#UGHHHHHH I'M GONNA LIE DOWN AND CRY ABOUT THIS FOR A FEW HOURS COME JOIN ME-

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a very sad thought that just popped into my head, regarding Snake's comment about orphanages being horrible places... I was worried about it messing with my backstory for Snake, but actually it makes my headcanons even sadder

obviously he was in a terrible orphanage which probably abused and neglected their charges

that's not even the worst part, though, and he doesn't KNOW the worst part

after they were separated, Felicity looked for him everywhere she thought of to look

she never thought to look in circuses, because, well, the idea that her son was some freakshow to be gawked at never occurred to her

but she did look in orphanages, every single one in the area and traveling as far as she thought the people who took him would be willing to go

the orphanage where Snake wound up found his appearance off-putting, and the headmaster/headmistress or caregivers (such as they were, considering the God-awful care they gave) would make sure that nobody who came looking for children would see him

whenever someone came to the orphanage in hopes of adopting children, or in Felicity’s case looking for a missing child, these people would hide Snake in another room until the prospective parent left (with or without a child)

“look at yourself, boy. what parent would pick out a child like you?”

it makes my backstory for him hurt more, because he had a chance to reunite with his mother before he grew up

his mother was in the other room looking for her son, and he didn’t know it

she came looking for her child who’d been kidnapped, and the people who ran the orphanage hid him from her because they thought his appearance would drive people away

the people who took him were responsible for ripping a child away from his mother, but the people who ran the orphanage are at least as culpable for the fact that he went through hell in the following years, tortured and abused instead of with his mother

all because they couldn’t conceive of someone loving a child who looked like Snake.