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horce-divorce · 2 days ago

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hiii we still just need $25 urgently, because we are OUT of the medication which keeps us both off of feeding tubes and out of the hospital

We have a little bit of money left, but not enough for a refill.

$25 is the bare minimum we need; $40 would be ideal-- but we NEED to go get some TODAY, and 25 is an easier goal to meet. so we will take absolutely whatever we can get. Even if you've only got 5 or 10 to spare that gets us a LOT closer than we were a minute prior 💖

Please reblog 🙏 I know everyone is struggling more and more, and this time of year is always especially tight, but a mere 25 bucks can literally help save the lives of 2 trans people right now and I'm not joking. I really wish I was.

my bday is on nov 15th!! 🎉 it would be ideal not to have to beg for my life for my bday gift, but alas, my bf and I are two homeless, disabled transmascs who have been trying to get back on our feet for over a year. especially in the shadow of the us election, our futures are very uncertain, but we are resolved to live + stay Out no matter what happens. theyre stuck here with us, too >:)

our short term goal is just to get enough $ to pay for meds and the phone bill, maybe $150- just enough to survive the month. I have a rare disorder that doctors refuse to treat, and my med regimen is just barely keeping me off a feeding tube and is ofc not covered by insurance

I don't have much on my WL right now, but being able to manage my pain would be nice <3 we live on less than $3 per person per day, so a little goes a long way for us!!! even $5 or $10 makes a huge difference!

[ �� paypal ] will go further but we also have [ cshpp🐛 ] 💖✌️

#me #was not gonna say anything but im kinda seething about kaijuno rn #big popular Tumblr user who has been 'about to be evicted next month' for over a year #and also just posted that she got an AI job she admittedly was unqualified for #so she has a job. working in ai. she is not about to be evicted.#and i kinda dont care about that. if you have to lie to get money you probably need it #but she HAS a fucking job and i dont #she HAS housing and i already lost mine #she got to keep her fucking cat. and her car. i didnt.#but i bet she gets hundreds in donos every month just bc her blog is so huge #meanwhile ppl are still whining about seeing Palestinians fundraisers 🙄#its just so gross that Palestinians and homeless ppl in america alike have to lay ourselves bare and be so humiliated to be believed #yet somehow someone with a job and a house can lie about being one of us for over a year a profit way more.#yeah it probably does get more donations to just say HELP IM ABOUT TO BE EVICTED both bc ppl relate more and bc it sounds more dire #when i take the time to type 10 paragraphs about what my rare disorder is. that loses people's attention unfortunately #idk im just cranky #20 bucks shouldn't be so hard to come by but i have to spend days fundraising for that #Palestinians trying to escape a warzone have to spend days raising that amount #and white housed tumblr users are over here exploiting the fear of that situation for financial gain they dont need any more than we do.#yeah that does actually bother me.#i really dont usually mind if homeless ppl lie to get money.#like you do not owe it to anyone to say how you spend your donations. other ppl cannot dictate that for you.#I care if youre lying *about being homeless* to get said money. thats disgusting. you are so fucked for doing that actually.#bc ppl scrutinize homeless ppl so hard and wanna micromanage us if we buy a juice instead of water or some shit.#lying about what the money is for -> dont care do ur thing #lying about why you need help and claiming youre more vulnerable than you are to get more help than you need -> actually asshole behavior #idk maybe that's very crabs in a bucket of me. you can have a job and still be poor. nobody MAKES me share true details i just choose to #i also dont think Palestinians or anyone else should feel compelled to share so many personal details about whats wrong to get help.#its humiliating and i think its smth that speaks loudly to the need of having to fundraise to survive at all.#and idk probably wouldn't have much crossover btwn her followers and mine so its not like shes taking donos *from* me personally

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gorillaxyz · 9 months ago

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mickey so lucky if i was him i would hav

#txt #i want to make jokes but i care about my followers opinions on me WHICH IS STUPID ITS SO STUPID i shouldnt care and i donf.#i should be able to make myself l #WHY DO I CARE ABOUT WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF ME im making the post.#ok i did it #i love going on journeys in the tags #anyway #pete

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oceanwithouthermoon · 6 months ago

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imo everyone who insists that saikis life was perfect and he was a spoiled brat complaining about nothing are just purposefully ignoring and misinterpreting the whole manga simply because they like other characters better and want to make up scenarios to make their fav seem like a precious little victim in every situation

its hard to explain but i see it happen a lot with specifically people who have dedicated accounts for other characters and constantly misattribute every issue to "saikis such a baby, my character has it way worse!" "saiki hurt my babys feelings once so i hate him!" "saikis such a spoiled brat, my baby has a way shittier life and never complains about it!" "saiki hurt my poor precious fav once so hes an abusive monster!"

and said "shittier life" that they "never complain" about is either the persons headcanons (literally made up) or... the character DOES complain about it and the person takes those words at FACE VALUE but ignores everything else, including things that actually HAPPEN right in front of our eyes

#(this is just an opinion and anyone can do whatever they want)#people can feel however they want about saiki #but im just saying... purposely making everything into something it just isnt makes you look so... odd #like.. why?#why cant you just say you dont like him and move on?#instead of trying to make up a bunch of reasons why he sucks and his fans are weird #just chill #fandom doesnt need to be like that #sorry i feel like i start a new controversy every few days #dont offhandedly bully me for this guys just reply if you disagree #i like to think that my posts will reach nobody but like two moots and nothing matters and nobody cares #but i always get proved wrong #sho shad #anyway this is exactly what twitter users do with mafuyu and kanade which is so funny to me #they make kanade out to be an evil manipulator with a perfect life so that they can have their fake abuse scenarios and make mafuyu a victi #WHICH DOESNT MAKE SENSE CUZ MAFUYUS MOM IS RIGHT THERE? MAFUYU IS ALREADY AN ABUSE VICTIM #its crazy. fandoms are crazy.#hoping literally any of this is phrased correctly #my brain is jello i cant do this #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo #meows post #meownalysis #<- not sure if this counts as that but im adding it because i want to come back to this

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messrsrarchives · 3 months ago

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tiktok users ‼️‼️ how do you,,, censor words in your comments properly ??? because i've censored my deadname and it still comes through ??? like maybe if it's in a full comment it doesn't work as well??? idk!!

i need Help. i just had to go through all my posts deleting comments from this one account because blocking them actually leaves their comments up apparently, i just won't be able to see it and SIGH. how to censor.

#sorry i post about jegulus #pls stop trying to leak my deadname #i mean tbh #idec #like i DONT care if my deadname gets out because i don't associate with it at all #like it doesnt make me SAD that they're trying to leak it #it makes me sad that it's happening in my safe bubble even though i've tried to stop it #like.... this is my 🫧... why are YOU in my bubble??#why do people keep trying to pop my bubble #like id leak it myself idc its the principle of the thing #it actually... yk maybe IM the problem but i actually dont know what ive done everytime someone new happens #like i ACTUALLY dont know what ive done to always get stuff like this #i think im p nice #SIGH #whatever #sorry for venting xoxo #needed that x #BUT YEAH #if anyone knows how to censor things properly ‼️‼️#robyn is ranting sorry

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rabbithaver · 1 month ago

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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space

i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !

#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post #like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide #which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone #> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won #i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare #and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that #but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it #so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything #if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again #i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable #i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people #like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation #again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good #person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make #>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be #when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be #im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry

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edwinisms · 3 months ago

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I really don’t wanna be that guy but completely honestly why does anyone think that a petition is going to do anything

#and look im saying this as someone who signed it JUST IN CASE. okay. before you come for me #but im serious its almost comical to me how useless the whole thing is.#they KNOW how well liked it is. they SEE the fanbase and its reaction and the sheer amount of fanworks and so on that have been posted #within the show’s (tiny) lifespan #and they cancelled it anyway.#so just reiterating what they already know and already considered in their decision is. utterly futile #not to mention they just. wouldn’t give a shit about a petition anyway #this is netflix we’re talking about. it’s not their first rodeo #they can do literally anything they want. there’s no way we can make a dent big enough to get them to cave that’s like. just a fact #I wish it wasn’t but. 99.9999% certainty on that #best we could hope for is being picked up by HBO and even that is basically impossible due to legal implications and #more than anything due to the resignation of the cast and crew- yockey’s already posting spoilers and shit. so. yeah #anyway. yeah I wish petitions worked but. I don’t know why anyone thinks of netflix highly enough to believe they’d look at a fan-made #petition and give a shit and suddenly change their minds #they don’t care about us! they don’t care about the cast or crew! they do not care! sorry #im sorry im really very sorry for being so cynical but. how can’t I be #rambling

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months ago

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THIS IS GONNA SOUND SO MEAN BUT WHY DO U LIKE RYO AOKI/MASATO

masato hot

#snap chats #just like me... heh ... my ac has been broken all month im melting for the love of god send an iceberg im begging you #him turning into aoki is incredibly funny to me like jesus christ. what a lack of self love does to a mfer #but anyway 1.) please do not yell i scare easy 2.) meaner has been said its ok 3.) very reasonable to ask why anyone would like aoki #and 4.) to be Cereal he's inch resting to me. also his speech to ichi at the end hit a lil close and i was reminded of high school #5.) i really like his eng dub voice sorry im american. BUT HIS JP VOICE IS EXCELLENT TOO IM JUST SAYIN #rgg doesnt give an Exact on his disability so looking into lung diseases/conditions has also been interesting #esp post-lung surgery cases and care too so i thank rgg for the opportunity to do some reading #i also do In General just like cases of someone wanting to be loved and changing drastically to get it only to still be unhappy #granted. he sucks so LMAO can only have so much sympathy but it's still interesting to watch #the arakawas is also a part of why i like him because they all work as a big machine. if that makes sense #like the arakawas in general are such an interesting bundle i love all of them a lot because of what they mean to each other #in the case of aoki none of them mean anything to him at most resenting arakawa and despising ichi #meanwhile sawashiro's just. There LOL im so sorry king thats the truth of it all ... i love you tho ...#oh but back to aoki. i also really like politican characters- or at least characters who can have a 'public' persona #its fun thinking about what they have to do mentally to present themselves in public versus when they can 'be themselves'#like aoki's 'intro' scene where he's pleasant to his secretary and then a second later is conniving with ogasawara... peak i fear #OR THEEEE CAR PARK ONE i love that scene so much ...#very fun.. aoki being a politician just makes it infinitely funnier like guys we gotta bully the governor #plus i live and breathe by a glass analysis/comparison a twitter mutual of mine did ... i love glass imagery .......#uhhhh is that all ... idk prob im literally sweating my skin off i cant think right. my clothes are sticking to my skin i hate summer #i dont hate summer im so sorry i didnt mean it .... summer is beautiful .. i just wish this heat wasnt murdering me

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oddogoblino · 6 days ago

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Everyone always seems more willing to talk and exist when I'm not around. The sleep deprivation makes me want to believe this means I'm a smothering presence rather than considering maybe everyone just finally had more free time. If the bad thoughts are right though, I guess I have no qualms against disappearing since youtube exists for entertainment.

#vent post #personal post #ig- idk - im not really sad just bored #neverending cycle of always trying to find new groups bc i seem to grow apart from people #what if im not really a person? Scary to think. Do i have a personality? I thought i did. I miss people.#its so tempting to go back into a bad relationship because at least i knew they'd always be there every day #I'm such a lifeless loser #what value do i even have now that i cut them out of my life? I hope they're having a happier life #no one else wants me. No one cares to really have me around. I dont know how to connect with people other than be honest abt my praises #I dont know anyone. Not really. And i cant seem to find out how to do that. Too many questions is weird but no questions makes strangers #is this depression or just realizing maybe im just some mindless changeling. A copycat. I'll never know love #I will never be enough i think. Not in person or online. Theres nothing useful about me. Nothing to want.#not lookin for pity or anything just rambling bc i dont actually have anyone i can talk to lol-#not gonna add this to my main tag bc I'd rather not have it become part of my image #i enjoy being a temporary joy to people- i just wish i could be better so i could know people better #theres a wall between me and the people i love and i cant find the door. I dont know why

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stars-and-guts · 19 days ago

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were so cooked bro all i can do is fucking give up and doom scroll and joke with my friends about getting deported and try again with voting next time

#if this is the endless cycle of the modern life i dont want it #im sick of having to care about other people #asshole post im sorry guys this is really important im just #i think people who care about whats happening to other people have TRIED and have been TRYING SO HARD #why will nothing change #why is it that no matter what anyone does there arent enough people who can make anything change #theres never enough #its never going to be enough #and then people who care start giving up #im giving up too btw i get it i really do #so its just impossible #nothing will ever change significantly enough for everyone to be safe and happy #history repeats itself #everyone who thinks they would be able to help stop bad events in the past from happening have now seen first hand thats not how it works #im so fucking done #there is literally nothing left for me or anyone i know to do #fuck this #cries dies and fries #ppanicposts #rant #vent #us politics #i guess #hot and sexy or whatever

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kuzunoha-xiv · 1 year ago

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whenever i post drawings on my twitter i barely get attention, probably because its not trendy stuff or because hashtags dont work and while i mostly draw for myself and for fun, i wont deny it makes me feel a little bummed out. but at the same time do i really want to get attention or more followers? it would probably stress me out or make me feel unconfident about what i do or post. its my inner struggle, i want people to see my content but at the same time i don't.

#posting my art makes me feel embarrassed cuz its all self indulgent and not exactly great #but at the same time im like. i know im cringe. but im free #i guess i feel embarrassed cuz i explain things about my drawings but a part of my brain is like ''i doubt anyone cares about that bro''#i think thats why when i post stuff on my art sideblog i just write a little comment about the drawing and thats it.#i talk about this kind of stuff and then realize how fucking dumb i sound sorry #i do get attention on my tumblr sideblog and it makes me happy though. i really appreciate that ^_^#i guess its easier for my art to be seen on tumblr? cuz of the tags #twitter does really suck for that kind of stuff. and apparently the hashtags make it worse? i dont know what to believe anymore lmao #mucho texto perdón #samael.txt

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blkwag · 2 years ago

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whether or not people have a reason to not like argentina, the fans are still going to be upset. whatever reason someone has (ex: they don’t like x player, the racism from their fans, the country’s history, etc.) it’s going to trigger their fans. whether someone just simply doesn’t like the team, that’s an issue too. and then the fans wonder why people don’t like the team or them (the fans) like you guys get triggered regardless

and then (on this hellsite), you jump into people’s inbox (anonymously btw) and write a thesis to someone who doesn’t like the team or the “dios” of the team. just leave people alone

#take this post how you want #please don’t play captain save a team in my inbox. because i don’t care #im not doing that again with you guys #and im not speaking from my experience im seeing it on other blogs as well #idk if it’s just me but i don’t think i’ve seen a fanbase care sm about why people don’t like their (national) team #again it’s probably just me but i just don’t…#like i mentioned before if someone doesn’t like the usmnt on here i simply. scroll past whatever post they make #if i did end up being that type of fan it’s because ppl were talking shit about some of the players (like weston)#and even w that i sometimes just mind my business #bc with christian. i KNOW there are a lot of people don’t like him and i completely understand why #im not going bend backwards making posts and sending anonymous messages to ppl in defense of him #that man doesn’t know me wtf #ANYWAYS. at the end of the day just leave people alone #if someone doesn’t like your team for whatever reason just leave them alone #i can get if people are like straight lying on the team or country but in this case…#like unless there’s a statistic saying that they are the most hated national team then im not understanding the reasoning for the questions #also we don’t need to pull the um… what about x country like okay we get it #and honestly no one owes anyone an explanation as to why they support one team over the other #im just tired of seeing people being questioned about this like.#leave people alone #this is the last thing imma say about this hopefully i don’t see someone on here getting bugged about this #but this pretty much is my overall…. opinion on this discussion #again. MY OPINION

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oceanwithouthermoon · 5 months ago

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ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw