#Toy Merchant

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i actually can't draw anything normal atm, so it's just random stuff (´TωT`)

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Hi don't know how to use this

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[coooldair]

my ocs meeting canon characters!!^^

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idv related doodles dump because some are months old

[zhezhezha]

Reeeeeeally old little thingy of a funny au me and my friend created while playing rank

[jellofiishh]

cause everytime it rains, you’re here in my head

[prisonette]

random

[sirenjose]

Why does Annie have an issue with Ganji?

The answer to this primarily has to do with Annie’s own experiences with her father and fiancé. Her anxiety began to form due to her strict father that didn’t truly love her. A father that saw her only as a failed substitute for her mother, who he likely also didn’t truly love except for her wealth. Nevertheless, Annie’s father didn’t accept Annie for who she was and wanted to be. He educated her in how to be a substitute muse in place of Wendy, forcing Annie to be something she wasn’t and didn’t enjoy. A father that only allowed her 1 hour of leisure time with the toys left by Annie’s mother, toys she saw as comfort and safety, and eventually formed a sort of dependence on (like a crutch I think).

Despite this, she was still kind and implicitly believed in those she trusted. This included the person she thought would be the love of her life, someone she thought would accept her as she was that wouldn’t just marry her for her money. But she was wrong. And worse, her fiancé had been working with her father, who managed to steal the inheritance left to her by her mother. This betrayal devastated Annie, likely worsening her self-confidence and anxiety, as well as caused her to develop serious trust issues. In any case, we know Annie was bad off enough to be sent to a mental facility (on top of whether she actually did have a miscarriage and had to deal with that loss as well).

So when Annie meets Ganji, she likely equates him in her head to her father.

Annie's 2nd letter describes Ganji as "He was unlike any other before him and seemed to harbor hostility toward everyone. Especially the noise he made by throwing his stuff on the table—it felt like everything would be stirred up by him."

She sees and focuses on Ganji’s irritation, hostility, and aggressive behavior, which is likely similar to how her own father acted towards her. Continuously irritated at the failed imitation of Wendy, causing him to react hostility and aggressive towards her, which could relate to Annie in her 2nd letter being said to wear a “nervous smile” and trying to control her “trembling hands” behind her back before rushing back to her room. She likely had to do the same thing with her father. Forced to smile, not allowed to show her fear, but running to the room left by her mother for safety whenever she could. And by equating Ganji in her head to her father, she also thinks of the betrayal from him and her fiancé, which is why she fears him, especially after the drugs worsen her anxiety. Her working with Aesop to take him out in her 4th letter could imply she felt she had to take him out before he did something bad (as like with her father and fiancé, she may think he could betray them too and thus needs dealt with before that happens).

Regarding Ganji, it’s a bit unfortunate Annie is treating Ganji this way, as this was the same way Ganji’s neighbors were described to feel and treat him. His “horrifying face” scared them, as did his irritability. They described him as a “thug”. But also they felt he was someone that would cause them trouble and thus needed to be avoided.

Ganji in fact is actually a kind person deep down whose personality was forcibly changed and hardened after many years of mistreatment. He is also a very lonely person, who’s been without friends and family for a long time, to the point the impulsiveness and irritability he displays is actually a result of extreme depression and anxiety caused by severe homesickness. He is a lonely boy in a foreign place left to struggle alone without support, surrounded by people who saw him as inferior and treated him only as an object or toy.

He came to England from India because he thought the invitation he’d been given was a great opportunity, but ended up being betrayed, deceived, and taken advantage of.

Despite all this, Ganji has a simple goal: he wants to go home. He wants to see his mother. He wants to make sure everything is ok.

Ganji and Annie are actually quite similar. Both suffer from severe anxiety (Annie was likely also depressed after what happened to her, and so both share depression too). Both care greatly about their mothers, but are unable to be with them at this time (Annie’s mother died before she got to know her but she still loves her based on everything she left behind for Annie. Ganji grew up with his mother but was separated without an easy way to return, even when his hometown is in trouble). Both have been betrayed (Annie by her father, Ganji by the British Royal Team) and manipulated for someone else’s own ends (Annie by her father and fiancé for her inheritance, Ganji for information about his hometown so others can profit from its “spice extraction”), and thus both have trust issues. Both also treasure toys from their mothers (Annie with the wooden toys purchased by her mother, Ganji with his sheep toy, not to mention 1 of Ganji’s likes is listed as toys, with another being “play”).  Both were originally kind and/or kind deep down (Annie was kind to those she trusted before she was betrayed, and Ganji’s original/actual personality is described as “kind”. Ganji is actually quite soft, with how 1 of his likes is listed as “flowers” and 1 of his interests is “music”).

There’s also how Annie was said to dream of the power of her “wooden wings” to “take her away to the world outside those walls” (her father’s), while Ganji specifically has 1 of his dislikes listed as “high walls” (escape the manor of the Queen’s Guard he was brought to by the British Royal Team, as well as the walls of the detention center he was put in for a time).

Unfortunately, communication is difficult for them, especially once the drugs used on Ganji and Annie worsen their anxiety and issues with their past (according to Victor’s and Aesop’s 3rd letters), and it only gets worse as the game goes on.

(I wonder, Aesop’s 2nd letter has him describe Ganji as “that cranky guy with a strange accent”, while Victor in his 2nd letter says about the note Ganji left him “The note was folded up irregularly. There were a few scribbles on it, seemingly for the girl. The surface of the paper was rugged, as if the handwriting had been altered many times”. I wonder if part of the reason Ganji had trouble communicating could’ve been because he isn’t the best with English and/or English wasn’t his 1st language, considering Aesop mentions his “accent” and Victor implies he wrote little and it had taken him awhile to write even that much.)

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ANNE LESTER icons for anon !!

sorry, anne! I couldn’t find enough content to make specifically the “ HIDDEN “ costume .. but I did make one! Enjoy!!

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Toy Merchant is very clumsy but we love her 😓

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