#Thomas is a bitch but it's ok I forgive him

[magicpie16]

Thomas & miku play roblox and other stories

[simonrileysfavteacup]

Ok so, maybe this is gonna be a bit further into the future when Tommy’s a bit grown up (teenage maybe).

So your doing laundry and see that your son hasn’t been doing his chores and you go up to his room and see him playing his video games as usual, and you softly chastise him about his chores.

And he surprises you with his outburst, and he actually swears at you. And you flinch at the sound, astounded that your own son, your baby boy talked you into that manner.

Simon. Is. Pissed. He loves Tommy, but he will never tolerate him disrespecting you. Simon knows how much work you put into being a mother. Simon goes full on stern dad mode.

Imma let you decide what happens next 🤭🤭

THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA WTFFFFF

Run through here for anyone confused about all the characters

***

Sundays were your favourite days. You loved the relaxation, the peace, the days off. Simon had been home for a few days. Your kids, Tommy, Emma, Lilah, and Alex, were ecstatic. Atleast, the twins were. The second Simon walked through the door, they wanted to play games and go outside and all that. Emma was just happy her dad was home and safe. She had been her father’s daughter from the moment she came out of the womb. 

Tommy, however, your eldest, was a bit closed off. He practically sat in his room all day and never came out, It was starting to get on your nerves. 

You were doing Simon’s laundry when you notice Tommy’s dirty clothes that you had asked him to wash still sitting by the laundry machine. You roll your eyes, heading into his room. “Bubby?”

“What?” he doesn’t turn to look at you, still focused on his PC. 

“You didn’t do your laundry.”

“So what?”

“You need those clothes for school.”

“So you wash them. I’m busy.” 

“Bubby, you’re old enough to wash them yourself.”

“Don’t call me that and isn’t it your job? It’s not like you work or anything. Dad does all of that. All you do is cook and clean and-”

“Thomas Riley!” His words hit deep in your chest. 

“What? God, why do you always have to be such a bitch?” 

That was it. He hit a nerve. You turn, walking out of his room, tears stinging the corners of your eyes. You head into your room, holding a pillow to your chest. His words hung in the air. 

Simon walks in moments later, covered in mud after a football game with the twins. “HI lovie,” he smiles before noticing the tears on your cheeks. “What happened?”

“Nothing,” you turn away from him. 

“You can’t lie to me, lovie.”

“Tommy yelled at me and he called me a bitch…said my only job was to cook and clean…”

“He what?” Simon is fuming. 

“Please, don’t say anything to him…”

“He’s getting grounded. You stay here,” Simon walks out, running into Lilah. “Oi. Go to mom. She’s sad.”

The little girl nods and pads off to see you.

Simon walks to his eldest son’s room. Tommy turns in his gaming chair. “What?”

“Off the game or I unplug it,” Tommy rolls his eyes but turns off his game. “What did you say to your mom?” 

“Nothing.” 

“You lie just like her,” Simon holds back a chuckle. “She’s crying and it’s because of you. You know how much she does for you? And you swore at her. Go apologise. You’re grounded. No games for a month.”

Tommy looks down at his feet, guilty. He walks off to your room, where Lilah curls into you. You look up as Tommy sits on the edge of your bed. “Ma?”

You look at him.

“Ma, I’m sorry. I kinda let my emotions get the better of me. Didn’t mean to yell at you…just…I found out Lizzie was cheating and I’ve had a real bad week and I took it out on you. Please forgive me?”

A moment passes. 

You open your arms, letting him curl into you. “She cheated?”

“With Neil,” he sighs. “I’m never dating again.”

“That’s what we all say, bubby.”

[newtkive]

pixels [ newt x reader - modern text au ]

ch. 2 - drama queen core

summary: minho's drama finally catches up with him, but newt becomes a hero.

warnings: strong language, mutual pining, none really.

➥ m.list

__

THE GLADE

[ 12:08 PM ]

y/n: gm pookies

newt: it’s the afternoon.

y/n: yeah well

ur east coast

newt: so are you y/n

y/n: FINE BAD MORNING THEN ARE U HAPPY?

minho: drama queen is awake

newt: you’re the drama queen min let’s be fr

minho: u want me to die be honest

newt: see .

tommy: hey guys :3 been waiting for you all

y/n: awwww tommy <3 gm

tommy: morning sweetums

minho: ew stop

newt: how did you sleep?

tommy: good! used my new heated pillow

newt: not you

minho: not you

tommy: wtf

WHO THEN?? THERES LIKE 7 OTHER PPL IN HERE

minho: he means y/n

and there’s 4 other people not including newt and y/n dumbass

y/n: oh

why just me????

newt: cuz you stayed up til 6 am

y/n: ..

how do you know that

newt: i saw you were active on discord

gally: doesn’t that mean you were awake too then

newt: ok and?

minho: thats crazy newt

newt: no it isn’t

i just casually saw it

y/n: hehe

im ok i need to sleep more. sims 4 was really consuming me

why were you awake??

newt: up for work

minho: you get on discord before work?

chronically online..

newt: can you choke and pass out and hit your head please

minho: THE WAY U WANT ME DEAD IS INSANE

y/n: he’s gotta check on his discord hoes before hitting the grind

newt: there are no discord hoes

unless you count thomas

and i don’t

tommy: well why not

newt: because you disgust me

tommy: love u too :3<3

minho: y’all about to kiss aren’t you

newt: never say that shit again im outside your door with a b*mb

minho: why censor it

just blow me up it’s my grandmas house anyway. u want to jump her that bad????

gally: blow that bitch up i say

y/n: HELLO???!,!!

gally: minho not grandma

she loves me cuz im so tall

minho: tall people always gotta remind you they’re tall 😒

like we get it bigfoot

gally: shut up tinkerbell

y/n: you’re somewhat tall minho

minho: any man under 6’0 is considered short

y/n: yeah but newt is 6 ft trapped in a 5’10 body so not totally true

newt: what does that even mean

minho: give me a break

i can tell you exactly what that means

she wanna hit

newt: stop

tommy: don’t get his hopes up

newt: dude

stfu

y/n: what newt said

gally: can we appreciate the only one actually over 6 ft here

minho: no.

tommy: im the same height as newt!!!!

y/n: yea but ur like 3 ft trapped in a 5’10 body tommy not the same

tommy: oh ..

minho: kind of real

newt: can someone kick gally i’m tired of seeing his fucking name on my phone

gally: then turn your phone off don’t you have old ladies to tend to at the library

newt: yeah and they all love me

y/n: so real

if i was old i’d go in there and imagine you’re my young boyfriend and cling to everything u say

tommy: true im the old ladies

y/n: LMAO

minho: write a fanfic y/n why don’t you

newt: yeah you both are old and not beating the dementia allegations

y/n: IM THE YOUNGEST HERE

ur just mad you’re old as dirt

tommy: youth has left you newt and it has turn you bitter in your old age.

minho: thomas knows big words who knew

newt: which word in that sentence was big??

y/n: shut up minho

minho: wtf did i do

y/n: idk but i imagine you sitting there typing on your little phone and i got pissed

minho: WHAT???!.‘wKWHFO

newt: LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

yeah chubby little fingers hitting the wrong letters on his iphone 8

minho: im leaving

tommy: dont leave i forgive you for what you said

minho: i don’t give a damn

y’all mad y’all are all fake im the realest i’ve been prophesizing and reading scriptures 7000 years before y’all fake asses were born be so for real right now

y/n: not reading that

congrats

or sorry for what happened idk

about to drink my coffee in a wine glass

tommy: just drink wine

newt: it’s noon tommy??

tommy: ok and?

newt: explains a lot

minho: no coffee for me this new year only water and pussy juice fr fr

[ newt removed minho from the group ]

tommy: woah

y/n: woah..

newt: i can’t take it anymore

alby: How did you get that access..?

newt: don’t worry about it

in times of need i have to step in like that

y/n: hi alby!

alby: Hey y/n!

tommy: you’re such a hero newt

gally: that was deserved

who wants to play minecraft rn

y/n: me!!

alby: I’ll play, I’m off work today.

y/n: let’s go to the desert i want a camel

gally: alright but then the caves after i wanna mine

newt: if you mine with her you gotta bring extra food and storage when she dies so you can pick up the fallen items

gally: i forget you’re her designated babysitter

y/n: oh please no he isn’t

and i’ll bring my own food

newt: you always say that and then leave it in the stove oven

y/n: WELL I WONT THIS TIME

newt: sure ok

i’ll get on after work

[ alby added minho to the group ]

minho: when i get you.

newt: why did you add him back alby

alby: He was harassing me.

newt: be a man and take it

gally: im leaving

[ gally left the group ]

minho: im going to throw up and die

newt: im staying out of this

minho: (guy who caused it) im staying out of this

y/n: why does gally alwyas leave 😔

newt: why question a gift from the heavens

tommy: get online y/n gally is attacking my dirt house w a pickaxe :((((

y/n: NO IM COMING

minho: im coming to your work newt

newt: okay im locking the door early then

minho: i’ll smash through the glass idc

newt: i’m leaving my shift is over at 1 today.

minho: i’ll use life360 on you

newt: i deleted that app

minho: i’ll stand in the middle of the street

newt: ok let me position my car in front of you

just come to my apartment and we can play w them on pc and xbox

minho: …. fine but i hate your guts

newt: fine

y/n: HURRY GALLY IS ATTACKING MY SHED NOOOOWWW

newt: i’ll just rebuild it

minho: i’ll set it on fire just wait

[bryceslahela]

Ok u absolutely DONT have to do this but what if u told us ur least favorite li from all the multiple-choice li books that uve read 🙈😍

ok i’ll put them under the cut!! also i’m not very good at names just so u know. so i described some ppl 😭

across the void - idk who the fuck they are i’m so sorry to them.

america's most eligible - what’s his face. derek. i’m sorry but he was so annoying. no backbone.

baby bump - the male mayor was a jumpscare. i’m not even joking.

bachelorette party - rich doctor. reed? i romanced him bc he had rlly big gazongas. he’s boring and forgettable tho.

big sky country - the main guy. no offence to him but when ur competing with two bad bitches and you’re barely scraping average. sorry to him.

blades of light and shadow - mine was probably imtura. no offence to her but i’ve replayed it a few times and although i attempted to romance her. she’s the only one i never really clicked with. i do love her as a character tho.

bloodbound - lily and jax. sorry to them.

a courtesan of rome - cassius the snivelling nepo baby. i cannot stand him!!!

desire and decorum - hamid. his character annoyed me.

the elementalists - personally? probably aster. same thing as imtura. i’ve romanced everyone but i never rlly vibed with aster.

endless summer - jake i hate him. his stupid nicknames. his napoleon complex. those stank boots that prolly started covid.

foreign affairs - ayna bc SHE BETRAYED US…. will never forgive idc….

the freshman series - for me personally? all of em. all of them were annoying to the point to where it would be unfair to point out one? they all have their redeemable points imo.

hot couture - all were very ugly!!!!

immortal desires - …. gabe. and i LIKED gabe.

laws of attraction - sorry aislinn. i was just a gabe girlie.

mother of the year - NOT ONE BAD LI 😍 but i did prefer eiko and thomas to levi.

murder at homecoming - tyler but specifically white!tyler.

my first two loves - sorry mason and ava. even tho i like u both 🫶🏽

nightbound - idk. didn't finish.

open heart - ethan.

perfect match - my least was probably…. khaan. but i romanced all of em.

platinum - british tswift wannabe.

red carpet diaries - seth and i forgot her name but it began with t. both annoying. thomas hunt was annoying too.

ride or die - all were mid.

the royal romance - DRAKE AND MAXWELL. how bad is it that 50% of ur lis in this book are absolutely dogshit. thats insane.

rules of engagement - the bartender and nerdy twins gf. first one bc he looks like drake and the second bc she was so annoying.

save the date - the blonde guy. simon. hated him bc yall tried to push the agenda that he was better then justin. that’s simply incorrect.

veil of secrets - flynn. he smiles like he knows a secret that you don’t. its very unnerving.

wake the dead - idk i quit playing.

[pocketknlves]

me all the time: there were like 5 more movies after pt 6 where jason was doing some absolute nonsense and i refuse to believe tommy wouldn’t be on the monster hunting life the entire time until he is dead 

[marzipanandminutiae]

I watched Crimson Peak recently and saw another post here asking you about it, so since I'm new to this, I'm also going to do the same if thats ok.

I had almost no clue about what i was going to watch, except for the fact that Thomas (aka Tom Hiddleston) is in a relationship with his weird sister, so that didn't really come as a surprise. The way the movie escalated had so many contradictions, Edith's pureness versus the sickening situation that grew in Thomas' family. It bothered me a whole evening how I couldn't make out a satisfying explanation or message this movie wanted to express. I mean other than discovering the truth behind the mystery and empathising with Tom Hiddleston's character. Was that really it? A horror movie having fun with how much a human's boundaries can be stretched? I mean, I liked the movie, at least i thought it was horrifyingly beautiful before it started being violent. That kind of left me with a bitter feeling.

So my question is, could the actual plot twist of the movie be that the WHOLE movie from the moment Thomas appeared was just Edith's imagination? Edith wanted to write a ghost novel, but got rejected because of the lack of romance in it. The existence of the ghosts wasn't really explained in the movie and i know the house in England is supposed to be cursed, but the ghost Edith sees in her own house in the US didn't really make sense. In a love scene, Edith mentions how her characters talk to her or something, she says how personal writing is to her anyway. So could she have come up with everything? And what we're seeing is her imagination, the improved version of her turned down novel? Because for a horror movie there was quite a lot of complicated relationships going on. I don't know, does that idea sound alright? Btw i had expected Thomas wouldn't make it alive through the end, but his death scene was so shocking, i had to pause to process it, it was so sad what he was made to do and how he ended up punished for trying to do the good thing even under such conditions.

Glad you gave it a go!

Personally, I don't think it has a moral or message- not all stories do. It's sort of, to be meme-y about it, "Wouldn't This Be Fucked Up? with Guillermo Del Toro." I think there are a lot of interesting themes to consider, though, including:

Love as a constructive vs. destructive force (Thomas and Lucille- yes, both of them, her by action and him by willful inaction -did horrible things for love of each other. Thomas loves Edith, and both drags her nearly to her death AND ultimately saves her because of it. Edith and Alan love each other platonically, and save/fight for each other- even as loving Edith gets Alan serious injured. Carter loves Edith, but his decision to shelter her dooms him and almost her too. Etc.)

Generational trauma (the Sharpes became Like This because of their parents' abuse, but have now turned abusers themselves even as they try to make their lives better)

Not trusting appearances (on a pretty basic level- the ghosts look scary but are mostly helpful; Edith looks sweet and delicate but will not hesitate to Shovel A Bitch if necessary)

Changing roles of women and feminine ideals at the turn of the 20th century. this I really want to write an essay about, so I'll leave it at that

Conventions of Gothic storytelling

Why Are We So Inclined To Forgive Thomas More Readily Than Lucille When, All Things Considered, He's Really Not That Much Better? (Sure, he saved Edith and Alan, but he's never bestirred himself for the other innocents they've slaughtered. And why did he bring a woman he at least liked into all this, anyway? Not to mention making and serving the first pot of poisoned tea Edith drank.)

(seriously if you get into the character bios Del Toro wrote for the actors during filming and later posted on his Twitter, Thomas' Certified Rancidness shines even more. He gave no kind of damn about his first three wives' deaths, found and lured Enola himself with no input from Lucille, and was overjoyed when he got Lucille pregnant. I love the man but he is a poor little meow meow in every sense)

Is The Fate Of Each Sharpe's Ghost ~Divine Justice~ Or Simply Their Own Willingness/Inability To Move On? Which Would Be More Emotionally Affecting?

[infomercial voice] and so much more!!!

That being said, I've considered the same theory you had! At the very least, it would make an interesting AU

(also the ghost in Edith’s house was her mother; I’m pretty sure she explicitly said that. as for why the ghosts exist...it’s a ghost movie? not really sure what else to tell you there.)

[evita-shelby]

Can you do a writing of Tommy x F/Reader where they always loved each other but never really talked about their feelings because they are best friends and when he got with grace he wanted the reader to give him a hint that she loves him the way he loves the reader but the reader pushes her feelings aside for his happiness (so she thinks)… she acts like she’s ok but she’s really hurt then time skip a few years ahead when Tommy and Grace have the charity dinner (they didn’t have Charlie) and instead of grace getting shot the reader gets shot but she almost dies but she survives. After all that happens Tommy realizes that he can’t live without her so he leaves grace because the reader has his heart. She always been by his side no matter what. Also can she be the opposite of grace like the reader is short and petite kinda delicate as grace is a bit taller and slender. I hope you see this and thank you for your writing IT’S AMAZING!!!!!

Omfg!! My first request! Thank you so much!

I hope you like it

Almost a second too late

The last time you stood in this church you were forcing yourself to smile and be happy for him from the pews.

There had been a moment the night before when Tommy had told you he wasn’t sure about going through with the wedding.

Grace had said she was pregnant and yet there was no child, just a confirmation of her infertility by her doctor in London. A phantom pregnancy, he called it.

But how could you tell Thomas not to go through with it when he had given his word to her and promised to stand by her in sickness and in health? It wasn't like Grace meant to trap him into a loveless marriage anyways.

“I’m not even sure I feel anything for her anymore, (y/n).” He had confided in you after running from his own stag party.

Perhaps if Grace had never shown up at Epsom the two of you could’ve been happy, but (y/n) was not brave enough to tell her long time friend and confidant she had feelings for him after the insipid blonde bitch blurted out she was pregnant.

So you thought you’d lost him forever and even when the opportunity to tell him how much you yearned for him, how much time you wasted thinking all the two of you could ever be was friends and how much you loved him for him and that he shouldn’t change who he is for you; like a fucking coward you didn’t take the risk.

But that changed after John fucked up and beat Angel Changretta to an inch of his life.

You had been standing with Tom and Grace talking about something or the other when suddenly someone shouted ‘For Angel!’ and that had been it.

When you came to, you’d been surprised to find him holding your hand at your bedside.

“(Y/N), I thought I was going to lose you!” he took your hand and kissed it with such affection you blushed.

“I told you I was always going to be with you, why would I go back on my word?” you smiled through the pain. You were used to it by now, you think.

“I love you, (Y/N), I was too much of a coward to tell you and now that I’ve made a mess of things and almost killed you, I hope you still love me and can find it in your heart to forgive me.” He could be so romantic and poetic sometimes, you found it incredibly adorable. You wager its one of the things you always loved about Tom.

“You’re married, Tommy, you have Grace waiting for you.” You said not bothering to hide your anguish any longer. You loved him first, but she had been the one brave enough to tell him first. And now she was his wife.

“Not anymore, Grace and I are getting a divorce. We tried to see if whatever we had was love, but it never was.” That was too convenient, (Y/N) thought.

“I’m sorry it didn’t work out, Tom.” You gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.

“Don’t be, love.” He shook his head and continued. “She wanted to mold me into what se wanted and I fell for someone who never even existed. We decided it was best that we end things before they get worse.”

“Still, I’m sorry you had to go through that.” You tell him and he smiled sadly.

“Always thinking about the feelings of others and never yourself, (Y/N). Its one of the many things I’ve always loved about you.”

There it is again, love, how beautiful it sounded coming from his mouth. A mouth you’re dying to kiss.

Two months later, you stand in your snow white wedding dress feeling like you can touch the heavens from the sheer joy of marrying the man you’ve been in love with since you were an awkward girl of twelve and he was a boy at thirteen.

“I, Thomas Michael Shelby, take you, (Y/N), to be my wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life.”

[xiaowhore]

LMFAO THOMA IN LIGHT CAMERA ACTION

I CAJT EVEN FORGIVE HIM BC I WAS TOO BUSY LAUGHING TO BE ANGRY IN THE FIRST PLACE LIKE OK, GET THAT SCANDAL BAG BITCH!!! BOYBOSS BEHAVIOUR

(it helps that im not emotionally attached to him and only read the second part for ur writing, i came for childe and for childe only)

OH jshjsjsjjshs i guess it is a good thing you don't hate thoma for it?? LMAO

[bemtevis]

So I saw a bunch of Matthew asks and I have some thoughts. One of the things that annoys me the most about Matthew is what he could have been. Matthew could have been a complex character with an interesting arc showing him recovering from his alcoholism growing from his past, forgiving Alastair and also apologizing for the things that he did at the academy, and ending the series in a way better place than he starts. However instead CC just said 'ah yes another Jace/Will clone in a love triangle, and give him basically no development between coi and cot. He doesn't change at all, unless you count being 12 times worse in coi, and I'm betting that cot will end with matthew somehow magically being cured of Alcoholism and Matthew being basically the same character. Honestly if CC did give him more of an arc (I know that cot isn't out yet and that she might still give him a satisfying ending, but I'm 99% sure that cot won't be satisfying and that Matthews character will be handled badly) and showed him changing and becoming a better person than I wouldn't mind how Matthew acts at the academy and during chog, and coi, like he can be a shitty guy at first if he changed and grew as a character across tlh, however that does not seem to be happening. It honestly makes me upset the amount of wasted potential with Matthew, and basically the other queer characters in tlh. Like at this point CC is basically just using the queer characters to get representation brownie points. None of the queer characters have a role in the plot, unless you count a few pages of fight scenes or them helping the main characters for a few pages, before disappearing again, because appearly you can't have more than 5 pages of queer people a book. Also none of them really seem to have much thought put into them. It seems like well writing tlh CC was thinking 'ah yes i will put a shit ton of queer rep in this series,' and then just took five seconds each to come up with actually characters. Like, Matthew = Alcoholic Jace. Thomas = Nice Guy. Anna = Heartbreaker Lesbian who wears suits. Like it honestly hurts to think of what tlh could have been and what all the characters could have been. Sorry for how ridiculously long this is.

Ok, I'm breaking this into two points first. Thank you for the ask and don't worry about it being long, I loved answering it :3

What Matthew could have been:

I know right! I don't think I would ever like him even if his arc was well done, he just doesn't seem like the character I could love. Buuuut that wouldn't have stopped me from admiring his character development or from being happy he's healed. It was never gonna happen tho 😔

He's gradually getting worst with each book, it's confirmed he's gonna make a move on Cordelia in Paris. Can't wait to find out whatever bullshit he has prepared for us /s

CC will probably pull the ‘Love cures mental illness’ trope on Matthew, and I shouldn't have to clarify on how ableist that is *sigh* did we expect more?

I spoke a bit about his supposed arc in CHOT here :D

Wasted potential of the queer characters:

I know right!! She and her stans brag about the amount of queer characters in TLH, which isn't even that high. It doesn't have to be, just stop congratulating yourself for the bare minimum!

None of them have any weight on the plot, they're just there as a supportive cast and they barely do that! Do you ever just stop and think about the unimportance of Thomas' trial? About what even was Matthew's role in CHOI? About how most of the main cast has never even talked to Kamala? They mean less than nothing to the story.

Oh, speaking of annoying tropes, you forgot!

Alastair: CC's misinterpretation of what a mean gay is.

Kamala: Heartbreaker Lesbian's side bitch.

Matthew's potential novella:

Tbh I'd rather him having a novella than having to read about him in the trilogy. I can just not read it, you know? And it makes sense for CC to write it, but JFC, if that happens, I am gonna attempt putting an entire spoon inside my own ear. I feel like that'd be better for my health, therapeutic even /j

[hamitome--imagines]

Happiness

Alexander Hamilton x Reader —> Lafayette x Reader

Hamiltime

Requested by anonymous

Request: 35 and 44 with Lafayette where the reader was Alex's wife but after the Pamphlet and Phillip Lafayette always offered her to visit him in France so she does and they eventually fall for each other and he helps her come to the decision of getting a divorce

35: “Do you think she could’ve loved me?”

44: “Everyone deserves a second chance.”

A/N: I want to reiterate that I usually don't write stories where cheating is involved. It only occurs in this story because Alexander is a problematic bitch and, as we know, actually cheated on his wife. There’s plenty of French in here in which I used Google Translate. Feel free to let me know if something is wrong or doesn’t make sense. It’s been a long time since I wrote a story in only a few days, so thank you for this request! I hope it’s good and that you enjoy!

Word Count: 4,568

~~ You hugged Lafayette tightly. The other guys stood back, each of you had been given a chance to say goodbye to Lafayette privately. "Don't tell them, but I will miss you most mademoiselle." Lafayette said with a fond smile. You had all agreed to try to be happy in this moment.

"I'm gonna miss you too. But I know you have to go back. You're going to save France after all." You said as you pulled back. "But this really sucks." You told him as you looked to the large boat behind him.

"I'll write as often as I can. Besides," he grabbed your left hand and lifted it up. The gold band glinted on your ring finger. "You have Monsieur Hamilton to keep you company Mrs. Hamilton." He said with another smile, pointedly saying your married name to get a smile and a blush from you. It worked.

"Yeah I do." You said. "But who am I going to spend time with while he works?"

“Hercules. Laurens. Any of the Schuylers." Lafayette rattled off.

"Ok, ok. But you're my favorite." You pouted.

Lafayette pulled you into one more hug. "You're my favorite too, mademoiselle."

You pulled back and wiped at your eyes, which were getting wet. The boys came and joined you and Lafayette. Alexander wrapped his arms around you from behind and held you close. You leaned back against him. Lafayette pointed a finger at Alexander. "You take good care of her, mon amie." He warned.

"Of course, Laf." He said.

"Très bien." He said. "Well...au revoir mes amies." He said. He was smiling but you could see he was masking some sorrow.

"Bye, Laf." John said with a wave. Alexander and Hercules gave similar farewells.

You couldn't even bring yourself to say anything, the risk of tears too great. So you waved. Lafayette seemed to understand and waved back.

You loved Alexander, there was no question there. But Lafayette was your best friend. He was the one who helped you navigate your feelings for Alexander. He was the one you confided in with everything. He was the first one to know you were pregnant. He knew everything and now he was leaving.

You watched the boat sail off with hot tears slipping down your cheeks. "Come on, Y/N. Let's go home." Alexander suggested. You nodded, not wanting to be at the docks any longer.

—

Lafayette wrote as promised but it was long stretches in between letters. But you enjoyed every one you got. Alexander got a position at Washington's side and was always busy. He gave you as much time as he could but he was often working. You had a son and named him James.

You were a perfect little family. Alexander was busy but was still there for you and involved in James' life. And you still loved him so much.

You flipped through the letters you got from the mailbox. You smiled as you saw you got one from Lafayette. You set all the other letters down on the kitchen table to read Lafayette's. Your grin widened and you raced to Alexander's study. "We have to go to Virginia." You said as you burst in.

"Why? You know I don't necessarily care for that state."

"Because, Lafayette is coming to the United States and that's where he's docking." You said while you held up the letter.

"I'm sure he'll come here and visit us." Alexander said with a smile. "Especially you." He tacked on the end.

"Me too, but who knows how short his stay is. And imagine how surprised he'd be if we met him there." You tried.

"He'd be thrilled." Alexander agreed. "But I just can't. This plan, I have to finish it."

Your smile fell. "Oh, that's right." You mumbled.

"You know, you could take James and go to Virginia." Alexander suggested.

"Really? You don't mind?"

"No. You're right, Laf would love to have us meet him there. And he hasn't met James either. And you really want to spend as much time as possible with him. So go. I'll be here and working. Then when Lafayette comes to visit, you accompany him back here." Alexander planned.

You beamed. "Thank you, Alexander!" You leaned forward and kissed him soundly.

"Anything for you, the best of wives and best of women."

—

You were thrilled the day you came to the dock and saw a large boat coming in to shore. James ran around the dock playing while you waited. You spied someone you knew, though not well. "Mr. Jefferson." You greeted pleasantly.

"Ah, Mrs. Hamilton." He was kind to you. You had spoken to him before. He said his feud was with your husband and not you. He also claimed to have heard great things about you prior to meeting you. That was a mystery you had yet to figure out. "What brings you to Virginia?" He asked.

"That boat," you pointed to it. "Has a very good friend aboard and I'm here to greet him."

"The Marquis." Jefferson said.

"You know Lafayette?" You asked.

"Who do you suppose I worked with to draft a declaration for France? Who do you suppose had only positive things to say about you?" Then it all clicked. It made perfect sense that Lafayette would know Jefferson and why he would dock here and not New York.

"Of course." You said with a smile.

"Is Alexander with you?" Thomas asked.

"No. He's working on his debt plan." You told Thomas with a pointed look. He knew what the look meant but could also tell you weren't really all the angry about it. That wasn't your fight. Thomas merely shrugged.

"Well I just can't imagine he left your side, someone as lovely as you. And he claims to be so smart." Thomas quipped.

"Thank you for caring so much about my marriage Thomas. But things are fine." You told him. Thomas raised his hands in surrender.

You shared light conversation with Thomas until the boat docked and people started to come off. Thomas must've spotted Lafayette before you did because he raised his hand above his head to catch someone's attention. Both men were much taller than you though, so you weren’t that surprised.

Lafayette appeared behind a few people. His eyes were trained on Thomas, he was approaching to shake his friend's hand. Then his gaze flicked over. He did a double take when he saw you. You smiled and waved. It was as if he forgot about Thomas completely and ran forward to wrap you in a hug. "Mon amie! I missed you so much!" He said as he held you. He pulled back. "I thought I wouldn't see you until I came to New York."

"I thought I'd surprise you."

Lafayette glanced around. "Where is Monsieur Hamilton?" He asked.

"He's home. He was too busy to come today." Some emotion other than joy flicked across Lafayette's face for just a second. "It's just me and..." You waved James over. "James. Lafayette, it's my pleasure to introduce you to James Hamilton. James, this is Lafayette, me and your father have told you about him before."

"Oh yeah!" James said in recognition. "You helped my dad get a battalion." James held out a hand.

Lafayette smiled. "Oui. And he led it well." Lafayette looked back to you. "He's a good kid."

"Yes he is."

"Hate to break up this reunion." Thomas suddenly said. "But I'm feeling rather invisible."

"Of course. Monsieur Jefferson." Lafayette finally greeted his friend.

Lafayette wanted to visit the Washington's while he was here. And you and Thomas accompanied him. You actually accompanied Lafayette everywhere he went. He was extremely understanding. He knew you went out of your way to surprise him. And he was equally excited to spend time with you as well. Lafayette also took it upon himself to teach James some French. He was becoming quite fluent in the language.

One day, you and him were getting lunch. You left James with a family you knew for a few hours to catch up with Lafayette. "I'm glad you came early mon amie. I wish Alexander was with you though."

"Yes, well Washington's cabinet has kept him fairly busy." You tried not to sound too upset about it.

Lafayette studied you. "Mademoiselle are things going ok?" He asked. You had forgotten how well Lafayette could read you.

You smiled at his thoughtfulness. "Things are fine, Laf." You reassured him. "You know how Alexander can be, desperate to rise. He's getting his chance. Of course he's going to work toward it."

"His station shouldn't matter if he has you." Lafayette said. You flushed red at the compliment. "He should be more concerned with making you happy than rising in his station."

"He does make me happy, Lafayette. Me and James mean the world to him. I know that." You told him.

"Ok, only if you're sure mon amie." Lafayette said. "Because you are my favorite." He said, smiling at the old joke. "So I will put your happiness over my friendship with Alexander."

"Luckily, I don't think you have to do that."

A few weeks later, you were home once more. Lafayette and Alexander slid right back into their former friendship. Unbeknownst to you, however, Lafayette did have a heated conversation with Alexander about his treatment of you. You weren't sure if it was that conversation or his guilt that made him be much more attentive of you for the next few years.

—

Lafayette could forgive a lot. He could. He was understanding. People screw up a lot. He had his fair share of screw ups. But this. This was one thing he wouldn't forgive. The news even made it to France.

The Reynolds Pamphlet.

—

You only mentioned it once. “I need to know, did you tell me to go to Virginia just so you could have this affair?” You had to know.

Alexander’s eyes widened. “No! Absolutely not! I didn’t plant this. But while you were in Virginia she just showed up and-” You held up a hand to stop him.

“I don’t want to know all the details, Alexander. I think I’m better off without them.”

Things between you and Alexander were tense. You knew there was gossip floating all around you. Lafayette still wrote to you. You noticed his letters to Alexander stopped. He kept you sane. He talked about other things. He didn't bring up the shame and embarrassment that was the only thing your family was currently known for. He knew of course. But he never mentioned it.

Divorce was an option. But was that any better? James' family would be split. People would still talk. Gossip would only be worse. For your son's sake mostly, you stayed. The gossip was lessened when people saw the Hamilton family was still together. But that was in public. In private, life was very different.

You and Alexander ate meals at different times. Alexander practically lived in a guest room now. You barely spoke to each other. Friends knew some of what life had become like. Lafayette knew everything.

By the time the scandal became public, James was a young man. You couldn't shelter him from it. He knew exactly as you did. He never mentioned it either. However, he knew as a Hamilton that he should stand up for his family. He always had the same pride as his father, if not more.

Which is what led to you sobbing against your son's motionless chest. Alexander was breaking down beside you. He put a hand on your shoulder and you roughly shook it off. You didn't want his comfort and he didn't deserve any from you. You glared at him as tears ran down your cheeks. "This is your fault." You growled. A low blow certainly. But there was truth to it. "He was defending you. The man who cheated on his mother and declared the affair to the world. And he still defended you."

Life at home got even worse. The house seemed darker without your son. You weren't sure if Alexander was actively avoiding you or not, but you practically never saw him anymore. It was isolating and lonely. During this time, you sent your shortest letter ever to Lafayette.

“James was killed in a duel.”

You didn't add details or anything. You weren't sure you could dwell on the information right now. You were sure Lafayette had questions, he had to. He was probably upset as well. James began writing to Lafayette when he returned to France, referred to him as an uncle. A title that Lafayette wore with more pride than Marquis. But all the same, you received the shortest letter you ever got from Lafayette.

“Come visit, mon amie.”

Alexander noticed the suitcases in the living room. He knocked on the door. "I'm uh...I'm just wondering about the uh suitcases." He mumbled.

"I'm going to France for a while."

"Gonna go run to Lafayette?" He accused. "God, the two of you were always too close."

You dropped the dress you were folding and marched right up to him. You stated him down. "At least I never slept with him." You snarled. Alexander said nothing more and left you to pack. He didn't even tell you goodbye as you left.

—

The long boat ride wasn't bad. It wasn't anymore lonely than your home right now. And as soon as your feet were back on dry land, you were wrapped in Lafayette's arms. You started feeling tears form. "Lafayette, could we perhaps go back to your home so I don't have an emotional break down here in front of everyone."

"Of course mon amie." He said. He carried the two large bags you brought despite your protests. Lafayette showed you to his house, a large and impressive home. He put your bags in the guest room. He gave you one look and you ran to him, held him close, and sobbed against him. Weeks, months, and years of hurt being poured out. You had no one to comfort you since Alexander made his affair public. And it seemed Lafayette knew that.

He ran his fingers through your hair. He whispered reassurance and comfort in two languages. "I'm so sorry for everything you've been through ma cherie." He said. My darling. You knew what it meant. And you didn't say anything about it. You had gotten more affection from Lafayette's letters in the past few years than your own husband.

You found yourself in Lafayette's parlor and a strong drink in your hands as you sat next to Lafayette on a couch. He had a fire going in a fireplace in front of you. You just stared at the fire wondering how your life and gone up in smoke the same way.

"Ma cherie, I was wondering something?" Lafayette was anxiously fiddling with his drink.

"What?" You asked before taking a sip of your drink.

"Why are you and Hamilton still married? Divorce is an option." He said.

You sighed and glanced at the ring. You took another sip. "Everyone deserves a second chance, Laf. Even assholes I guess."

Lafayette was silent for a moment before he roughly slammed his glass down on the end table beside the couch. Luckily it didn't shatter. But it did pull your gaze to him immediately. "How many second chances does he get?" He asked. "Working rather than being with you for one. And his infidelity should be unforgivable enough. But when it leads to the death of-" A harsh sob stopped his sentence. He took a deep breath. His voice still wavered when he said, "Mon amie, he is out of second chances. Please, put your happiness first. Don't let him hurt you again."

"I don't even know where to start with all of that. And he was a lawyer. He'll have everything and I'll have nothing when this is over." You said.

"I'll help you through it ma cherie. And you won't have nothing. You'll have me. You are welcome to stay with me for as long as you need. You shouldn't have to stay with him." Lafayette said. "I can't stand to see you hurt again. You've been through enough."

—

A divorce that was happening across two countries was long. It boiled down to splitting things. Lafayette told you to ask only for things like clothing, family heirlooms, and anything that was obviously yours. Everything else, he could replace for you. You didn't need the house, you were staying in France indefinitely. You didn't have children to worry about. Not anymore. And Alexander agreed to the terms. Now you were waiting for finalizing papers and your things to get shipped to France.

While you were technically still married, you and Lafayette fell right back into your usual closeness. If not more than before. He used more pet names that just 'mon amie' now. And you liked hearing them so you never stopped them. You would accompany Lafayette to political functions, almost as a date. But you always said friends since you were still married. Though you avoided your tainted married name as much as possible. Lafayette seemed to take every chance to wrap you in a hug and you equally sought out years worth of comfort and affection from him.

One night, Lafayette returned from a dinner you couldn't attend. It happened on occasion. He was past tipsy and entering drunk. It had been a long time since he had gotten this drunk, but you remembered the days well and remembered them fondly. "Ok, let's get you to bed." You said almost as soon as he entered his house.

"I want to stay up with you ma belle." He said.

"Nope. Bed." You ordered, ignoring the drunk compliment.

You helped Lafayette get ready for bed. You were tucking the covers of his bed over him when he grabbed your wrist and looked at you seriously. "I have the best amie ever." He said.

You smiled. "Oh yeah?"

"Oui. Not only that but she is so jolie." Pretty. Was he talking about you? He was talking as if it a person not present. He released your wrist and made himself comfortable in the bed. "We've been friends for a looong time." He drug out the "o" sound. "I write letters to her a lot. But she's usually triste about something." Sad. So he was talking about you. "Her husband is a trou de cul." Your eyes widened. Lafayette rarely cursed in front of you. Said it wasn't proper to do so. But he just called Alexander an asshole. Which wasn't wrong. "I just want her to be happy. I hope I make her happy."

You smiled at that. Deciding to indulge him you said, "Trust me Laf, you make her really happy."

He beamed. "Really?" You nodded. "Do you think she could have loved me?” He asked innocently.

Love? You said the first thing that came into your mind, surprised that it was the truth. "I don't know."

"I hope so. J'aime Y/N." He mumbled before seeming to fall asleep. Apparently the two of you needed to have an important talk.

—

When you heard faint noises from Lafayette's room the next morning, you made two steaming cups of tea. You sat at the table, sipping yours. Lafayette trudged from his room looking very disheveled. He spied the steaming cup and gave you a thankful smile. And the adoration in that smile warmed your heart. He sat down and started drinking it.

"How do you feel?" You asked.

He groaned. "I haven't drank that much since before America's revolution." He said. "I feel terrible."

"You were pretty drunk." You commented.

Lafayette cringed, prepared for the worst. "How bad was I?"

You smiled a little. "You started telling me about your best friend. Me." You told him.

He chuckled. "Well you are my meilleur ami." He said. "What did I say about you? Hopefully nothing bad."

"Not really. You said I was pretty." Lafayette nodded like that was an obvious fact. “You said we were friends for a long time. You write me a lot. And that I'm usually sad about something, which is unfortunately pretty true." Lafayette reached out and grabbed your hand. "You said my husband is an asshole." You told him with a smirk knowing that might be the worst one.

His eyes widened. "Mom amie, je suis désolé." He said quickly.

You squeezed his hand to get him to stop before he started rambling. "Again, that is unfortunately pretty true." Lafayette brushed his thumb over the backs of your knuckles, a soothing motion. "You said that you hope you make me happy. And I reassured you that you do." Lafayette beamed once more at hearing it a second time. "And, Laf..." You paused. He looked at you expectantly. "You asked if I love you." His grip on your hand went slack and fell from your grip as his eyes widened and he slowly leaned back away from you. "Because you said you love me."

"Merde." He grumbled and stood and started to pace. "Je suis désolé, Y/N." He said.

"That's all you have to say?" You asked.

He looked at you a shrugged hopelessly. "What do you want me to say?"

"I don't know." You mumbled.

He sighed and dropped beside you. "I'm sure you want to move out now."

"And go where?" You asked. "I mean, I'll leave if you want me to but I think I want to stay here."

"You do? Even knowing...that?" He asked.

You grabbed his hand again. "Yes. Especially knowing that. Last night, when you asked me I told you I didn't know. But Lafayette, I think I might love you too."

"Might?" He asked.

You looked down at your hand, where a gold band still sat. "Yeah, things are confusing right now. But the one thing I know, is that you are the most important person in my life and I don't know what I would do without you."

Lafayette leaned over and kissed you. You sighed into it. You clutched his coat and tried pulling him closer. It had been so damn long and you wanted this. The way his hands so gently moved to the back of your head and the small of your back was full of adoration and affection. He was savoring every moment and so were you.

Then you snapped back to reality and pulled away quick. You were still married.

Lafayette was panting and staring at you. You were breathing deeply as well. "What's wrong ma cherie?" He asked and approached you.

"Lafayette, I'm still technically married." You said.

"Oh mademoiselle, it'll will be void soon."

"No." You said. "I'm not going to be as bad as Alexander. He can be as unfaithful as he likes. I will be a loyal wife while I'm married. Well, if you don't count that amazing make out session." You mumbled.

Lafayette smirked. "Amazing?" He asked. He pulled you into a hug, and you allowed it. That was safe.

"Yes, amazing. And I think waiting will make it even better next time." You said.

Lafayette groaned. "I hope so. It better be worth it." Then he kissed the top of your head. A little more dangerous but he used to do that when you were friends. "But you are always worth it.”

—

A few weeks passed. You and Lafayette waited, wanting to cross that line again but refraining from it. Then you got a letter from Alexander. Formalized divorce papers. Inside was a short note from Alexander.

“I’m sorry.”

You scoffed. He was sorry? You doubted he knew the meaning of the word. But you were single now. You slid the ring off your finger and into an envelope. She added a note of your own too.

“So am I.”

You sent the envelope off and let that be the end of your connection to Alexander. In truth, you would never need to see him again. He was in the United States, you were in France. You wanted no connection to him. Once you received your possession, which John Laurens had been kind enough to agree to send you (he agreed Alexander pulled a dick move with the affair), you would be done with Alexander.

How early was it to start dating someone new? Then again, how many people in France actually knew about your life in the Untied States considering you rarely told anyone your married name. You were constantly seen with Lafayette anyway when you were out in town. And, maybe not in an official sense, how long had your marriage with Alexander been over? Living in the same house didn’t mean you were married. The two of you shared a home, a child, and a last name. That was it.

What did you and Lafayette share? A long held affection for each other. Possibly love. A friendship that was impossible to sever, even when he was an ocean away. A desire to protect and care for one another. Even before your marriage with Alexander ended, you had practically started a new one with Lafayette.

When Lafayette got home, as soon as he closed the front door you pushed him against it and pressed your lips to his. His eyes widened for a moment before his arms came around you and pulled you even closer. He hummed against your lips. Without breaking from his lips, you pulled his hair free of his ponytail so you could bury your hands in his curls.

You eventually pulled away to gasp in a few breaths. Lafayette let his head thump back against the door, panting heavily as well. “Ma cherie, not that I’m ever going to complain about that but…Monsieur Hamilton?” He asked. You held your left hand and wiggled your fingers. No gold band rested on your ring finger.

“I got the paperwork today. I’m officially single.” You told him.

He scoffed and wrapped arm around your waist to pull you closer. “You aren’t single if I have anything to say about it.”

“Lafayette, are you asking to court me?” You asked and titled your head with feigned confusion.

“You know full well ma cherie, that is exactly what I’m doing.” He said and kissed your forehead. “Y/N, I can’t replace everything you’ve lost.” He said. “But I will do everything I can to make you as happy as possible from here on out.”

You smiled at him. “Lafayette, long before my marriage fell apart I think you were the only thing in my life, besides James, that made me happy. And once I lost him, you were the only thing I had left. So when you offered to let me stay with you, I had to accept. Because I knew you were the only thing that would keep me sane and happy after everything I went through.”

Lafayette ran his fingers slowly through your hair. He pressed a soft kiss to your lips. “I wasn’t lying, when I said je t'aime Y/N.”

“I know Lafayette. I’m not sure if I’m ready to say I love you. I did literally just get divorced. But I do know that you are the most important person to me. I care about you so much and I need you to be in my life.”

“Then that is where I’ll be.”

[post-itpenny]

“ Am I fonder of dolls or of goblins or shoes? “

Ok, tagging @grodygabe because Bastian is here for a moment as well. Some slight angst for you.

Primadonna 

The lobby of the theater looked as vibrant and new as the day it’s doors first opened. A polished wood floor with rich red carpets draped over it. Velvet curtains covering windows and the bottles that lined the bar sparkling with whatever substances they held from their corner of the lounge. Plush chairs and couches touched with the slightest scent of smoke. Around the walls was cream colored wallpaper with gold filigree as a border.

It looked lovely and new, which meant it was a collection challenge.

Perhaps that was one nice thing about this map. They could tell what they were in for based on its mood, it’s state of grandeur or decay.

Granted, several killers had collection-type challenges. Collect the thing- bring the thing to a designated spot- win an escape for your efforts.

But Thomas was with the group this time and he shivered the moment he walked in. So… they knew.

“So you just know?” Their newest one-a girl named Chloe asked. “Just get a vibe?”

“Only if it’s the killer you came with.”

She nodded, seeming to relax a little now that she knew how to spot her’s. Thomas almost felt bad for her, should he tell her what was coming?

Mary beat him to it.

“The old hag is a handful and she can get you at a distance. But you just keep running and it’ll be just fine.”

“She’s a hag?”

Mary laughed. From where he stood, Bastian gave a small snicker as well. “You can call her that if you want, just be ready to dodge.”

“Does she throw things?”

Thomas frowned, “no.”

Before he could elaborate the doors to the theater opened with the slighted squeak, the Edison bulbs above flickering out.

Show time.

…………………

“What the hell is she wearing today?”

“I have no idea, but that’s a lot of pink.”

Mary and Chloe hissed to each other as they snuck around the diva. Climbing through a tunnel formed by stacks of clostume trunks and crates.

They froze as The Muse turned in their direction, head tilted to the side as she floated just slightly off the ground. Chloe holding tight to the photograph in her hand. In an instant, she was gone, chasing after someone else.

………………….

One thing Thomas could never figure out was just how lucid Irene was in a match. Between trials she was clearly with it, at least enough to be an absolute bitch to anyone within 20 yards. But it was here that he honestly had no clue. Sometimes she was, yelling at Mary or taunting him, but other times she seemed so focused… but also not. Looking at them like she didn’t know who they were (which couldn’t be true by this point) but so intent on killing them. And then there was moments like right now-

From his hiding spot, Thomas watched as Irene chased Bastian as if she was moving through a dream. Perhaps it was because of the photograph held tight in his hands. Her movements slow but fluid. Her body flickering in and out of existence. She caught him in her strings, only for the new girl to purposefully crash into her.

Irene felt herself slamming back into her own skin at the sudden impact, reeling at the sound of fabric tearing.

“You stepped on my dress why?!” She screeched before turning the swipe at the intrusive nat with her weapon. The girl yelped in pain as the blade nicked her shoulder. The boy- Bastian. His name was Bastian, she knew this by now- grabbing her arm and pulling her to safety. Irene felt a tug at the back of her brain, screaming in frustration before the overwhelming feeling of being yanked back out and to wherever she had come from consumed her.

………………………..

You could hear her yelling in nearly every corner of the theater. The diva’s presence was constant, regardless of whether she was in the room with you or not.

They were rehearsing for A Midsummer Night’s Dream, the very unfortunate girl playing Peasblosom having stood too close to Irene and stepped on the hem of her skirts.

“You stepped on my dress!” Irene screamed down at her. “Idiot girl, do you not have any sense of space! Do you know where your feet go?! Or are they with wherever your brain left?!”

The younger actress was crying by this point, looking wildly around for someone to do something. But even their so-called “director” was suddenly very preoccupied with his notes.

“Look at me when I’m talking to you!” Irene snapped. “I swear I-“

“And I swear I can hear you all the way from the street my dear.” A gentleman said as he hooked his arm with Irene’s and pulled her away from her victim. “My dear there’s no need to ruin your voice with so few days before the opening night.”

Irene snatched her arm back, “you! You don’t get a say in this! You’re late!”

“Only 15 minutes.”

“Where were you?!”

“Forgive me Renie sweetheart, but why fret over such trivial things?”

Irene sneered, “I’ll give you trivial you-“

“Irene.”

“Charlie.”

Charlie sighed with a smirk as he fished a box from his pocket. “I need a smoke, come join me dearest.”

He liked arms with her again and pulled a still bickering Irene backstage. Looking over his shoulder with a wink towards the relieved younger actress.

…………………..

Charlie casually blew a cloud of smoke into the air as he skimmed back over the script. looking up occasionally at his friend as she carefully stitched the torn hem of her dress. Whispering the opening verses of The Habanera from Carmen. When and why she took the time to learn it Charlie had no idea, but he wasn’t surprised.

They lazed on a set of plush chairs, leftover props from some long forgotten production. The crew left them out knowing they were the preferred seats of the primadonna and her co-lead..

“You know, if you went to one of the seamstresses in the costume department, they could fix that for you.”

Irene hummed in response but did not otherwise comment.

He watched as she sewed, noting just a few wisps of gray hairs on his friend’s head. Musing that she shouldn’t frown so much less she gain wrinkles from it.

“You know I do wish we could adjust the lines.”

“It’s Shakespeare Charlie, the lines stay the same.”

“But the part between Oberon and Titania-“

“The lines. Stay. The. Same.”

“The mention of India seems so out of place though.”

“Did you read the books I lent you?”

“Books?”

Irene arched an eyebrow. “Yes, the ones on Celtic and Geek cultures? The ones I asked you to return to the library when you finished?”

“Ah.”

“Ah. So you’re paying my late fees.”

“I bet you were once quite the precocious child.” Charlie teased.

Irene smirked, “I used to lay on my bed and wonder am I fonder of dolls, or of goblins, or shoes?”

“And what were you the fondest of Renie?”

She looked up at him with a smile. “Silence, in a small house with so many people, I was fondest of silence.”

……………………….

The sound of heels clicking broke the early morning. Even before sunrise, stagehands milled about and janitors polished and dusted fixtures. But this woman moved with purpose. Cradling several items in her arms, any of which threatened to spill should she make the wrong move.

She made her way backstage, finding a particular pair passed out on a set of plush armchairs.

Irene and Charlie were deep asleep, legs tangled together as they shared the same automan. Charlie with his hat covering his eyes and Irene using Charlie’s coat as a blanket.

The woman sighed in annoyance, kicking Charlie’s foot. “Charlie Devough how dare you sleep at work again.”

Charlie sat up with a shout, Irene grumbling as she crawled out from under Charlie’s coat and snatched one of the coffees the woman carried. Making a face at the first sip. “So bitter.”

“Because that one wasn’t meant for you,” the woman chastised as she traded coffees with Irene and passed it over to Charlie. “Only this oaf here is foolish enough to not appreciate cream or sugar.”

“Why add sugar when I know you bought danishes? I can smell them love.”

The woman sighed again and handed over a paper bag she had also been carrying. Taking over the automan as she sipped on a coffee of her own. “Did rehearsals run that late?”

“We were running lines and lost track,” Irene murmured as she rubbed at the ruined mascara on her face.

Charlie leaned over to kiss the woman, “thank you for the breakfast Evelyn dear. I’m sorry to worry you.”

“You should have let me know.”

“It’s my fault, Eve.” Irene yawned.

“No it’s not you liar, how dare you cover for him.” Evelyn teased. “Irene, you look like you’ve been crying with your makeup like that.”

“Irene?”

……………………………

Irene looked up.

She hated collecting trials. She never knew what memories it would send her mind tumbling through.

She sat now in her dressing room, roses in various states of decay filling every free space.

The trial was a disaster, her new dress torn thanks to a new brat. She still remembered that young actress. Three productions later and she seems to think she could replace Irene since she was casted as lead once.

Irene also remembered the feeling of shoving the point of her stiletto through the girl’s throat.

Irene sat in her dressing room and tried to wipe her makeup off. For a moment she looked normal, even despite her bluish skin. But then she felt a stinging sensation in her eyes as black tears fell and stained her face again.

She growled in frustration and stormed out of the room, making her way backstage till she found her destination- a set of worn, plush armchairs. Sitting on the floor next to what would have been Charlie’s.

[queen-eliza-schuyler]

Work Place Problems- Chapter 10

“Alexander, please, come in.” Adams smirked from his place at the head of the table.

Thomas was absolutely pissed besides him.

“You needed to see me, President Adams,” Alexander said.

“Ah yes. You’re fired.” John said passively, saving him off.

Thomas tensed and Madison and Burr glowered at the man.

Alexander was frozen.

“Excuse me?” He asked, head spinning.

“You. Are. Fired. Run along, creole bastard,”  John Adams sneered.

The councilmen snickered.

To everyone's surprise, Alexander smiled.

“You forget. You have political power but I have people power,” Alexander said, turning to leave.

The council was silent. 

Though Alexander was the one that was fired, he was still the one with the most power... 

Thomas slammed the door close on his way into his house.

“Thomas! I made mac’n’cheese,” Alexander called from the kitchen.

Thomas froze. Alexander never made mac’n’cheese unless he had important news.

“Darlin, are you ok?” Thomas asked as he came around behind Alexander.

“Check the news right now,” Alexander responds.

Thomas walks to the living room and returns on the TV.

“...Hamilton makes a statement for being fired. ‘Sit down, John, you fat motherfucker.’ Omega Alexander Hamilton’s destroyed President John Adams with nothing more than a news article. More coming later,” The news woman was saying.

Thomas couldn’t help but grin.

“So, you like?” Alexander purred, sitting down on Thomas’s lap.

“Oh, yes, I do,”  Thomas says, biting his mark on Alexander’s neck.

“So,the wedding is delayed till you become president, huh?” Alexander pouted.

Thomas sighs. “Unfortunately, doll.”

Alexander dramatically falls onto Thomas’s chest.

“I guess I could live as a stay at home omega. How cliche,” Alexander said, sighing deeply.

Thomas pretends to be in deep thought. “I suppose I could live with the fact that I could come home everyday to see a back talking bitch standing in my house.”

Alexander snorts. “Jackass. You love me.”

Thomas squints. “Do I?”

Alexander sits up. “Oh yes you do, bitch. You still got groveling for forgiveness to do and I ain’t letting you off the hook.”

Thomas grins. “Ain’t? Is my Southern slang rubbing off on you, doll.”

Alexander huffs. “If you talked less, it wouldn’t.”

Thomas laughs and presses a kiss to Alexander’s cheek.

“Do you think I actually have power over Adams or are you doing that stupid supportive fiancé shit,” Alexander inquires after they finish their meal.

They were watching ‘365 Days’. 

Thomas looks down at where Alexander is sitting in his lap unimpressed.

He still opens his mouth to allow Alexander to put a piece of popcorn in it.

“I do believe you have power, Alexander. God forbid I do supportive fiancé shit,” Thomas teases.

Alexander huffs. “That’s not what I meant, idiot.”

Thomas rests his chin on top of Alex’s head. “I know, darlin. But yes, you do. The people believe you. And you have the Vice President in your pocket.”

Alexander tilts his head up to look at Thomas. “In my pocket? Thomas, I got you wrapped around my finger and then some.”

Thomas hums. 

Thomas eventually ends up carrying Alex up the stairs since he fell asleep during the movie.

He lays down next to him and rolls up the sheets.

4 years. Then they get married in the rolling fields of Monticello.

The pair couldn’t wait.

[johnismyreason]

deal with her part.3 // Alfie Solomons x Shelby Sister!Reader

Sorry it took me a while to write part. 3 but I’ve been soooo busy lately, it’s insane. Anyway, I hope that you’ll like it ! 

Words: 1.9K

Warnings: language, none, bad English because I’m French. 

FEEDBACKS ARE ALWAYS WELCOME / TELL ME IF YOU WANT TO BE TAGGED NEXT TIME :) 

PART 1 / PART 2 / MASTERLIST

“You and Alfie”. he spits in a low voice. Your heart drops and your eyes open wide. This meeting will take longer than you had plan.

Shit. You thought for yourself. How the hell did he know ? Did he follow you ? Did one of the peaky boys follow you on his order ? You can’t believe he would has done something like this, to you. You’re speechless and don’t know what to respond. How are you going to get out of this ?

“What do you mean ?” is the only thing you find to say.

“Cut the bullshit, Y/N. I saw you and that piece of crap last night.” he wants to yell but he heard people coming in the bet shop.

“You followed me ?!”

“Fuck yeah I did ! That’s not the problem, Y/N”

“Yes it fucking is, Thomas ! Gosh ! I can’t believe you did that !” you throw your hands in the air in disappointment, starting to walk in circles.

“Y/N, Y/N” he repeats trying to catch your attention. “I saw you kissing him”. He now definitely has your attention. You turn around to face him. You are boiling. He followed you all night long. The one date you had in forever was ruined by your older brother.

“You know what ? Fuck that.” you say calmly. He straightens up, sighing. “Fuck the peaky blinders, fuck this business, fuck this family, and fuck you.” He blinks a few times. “Yeah, Tommy. Fuck you. Fuck you for wanting to ruin the only good thing in my life right now. For being so overprotective towards me it becomes fucking ridiculous. For choosing me a life I don’t want. For never telling me a thing about your life but you find it normal for you to interfere in mine. For not allowing me to fucking exist.” you walk closer towards him as you recite your monologue, an accusing finger pointing at him. “Fuck you” you conclude, your finger crashing on his chest. You look at each other in his eyes both furious, but not for the same reasons. You were furious at him because he intruded in your private life. He was furious at him because you lied to him. You walk past him to get out of the bet shop.

“Y/N where’re you going ?” he sighs, tired of fighting you. You don’t even respond. You slam the door behind you and walk away.

You are boiling. You just can’t believe your own brother spied on you, the only night you had a proper date. No, actually, you’re not even surprised. Tommy thinks he has everyone’s life in his hand and can do everything he wants with it, in order to make his different businesses flourish. You remember what he did to John: poor boy wanted to marry Lizzie and instead he married a stranger the day he met her. They’re lucky they fell in love with each other the moment their eyes met but still, that was the worst thing Tommy has ever done. You didn’t want to come to the wedding in the first place, but you wanted to be here for John.

You are mumbling things, looking like crazy, people step away from you on the street when they pass you. You don’t really know of where you’re heading, letting your feet think for you. You find yourself in front of a door you barely know but means so much to you. You knock on it and a tall man opened.

“I want to see Alfie” you order him.

“Who the fuck are you ?” he despises you.

“Just call him” you sound way too threatening for your small stature, forcing him to execute your command.

“Wait here” you roll your eyes but do as he says. You walk in circles in the courtyard, trying to figure everything that is going on. You are so lost in your thoughts you don’t hear Alfie calling you.

“Y/N ?” he asks a little louder resting one hand on your shoulder to catch your attention. You flinch at the sound and contact, turning to him. “Are you alr-” you don’t let me finish his question when you grab his face and kiss him. He’s a little caught out of guard but finally relaxes and wraps his arms around you.

When he breaks the kiss, he moves his hands to cup your cheek so he can see your eyes. “Oi, what’s going on, love ?”. You try to hide the premises of tears in your eyes by closing them.

“Tommy” is the only word you manage to say. “Tommy knows… about us, about yesterday”. Alfie blinks a few processing what you just said.

“What ? How ?”

“I-...” you can’t respond because of the knot in your throat and just fall in his arms.

“Ok, alright, love, let’s just get inside so I can prepare you a cup of tea, ey ?” you nod in respond and he kisses the top of your head before leading you inside. He closes the door of his office after sitting you on a chair. He orders one of his man to bring some tea and whisky. He then kneels to your level and brings a tissue to your face to wipe your tears away. “Ok sweetie, why don’t you just tell what happened ?” he asks in the softest voice you ever heard.

“I was supposed to meet him this morning, and-... and he just asked me about you and I, like that out of the blue, not even saying ‘hello’ or anything… He knew I was going out, so he spied on me, and saw everything. Even our kiss…” your voice trembles between your sobs and you can’t look Alfie in his eyes. “I fucking hate him, Alfie” you sob in a whisper.

“Don’t say that, love,” he sticks a strand of your hair behind your ear to get a better look at you. “Yes it’s totally a bitch move but… When you have a person like you in your life, you’re ready to do anything to protect them. Don’t be too harsh on him” he consoles you.

“How can you not be fucking angry at him ?” you demand between gritted teeth. He caresses your cheek and smiles gently.

“He’s not my family. Listen, he went to far last night, I get it. But I know what family means to that lil’ fucker of your brother” it makes you chuckle. “And I know how mad he can turn if his family is in danger. Boy is so tiny but scares the shit out of me”, again you laugh.

Hearing  your laugh brings light and joy to Alfie and he swears internally to God, that he will make sure to hear that sound everyday of his life. “You should go see him, and forgive him”. You look up to him wondering if he was serious. He nods lightly his head confirming what he just said.

“Only if you come with me” you say, straight face. Alfie coughs a laugh, thinking you are joking. The look on your face clearly tells the contrary.

“No.” he rises and you follow his move. “No, no, no, no, no. No fucking way”

“Alfie, here’s your tea” interrupts the poor man who was in charge of the tea.

“Get the fuck out here !” Alfie barks back. The door quickly closes after that.

“Please, Alfie ! I don’t want to face him alone. Plus, if he sees us together maybe he will understand better” you plead him.

“Absolutely fucking not Y/N ! It’s your family, your business.” he turns around so he can’t see your face anymore, both of his hands resting on his hips. You walk closer to him and wrap your arms around him.

“He’s your family too now. I know that you and I is very -very- fresh, but we both know that it’s different from anything we knew before.” he sighs, hating the fact that you’re right. You tiptoe to rest your chin on his broad shoulder. “Do it for me” you beg him softly. Somehow you knew that this simple sentence will convince him to come with you.

He breathes in loudly and turn back to you, cuping your now dry cheeks “Fine. He better not kill me” he half jokes. You interlace your arms around his neck with the biggest smile on your face before kissing him again and again. He laughs at your childishness. “God the things I wouldn’t do for you…” Alfie kisses the tip of your nose before stepping back. “Where the fuck is that tea !?” You chuckle.

When you finish your tea, you put your coat back on to leave Alfie’s office.

“Where’re going, sweetie ?” he asks

You look at him genuinely confused “Um, well, to see Tommy, with you… like we just said”

“Oh shit, you meant now ?” he answers wide eyes “Nah, nah, I thought, like maybe… one day”

“One day ? What do you mean ? That could be in a year !”

“Then what would be the matter ?” he replies a grin on his face. You puff in shock.

“The matter would be that I refuse to live without my brother for over a year ! You said ‘one day’ uh ? Well that day is today.” you rest your fists on your hips, giving him a hard look.

“What’s the rush ? We’ve got plenty of time !” he said in a defensive tone.

“Ok, fine. You don’t come with me now, we don’t see each other till you decide it’s the right time. Good day, baby” you turn your heels and head for the door but Alfie cuts you off.

“Fine !” he sighs. You grin, content you won. He sees it and shakes his head. “Gosh, are you always that stubborn ?”

“You signed for your nightmare, with me.” you delicately kiss him on his lips, teasing him slightly.

“I fucking did, yeah” he jokes in a low voice, your faces a few inches apart. You chuckle and give him his coat. “Come on, we can have a nice lunch after that”, you offer.

“Only if I’m still alive” Alfie replies putting his coat on.

“Well, if you’re dead, I’ll just have lunch with someone else” you fix his collar before dragging him outside.

On your way to the bet shop, you gave Alfie a full list of things he shouldn’t say. “Don’t joke about him, or me, or us. Don’t talk about the family, neither. Don’t tell him that you like me. No pet name like love, honey, baby...”

“‘Right, so basically you don’t want me to talk” he concludes as he stops walking.

“Exactly.” Alfie rolls his eyes and he starts walking again when you pull him by the hand.

You both arrive at the betting shop. When you pass the door, everything was silent. You frown thinking it shouldn’t be that way. Normally, there are a lot of clients who are shouting the names of the horse they’re betting on, and how much money they want to put. But right now, the room is empty, and your family is nowhere to be seen.

“Business is going well, I see.” Alfie teases.

“Where is everyone ?” you question yourself.

Suddenly, you hear footsteps at the end of the long hallway, where Tommy's office is. They're heavy, determined, almost angry. The noise gets louder as he gets closer. Thomas. His fists are clenched, moving in sync with his body. Tommy stops and points his gun at Alfie.

“This already isn’t starting so well, innit ?” Alfie jokes, his accent thicker than before.

tagged: @fandom--0verdose​ @bethany-taylo @imthelegendforyou @rosiemaisworld @rosiemaisworld @niamherrs @geekchic48 @isabella-choices @mollybegger-blog @mollybegger-blog @minnyfurlz @hihojopjo @97freaknik  @vampirestookmydoubts liked this biba3434 @anthonysgaming18 @ronwolfbailiffclam @queencoraline3 @shyshu @farmgirlfinna @saltyfarmtrashstudent@piratesforstars @johnismyreasonwitchcraft-osteology@yourlocaldan @saphire2110 @rosiemaisworld @welcometothescreaming20s @kpopsince2012@shelliqq @classymusicnaturefire @shehassomuchsoul @allymariee13 @dextergirl12345 @biba3434 @carpediem-spero @auroraborealyss @havingfunwithoutyou @cluelesssgay@lisa0509 @xmusicallymayx @geekchic48 @wrcn9fvlcver @mollybegger-blog @fockinggypsywoman @bluececy @eriks-girl @angelofdarkness2468 @tiredretailworker@emmaberglundd @stressedandbandobessed7771 @shadow-of-wonder @lucis-little-helper @fallingoutofthe1975@instantfishbanditjudge @tenderlytransparentwitch@lolashelby @onenutellasandwichplease @bbtxuan @amt11320 @grace-tayylor @carpetwhore @sberumenm  @thatlittlered @advictedtohim @sumoheaven theozoneswim @annalisemacm @emiilysworld @thegirlwithoutaname87 @thegirlwithoutaname87  @dee-rosemary @peachy-surf @queencoraline3 @shelbyswhore @magicstars30 @ravenmoonsworld @sunshine-procrastinate @inner-sanctum7 @awesomemikaus @lovemesomeskittles @sparklyasscole @ilikecakeeee @dolancupcakes @abbyshoetoe @marveldcmistress @shadowdevil13 @freeperfectionprince @merakily-exhausted @lazyinglina @glitterquadricorn @kingarthurscat @tumbxrsparkle @na-nou83 @marvelenthusiast10 @marvelenthusiast10 @deliciouslymellownightmare @minnyfurlz @gracielou0518 @before-you-label-me @girl-toxxic @bellarkebxtch @seawizadry @rum4fuckin @inefficientliterarynerd @erinwhelan99 @friendlyneighbourhoodweirdo @livgracey @thecrowgoddesss @filippicarolina22 @xsophieannexo @giftofdreams @sarai-ibn-la-ahad 

[livcosmos]

CHAIN OF GOLD booktalk

You guys I can't even... that was oh my God soooo good. I know I always say this but I don’t even know where to start like there was so much going on and ahahahha I loved it so incredebly much!!! I wasn’t sure if I wanted to read it because I thought that it would be to painful because of my love Jem but I am sooooo incredebly glad I did read it and I can’t wait for the next book I am fraking out so hard I need to know what happens kjkjkjkjk... Can it please be March already???Please!!! I had so much fun reading it, it gave all the feelings from laughing out loud to screaming and crying and wanting to throw the book out the window, it was amazing! It was so intense!! I also want to say how much respect I have for this woman she created such an amazing world with such amazing characters and she never stops to amaze me she never disappoints! I want to thank her once again for everything!!! She is a freaking genius!!! Now let’s get started!

Ok I think I’m going to start with my boy Matthew, he was and is my aboulute favourite, I knew he was going to be from the moment I read the short story about him in “Ghosts of the Shadow Market”, cause yes apperently I have a weakness for sad damaged boys, my hearth breaks for him and I just want him to be happy more than everything he is such a sweeatherat and I am so so scared that something is going to happen to him I saw some theires about him... I’m telling you if something happpens to him I burning the world down if I may quote Sebastian!

Through the whole book I was screaming for more parts from his point of few because I needed and I stilll need to know exactly what he is thinking and what he is feeling I need that so bad and when we finally got the first tiny part from his point of few the one with Grace... I am going to talk about that...girl in a miunte... first I started crying cause I was so happy but than of course that bitch, I’m sorry I normaly never swar but oh my Lord I hate Grace and the things I said to her God forgive me, had to ruin it and hhjhfjfgfgf poor Matthew! I really hope Magnus helps him, our sweet Maguns our mother Theresa bless his soul I love how he is always there to help and all my hope is in him that he helps Matthew too as he helped Will, I am so happy he is present and in the action, let’s be honest what would be a Shadowhunter book without him seriosly now?

As I mentioned Will, first his parenting omg is helarious😂😂 I love him so much! And second of all Matthew remeinds me so much of him and I really really hope Matthew finds his light as Will did!

Matthew needs to talk to someone about what happend he needs to talk about it and frogive himself for what he did ahhh it breaks my hearth to see him suffering! When he told Thomas and Lucie about what Alastair said as mean as it sounds cause I do felt really sorry for Alastair in that moment, I was glad Matthew said at least a part of what is so heavy on his hearth, I mean he didn’t said what he did because of the rumor Alaister speed but it was a step forward in my opinion! AAAHHH and I read the things we can expect in Chain of Iron and that he probably is going to tell Cordelia what he did aaahhhh... bless him I am so excited to see what happens!!!!

Heres is the thing, this is probably an rather unpopular opinion but even tho I of course ship James and Cordelia, I mean obviosly they are made for each other there is no doubt in that, but there is still a part of me that ships Matthew with Cordelia.... I mean THE DRAMA, I know but ahhh and I read that they are going to be very close in Chain of Iron and aaaaaa I can’t say it often enough how freaking excited I am for that book!!!!! I loved the easiness in their conversations, they always were somehow comfortable around each other and the dance at the ball tho omg that was something, I loved it so much!! How they danced together and talked that was the moment I started shipping them!!!

And here’s another thing, I also shipped Matthew with Lucie like... hgckgfgfk don’t get me wrong I love Jesse and I do ship Jesse with Lucie, like how could I not and bless him when he gave his last breath for James how couldn’t I love him? I cried so much reading that scene! How could I not ship him with Lucie they are also made for each other but than agian Matthew and Lucie ... that would be interesting I mean now it’s obviosly never going to happen because Matthew is over her but still! And my hearth BROKE like it litterly shattered when James talked to Lucie about Matthew and she was like yeah but I don’t like him in that way... Like girl I love you you’re amaizing but what is wrong with you? We are talking about MATTHEW FREAKING FARICHILD here !!!!! Oh or at that part where she was talking to Matthew and she literatly called him a drunk, like yeah he do has that problem but she didn’t had to be so harsh! I loved tho how much Matthew cared for Lucie how he was concerned about her well being he is so sweet!!!! But I guess have a more brother and sister relationship, unfortunately.

The only thing I fear is that Matthew is goin to end up alone because obviosly James and Cordelia and Lucie and Jesse will stay togetehr forever, and I don’t want my baby to be alone forever! I read that there is a new charachter in Chain of Iron, a girl from Italy maybe she will be the perfect match for my Matthew? Who knows?

Another thing I ablolutely fraking love about Matthew is also that he loves fashion and that he carse about how he dressed and oh my lord he is wering RINGS!!!! like ok every Shadowhunter has their family ring but he is wearing other rings too and he has so much style!!!! He owend my hearth anyway but those things made him even more lovebale for me ahhhhhh and the fact that he is fangirling over Magnus.... omg!!! And of couse the fact that he loves reading I mean yeah Jamie and Lucie they also love reading and I love them for that too but the fact that he is reading in combination whit his other traids... he went right up on the second place of my book boyfriedns list!!! And of couse his dog, I love Oscar even tho he didn’t apear that much but aaaaa how he tried to save Matthew when they were attaced ...my hearth. And the fact itself that he named his dog after his favourite author.... just... I always love an artist boy but Matthew is something else! He can’t quite reach Jem because Jem to me is more that everything but he is right behid him! Jem is the love of my life and Matthew is my soulmate how about that,that seams sounds good.😂😂

As I already mentioned my biggest love of all times Jem, I also have to say a few words about him! So I cryed so much at that part when he came to see Will after his parents died, I was so emotional and ahhhhh every time they all were like oncle Jem here onlce Jem there... I had tears in my eyes I always cry for Jem and and he owns my hearth forever and ever, his faith always makes me cry, how sad he must have been all this years... how sad... finally seeing him happy with Tessa and Mina makes me more than happy and again I am warning everyone here if anything happens to him in the Wicked Powers anything... to him or Mina... I’m going to react even worse than if anything happens to Matthew!!! Oh and another thing I can hadle “oncle Jem”, it hurts but I except it, “cousin Jem” tho is a whole other level tho.. that I can’t handle it’s so wired omg it’s so wired that Cordelia is Jem’s cousin ....and overall it is wired to see all of them as parents not only Will and Tessa but also Cecily and Gabriel, Sophie and Gideon ahhhh my hearth, knowing everything they have been through and now seeing them have kids...but than it was also so interesting and funny and I loved that they were there but that they let the children do their own thing, that even tho they were present they weren’t the focus of the book. AH and I loved how Magnus was like: “I am going to help you all but if something goes wrong I am going to tell your parents!”, I love that he is so close to Tessa and Will everytime I think about the fact that he and Tessa are so close to this day ahhhhh....so sweet!!!

And now that I mentioned Mina I have to say this too, I how painfull must it be for Tessa and Jem and even Maguns to have seen all those beautiful children James, Lucie, Matthew all of the live, and love and grow and than die! Like it hurts me so much because I learnd to love them all so much and I am sitting here screaming at every on of them to stay alive and don’t die but than if you thing about it they are all already dead.... and that hurts and if that hurts me how must Tessa and Jem feel, who have seen them every day.... that is so incredebly sad and it breaks my heart! And than I think about the fact that Jem is now also going to die ant some point and Mina too and I can’t even think about it that is unbareble for me I don’t want to think about a world without my Jemmy in it!!

Anyway coming back to this book I think it’s time to talk about our manipulative, annoying, mean, evil, I fraking hate her so much, Grace Blackthorn.... aaahhhhh were do I start......I KNEW IT from the very beginning!!!!!! The moment, the moment James metioned that damned bracelet the first time I knew that there was something wired about it, I knew it had some kind of influence over him I knew it and than she came andjbsdhbfsdhfbsdhf I can’t even I am sooooo mad soooo sooooo mad!!!! I love Jamie, I realy do and I know it’s not his fault but still I am also a little mad at him that he let himself get triecked by that lunatic!!!!! I was so happy and releaved when she took that bracelet back from him I was so happy that she was finally out of the picture and I also was sooooooooo happy he realised even a little bit that there was something wrong and that he didn’t actualy loved Grace and that he actually has feelings for Cordelia!!!! Because my god Cordelia was there first he liked Cordelia first when she read to him when he was ill, that was so sweet and he had a crush on her but didn’t realise it and than the lunatic came and gave him that freaking bracelet, and she said herslf that James was obviosly crushing over Cordelia but of cousre she is a manipulative bitch and she made him take that bracelet and than made him wear it ahhhhh bsdgfkjhgfkhgljkg

It was a trap from the very beginning and I had red flags all over in my head flying around the moment she first apeared, of couse I felt sorry for her, because of the other lunatic, her mother, and I thought that it’s not her fault that she was raised by Tatiana and that she maybe has a little good in her but noooooooooooo she knows what she is doing!!! Even if Tatiana made her do some of the the evil things she not only agree to do them she also made her own bad bad bad things!!!!! God I hate her so much!!!  It was a trap for James the moment Tatiana came and was like “Can you plese help me cut the throns?” nooooo he can’t!!!!! Get out!!!! James should have sensed that there was something wired going on, but bless him his heart is to good to sense that!!!

I love how Matthew never liked Grace and that scene with her when they talked I got sooo mad so so mad!!!! I love Matthew but he needs to tell James or even Cordelia about what Garce said and did!!! And Matthew how could you let them alone at the end how??? When I read that part, when the evil thing but the bracelet back on James’s wrist I was beyond furios that was the last bit, I wanted to throw the book on a wall!!! vfsdjhfgdhjsgfdshgfsh!!!!! And pleaseeeeeee someoneeee I don’t care if it is Matthew or Cordelia or anyone elese PLEASE TAKE THAT DAMED BRACELET OF JAMES!!!!!! They must see that there is something about that bracelet please please please Magnus, anyone plese!!!

According to the family tree from Clockwork Princess our Miss Grace is going to be with Christopher PLESE NO! Christopher is to good for her, he is too nice he deserves something better than Grace I love Christiopher plese don’t let her ruin him! I know that that family tree isn’t reliable but still I went in fulll on detectiv Mode through the whole book checking that tree  and making theories and everything!!!! And I need some awnsers!!!!

When Barbara died ( I didn’t know her that well but she seamed so nice I liked her and I fell so sorry for Sophie and Gideon!!!) an alarm in my head went on because in the epiloge of Clockwork Princess, when Will died they said that Sophie’s girls where there and I was like nooo there is a mistake how?? How can Sophie’s girls be at Will’s death of Barbara just died!And than it occured to me that Cassie changed her mind and decided to kill Barbara then, we can’t trust anything!!! Anything is opssible anything can happen and I am so scared!!!!

Returining to Grace and Tatiana.... why on earth does no one acknowledge that Tatiana is mad??? She is wearing the same dress she wore when her husband died every freaking day??!! They must see that there is something wrong with her! And letting her adopt a child who she obviosly ruined is another crazy thing!!!! Why does no one see that??? Why??? James sweetheath the moment you met Grace you should have run to Tessa and and tell her that crazy Tatiana is keeping a girl in that run down house!! He would have done a good thing for her if he had told anyone about her but than again Grace is crazy herself and maybe she would have stabed everyone in the Institute in the middle of the night! And Tatiana is now going to the Iron Sisters and I am so freaking scared of what she is going to do...

Poor Jesse she seams so nice comapred to his crazy mother and sister how can he be so nice when they are so out of thier minds??? I am dying to know how Lucie is going to bring him back to life, God forbid Grace makes her do something to carzy I mean it is crazy enough they want to bring Jesse back with necromacie and I guess it runs in the family *cough cough Ty* to bring back the dead but I fear joing Grace in this thing isn’t good for Lucie! Omg but I loved that scene where Lucie compared Jesse to Snow White that was hilarious.😂😂😂

Speaking of Luice I really love her, I love that she wants to be a writer, I love how Tessa and Will teached their children to love books! And Lucie she is so funny and god she and Matthew would have been so beautiful together... but again she is made for Jesse and as I also like him may they be happy together! I also have to say that she gave me especially in the beginning Anne with an E vibes she kind of reminder me of Anne.

Quick thing about James I want to learn more about his power with the shadow realm and also about Lucie’s obviously but I have to say that in the beginning when he was constantly jumping throw the realms... that reminder me soooo hard of Stranger Things!!!😂 I know it’s crazy but here me out, to me it sounded so much like The Upside Down and James reminder me of Will from Stranger Things like I don’t know maybe I’m just crazy but I also imagined that one demon the one from the greenhouse who multiplied looked like that thing from Strager Things who also left those baby monsters everywhere!😂😂

I think it’s time for Cordelia now, but before I go on with her I want to also say a word about Alastair. So I can’t forgive him because of what he did to Matthew and I am still not sure if I like him but I do understand him now. I loved seeing this other side of him, seeing him somehow vulnerable and I loved that he cares about Cordelia and that in a wiered way he truly is a good brother to her! And I do understand even tho that doesn’t excuse his actions, why he was so mean and that it was all because he was alone and feard to be bullyed and that in some messed up way it was because of his dad. I do beleve there is good in him and I am so here for him chainging into a good person and apologiseing for what he did and said that hurt others. Speaking of his father tho... I don’t now what to think about him... he didn’t want to se Jem after he became a Silent Brother even tho he was his only relative.... I think that says enogh about him... I am curios tho to see how he is when he cames back in Chain of Iron. Ahhhh and if we are already at it... Sona... I didn’t like her in the beginng she was so stiff and somewhat mean but that thowords the end I stated to sympathise her I felt sorry for her in a way and I realised that she only wanted her children to be well.

Oh God and also the other big thing that made me go into a next level detective mode was Cortana, because.... so Cortana belongs to Cordelia, it belongs to the Carstairs family AND it remains in the Carstairs family because Emma has it and her father a Carstairs gave it to her.... and if we check the family tree John Carstairs Emma’s father is Alastair’s son BUT and here comes the big thing how is that possible first that Alastair has a son ( maybe he adopted???) and than second how is it possible that Cortana remained in the Carstairs family because if Cordelia marries regardeless if it is James or not, the sword isn’t going to remain in the Carstairs familly unless Cordelia decides for whatever reason that she wants to give HER SWORD the sword that CHOSE HER to her nephew and not to her own child??!!! What is going on??? I want to know??? How does Cortana remain in the Carstairs family HOW??? I am so intrigued I want to know this so badly!!!

Now that we have that of the table we can talk about Cordelia, so first I love how she is friends with Lucie, I do want to see more of their friendship tho! I do like her, I wan’t sure in the beginning because in the beginning she was so focused on her father and on making a good inpresion that I don’t konw.. but than I learned to love her, I love how fearless she is and how she loves her friends and risks her life for them, she is so great! And I love her with James, I do like all the drama with Matthew ahhh but she and James they need to be toghether! At the end when she “saved him” from Tatiana’s acusation I was like “GIRLS WAHT ARE YOU DOING ARE YOU INSAINE???” but than I understood that that is just how she is, she protects her loved ones and I love her for that! But damn it hurt so much when James said that he doesn’t love her because of that fraking bracelet ahhhh my heath poor Cordelia!!!! James do loves her he does he just neds to take that damed thing of his wrist and they can be togehter!!! It is so obvious and after the Whisper Room thing like people you could have stoped but you didn’t just please talk about your feelings!!! But no our evil Grace neded to come with her bracelet!!! I have to honest from the moment she put that thing back on his hand till the very end I felt sick I felt like I was going to throw up that’s how much the whole situation shaked me.😂😂

And if there is one thing I leared this summer from the books I read, especialy this and Again but Better, it’s that for god’s sake you should always say what you feel when you feel it regardeless of the conseconces just tell the people you love that you love them because there is so much to lose if you don’t! So much can happen not within days but within hours, like for example crazy Grace putting on a bewiched bracelet on your crush, and you will regrett not have said it before when you had the chance! I am so excited to see how this fake marriage thing goes, it’s definitely going to be very interesting! 

Ah and another thing I loved about this book is the friendship between all of the cousins! I love how close they all are, that they grew up togetehr and that they are so close it so beautiful! I love the Merry Thieves and I love how they now included the girls ( I don’t know what I feel about the new Italian girl I need to meet her before I approve her into the group) and I love how everyone is everyones cousin even tho they are not actualy cousins and ahhhhh the friendship between Anna and Matthew their trips to the Hell Ruelle omg I live for that!!! I love how they meet at the Devil Tavern and plan their moves, it so beautiful! I love that Tessa and Will and all the parents made their children all grow up together making them grow so close!!! They are one big family!

Thomas I haven’t said anything about him yet, I love him I realy like him and I love how close he is particlary to Christopher! I love how kind he is and I also love how like his father he went to Madrird. And I love Anna, I love how observent she is, that she sensed a wiredness between James and Cordelia and I love how she gifted Cordelia all those dressed like omg!

Ah and I also do need to say how much I dislike Charles, like how was it possible that out of such nice people as Charlotte and Henry (I loved seeing Henry again in this book bless him) somone so awful as Charles can come out? I rellly don’t like him! Not that Ariadne cared but how could he leave her while she was dying? Who does that? I guess he truly deserves to be with Grace tho I feel sorry for Charlotte and Henry to have to welcome her into the family!

I sorry this booktalk got so long but had a lot to say and I still have a few more things to say one of which is about the London quarantine in this book, like the irony in it the fact thate we were all in quaratine when this book came out is just... I couldn’t ’t belive my eyes when I read it! Overall I love that the book took place in London, London is my favourite city in the world and returning there through this book esspecial at the time ahhh it was perfect, I loved returing to the London Institute, I loved the dresses andthe fashion everything! I loved the way they all spoke and they sayings it was all so perfect!

This book was just everything I needed right now and I am more than gald that I decided to read it! I can’t let it go yet tho I am still to attached to everything my crush on Matthew is still buring bright and I can’t let it and I don’t want to let it fade! I’m also more than excited for Chain of Iron, March can’t come soon enogh! I dying to see what happens and how all this drama is going to be solved!

Oh goodness and I almost forgot thanks to everyone who makes Shdowhunter memes, esspecally the ones about Chain of Gold like really they make my day! I am sometimes sitting for hours looking at them laughing!😂😂Some of them are pure gold! Thank you!

And I also want to thank everyone who came this far and read all of this you are true legends!

[the-sunshine-dims]

amnesia Chapter 3; patton

i'm not the happiest with how this turned out but it made its purpose, also sorry it took two days, i had been really busy on tuesday and wednesday, 

amnesia taglist: @fandima

[1] [2] [^] [4] [5] [6]

words: 1487

Summary: deceit gets amnesia, the others realize how much they had assumed about this side, and how much information they discarded, they thought this dork  who likes making flower crowns and will lie if it’s necessary or too save someone’s feelings, was this evil villain who’s only job was to hurt thomas, and deceit without memory of all of this helps the others feel less guilty, they know they can’t fully be forgiven though,

~*warnings*~ hurt/comfort, angst, amnesia, mention of deceit and remus being treated poorly, deceit being an over excitable puppy, food mention, guilt, regret,

ao3 link

characters this chapter: deceit, roman, patton, logan (mentioned), virgil (mentioned) remus (mentioned,

all characters that appear in this series:  deceit, roman, logan, remus, patton, virgil, king creativity (mentioned)

________

“Hey patt?” Roman called from the Patton’s doorway

Patton turned to look up at him “yeah ro? What’s up?”

Roman nervously rubbed his neck “ok… well um… you see apparently deceit went into the imagination… and something happened, and he probably hit his head… and Logan has confirmed that he does in fact have a case of amnesia,” he chewed his lip nervously, a bad habit he picked up from Virgil,

Patton opened his mouth going to speak before closing it again, guilty of the fact he was gonna ask if they knew if he was faking it or not, he opened his mouth again “is he ok?”

Roman hummed and nodded, “he is, He’s currently trying to compete with Logan on who can solve a rubix cube the fastest,” Patton smiled and Roman smiled as well “it’s adorable,” he trailed off before remembering another fact he should tell Patton “also! Logan said that currently he’s mentally a teenager, like fifteen or sixteen most likely,”

“Poor thing…” was the only thing that left Patton’s lips despite how much was going through his head

Roman nodded sadly, “yeah,”

Patton looked thoughtful for a moment before focusing on Roman again “hey Roman… Do you think I could hang out with him?”

“I mean, it’s not really my choice, he’s his own person, though I mean Logan told me that you all used to be friends so i mean he’ll probably say yeah,” 

Patton gave a thankful smile, and stood up from the place he had been sitting, “ok, can we go and see if i can hang out with him and you guys now or no?”

Roman smiled and wrapped an arm around Patton’s waist “yeah, let's go chill with him,”

Patton smiled and nodded, and they both headed out of the room,

As they headed down the hallway Patton stopped, and looked up at Roman “hey roman, have you, Logan, and deceit ate yet?”

Roman gave an awkward laugh and rubbed his neck again “nah, not yet,” 

Patton shook his head disapprovingly, and headed towards the kitchen and started cooking, after around twenty minutes the food was done and he grabbed a couple plates, once he had put one of them In the fridge for Virgil he headed back on course, he then proceeded to shove two plates into romans arms, for him and logan, Roman gave a small laugh and just proceeded to walk towards logan’s room,

———

Deceit looked up up at the door as it slowly opened from where he had been sitting on the floor watching the tv as Logan worked,

When he saw Patton and Roman enter he waved at them nonchalantly, hiding the happy look he gave when he saw them,

“Hey dee, can I hang with you?” Patton said as he sat down passing deceit plate of food over, Roman was handing Logan his plate,

Deceit hummed and nodded giving a small smile to Patton which melted his heart,

“So how’re you doing kiddo?”

Deceit hummed softly again “‘mm fine, how are you?” he partially lied, it had been a mentally tiring day yesterday, He took a bite of the food as he waited for Patton to answer

“I’m doing fine kiddo, after you eat is there anything you want to do?” Patton tried, this encounter was rather awkward for him, because he knew he had treated deceit and Remus so awfully, he knew that he didn’t remember but it still ate him up with regret and guilt, he had been trying to get better but still…he had even started inviting the two of them to movie nights, though deceit had never taken up the invitation,

Deceit sensed the stress practically radiating off Patton and he made the quick decision of gently punching Patton’s shoulder “you sure there… adulto..?” He gave a small smile trying to cheer him up, he wanted his friends to be happy! He distantly wondered if a flower crown would make him feel better,

Patton gave a small chuckle “I’m good, just started overthinking,-“ he gave another soft chuckle -“even though it’s Virgil's job” 

Deceit tilted his head like a confused puppy for a moment before making finger guns and trying to stay up beat “...anxiety?” He looked over at Roman just for Roman to turn his head to him and nod and then turn back to his and Logan’s conversation, deceit turned his head back to face Patton “ah, anxiety, he's nice” he nodded to himself

Patton laughed, smiling softly “that he is, anyways what do you wanna do to?”

Deceit hummed in thought, he liked humming, whether it be the soft musical humming or humming in concentration, he liked it. “I’m ok with doing anything, except stuff with horses, I hate them, they hate me, Barney ate my family, you know the deal.”

Patton laughed and nodded “sooo-“ he trailed off before remembering him having a keen interest that creativity used to show off all the time to them -“would you wanna go hang out in the imagination’s meadow and make flower crowns?-“ the moment the words left his mouth he could practically see the stars in dee’s eyes

“Yesyesyesyes-“ he paused for a moment “yes please”

Patton chuckled softly and as soon as they were done eating he stood up, holding a hand out for deceit which deceit easily took, sure he knew things might be a little different but morality is nice! And logic is nice! And Roman is nice! So he very much trusted them all, 

Patton smiled as he escorted deceit to the imagination and the absolutely beautiful meadow, covered in all kinds of wildflowers, everything so vibrant, 

Deceit smiled happily and ran out into it, promptly falling on a soft cushion of grass And flowers, Patton followed him a soft smile on his lips, distantly wondering how he had never truly known deceit, this happy joyful, flower crown loving side,

Patton walked over, sitting comfortably on the patch of grass next to deceit, “ok so I have to admit I don’t know how to properly make a flower crown,” he gave a sheepish smile

Deceit smiled “that’s ok! That just means I can teach you!” He then proceeded to take a couple flowers and fold their stems into each other slowly, making sure Patton followed,

After Patton finally succeeded in making a flower deceit let out a cheer 

“You did it! You did well too!” He smiled widely, he  decided he liked teaching, it was no wonder to him why logic liked it too,

Patton smiled “thanks,” he thought for a moment before a thought verbally voiced itself much to the dismay of Patton “I’m so sorry I misjudged you…” 

“What are you talking about? You didn’t misjudge me! I think!” He tried to defend Patton, he wasn’t making the best argument though especially considering he very literally didn't remember it,

“Yes I did….-” he sighed -“I know you don’t remember it, but I was mean, so mean! And I misjudged you and I probably hurt you- and- I’m so sorry- so sorry-“ he was stopped as deceit pulled him into a hug,

“You probably had your reasons, and I’ll forgive you, when I remember what you mean, it may be a bit before I fully forgive you but no matter what, you deserve a second chance,” he pulled out of the hug, looking into Patton’s eyes intensely “I promise you, I know for a fact, that we’ll be friends and i'll stand by you, i promise” he smiled and plopped a flower crown on patton’s head,

Patton looked down and smiled sadly “your super sweet,” 

“hey, no u uno reverse bitch,” he laughed, but hey! It was the truth! Patton was nice too!

Patton snickered, deceits humor reminded him of Virgil, it was kind of Nice, he wondered if he liked dad jokes as well, “hey wanna make another flower crown and then head back to the commons and watch a show?” He prompted

“Yes please! What do you wanna watch!” 

“Hmm I’ll be fine with anything you want kiddo,”

“Hmmm, can we watch a couple episodes of the office?” He asked softly 

Patton hummed “mmhm, yeah we can, and we can get snacks too,”

Deceits eyes lit up and he murmured a soft thank you before hurrying to finish the last flower crown, he was planning to give them to logic and Roman, since he already gave one to morality,

Later Logan and Roman found deceit and Patton passed out on the couch deceit using Patton’s chest as a pillow and Patton’s arm wrapped loosely around deceits waist, tv asleep, they smiled at each other and left, silently agreeing to not wake them up, they both could see something had changed, they could both see that some of Patton’s regret and guilt was eased, it wasn’t gone, but it was breathing room for them both to work at,

[polygamyff]

49. Part 3

It’s a weird feeling to feel like this, I am relieved to have met them, I am happy in a weird way. I feel like Daphne gives me such a calming vibe, such a neutering emotion she gives. To see the emotion all of that family holds for my dad, wow I am actually saying dad. Seeing those pictures really felt heart-warming to me, I now see it. I never looked like Thomas, but I mean who am I to question it when everyone said I looked my like my mom, I never did look like him. I feel good, they are so appreciative. Maybe this was missing in my life too, I wouldn’t blame my mom because I am sure she made the right decision for me at that moment in time. I think I have realised I don’t have any feelings towards Thomas, I couldn’t forgive the man because he treated me like a piece of shit and I don’t think I want him to even see me, I wish my mom will let that go because he deserves nothing from me. He treated me like all those years meant nothing, I can’t do it. He called me a whore for finding a man, I just can’t accept that, and he doesn’t deserve it. He should have loved me no matter what, he looked after me like his own and he should have stuck to that. I just can’t accept it but right now, I am in a good place “you’re quiet in the back” Maurice said “preparing myself for the argument” I said, Maurice laughed. He laughed like anything was funny about what he said about his mother “come on Robyn, it doesn’t need to be like this does it?” I shrugged; he will learn that I am not playing about “what did you do now?” Jay said, Jay knows this nigga does nothing but annoy me “nothing really, just Robyn being a drama queen. You know me? I speak the truth?” watching Maurice patring Jay’ shoulder like he’s right in any of this “I am not involved in any of this, nope!” Jay is clever because he doesn’t want the smoke with me either. Maurice thinks it’s a joke, everything is a joke to him “how is the family Robyn? Let’s all ignore Maurice” Jay turned in the front seat to look at me “nice, very emotional. I want to know so much more about him. It’s weird but I feel like there is a connection there, seeing those baby picture of him, he looks like Reign and me. I just, it was emotional Jay” he cooed out “that is sweet, shit like this is amazing. Bringing families together and stuff, when I got them. They asked who I was, I said I am a family friend. The lady, she is so sweet she said how is Robyn? What is she like?. I goes oh she is nice, she has a big heart. Be nice to her, they were all so cool. I get the feeling they have never recovered from their son dying, they mentioned him in the elevator” even Jay noticed that “like it’s been years and they haven’t, it’s sad” I find it sad because I could have had my real dad.

Walking behind Jay up the steps, who needs a gym when these stairs do it for me “is little mess asleep?” she must be asleep, I can imagine. Moving my head to the side to see “oh she is, you’re back. She fell asleep in her activity jumper, she wouldn’t let me put her to sleep. She just fell asleep now” oh Reign was playing up, that is not shocking “thank you Ally, for taking care of her. She wasn’t too much was she?” seeing Reign in her activity jumper, she looks exhausted “that girl of mine” shaking my head “she didn’t want to drink her milk, so like I left it here” Ally passed it me “and then I put her in there because I needed to go to pee and I didn’t want her to move, when I came back she fell asleep. Then you guys came” Reign hasn’t drank any of the milk “thank you though Ally, she can be a little bossy when she wants, I understand. Sometimes you need to trick her into having milk” let me get her out of this jumper, she is something else this girl. I will wake her to have this milk, or let her wake up crying when she wants it, see what happens with that “did everything go ok?” Ally asked “it did thanks, very well. I was nervous for nothing, and Maurice was no help” picking Reign out “it’s ok baby, it’s mommy” Reign woke up like who the fuck is touching me “that is a lie, I helped” here he is “ssshhh, it’s ok” placing Reign over my shoulder “if you say, I am going upstairs now. Goodnight everyone” I hope Reign wakes up so I can feed her.

Reign flat out just fell asleep again as soon as I laid her on the bed “what happened to Reign’ bedroom?” it’s annoying me, I cannot believe this “oh you really picking out fights today” Maurice said “no, it’s legit, what is happening? I am not picking a fight, why is it so long? Is it a grand opening?” I don’t get it “AI said he needs to fix the electronical circuit in the room, that is it. It’s done then, tomorrow, latest ok? Now can we be friends?” shaking my head “I want you to be truthful with me, do you actually feel that way about your mom? You can’t say those words Maurice, it’s not nice” Maurice does not want to talk about it, but we are right now “ok, so I feel disappointed in my mom and I will never forgive her, it still stands Robyn that she was with my dad for money. If she cared for me, she would honestly got me back. What you told me made it even worse, why didn’t she say that before huh? Tell me that Robyn, why didn’t she threaten him before why? I would have loved to be bought up with my siblings, you know that. It’s just bullshit, shit is too late. Mami bought me up, how you think I felt when my dad told me my mom let me go to be with him, she didn’t need another child after Nalah and then she had Malik, maybe my dad lied but I was a child. My mom didn’t think of me and you told me that? Where was she when I was a baby and I needed a mother, she is a bitch, she is a stupid useless money grabbing bitch and I will never like her. I will just put face with her, I told my dad to not hit her because you don’t hit women, but other then that fuck her. So now you know, I am going to get changed” Maurice stormed off, he needs to stop calling her this. I need to personally know who Joy is, I don’t think a mother would be like that. I don’t see it, he is seeing and feeling what his dad fed him.

I knew Reign would wake up; she wants her milk now. She usually likes holding her own bottle but not this time, she wants me to do it “did you miss mommy?” Reign is just staring at me as she drinks her milk “well I did, put your baby grow on once you fall asleep” looking back up at the TV, catching up with The Kardashian’s, I love trash TV and I am behind on episodes. I am trying to concentrate on this, but my mind is on this issue with Joy and Maurice, I mean for him to say to his dad don’t hit her, he does care. There is some care there, there has to be, but he is hurt, and I understand. The bathroom door opened, looking over at him and I had to double take “really? What if I so happened to let Jay come in? Walking around butt naked for?” I asked frowning at him “I am air drying, I can’t be bothered to dry myself so I am walking around to dry myself” shaking my head looking back at the TV “well don’t come here all wet, Reign is settling down” I don’t want his bare ass all in my face “I thought she was sleeping?” he asked, I don’t appreciate him stood there naked “you’re not sexy at all, stop it and she woke up. She didn’t have her milk that is why. So, are you going to dry yourself so we can talk?” Maurice groaned out walking off “I don’t want to talk Robyn, just let’s think about your family. Not mine” he wants to divert the conversation.

Maurice is finally back but with some boxers on “better, didn’t want to see that tiny sausage” Maurice jumped on the bed “hey! Watch it, Reign is there” my poor daughter got scared, he is so stupid “turn this shit off though, it’s wack” Maurice pointed “no, and also. I feel you have gained weight” Maurice frowned at me “also, this big dick be making you moan so loudly, don’t give me that shit, you can’t sit there and tell me my dick is small” shaking my head while watching The Kardashian’s still “your dick is small” I repeated “Maurice!” I shouted, watching the projector fold away “are you being real? Give me the remote now” holding my hand out “you said I am fat and my dick is small” I couldn’t help but laugh “so, give me” Maurice shook his head “ok fine, let’s talk” I said, Maurice rolled his eyes “about what? You know how I feel” reaching my hand over, placing my hand at the side of Maurice’ face “I feel like you do care, somewhere in your heart you do. You’re hurt and I get it. I have been thinking and Paula can visit, she can’t stay. Deal?” Maurice is not happy with that, I can tell “why the change?” he questioned “because” I dragged out moving my hand “I thought back to Spain, I saw the happiness in your eyes. I see you do love her, I don’t want to ruin that for you, she was nice to me but I can’t accept you saying bitch to your mom” I thought until I do my own research with Joy, I will leave it “I can take that, but are you excited about tomorrow. The meal?” nodding my head “thank you, you supported me. I love you so much” Maurice got up and started to crawl over to me “watch Reign will you” Maurice growled before licking the side of my face “Maurice” I laughed before nearly falling off the bed “I swear, you’re so bad” turning my face to him, he pressed a kiss to my lips “Latin mama, I see you” I chuckled “who would have thought” I said laughing.

Reign is really fighting me on this “Reign! Stop it, let mommy see your teeth coming through!” I spat, Reign screamed out “Pootie!” I have Maurice humping and Reign fighting me, she does not want me to see it “ok, fine. Mommy won’t look, calm down” moving back “why do you have to be like this?” looking behind me “I just saw your tee ride up and I was like I need hump her” playfully hitting his arm “dog” Maurice pointed at my phone, looking to the side table seeing my mom calling “woah!” Maurice flew by me, looking to the bed and seeing Maurice just only caught Reign “oh god, Reign” I totally neglected her there but Reign wasn’t phased by it, she giggled because Maurice caught her, she thought it was a game “it’s ok, mommy is bad” side eyeing Maurice “that bedroom better be done! Hi mommy” AI is here so the room has to be done now “Robbie, I didn’t want to call you yesterday because it was a big day but I have been stressed thinking about you, how was it baby?” bless my mother “well I was waiting for you to pick up but you didn’t call, what can I say mom. You was so right in saying he was a good man, I understand why you cried speaking about him” my mother breathed out “now you know baby, he was a great guy. How were they, please tell me” sitting on the edge of the bed “so nice mom, they are so appreciative of me. Daphne said she felt it in her heart that her son lived on and mom! He reminded me Reign as a baby, they showed me his baby picture and he had a bald patch the exact place Reign did, Wesley is Latin, well half Latin. I met Kiano. Mom, they are everything, I feel so complete” I can’t stop speaking “oh Robbie! I am sorry I kept them away from you, I just at that time I felt scared” my mom explained “don’t, it’s ok. Do not explain anything mommy, I don’t blame you but I feel happy, to see pictures of my dad” the name dad came out of my mouth “I wish I never did what I did Robbie, but I never thought Thomas would have changed” sighing out “mom I think you deserve better, I feel like you’re going to Thomas because you don’t want to start again. I don’t want you to be with Thomas” Maurice’ eyes widened overhearing what I am saying “tell me I am wrong mom, he hurt you like he did me. He made you tell secrets you held in your heart out, he did that to you. Mom listen to me, you can do better” my mom is ever so silent on the phone “Robbie, I am going to try. Let me try this again, if I don’t feel it’s right I will leave, please. I am so happy for you, I am happy that you saw your dad like I did” I wish she doesn’t “you loved him, not Thomas” my mom sighed out “I know” she admitted, and I am glad she admitted it.

Reign is banging on that tray on her high chair and will not stop doing it, I swear to god that baby of mine “Jay, Robyn says I have gained weight, what do you think?” here is he goes, placing Maurice’ plate in front of him “shut up and eat, always complaining. I made you waffles and steak! Watch it, and you Jay” placing his plate down “oh wow, Robyn this looks so nice. Marry her!!” Jay said so excited “I will think about it, this steak is a little burnt too” see what I mean with him “nah, I would marry her. I would marry any woman doing this for me!” Jay pointed at his plate, I feel so good, like a good wife “Jay, it’s fine. Maybe you and I can get married” sitting down with my plate “and you! Stop it” holding her hands, Reign is a drooling mess “this is your daughter, look at her” I can’t get angry at her at all, she is too damn cute “Maurice, oh wow. This smells delicious” AI said “made by yours truly!” I grinned “come on baby hype me up” I said “yeah, yeah whatever. Anyways are you done? Do you know how much she has been complaining?” AI laughed “I promise, it’s done. Officially but you are all eating, I will wait. I want to see everyone’ reaction” I am so happy my daughter’ room is made “well let me eat this and I will check, baby your room is done” I can finally have things back to normal.

I need to give Reign a bath, she is a mess. She wants to feed herself and the rest of her body while she is at it “let’s see what daddy done for you baby, this bedroom better be spectacular, I expect Mickey Mouse to be waiting” they are laughing but the amount of time they took “I can only apologise, we was going back and forth and we had to do a lot of changes but then we decided on something with the designers, Maurice doesn’t even know but we had to change a lot, first design didn’t go to plan so we changed it up, are we ready?” AI said, nodding my head “Reign and I are excited aren’t we, little stink” AI stood in front of me pushing the double doors open “and welcome to Reign-Texas world” AI moved out of the way, my eyes widened “oh my” stepping inside her bedroom, a chandelier in the middle of the room, the whites and light pink “oh my god” this is a like a princess’s paradise “we incorporated a bed for Reign just under the princess tower” turning to AI “she can walk up these steps, like she is walking up a real castle” watching AI walk up the steps “ and here, she has a castle doll house for when she grows up, so what happened is that we thought on it and we goes Reign needs a crib, she is not old enough so if you look behind you, she has a baby crib which when she is ready you can get rid of that. This room is ready for her, her princess dream room. There is nothing more she could want. As you can see from the sign, it says Reign-Texas world. The back of the room she has her own bathroom, we changed it up, to be pink themed, made it so when she is training to use the potty everything is accessible, then her walk in closet. We did already move the clothes, and Maurice set that out for her” I am in shock, I get why it took so long “Reign, look at this. Oh my god, I am sorry. I see why, this is one hundred times better then her room in Cali, you are amazing. I am in shock, she is going to love it” Reign whined out pointing “yes, is that Minnie, you want her” waling over to the side “this is yours, daddy did this for you. Ok, I will stop complaining” I laughed “you damn right, AI outdone himself. Thank you” Maurice said, Reign hugged Minnie so close. Maurice walked up to us “can daddy have a hug?” He got his hands out to Reign “you go to daddy” letting Maurice take her “I am so happy, her room is beautiful” moving back “Maurice stand just under the sign” getting my phone out “awww shit, it’s daddy daughter photo shoot Mi Amor” holding my phone up smiling, Maurice placed Reign on his shoulder but held her so she won’t fall back “you like that?” Maurice laughed looking up at her, I took the picture quickly “I love that you both are so photogenic” tapping on Insta, tapping onto the plus sign and adding the picture, captioning the picture ‘Weeks later and Reign-Texas world is now open!’ Pressing send, that picture is too damn cute.

We left Reign with Jay, she is asleep anyways so he just needs to watch the monitors and hear out for her, I am happy she has her own room because now she is in her crib asleep instead of being asleep on the couch waiting for us to go to bed, I prefer it that way and I am happy. I decided I wanted to put Reign to sleep before I go, I said I would meet them at the bar in the hotel for a while, I wanted to put Reign asleep and fed first “thank you for coming with me again” I said to Maurice, he didn’t need too “I would always come with you, you know that. Least we haven’t got Jay, that is one thing huh” watching Maurice as he waved to the receptionists “are you back again?” one of them shouted “I decided I missed you all, have a nice night” he is calmed down so much with his flirtatious ways, it’s none existent and I don’t feel jealous like I would “it’s nice you have a relationship with them like that” I mentioned “you see, some of them have been there since my dad, and he never bothered with them. Keep your workers happy” letting Maurice lead the way “are you wanting a drink?” Maurice asked me “erm, just get me a cocktail, anything nice” I said, Maurice let my hand go as he walked off “I am sorry that I had to reschedule” I said as I made my way to the table “it’s ok, you had to put the baby to sleep. How are you?” Wesley said, sitting down “I am ok thank you, what about yourself? Is New York treating you both well? Is Daphne not awake?” I asked because she is not here “she is not well my mom, so it’s just us tonight. She said she is sad to not see you and she will see you soon” nodding my head “I hope so, yesterday was emotional. I wanted to ask, if you can send me some pictures of Rell?” I asked Kiano “of course, I will do that” he is so sweet “my sister asked, I told her and she is very excited to see you, hi. Nice to see you again” seeing Maurice pulling a seat out, he’s shaking their hands this time around.

Makes me smile that Maurice has water, this is why I know he has changed “I want to invite you and your family to our home on Cinco De Mayo, we will have all of the family there, we eat food and have fun. I want to show you to my family, but if you not ready I will understand” I giggled “erm, I would have but it’s Maurice’ birthday at the same time, and we are celebrating or I mean we could drop in” looking at Maurice “we will be in California, for business. You should be coming” Maurice looked at me “I should be?” I said confused “yeah, I don’t mind it. We should be in the area, we can come” I didn’t know this at all “then that is it, you can come!” Wesley spat “I guess we can, it’s overwhelming. Just to feel the love you hold for Rell, the love you already hold for me. It means so much to me, and I know Maurice said it too, he said that how nice you all are, how hurt you are by Rell’ death. It is just something I needed too, you know to find out that Thomas was not my dad and then to find out my real dad is dead, it hurt me. I felt lied too, I was hurt but I am hurt still because I feel like I need to lay some flowers down at his grave, to feel I have family that like me, it’s a good feeling” I feel a lot right now “I can take you there, it’s crazy that this happened but it’s a blessing. It makes me happy, to see my brother in you. I can just imagine him now, he would be over the moon. His daughter a surgeon and I know he would have loved the name Robyn, I think you are the blessing we needed to heal us all” Kiano said, I just want us to heal together. I am happy that I got to know the truth, I can be less hurt now because I thought my dad called me a whore, when he is nothing to me so I am over that.