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do you think in another life we could have been friends? lovers, even?
The room was dimly lit by the flicker of the TV, its light casting soft shadows against the walls of the small, unremarkable apartment--a simple hideout. The sound of a crime serial played in the background, the familiar voice of Robert Stack a low hum as Carmen leaned back against the couch, legs tucked under her. The remnants of Chinese takeout containers cluttered the coffee table, and the faint smell of soy sauce and ginger hung in the air. A few empty beer bottles rolled lazily beside them. She let herself get lost in the moment, in the humdrum of a quiet night--something she didn’t often allow. Her mind wandered to a different life, a simpler one. A life where her parents worked desk jobs, where her childhood wasn’t a puzzle of secrets and shadows. But as tempting as that life seemed, she knew it wasn’t meant for her. The thought left a strange ache, a longing for something she could never quite define.
Beside her, Bronn shifted slightly, breaking the comfortable silence between them. His voice seemed casual but laced with something heavier. “Do you think in another life we could have been friends? Lovers, even?”
Carmen’s gaze flicked to him, her heart caught off guard by the question. She studied him for a moment--his bruised knuckles, the way the light hit his tired eyes, the hint of vulnerability behind his smirk. There was a resilience in him, a kind of survival instinct she recognized also in herself. But what was this between them? She couldn’t put a name to it. She let out a slow breath, leaning forward to set her beer bottle down on the table, fingers brushing the condensation on the glass. “In another life…” she echoed, her voice quieter, softer than she intended. “Maybe. Friends? I could see it. You’ve got a stubbornness that’s hard not to admire.”
Her lips quirked up, but it wasn’t quite a smile. She glanced at the TV, though she wasn’t really watching it anymore. “Lovers?” she said, the word hanging in the air between them, heavy with the weight of possibility. “I don’t know, Bronn. I’ve spent so long not trusting anyone…even in another life, I wonder if that would change.” The confession surprised her, leaving a bitterness on her tongue. She didn’t often let herself be this open. Not with him. Not with anyone.
But there was something about Bronn--his rough edges, the way he kept going even when the odds were stacked against him. Maybe it was because he reminded her of herself, or maybe it was something else entirely. She wasn’t sure. “I think, in another life, we might have had a chance,” she finally said, her gaze drifting back to him. “But in this one? We might be too broken for it.”
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its out! my completed piece for the summer portion of the @boatemvillagezine !!!
#now if youll excuse me i need my feet in a river Now#kostik draws#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#goodtimeswithscar#grian#pearlescentmoon#impulsesv#mumbo jumbo#fanart#gtws#gtwscar#jellie the cat#what a doozy this background and layout and colour and everything was#i learned a lot and i think i did well. yaay#i really do really like the look of this one. mostly in vertical crops though#which does suggest something about the layout might be off#but this is basically one of the first times ive ever tried to compose like this and it was a very good first shot
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some short warmup comics about my mom and transformers. TF One was her first time watching any transformers media and her favorite character IS in fact Bumblebee 💛
she also refers to him almost exclusively as "Bumble". the only time she calls him anything else is...
... when she calls him "Badassatron"
#doozi doodle diary#<- new tag for the silly little things that happen in my life that i doodle about#velwy.png#transformers#im not tagging this anything else lmao#i love my mom shes very funny#if you MUST know. i am in fact buying her the tiny optimus prime. she already has a tiny bumblebee as well lmao#also my moms an otter because that's her favorite animal#i also thought her waking me up was some sort of fever dream until i asked her abt it later and she was like oh yeah. no. i did that.
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"Just Me?"
Arm was hurting too bad at the time to draw any proper propaganda for Round 1 of the Kirby OC Tournament's Second-Chance Brackets against @moondust-artz 's Pixie and @deadlygoldfish22 's Doozy Doo so this is more like...gift art? ^^
Anyway, I thought these two were great (Noddy OCs with prosthetics and bags under the eyes? Yesss! And an expansion on the Star Allies Waddle Doo? Love!!) Particularly, I enjoyed that all three characters coincidentally had a human and orb form!
Of course I had to draw them together!!
@kirbyoctournament
#Kirby OC Tournament#Kirby OC#Pixie (Kirby OC)#Doozy Doo#Noir Fontaine#PS: Sorry that I think I got Doozy's outfit a bit mixed up? ^^#(Noir's blob form has only been shown a little and is a post-canon(?) thing but I feel like it still counts XD )#I have something in mind for a Round 2 tribute as well!!#Dess Art Post
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I guess everybody has their own way of saying "I care about you" and "give up heaven for me" isn't the WORST way to do that.
ANYWAY HAPPY CHAPTER 44 EVERYBODY
#price of forgiveness#art time!#blood TW#gore TW#Kurloz: never let anyone else kill me. Meenah: then you'll never ever get to die.#me a person who has been writing these absolutely feral idiots for more than half a million words: aw they're communicating :) :) :)#spoilers#idk if there's anyone out there who would be bummed to be spoiled for my clown romdrama but there it is lol. This chapter was a doozy so#okay I should be well outside the archived tags now right#Her Imperious Condescension#The Grand Highblood#Meenah Peixes#Kurloz Makara#Karkat Vantas#these old freaks simply cannot be normal even by troll standards. Bless.
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No new doodles so you're getting the old human concept designs (they still need to be reworked but I ain't doing that right now🤸♀️)
#the next two weeks are going to be q doozy for me so my streak of posting non stop will come to an end prob#faceee art#gobb#I'm not going to tag the main gobb tag cause these are meh#Also I made these cause I was bored one day so nothing's set in stone#well except brushista and banbaleena. they turned out better than I expected
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"may god have mercy on your wretched soul! ...that is what i should say when i kill them, is it not?"
vivica, one of the key supporting characters of reassassination. a scythe-wielding overachiever, her primary goal is to defeat octavia under the orders of the clear crucifix organisation.
#zeno's art#ocs#reassassination#vivica de la crux#you can fit so much self-doubt and insecurity in this girl its crazy#she represents envy. her codename is envy and she is a fucking doozy bro theres so much to her but i wont reveal too much#theres a certain event that happens in the story heavily involving her that is soooo important i promise that itll be good prommy!!!!#anyway otherwise shes a very fun character to draw as well as to write i love her lots#and also she laughs like 'ohohoho'#ok up next should be lunette if future me actually gets his fucking ref sheets done
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WC/RW DAY 4: GOURMAND
meet peachstar, the leader of drizzleclan! he is a fawn ticked tabby :] those are yellow primroses on her tail, to symbolize her love for drizzleclan [and her mate, redsong]!! peachstar in general is a very loving and gentle leader, but fights with the ferocity of a true parent
the dots on her forehead are actually a leader mark!
and here's his kits, snailkit and bugkit! they're almost 6 moons old, and love bothering their dad to make them apprentices early
#rain world#warrior cats#warriors x rainworld#wc x rw art month#rw gourmand#gourmand rw#peachstar is a she/he nonbinary lesbian to clear up any confusion#she just uses fem and masc nouns interchangeably#the kits are supposed to be gourm's green and purple pups in their ending art btw#it was a. doozy figuring out their genes#snailkit is a lilac-fawn classic tabby calico and bugkit is just a chocolate classic#i dont know who their second parent is but im just gonna say they got the chocolate gene from them#both got the classic tabby gene from peach#and snail got the dilute from her as well
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quiet afternoon crush (ch 9) - anatomy of a hookup
ryeji college au, idiots in love, slow burn, fluff & smut, yeji falls first ryujin falls harder | word count: 41.6k/????
Ryujin draws all the while, barely aware of the charcoal on the page. All she can think about is pressing a kiss to the swell of Yeji's hip, tracing a finger across the corner of her jaw. She remembers how dark Yeji’s eyes were when she didn’t kiss her in her apartment almost three weeks ago. She remembers the sheer athleticism of that goal she scored at the semifinals and the way Yeji had found her in the crowd before being slammed into a group hug by her team. She remembers the quiet certainty with which Yeji had looked at her when they were sitting together in the common room, thighs pressed together, the private intimacy of the moment despite the fact that they were surrounded by her friends. Ryujin realizes that she’s not sure she’ll be able to shake the image of Yeji’s naked body from her mind. Realizes that it’s going to be near impossible to spend time with Yeji without itching to do something. She had been content to play a long game, to see if something could happen between them naturally. But after Snow Ball? After this? She’s not so sure that’ll work.
🎨 Keep Reading
⚽️ Master Post
#ryeji#ryeji au#ryeji smut#itzy#itzy fic#itzy smut#hwang yeji#yeji#shin ryujin#ryujin#yeji smut#ryujin smut#my fic#nmau#am i allowed to say it's a doozy even tho i say that on everything i post?#if i keep saying it it loses it's impact? damn#well!! important chapter i think :)#pls enjoy lmk what you think see you in the next etc!
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anyways since i had the misfortune of accidentally reading his name again today, i'd like to remind everyone that this fucking weirdo (sylvain charlebois) exists and he thinks that women are ruining meat for everyone and that meat—yes the entire food group of meat—is for men only and eating meat is somehow a gendered activity ????
there are THREE factors listed in that last sentence and this moron was like "it's the fault of the wimmin"
#this is like the only quote i know about him and i just fucking hate him#i'm not gonna link the article bc i don't respect any of this but it's easy to find with that doozy of a quote#my next post-period steak is going to be this man#you know if i had the energy and time i'm almost certain i could dig in#and find a correlation between the fetishistic way meat has been historically advertized to men#and the postwar era where everyone was too fucking poor to buy it#so instead of driving down prices#male execs targeted other male consumers (men earn and spend more especially in the postwar times)#which something something domino effect to how the bacon craze of however many years ago#was insidious weirdly sexual/gendered corporate advertizing as well#https://deadspin.com/you-like-bacon-because-they-told-you-to-1642981536#jj stuff
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“Look who finally showed up.” Ladybug’s voice was the quiet kind of rage, an animal she was just barely keeping penned up. “I was starting to wonder.” She looked at him like he was a dead thing.
good morning and happy call it even chapter 6 day to me and @sha-nwa and all those who celebrate<3
#listen the chapter title selection on this one was a doozy. let me tell you.#so many good options#stiffest competition was between this one and 'a simple complication' from the story of us#but ten thousand bad moments from vicious won out.#both just sort of making fun of how terrible adrien's life is#but! well!#adrien sort of does have a terrible life. I feel that writing him this way is true to his character#anyway#HAPPY CHAPTER SIX DAY#im posting this so early bc otherwise it would be at literally like 5pm and I dont have the patience for that#ml#call it even#miraculous ladybug#mlb#ml fic#ml fic rec#adrien agreste#marinette dupain cheng#adrinette#ladynoir
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Happy Holidays nerdsbians! And an early Happy New Year, too!
I had a short story idea for this image a la the "Adventures of Bering & Wells" series (the one I was chipping away at a few years ago), but just didn't have the time or focus to flesh it out. So, for now, I hope it's enough just to see these two shuffling along in Midtown New York mid-conversation (or argument? Who knows..). I guess I should thank that W train that turned into a Q mid journey, forcing me to walk across 57th street to catch the bus home. I wouldn't have experienced any of the holiday decorations otherwise, and the snaps I took of this plaza gave me ideas.
#bering and wells#warehouse 13#myka bering#helena hg wells#holiday cheer#2023's been quite a doozy for me#personally. Hope yours has been better!#Thankful for the bright spots and for the friends I've made here#hard to believe the adventures we've had this year!
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doozi's transformers fic rec list round one!!
📚 FIC REC MASTERLIST
Ehehehe Transformers time. First round is all reader inserts because I love reader inserts and ik a lot of people who follow me here enjoy them too :] Next round will probably be a mix of other ship stuff (aka. anything but reader inserts LMAO)
For those of you who are new here, this will be VERY long. I like to chatter a LOT. And for those that have seen any of my other rec lists... you know what's up.
The STATUS of each fic is labelled as such: Finished, Ongoing/Unfinished, Discontinued or Indefinite Hiatus. Oneshots are also marked accordingly.
Fics with Explicit content and/or Dark themes have also been labelled to the best of my memory. (I don’t mark fics with suggestive themes/moments and no explicit smut, since I cant guarantee I’ll catch all of them. Similarly, unless there is consistent graphic death, gore, or other upsetting topics are central to the plot, I [probably] won’t mark it as "dark".)
I've also done my best to label each of these with which continuity they (broadly) exist in, if it's relevant. If it's not labelled it's likely because it's because I couldn't decide on a tag and/or it's set in an AU divorced enough from any specific continuity that I figured that a tag would just be a disservice to any sort of filtering. Either that, or I just missed it LMAO.
Also, usually I try not to include TOO many fics with explicit content in these lists because my blog isn't specifically 18+ but uhhhh some of these are Pretty Damn Explicit, so use your best judgement while reading and all that 👍
Please tread carefully while reading, check tags, take breaks, drink water and HAVE FUN <3
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MULTICHAPTERS
Words and Wishes - [ IDW ] - Swerve/Reader - Finished
One of the first few TF fics I read!! I'm a big fan of first contact AUs and linguistics so I fell in love with this fic immediately. I also fell in love with Swerve immediately. He's SO freakin cute in this. I read it before finishing IDW and so when I eventually got to Swerve in the comics I was like "OHHH!!! That's Swerve!? My beloved shooting star..."
The author's other work in the series (same premise, different character), Fox in Shining Armor is also HELLA cute.
Reciprocated - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader - Finished
The reader has a teeny tiny lil crush on Soundwave, which he discovers while monitoring Autobot communications. He continues listening in and begins to feel the same :]!
This one makes me cry every time I read it, it's just SO sweet and lovely and just. AUGH!!! There's no words for how freakin CUTE it is. I've read it soooo many times.
Flick of the Wrist - [ IDW ] - Whirl/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
More first contact crashlandings!! Except it's WHIRL which is so so fun. He causes much property damage and you wouldn't trade him for the world.
The Angel of Highway 49 - [ TFP ] - Optimus Prime/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
One of my favourite authors!!! I was so heckin excited when I realised they were posting Transformers fic LMAO.
And rightfully so! The fic is fantastic so far- Optimus becomes a sort of ghost story, a stranger who helps people along the highways. He's confusing and comforting and he's seemingly taken it upon himself to protect you.
Social Media Etiquette - [ TFA ] - Prowl/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
The start of this is a really funny concept (buncha coworkers discussing which Autobot they'd bang) and then it just continues on being super super adorable and sweet. I love TFA!Prowl and I love the way he's written in this!!!
Swaps seamlessly between cute romantic trysts and the absolute chaos of other people watching these two wander into love.
winter of our youth - [ TFP ] - Ultra Magnus/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Ultra Magnus accidentally ends up with a human companion who mostly wants to get back to their own life, only for both to become steadily more entangled. I absolutely adore the vibes in this fic- it feels slow, soft, and bright like a world muffled by snow.
west texas wind - [ G1 ] - Protectobots/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
By the same author as above! Protectobots my BELOVED. It's so soft and sweet and auuauauhghhh I need more. It updated while I was in the middle of writing this list and just ahh! I LOVE IT. So cute. So sweet. I love seeing the different characters reactions to each other and their actions- it's so fun.
You should also go check out their other fics, because the way they write character dynamics is sooo lovely, and their fics have been Nourishing me because I'm in love with a lot of characters that rarely get reader inserts :'> !!!
In particular I'm a fan of: haunt, invisible string, their prowl fics (<- two links!!!), AND also this set of oneshots; glory !
empurata - [ TFP ] - Shockwave/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
As a neutral party in all this war stuff, you just want to help fix up bots. This ends up endearing you to both factions, which results in you befriending one explosive Wrecker, and sometimes hosting a bunch of Decepticons in your garage.
TFP setting with a dash of IDW lore <3 I love the way the relationships develop in this fic- Shcokwaves emotions (or lack of) is always fun to explore, especially in the context of love and having Romantic Feelings. It gets even more complicated when the thing preventing him from feeling things begins to malfunction...
Small Hands - [ TFP ] - Optimus/Reader, Ratchet/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Soulmate AU!! Oohoho I love soulmate AUs... having THIS one be handprints is an especially fun, considering the size difference !!! Also, I love the way Cybertronian soulmates work :0
OP and the reader interacting and slooooowly figuring things out is very sweet.
knock us down and we'll keep on going - [ TFP ] - Knock Out/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Who knew deleting your ex off of social media would lead to you getting kidnapped by a car then falling for said car? KO and the reader get to be an iconic bi4bi couple, and you also get a cat! Who's totally normal and not a decepticon. Very very cute, funny, and also angsty in parts in a really good way (Breakdown... he only shows up in mentions but my HEART ;w;)
Series is ongoing, but the fics are finished :]
Breaking Bread - [ TFP ] - Megatron/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Some sorta warning for the SHEER AMOUNT OF HORNY that the characters experience in this (/appreciative)]
There is no way I can make a TF fic rec list and NOT include the fic that made me SO unwell about TFP Soundwave before I got into Transformers. Phenomenal writing, snappy dialogue and absolute CHAOS and CHEMISTRY (both of the romantic and literal kind).
The various animal-related descriptors of all the bots are cemented in my brain as well as several playlists worth of music. My Spotify will never recover.
I was already attached to Soundwave from the start, but my absolute favorite animals are jellyfish, so when that parallel was drawn, I swooned even harder... ALAS. *gives a sad, sidelong glance at the main ship tag*
Also, I'm in love with the Anime-Waifu-Madness-slash-Marriage-Counselling-Arc that's going on at the moment because HOW did we get here and WHY does it work so well????
Fortuna Primigenia - [ TFP ] - Optimus Prime/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Same author as the previous fic! I originally read this immediately after catching up with Breaking Bread and it absolutely destroyed me (and my sleep schedule)!! I cried!! So much!!!!! AHHHHHH!!! Fascinating concepts, and wonderful execution. Makes me want to eat drywall.
ALSO while I'm here, you should also read Blackbird [E] because the reader realising their "metal Adonis" is a "liar and a pussy" made me laugh so hard I cried for a different reason and it's also really good my god.
50% Plant Based - [ TFP ] - Megatron/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
HYSTERICAL fic. Really funny. The reader is a menace and I'm living for it. You haunt the Nemesis and somehow seduce Megatron with your Silly Guy wiles, and also by bullying Starscream. The reader is incapable of expressing any genuine emotion without like 10 layers of Humor on top of it, which is hilarious when combined with an overly poetic warlord who feels every emotion with the dramatics of a Shakespearean play.
And I met you in the rain - [ G1-ish ] - Prowl/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Prowl is down bad for a human that he's been seeing in his dreams and gets the chance to save her when he happens upon her in the rain. This fic reminds me of a romance movie in the best ways.
Romantic Mixtape Side A - [ G1-ish ] - Con Cassettes/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
You kiss a buncha cassettes after one of them crashes through your wall! Domestic and cute for the large part- you get them to all be nicer to each other sjkdfhskjdf
Slice of life, but with big alien bots <3
Revelboo's Fic Collection - Misc./Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Go read Revelboo's fics now!!! She updates So Fast it scares me. But I'm eating them up like candy because each installment is bite sized and delicious.
My favourites so far are the fics for Jazz, Sunstreaker+Sideswipe, Bluestreak, Thundercracker, ES!Megatron, Rumble and Prowl but oh my god every single one of them is amazing. OH AND THE ONE WITH THE SCAVENGERS. If you think that's a long list of characters, that's because the actual list of ongoing fics is EVEN LONGER.
They're also up on Ao3 if you prefer to read stuff there :]!!
D-16 (Megatron) x Reader – The Creature From Another World - [ TFOne ] - D16 | Megatron/Reader - Finished
Have I mentioned I love language barriers? It's so fun. Everyone thinks you're a fun little creature... until you get your translator fixed of course :]
The ending of this is so perfectly tragic and it fits so well with D-16's transition into becoming Megatron!!
Canary in a Coal Mine - [ TFP ] - Shockwave/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains dark themes]
The Decepticons won and have taken over Earth, enslaving humanity and leaving razed ground in their wake. Your voice is the only thing you truly have to yourself any more,
This fic leaves a bitter and gritty taste in your mouth. I love it.
Crosscheck on Angels 10 - [ TFP ] - Starscream/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
After Starscream strikes it out on his own, you end up becoming an unexpected light in the darkness for him, much to the concern of Ratchet.
I really like how Arcee's anger is portrayed in this- it feels so visceral.
They Just Wanted to Relax - [ TFP ] - Ratchet/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
You work with automobiles and one day you begin getting a buncha weeeeeeird customers. I love the reader slowly putting the pieces together. It's so fun.
Metal Lung - [ TFP ] - Megatron/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
This one is just starting out and I'm HOOKED already. The premise is fantastic, and it's paired with some extremely evocative writing.
The reader is an agent of MECH who ends up infiltrating the Decepticons after signing their death sentence and stepping inside the MECHA they've been working on...
Adrift in the Lagoon - [ IDW ] - Mer!Drift/Reader - Finished
Mermechs...... Drift as a mermech... *swoons* be still my beating heart!! He's really freaking cute in this, I wanna kiss him and smoosh his cheeks.
TwinTails - [ G1-(f)ish ] - Mer!Sideswipe/Reader, Mer!Sunstreaker/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Captive mer fic >:]c !!! You're a scientist who works with Sunstreaker and Sideswipe, helping them and growing closer. You eventually help them escape of course, but that comes with it's own slew of problems.
I!! Love!! Language barriers!!! And this does not disappoint! I'm fascinated and delighted by the eventual work around for the language barrier as well, because it's nit perfect but it works and it's so cool to see both Sideswipe and Sunstreaker finding their own ways to communicate and connect with the reader in this.
Smut is skippable in this, but why would you want to do that? It's amazing :3c
Marine Centre -Merformers AU - Misc./Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Even MORE mer fic. This one has a wider cast of mer which is DELIGHTFUL because you get to see all the different personalities interacting. Also I saw that there's more content with the ladies planned later so I'm DOUBLY excited 💖
Full Throttle - [ G1-ish ] - Starscream/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
You're a janitor tasked with cleaning up after the unethical experiments the military are performing on Starscream, and end up growing close to him as you treat him kindly :]
Gravity - [ G1-ish ] - Starscream/Reader - Finished
Same author as previous! This time you're one of the scientists tasked with studying Starscream and he gets to be a tremendous menace the entire time. I love that in many ways, he's studying you too.
Displeasures of the Flesh - [ IDW ] Human!Kaon/Reader, Human!Vos/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Gore and horror themes] [Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
This is humanformers but it's humanformers if they were FORMERLY bots and that in itself is enough to sell me on the concept because DUDE hell yeah ??
Anyway I love these fucked up little guys. They've got to reckon with suddenly becoming human, and you've got to deal with THEM.
Best Job Ever - [ Bayverse/ROTB ] Mirage/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
CARWASHING EHEHEHE. You get a certain customer who keeps requesting you wash his car... and well, the second chapter is explicit :]
Hit Me Hard (Hit Me Fast) - [ TFP ] Knock Out/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Sometimes the cute guy you've been talking to turns out to be a talking walking car alien, and you have Feelings about that!!
Decadence - Starscream/Reader, Shockwave/Reader, Soundwave/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Gore and horror themes]
I absolutely love the descriptions in this fic. Deliciously disgusting, it's not for the light of heart. Everything in this fic feels Squishy and visceral and I love it.
You're a paramedic, called to the sight of a grisly and unusual accident. Even more unusual is the giant metal angel who appears to terrorize you.
sugar (daddy), oh, honey honey - [ TFA ] - Swindle/Reader - Oneshot
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
The DYNAMIC between Swindle and the reader in this one. My god. MY GOD. He's your sugar baby essentially kjhfksjfh,, it's a mutually beneficial agreement!! I would let my bank account get drained by him.
"Improving alien relations" sounds better than "a really nice hook-up" - [ IDW ] - Swerve/Reader - Oneshot
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
The title is self explanatory sdjfhskdfh <3 You're a human in a mech suit and Swerve's got his holoform going... I'd make a joke but the author already did that in the summary LOL. He's such a sweetheart...
To live, and to serve - [ TFOne ] - Sentinel Prime/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
TFOne!Sentinel Prime is his own warning- the relationship is Not Good At All but it is so fun to read. He's so awful and I wanna kiss him. Grahhh I love this nasty man!!!
To Endure - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Timeloops my BELOVED. The reader gets stuck in a timeloop along with Soundwave. Both of them are working towards opposite outcomes and the reader decides they're going to make it Soundwave's problem. Humans are squishy after all...
I love the push and pull between Soundwave and the reader in this <3
Our thoughts are all mechanical - [ TFP ] - Ratchet/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
You're suffering from energon poisoning, and the only cure? Cuddles!! No, like, legit. You get many many medically incurred cuddles.
Very very sweet fic! So much mutual pining... 💖!!
Enough - [ TFP ] - Ratchet/Reader - Finished
Things end happily but ehehehe I am eating up the sweet sweet misunderstandings and angst in this fic. Makes me want to vibrate out of my seat.
To Fake a Funeral - [ TFP ] - Optimus Prime/Reader, Megatron/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Another newer fic! It's just started out but it's so good already... the reader is Jack's sister and gets into a bunch of shenanigans when she returns to Jasper on a temporary break from college. Like getting captured so you csn fix up the comatose leader of the Decepticons and meeting the Autobots who your little brother has been hanging out with.
Klik away - [ IDW2/G1 ] - Prowl/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Prowl gets saddled with a very unfortunate human until they can be returned to earth. Despite their differences, both end up growing fond of each other :]
ALSO. GREEN IS HERE. 🥺✨ Baby baby baby I love her!!
~* Gladiators of Kaon *~ - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader, Megatron/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content...?]
Rhhghdgh I'm not all the way caught up on this one yet (thus the question mark in the warning. I Know it's coming) but I'm adding it anyway because what I HAVE read I'm in love with. It's set before the war, so we get gladiators Megatron and Soundwave >:33c!! Also I'd put my life on the line for Swindle. He's such a little GUY.
The author's other series Butterfly Effect [E] (ft. a human reader) is also really good!!
The Darkest Hour (Optimus x You) - [ TFP ] - Optimus Prime/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
I'm really enjoying where this is going so far >:3c! The reader is a reporter who is dedicated to uncovering the truth, but is also prone to lying in order to get where the information they need ;] I'm so unwell over their dynamic in this fic.
Burn a hole in the old grip of the familiar - [ TFP ] - Ultra Magnus/Reader - Finished
[Warning: Contains Explicit Content.]
Auuauuiahgh Ultra Magnus..... after getting into a fight with Knock Out within sight of a human, he ends up with you as a companion. Groundbridge is broken, so cue a very long, unplanned roadtrip. It's sooo good.
Spilling Sugar - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader, Shockwave/Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
Poly!!! Triad!!!!!!! Soundwave/Reader/Shockwave!!! They are sooooo cute. I love polyamory negotiations and figuring things out and AHHH I JUST LOVE THEM BOTH DEARLY. The reader teaching Shockwave texting shorthand and emotes is so cute... AUUIGGHD MY HEART auuuauuhgh.
More reader inserts need to let me kiss multiple characters and for them to kiss each other. Love is love is love. Where are all the TF poly reader inserts I need more!!!
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ONESHOTS
Universal Constant - Misc./Reader - Oneshot Series
Series of soulmate oneshots!! I love these. I especially enjoyed the ones for Fulcrum, TFP Ratchet, Dratchet (!!! YES!! POLY!!!!) and TFA Prowl <3
One to One - Misc./Reader - Oneshot Series
More!! Soulmate oneshots!! I love all of them :']]!!!! They're all just really really good I can't pick any favorites skdjfjkhfh
Locks To Fit the Keys - Misc./Reader - Oneshot Series
This one has it so that Cybertronians can only transform once they find their soulmate- as such, locks, keys... there are so many oneshots in this collection and I adore all of them. This was another one I read before I got into TF LMAO so it was fun going back and rereading them now I know who everyone is XD
Also, not all of these have happy endings >:3c!!! Many do, but not all, and I love that!!
Passing thoughts; obscurest bots - Misc./Reader - Oneshot Series
A series dedicated to lovin on obscure bots and side characters!! I've linked it to the SFW edition, which includes Defensor and Pipes, both of whom I love dearly.
Poly-Combaticons X Reader – Hostage - [ G1 ] - Combaticons/Reader - Oneshot
Wanna smooooch a gestalt? I wanna smooch a gestalt. You're taken hostage and this bunch ends up growing fond of you, and decide to break you out because you're theirs now.
Code: LOVE - [ G1 ] - Prowl/Reader - Oneshot
KJRAHRJKHFJF I love this one so much. The reader dresses up in a sexy police outfit for Prowl, except he's kinda oblivious, something that the rest of the base is more than happy to clear up for him, much to his and your detriment. It's extremely funny and cute.
Can't Keep Up - [ TFA ] - Blurr/Reader - Oneshot
You find out your best friend and racing partner IS the car he drives when you're unexpectedly ambushed by Decepticons.
softest spot to sleep in - [ G1 ] - Ratchet/Reader - Oneshot
Titties........... medically prescribed titties... !! Very cute, very soft. I want this to be real... Like Ratchet's boobs
Making Space - [ TFP ] - Optimus/Reader - Oneshot
You spend some time sitting in a very intimate position as Optimus does desk work. He places you between his legs and I'm. hrhghjkjfjkks,, thighs.
RELIC I JUST REALISED YOU WROTE THIS ONE. I'VE BEEN UNWELL OVER IT FOR SO LONG. THIGHS. MY GOD.
Copy - [ IDW ] - Rodimus/Reader - Oneshot
The reader has a very fun power in this >:3c I won't spoil it because I think it's better experienced, but oh my god the bit at the end where the reader's reveal fails at first had me in stitches. Really fun and very cute.
kindness - [ IDW ] - Sunstreaker/Reader - Oneshot
Sunstreaker is freakin ADORABLE in this <3!! It's set on the Lost Light as well, which is a rarity that I love.
Our Shirt - [ IDW ] - Spinister/Reader - Oneshot
I'm a sucker for Spinister!!! My beautiful dumbass heli!! Short and sweet akjhsdkjf
Booty Shorts - [ IDW ] - Whirl/Reader - Oneshot
WHIRL IN BOOTY SHORTS, WHAT MORE CAN I SAY?
Based off of this fantastic piece of artwork! I think this was the one of the first times I read anything relating to Whirl and it was such a delightful introduction.
The Concept of Cohabitation - [ G1 ] - Combaticons/Reader - Oneshot
Reader is dating Swindle, but due to Combiner Feels, the others end up feeling the same way, and well... you're not complaining ;]! Focus is on Onslaught in this, but the other ships are very much implied.
The Last Time This Happened Megatron X Reader - Megatron/Reader - Oneshot
The reader is a dimension hopper, and gets stuck in a cave with Earthspark!Megatron. You've seen him die again and again throughout dimensions, and now... it might be your turn. Very sweet and sad... the reader carrying the weight of half a dozen histories is so good.
This Is Not A Negotiation - [ IDW(SG) ] - Shattered Glass!Rodimus/Reader - Oneshot
Shattered Glass Rodimus... I love him despite his shitty little moustache. The reader runs around in a mech suit and he doesn't realise that they're human until both of them catch Feelings >:)))!!! Really really fun premise, and deliciously written.
Scout and Medic - [ TFP ] - Arcee/Reader - Oneshot
You're Arcee's partner and the two of you get the chance to reunite on Earth! Short and sweet :D
Fated Nonsense - [ TFP ] - Knock Out/Reader/Breakdown - Oneshot
Unrequited pining? Kinda? Essentially the reader keeps running into two handsome cars and they pine for the funny little human they keep seeing around. Very very cute, even though you don't know they aren't just cars. WAIT I JUST REALISED THAT THIS IS THE SAME AUTHOR AS RECIPROCATED HANG ON-
Woke Up In A Safe House, Singing - [ TFP ] - Airachnid/Reader - Oneshot
Because of that realisation, I also now have more fics to add to the list!! AIRACHNID MY BELOVED. I absolutely adore how intimidating but gentle she is in this fic. Very very sweet. Get you a big spider lady to treat you right!!!!
Alien Parenting 101 - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader - Oneshot
You are babysitting your roommates kid and are summoned to the Nemesis, where nobody is immune to Cute Baby. I'm gonna cry it's so cute...!!!
Of All The Mechs... - [ TFA ] - Starscream/Reader - Oneshot
Your gaze ends up lingering a little too long on the enemy. Little baby me is cheering and whooping at the back of my brain because TFA Starscream was my fav when I was a kid.
Butterscotch - [ TFA ] - Prowl/Reader - Oneshot
Cuteeeeee. Movie night with a very smitten Prowl who doesn't know what to do with himself. Cuddles ensue <33 Soooo so cute!!!
Pen And Paper - [ TFA ] - Prowl/Reader - Oneshot
Seems like Megatron has an admirer... he takes it upon himself to find out whoever has been leaving him such detailed and beautiful artworks. SO CUTE.
Hypothetically speaking - [ IDW ] - Rodimus/Reader - Oneshot
So... hypothetically speaking, if there was a fic that was super cute and funny about the reader hypothetically liking Rodimus in which they decide to confess to him in hypotheticals...well, hypothetically, would you read it? (The fic is filled with hypotheticals and silly cuteness!!)
Take a Break - [ TFP ] - Ratchet/Reader - Oneshot
Very cute!! You force Ratchet to take a break for once, and the two of you spend some time watching the sunset :]!
Swoop - [ G1 ] - Thundercracker/Reader - Oneshot
He's so smooth in this!!! My little heart can't take it!! Smooth moves TC, smooth moves. So cute!
Runway 19 - [ G1/IDW-ish ] - Jazz/Reader - Oneshot
A soft, slow fic which details the growing tension between a government agent and their car. The quiet intimacy of this fic kills me, it's sooo good...
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PLATONIC & AMBIGUOUS
Platonic reader inserts!! Because I love them and I think they should get more attention <3 (Also includes fics which are tagged with both / and &, or otherwise ambiguously romantic/platonic fics)
In Media Bellum - [ TFP ] - Ongoing/Unfinished
This fic has me in a vice grip. I love love love the mysteries and the dynamics between the reader and the other characters. It's so fascinating to see the dynamics unfold. This fic makes me feel so many things!!!
Sparkless - [ TFP ] - Ongoing/Unfinished
You get a Vehicon friend and a lot of scares along the way :]!! I love! Fics like this!!!
Critter - [ TFP ] - Soundwave/Reader || Soundwave&Reader - Oneshot
Giant metal creatures can be scary, no matter how well meaning or kind they might be. Soundwave finds the reader after an Incident with the Autobots, and he is very attentive and gentle with them. Makes me feel soft!!
Too Close For Comfort - [ IDW ] - Rodimus&Reader - Finished
Language barriers >:3c!!!!! Mmmm Rodimus thinking of himself as heroic when he's unintentionally the opposite is one of my favourite flavours of Rodimus, and this series tackles that in a really fun way. The opposing perspectives are SO good and I love that the same scene is seen in such different ways by characters. The tension that grows throughout the series is So good.
I especially enjoyed Sparkbeat, A Game of Mech and Mouse AND ALSO Darkness is Honest, Are You to Yourself? because I love hopeful endings <3
Playing With His Food - [ TFP ] - Starscream/Reader - Oneshot
You get into a dogfight with an unusual sort of plane and Starscream finds himself a new toy of sorts :3c I really enjoy that there's a language barrier but we as the audience still get to know what Starscream is saying. AUGH I love the dialogue. So good.
Snow Angel - [ G1 ] - Skyfire&Reader - Oneshot
You get lost in the snowy wilderness, but luckily you are found by some sort of angel... I looooove this so much. I love the delayed reaction the reader has because of the cold... and Skyfire is so gentle, it makes my heart skip a beat every time I read this.
Ignition - Ratchet&Reader - Finished
More first contact stuff!!! Ratchet stumbles across an injured human after crash landing on Earth. He tries to help, with mixed results. Again, I'm a big fan of language barriers, and I enjoyed Ratchet figuring out how to help the human to the best of his ability without being abke to properly communicate at the beginning. The moment when commutation IS established is also very funny to me sbfjdbdk
I love Transformers. I love Stardew Valley. This fic mashes them both together in a really fun way!! You, as per Stardew Valley fashion, inherit your grandfather's farm, except you end up finding a dog and a strange... doll? One becomes many and soon you have the entire (tiny!) Lost Light crew living with you.
The Season of the Smallest Stars - [ IDW/Stardew Valley Crossover ] - Ongoing/Unfinished
Supremely cute. I love all the little adventures everyone gets to go on.
The Tyrant's Consideration - [ Earthspark ] - Megatron/Terran!Reader || Megatron&Terran!Reader - Oneshot
Crashout Relations - [ G1-ish ] - Thundercracker/Reader || Thundercracker&Reader, Seeker Trine&Reader - Ongoing/Unfinished
I came across this one while putting the list together and I'm so glad for it- it's brilliant and tense so far. A big blue seeker crashes into your backyard and flees (drags himself) into your barn. Your plan of moving to a farm so you'd be left alone doesn't seem to be working out too well...
Very very sweet!! The reader is a Terran who is selectively mute, and they have a run in with Megatron, who turns out to be much less scary than you imagined.
I've included this here because the fic contents isn't Specifically Romantic, and also from what I understand of ES, the Terrans are usually portrayed to have a familial relationship to the Cybertronians, but please correct me if I'm wrong!!
Neon-Green Spandex Missile - [ TFP ] - Ongoing/Unfinished
You're a Cybertronian(?) who transforms into a BIKE and your name is... the title. No, seriously that's how you introduce yourself and it's great. Very fun fic!
I.O.U - [ IDW ] - Tarn&Reader - Finished
Weird fae rules and worlds??? Strange size-swapping magics?? Sign me UP. Tiny Tarn is So angy but cute. I adore characters getting tied to one another via unintentional magical pact, it's so fun...
These Caves We Venture Through - [ G1/Earthspark ] - Megatron&Reader, Sideswipe&Reader - Finished
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Series ongoing, fics are finished! You're a kid who stumbles across Megatron while off exploring. Years later, you encounter him again. Very sweet and melancholic at times.
OKAY that's all I've got for reader inserts that aren't just... purely explicit content LMAO.
If I included those I'd be here forever, but yknow, if you are interested in seeing that list... let me know and I'll smash one together in the future (on my. other blog of a sqwyrme-ier sort.) Either way, I'll be putting together the list of other ship fics next :]
Also!! If you have any recs for me, please feel free to drop by my inbox!! I'd love to read them <3
#fic recs#doozis fic recs#velwy.txt#rhjfhdj idk. do i tag this? sure why not#macaddam#transformers#it was so fun putting this together because i kept adding fics and being like. WAIT THIS IS BY THE SAME AUTHOR AS THAT OTHER FIC...#because when i read i just. do not see usernames#too used to tumblr /j#tbh i probably missed quite a few of my favs but thats ok. i have more lists to make in the future.#also i realised i probably miss out on quite a lot of good fic because i dont. peruse the tags for more popular characters *cough cough* op#also megs tag as well. like. i like them but they arent my Favs so i dont go lookin for content.........#anyway ive rambled MORE THAN ENOUGH LIKE GOOD LORD DID YOU SEE THE TEXT AT THE TOP. CJFKFBDK#im gonna post this before i think my way out of it and try adding more fics
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Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20's Burrow's End episode 10 (finale)
#dimension 20 spoilers#dimension 20#d20 introductions#burrow's end#burrow's end spoilers#d20 burrow's end#in which i regret putting multiple versions of the same intro card because of the burning overlay vs not#well shit. i committed to it and now i'm in for it#featuring bonus Wenabocker who just happened to have a little flash of blue in his appearance this ep (though it might have been present b4#i KNEW the phoebe intro card would be a doozy but i also did NOT expect that battleset to be that TERRIFYING. like good GOD#very wonderful season though- i loved it a lot (even as someone who doesn't stomach a whole lot of gore/body horror often)#man what a ride.......#see y'all next season!!
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recently i realized i havent given... any context, really, on kiru's family outside of her being yana's cousin, which is honestly a little shocking because i think about it a LOT and it provides a lot of context for why she presents herself the way she does, both in terms of physical appearance and in terms of actions/character as a whole. i also need to explain the nature of her relationship with yana, so this will be the tell-all on kiru's upbringing, as well as some elaboration on her general disposition! you know the drill! this one ended up being much longer than some of my other long winded posts, which is a little scary. but under the cut we go!
BEFORE I START i do want to disclaim: for the sake of canon compliance, assume anything i say about kiru's parents [particularly her mother] and grandparents' attitudes doesn't apply to yanagida's upbringing or family. as much as i love headcanons and speculating about background characters [theres a reason s1e9 is my favorite episode], i also want kiru's lore to be taken somewhat independently from those headcanons/interpretations if so desired :-)
In order to make things a little less confusing [mostly for myself, because im very scatterbrained], i have a little family tree graphic. thing. mostly to keep track of names + relations and all that! ill be referring to kiru's parents by name for that same reason. but uhhh tada 🎉
OKAY BUT FOR REAL. the actual timeline is like this: kiru's childhood was pretty normal to start. her mother [mayumi] was a bit strict, but it wasn't anything too crazy, though she did prefer spending time with her dad [kentaro] during this time. this was all upended around the time she was eight, though, when her family had to move into her grandparents' home after her dad fell ill. kentaro, a lifelong smoker, had developed lung cancer, and the costly nature of treatments for his condition meant that they could no longer afford to life in their old house. in addition, kentaro's condition meant that mayumi had to essentially take over as his caretaker at home during this time, leaving kiru's grandparents as the ones to raise her.
i imagine this side of her family had a decent amount of social power within the community [this may just be a thing in my town, but you know those families where it feels like theyre kind of everywhere, like the school staff, the local politicians, etc.? theyre like that], which led to her grandparents being quite strict, if not authoritarian to a degree, with a particular emphasis on what behaviors were considered "acceptable". as such, while kiru was greatly encouraged in her academic endeavors, there was near equal pressure on how she presented herself outside of her studies. while the physical aspect of "dress neatly and maintain good hygiene" was part of this presentation, it also included a HEAVY emphasis on her emotional regulation. It reached a point where she began to suppress nearly any strong emotions she had, because she felt that there was never a Right time to feel or express them.
^ it was kind of like this. not really any forceful or outright Mean enforcement of this ideal, but definitely a conditioning that was strong enough to impact kiru, especially at such a young age. past this i think they would be fairly normal as far as grandparents go, just not quite as nurturing.
even in the present day, kiru's calm demeanor is only really maintained because of her belief that sharing her feelings would disgust or embarrass the people around her. growing up, strong expression of any emotion was childish and unsightly, and she still conducts herself with this in mind; its not something she feels about others, but she doesnt extend the grace she gives others in this regard to herself.
BUT back to the timeline. after moving in with her grandparents, kiru got a bit closer to yanagida, who would often visit their home, since yknow. same city and all. during this time kiru was pretty lonely, since kentaro's illness meant she had to spend less time with him, and as a result her and yana spent much of that time together instead. yana particularly enjoyed kiru's knowledge of english, since kentaro primarily spoke bonin standard english in the home + taught kiru the language. in turn, kiru appreciated that yana didnt see her through the same lens of "respectable young girl" that everyone else in the family seemed to have picked up since moving, and they were able to meet each other on more of an equal level of just being friends.
this pattern continued up until kiru was 10, when kentaro passed away. aside from the obvious, this was a particularly stressful time for kiru and mayumi, since kentaro wanted to be buried in Chichijima + have his funeral procession held there. as a result, kiru spent about a month of that summer away from home, on the island with her father's side of the family. away from the eagle eye of her mother, she tried to make the most of the time, but found herself too distraught to enjoy any of it to the fullest. she was too ill-equipped to tell her relatives there how she was really feeling, so they mostly carried on with the impression that a young kiru was being "strong" in the face of kentaro's death and was taking it well, even though it was quite far from the truth. upon her return to mainland japan to start her new school year, most of her family carried on with the impression that all had returned to normal. that is, except for yanagida.
obviously, only being about thirteen at the time of kentaro's death and not really having a strong understanding of the expectations kiru was under at home [not to mention having the emotional intelligence typical of a boy his age-- that is to say, not much], he didn't really understand Why her behavior had changed so much since moving in with her grandparents, or why her demeanor had taken a near 180 in that time. but he didn't really need to understand the why to know that Something was wrong, even before kentaro had passed.
what he wasnt expecting, though, was her breaking down sobbing the second he asked her how she was doing after she got back from chichijima. since yana was Also a kid, and had never put on the same pressure that the rest of the family put on on her, kiru felt a bit safer talking to him with the confidence that he wouldnt berate her for feeling that way or be disappointed in her. he consoled her about as well as he could [or as well as any 13 year old boy could] and assured her she could come to him if she was ever feeling down, but instead she assured him she would be fine.
after this event, yana started worrying about her quite a bit, but he wasnt really sure how to go about Expressing this concern [either to her or anyone else], so he just kind of let it sit there. as time went on, and kiru started to return to a more cheery persona, he let go of that worry for the most part and they returned to their old routine fun for the time being.
yanagida wasnt the only person whose relationship with kiru changed after kentaro's death, though. mayumi, who was wholly unequipped to handle the intense grief that kentaro's passing brought her, was wracked with a mixture of guilt, anger, and resentment; she regretted having ever met and married him, now knowing the pain it would come to cause her, and she even began to regret kiru's birth. its a feeling she was deeply ashamed of. she loved her daughter, but every time she looked at kiru, every time she heard her name, mayumi was acutely aware of the fact that kentaro was no longer there to share these memories, that he wasn't going to be there to see her grow any further. ashamed as she was of this feeling, it never fully went away, even if she made efforts to ignore it. the gap left between them was never fully mended, and though kiru couldn't place it at the time she definitely got the sense that mayumi didn't really want her around. as a result, kiru began to spend a bit more time around her grandparents, whom she had grown closer to since they were the ones raising her for the past couple of years.
as junior high rolled around for kiru, and as yanagida was going into high school, the distance between them grew as well; yanagida was beginning to exercise more independence from his family and spend more time with friends, and kiru was doing the same. they still made time for one another, though, walking home together once in a while when yanagida wasn't in the mood for hanging out with his friends. most of the time, though, they just stuck to their new groups. it was a small period of respite and was actually pretty chill for kiru, all things considered
once it came time for kiru to start testing into different high schools, mayumi became a bit more involved with her daughter's life. more specifically, she became more involved in how kiru presents herself; if youre a daughter [or former daughter] youre probably familiar with the specific underhanded flavor of body shaming she experienced. kiru and yanagida also lost contact during this time, as yanagida was preparing to enter college and they were both too busy to keep up with one another too well. he was definitely a little concerned with all these changes regarding her appearance, though
now, to this point, i want to say that mayumi was NOT being intentionally malicious or even aware of her harm during this time. during her youth, mayumi was ridiculed and ostracized for a more unkempt appearance that came as a result of an intense focus on her academic endeavors and matters other than her looks. not wanting to see her daughter endure the same thing, she tried to encourage kiru to put more care into her appearance. even so, her tactless expression of this concern ended up hurting kiru more than anything else.
high school came and went, with kiru attending St. Hanagaoka's, a prestigious all-girls school in the city. nothing particularly bad happened during this time, but kiru regards this time in her life rather poorly, because she spent most of it trying to Appear a certain way, rather than living how she actually wanted to live. its during this time that kiru became more acutely aware of much of her desires and identity; as femininity began to feel more like a prison, she found herself looking at the boys her age a bit differently. she had a boyfriend or two during her time at school, sure, but she never really felt that it was any different from having a friend. slowly, she realized the feelings she thought were admiration, or crushes on boys, were really just a sense of longing; she longed to dress like them, to be able to cut her hair short like them, even to pursue love with girls the way that they did. though she was still quite confident that she was a woman, she knew she wasn't the kind of woman her family wanted her to be.
as such, when she finally got into college, kirumi cut contact with her mother and grandparents almost completely. her first year of college was a year of rebellion and experimentation; primarily with her appearance. at first she'd wondered if her discomfort for feminine clothing was the result of the KIND of femininity she was portraying, but quickly realized this wasnt the case. so the kirumi futch era was only about a semester long. after this, she started to present as more masculine, and this is around the time when she starts getting more concerned with fitness in terms of strength; she didn't manage to get built like yuko miyamoto just by standing around, after all! its during this time that kiru also began to make actual friends, though her problems with connecting to others emotionally made this a rather difficult endeavor when it came to maintaining those relationships.
during her second year of college, her grandparents both passed, roughly six months from one another, due to old age. while she had mixed feelings on the matter due to her strained relationship with them, she still attended both funerals. at the latter of the two, her and mayumi got into a bit of a fight because of a comment mayumi made about kiru "destroying" herself. this ended up pushing kiru, out of pure spite, to shave her head the second she got back on campus.
it ended up being a mistake.
not one without a silver lining, though! this drastic change in appearance ended up catching the eye of one of her acquaintances, who was a close friend of her roommate. you might know her as keiko :-)
during this time, keiko was just starting her transition, and was still getting a feel for the big city. the two initially bonded over a shared love of terrible movies [as one of kiru's biggest hobbies is watching shitty movies to laugh at them], and kiru gave keiko many of her old clothes + some tips for hair and makeup now that she no longer needed them. but over time, they became quite close. in particular, they bonded over the fact that they experienced pretty strong discomfort towards gender roles and expectations in their upbringing; while keiko's family was much more loving and supportive than kiru's, she still felt an intense obligation to be seen as ""man enough"", mainly to her peers, having been bullied quite intensely during her high school years for her transness.
i could probably write a whole separate post about kiru and keiko's relationship [not any time soon though. jesus.], but the long and short of it is that they became a couple during their third year together at college :-) this is also the year that kiru secured her job at the butcher's shop in akatsuka, having been a bit of a floater before then.
after graduating with her bachelor's, kiru began to attend a veterinary school in pursuit of a doctorate in the field. they lived separately, but visited one another's apartments about as frequently as could be managed.
one summer, when school was out and she was less busy, kiru began volunteering at a local animal shelter, wherein she met and fell in love with a little cat named kabosu. after adopting her that autumn, on one particularly busy night, kabosu broke out of the apartment, and... hey, i've told this part of the story before!
past that, uh... not really a lot to say! i have a whole storyline thought out about kiru and yanagida getting back into contact + how that intertwines with some other family drama on kiru's side of things, but thats an idea that i want to dedicate a different post to since i have. a LOOOOOT of thoughts on that whole arc. ill do that eventually but again, definitely not anytime soon. if i make another post like this too soon i think my brain will explode
BUT YEAH! if you managed to read this far, thank you!! i put a LOT of thought and consideration into kiru's background; i didnt want it to be like. senselessly edgy. since this IS a gag anime in the end. even still i am a sucker for complicated family dynamics so i tried my best to strike a good balance there
#larry time#ocs#kiru#long post#<- i dont usually use that tag but this ones a doozy.#i have a lot more thoughts about the nature of mayumi and kiru's relationship#as well as her relationship to her grandparents#i wouldnt say theyre particularly heinous or intentionally evil or anything like that because um. theyre people.#but i still wanted to show how like... misguided attempts/good intentions from an ill-equipped parent can still be really harmful#and that mixed with grief is especially damaging#but i dont know if i worded it well here and this post is already so long#so those thoughts will just stay in my mind.#anyways im starting to get scared of posting this so im just gonna throw it into the ether and hope for the best GOODBYEEEEE
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