#This is insane to say but that one greentext about a depressed man recovering because of his shrimp farm really put things into perspective

[homosadist]

it's really heartwarming to know that you know about how much you matter to people... even from a distant glance, from being acquainted with you, to being your friend... :) how blessed the people in your life who you are with must be.. 🤍

I had to pull myself out of the "NOBODY LIKES ME" mindset by the hair because I realized that was such a disservice, if not a total spit in the face to people who love me. I know if I started saying that I don't feel loved by anyone, it would hurt my boyfriend, my chosen family, my closest friends. I don't want them to feel as if they haven't "done enough" for me, or whatever. Sometimes I do feel fundamentally unlovable but I would never tell someone they don't actually love me...I've been on the receiving end of that plenty of times with plenty of different people, and every single incident feels like a punch to the gut. I know I'm loved, I know I matter to people, I wouldn't want them to ever doubt that I value that love....as much as being loved can be painful. I'm rambling at this point but, if I can't see myself as "worthy" in my own eyes, it's nice to remind myself that in the eyes of others, I'm more than enough. If I can't live for myself, I'll live for them.