#WHATEVR HAPPY NEW YEAR ANYWAY

[tontalunar]

A little late with this but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

tiredvan forever and always <3

I forgot to color in Ricks mouth AAAFUCCC

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Running Chills for Tet - 01/26/2020

Tet Family Days-

One of the biggest things that I hope to figure out eventually is my relationship to my parents. There are these days where I hang out with my parents and it just feels unnatural to me in a sense. I think having that bicultural sense of self I never felt super comfortable relating to and having a close relationship to them. The main thing is that a lot of the family days that I am hanging out with my parents involve just usually going shopping of some sort so I sometimes feel like there's a weird context to most of my interactions with my parents.

Another nagging thought I have usually when hanging out with my parents is that I am wasting time. It's a terrible thought to have. I want to be grateful for the time that I can spend with them since I never know how long I do have to hang out with them and my priorities might pull me away from them sooner rather than later. So it's definitely something that i need to reevaluate. If anything it's something that I need to be more mindful about during the times that I do hang out with my parents.

Running Replacements- While out with my parents shopping, we went to our local Outlet mall which so happened to have the one store that I really wanted to go to try on possible replacement shoes for my current ones which are definitely are on its last legs so to speak. Unfortunately for me, the death of retail continues and the store was closed and seemed like it had been closed for awhile. Eventually we did end up at an REI later in the day and I got to try on the shoes anyways but knowing that initial store was closed gave me pause and I didn't want to get the shoes right away. It gives me a bit more time to think if I want to get this particular shoe or if I want to look at some more different ones. It's definitely irrational though. My current running shoes I believe I had since almost my first couple years of college so definitely almost 10 years old at this point.

I don't know if I am holding onto things just for the pure nostalgia of it or I am just being really frugal by not buying something when my current running shoes still work. Maybe I am just afraid that whatever I get to replace the old things in my life won't reach the same level of utility and pleasure(not sure I want to use this word when it comes to running shoes but it was the first thing to come to my head). In any case, it might just be a matter of expectations. I know how something like say my current running shoes will perform and the comfort level of them. I think I might just be afraid that any shoes that replace it will not be the same.

I can probably say that about anything else in my life that I want to change. A new job. A new romantic relationship. Moving out. I think I am afraid that if I make these changes that I won't be happy even if they do seem like positive changes for my life. So thank you running shoes for causing a personal crisis. I guess I won't know until I actually do make those changes. I won't know until I dip my toes into the unknown.

Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, Part 3- I feel super conflicted about how this half season of Sabrina went. The show overall I know is supposed to be campy and unrealistic with more of a focus on the characters and the interplay between normal life and the witch life but despite what I felt like was a strong half season, I am disappointed at how the show resolved it's main conflict at the last episode. Mostly I am starting to feel like writers could be better at not raising the stakes of the story then resolving the conflict without any real repercussions. I know that Part 4 probably will deal with the repercussions of how they resolved the conflict it's just that everything was wrapped up just a bit too conveniently this half season versus the way they ended the other half seasons. Maybe I just hate happy endings. I think I want things to end up bittersweet. I think that's just my mindspace right now.

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“better.” by Super Whatevr

“ i gotta be something that i thought i would be by this age”

[chumpmagump]

in other news, i got accepted into the worlds largest honour society for  being in the top 15 % academically in my social work degree... out of.. uh 400 univerisities according to the pamphlet???? But that shit has to be wrong, they didnt specifiy they just said ‘’ in my studies’’. Maybe its just my uni. 

Anyway i can collect a certificate if i join, and be in the chance to win overseas scholarships which i think makes it that much more worth it because I really am intrigued about doing my masters in the US, because the curriculum there and the profession in general seems to be taken more seriously over there. Plus I’ve heard of some killer programs there.  ironic that this comes in the mail today when i was thinking how maybe i should just accept my law offer. BSW is so damn dry so far... the second year has commenced and so far all ive been learning about is values and ethics... i mean shit i could have learnt last year or in grade 7. The course doesnt incorporate many case scenarios too so whatevr i learn it makes it very hard to directly apply that until it bam happens on professional placement... which will commence in around 6 months so im happy for that. lets hope i get excited about this degree doing that. Idk man do you ever see someone lecturing and think to yourself i could make this the best darn lec ever for these people, jump up and down, get eXCITED, INVIGORATE ME DAMNIT LETS TALK ABOUT REAL LIFE SHIT, GET IN A CIRCLE, MAKE A SCENARIO AND GO OVER IT TURNS. Make learning fun thats how you retain info so much better.