#Vanessa Laine

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More Beyonce content from the ���� queen herself!!!

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US Vogue July 1988

Vanessa Duve wears a black turtleneck and a watermelon double-faced woolen skirt, slightly flared at the hem. By Calvin Klein. Earrings, Elsa Peretti for Tiffany & Co. Hair, Oribe/Oribe at Parachute; make-up, Andrea Paoletti.

Vanessa Duve porte un col roulé noir et une jupe en laine double face couleur pastèque, légèrement évasée à l'ourlet. Par Calvin Klein. Boucles d'oreilles, Elsa Peretti pour Tiffany & Co. Hair, Oribe/Oribe chez Parachute ; maquillage, Andrea Paoletti.

Photo Wayne Maser vogue archive

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[lains-reality]

Hey Lains, I have a question:

I don’t really understand this post by https://www.tumblr.com/sweatycuntthatloveslana/726513039463022592/i-have-such-a-big-problem-not-identifying-with-the

I mean i get really confused why they say stop trying to realize that you are oneness when you should only observe and is like so easy to realize????? but the I see ppl being on a journey and realizing things. I try so hard to understand that I am but I also think I’m overthinking this and it should be easier. What do I do? I’m so confused.

"I mean i get really confused why they say stop trying to realize that you are oneness"

they mean stop trying to get vanessa to understand that they're Self. stop trying to convince yourself you are Self. you ARE already Self, but by convincing yourself, searching, fighting the mind etc it just affirms the fact that you think you are vanessa who has to work hard to be Self.

people are on a journey realising things bcs there is ego to let go of before you see that you are Self. its like cleaning a mirror, you cannot see yourself in the mirror if you don't clean it a little.

lester did say himself that you can just be free and drop vanessa immediatly, but most ppl can't do that.

so, you are already Self, but you don't see it due to your identification with vanessa.

"I try so hard to understand that I am but I also think I’m overthinking this and it should be easier. What do I do? I’m so confused."

wdym understand? theres nothing much to understand. its just I AM. no memories, no fears, no desires, no conditions, no roles to play. just being. its in the phrase itself. "I AM." and thats it. not I AM vanessa.

mind understands, Self knows.

heres a question: do you use effort to be vanessa? do you think constantly about being vanessa? are you trying to be vanessa? or are you just vanessa?

also you say you are trying hard to understand, but here you identify as vanessa.

Q: Well, I persist in using effort to try to be what you say I am. I keep working at this thing of being effortless. Does that make sense? Lester: No, does it? Q: Not to me. Lester: Right. There's something wrong there. Q: What did I say? Lester: You're using effort in trying to make yourself effortless - that's impossible! It's a contradiction. You've got to stop using effort. You've got to let go and let be. That's what is meant by "Let go and let God." You are it, you're the god; let go and let your Self be. However, it seems to take much effort because you are using tremendous effort to hold onto and maintain your non-self, your ego, and there is where your effort is. It takes no effort to be what you are, the Self.

its a letting go. its not a forcing, trying, convincing. its just learning how to remember.

[4dkellysworld]

Hi Kelly!! :)

My question is about ego fears and to what extent we should ‘deal’ with them/how much attention we should give them. My character is moving into a new place in a months time, and I’m expected to pay my first instalment of rent by the end of August. This has all come about quite suddenly, and the cost is way more than I can currently afford. The worry of a looming deadline, and needing to conjure up money that ‘I’ physically don’t have right now, has been scary. I’ve studied your Releasing tag, and I’ve read everything from Ada, as well as lots from Sophie and Lain (her thread helping out the anon with difficult circumstances has been particularly helpful, and it was lovely to read of that anon’s success). In a practical sense, I am looking into ways I can afford to pay this rent on time, or considering possibly contacting the landlord and asking to be given more time to pay it. Besides that, I’ve been working through feeling/accepting this ego fear without fighting it… Surrendering to it, recognising that ‘I’ cannot do anything about these circumstances beyond a certain point besides simply let them be and trust in Self to guide me through. I have read chunks of the Sedona method, and I have been applying the method of first, feeling the fear/emotion, and then, asking myself "could I let this go? would I let this go? when?"

It has definitely been helpful, and I am able to calm myself down in moments of panic and remind myself that these fears are of the ego and not me, but I can feel there is still anxiety that lingers, particularly with the more time that passes and the sooner the deadline approaches without any financial improvement. I wondered if the goal, with releasing, is to wipe out fear entirely? In that case, am I to continue applying until I can think of the situation and be totally neutral? The lingering fear feels almost inevitable, though I suppose that’s because I’m still identifying somewhat with ego. It almost feels like the more I try to let go of this fear, I veer into trying to ‘get rid’ of it, which only reinforces its very existence. I suppose I feel that what would be better would be to give up entirely on trying to let go of it, and instead totally welcome it and allow it to stay. Of course that doesn’t mean clinging to/dwelling in it, but also not necessarily trying so hard to release it either? It’s as if I’ve given this fear a story — I feel the fear of financial insecurity, I associate it with being the character/ego that I do not want who has financial insecurity, and I therefore ‘do methods’ to move away from the fear in order to make it not so in the physical realm — and this only seems to have kept the fear around/grown it.

This is probably what was meant all along, when Ada said to "leave poor Vanessa alone, with her desires and fears, disbelieve you are her until reality becomes self-obvious". But I would just love to hear your input/any clarification/if you have any of your own experiences to share when it comes to finding a balance between actively digging up the unconscious and letting parts of ego go versus just accepting and allowing parts of the ego to be (so that it ends up falling away on its own anyway).

I’m sorry for the long message! Thank you so much for everything you do, you’re an angel 🩷

Hi! Lots to address here, I'll go through them one by one. I won't tell you what you should do (because there are no shoulds and it's ultimately a choice, your choice) but I'll speak of my own perspective and experiences and you can take what resonates/will help you.

My question is about ego fears and to what extent we should ‘deal’ with them/how much attention we should give them.

One of my "goals" is to be free of all fear, because fear only imprisons you and locks/limits you into a certain way of living/being when it's false to begin with. How I 'deal' with it (whether that be straight up ignoring/dismissing it, bringing up the unconscious thoughts to release them, rationalizing it or something else) really depends on a case by case basis which is why I always focus on what feels right and appropriate in the moment because doing something I feel I 'should' do instead of what feels right ends up not being the answer and doesn't work.

I wondered if the goal, with releasing, is to wipe out fear entirely? In that case, am I to continue applying until I can think of the situation and be totally neutral?

Yes it is. And yes that's what I do when I choose to release.

I suppose I feel that what would be better would be to give up entirely on trying to let go of it, and instead totally welcome it and allow it to stay. Of course that doesn’t mean clinging to/dwelling in it, but also not necessarily trying so hard to release it either?

Then there you go, that's what resonates for you so trust it, give it a go and see what happens. It doesn't mean the other approaches are useless or don't work for fears in general for you but for this particular fear of yours, this may very well be the best approach to take. I've done something similar for some fears. Instead of releasing or ignoring or rationalizing it, I just choose to accept it, love it and thank it because it is just ego wanting to protect itself. Because emotions don't exist in a vacuum, they're messengers and give us clues as to what underlying thoughts & beliefs we hold (side note: watch the Inside Out movies! They are so precious). Fear exists because it wants to protect us from something that the mind has deemed a danger (as obvious as that sounds lol). I noticed you have been mentioning fear itself a lot but have you looked into the underlying thoughts/beliefs that drive that fear and released on that level? And then see yourself having all that you believe you lack over and over until you feel completely free? Basically the steps in the second part of this ask. When I'm doing these steps, I'm not trying to fight or get rid of it, that's not the mentality I have. I just recognize it is a false belief that isn't part of the true me and it's a letting go feeling which is a different state to feeling you need to fix or get rid of something. If that doesn't work for you, then maybe you can just take time out to sit in silence and stillness then imagine sitting in an empty room with this fear and just being okay with that.

This is probably what was meant all along, when Ada said to "leave poor Vanessa alone, with her desires and fears, disbelieve you are her until reality becomes self-obvious".

Yes but again, what she says here is just one way and not the only way (there is no one way. There are so many paths Home. Did you know that there are people who practice ceremonial magick as a way to enlightenment? Heck even lucid dreaming and astral projection can be ways. Does that mean everyone needs to start practicing these? No lol. You do what feels right for you and that can change over time). She also says to unclutter your mind, to set yourself right emotionally and mentally, and to ask yourself questions and do what feels right for you. So take what resonates, I can't emphasize this enough. Trust in yourself more and follow what feels right. Be more flexible because being rigid and thinking you can only do certain things (including being limited purely to what you read on our blogs or whatever a spiritual guru says) is only another form of limitation and bondage. There hasn't been a single teaching or practice I can think of that I have applied solely in every moment of every day since I started (not that I didn't try at first but then I'd let go and try something else when I realized it wasn't doing anything for me. Then I realized that different approaches work for different situations and I need to be flexible). I've even made up my own practices based on what feels right in the moment (like just meditating in the feeling of the essences I enjoy such as love, abundance, freedom, peace etc). Plus the 'disbelieve you are her' part is where it can take some time (on the physical level) and accepting that and being patient with myself was way more helpful to me in leading me to actually disbelieving I'm her as opposed to trying to adopt that disbelief straight out before dropping chunks of ego and coming to my own realizations that I am not her.

But I would just love to hear your input/any clarification/if you have any of your own experiences to share when it comes to finding a balance between actively digging up the unconscious and letting parts of ego go versus just accepting and allowing parts of the ego to be (so that it ends up falling away on its own anyway).

Okay there was a time last year where I was very actively digging into my unconscious to release things, my goal was to do a whole life review like Lester did and go through my entire life and release everything lol. I mean, it's an amazing idea and I wished I could do it but it also felt like trying to draw blood from stone. I did chunks of some major releases (maybe a few months worth of this ego's recent life) but it was pretty draining and at the rate I was going, there was no way I would be able to do my entire life in just 3 months (maybe a few years...) like Lester despite being younger than him.. And here Lester kept saying you only need 3 months to go free lol. This was really frustrating and confusing and I would think, Lester must not have experienced a lot of trauma in his life.. I read his story of how he realized himself and the thing he mentioned that was hardest for him to let go was a lost love from like 20 years ago or something but things that are highly highly traumatic can take a lot more time to truly neutralize and release. I realized my life looks way differently to him, what he did was for his life and his methods helped me but his overall "way" wasn't working for me. I also didn't want to feel like I was constantly striving to 'clean the mind' because it felt like another form of imprisonment and I wasn't fully living in the now when I was constantly bogged down by the past (which still felt real to me then and I wanted it to stop feeling so real).

Not saying the chunks of releases I did were not helpful, heck yes they were and I'm glad I did them. It's also helped me reach a state where I am now a lot more peaceful and still within and recognize whatever "past" I have isn't real or true, whatever comes up can be more easily let go of because it isn't valuable to me anymore. You know what else purifies the mind? Meditation. And not as a form of 'doing' but as a way of being. There was one time I was so overwhelmed and exhausted I just gave up. I lay on the floor and just decided it was all over and there's nothing to do. I just looked at the ceiling and stopped doing anything. I wasn't anything anymore. I spent a few days like this and after that, there was a point where I realized/noticed that something within me had changed and I couldn't really pinpoint it but things just suddenly didn't bother me anymore, fears that used to exist just suddenly didn't (maybe you can try this as well if it resonates, just give up and be). I realized that meditation (not just sitting meditation but as a constant beingness) can be a way of mind purification too when you just stop being an ego and let Self take care of things. Here's something Robert Adams said that I read later on and realized it was exactly what I did:

Student: Giving up isn't sufficient. I realize that, I listen to that whatever, whether it's the strength or the insight, there's still fighting, there's a partial giving up and still there's a tremendous suffering. Robert: Then simply quiet your mind, sit still and do nothing. Everything will happen by itself. Like you're doing now, become still. Do not try to do anything to yourself. If thoughts come just watch them and everything will take care of itself. That's when you abide in the Self, when you do nothing and everything stops, all action stops and no matter how things come to you, you don't care, you just don't react. Even death, makes no difference. Student: Would you say that there is something more important than all of the sadhanas? Robert: No you can't say that because that's the ego again, but when you just sit and all fear leaves you, something else will take its place and that will be bliss and happiness. When you stop fearing. So just sit and let all the fears come. Smile and sit still. Student: You mean just look at them and detachedly? Robert: Just watch them. Let them come, let them do their worst, let them drive you crazy and you don't care, let them. But you try to stop, now, let them. Just whistle, sing a song, do nothing and watch what happens. Student: So you're talking basically about self-observation, Robert? Robert: Not even self-observation because you've got to think about that, to do self-observation. You're actually just doing just absolute zero. You've turned yourself off and you have the attitude, even if I die right now, so what, doesn't matter. Even if my worst fear manifests, good, let it. (laughter) Student: It seems difficult. Robert: No not really, it seems difficult but it's easy if you do it, try it. Get by yourself and just sit down, put your hands together and do absolutely nothing. Don't tell yourself you're watching or you're practicing anything at all. Give all practices up, give it all up. Student: So even questioning, "Who am I?" is still ego? Robert: Yes, definitely, give everything up and let the worst come.

The other ways are all the ego using mind to undo itself but you can also let Self do it if you just get ego out of the way. There comes a point where you have to just yield and let Self take care of it, you'll know when it is (also it's ultimately the best overall method imo cos we're all lazy, right? The less effort the better haha. Free mind purification for zero effort yay! Thanks Self -- Although it takes effort to still and cleanse the mind to a point where meditation becomes enjoyable and effortless as opposed to feeling bored and wanting mental stimulation). Now I can enjoy meditation, not with any expectations but simply just being feels the best. And sometimes it's a rhythmic dance of switching between the two. But now I only release things that naturally come up in daily life as opposed to digging into the past to look for limiting thoughts to drop.

Just be flexible and follow what feels right and you'll eventually understand what that balance is for you. I hope this helps you!

[etherealcaprifandoms]

My OCs

Vanessa-Ophelia Ambrosia(Centre) Elizabeth-Zahara(Left) Elliott-Iṣkender(Right)

Lunaria(Left) Naomi(Centre) Dahlia(Right)

Gabriella II(Left) Sabrina(Right

Melodia

Stellar(Left) and Tallulah(Right)

Info about them

Full Names/Nicknames💙

Vanessa-Ophelia Ambrosia/Vee, Nessie, Nessa, Phee, 🩵

Elizabeth-Zahara Khalifa/Beth, Bethy, Eliza, Lizzy, Libby Lily, and Zara💜

Elliott-Iṣkender Khalifa-Ambrosia/Eil and Leo🩵

Naomi Helene Estrella/Nai, Mimi, Mia Hela, Ellie, and Esti💙

Dahlia Eden Estrella/Dali Dia Leah and Esther💚

Lunaria Astrid-Juniper Estrella-Gresley/Lu Luna Lunie Lou Ash Astra June, Juni and Star💙

Gabriella II Karoliina Laine/Gabs Gabby Bella Ella and Karrie🩵

Sabrina Kristiina Laine/Sab Sabby Brina Kris and Krissie💙

Melodia Ingrid-Wynter Hale/Mel Melody Mellie Lody Ingie and Winnie💜

Stellar and Tallulah Mirabelle Rosá/Stel Stella Ellie Elle Mira and Belle/Tilly, Tallie, Lula, Millie, and Belle💜💙

Birth Dates/Time/Place 💙

Vanessa-Ophelia: 25th September 1948/9 am/Kifisia, Athens, Greece🇬🇷🩵

Elizabeth-Zahara: 9th September 1971/3 pm/Kifisia, Athens, Greece🇬🇷💜

Elliott-Iṣkender: 23rd May 1982/2 pm/Kifisia, Athens, Greece🇬🇷🩵

Naomi: 19th October 1970/12 am/Östermalm, Stockholm, Sweden🇸🇪💙

Dahlia: 14th February 1973/11am/Östermalm, Stockholm, Sweden🇸🇪💚

Lunar: 9th December 1981/10 pm/Östermalm, Stockholm, Sweden🇸🇪💙

Gabriella: 19th February 1987/8 am/Eira, Helsinki, Finland🇫🇮🩵

Sabrina: 17th January 1997/11 pm/Eira, Helsinki, Finland🇫🇮💙

Melodia: 12th December 1999/7 pm/Bygdøy, Oslo, Norway🇧🇻💜

Stellar: 19th June 2008/11 pm/Palermo Hollywood, Buenos Aires, Argentina💜🇦🇷

Tallulah: 20th June 2008/9 am/Palermo Hollywood, Buenos Aires, Argentina🇦🇷🩵

Zodiac Sign/Elements/Planet Rulers

Vanessa-Ophelia: Virgo-Libra Cusp Of Beauty/Earth and Air/Mercury and Venus ♍️♎️🌎💨🩵

Elizabeth-Zahara: Virgo/Earth/Mercury♍️🌎💜

Elliott-Iṣkender: Taurus-Gemini Cusp Of Energy/Earth and Air/Venus and Mercury ♉️♊️🌎💨🩵

Naomi: Libra-Scorpio Cusp Of Drama and Criticism/Air and Water/Mercury and Pluto♎️♏️💨🚿💙

Lunar: Sagittarius/Fire/Pluto♐️🔥💙

Dahlia and Gabriella: Aquarius-Pisces Cusp Of Sensitivity/Water & Air/Uranus and Neptune ♒️♓️🌊💨💚🩵

Sabrina: Capricorn-Aquarius/Earth and Water/Saturn and Uranus♑️♒️🌎🌊

Melodia: Sagittarius/Fire/Pluto ♐️🔥💜

Stellar and Tallulah: Cusp Of Gemini-Cancer Cusp Of Magic/Air & Water/Mercury and Moon♊️♋️💨🚿💜🩵

Age

Vanessa-Ophelia: 75 years old🩵

Elizabeth-Zahara: 52 years old💜

Elliott-Iṣkender: 41 years old🩵

Naomi: 53 years old💙

Dahlia: 51 years old💚

Lunar: 42 years old💙

Gabriella II: 37 years old🩵

Sabrina: 27 years old💙

Melodia: 25 years old💜

Stellar: 16 years old💜

Tallulah: 16 years old💙

Species

The Ambrosia Khalifa's: Human/SEK Class Ky Steam Locomotive🩵💜

The Estrella's/Human/VR Class Sk3 Steam Locomotive💙💚💙

The Laine’s: Human/VR Class Sk3 Steam Locomotive🩵💙

The Hales: Human/NSB Class XXII Steam Locomotive💜

The Rosa:/Human/Rhaetian Railway G ⅘💜💙

Nationality

The Ambrosia Khalifa's: Greek-Cypriots-Egyptian/Greek, Cypriots, Italian, Turkish, Egyptian, and Israeli🇬🇷🇨🇾🇮🇹🇹🇷🇪🇬🇮🇱

The Estrella's: Swedish-Finnish/Swedish, Finnish, Estonian, Norwegian, Danish, German, and Russian🇸🇪🇫🇮🇪🇪🇳🇴🇩🇰🇩🇪🇷🇺

The Laine's: Finnish-Estonian/Finnish, Estonian, Swedish, Norwegian, and Russian🇫🇮🇪🇪🇸🇪🇳🇴🇷🇺

The Hale's: Norwegian/Norwegian, Swedish, Finnish, Estonian, Latvian, Lithuanian, and Ukrainian🇳🇴🇸🇪🇫🇮🇪🇪🇱🇻🇱🇹🇺🇦

The Rosa/Argentina-Italian/Argentinian, Brazilian, Uruguayan, Chilean, Italian, Syrian, Lebanese, and Israeli🇦🇷��🇷🇺🇾🇨🇱🇮🇹🇸🇾🇱🇧🇮🇱

[l33t-hax0r-tournament]

THE BRACKET IS HERE!

round 0 (yes, we are starting at 0 just like computers do) will start on march 2 at 12pm EST. the round will be spread out across 4 days to avoid a shadowban, and posts will be tagged as #round 0. the matchups were randomized, so sorry about that! matchups in text form are under the cut:

match 0: Ami Enan (Lupin III Part 5) vs. Harold Finch (Person of Interest)

match 1: Barbara Gordon (Batman) vs. Saburo Yamada (Hypnosis Mic)

match 2: Hackerman (Kung Fury) vs. Piconjo (Newgrounds)

match 3: Lain Iwakura (Serial Experiments Lain) vs. Dr. Alphys (Undertale)

match 4: Sollux Captor (Homestuck) vs. Lucyna Kushinada (Cyberpunk: Edgerunners)

match 5: Breanna Casey (Leverage: Redemption) vs. Saeyoung "707" Choi (Mystic Messenger)

match 6: Motoko Kusanagi (Ghost In The Shell (1995)) vs. Bentley Wiseturtle (Sly Cooper)

match 7: Kururu (Keroro Gunsou) vs. Mei Hatsume (Boku no Hero Academia)

match 8: Nomi Marks (Sense8) vs. Tulip Olsen (Infinity Train)

match 9: Tae Joon "Crypto" Park (Apex Legends) vs. Penny (Pokémon)

match 10: Tux the Penguin (GNU/Linux) vs. Hieronymous "The" Hacker (Cyberchase)

match 11: Elliot Alderson (Mr. Robot) vs. Koushiro "Izzy" Izumi (Digimon Adventure)

match 12: Vanessa A. (Five Night's at Freddy's: Security Breach) vs. Chihiro Fujisaki (Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc)

match 13: Donatello Hamato (Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles) vs. Aloe Cookie (Cookie Run: OvenBreak)

match 14: Monika (Doki Doki Literature Club!) vs. Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivruski IV (Cowboy Bebop)

match 15: Spock (Star Trek) vs. Roxy Lalonde (Homestuck)

match 16: Rita (The Penumbra Podcast) vs. Futaba Sakura (Persona 5)

match 17: Entrapta (She-Ra and the Princesses of Power) vs. Mickey Smith (Doctor Who)

match 18: Idia Shroud (Twisted Wonderland) vs. Alter Ego (Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc)

match 19: Urushihara Hanzo (The Devil is a Part-Timer!) vs. Alec Hardison (Leverage)

match 20: Root (Person of Interest) vs. Tali'Zorah nar Rayya (Mass Effect)

match 21: Katie "Pidge" Holt (Voltron: Legendary Defender) vs. Penelope Garcia (Criminal Minds)

match 22: Carla Dosa (The Hex) vs. Nicole the Holo-Lynx (Sonic the Hedgehog)

match 23: Dendy (OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes) vs. Toshiko "Tosh" Sato (Torchwood)

match 24: Yasuho Hirose (JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: JoJolion) vs. Ezekiel Jones (The Librarians)

match 25: Ritsuko Akagi (Neon Genesis Evangelion) vs. Felicity Smoak (Arrow)

match 26: Robert "Bob" Johansson (We Are Legion (We Are Bob)) vs. Maya Ibuki (Neon Genesis Evangelion)

match 27: Neo (The Matrix) vs. Trinity (The Matrix)

match 28: James T. Kirk (Star Trek) vs. Player Bouchard (Carmen Sandiego (2019))

match 29: Shiang Sun (Shin Megami Tensei: Liberation Dx2) vs. Raimu "Rhyme" Bito (The World Ends With You)

match 30: Susie (Kirby) vs. Miles "Tails" Prower (Sonic the Hedgehog)

match 31: Mikado Ryuugamine (Durarara!!) vs. Fuuka Yamagishi (Persona 3)

[theculturedmarxist]

Three British journalists I know personally – Johanna Ross, Vanessa Beeley and Kit Klarenberg – have each in the last two years been detained at immigration for hours on re-entering their own country, and questioned by police under anti-terrorist legislation.

This is plainly an abuse of the power to detain at port of entry, because in each case they could have been questioned at any time in the UK were there legitimate cause, and the questioning was not focused on their travels.

They were in fact detained and interrogated simply for holding and publishing dissident opinion on foreign policy, and in particular for supporting a more collaborative approach to Russia – with which, lest we forget, the UK is not at war.

These detentions have taken place over the period of a couple of years. All were targeted for journalism and this is plainly a continuing policy of harassment of dissident British journalists.

I have three times in that same period been questioned by police in my own home in Edinburgh for journalism, over three separate matters. I spent four months in jail for publicising essential information to show that a high level conspiracy was behind the false accusations against Scottish Independence leader Alex Salmond.

Julian Assange remains in maximum security jail for publicising the truth about war crimes. Meanwhile a new National Security Bill goes through the Westminster parliament, which will make it illegal for a journalist possess or publish classified information.

This has never been illegal. The responsibility has always lain with the whistleblower or leaker, not the journalist or publisher. It seeks to enshrine in UK law precisely what the US Government is seeking to achieve against Assange using the US 1917 Espionage Act. This is a huge threat to journalism.

It is also worth pointing out that, if Evan Gershkovich was indeed doing nothing more than he has claimed to have been doing in Russia, that action would land him a long jail sentence in either the USA or the UK under the provisions which both governments are attempting to enforce.

On top of that, you have the Online Safety Bill, which under the excuse of protecting against paedophilia, will require social media gatekeepers to remove any kind of content the government deems as illegal.

When you put all this together with the new Public Order Act, which effectively gives the police authority to ban any protest they wish to ban, there is a fundamental change happening.

This is not just a theoretical restriction on liberty. Active enforcement against non-approved speech is already underway, as shown by those detentions and, most strongly of all, by Julian’s continued and appalling incarceration.

To complete the horror, there is no longer a genuine opposition within the political class. Keir Starmer’s Labour Party opposes none of this wave of attacks on civil liberties. The SNP has been sending out identical stock replies from its MPs on Julian Assange, 100% backing the UK government line on his extradition and imprisonment.

I feel this very personally. I know all of these people affected – Julian, Alex, Kit, Vanessa, Johanna, and view them as colleagues whose rights I defend, even though I do not always agree with all of their disparate views.

Two other people I know personally and admire are under attack. The campaign of lies and innuendo against Roger Waters this last few weeks has been astonishing in both its viciousness and its mendacity, recalling the dreadful attacks on Jeremy Corbyn.

More mundane but also part of the same phenomenon, my friend Randy Credico has had his Twitter account cancelled.

To be a dissident in the UK, or indeed the “West”, today is to see, every single day, your friends persecuted and to see the walls close in upon yourself.

A unified political class, controlled by billionaires, is hurtling us towards fascism. That now seems to me undeniable.

[griefpersevering]

the ripples they cause

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Chapter Thirty: Maybe Don't

Notes:

I was struggling for how to write Matt and Maya's fight in this chapter so I asked my mother for advice and she said "throw them both in front of a fire hydrant so they're both wet and sexy... like in Bridget Jones's Diary." So I upgraded the fire hydrant to a fountain. You're welcome.

Sneak Peek:

As Karen predicts, Vanessa Fisk hasn't left her husband's side since the shooting. Claire tells Matt the same things she told Karen on New Year's. The only new information is that there is no new information.

"How's married life working out for you?" asks Claire as she escorts him through the labyrinth of hospital corridors. "I wanted to say congratulations on the night, but I didn't get the chance."

Every time someone mentions Saturday, Matt's heart flutters like he's a goddamn teenager all over again. Some of his giddy happiness must show on his face, because Claire coos and lightly punches him in the arm.

"You're already wrapped around his little finger, aren't you? God, you're so cute it's sickening. I don't know how Karen puts up with you."

"I have no idea," he says with a smile. "But I know I would have lain down my life for Foggy from the day we met. This was just us making it official."

"Drama queen," she teases. "But seriously, Matt, promise me you aren't going in there to poke the bear. I think Foggy would prefer you alive."

"I know." Staying alive for Foggy will always be more of a challenge than dying for him, but Matt made his vows, and doesn't plan on breaking them anytime soon. "I'm here to remind them I can send them back to prison whenever I want. I don't want them to hurt anyone else."

"Why don't you turn them in now?"

His expression turns grim. "It's not punishment enough for him to wake back up in a cell," he says, and leaves it at that.

"And if he never wakes up?"

"I doubt Vanessa would risk anything while he's still unconscious. But I won't hesitate to send her to prison if she tries to hurt anyone."

They stop in front of a set of double doors. "If you say so. Try not to have too much fun. And here's to hoping he never wakes up to begin with."

Matt smirks. "I've been praying for that every night this year."

Claire laughs. "Of course you have."

He steps onto the ward and Claire disappeared back into the hospital to do her actual job. She told him where to find Fisk's bed, but he doesn't need the directions. Vannessa is drowning in the same perfume she wore on their wedding night, so he strides in the direction that makes his nose tickle the most.

To her credit, she doesn't let his appearance startle her.

"Mrs. Fisk," he says.

Continue reading on AO3.

[sondheims-hat]

Some pre-transformation Witches.

Ellen Foley (1986), Bernadette Peters (1987), Phylicia Rashad (1988), Betsy Joslyn (1988), Nancy Dussault (1988), Cleo Laine (1988), Julia McKenzie (1990), Clare Burt (1998), Vanessa Williams (2002), Yvette Cason (2005), Beverly Klein (2007), Michele Ragusa (2009), Hannah Waddingham (2010), Lauren Kennedy (2012), Donna Murphy (2012), Jennifer Mudge (2013), Meryl Streep (2014), Tituss Burgess (2015), Patina Miller (2019), Heather Headley (2022), Nicola Hughes (2022), Montego Glover (2023).

[sassysophiabush]

[soovermyself]

Beyonce crew ❤️

[chicinsilk]

US Vogue June 1986

Vanessa Duve wears a taupe suede shirt over a black wool knit bodysuit. By Donna Karan. Earrings, Anke Davids, L.L.Fifi bracelet. Crocodile belt, black leather gloves and tights, Donna Karan. Hairdressing, Suga, Suga salon, NYC. Makeup, Kevyn Aucoin.

Vanessa Duve porte une chemise en suède taupe sur un body noir en tricot de laine. Par Donna Karan. Boucles d'oreilles, Anke Davids, bracelet L.L.Fifi. Ceinture en crocodile, gants en cuir noir et collants, Donna Karan. Coiffure, Suga, salon Suga, NYC. Maquillage, Kevyn Aucoin.

Photo Irving Penn

vogue archive

[malikismindful]

Peace & Love, Black Family! I remember the day Kobe Bryant and his daughter passed away. I was in L.A. headed to work out in Santa Monica, and I’d never seen a city so heartbroken. The Staple Center was filled with candles, balloons, posters, and fans from all over the world coming to DTLA to pay homage to him, AND his daughter! But as with all Black athletes and entertainers, alive or deceased, there’s always a backstory that brings questions to mind. As an unyielding supporter of BLACK LOVE, I always wondered, “Would Kobe be alive if he’d married Brandy?” Because little truth is discussed in the media, what isn’t spoke of is how Brandy was benched for Vanessa Laine! I have my suspicions, and it wasn’t coincidence either! Follow the breadcrumbs and you see so many mechanisms of manipulation put in play. Can you imagine what example of “Black Love”, Kobe and Brandy could have set for Black teenagers during that time in the 90’s? This was around the Clinton Crime Bill era too, think on that if you KNOW! Celebs aside, Black Love is always being manipulated for the purpose of divide, conquer, and control. Do your homework on Vanessa Laine-Bryant, she was no coincidence! Follow the the 💵💵💵 trail…And again, see why White Supremacy is a system of 100% warfare against us 24/7/365 on all levels of human existence! GET ON CODE. STAY ON CODE.🩸💣🔫✊🏾 BLACK POWER! #blackpower #blacklove #blackman #blackwoman #empowerment #blackrevolution #raceonly #blackpeopleonly #black #revolutionary #power #truth #knowledge #blackconsciousness #blackpower #blackqueen #blackunity #blackmamba #kobe #lakers #losangeles #blacklove #brandy #blackpeople #blackowned #malikismindful https://www.instagram.com/p/CmDejRbOYsY1ArAh-NvymN1UOm-USU5KBO0cGQ0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lains-reality]

Hi, I'm a bit confused on this post.

https://www.tumblr.com/lains-reality/740265664611287040/can-you-tag-the-post-where-youve-talked-about?source=share

If we are already realized just by knowing this information and that is all we needed to do then what is the point of all this practice to go back to being self? Are we even able to do it while the character is still here? I don't really understand.

What are we supposed to do next after gaining this knowledge, because everything still feels real to me despite knowing they are not. It's like once I move on from knowing that I am just awareness, the mind goes back to identifying with this character. The informations posted just seems so all over the place that I'm confused on what we need to do or what the goal even is. Some people say you need to quiet the mind, some say you need to realize self, some say you need to drop the ego, it's so confusing. And then people will post you need to quiet the mind to see you arent the ego and then you can drop it and then I'll try doing that ( and I don't even do it right because they don't tell you have to quiet the mind), but then they tell you you need to drop the ego before the mind can become quiet and it's all so confusing I swear it feels like my head to going to explode. I just want to be free from all this but I don't even know how to do it anymore. I need like a practice, something I can do everyday that will just free me from all this.

"what is the point of all this practice to go back to being self?"

the point of the practise is to realise that you already are Self. not going back to. "theres no transition to Self. you already are THAT. its letting go of all the concepts of limitations that is a transtion" - i'm pretty sure lester levenson said this.

"Are we even able to do it while the character is still here?"

the character is a thought. its a concept. you won't understand this until, you do lol. thats why quieting the mind is recommended, as is dropping the ego and realising Self - they are all the same thing. the lead to the same thing which is recognising you are Self and not the body-mind.

"What are we supposed to do next after gaining this knowledge, because everything still feels real to me despite knowing they are not."

use it. thats it. drop more and more habits and attachments. until you can spontanously do what you want. drop more thoughts and fears.

lester had some pointers for guidance:

get to a place where no one or nothing can disturb you

be selfless in behaviour, be interested in others

get to a place where you have no more desires

you might also wanna read this, and this. and this , this and last one i swear lol

"Do I have to endure the world while I know my self as awareness and disbelieve that I am Vanessa???" THE POINT OF KNOWING YOURSELF AS AWARENESS IS TO DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT AT ALL TIMES, FOREVER. It's complete, incomparable freedom and power. It's the only real love. - 4dbarbie