#UR BACK UR BACJ

[cali]

I have never taken a train ride but I think it would be neat. I always wanted to get lost in magical ways. Like if you take a train and from your perspective you only traveled across the land but when you step out you are in a entirely different world and dimension and you can't get back to where you were by simply traversing spacetime or like if you went into a cave and now you're in the underworld now and if you go back the way you came you won't find your way out but something else. I would love to wander the universe in this way and not know where I'm going or how I'm going there and that's what a train makes me feel. I hope you like to ride on trains, I was obsessed with trains when I was a little kid and I owned a conductor hat. But I don't know if really riding on one is good or bad.

dont ride a train or u might lose half this magic... maybe not, maybe ride one train in ur life but dont let it become normal

taking train isnt too different than riding with someone in car or in airplane. i cant drive, so im never the cause of the movement ever im always just watching as something that would move regardless takes me with it.

i dont get ur no-return idea,, i can go bacj if i wanto by taking the same train back so i dont really understand what u mean by thas? sorry i dont want to destroy your train mythos

and i do got a idea where im going with this train but due to the nature of my ticket situation i can flexibly take any train i want for the first half of my journey and the terror of possibly missing connections and having to spend a night in a train station maybe that could sate ur desire for trawling the planet in unknown manner

ihope u were a chill af baby with that conductor hat. usually looks dope when i see a kid wearing one

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

l, i was wondering if u could give me some suggestions on an issue i am facing.. its been 6 months since me n ex broke up (on winter solstice nonetheless..) for very good reasons after 3 yrs, we really were doing some damage to each other for a while , triggering each others core wounds like Crazy. i reaally was in a bad place for the whole last yr of it and now really do feel so much better being out. however we lived together for yrs and they were who i was closest to for so long, n we were each others first love once before at 16/17. i felt just anger for months, but now its residing and i just feel soooo tied to them still… i do not want to get bacj w them, but so much of my time now is spent in deep nostalgia of the happy/quiet moments, wanting the good of those times back even tho logically i know its Impossible. wishing i could go back and do it again. wanting to reach out even tho i know it would only be detrimental. i was wondering if u have any tips on balancing this miss with continuing to move on, as i know i must finally do so fully — i feel the anger was keeping me moving forward, but now that its waning i fear getting stuck in this state. i feel as tho this is why we got back together to begin w. anyhow thank u as always fer ur infinite wisdoms x dog bless

hello <3 i understand... both of us had big endings at winter solstice lol what kind of assertive force was in the air back then i wonder ! here's my advice althoug it seems to me u already know what's right for you so it's sort of just reinforcement of your feelings ---

first thing i want to get out of the way is that if you and this person were meant to be together i believe the breakup never would/ve happened & there would've never been a single doubt in your mind about this partnership. I can say this after spending a few years living with slimbo, like, We endlessly grow closer, our bond is fully forged in stability and peace and understanding. There is not a single moment in the past few years of being in their presence that i've had a single doubt of our longevity. We do not make each other's life hell in even the slightest sense. if something comes up we work it out within that day and it never carries over to the next. And that rarely occurs.

Previously in life i did not know such harmony could exist, but now that i know, i look at all my old relationships like damn, i can't believe i ever thought that person could've been "the one" when we clashing so often. And i mean it's not like i could've known better because for most of us, we grow up in families that face much conflict, you just think Oh this is normal right? People fight and thats normal, there's tension and it's normal. Well now i know it is NOT normal and when you find someone who's really ready to meet you where you're at it creates harmony, true harmony, even if external conflict arises it brings you closer, you can solve any problem together, you're on the same level.

(Also i'm not sure how old you are but i think it's super rare to find this type of harmony until a little later in life because youth is confusing & people are still figuring themselves out, gaining the maturity it takes to be a reliable partner and whatnot).

But what i feel is happening for you and this person is that you went through all these formative experiences together, and maybe you're missing the rush of that more than you miss the actual person. Like maybe you're just bored xD that's not meant to sound harsh im just being real. boredom often leads to nostalgia. a little nostalgia here and there can be fun & transmuted into new experiences but being overly absorbed in nostalgia is not conducive to growth, only stagnation. do not fall victim to halo effect just because you're bored or lonely!!

If you were to get back with this person it would 1) block the way for someone who truly matches your frequency to come through, and 2) Likely your repressed anger and resentment towards that person would begin to infiltrate the relationship again pretty quickly. It's not fair to them, nor is it fair to yourself, it would only prolong the suffering.

So i think to move forward from this experience you could try a few things. Firstly i think you're being called to really go inwards, figure out why you feel bored right now, why you feel something is lacking in your life when you have to be alone? Learn how to fill your time with more things you enjoy, becoming stronger in your self concept through introspection, hobbies, leisure, just having fun by yourself. When you can do stuff like this it actually makes you very attractive & radiant in a way that magnetizes people who are also pretty solid in themselves. U just can't really have a good healthy relationship unless both of you are solid and Know Yourselves like thats just a universal truth.

And another thing i'd consider trying is like, meditations where you envision yourself cutting the chord that energetically binds you to this person from your past. That is if you want to get a little woowoo with it. But i really believe in the effectiveness of those exercises. Don't rush into it, just like, when you feel truly ready, let it go. You can still hold your memories and honor your experience with them without wanting them to be in your physicality again. There are exes who i haven't spoken to in yeeeears who i actually can look upon much more fondly now that i've let go. i forgive them and wish them well but it's nice to be distant.

don't be afraid of change~~~don't be afraid that a better match will never come along for you. I didn't foresee anything about the romance i have now before it happened. I knew i wanted to find a love that felt balanced and fulfilling but not All-Consuming. by a total random sequence of events, my vibe was met. You just never know whats around the corner ^^ The more open you are to change, the more change will find you. But you know going back to that person would just be a needless repeat of an old cycle. it's ok to still cherish them and keep moving forward. it's good you're able to feel less angry towards them now, that shows growth & maturity. But dont let it drag you back in !!

i hope this resonates and doesn't sound too preachy lol . Just hate to see someone fall back into Old HABITS. For your sake and the sake of your old partner. letting go is a crucial skill to learn in this life. Best of luck to you anon, you sound like a good person who wants to do their best & that will carry you far in life & love.

Sincerely

PMD9 <3

[chuuyascumsock]

omg hi babes its the anon that previously talked abt demon chuuya!!! (boy u sure do reply fast LMAO) ur art makes me want to run a marathon to hell and back BECAUSE OMG??? DEMON CHUUYA IS SO *drools and throws head bacj* I AM OBSESSED u ahve fed my demon chuuya brainrot niw time to cry abuot the fact that he isnr reak while imagingf havong rough sex (okay hesr me out on tyat one) with hin!!! p.s u should ttoalujy open nakahara-verse requests i think that'd be very fun to see u do :3

i'll probably come back to chit chat w u again but anyway FAREWELL FOR NOW AND HAVE A GRAND DAY!1!!! (you'll know who i am because of my horrble spekkinf i loev chuuya so mucg pls tell mw u can undertsnad everything i just said)

Omg, the long texts get me every time (fastest way to my writer heart fr).

I’m glad you enjoy my Chuuya art cause every time I show them to my irl friends they pretty much go “here we go again 🧍‍♀️🧍🧍‍♂️” BECAUSE THEY DON’T GET IT, THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE SO DOWN BAD FOR THE BEST BF MATERIAL 😟 It’s so sad to see others have bad taste in fictional men 😔

And as for a Nakahara-Verse smut week, I’ll be sure to put Demon Chuuya on the list. I just need to figure out the other six tbh cause I’m not as creative as some of y’all are when it comes to that stuff 😭

Also, I hope you have a great day as well, make sure to stay hydrated and have a nice little snack for yourself :)

[lixern]

so uhm! :3

hey luke!!!

what do u want?!?!?!

but since ur here like let me just rant a bit cuz like ugh jing yuan's voice is so soothing its such anhot voice i know but even him talking would make me sleep lllike

imagine jing yuan talking to u about his day cuz u wanted a distraction from ur nightmares since u jus had one and when u woke up he woke up and u said u had a nightmare so jing yuan lets u sit on his lap for a bit and he sits up against the bedframe and he pats ur bacj and soothes it like omfg then hes talking abouf his day and asking ab urs till he notices u fall asleep and he tucks u both back in in bed ongjvmmfngmfg

same for the other men likr iMSIGNE IMAGINE IMAGINENOFMFKIGNSLFMAJAJD RAAHHHHH CRYIGN its cuz im so delulu yk?

im sorry... men just make me fold for their voice :((

[imaginespazzi]

CHAPPTTTERRR NINI YAYAYAAY

- NIVI BBY i’ve missed you so so so much! i hope your vacation was fabtastic 💛

- “TW: Explicit Sexual Content” AHHH I BET UR LITTLE FREAKY ANONS SRE JUMPING WJTB JOY RN

- DAMN KK SIDED WITH DAD. i don’t like conflict this is making me sad

- THEM SAYING IT IN SYNC GOD 😭

- “I wouldn’t have cared,” Paige shrugs, “running suicides would have been worth it for an extra hour with you.�� bitch, it’s suicide awareness month aren’t you supposed to be nice to me?

- AHHH SHE TOLD HER SHES GETTING THE DIVORCE!!?!!! Why are these freaks not confessing love rn

- “She’s confused when Azzi flinches, like a memory has just pinched her nerves.” THE PHONE CALL???? PAIGE RLLY DOESNT REMEMBER

- THESE BITCHES FUCKED??? yay them BUT YALL PLEASE COMMUNICATE

- OKAY BACJ TO THE NOW EEEEKK!!! don’t be shy paige go join azzi 🤗

- AWWW AZZI RIGHT YHERE READY TO KNOCK

- paige is a little freak with her short response… bitch say what u rlly want 😛😁

- S

- L

- U

- T

- S

- took them long enough

- “She’s always known exactly how to get Paige to shut the fuck up.” i laughed out loud

- “But there’s a part of Paige that had thought that there was no way Azzi could have missed her as much as she missed Azzi. Because missing Azzi had felt all consuming, like there was a constant noose around her neck that got tighter and tighter with every day that passed by” only you would turn them fucking into me being all sad

- stop azzi 🥹☹️ you’re gorgeous girl

- why the fuck am i crying rn.

- paige possessive little shit

- stop the left but you came back for the book joking around is actually making me cry because it’s literally them.

- STOP AZZI SAYING PAIGE ISNT HER DIRTY LITTLE SECRET🥹🥹 I JUST KNOW PAIGE NEEDED TO HEAR THAT

- “KATIE STOP LEAVE THEM ALONE

- The party,” Stephie cries out, “first you went to a party without me and then you had a sleepover without me. I can’t bel-ieve you guys would do that to me. Don’t you guys love me at all?” BYE IM CACKLING WHY IS STEPHIE ME… saying, oh so you hate me is my life motto😭😭 poor girl just wants a sleepover with her paige

- stephie really has paige wrapped around her finger azzi is gonna have to wrap her mouth in tape

- SLEEPOVER PT. 2?!?! where is paige sleeping is the question

- UGH LOVED THE NEW CHAPTER SO GOODDDD

- i am actually dying to find out more abt there actual break up

- ig my main question is abt like kk being upset with azzi was that her just being defensive of paige or has azzi not been talking to the others much?

-hey i finally stayed away from my cliff 🤞🤞

- sorry to say i don’t have rlly have questions and the short reactions today im so exhausted lol, HOWEVER im sorry happy you’re back and as always you’re my favorite evil genius

ily

🤩🤩

- BESTIE I LOVE YOU <3

- Lmao hopefully I've satisfied all the horniness now

- I am being nice to you....later in the chapter

- Ah you're the only person who caught that so far I think or at least who's told me they caught it. But no she does not in fact remember.

- LMAO the s l u t s killed me but yeah just a little bit. I mean can you blame them?

- Listen I couldn't make it all hot and sexy because I fear that's just not me so instead we got sappy emotional sex because you know it's me and that's all I know how to write

- Stephie's so valid for being upset like they really had a whole night without her and she's supposed to be their baby. #FreeHer

- There's been a couple of references but Azzi has actively avoided a lot of reunions and such so KK's anger is mainly from a place of missing her, not necessarily siding with Paige.

[rrcenic]

UR BACJ UR BACK OMG HI :D

HI!!!

[vnzndt]

AHHH UR BACJ😭😭💕

we are SOOOOO BACK

[cocogrrrl]

HI IM BACJ SORRY

It was such a weird dream omg so it happened after I woke up randomly at like 10am and went back to sleep til 11am (it was a weekend LOL) but I was in a dream going to sleep and so in dream 1 I felt my body like leaving my body while falling into dream 2??? It was wild. And then I flew n stuff HAHA but then I woke up again in dream 1 which was insane

I’m still not able to lucid dream regularly yet unfortunately :( but tips would be to do a dream journal where u log all the dreams + wake up while ur in REM sleep (so like 5-6+ hrs after u fall asleep) and walk around then go back to bed thinking ur gonna lucid dream

THE KYLE DESIGN IN THE KYMAN COMIC NEEDS ITS OWN AWARD LIKE I WANT IT FRAMEDDDDDDDDD also u can be honest if u like kyman………… if u were reading the fic that much to know……. /jokes xoxo

HEHEHEHEHEHE EEEEEEEE ME TOO THATS ME WHENEVER I SEE U UPDATE!!!!!!!! I am suddenly Megurine Luka.

-💫 anon

I THINK I GET THAT... like ur body sudden feels like its falling n all???AND YOURE JUST LIKE "WHATS HAPPNENING..." 😭 but that's crazy!! like u went to one dream to another then back to the original one????

i hope u master lucid dreaming!! id love to hear the stuff u get urself into :D ALSO THANKIE 4 THE TIPS i will follow them . soon

what eef the kyman shippers were the friends we made along the way........... /j

LITERALLY U BTW

[sonderblade]

I think you have like....one fanart of transformers rescue bots, and I just love it. The drawing style in general, but specially the way you draw Kade, is just so pretty, and I come back to this blog just to see it again (because I kinda forget to reblog it) idk if you would ever make more content of these two (idc if you ship them or not, the fanart still awesome)

omg ur like, my first ask but anyways-

IM SO GLAD U LIKE IT,,, I should post more Rescue Bots esp considering its one of my fav transformers shows,,, and I do ship them either platonic or romantic cuz they’re such a dynamic duo!!! I need 2 practice more so maybe I’ll post more sketches of them/ rescue bots🙏

ALSO IM SO HONORED THAT U COME BACJ SHEUBSKA

[whityoungfan]

Just wrote 6 hours straight, my back feeling like shit

HELP

I HOPE UR BACJ FEELS BETTER

[classof2013-mitski]

i was keeping quiet but KOLN ????? FUCKING KOLN??? AFTER JONAS HÉCTOR DID EVERYTHING TO GET TI THE 1BUNDESLIGA YOU FUCKING GO BACJ TO 2 !?!?????? IF NEXT YEAR YOU DONT CLIMB BACK IM LITERALLY GOING TO GO TO GERMANY AND DTART BEING UR DT

[thatoneguyfromtheantivoid]

UR BACK UR BACJ UR BACK ING OMG I MISSED YOU DK MUCH :DD

:D

I'm back!

[sobeksewerrat]

gUESS WHI FINALLY RETRIEVED BACJ THEUR NEANING OF LIFE (by that I mean I found out a new thing to obsess over. Except it's not new at all it only resurfaced back recently)

I am so happy all the time but I feel shaky and I think the obsession is a bit too stressful but me but whatever this is what happens whenever I am obsessed with a ship

I'm not gonna say what I'm obsessed with now it literally takes 2 seconds looking at my blog to find out lmao

I haven't look at ur blog but i am happy u r happy

If u wanna ramble in my inbox or dms I am open

[little-star-bun]

UR BACJ YAY

-🩷

I'm back baby bc I had a really busy day again

[fornina444]

i was always wonder why do we always end up being like this. where u have to force urself being away from me. where u hate me. u hate being around me. where u think that. pushing me away from u will work. idk whats going on im lost sayang. ure showing all the sign dat u still want me. but ur head forcing u to push me. i know u. u dont want to see me with another girl. u didnt want me to lie. u nvr wanted me to look at other girls. ive listened to u to everythinf. im confused of what do u want. and here i am still going crazy all over u. because i really love you. i did everything out of love. i kept trying and trying trying, do u see it. do u see how much ive changed. i js wanted u to listen to everything that i want to say. is it hard. because all this feelings comes from u. i wish u knew how much i feel bout u. how much ive went thru for u. i know how much i went thru. but i wan u to know what ive been thru. i wan u to undertsand me. js me. i love you nina. i can never see u go. i hate all the words u said to me where u said no one even ask ne to stay. everything js hurts . u did the pain to me. u did ur mistake . i tried my best to forgive u and i did. and i came back to u saying dat it hurts . i need my baby back. i need u back. its killing me dealing with this alone most of the time. i js wish . 1 day u realise it. and im praying to god that i wan u bacj in my life forever.

[rinnelovebot]

HELLO MARCH AM BACJ sorry I never get enough ur writing is too good

Can I request sitting in his lap + nazuna + tsukasa 🤧🤧

Your writing is so sexy I can't even begin to describe what went through my mind body and soul upon reading the last one I requested it's so domestic I'm thoroughly in love with it augh

A/N: hhhhnnnnnjh … I lacked inspo for this, and I’m really sorry if that shows up in the hcs ,,, regardless, I hope you’re able to enjoy these qian <33 Also good god why are they so hard to write correctly

*ೃ༄ Lap sitting with Tsukasa Suou and Nazuna Nito (sep)

⤷ Nazuna will always happily welcome you into his lap whenever you’d like. He enjoys having you as close as can be, and there’s no better way to hold you as close as he can than sitting directly in his lap. With him, it feels natural, gentle, soft — when he envelopes you into his arms and squeezes your waist so reassuringly, it’s difficult to think of much else, so focused on the slow, warm breaths fanning over your shoulder, and the strong arms wrapped firmly around your waist.

⤷ Lap sitting comes extremely naturally to Nazuna, allowing you to rest within his lap as he completes other work for university or for Ra*bits. Having you so close to him like this is as soothing for him as it is for you, allowing for him to work with a clear mind. No words even need to be shared, a comfortable silence befalling the two of you as he continues his typically head-ache worthy work. But now, with you tucked between his legs, head resting on his shoulder, he finds that he can complete it a little easier.

⤷ He finds the position to be incredibly intimate and connecting — and even if it sounds silly, he believes that sitting together in that way allows for you both to be brought even closer together. The gentle pressure of you atop of him brought a comfort unlike any other, and it allowed him the perfect position to wrap his arms around your waist, and rest his chin on your shoulder, all while gently rocking you from side to side.

⤷ During late night conversations, you always find yourself on his lap. He enjoys supporting you in this way — talking about anything and everything from philosophy to what you ate earlier in the day. The topic itself mattered naught, but the position in itself was enough to make any subject of conversation deep and meaningful. You both led complicated and difficult lives, so to come back to one another at the end of the night, seated in such a way, was enough to make both of your hearts warmly clench within your chests.

⤷ In all, finding yourself placed within his lap is no rarity. It’s comfortable, and brings you both peace of mind. Nazuna doesn’t care when or where, he’ll never hesitate to scoop you up and splay you upon his lap, smiling so widely at you, so handsomely — you can’t help but lose yourself within his embrace. Nothing else could possibly matter when you had each other like this, so close, holding onto one another so tightly. You both were safe, and you both were loved — and that was all either of you needed to know.

⤷ Tsukasa doesn’t know quite how to go about bringing you into his lap. He has a decent understanding on the concept, as he’s noticed other couples sit together like that often, but he himself isn’t sure how he should ask. It’s his duty to be a knight — to be your knight, but he still can’t help but feel somewhat confused. But mere confusion wouldn’t stop him. If it were for you, he would ponder it for as long as he needed to. He had only ever wanted to be your perfect man, after all.

⤷ It may feel a bit awkward and stiff at first, but Tsukasa tries his hardest to let you get comfortable in his lap. He doesn’t know where to put his arms, or his head, or what to do with his legs — but his efforts are endearing, and he pouts at your amusement. With a little reassurance, he’s able to put his mind at rest, resigning his arms to hold your waist and burying his face in the back of your neck. This was still new and foreign to him, but he found himself getting more comfortable with every passing second.

⤷ After awhile of letting you rest in his lap, he grew completely lax and felt incredibly at ease. He now understood why other couples enjoyed this so much — he could support your body, and it made his heart flutter in his chest. Safe to say, he would be doing this with you more often now. He almost laughed at his previous nervousness at the thought of this, smiling to himself as he nuzzled his cheeks into your neck.

⤷ He feels on top of the world when you’re seated in his lap — you allow for him to be akin to your own personal throne, and he couldn’t possibly be happier about it. It becomes something of a safe haven for the two of you, somewhere that you and Tsukasa can rest together whenever you feel like it. Kisses and cuddles abound, Tsukasa bashfully declaring his love for you, and his love for you sitting on his lap. He deserves some praise for his chivalry, no?

⤷ It’s somewhat of a milestone, at least in Tsukasa’s eyes. He had almost feared it in the beginning, wondering how you could possibly enjoy sitting in his stiff, all too still lap. But now, it had become one of the many things he enjoys doing with you. It’s something he can look forward to after a long day, pulling you into his lap, kissing all over your shoulders, and listening to you giggle as he gently squeezes your waist. It was all so dreamy to him, and he hoped that you would feel the same way.