping him on a leash since childhood. But the powers still there in his blood.

That’s power the Zenin want to pass on, regardless of gender. But as a boy, Megumi’s got a little bit more leeway—men are accepted as warriors first in the clan, and age won’t affect his ability to procreate. If megumi was a girl? She’s got that goddamn biological clock ticking down. As the ten shadows, I think the Zenin would still expect her as a warrior, but they’d also have a fucking quota she needs to fill before the clock hits zero. And they’d have some very proprietary concerns about making sure no one outside of the clan has a chance to become involved with her. They’d want her to stay within the clan with her partners. And they’d be absolutely creepy and weird about how they went about it. It’s a little bit of a mercy that Megumi’s a boy.

[echolepzy]

hm yes i enjoy reading your opinions, nice opinions you have. i will now share my own because that’s probably how humans converse or something idk /j

ship? i’ve really only seen isafrin and sifloop, and personally i enjoy sloop but like as a weird not romantic but secret 74th option that they invented one afternoon at 11:56am. isafrin is a classic, always chefs kiss. yes very ship very nice very good will read fics of them being dramatically torn apart to the point of insanity. i just like the classic sloop “i fucking despise you wanna cuddle” dynamic. better if loop is human and isabeau is there to break up their arguments. cuz it’s funny

my favorite silly has gotta be loop. they suck i hope they die in a supernova. sif is a very very close second, and my third would deffo be bonnie. they are a child who brought a child here. i think the only reasons loop is my favorite rn is 1) loop plush THAT I GOT yippee it doesn’t arrive until next year but. i’ll have it eventually and i will treasure it. forever. i’ll be buried with it. 2) funnysillyjokespun person traumatized x32 edition

trauma has gotta be the fact that sif almost destroyed the world with his abandonment issues. like dude…. which also includes mal du pays. the embodiment of homesickness itself is here to fuck shit uppp let’s go. i also really like time loops so really just the entire time loop situation(basically the whole game) especially when there’s fics about it post-canon. those are so fun.

THE LOST COUNTRY yessss i love this thing. a lot of my headcanons revolve around a fic that i thought was really cool that dove deep into its culture (fic here https://archiveofourown.org/works/56032411 i think). some of the things i remember and liked are bonds being expressed through nicknames(im like 85% sure that sif calls them all by nicknames but changes to calling some by full names in the game but i might be delusional so). i just really liked a lot of the culture deep dive in that fic. i also imagine them being rather technologically advanced in comparison to other countries, since like all that knowledge about stars. i think it’s also possible that there were still people who could perceive colour on that island(not majority, maybe like 20% of the population). and y’know how vaugarde is fantasy france? north island is fantasy greenland. just imo

leading off of that- poteria is fantasy america(so. they use fuck as curse :]) and idk what mwudu would be. i think it would be fun though, to have the various countries be fantastical irl countries, and is also supported by evidence with ka bua being fantasy japan. so yeah this is actually canon now.

and ngl i really wanna cosplay siffrin someday- like, i can’t this halloween cuz i already have a sick asf dragon costume in the works but maybe a thing in the future. maybe i could even do winged sif to make moneys worth of the wings im using for my dragon costume. maybe i’ll do it for next ren faire one day-

(i wish i had a sibling to have the loop-siffrin dynamic with… alas, as i am a lonely child and have none. i killed them in the womb /j)

-same mutual if you couldn’t tell (guess who lol)

First of all *absorbs that fic link* I'm reading this now thank you

Secondly fuck yeah Loop plushie buddies!! I'm sharing mine with my little brother since he's the undeniable Loop kinnie but the sticker is mine and it's going on my laptop

The wiki says Vaugarde is based on France, Ka Bue is based on Japan, the Forgotten Country is based on Guadeloupe (but insertdisc5 likes seeing other interpretations too), Poteria is based on Italy (which was my headcanon before I even saw it on the wiki lol), and Mwudu isn't really based on anything (I headcanon Germany for some reason, but also not? idk it's complicated, my main Mwudu headcanon is that they have this whole deal with fire). As a creature of low intelligence who always fails geography I kinda just stick with what the wiki tells me XD Also, Ka Bue is on the other side of the world but the rest of the countries are closer together, I think that's kinda interesting to think about-

Finding parts for my cosplay is proving to be a huge pain in the ass, right now I'm just settling for "close enough" and I'll try to customize the parts when I get them- Agh the hat is probably the hardest right now ;w; I wonder if they'll let me bring a dagger to my vocational school... My friend on the bus has actual knives with her every day so I don't see why I can't have a costume dagger (a real one would be cooler but I don't think my family would trust me with it).

[ghostboyhood]

TELL ME YOUR COMMUNITY THOUGHTS

oh lord okay.. im gonna give my thoughts on the last season ish because i just finished it so its what i mainly remember and its 1 am..

the anniejeff made me SO uncomfortable i dont understand why they kept pushing that when they also pushed the dad-daughter relationship throughout the show.... and the second to last episode being centered around incest was odd, not a huge fan of that..

now okay my MAIN thoughts are about abed, so here i go

i feel like in the last two seasons (maybe 4 too? i dont remember atm) abeds autistic" traits were completely stripped from him. yes they included all his "fourth wall breaking meta tv show lines" but it wasnt right.

and i understand people will eventually change/grown up but also.. you cant "fix" autistic traits so it just felt like they were trying to make his autism seem more "normal" also by making him more emotionless i realized? abed cant express himself well, which he mainly copes with by dissociating. but he just.. in the last seasons it seemed more like he DIDNT have emotions (i believe he says something like this to buzz when talking about his duck comics, along the lines of the emotions he cant feel or wtv) but this isnt right, abed is emotional, hes actually really emotional we just dont see it directly like we do with people like annie or troy..

speaking of emotions im glad they really explained that jeff was scared of change and everyone leaving at the end though, its always been known that he is, but i liked that they really Showed it

annies ending was nice i guess? she was basically just a prop for jeff though in the weird fucking fantasy he wants though??? again idk why theyre pushing that it felt so out of place and weird and ew. jeff was also uncomfortably violent in season 6, like i dont think he would ever choke abed out that made me feel so gross...

alright back to abed because hes the main one i noticed in the last seasons.

in the end where abed was talking to jeff in the bar and said like.. "ik ur comforted by this meta lens but this is reality!!" just felt wrong.. yeah abed was still meta w the whole tv show thing but that was it.. and then him saying that to jeff? its like they tried to make him this big mentor guy to jeff (idk if thats necessarily it but its all i can think of to describe it at the moment) but not in a friend way but an uncomfortable "im grown up now and ur not" way if that makes sense,, which again goes with stripping him of his autistic traits by making it seem like its completely necessary to Grow up in order to move forward in life which isnt.. its true in some ways but not in the way they portrayed it at all.. they make it seem like abed had to grow up completely in order for him to "be okay"..

i related a LOT to abed in the early seasons for Many reasons, i think they handled the abed centered episodes especially about his mental health EXTREMELY Well. (ie, abeds uncontrollable christmas) its one of the first times ive seen experiences like that in media that i can almost directly relate to yk? but after geothermal escapism its all gone, never mentioned again besides in call backs where they try to laugh it off/dismiss it..

oh my god and abeds 'girlfriend' was just sooo out of place she was mentioned like twice and then that was it.. they didnt need to do that it felt really forced

also in like season one abed sits in that fucking room for hoursss without so much as making a peep but then he looses his cool and yells at buzz in season five?? again troy just left which makes a big impact but its still smt i noticed

everyone just felt very bland in the last seasons after troy left at least… half the cast was gone, then replaced

idk im not like, ruined the show pissed at the end, but im also not a fan of s5/6 (besides like.. sum scenes, and like i mentioned earlier maybe s4 as well)

i have to binge tv shows so i dont always immediately retain all the information and i have to rewatch episodes a lot, but thats my thoughts immediately after finishing the show at 12 am, sleep deprived, and in a really bad mental health episode so theyre not well put together n shit and i wish i could remember more to go over but alas

theres my immediate thoughts,, im gonna probably sleep or restart community.. i was planning on starting interview with the vampire now but im thinking of starting black mirror so we'll see...

[cato616]

NEGOTIATING OVER US (part two)

roman roy x fem reader

• note! : so i know it isn't A LOT of people who has seen this but, i actually thought no one would've come across of my blog soooo i made a part two!

• also: don't forget english isn't my first language lol

summary: roman roy has now taken you to his office, of course it's still about buying your shop, but why all of the sudden decided to take you there?

warnings: nothing,, just roman being roman :) and maybe some heat ;)

You finally arrived at the grand building. If the Range Rover wasn't fancy enough for only a 10 minutes ride (actually even less), you could imagine how uneasy you felt while entering such a place like Waystar Royco; you felt pretty unfitting right there, and you think, thank god i remembered to take the fucking apron off.

You entered the big doors slowly, like if it was a new world for you, having your arms crossed against your chest, basically thinking, i know im unwelcomed here and im practically super uncomfortable with all this so im gonna make myself look intimidating. well you think that but your face is having a panic attack. You stopped moving to look around the place, so many people, i mean, you were an insecure introverted gal surrounded by so many people above your level, and that got over your head, shit... i showered today, right? without anyone notice you sniffled your hair to see if you were correct. "great! so let's keep moving" said roman from behind making you jump a bit. shit. you were hoping he didn't see you sniffing your hair like that. "yup, coming- going i- sorry... im following you" you make yourself cringe, felt caught in the moment and got tongue tied.

You step in the elevators with roman and some really jacked security guy, now that guy seems intimidating. Roman couldn't hold it and started laughing at the awkwardness of it all. You can't help but making a weird uncomfortable smirk at the situation. "you realize we don't bite here right?" said roman. im pretty sure you do, you think for yourself. "a lot of... floors" you said quietly, really impatient to get to his office. "now, we're here" roman said a few seconds later being a little cocky about it.

So you enter the floor and roman suddenly put himself in front of you stopping you from moving forward. "first I'd like for you to meet someone" and then you start moving to his direction; he opens a big glass door and let you come in. You first took a glance over the office turning to the right; then you hear a voice from the back that makes you jump again. "that's some first level jeans you got there" you turned and it was fucking logan roy sitting at his desk, that made you jump a little bit as well. "yeah well im not usually dressed for this kind of occasions, see, i only ran a café" you awkwardly laugh at yourself feeling pretty threatened by his presence. "let's talk about that" he seemed serious the whole time so your smile disappeared trying to be more in the moment, you sit down, you frown and tense your lips, and try to make eye contact, but it feels like he's looking at your soul. "your dear lovely, um... coffee shop, it's uuh cute" he smiles at you, you don't say anything because you know he's going to keep talking. "it is also a nice location you got yourself"... he pauses, damn he likes suspense you think. "right next to fucking corporate buildings... that must get a bit annoying doesn't it? so big... over your little humble shop" you silently nod agreeing, you can't fight that logic. And then he tries to get to the crucial part of the conversation. "You could get any part of the city, nice view, where a building doesn't cover all of the sunshine, you can make it bigger even..." You don't say anything, you just keep staring at him, maybe even considering what he's saying, but you don't want to. "how about... 40 mil..." he said. You have your eyes wide open, stayed completely silent. "dad, come on" roman said to logan. "fine, fine, 45 mil then".

You now have roman roy and the emperor of his father staring at you waiting for you answer, at the same time you're feeling like you're sweating under your blouse; The only thing you can think of is not only the fact that the café means a lot to you, but also, why your coffee shop? why do they want that spot or is there something else i don't know about? You haven't said anything yet, you're terrified of making a sound. "you know what? how about you get yourself a nice cup of coffee while you think about it huh?" Logan said trying to be nice?. "roman go with her somewhere around here, in the building" Logan asked roman. "great, im now the service dog of the fucking definition of anxiety here" while he points at you with the palm of his hand. I'll try not to get offended... but maybe you're not that wrong.

Roman decides to take you to his private office and have one of his assistants to bring you two some coffee. He offers you to take a seat in front of him at his desk, where he then sits. The assistant comes back with two coffees on each hand and leaves them on the desk. You rapidly take a sip and of course you drip a bit of coffee, somehow that usually happens to you; you usually get to be a bit awkward around people and somewhat clumsy, nothing wrong with it obviously but, roman can seem to take advantage of that. "fuck, don't you know how to drink coffee? you're dripping like a fucking baby" you ignore his teasing while trying to wipe the coffee out of your blouse but there's no fucking napkins around you. "here... i- i can help" roman said very decently; he stood up, and obviously takes out one of those napkins stored inside of those fancy suits; he took it out, and while you were still sitting on the chair, he stood in front of you, slowly lowering his torso, then gently starts to clean your blouse, very focused on his duty.

You realize how close your faces where to each other; you could feel his warm breath hitting your chest. He still didn't take his eyes off his mission, taking those stains off your shirt; he was frowning the whole time. You didn't want to move, it was taking a bit long, but there was something inside of you that wanted this to last forever; you start staring at him, analysing his whole face, and you could feel your breathing getting stronger. There was a moment where your heart stopped, when suddenly his eyes meets yours and for a moment there's nothing but silence between you two. You felt so much tension that made you intensly grip onto your chair. He suddenly breaks the tension and warmly says, "well, it's off" while he goes back to his chair. Before sitting down he says "well not that much actually, but it looks fine".

After that situation you can feel yourself relaxing and your heart pounding no more. So that's when you start going on about it, thinking, roman roy had let down his guard and had a little moment with each other, but none of you said anything about it, like it was nothing; however, you thought it was, fun. You liked the adrenaline of it, with him.

"so i think we can ta-" you interrupted him when you realize it was getting late, knowing you were supposed to close your café because you promised your co-worker Liza she could leave early today. "oh- shit shit sorry" he looked stunned by your sudden cut off as you look over your watch while quickly getting up from your seat. "actually i think I should come over another time, i ought to go back to my shop- tomorrow! I'll come back tomorrow, Sunday" you tell him.

You rapidly leave the room and not looking back since you were in a hurry. You find yourself unconsciously smiling while you walk to the elevator; you're looking forward for this kind of moment to happen again... and so does roman probably.

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