#UGHHH I DONT WANNNAAA!!!

[kingcrustacean]

Lazy sketches before bed

[videostak]

ughhh driving test in like 4 days eeeek T-T ok ive been practicing as much as i can so like idk i shouldnt be worried since ive been practicing as much as i can but like eeeeeek. maybe should practice parallel parking w/ trash cans 2mrw for funsies so i can get comfortable doing that and eventually drive downtown to the record store there (have a HUGE list of stuff i wannnaaa get bjork vespertine siouxsie juju beastie boys check your head etc) oh and should def practice in my actual car and not my sisters these next few days if i can or when i can. def should focus on practicing in my sisters more cause thats the one im gonna take the test in but like also dont wanna get too rusty w/ driving stick. when i get my license eventually i do wanna shift over to driving in it full time for real especially if i can get a CD player in it. spotify has me wanting to kill my self it sucks so hard. anyways after my test regardless of if i fail im gonan def try to go to the doctor for that thingy i have since its been abt a month (actually gonna mark exactly a month the day of the test) since i started noticing it so like idk thats actually had me down along w/ just life in general and feeling bad abt my body n shape n stufffff but like def gotta get tht checked out for sure. gonna be insane if i get my drivers license idk like ill probably fail it just cause i can get nervous n stuff but like once i get it someday its gonna be insane since ive been practicing on and off since like 2017.. mostly due to the fact that it wasnt until this year that it became clear that no one was gonna go sit in the passenger seat to practice w/ me so i just had to practice alone lol. like srsly was on and off since 2017 cause theyd just all consistently flake out and i couldnt practice alone but oncei realized i could drive decently enough alone and tht they clearly werent gonna go practice w/ me then i was able to get smthn consistent going and actually learn. scary thinking back tho like the mistakes i made first like two months or so of driving like not having any1 to correct my errors driving around trucks n scary shit lol... anyways yaa today was p ok i was p busy cleaning doing dishes n stuff BUT i did got to play f zero and puyo puyo a but which was fuuuun hope i can play these for a bit then straight up jump back into dark cloud and pikmin