#WHY DO I HAVE TO GO INTO WORK RIGHT AS I WANNA WRITE THIS????????? UGGGHHHH š©š©
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dreamt that s6 premiered last night and that tim proposed to lucy, and while as far-fetched as it is to get a chenford proposal of all things straight out the gate, i must admit tim bradford circling back to the spot where he first asked out lucy in front of the precinct to pop the big question is so incredibly genius of my brain to come up with during my deep slumber, therefore i have to add it to my never ending list of wips.
#*carly catalogs#the rookie#tim bradford#lucy chen#chenford#otp: you know me so well#EVERYONE IN THEIR FRIENDGROUP AND PM EVERYONE AT THE PRECINCT ALL HAVE A PART TO PLAY IN THE BIG EVENT#like the main ladies (angela/harper/celina/bailey) are in charge of stalling and keeping lucy away from the precinct/that particular area#while the guys hustle to decorate that picnic area out front and make sure things are set up to plan accordingly#everyone who works at mid-wilshire plays a small part in the proposal plans so everyone comes gathering around once lucy arrives#i imagine the main ladies take her out for a little 'girls day out' getting mani pedis and spray tan and other stuff like that#before delivering her back to tim#WHY DO I HAVE TO GO INTO WORK RIGHT AS I WANNA WRITE THIS????????? UGGGHHHH š©š©#oh well i'll rewatch 5x08 when i get home that'll light a fire under my ass when i get back
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What would happen if Billy accidentally hurt himself but he was trying to hide it from Hop because he doesnāt want to go hospital but he finds out anyways āļø
duuUUUUDE OKAY YES bc Billy is Reckless and Steve is a dumbass, really, and Max is Done and just wants to go hang out with Lucas or El or hell even MIKE but Steve didnāt believe Billy when he said that he taught Max how to skate so Billy asks Max for her board and tries to show Steve some tricks.
Problem isā¦ Billy hasnāt skated in YEARS. So heās a little rusty.
ļæ½ļæ½Come ON Billy, seriously?ā
āYou owe me for how often I drive you around.ā
āUggghhhh FINE, just donāt break it!ā
Max kicks up her board and hands it to Billy grumpily. Billy pats her head and Max swipes at his hand as he puts the board down and skates back to Steve. Heās a little wobbly, Max notices, but she just walks herself back to the curb and sits down with a huff. Itās after school and theyāre off near the library exit where no one hangs around so that no one can see Billy and Steve being handsy.
Will walks by, having hung behind the group to check out a book from the library, and notices them.
āHey Max, whatās up? Lucas was just saying he was going to ask you to hang out but he couldnāt find you.ā
āYeah, because my stupid brother wants to impress his stupid boyfriend!ā
āHey!ā Billy and Steve yell back at her simultaneously, Billy trying to do a trick on the board. Max sticks her tongue out, but Will is looking at them and smiling shyly. He thinks Billy and Steve are so cute. He wants to find a boy who will look at him the way they look at each other. They make him feel like being gay is totally fine.
He sits on the curb next to Max, watching as Billy skates circles around Steve and Steve just has his hands on his hips, cheeks a little pink.
āDid you wanna come play some D&D tonight with us?ā
āYeah sure, if theyāre ever done skipping circles around each other. I donāt have a ride otherwise.ā
āIām sure Jonahan will drive you. Heās already planning to see Nancy and your house is kind of on the way.ā
āYeah alright. What book did you check out?ā
āOh itās gonna help me with-ā
āOW HOLY FUCK!ā
The two kids look up to see Billyās ankle isā¦ not where it should be.
āOhmyGOD Billy!ā Max is screaming and up and running towards him, Will a little behind. Steve is bent over the boy where heās lying on the ground, grimacing hard and near wailing any time a sound comes out. āYou absolute idiot! When I said donāt break my board, I didnāt mean your bones were a good substitute!ā
āShut up, Max!ā Billy barks, accepting Steveās help to get up.
āWeāve gotta get you to a hospital, babe.ā Steveās voice is filled w/ concern but Billy has an INTENSE fear of hospitals so he just grabs Steve tighter and rasps
āNO.ā
āBabe, I think itās broken!ā
āItās at least sprainedā¦ā Will says, no color in his face.
āNO. Promise me, alright? No hospitals.ā
āBabe-ā
and Billy does the only thing he can think of, which is give an incredibly dizzying kiss to Steve and wrap his pink around the pinky of the hand that Steveās not using to hold Billy up and he pulls away with a āPromise?ā
āYeah promise~ wAIT, no, Billy!ā
āYou already promised, pretty boy.ā Billy says, before putting as much weight on the ankle as he can. Itās clear heās forcing himself through the pain but after walking in a few circles he looks at the group like: See?? Iām fine!
Will and Steve are the dictionary definition of concerned but Max just rolls her eyes and calls him a dumbass who āat least needs to ice itā before she skates to the front of the school to see if she can catch up with Lucas.
And Billy tries to hide it for fuckinā DAYS my dude. This boy walks around on a sprained ankle and limps a bit and the first night Hopper is Tired and doesnāt notice but El does and tries to get it out of him but heās real good at keeping it straight.
The next day Hopper notices at breakfast.
āSomethinā up with your paw there, kid?ā
āMy what?ā
āYour foot, kid, your foot. Whatās wrong with your foot?ā
and Billy gets defensive as fuck which honestly, NOT gonna help in making himself look fine but it hurts and heās just a little on edge over here.
āNothingās wrong with my foot, see?ā He stomps on the ground and somehow manages to not flinch at it. Hop eyes Billy disbelievingly over his spoonful of cereal.
The day after that, Billy asks Hop to drive him to school.
āYou want me to do what?ā
āDrive me to school, what, can you not do that?ā
āI can, but I have no idea in hell why youād want me to.ā
āBecause Iām sick of putting gas in it and I forgot yesterday and I donāt wanna go get gas right now because Iāll probably be late if I try right now and Steve is working right now and-ā
āAlright, alright, I get it, Iāll drive you!ā
Hop eyes Billy oddly as he favors one foot.
And itās not until the third day when Hop gets a call at the station that Hop really finds out. Itās the coach of the schoolās basketball team, telling Hopper that he needs to get Billyās ankle checked out bc āheās been unable to practice for 3 days now.ā
And when Hop sees Billy next, he just crosses his arms and nods to his truck and says: āGet in the car, kid.ā
āWhere we headed, Disneyland?ā Billy snarks, irritated as all hell bc his painkillers wore off an hour ago.
āThe hospital, you brat.ā
āWhat? Why would I need to go to the hospital? Iām not sick or anything-ā
āCut the crap, your coach called me at the station today.ā
āFuck him.ā Billy mumbles as Hop puts a calming hand on Billyās shoulder and guides him back out the door. (Joyce took El in for dinner bc neither of them felt a hospital would be a good place for her to be hanging out in, even if she was with Hopper.)
āLook, Iāll be fine.ā Billy tries in vain.
āSteve said he thinks itās broken.
āThat bitchā Billy hisses. āDad I-ā he catches his breath. āI hate the hospital.ā
āYeah, Iām not a big fan either, but I donāt need medical school to tell you walking on a break isnāt a good idea.ā
Billy grumbles and pouts the whole way, whining like a kid when they finally get there.
āPlease, Iāllā¦ Iāll just wrap it up or something.ā
āDonāt think I wonāt carry you in there, kid. In fact, maybe I should carry you in there.ā
But Billy glares him down and says heād rather die than have someone see him get carried in, so Hop just helps him in.
KAY now, with all that said, I just need us all to imagine a nervous Billy, body language making him look small as he sits on the middle of a little examination table and picks at the paper on it and jumps a bit when the super sweet doctor comes in and tells him he needs a cast bc his ankle is broken.
And then Billy hobbling out w/ a boot on his ankle and mouth pouting around a cherry lollipop as the doctor follows him and tells Hop: āYour boy was very brave!ā with a super sweet smile that Billy wants to slap off his face.
And EVERYONE signs the cast!! Like, everybody. All the kids, Hopper, Joyce, Jonathan, Nancy- even Tommy and Carol (although Tommy totally draws a dick on it to which Billy has to smack him and turn it into a flower or something bc āfuck you, dude, my sister is gonna see that!ā). Steve signs it like, fucking 5 times, drawing little hearts and stuff all over it and even writing āI love youā and kisses Billyās cheek after writing it and Billyās face is blushing hard as he pouts about his foot being in a fucking cast.
#HI THIS IS LOONG I'M SO SORRY#billy hargrove#jim hopper#chief hopper#el#eleven#el hopper#jane hopper#billy hopper#billy gets adopted#bratty billy#is back ā„#never left ā„ā„#stranger things#will byers#steve harrington#max mayfield#max and billy are B R A T S#and i love them#hopper is a dad#and he's STRUGGLIN my dude#i loved this one#when i saw this ask i got so excited#bc it's such a good idea YES#billy broke his ankle#he tried to grind on the curb and fuckin snapped it#ask#anonymous#harringrove
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Tldr: me word vomiting lots of random emotions and thoughts Iāve been having about my life. Would put under a read more but tumblr mobile is shite. Ignore if you wanna, I just needed to throw this into the world cos Iāve been so socially distant from everyone in my life that I havenāt spoken to anyone about this, and Iām not sure I wouldāve even if I actually replied to my friends more than once in a blue moon
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Me: honestly convinced Iām never gonna find romantic love cos Iām ace and probably aro - at the very least Iāve never been attracted to/interested in someone enough to want to date them and the whole being sexually attracted to someone and looking a people and wanting to have sex with them sounds fake and doesnāt resonate with me at all.
Me: is theoretically a very sex favourable and positive person but the idea of sex with someone Iām not dating is just so weird to me but damn do I wish there was someone who knew me and my likes and dislikes to be intimate with
Me: is super duper disappointed to not experience love/sex but is simultaneously doing literally zero to create opportunities cos I just donāt speak to anyone outside of my family and colleagues, and the one single guy I had any interest in at work is gay and has left.
Me: reads fanfic constantly and Iām now wondering whether it is beneficial in distracting me from my loneliness or enhancing it. I think both. I think I need a break from fanfic at the very least but honestly donāt know what Iād do without it cos itās been my go to hobby for so many years and I legit read for 30+ hours a week and thatās soo much time to fill???
Me: really doesnāt want to have kids in the future cos I donāt understand kids in the slightest and pregnancy is terrifying and I still feel like a child myself and I know this is something which may change in the future but I donāt think so and my mum bringing up wanting grandkids on a near weekly basis recently is kinda starting to put me on edge cos Iām already starting to feel like a disappointment cos Iām an only child and Iām the only opportunity for grandkids - which I know is ridiculous but it how I feel and thatās valid
Me: with my grandad in hospital (heās gonna be fine, he would be out of hospital if he actually did what the doctors and nurses said about doing exercises etc) it has made me think about the family I do have which is: my mum, my dad, my grandad and my uncle. Thatās it. I have two other uncles and several cousins etc who I see maybe once a year but they donāt really count.
Me: has a handful of really amazing friends who I havenāt spoken to in months and I donāt even really know why. Theyāve all messaged me and I just havent replied. Iām not trying to actively push them away like I did with a friend in the past who I just felt drained with in the end whenever we interacted, but honestly every time I get a message I just feel exhausted at the prospect of ongoing social interaction. And itās silly cos I know exactly the kind of thing I could message people about to start a conversation, like I could talk to Emily about finally watching Hamilton and how itās been two weeks and Iām still listening to song on repeat and how she was right about how good it is and yet itās been a week and a half since Iāve thought about sending that message and yet I havenāt and just uggghhhh @me
Me: is horrified by the idea of being alone for life romantically, and knowing that between my ever dwindling family and me not talking to my friends that being alone if more likely that I ever want to think about
Me: wants to live a happy life of my own but donāt know how to. I want to move out but canāt afford to on my own and itās super impractical when I can live with my parents for Ā£20 per week for food. But god forbid if anything happens to one of my parents Iām gonna be stuck at home forever cos I have so little family and my parents have literally no one else to turn to.
Me: wants to do a masters in gender and sexuality studies writing about representations of asexuality on screen but I know I could write and entire book which would be great for phd level but I missed the deadline to apply cos June was crazy and all Iāve been doing recently is working 6 days a week then working on my car for a day before working another 6 days. And even if I did a masters and maybe eventually a phd I have no idea what Iād actually do with it? I have so little ambition for anything right now and the future is just a void of mystery in which I donāt even know what I want???
Me: is starting to think I might actually be kinda depressed. Iāve thought it on and off for longer than Iāll ever admit but Iād do quizzes online and theyād say I wasnāt so I didnāt really think too much more about it (and yes I know an online quiz is shit and means nothing but thereās no one I would want to talk to about it cos I feel like I have to be strong for the people around me and shit but yeah). I know Iām not happy, but that doesnāt necessarily equal depressed. All I know is Iām uninspired and I feel kinda empty. Doing stuff I do enjoy, if I actually do it, just makes me feel tired half the time so I end up trying to nap instead but then I donāt sleep great either, waking up in the night or when my dad is getting ready for work so I very rarely get a solid 8 hours of sleep. Iām irritable a lot too...
Me: even if I am depressed what does it matter? Like it does matter ofc, but my mum is on media for depression and itās taking her weeks to get an appointment with the doctor to try and get a different dosage. Iām not a danger to myself or others, Iām unhappy, but who isnāt with COVID going on and there are people who need mental health services more than me. Which is really hypocritical of me to say cos Iāve told my best friend so many times that trauma and mental health etc arenāt competitions of who has it worse but itās the truth. Also my mum and colleagues access the only mental health resources in town and I do not want to deal with interactions with people I know whilst trying to improve my mental health.
Me: I donāt know how many times Iāve said it in posts like this but something needs to change. I was set on a good course at the start of the year. I was getting out, socialising, doing new things, inspired to cook, learn to new music and change my lifestyle, and then COVID happened and since all of that has slowly drained away and I need to find a change to revitalise that. Iād hoped getting back to having driving lessons and working on my car would be a start, and to be fair itās been less than two week since I restarted doing that, so maybe I can find a new spark of inspiration still. Within a couple of months I will pass my driving test. Hopefully it wonāt take much longer than that to get my car finished and on the road (hopefully itāll take two weeks to finish putting the rear end back together so we can finally get my car back on four wheels, then itās just lots of little jobs which hopefully wonāt take too long). The weather is supposed to be decent this week so I might work up the effort to go for a walk down the fields which always seems to relax me a little. And the cinema reopens at the end of the month so Iād finally have an excuse to get out of the house (I know COVID is not over and things should not be going back to normal any time soon, but I need to do something other than go work for 4 hours everyday and spend 90% of my time at home and most of that time in bed because I have nowhere else to go). I donāt know what else I can be hopeful for in the coming weeks but thatās a start and just listing them out here has made me feel a little better so.
I keep thinking about Patrick from Schitt s Creek, leaving his hometown to escape a life which didnāt fit him and finding everything he needed in a tiny town in rural Canada, and wishing I could do the same, but I know Iād just end up even more alone because I am not a social person in the slightest and donāt kno how to be despite knowing that me making changes is the only way to improve myself.
And then a line from Hamilton about death is easy, living is harder, and I want to make it abundantly clear that I do not in any way, shape or form want to die, but living is hard and I have an easy life. I have enough money that I was able to loan my dad the money to buy a car, and still have more savings after that than he does, I have a good that if not particularly well paid I do enjoy and Iām good at, my family live me in their own way, even tho I feel that part of my social distance and reluctantance towards others is because no one in my family is particularly socially inclined.
Maybe I just really need a hug.
I donāt even know where Iām going with this anymore but I just had so much build of of words in my brain that they had to go somewhere and this has turned into my go to word vomit place
Things will get better. I donāt know when or how but they will. But they wonāt if I donāt get enough sleep for a starters. So off to bed I go. If youāve read all this thank you, I guess, for listening cos Iām not sharing this with anyone irl just yet. And Iām sorry this is so long but tumblr mobile doesnāt let me put in a read now but I want this out in the world even tho no one will see it
#anyway ignore me#long post for ts#sorry#tmi#rebecca speaks#again#with the amount of posts i jave like this on here im really starting to think i need to find an actual person to discuss stuff with#not sure what therapy options there are in the uk cos all my knowledge come from here which is so us centric#but i think im gonna do some research#tomorrow tho#long post#personal
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