#Verbivore whines

[agentverbivore]

I’m the kind of person who cries a little when I see friends make goodbye posts about their fur babies

[agentverbivore]

what if I can’t fix anything and I’m faced with spending the rest of my life crying intermittently late at night while looking for a job and nothing I ever attempt to make a career actually bloody works?

[agentverbivore]

not-ur-average-anything replied to your post “AFTER 8.5 MONTHS TUMBLR FINALLY GAVE ME MY ACCOUNT BACK???!!!”

WAIT SO THATS WHERE YOU WENT?

to be fair, my original hiatus thru mid-Aug 2018 was my decision, I very much needed a mental health break from tumblr. but I wasn’t given the choice of when I was ready to return on a lighter basis (ca. mid-October, when Doctor Who came back).

valentinaonthemoon replied to your post “AFTER 8.5 MONTHS TUMBLR FINALLY GAVE ME MY ACCOUNT BACK???!!!”

Yayy!! Welcome back!!!! What happened to your account??

basically tumblr told me to delete unused URLs (which I only had bc of that glitch years ago where my friends would delete sideblogs and lose their whole primary blog, so I was terrified to delete them), which was fair, so I did delete them. and I replied telling tumblr that I’d deleted them.

and then nothing.

I wrote back to those emails. I wrote new help tickets. I asked a couple of friends to put in their own support messages asking abt my acct.

nothing still.

I was afraid to post anything to any of my once-active sideblogs, lest it somehow cause some other error in tumblr’s obviously broken system.

8.5 months went by without a response. until this morning when I got a very curt: 

“Thanks for letting us know, and we apologize for the delay. We've restored full access to your account.”

cool thx @staff​, only 8+ months of anxiety episodes later, a half-baked apology is def enough. 🙄

I’m so, so happy to have my account back! but I’m also still pissed off af lol

[agentverbivore]

lmao every time I have a sec to come reply to messages here I just lose followers 😂  

what do you mean ppl come on this site to reblog moving pictures and not to see my random reply posts?? a mystery 

[agentverbivore]

replies under the cut -

@eclecticmuses​ @pandarenwrites​ @themanfromgotham​ @iwantobethecharacter​ @to-kill-a-mockinggirl​ 

sorry for the delayed reply folks - I decided I needed to be off tumblr for a couple of days after that :-/ I heard “no” from another job on Friday, which is what set it off....

but, thank you for the compassion & solidarity, I really do appreciate it <3 <3 (it’s just hard not to feel hopeless and/or count the weeks until my bank account runs out. not a great time to be in my head.)

[agentverbivore]

I’m crying about FitzSimmons + A Thousand Years again & I’m grumps abt it

[agentverbivore]

tfw you’re sick n you’re p sure your brain is leaking into your nose but you have work to do n you’re trying to figure out if you should push yourself to do something or if you should just take another nap

[agentverbivore]

okay friends, it’s time to play everyone’s favorite game, “is this ache a symptom of me being sick or me being about to get my period?”

[agentverbivore]

another day, another “no” on a job I really wanted. I feel nauseous.

[agentverbivore]

@mech-bull replied to your post “@memorizingthedigitsofpi replied to your post “tfw you’re sick n...”

As someone also sick...you'll be able to sleep tonight, don't worry.

aww I’m sorry you’re sick, too! I guess it’s that season.... :-( I hope you feel better soon! (and that we both get to sleep tonight....)

[agentverbivore]

I don’t want to go to bed because if I go to sleep I might have another dream about how my entire life is a failure and I’m never going to accomplish anything or be happy and satisfied and I don’t want to have another dream like that because I think about that enough while I’m awake now so I don’t need it when I go to sleep too

[agentverbivore]

you ever wake up and feel like you’re being crushed by the weight of all your failures

[agentverbivore]

-____________________-

[agentverbivore]

*yawn*

waiting to care

[agentverbivore]

*gets even the smallest amount sick*

*whines unceasingly*