#They really deserved their happy ending and im glad we got episode 16 of them being together

[justablogger234]

A fun recap

of Ryu Sunjae being "pure like oxygen"

[bookns]

Perfection reaction:

I don’t know anything and I mean NOTHING about this episode

Have I mentioned how much I love Nathaniel and Marc

I LOVE MOO

Kagami my girl deserves so much better right now

HE WROTE HER A SONG

Not the ex’s helping (this is fueling my Kagami and Luka headcannon)

NOT EVERYONE HELPING

The way they all accept kagami as their friend. I love it SO MUCH

“Does anyone have dolphins.” - Kim (I love Kim)

Marinette is ‘Your on my own, kid”

kagami being proud of Adrien is everything I never knew I needed

This is giving me flashbacks to the Christmas special- HELP ME

“Emotion”

DOLPHIN

I’m cringing

Why is that the most dramatic ever (and I’m saying this as someone who watched the Christmas Special multiple times because she was deprived of content)

I NEED THE MOO

Alya..KAGAMI I love you both

She is feeling the pressure - Alya is the most amazing best friend

Poor ‘Gami’

This idiot (Marinette)

MY GAMI

MY POOR KID

okay Lila go fuck off

No shit Marinette you went to as ladybug escape Adrien

Hawky shut up you friendless lonely ass motherfucker

Bro Adrien is the best in this episode

ITS IN KAGAMI RING - this is BAD VERY BAD

Why does monarch look like that - egg motherfucker

Not kagami getting her O.G miraculous thingy as her villain

Her design tho is so cool

I love marinette (woohoo I knew I was right to transform) (did I really just be joyful over someone being akumatized)

“Disappoint someone” - Kagami is a mirrorball

Bro I love this episode

Kagami is me

Bro these powers are so cool

Marinette is so right - people can have trouble communicating

“Oh I think she’s expressing herself very clearly” (says that while being thrown off a street lamp due to Kagami’s thunderstorm”

Bringette>>> (I forgot her actual name)

“Yohoo I know you can’t hear me but im here to bother you anyway” (I love this cat kid so much)

Nah because this is so cute

“I don’t want to be alone anymore.” - my ‘Gami’

She rejected the mega-akuma bro

I love kagami so much. Im so glad we got a Kagami episode

Kagami and Marinette are so similar and OH MY GOD I I LOVE THEM

“The love you have for your friends isn’t divided. It’s multiplied.” Wish someone told me that at 14 and at 16

Alya saying that kagami can call her just as much for company instead of marinette (I fucking love Alya)

My babes is so happy

Evil bitch (Lila)

Marinette would love Anti-Hero so MUCH

YES KAGAMI MOM YES

AS YOU SHOULD

Beat THAT WHITE ASS PALE ASS SYTLELESS BITCH

Bro what is their history

What is their agreement

I miss doing these. I haven’t done any since season 4 (I got burnt out by the end) and I’m happy to do them now.

[fondofeveryprickle]

crash landing on you episode 16 😭😭😭 I can't believe it's over

I don't even know what I'm feeling.

first of all I'm happy we got a happy ending. that's all I needed after all the suffering.

I kept crying the whole episode.

this is not my favourite episode, but it was very good to show all the characters and what happened to them.

having Se-ri's mom offer to take her to say goodbye to Jeong Hyeok was so nice (her mother really decided she would start doing a better job as a mom, I'm happy). I loved that the south Koreans were all romantic waiting for her to arrive so they could have a goodbye. that was so nice.

I also loved that they offered the boys help to stay in the south if they wanted to. I really believe the only reason they said no was because of their families.

is Seung-Jun really dead? at first I really thought so, but then she said they parted ways and he went far away, but then I believed again he died. I was sad, I liked him, and I really believe Seo Dan finally understood she was never really in love with Jeong Hyeok.

and how could she be??? they never really talked and he never really paid attention to her. I'm glad her mother understood that and helped her daughter.

the messages!!!!!!! I couldnt stop crying. that was some "ps: I love you" bullshit. at first I really thought he found a way to communicate with her 😭😭😭😭 I liked his messages because they were all really upbeat and helping her have a good life. but they were so sad as well.

I'm really glad she got closer to her people, and that she was more approachable, and she was even eating with them and laughing. that was great.

the women in the village!!!!! ❤ ❤ she made them all a homage!!! and she called it saudade. 😭😭 how beautiful was it!!!!

I was also happy that Pyo Chi-soo was made captain. he deserved it. and I'm glad the boys are okay, but they miss Se-ri. they called her sister. that was so perfect Im gonna cry again

but wtf was that last message Jeong Hyeok??? we will meet one day again in the country of the flowers if fate permits???? fuck fate, make it happen.

they only found each other again after 2 or 3 years, right?

but that last scene was so beautiful. both of them together living their best life.

[koyurim]

its okay to not be okay 15-16 (fin)

the payoff of a tightly-woven, effective story is the happy ending feels so earned and emotional. even though we’re saying goodbye to our trio, i know that they’re going to be staying in my heart for a very long time. 

cw: blood, choking, attempted murder

in these last two episodes we get a bunch of satisfying reversals!!!!!!!!! now that moon-young is trying to create distance between her and the moon brothers, the moon brothers are the one who stubbornly stick to her side. typically, i despise the ‘we must separate bc you wont ever be happy with me’ plot device that typically appears at the tail end of a drama, but this felt really in line with moon-young’s growth and ability to understand herself. in the beginning, moon-young does whatever she wants without regard to how she imposes herself on others, however, with her mother’s reappearance, she really pulls back because she now sees that she can cause harm AND she cares about kang-tae/sang-tae and DOESNT want to harm them anymore!!!!! so this withdrawal didn’t feel pointless/just there to create drama. 

however, as kang-tae learns from director o, just because we harm and are harmed, doesn’t mean we can live alone (humans are social creatures). human relationships are messy and hard and acknowledging that your relationship wont be perfect, but that doesn’t mean you’re not willing to put in the work to be messy together!!!!!! kang-tae winds up saying many of moon-young’s former lines to her, and in this way, she sees that her impact on him is not just a negative one. his confession was a hilarious and powerful moment where we see how much he’s learned to lean into his emotions and how much restraint shes grown herself. she’s helped him grow so much and he’s willing to fight for them to be together even though it may be a hard path to overcome the reality of what happened with their mothers. 

moon-young also gets love from everyone around her, from sang-tae, juri and her mom, and jae-su. and this community helps her understand that the warmth we show each other keeps us going and keeps us grounded. and she decides to accept the love they give her into her life. from accepting this love and learning that she has the capacity to love, i think moon-young’s reached a point in her journey where she no longer has to write fairy tales to communicate with the world. and im SO PROUD of her. 

and through this, we at last, we get our HAPPY ending!! but this ending is not theirs, it’s only their beginning. as juri’s mom says, they all have a lot of learning and growing left to do, but they’re now in the position where they can actively pursue that instead of just coping!!! kang-tae can learn to nurture himself and pursue what he wants in his future studies. sang-tae is learning to be independent and grow up apart from his brother. these brothers finally have developed a secure enough attachment, where the show can end with them parting ways for the first time in their lives. and moon-young gets to have the family that she didnt grow up with and live with the care of those around her/that exists within herself. they still fight and bicker, but they also get a chance to BREATHE now that theyve formed healthy boundaries. their camping trip feels like a reset before they face the world again on their own terms, to find their own happiness. 

our side characters also get the conclusions they deserve!!!!! particularly JAE-SU!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so happy he got the recognition for being such an amazing friend to kang-tae all these years. when kang-tae finally called him hyung, we see how much kang-tae’s grown to understand having a big brother is not a curse/burden. and he finally is at a place where he can accept all the love that jae-su gives him. jae-su also gets a great moment with sang-tae where sang-tae decides to quit. we see that jae-su has also been relying on the moon brothers for company and friendship, but now they’re all at a place where they can healthily pursue their own paths while still holding each other in their lives. im excited for jae-su to make his own life!!! 

juri’s mom also gets the appreciation she deserves from the moon brothers, as their ‘fake real mom’. she’s truly the BEST mom in the world! she doesnt try to control any of the characters and just speaks truthfully to them, encouraging them to grow while looking out for them!!!! ugh! juri’s a lucky daughter. 

juri and sang-in’s ending was also cute enough for me, but not too much! i think their relationship will be slow going and im glad that nothing was rushed. the decision to stay in the countryside was also nice, i love that we dont have to ‘go back to the city’ to resume/have lives that are worth living. 

we also get to see how much the patients have grown on their journey. there’s still lots of healing to be had for each of them, but they’ve grown so much. it was heartwarming to see old patients come back and smile with each other, they’ve all formed a really supportive community. and (again) im so proud. 

overall, this finale felt so well earned. the growth didn’t come out of no where and the emotions were all so raw and human. i still didn’t believe that nurse park was moon-young’s mom, but i dont think the point is how believable that part is, rather the focus and point is the emotions that moon-young goes through when she faces her mother who’s haunted her for so long. even though, i wasnt convinced by how moon-young’s mom became nurse park, i was glad the show didnt focus on those logistics, because, truthfully, they are irrelevant to our character’s growth and journey. i keep saying this over and over again, but i am in love with the emotional journey and growth that this show took us on. the story was so well planned and written and i think there were very few missteps in the drama. im so sad to part ways with the troublesome trio, but i know they’re going to be starting journeys to find their own paths and they’ll all have each other along the way.

additionally, when it comes to moon-young and kang-tae’s relationship, i really appreciated the frankness that the show approached sex and intimacy. it wasn’t some taboo subject, but it wasn’t overhyped/things weren’t needlessly sexualized. also once, moon-young and kang-tae settle, touch is effortless/not made into such a big deal and their comfortability with each other was a fantastic touch. i can continue to see them growing with each other, calling each other out on the other’s bullshit, loving and supporting one another, and finding new adventures each day together.

thank you to moon-young, kang-tae, sang-tae, and the rest of the cast and crew for your vulnerability in bringing us along with you on your journey.  i wish you all the best!! 

[sunlightnmoonshine]

Ep 15 (should have been titled bloodbath or the most intense ep I've ever watched)

I cant even seem to collect my thoughts to attempt to write anything on what this ep was. But I shall try because this ep deserves so much analysis.

I think it's almost clear just how much I love Eunseom and wait for scenes with him but this ep managed to hit me even though we probs had less than five minutes of him in it.

You want cold blooded murder? Yeah arthdal chronicles is the show for you. I've always known tagon is trash and nothing short of a whiny brat but even I couldn't predict that he'd react the way that he did (maybe because I hoped that he'd be respectable trash yknow guess that doesn't exist though)

I knew this ep was going to be a bloodbath but I really didn't see all that happened coming. From tagon slashing every single person at inception to that wahan trash beating people by the end of this ep. I did not expect all that they delivered. Jeez tagon I cant wait for eunseom to beat the shit out of you (something tells me though that this will not be his end). No one can ever try to justify what tagon did. It was cruel and uncalled for. I can understand although I do not condone him killing asa ron and the children of shahati or those of white mountain peak but the ministers?? What the hell. He really said screw ya'll I'm about to have a temper tantrum and went at it. Like I've been saying since ep 1, tagon is nothing but trash desperate for attention and he's going to get that one way or the other. Him whining about how he's tried to be good all these years lol I actually laughed out loud because it was the most ridiculous shit I'd ever heard. The guy is beyond delusional and I hope he meets an end truly befitting.

Im actually surprised that they managed to keep hidden the fact that he's an igutu. Does tagon really think the daekhan forces would keep supporting him if they knew? What a pathetic fool. He legit just used his igutu abilities to kill people and then went back to pretending like he's some hero shoving his igutu nature aside. I'd at least think he'd be able to salvage something about his worth by owning up to the fact that he's an igutu but nope, tagon really needs to start carrying a board that reads "I am trash" because that is all he is.

Regardless I enjoy watching his madness. Its amusing to say the least and tagon and taealha share a deep love. No show has portrayed one quite like there's and there's so much to praise of it. I'm glad we got to see taealha fight although the choreography of the fighting was quite good I do think shows need to understand that when jumped by a group they don't attack you one by one because this obviously makes it easier for the individual. Nevertheless they managed to cover it up but there's room for improvement.

All things said and done taealha is most certainly going to go down quite bitterly with tagon, one that she is most deserving of so when the time comes I'll bid the two of them good bye with a happy heart. I've hope that arthdal chronicles will deliver with their ends because THEY SURE AS HELL HANDLED MUGWANGS DEATH FANTASTICALLY.

I've been waiting for this moment since ep 1 and it has finally arrived. Better yet it was completely worth the wait. I'd certainly been wondering how tanyas prophecy for him was going to play out and I think we'd all kind of understood that it was a neanthal who would be killing him but what better person for the task than nunbyeol!? I can't even begin to explain how ecstatic I was during that scene. I was yelling "kill him kill him" quite a bit, the neighbours might think I'm crazy oh but who cares when his death was delivered so well.

I was sad that Harim and his wife had to die... They didn't deserve it at all and neither does chaeeun or nunbyeol deserve having to go through that. Taealha really knows no compassion to none but Tagon. Harim saved the one she loved and she really ordered him dead. And since mugwang stupidly followed such orders he got the end he most certainly deserved. I gotta tell ya hearing that hiss and nunbyeols "retreat? You are too late" has gotta be one of the greatest moments in this show. What's so perfect about panning it this way is that it really ties everything together. The flashback we get of mugwang and mubaek and yet mugwang choosing to ignore those words even though he had absolutely no idea what Harim knew, hell Harim hadn't done anything at all he'd just saved his leader and yet. And yet, he still chose foolishness.

What adds to perfection is that it's nunbyeol who kills him. The very person mubaek chose to spare. She had every right to kill mugwang no doubt but the question that stands now is what will mubaek do? His little pathetic brother just died at the hands of a neanthal he spared. What's even better is that nunbyeol is completely one of a kind being the only sword bearing neanthal. I guess she might end up going back to the neanthals. The last ep already depicted that she might after all. Now chaeeun and nunbyeol have further reason to want tagons demise. Really tagon gains all this hate solely by his own actions, his lack of pro activeness will be his demise. Mugwangs death was completely satisfactory. I'm still extremely excited about it.

On a side note, what's with yangcha? And his change involving Tanya. Its one thing to follow Tagons orders but he also instantly reacted to tanya being in danger. They also shared that psychic moment WHERE WE FINALLY HEAR HIS VOICE. All I got from that scene however was Tanya saying "my eunseom" my heart combusted at that. But it was good to finally see something of what tanya truly feels especially the flashback she had when looking at yangcha and the change in expression. You can tell she's behaving this way only to gain power. Had saya heard what she has to say though....

I was kind of put off by the fact that she just stood there while the wahan rat beat people up to though(I can't remember his name, I barely care about his existence). But I think the show is clearly depicting that Saya is evil. His kindness exists only as far as things are his way. He's a lot like Tagon but at least he's proud of who he is unlike Tagon the wimp. Seeing his smile though as wahan rat beat people up, things were going his way and it's sad that this is the way he wanted. Saya has always wanted a tyranny situation where the throne would one day be his. I'm stil hoping that he'll make some right choice, I still love him very much and I wish him happiness although he might not be quite deserving of it.

But the tyranny has begun. If only the people knew the wimp that sits on that throne. What's interesting is this tyranny has started with Tagon as a saram while Saya wanted Tagon the igutu. This has interesting implications because it allows one to know that it will never be Tagon who changes how people can view igutus and that's why this show is so wonderful. It's about identity and all that it means (but that's for a different post, probably at the end of the series)

I was disappointed that we got such little of eunseom and the writers are pathetic at handling his situation but I understand why it's being done. We'll finally learn something about Ipsaeng and the preview honours the idea that ep 16 will finally give us answers about the prophecy and I'm ecstatic. The pieces are coming together and maybe we'll get a better explanation on why saya is part of the prophecy when he seems to be a bad influence. It also makes sense why this show chose Mubaek as its narrator and ah I love the poetic nature of this show. Its not without its faults but its wonderful regardless.

Three more episodes to go, and I'm so not ready for this epic finale that's coming our way.

[zombeamik]

OKAY LIVE REACTION TO RIKAS BACKSTORY DLC HERE WE GO

okay so spoilers again lol

okay so i thought when you played the scret ending 1? riaks backstory was free? e-e

HAHA NVM WAS JUST THE FIRST EPISODE time to go buy 330 hour glasses ANYWAYS

okay seriosuly thing for people who dont like Rika, for what she did. You should honestly play her backstory.. it really could clear some things up for you, and it may chnage your mind, just abit hopefully.

you shouldnt just say no to story, just because you don’t like her.

Of course, if you really dont want to read it fine, but it can probably really help.

Episode 1

this god lady sounds like Jaehee tbh SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OH Mina is Rikas real name :3 How cute already liking this. WONT BE ABLE TO AFFORD THE RETS OF IT THOUGH

Mina/Rika, they really didnt deserve what happened to them.

HOLY FCUK I HONESTLY THOUGHT MIKA WAS FUCKING RIKA BUT IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND OKAY OR AM I GETTING TI MIXED UP?

okay gotta buy 330 hours glasses but THEN ILL CONTINUE MY REACTION

OKAY IM BACK TO REACT AND TO CRY OKAY COOL

the game didnt like me buying more hourglasses o it decided to messwith mu audio.

okay had to restart my phone THANKS ANOTHER SETBACK

Episode 2

okay so, i like Mika back here. BUT WHAT I SAW IN THE V ROUTE, thats not cool Mika. you were kinda okay? you were already a little manipulative to a three year old. “My little sister, should always have short hair” how about you shut up. Twins? All she ever wated was to be loved and not taken away from her “Twin”, Maybe thats why she cared so much for Saeran and Saeyoung before she ddi what she did. Mika no, no. You’re the one who put those awful things in Minas/Rikas mind ugh okay i go back to not liking her, that was very fast.

Okay grown up Rika/Mina, okay rika i like you when you arent doing ur creepy eyes. UGH honestly im so mad at Mika, honestly the fuck. CUTE PICTURES OF V AND RIKA YES okay i know, i like V and all but tbh they were cute together.

excuse me V you shouldve said THATS WHY I ADORE UR SUN BC THATS ALL SHE NEEDED TO HEAR, she didnt want to hear that you loved her because of her darkness.  She wnated someone to love her, or show her a tiny bit of warmth so she could find the light inside her. So, so far, Mika is the one who introducded her to this “darkness” SO UNLESS RIKAS BACKSTORY CAN GIVE ME A REASON TO NOT DISLIKE MIKA AND FORGIVE HER I WILL GLADLY TAKE IT.

Episode 3

THATS THE FIRST THING I OPEN UP TO? 

UR SO CREEPY, WHY DID GOD SEND YOU? THE FUCK WHAT KIND OF ASSHOLE ADOPTIVE PARENTS ARE YOU

sorry what?

Mina, Serena

Im glad she went with Rika, I like Mina, but Rika ive gotten used to it. Maybe she’ll go back to Mina one day?

Oh. Okay i dont like Rika/Mina/Serena’s Mother. and the pastor, no wonder she started a cult, i mena look at his outfit. WHAT KIND OF SHITTY PASTOR ARE YOU

NO WONDER SHE STARTED A FUCKING CULT, YOU ARE ALL DOUCHEBAGSSSSSSSS

“NEEDS ALOT OF PRAYERS” how about you shut up, man,  Pastor my fucking ass, Devil worshipper is more fucking likely.

excuse me pastor, your voice in my ears IS FUCKING CREEPY DO YOU MIND

UR LIKE A PERVERT

“ your body has grown, is it satan?” HOW ABOUT YOU MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND LEAVE HER ALONE

yep, i fully understamd now why she created a cult. okay im only on 3 of 8 but still

EXCUSE ME LADY, YOUR DAUGHTER CLEARLY SAID NOT O GOING WITH THE PASTOR LEARN SOME FUCKING MANNERS AND DONT BE A RUDE BITCH

I THOUGHT WE WERE LOOKING FOR HER FATHER?

WHY DID WE FIND MIKA IM SO CONFUSED

oh, her dads the head of the hospital, okay. all good.

YEAH YOU TELL HIM MIKA

YEAH THANK YOU NURSE KICK HIM OUT P[LEASE

WEEE THANKS NURSE

she just wnated to be free from hatred? 

BUT NOBODY WOULD ALLOW HER, THEY KEPT PUSHING HER FURTHER INTO THE DARKNESS

okay gone back to not liking Mika just abit

oh.

now i dont know?

Episode 4

THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR EITHER

Mika had cacner in her eyes.

Mika lived a while though, so her dad must have paid the bills.

MIKA LIED ABOUT THE PHONE NUMBER AND THE ADRESS THE FCUK

Did she really grow up at the orphange? PROBABLY FUCKING NOT

I was just feeling sad for her, but then she did that.

WAIT RIKA HONEY NO ITS NOT YOUR FAULT OF WHAT HAPPENED.

Oh.

so she made V blind because of that?

PUPPY

okay no, no new puppy then.

MS. HEAD OF THE RFA

no v, shes brainwashed him.

THE BOTANICAL GARDEN

No V you should focus on saeyoung because ive turned saeran into somebody i regret now.

Rika no.

you didnt have to shut everyone out, 

he asked you to leave?

Ugh im so confused?

WELL MIKA WAS RIGHT TEACHER THEY WERE BAD PARENTS

GROSS PASTOR PLEASE DONT SAY LITTLE LABM AROUND MINA, THATS CREEPY

Oh.

right yeah, she only separated saeran and saeyoung because of their parents.

Mika, why. 

she didnt have to lie about the orphanage, and then why you said you made Rika think it was all her fault, and then ugh

A FUCKING PUPPY 

WAIT SALLY

SHUT UP MOTHER, ITS A CUTE DOG AND WE BOTH LOVE IT

YEAH SALLY YOU GROWL AT HER

Oh.

I KNEW IT

the pastor is a creep, a pervert, child molester

EXCUSE ME MOTHER?

THATS THE FUCKING RITUAL TO GET SATAN OUT OF HER? 

EXCUSE ME THAT IS FUCKING ILLEGAL PASTOR OR NOT

dont fucking freak out, you told her to leave because you didnt want sally in the house and now your like THE FUCK YOU GOING SERENA HUH? ugh

Rika no, that isnt the right choice.

EXCUS ME MIKA DIED?

THEN WHO THE FUCK WAS THERE WHEN RIKA WAS OLDER

DID MIKA LIE ABOUT DYING?

SALLY UR SO CUTE

oh bad momesnt to mention sally being cute.

listen, all rika every wanted was to love someone.

defo a cult, Believer’s? This some sort of god cult.

WAIT NO SALLY DONT CRY

oh she was 16.

oh dear.

well that was a roller coaster

Episode 5

great she started working a church, and became a nun. even more fantastic

OH SWEET HER NAME IS FINALLY RIKA

I do like the names Mina and Serena but still Rika.

well wjat she thought she was doing was okay. Not wanting anyone to be abandoned?

she just uh turned it into something alot bigger than helping out at a church

She only treated people the way she did was because she didnt know how loving parents acted, so what she thought she was doing was right to her, since she didnt know anything else.

okay so shes 18.

and she wnated to shoe people her light instesd fo her darkness

AN THEN SHE MEETS V

OH THE CLOUD PHOTO, man when she looked at it she said Mother, because thats the first thing that came to mind. 

SHE JUST WNATED TO BE A SUN BUT DIDNT KNOW HOW

SAEYOUNG

WHY DOES TINY SAEYOUNG SOUND LIKE BIG SAEYOUNG

oh

yeah she thought that of she didnt protect saeyoung he’d rot just like Mika.

heh

Oh.

she could see her and mIka in him so she grew attached

she onyl wanted to do good

Rika the Angel but she thought of herself as Rika the Devil ok

Episode 6

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSUNG

okay so she didnt want yoosung to find out about her darkness

Rika honey, its okay. he still would ahve loved you.

Okay so Oh got it okay.

Yoosung is the son of rikas mothers sister,

SHE WAS SO WORRIED HE’D BE RUINED IF HE STAYED CLOSE

RIKA NO DONT OUT YOURSELF DOWN

YOU’RE EQUAL TO YOOSUNG D:

REUSING PHOTOS ARENT YOU CHERITZ OK

BUT HYE V

she couldnt feel anything? well V is both light and dark rika.

man v still doesnt know rikas real name BUT WE DOOOOO

episode 7

Man v ur kinda smooth with words but at the same time like you just met.

V MAKE UP UR FUCKING MIND

okay so she modelled for V and then when she was doing that they didnt talk much? man V atleast tell her she did good. how rude.

ZENNNN

v the fuck you didnt even say goodbye, just IM GONNA GO GRAB MY CAMERA AND THEN FCUKING WALK OFF

V no.

you didnt even compliment her or anything, you just said heres lets take pictures but we aint gonna talk and thn when your done, i aint gonna say you did well or anything like that.

V you kinda an asshole.

NO SALLY

okay shes fine.

V was just curious about me because im not like the rest”

kinda sounds like it,

YES RIKA YOU DO DESERVE THE SUN HONEY

YOU ARE THE SUN I THOUGHT WE ALREADY ESTABLISHED THIS

oh so it was Mina that wanted to be loved.

well shes still a prt of you rika, so that measn you wanted to be loved aswell.

okay so she stopped visiting V

V came to visit her

make up your fuckingmind V

“Heathen Cult”

well yeah basically.

JUMIN

V WHAT THE FUCK

“ can you show me how dark you are?”

HOW ABOUT A FUCKING NO

SHE CLEARLYT SAID NO V

YOU BETTER NOT FUCKING PUSH HER TO SHOW YOU

okay all good

she told V everything

and she scared she;ll end up like Mika.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ANOTHER V AND RIKA PHOTO

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS

WAIT HONEY DONT CRY

MINA YEEE

LAST EPISODE 

wow thats fast.

okay so saeyoung went abroad and then she stopped disagreeing when saeren was saved

then she met Jumin a year later, sweet.

HAPPY ENDING

WELL YOU HAVE ONE NOW RIKA UR HAPPY AND YEEE

okay so then she got her aparement

and then she dint know if things to turn to the worst or the best

well id say the worst but you did save alot of people.

you may have brainwashed them but they would ahve probably died without her help.

MIKA UR STILL ALIVE

UR BLIND THO

OH

YUP OKAY GOT IT

MIKA DIDNT TURST V SO RIKA WAS LIKE OK YEAH I DONT EITHER BC UR ALWAYSSSSSS RIGHT

right.

Mina believed her.

so she agreed.

SO CUTE

WHAT

MIKA NO

USE SAERAN AND YRUN HIM INTO A HACKER

HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT UP MIKA

IM BACK TO NOT LIKING YOU

MINA 

YOU

YOU MANIPULATED MINA INTO DOING YOUR DIRTY WORK

SHE TRUSTED AND YOU

AND YOU USED HER

“I must not use that boy. I must save him”

WELL THANK YOU RIKA

what kind of bullshit is that.

WELL YOU SHOULD DEFIENTLY TELL V BUT WHEN MIKA SAY NO YOU GOTTA AGREE BECAUSE MINA TRUSTS HER

EXCUS EME RIKA

MINA WAS THE LIGHT

mika is the dark

mika just please shut up.

okay she died. thats sad but like

NOT AFTER WHAT YOU DID

CUTE PHOTO OF RIKA YES

Thoughts

thst was um

one crazy ride

AND I WAS THERE FOR IT

so glad i read it.

even if you dont like rika at all

please do

its worth it.

as you can see my thoughts were jumbled in the actual live reaction

but it makes alot of sense kind aof?

im to lazy to write a review so thats the best you’re gonna get.

Its really good, to actually understand why Rika/Mina/Serena turned out the way she was.

i mena i already forgave her in the V ending

but even though she did those bad things, if someone just loved her and didnt feeed her with horrible views of the world, she was still a caring girl even though the darkness took a hold of her,

Im not glad of what happened to her, but if it didnt we would have never even met anyone. so as mucha s i hate to say it, im glad of what happened, and 100% glad we could help her through with it.

Okay, well that was fun.

[jimmycarrhairlinesurgery]

hey abby guess what. 1-30

1: Favorite season?

you KNOW you KNOW a softe bitch loves season 5 its just pure and nice and comforting to watch and also has so many goode episodes and macden moments in it... i literally have the url iasipseasonfive saved like need i say more

2: Favorite character?

its mac... like ofc it is ive loved dennis and dee in the past and of course i still have a soft spot for the trash twins esp their childhoods but mac’s coming out arc is just perfect and he just wants to be a happy boye! honestly it might change but my big three are den dee and mac sorry gruesome twosome 

3: Favorite cast member?

i kin glennato and like LOVE his weird music taste but i have 2 say kaitlin olson shes so present on social media and the utter reverence with which the other cast members speak abt her is just. beautiful! she’s credited with literally saving the show by making dee just as despicable as the rest of the gang she’s a feminist queen and also managed to cuff rmacelhenney like kudos girl! angel queen gorgeous etc

4: OTP?

it’s mac and dennis honestly their relationship can get my heart pounding and it was the main reason i was drawn to the show in the first place... kings of being repressed sexually and emotionally and honestly i related to that feeling of being repressed and in love w your best friend like not to project on characters that have nothing to do w me but they rlly helped me work through some issues!!! im not as ride or die as before because theyve already done so much but fingers crossed for s14 lads

5: BROTP?

ooooo this is difficult bc i love charmac but mac and dee is the friendship we deserve.... she could help him get over his raging misogyny and he could introduce her to the gay lifestyle how perfect would that be?? also i just feel like when they r alone they could be so nice to each other and i want that for them

6: NOTP?

one of them raped the other, what more can i say?

7: answered

8: Least favorite character?

it has to be frank like i get so angry thinking about how he abused dennis and dee as children he has almost zero redeemable qualities but like.. i could learn to love him if mfhp was a turning point... i just can’t ever get over the fact that he owned a sweatshop the joke stuff just isn’t even funny to me it makes me feel ill

9: Least favorite episode?

uhhhh if you’ve seen iasip ranked you’ll know that we ranked a cricket’s tale and frank’s brother as the worst but i’d also like to put up there the gang goes on family fight bc dennis’ breakdown is painfullll... other episodes that hurt me personally are the gang broke dee and how mac got fat

10: Favorite crack ship?

deetress started off as a crackship but it’s become honestly very serious and i hold it v close to my heart... if you don’t believe me watch one single minute of the boggs ladies reboot.... honorable mention is charden 

11: Favorite headcanon?

hhmm i think that one of my favourite ones of all time is dennis is the bar like that was inimitable... also like hc that dee is lesbian bc she is

12: An episode you wish you could change?

all lethal weapon episodes... imagine how iconic they could be and quotable as well if they didn’t include blackface :(

13: An episode you wish you could write?

i want to write a vegas ep for sure.... like imagine also i would NOT do it justice but the episode where mac and dennis first get together, oof actually you’d do a better job of it tbh

14: Favorite thing about the show?

it has to be rcg like what other showrunners would care so much about the fate of the show and adapt it so much as time goes on... as much as i slander them on this website they really created one of the best shows to ever air

15: Least favorite thing about the show?

hmmm aside from all the blackface and the fact that they should have hired black writers if they wanted to address race in the show.... the fact that the gang r being so mean to mac and the whole ddl thing it’s a nightmare why didn’t they tell us what was going on with dennis??

16: Favorite running gag?

charlie’s illiteracy......... iconique also repressed mac was a good gag while it lasted i am glad he is out though

17: Best Mac shirt?

BEAST COAST

18: Best Dennis rant?

hnndg im gonna have to say the whole keeping the skin,, skin glass box thing in season 10 i forget the name of the episode but GOD that kills me every time glenn really went to julliard huh

19: answered

20: answered

21: Favorite end credits message?

idk i never watch the end credits messages! send me your favourites if you have any lads :)

22: A character you’d write off the show?

ngl probably cricket... he really bores me and like a cricket’s tale cemented that i think everything they can do with the character they have done but for longevity they have to keep him so he can supplement the gang’s schemes

23: An actor you want to see on the show (bonus points if you can think of a character for them)?

ooooooooo i’d love if dax sheppard came back on the show!! also i WISH lili reinhardt could come on but as betty from riverdale.. like a 30 second betty from riverdale cameo would be so ideal you have no idea it would be so stupid but like... hh

24: Favorite fic?

Yphrum’s Law by @lesbianfreyja chapter one made me BAWL (andchaos on ao3) and also anything by @macfoundhispride (yennefers on ao3)  and also your fics michelle !!! everyone go check her out she’s peraltiagoisland on ao3 

25: Favorite promo shoot?

the fuckign ingrid bergman one for season 8 i have no idea why they would do that but it’s incredible..... so niche i feel like it was glennato’s idea

26: Best Waitress hair-style?

sexeyyy episode charlie and dee find love her hair was so pretty long but also i love it now im glad she went brunette again good for her!! any waitress hairstyle is a good hairstyle

27: Fluffy hair Mac or hair-gel Mac?

FLUFFY HAIR MAC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?

28: answered in GREAT DETAIL

29: Overrated character?

cricket... not to bash cricket again.... but also frank and charlie are overrated imo i can’t understand why charlie is the show’s darling i’ve never been that interested in him

30: Underrated episode?

the most underrated episode of all time is pop-pop the final solution i love it sm.... GOD it’s so good it truly has everything and like the nazi stuff was well executed.. questions abt life and death,,, deception, ryan gosling? i love it also dennis reynolds an erotic life is amazing 

this took me like an hour and a half michelle i hope you’re happy!! also if you’re still reading thank you for putting up w my bullshit

[soonhoonsol]

hehe use this ask to answer the long rant that i will be sending soon hehe -seojun anon❣️

oooh boy rollercoaster :D

episode 14… i have my trusty little episode 14 recap next to me so i can be sure to get everything that i wanted to talk about hehe. first, i love how confident jugyeong got! like go girl! the way she didn’t wear makeup to school and then told everyone that her and suho were dating!! woohoo!! and poor joon woo *pout* don’t break up with her if you can’t even survive a couple days without her 🥺and stupid soojin. please… and to think that i actually liked her in the beginning. i’m really proud of sooah for standing up for jugyeong in the bathroom. and that sooah x jugyeong scene in the basketball court… we love a healthy friendship! and then the seojun and juyoung part where juyoung cries to seojun and seojun knows exactly how juyoung feels… like my poor team seojun heart.. 🥺 honestly i feel so bad for seojun, but i think what he wants to do is good? valid? like how he wants to confess to jugyeong in order to move on. the music room part where he was watching jugyeong sleep was heartbreaking. and then he tells her that she doesn’t look that different with and without makeup 🥺

okay imma respond to this in parts so i can focus on each paragraph... jugyeong’s confidence...i want that. her friendship with sooah? i want that too T~T joonwoo is too pure for his own good protect his poor soul... but the seojun and juyong scene ouch my poor heart :( seojun is just the nicest lil bean #hanseojunprotectionsquad is a go. and juyong :( i love his character development tho... gowoon give him a chance pls

my favorite part this episode was the jugyeong, sooah, and hyemin fight with those girl. like hyemin is so sweet and i hope these three can be best friends now. and the thing that taehoon says to suho that he’s being clingy and jugyeong won’t like that… i feel like that’s really wrong. like even jugyeong likes it. like in the beginning of a relationship, that’s normal and adorable. oh oh and i love the seojun and suho friendship at that place (what is it called omg) like please you can’t tell me that wasn’t cute? and seojun singing 🤩🥰

omg yes!! hyemin’s character development is great too; also lowkey happy she has speaking lines now. their fight mixed in with the cuts from the video game was hilarious tho i loved it <3 idk much about the clinginess part so idk whether to agree with taehoon or not but i was too focused on the taehoon x suho dynamic. they’re hilarious :D and the suho x seojun scene in the dojo (is that the one you’re thinking of?) where they fought and then went out for food... they’re the cutest. i’m so happy they put aside their differences.

(im sorry i literally keep jumping around with what happened this episode ahh) is it bad if i still feel a little bad for soojin because of what her dad does to her? but i’m still super glad that everyone found out that soojin betrayed jugyeong. like good! and then jugyeong tried to rekindle their friendship and i felt like soojin wanted to too, but she kept up her guard and got upset at jugyeong. and then she cried. i think there’s something more to how soojin is acting and why she’s acting that way. of course, i still hate her.

it’s okay! jump around as much as you want :) i feel bad for her too... soojin should leave her dad... he’s an abusive asshole who has no right being a doctor >:( but yeah i’m glad soojin got her retribution. she deserves it for acting the way she did, but the girl needs serious therapy.

that scene where jugyeong passes her written exam and hugs suho was absolutely adorable!! i definitelyyyyy did not screen record it because suho’s smile was absolutely adorable. i’m devastated oh my gosh 😭😭

omg pls send the video i wish to perish with you </3 eunwoo just has the prettiest smile ever? devastated

THE THE SEOJUN CAFE OR WHATEVER PART WAS DEVASTATING!! jugyeong, i understand but i also don’t. how could you not know seojun likes you 😭and then there’s the suho and jugyeong date at the beach and farm (right? i was a farm, rightt?) and please. my heart is torn because jugyeong is so happy with suho, but seojun 🥺that place where jugyeong was on that swing… i want to go there! like that seems like so much fun!! definitely adding that to the places where i want to visit in the future!! but of course, like all cliche dramas, there’s always a happy part right before the sad part. i really really sense a second season because how can you add the seojun x jugyeong relationship and the seojun idol part in only 2 episodes? like i’d really rather them make another season instead of cramming everything and making it super rushed. the 2 years later part really hurt and made my team seojun heart happy. but that preview… what is happening 😭😭what did you think about this episode? and what do you think will happen? -seojun anon❣️

jugyeong’s innocence is so endearing but i don’t blame her for her cluelessness. like if your friend asked you for relationship advice, the last person you’d think they like is yourself, especially if you’re in a relationship already. but yeah the suho x jugyeong date was so cute (i think it was a farm too) and im highkey shipping them now but seojun </3 UGHHH how can anyone be 100% team suho or team seojun like how T~T 

that swing looks awesome but absolutely terrifying though T~T idk how long kdramas usually run for but yep it seems like a second season is coming... especially since the webtoon hasn’t even ended so... :/

the 2 years later part... now i’m wondering if we’re at the stage where seojun and jugyeong are dating? since suho seems to appear again in the preview so i’m very confused T~T but i think we’re gonna get that scene where seojun kisses her on the staircase! if i remember correctly, at least. i guess suho will return to korea somewhere in the middle of the episode, or it could be a teaser into ep 16 since the producers have done that before (add in scenes from later episodes into the preview) so i can’t be truly sure :((

well this was fun! my brain is working too much right now HAHHA

[survivormagictreehouse]

Episode #16 + Finale “My heart is still like THUDDING” -Ruthie

-I don't think I did so great at the final immunity thing.  I bombed the trivia because I was on the way home from Orlando, with my counting endurance I put 'message one, message two...' in everything when I didn't have to because I second guessed myself so I'm sure I wasted a TON of time doing that and my winterbells score SUCKS lol.  On a positive note I got 8/9 riddles so maybe there is a little bit of hope for me! If I don't win this final immunity I hope Ali will.  It would be best for his game to vote me out with Gavin and Birch but I'm not sure what he will do.  Ali and I have played a REALLY loyal game with one another and I wouldn't fault him at all if he cut me now because I would 100% be a vote for him to win. If I do somehow manage to win I am definitely not voting Ali because if I have to lose to anyone I would rather lose to him.  I'm just kind of done with the whole 'taking people I would win against' thing.  ANYWAY, I definitely won't be upset if I get voted out because that means I can vote for Ali to win and also the anxiety that comes with an FTC and answering questions is not fun.   The last one of these and got to FTC I was SO inactive that I had no idea what was going on and... it was not cute LOL.  SO if I do somehow win this immunity I'm going to like actually prepare something and study up so I don't make too much of a fool of myself haha. If Ali wins I may even request that he just go ahead and vote with the other two or tell him I wouldn't hold it against him because of all the times he has saved me in this game I REALLY want to go hype him up in ponderosa and be a vote for him to win. I just feel in a way that this is not my game to win, it is Ali's and I think I will be happier for him than I would for myself. I don't even know what I'm saying this is just a bunch of me rambling and thinking out loud and like... PANICKING over the fact that I may have to do a FTC and make a speech and answer questions haha. As for my game I think I played a good game but not a GREAT game.  I definitely couldn't have made it this far without Ali so I'm just really glad that I played the game I always wanted with a duo that I could tell everything to and trust and that I didn't end up backstabbing or vise versa! 

-That was honestly not as bad as what I thought it was going to be but I feel like I had the easy end of the deal because people seemed a bit nicer to me with their questions and statements in a way.  And I just really hope that Ali and Birch are okay.  I checked on Ali and I'm about to check in on Birch. I was SO nervous, and I'm still confused about the freaking water shoes I feel like it is some inside joke Chips and I have that I can't freaking remember LOLOL. My heart is still like THUDDING and hurts so much right now, I LOVE playing these games but I hate making it to FTC and having to answer questions and have the world see just how bad my anxiety is just when I think I have it under control.   I will be really happy with an Ali or a Birch win and would LOVE to see most of the jurors in our position right now as well.  This has been such a great game, probably one of my top five favorites and I hope that we all keep up with each other over the next few months. I feel like after this I'm going to go back into hibernation until next summer or a break of some sort but this has been a GREAT game and I hope that a few people come back to the next season of atomic so I can cheer them on.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONL8cfvrRsM

-so the season is done, and the winner reveal is in just over two hours. FTC was literally a rollercoaster, and I have a lot to say to two jurors in particular, but I've decided this final confessional is not the place for it. Timmy and Jess... just know you have a big storm coming. with that said, i have decided doing a negative, resentful final confessional about this game is not reflective of my overall experience this season. so i'm going to focus on some positives: - First and FOREMOST, I wanna big myself up a TINY LITTLE BIT. Just a little bit, dont you worry jury, the self-positive content will be kept to a MINIMUM I know y'all wanna see me suffer. I achieved a lot of milestones this season, idols used to be my fatal flaw as a player but I used THREE EFFECTIVELY this season, I bodied challenges, I attended every tribal except three, voted in the majority at all tribals except one, I was apart of every big move this season without exception and I'm SO proud overall. - Some apologies! First off to Bodhi, i took Lover SO seriously and I'm kind of embarassed that it transitioned into me being so aggressive in how i spoke about him. Bodhi is so so fun and I hate that I became that bitter, resentful person, when he has never done anything to me. So yeah I have amends to make with Bodhi. I also owe Rachael a massive apology for lying so aggressively at Final Five. I also owe Cindi an apology for ever backtracking on holding Timmy Z accountable, in my RoP or at FTC. She deserved better and he deserved nothing. - I wanna say shoutout to Birch and Ruthie. Birch is SUCH a sweetheart, and I think if I lose this season, they are likely winning. Their personal growth was amazing to watch since Montenegro, I'm so proud of them for coming into their own. Ruthie is the ULTIMATE sweetheart, I have so much love for Ruthie's attitude and how she carries herself. Also wanna give love to Gavin/Cindi two others who made this season sm fun for me!! Lastly I wanna thank Olivia and Lukas. Two of the best hosts and people I've met in this community. Two people I knew from day one of Isle of Skye would be PHENOMENAL additions to the community. I have so much admiration and love for the both of them ,could not think of better hosts for my last ever game. anyway time to peace out. i came, i saw, i conquered and im proud ultimately.

So this is my last confessional :( I'm not winning, at least not from what the jury seemed to be saying at FTC, which was rough. I think Ali is winning. I've loved this game, I can't believe it is over.

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[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 16 - “Debbie was right. Never trust a god damn redhead” - Owen

That tribal actually went better than I could have ever expected, even with Owen staying.  Owen definitely only had it set up to play his idol if an idol was played on Cullan, two idols burnt and one was def wasted by Cullan so now he doesn't have it to use later in the game if/when it inevitably comes time to start making hard decisions.  That play also drives Maynor/Timmy/Chips a little closer to me in that 6 person alliance which I absolutely need.  KAIT IS GONE!!!!!  Every round, every day she was buttering me up as jury management, I knew it, she knew it.  That is absolutely annoying, makes me want someone to win even less.  The reason I wanted Owen first was for the simple fact Kait would be more likely to try to work with me than Owen if she knew she was on the bottom.  Oh well, pretty good tribal for me all in all, everything turned up Ian.  

Debbie was right. Never trust a god damn redhead. Me: omg Maynor so cute love my showmance Me: omg Timmy and I putting our shit in the past love him Maynor and Timmy: rihanna.winking.gif In a way I deserve it. I made myself heard these last few votes with pulling together alliances at merge and going after Devon and Ian and even the Venus thing. And I accidentally revealed in the chat that Kait found my idol. It made sense for them to take a shot, although not sure why me and not Kait and matt who are more likeable and powerful lmao Now I’m just like.... okay Devon and Ian got what they wanted which is gross? Timmy and Maynor gonna try to sell this as their move but as far as I’m concerned Devon and Ian own it. I’m sure they capitalized on touchy subjects to make me strong and them weak. Moving forward I just hope that now that Kait is gone there are bigger fish to fry.... I’m gonna get drunk and then deal with this tomorrow lmao Two rounds ago I was stressed choosing between my two closest allies. Now both of them are gone and I’m fucked 😂

I’m shocked Owen knew to play his idol...I need to figure out how that happened. I am happy Kait left in the end though because that’s who I even said in the Ridiculous 6 chat but others wanted Owen and I didn’t feel like pushing too much because either going was fine to me. But 7-3 in the revote was spicy, I think it was Matt that flipped just to be in the majority for his piece of mind. Still don’t really trust him anymore because he’s a liar, but it is what it is. Should be interesting tomorrow when people have more time to talk.

I guess i’ll make one before going to bed cuz Johnny asked. So this challenge was cute. The fishes though were very douchey. Tbh when Timmy told me Ian had 19 million when I had 9 million, I was like Im not winning. I also thought Cullan was going to beast this challenge and get like 100 million. I was shook to find out that I won. And I won the final 9 immunity which means I beat my Guyana placement which is amazing. Im so happy. Now I just need to get further in this game. But first need to see who will be voted out at tribal tomorrow night. No names have been said yet. More updates tomorrow, i promise.

If Cullan's amateur hour costs me MY game for me.... then I guess I deserve it, alliance management is kind of my whole thing in these games. I try to make everyone I'm allied with to feel like I want to go to the top with them. I can fix this, I have too. Why the hell would you tell someone that 4 people already want to vote one way? Quit getting ahead of yourself, think of the future but focus on the round at hand. Single digits is a slow burn and every fucking step has to be precise. If I can manage to keep the "alliance" together Cullan just solidified why I want to sit with him in the end, he won't win.

So I’m still recovering from the real life hangover and survivor hangover of losing Kait and having my little alliance blown into smithereens. I still do trust Maynor and Madison moving forward but I definitely feel there’s less room to hide. All I can really do at this moment is kind of get on board with voting Owen, which btw I wanted to do anyway eventually hehe. Not having kait makes me nervous but I definitely feel less tethered and more free to make moves moving forward and I hope one of them involved actually getting cullans ass out smh I’m telling you he’s gonna win.

Odd day, not really sure what to do. I feel like doing Owen is predictable so I am exploring some options today. I am trying to see what is best for me going forward.  I think Owen Madison and Matt all have the jury votes at this point so getting them out may be good. But long term is that what is best for me, I don’t know. 

I feel lost...like I know what both sides are doing but being in the middle has its drawbacks knowing that maynor and i are on the bottom of both sides then which sucks. I think the best move tonight is to get rid of Owen but who knows what implications that will end up having. Will be interesting.

I had a dream I made a rlly funny confessional and then I woke up to find literally nobody has messaged me back except for Devon who is talking about god knows what I’m literally miserable without Kait. I thought that Maynor and Timmy would easily flip back to us and vote with me matt madison to break up the Devon Cullan Ian thing. But Maynor didn’t answer me all day and madison barely is. Timmy said ‘what moves are to be made’ ???? Matt at least came and told me Cullan said it was me and then told me Maynor and madison are in and they’re talking to timmy. Why are they talking to matt but not me??? It’s fucked up And then I yelled st Cullan and asked if he was just gonna let Devon and Ian drag him to the end and beat him and he was like ‘well I’ll vote them if there’s numbers’ lmao. Bitch idek god I’m tired of him asking me what the vote is all the time like GSKSHDB WHY DO U THINK I HAVE ANY CONTROL THIS ROUND I’m Absolutely about to lose my mind. I’m surprised it’s taken this long for me to snap but I legitimately can’t stand omg. Like I don’t even bother messaging chips or Ian lmao I don’t have anything to talk to them about I wish I could’ve won immunity. If I somehow stay tonight I need to figure something out 

I think Owen is gonna get voted out and if that happens I’m done! But let’s pray chips is going bye bye.

I’m absolutely pissed at Madison and Maynor. Why aren’t they fucking talking to me when they’re apparently telling matt they’ll do stuff???? What the fuck!? Matt is telling me Devon will apparently vote chips. Okay....? Like what do you want me to do or say? You have all the information rn because nobody will message me. I asked Matt if he thought we should still vote Ian and then if Devon rlly votes chips it would be 4-4-1 and I can use my tiebreaker. Matt was like ‘who would they vote I don’t want to make it too complicated’ I DONT KNOW WHO THEYD VOTE UR THE ONE TALKING TO THEM. I appreciate him trying to save me but it’s frustrayinf because I have no stability rn when they just ugh’nnn idk. Why hasn’t he made a group or some shit 

The vote tonight is going to be Owen, most likely. But Matt Madison and Owen wants to do Chips. I dont know if thats a good move. Its better to have Owen gone since he is a huge threat in the game. I just feel bad about voting for him again.

Alright, so here's a hot take of what's been going on with me and this game. Last round the goal was to vote out Owen because he's the biggest threat in a group of four that has been conspiring to control the game - the group is Owen, Kait, Madison, and Matt. The way I see the group breaking down is basically, Owen+Madison and Kait+Matt with each duo having a strong link between the four. A group of six formed to counter these four called the "Ridiculous Six" formed by Devon. It is my understanding that Devon was a "pawn" of the four before defecting after they tried to strike at Ian during the duos vote off. Since he felt "used" he defected and wanted to keep the four from keeping control in creating the group.

The four had control of two hangers-on in the form of Timmy and Maynor that they were using for two extra votes. Since they would potentially have the numbers if those two were to vote with them they let loose a "plan" to vote out Devon when in reality telling those two that they would be voting Cullan in case of telegraphing to Devon to play his idol - Cullan actually had an idol and played it and I think it prompted Owen in playing his. To be honest, I think that Owen sent to his tribe chat that he would play his idol IF Cullan had an idol played on him or played one himself. So no votes counted and then we just went with our second choice in Kait to vote out of the game. She left.

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So the round following the vote seems pretty obvious to me, we need to try and vote out Owen. The group is scared to actually follow through on the vote because they think he will play an idol. I mean, if he does it's another idol burned and makes the vote easier. I know that that means we lose somebody but I dunno, if it were me getting voted out because of it I wouldn't be too pressed getting idoled out. Anyway, Cullan kinda let me know that there's a "secret" other plan to vote out Madison instead since she has a good social game, which I haven't seen. And also Matt is telling people to vote me instead to try and force a tie so that Owen can use his ACTUAL power that we know he has... I dunno man, if we end up voting out Madison instead (because they don't vote Owen) then I might be more flexible in what I do because Owen did that. And if I end up going then woohoo! That makes me 3/3 with getting ninth in a season in a row.

Looks like Devon and I are the middle know. Apparently he wants to get rid of Chips cuz of this hero arc?!?!? Interesting so need to know how he is voting. This is somewhat getting messy between Chips and Owen. Im glad I have immunity.

Ok this vote is SAUCY SAUCY SAUCY! The vote started with me wanting to target Madison as she is a social threat and has connections to maynor who would flip to their side (he already has). Chips became concerned that he wasn't being looped in on the vote so we decided to continue the push towards owen. Matt, madison, and maynor all agreed to vote for Owen but in reality they are voting for chips as that's the most viable option than can convince us to do as he is a "goat". He's a good ally so no way in hell am I voting him out. If owen and the gang survive this vote, they have majority and there will be a clear pecking order especially considering the fact he has a tiebreaker advantage. I feel confident in the five we have to vote for owen

i think im leaving this is all just bad devon apparantly wants chips and it wasd too much to try this forcing a tie shit so now we're just goin with chips which hopefully is enough but someone told cullan it was chips???? lmao so thats fun and i tried convincing cullan to do it but idk this whole thing is kinda fucked up soooo bye bye 

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i wouldnt be so sad about this if kait were still here but there are literally so many personality-less people left in this game and if they get to the end ill literally die. madison and matt rlly about to be all i have left ro root for this is absolutely TRAGIC. imagine the first boot coming back into the game and getting dragged to the end as a goat fksadjfhjf GOD im so sad rn :((((((((((((((((((((((((((99 I WANTED TO DO SOMETHIN ICONIC IN THIS GAME BUT ALL I DID WAS FORGET TO TALK TO PEOPLE AND COMPLAIN at least ill prob win hq words

[portfolio-]

Thoughts about Seven Day Queen, Part 16

Seo No is a fictional character, but there are moments when I wish he were real so I could hate Myung Hye less. I feel like Myung Hye is more human when she's being torn by her feelings and her commitment to the cause. She doesn't seem like a warrior going blind to a battle that way. She doesn't seem like some brainwashed puppet as well. In the preview, it was revealed that she discovered Yeonsangun's hideout. I hope that she would be merciful enough. It would not redeem her to me fully, but at least it would make me empathize to her more.

In relation to that, I don't think I hated characters so bad without a hint of sympathy since I've encountered Deputy Commander Park and Minister Im. Fucking asshole was disrespectful, arrogant, and threatening, as if he were the one wearing the crown. He may be kingmaker, but his morals must be burning in some level of inferno. To support that, my real time thoughts throughout his scenes were "Fucking asshole had the nerve to humiliate the queen. Fucking shithead. Offensive asshole. Fucking asshole. GOOD LORD I HATE THIS MAN." He's an Im Sa Hong in the making, and my god, didn't these Joseon kings ever take a break from the likes of those politicians? It's like he hasn't learned from the reign and fall of Yeonsangun, forgoing justice and savoring the power he thought was in his hands simply because he was family to both king and queen dowager. I'm glad that the king ripped him a new one when he issued the royal edict of him being stripped off his rights as founding contributor to this new era of monarchy, but god damn it. Of course he's got a hold of the crown through the queen dowager, one way or another. Asshole. I hope his character gets killed tonight because he deserved to be disposed of dishonorably.

Before we go to the darker (or the more heartbreaking) parts of this episode, I would like to commend Yeok for giving proper credit to his friends and nanny by giving them titles that they deserved. (Yeok and friends, almost life goals. Chae Gyung and nanny, life goals legit!!)

Anyway, I like that Yeonsangun doesn't end his game undignified. He remains as quick witted as he was, In the absence of the weight of the crown in his head, we saw a more clear-headed Yeonsangun trying to save what family he has left. I am glad that it was the death of Chae Gyung's parents that shook him throughout the rebellion. I also like how his deposed queen bowed to his retreating back. At his core, Yeonsangun is a family man, and the show did a good job fleshing out who he is as a person with or without titles attached. I like that he continually looked after Chae Gyung out of love and his respect for her parents. As the series comes to an end, I thank the writers for the smooth transition of Yeonsangun as an animal and as a human. We saw from the preview that he would most likely die (well he was poisoned while in exile, if I remember it right), and that would definitely break my heart.

(For a moment, I wanted Yeonsangun to be the twisted psychotic he had been in the past few episodes, but </3.)

As for Yeok, I feel bad for him because he gained everything he fought for at the expense of the most important thing in his life. He became king, but his ministers and mother were rallying against the happiness of his personal life. He had to pay the price of Deputy Park murdering his in-laws, almost costing him his marriage. (I like that he paid homage to them for his and Chae Gyung's sake.) He had to save Chae Gyung in the palace all by himself, if you think about it. He replaced one war with another, with the latter about to ruin him. He didn't gain any power to save Chae Gyung, really, which is just pitiable. When Chae Gyung forced his hand to let her go if only to save their love and he realized it, YWJ just nailed that loss and it hurts me so. He knelt in front of Chae Gyung again and again -- when she confronted him of her parents' deaths, when he declared her queen -- which is very symbolic. He owed everything to this woman who had to pay the price for him to gain the throne. Bloody rebellious assholes should remember that.

And to the woman of the hour, Chae Gyung. What else could I say? She was the scapegoat of everything in this show, it was so unfair. I hate and love that the only way to solve their problems was for her to take all the blame. I was very happy that she was rational enough 9even with her little slip) to think through the snail wives' involvement on her parents death, instead submitting herself to her husband because she knows who he is and she believes him over those who try to ruin their marriage. When Chae Gyung took the twig that Yeok once placed on her hair when he proposed. </3 Something is so poignantly heartbreaking with her preferring this ornament over anything else he could give. Their love had always been central in their relationship, in whatever form they meet. Also, it's just symbolic of Yeok walking Chae Gyung out of the palace. It was him who brought her there. It was also him who would cause her deposal.

I don't know anymore. I'm so tired for Chae Gyung. My heart is so heavy with this episode not even Chae Gyung treating the wound she inflicted on Yeok and Yeok stopping from breathing because cough skin to skin contact cough could make me happy. Not even nanny's optimism about their future (PLEASE DON'T KILL NANNY BUT AHHHH).

In Ezekiel 18: 20, "The one who sins is the one who will die. The child will not share the guilt of the parent, nor will the parent share the guilt of the child. The righteousness of the righteous will be credited to them, and the wickedness of the wicked will be charged against them." Chae Gyung is most certainly paying the price of her family's crimes when all she did was love. Life is unfair. I don't think she has a hand in any of this, if my memory about the show serves me right (unlike in some other drama cough rmotm cough). GAAAAH.

</3 to this doomed golden trio (Yeok, Chae Gyung, and Yeonsangun) trying to save each other. These Lee brothers better pay Chae Gyung in whatever form in some other life because they dragged her life into mud in this one. The writers and history did set her up as the key to either the absolution or ruination of both brothers. There is no way out for Chae Gyung. She's the scapegoat of every single fault whatever cause these rebels stand -- whether for the people or for the throne. Chae Gyung knows it. Yeok knows it. And it's so heartbreaking that they are forced to the wall. We, as viewers, are forced to the wall as well for sticking up with our characters. Virtual hugs guys.

P.S. I've seen spoiler photos in instagram about Chae Gyung and Yeok holding children with them wearing garments they used to wear pre-palace life, which just had me curling myself into a ball and staring into space because that's definitely some sort of a dream sequence with the way things are going on right now.

[whateverbroski]

my reaction to the pd101s2 final

(how i struggled watching the last episode)

here was my top11 going into the final, with the bold names the ones who actually made it & their rankings beside it:

1. kim jaehwan (4) 2. lee daehwi (3) 3. kim samuel (18) 4. park woojin (6) 5. kang daniel (1) 6. ong seongwoo (5) 7. yoon jisung (8) 8. bae jinyoung (10) 9. jung sewoon (12) 10. lua guanlin (7)/yoo seonho (17) 11. ahn hyungseob (16)

under the cut are my Feelings™

GOD FUCKING DAMN IT I HAVE FEELINGS

i didn’t watch like the first hour, but i was there for the family reunion, some of the performances, and rankings. when the videos from trainees’ parents appeared, i got super touched. all the trainees looked so happy, and when the parents ACTUALLY came???? i had to stop myself from crying. it was just..... really emotional, because daehwi’s mom came from america, haknyeon’s parents from jeju-do, guanlin’s fam from taiwan!! i just!!! ah!!!!

so, rankings. before anything, i got the most scared for the impending hate some of the trainees would get for making it. for all the shit i gave haknyeon, he ended up growing on me at the very end and it was really horrible how people disliked him to such an extent of sending hate messages & being really uncalled for.... i knew there was a good chance at least one of the F class trainees would make it, and i knew that they’d get the most hate. in all the chats i saw during my streaming misadventures, that much was true.

rankings actually started happening. RANKINGS THAT WERE 80% WAITING, I HAD STOMACH PAINS.... FUCK

my heart honestly, honestly soared when baejin got called. he’s grown so much, he was actually one of my favs since the very beginning because i saw so much potential in him. to see him over the season learn to keep his head up, find friends, smile widely, i just. i was so proud. and then minhyun got called, and i had the worst feeling that only 1 pledis trainee would make it (and that turned out to be true, and i hated that). 

jisung-- jisung getting called for #8 made me happier beyond belief. everyone, literally everyone was happy for him to climb onto the pyramid. HIS PARENTS WERE THERE, TOO, AND THAT WAS EVERYTHING.... guanlin, my kid, i’m proud of him, too...... he gave his speech in 3 languages and didn’t even cry, he’s gonna be the Big & Strong Maknae :’)

ACTUAL TEARS FOR PARK WOOJIN.. my dude apologized for his bad health, like? no, being healthy is the Most Important, we love you, we love you so much and daehwi exposing him and saying how he was crying so much? i love Friendship. ong seongwoo, too, when he stepped up i was so glad!!! he got there!! he!!! did!!!! that!!!!!!!! he was so excited and thankful.... ugh, he deserves the entire world tbh

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND LET’S HEAR IT FOR KIM INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE JAEHWAN LET’S HEAR IT FOR THE L E G E N D honestly???? the entire time i was watching the ranking i was hoping FOR DEAR GOD to have kim jaehwan snatch rank11 and when he got called for #4?? my dude?? DID THAT???? i gasped so loudly, i almost cried, i love him so much!!!! he dedicated his speech to those individual trainees, said that since he made it they can make it, too, aND I’M JUST... I’M NOT OVER HOW GREAT HE IS... I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I WAS SPEECHLESS I STILL AM AND WHEN DAEHWI GOT CALLED TOO,,,, SOMI STARTED SOBBING,, MAN WAS I HOLDING BACK THEM TEARS.,,,.

i realize now that i never had park jihoon on my top11 lmao but i’m okay with him as #2. i didn’t expect him to fall out of the top11. i expect him to grow on me, and also the other members bc he seems like the kind of guy who struggles a bit before being entirely comfortable with people. but the KING of CATS got that #1 spot!!!!!!! KANG DANIEL!!! GOD DANIEL!!!! THE PEACH!!!!!!!!!!! all the hugs he got!!!!!!

in all honesty, i didn’t have sungwoon in my expectations but now that i look at it, i don’t mind it!! he’s a great vocal, he’s risen so much, and i think he’s even more of a dark horse than big woojin was!!! the thing that i hated tho was that for #11, it was between dongho, jonghyun, sewoon, & sungwoon. i know everyone said jonghyun really deserved to be in the top11, from all the work that he’s done for everyone else, but idk how that would fare with jisung already in a leader-like position? imo, it would’ve been cool to see them as co-leaders but :/// idk korea.... i’m sorry for dongho, who was always my fav from nu’est, & sewoon, ponyo boy. 

and for the other trainees i was rooting for but didn’t make it!!! --ahn hyungseob!!! yuehua boy, D class to A, rose dude, pick me dancer, raw egg eater, chair thrower!!!! a trainee with so much life & love.. definitely deserved more recognition for his charms and skills throughout the show :((  --yoo seonho!!!!! Big Cube Chick, piano player, humble boy, clingy teen, young child who just wants to have All The Friends!!!! seeing him grow thru pd101, like guanlin, was so nice to see. i hope he keeps training, trying to reach his dream!! he’s got so much potential!!!!! --KIM SAMUEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there is so much everyone has already said for my brave son, but i.... to add in my two cents, i just want him to BELONG SOMEWHERE. he’s been training so long, and i just. i want him to be happy. lots of people are trying to say how he’ll be successful w/o being in the group, but i can’t take them seriously because... have they seen 1punch? it didn’t work out great. he’s still young, yeah, but he’s already devoted so much to training and!! he deserves so much more!!! than #18!!!!!!!!!!! wtf!!!!

(oh, also need to add, special shoutout to im youngmin because mnet forgot that he, too, is a brand new music trainee and never once panned to him when saying “brand new music trainee”!! to minki, who was one in the same!!! and even haknyeon, who i’ve decided is Nice)

in conclusion, i’m happy but sad. and what kind of name is “wanna one” i’m appalled

[scarletrebel]

a thing about rw.by

this is a whatever. not a meta or a theory or really a well-thought out critique. if anything I guess im just voicing my frustrations. if you like rw.by, please, please dont read this. you wont like what i have to say and i am in no way looking to upset rw.by fans, i just need a good old fashioned shout into the void. theres some things i liked in here too that actually came out whilst writing aha, so its not all my bullshit.

my main gripe with rw.by at the moment is the lack of character development for ruby rose. you know, the main character? which i think is the reason why my heart breaks a little that i dont love it as much as i used to. i identified so much with ruby. a little girl with a heart too big for her brain, who just wants to protect and help, having to come to terms with the fact that the real world doesnt make noble goals like that easy? thats my childhood right there. 

the latter is something that hasnt been touched on as far as ruby rose’s character development goes until this season, and even then it hasnt really been touched, or lightly brushed, its been mentioned. ruby thought saving the world wouldnt take that long, that the world wasnt as big as it is; she apologises to jaune for dragging jnpr along with her. all INCREDIBLE MOMENTS I was really happy about, but they werent expanded upon. it was like the writers wanted to hit a checklist of ‘make sure the audience knows ruby is naive and sad but hopeful’ rather than making it more engaging to learn about as aspects of her character, which is just lazy storytelling. 

show, dont tell. they’ve done that with juane. they’ve shown that he’s upset about phyrra’s death, they’ve shown him get mad at the situation and with qrow. he’s never outright voiced these things about his character like ruby has about herself, and we all knew she was a little naive. season one, weiss accusing ruby of being a bad leader and them showing the audience ruby trying to get better was so much better than just having her be like ‘im a little naive but ill fight for the greater good!’ like she has so blatantly been this series. 

like, why would she not get mad at her own uncle for keeping her in the dark about someone wanting to kill her?? ruby’s what, 16 at this point? 15 at the least? would she not at least be a little bit annoyed, and would that not show some character growth on her part if she was? my naivety ended, personally, when i stopped trying to be so dang optimistic, (this can become more complicated to explain, as obviously you still have to have hope in the world while keeping a level head and ruby is still young, but, thats another conversation) and if that moment hasnt happened for ruby after 1. penny dying 2. phyrra dying 3. her uncle keeping important information from her 4. her sister having her arm sliced off 5. her friends being split up from her 6. nearly dying to a foe way more powerful than she is, even with her silver eyes -- then when?! 

and lets just get it out of the way -- i dont fucking hate juane. i really, really like him as a character but i just fucking wish he got less of a spotlight because so much more attention is being payed to him and his journey and how everything affects him over ruby. it just is, and it sucks. i like theorising about his semblance, im pretty certain he’s really fucking powerful just like ruby is, but if he unlocks and masters his thing before ruby does i will be so pissed, and the only reason i say that is because it feels like thats the way its headed. 

juane is a lovely character. he’s heroic, he’s actually quite brave and smart, and he’s a good fucking friend. he’s a brilliant support character. but for the love of all that is holy, focus more on ruby when they’re in the same scene. about how he’s helping her on her journey, why could they not have had one conversation about phyrra on screen is my question. they did it really, really well it season one, and i was very loud about the fact that no, juane doesnt get more screen time or attention, but during season four it feels like he -- like everyone that isnt ruby or the other three titular characters -- has over ruby. 

just, please, rwby season five -- give ruby rose more character development. prove me fucking wrong and reveal that you were playing the long game, please.

also; i havent watched the last two episodes, but if it turns out the ‘’’cure’’’ to yangs ptsd is a new arm. fuck, man. please no. but i cant really comment on that yet so, we’ll see. i actually, up until seeing the preview for her spraying her arm and all that, really liked yangs journey. and taiyang is such a sweetheart i adore him. he was so patient and gentle and loving with yang, a few moments had me cringing but overall, an enjoyable part of the season. i hope yang gets to punch adam in the face. 

blake’s journey is one ive enjoyed also. and tbh, i think sun following her and thinking she was on a personal mission to take down the white fang is a very sun thing to do, and i think blake surprising us all by saying no im not gonna do that is a very blake thing as well. sun is spontaneous, carefree to a point and very dedicated to taking down bad guys. projecting that onto blake was his mistake, and im really glad that blake is the one to voice the audiences frustrations at how annoying it is that he follows and harrasses her into taking action (even when a part of us knows that she should -- a really, really well written aspect of blakes journey actually, i really liked it) (sun really needs to have a ‘okay im being a creep im really sorry’ moment but i dont see it happening. again; prove me wrong, guys.)

blake so, so needed to see her family. im glad she could see that and im not surprised that she wanted to run under the guise of ‘resting’ like. come on blake, we all know you’re scared shitless. her characterisation was on point, probably the most out of the four girls. blake was a+ in this season and im really happy about that, come to think of it aha. i hope she gets to punch adam too.

weiss im satisfied with too, although i really wish that ironwood and her got to talking. he didnt necesarily need to save the day for her, i would think that a guy fighting her own battles -- even if it is a ‘good one’ like ironwood -- would irk her, so it wouldve been nice for them to talk. (im still fucking salty about juanes ‘you can have her’ to neptune like lmao fuck off you fucking dudebros THAT WAS SO ANNOYING anyway) weiss being able to call off the thing she summoned before it hurt the lady would be a sign that yeah she’s getting strong but she’s learning control, so. shrug. 

papa schnee is an asshole, where is mama schnee?? and i FUCKING LOVED THE PLOT POINT THAT HER DAD MARRIED INTO THE FAMILY. please let this be an opening for a badass but subdued for Reasons mama schnee (although my hope is not that high)

my main, number one, OVERALL problem with rwby since the end of s3 to s4 is that they dont give the characters that need and deserve the most time and attention just that. i know its a small crew, i know that what they do and the time they do it in is amazing and admirable, and i do admire it and applaud it, they work so fucking hard and deserve praise for that. but they dont use their time wisely when it comes to assigning it in the narrative. and thats more of a writing issue, anyway. 

and another fucking thing. the majority of the interesting characters that arent the main four and are alive and have been developed or made mysterious enough to warrant interest from the audience are fucking men. and yeah, no duh jade, welcome to every piece of media for fucking ever. qrow is an asshole that everyone loves, raven is probably going to turn out to be a bitch -- the majority of salem’s ‘court’ or whatever are dudes. ironwood. ren got backstory over nora. blakes dad. adam taurus. for all that i love him, fucking juane. did we learn anything about phyrra that wasnt her explicitly telling us her backstory? no. we felt sad that she died because of her connections with other people, but, lets face it, mostly juane. im still adamant that she didnt die just for him, that she knew there was a bigger picture and genuinely loved him, but from a narrative pov him and his reactions was a bigger focus point especially in the aftermath with season 4. 

(ruby fucking unlocked an ANCIENT POWER BECAUSE SHE SAW PHYRRA DIE AND SHE DOESNT GET TO HAVE THE SAME EMOTIONAL SCENE ABOUT IT THAT JUANE GOT??? PLS LAST TWO EPISODES. GIVE HER THAT AT LEAST. PROVE ME WRONG.) 

i remember at a rwby panel at rtx one year, when asked about making a series that has four female protaganists, the guys said that they didnt see it that way, that they were just writing a story about a bunch of kids and yeah, i get that. but its not. 

its a story about four strong, tested, young women and they need to stop being oblivious to that because the narrative is fucking suffering. 

end rant/

[survivorwesteros]

Episode 7: I feel personally victimized - Luke

why are they abaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

also steffen or drew will win this season bookmark this.

I can't Beloeve

So glad to be back in the game! The amount of shock in the chat was awesome! Hahah I'm just glad I didn't get eliminated without receiving a single vote. Although I know I'll get one now!

First of all I feel personally victimized by the hosts for allowing people to come back. Next I feel personally victimized because Darian came back and he has reason to target me!!! Going forward I'm trusting Drew the most because I love him so much :) Ashley, Steffen and Jordan are also strong allies of mine. I want to target Darian next and then I want either Brian, Lily or Andrew out. Jordan should leave fairly soon too because he's a big threat and that means betraying him but I need to do what I need to do to win.

So I got some kick ass items at auction today. I got a Wildfire, which can reset a round and make all of our challenge results null so we have to do them over. I also got a ride on a dragon thanks to Steffen, even though we don't know about it yet. He got to choose two others to take with him and chose Drew and I, which I really awesome because I am starting to like Steffen a lot. Hopefully we can get closer in the upcoming days. I also got a turkey leg, which gives me an advantage in a challenge up to final five, so that is pretty chill too.

Darian and Lily coming back????? UGLY!!!! KEEP THEM!!!!!!!! But also like I'm rebelling more against the fact of HAVING two people come back than the reality of who they are. If two people were going to come back, they’re DECENT choices because at least they both like me? But they come with their own vendettas against other people I like and it’s a PROBLEMMMMMMM. Darian coming back means the tension between him and Luke is gonna come to a head sooner rather than later. And Lily wants to take out both Andrew and Steffen QUICK because of reasons. Meanwhile WHAT EXACTLY HAS MY ASS BEEN DOING???? Aligning with almost every damn person in the game! Jordan specifically said “i feel like were aligned with too many people at this point. Like we need to actually get on a side” and my internal monologue is laughing because I think I’m connected to even more than he is because I’m with Steffen too???? 

1. Me Ashley Jordan Darian  2. Me Ashley Luke Steffen 3. Me Ashley Andrew  4. Me Ashley Andrew Luke Jordan 5. Me Jordan Lily 

I’m about one second away from starting one with Brian and Nic just for shits. And THEY’RE ALL FUCKING TARGETING EACH OTHER!!!! Luke and Steffen bonded on call over wanting Darian gone and have brought up Jordan’s name, Jordan and Lily want Steffen gone, Lily is PUSHING for Andrew to go and Jordan and I can only keep her at bay for so long, and LITERALLY NO ONE IS BRINGING UP BRIAN AND NIC TO GO like I’m about to upset a whole group of people really quickly. I think my best course of action right now, if Ashley would be open to it, would be to blindside Darian right the fuck back out. I need to convince Jordan that our five-person alliance (listed above as #4) is the most important thing in the world right now because it’s numbers after this vote. It’s also another alliance that I have with both Ashley and Jordan so if they’re on board for the Darian blindside, then we can do it without pissing anyone off. Except Darian but I mean whatever, it’s not like I have to see him at high school the next day (sorry Ashley!!!). And it keeps Luke happy, and I’m all about keeping Luke happy. And it might convince Brian and Nic that we’d go for Lily next and just cleanse the field, and honestly that’d be nice too. 

This is my dream boot list, at least for now (subject to like 18,000 revisions so like take it with the entire container of salt that for some reason is a current Snapchat filter with the Morton’s wig and umbrella) 

10th place: Darian, with the consent of Ashley and Jordan  9th place: Brian because whew comp strength  8th place: Steffen because I don’t know that I can hold Jordan and Lily off any longer on that one 7th place: Nic, to, in the words of Lord Voldemort, kill the spare 6th place: Andrew because he might not see it coming at that time? The kid has been to the Citadel so fucking much, I can’t 5th place and beyond I don’t fucking know yet??? That’s a really tough position to be in because everyone in that final five would potentially want to work to the end with me but they’re all also threats to win. Ashley has been a main co-conspirator since the very beginning for me, but walks in with at least Darian’s vote almost pre-destined. Jordan and I work well together and his reputation often works against him, but I honestly think this isn’t the jury that would hold that against him like Costa Rica did, and he would have Ben’s vote almost pre-destined. Lily’s story could go either way, in that she’d been voted out twice, she doesn’t deserve to win, or that she’s fought back in twice and made it to the end. Especially if people like Steffen and Jordan are on jury, that’s going to really resonate with them as people who have won buybacks and almost won with them before. Luke probably has the least amount of connections from that potential jury pool, but has a great story of being the only foreigner and needing to adapt to our schedules, staying up until 4-5am every night to participate with us when we’re at our most available. Steffen would really respond to that, having played seasons from Norway and understanding the struggle. Honestly I could end up with the worst case to present in any configuration of that five, but I’ll worry about that as we get closer because I think that’s the configuration that best LEADS to me getting to finals. I can argue my way through a lot of things, and if I lose, I lose, I’d be happy losing to any of them. This might be the strongest social game I’ve ever had?? Or I could be wildly delusional and other people have just as many chats with just as many leads and I don’t factor into anyone’s final plans. We’ll see, I guess

Pray for me, it’s gonna be a fucking bumpy ride. 

So Steffen, Drew and I's dragon ride ended with me getting a vote revealer, Drew getting an advantage in a challenge of his choosing, and Steffen got a vote stealer. We all agreed to it and are now in a semi alliance. So this should be interesting.

So I won immunity yay :) Sam got mad at me cause she spent a long time making that challenge and I beat it in 8 minutes so i felt bad and decided to make an actual confessional. Shocking right? Anyways even if I didnt have immunity I think Im in a good spot? like okay, so i have a lot of alliances. I have one with Andrew Drew Luke and Ashley, one with Drew Ashley and Darien, One with Lily and Drew and then i sort of have an alliance with Nic. Meaning I am not aligned with Steffen, meaning ideally Steffen goes. lily told me she has the power to take away someones immunity so thats good that thats on my side. Either way, things are good for Jordan. First confessional done, dont expect another

me to jordan yesterday: lets vote out steffen lily to me today: i was thinking steffen for next tribal 

ok sooo i do think steffen is a big threat and could win but i feel bad about voting him out cause im not invested in this game and idk if he is but he could win so i feel guilty if i vote him out and stay over him r . i. o. p. in peace

well well wel......... this is perfect. darian came to me wanting to blindside a threat so i said drew and now he's doing all the work to get drew sent home :o i spoke to steffen abotu it and hes good and darians gonna try to get andrew/brian/ashley so hopefully that works. 

i have a really good feeling where this is the episode where my edit goes from INV to MOR3

HONESTLYYYYYYYYYYY disregard the boot list, scrap it, move on from it, delete the confessional, it NEVER. HAPPENED.

Lily has gone to Drew, Jordan, Darian and Ashley to try and get me out. Ashley and Darian came clean to me about it and now we’re sorting stuff out now.  darian thing lets him see a random alliance chat don’t like it. Lily is after me, then Brian, then Andrew. Drew has an idol from the citadel so now we’re strategizing. trying to spill that Luke wanted Brian gone. Lily has Drew and Jordan but only Jordan. Nic has to vote Drew. Drew might have to self vote Brian has to vote lily Andrew will vote lily Darian votes Drew Steffen votes lily Ashley votes lily Lily votes SteffenJordan votes Steffen Luke votes TBA 

so Luke came to me with Jordan tea about how now Jordan is voting me out well good job Lily I officially say you can choke now [17:46:00] Luke: So do we know what's happening yet? 

[17:46:08] Jordan (Westeros): no one is talking [17:46:19] Jordan (Westeros): if i didn’t have immunity id be freaking out [17:47:15] Luke: That's why I'm freaking out!! [17:47:23] Jordan (Westeros): i want to target steffen tbh [17:49:39] Luke: Oh wow really? You think that could work? [17:49:49] Jordan (Westeros): i think we could potentially get the voes [17:49:51] Jordan (Westeros): votes 

So screw you Lily, and Jordan next time you go behind my back, be a little more creative you little toad and as soon as Jordan tried to get me to vote out Andrew IM LIKE SURE but then sent those receipts to andrew also I might now have Luke voting out Lily 

[11/30/16, 6:42:48 PM] Brian: [2016-11-30, 11:38:39 AM] Brian: have you heard anything about the vote today? [2016-11-30, 12:19:23 PM] Lily Owen: Yeah, people are planning on Steffen [11/30/16, 6:42:59 PM] Steffen Bøhn: oh yeah [11/30/16, 6:42:59 PM] Brian: [2016-11-30, 6:42:13 PM] Brian: so idk [2016-11-30, 6:42:13 PM] Jordan Pines: no one has said it to me [2016-11-30, 6:42:17 PM] Jordan Pines: ive heard steffen so far [2016-11-30, 6:42:22 PM] Jordan Pines: and i think thats where I’m leaning

I GOT BRIAN SENDING ME SHIT NOW AW HELL YAS 

So I am terrified for this upcoming tribal. Some shit is going to go down. After the auction there are so many items in this game that I can't even keep my head straight.

So Darian got approached by Lily, who said she wanted to get Steffen out. She had this whole hit list and whatnot, and stupidly told Darian a lot of crap. So basically he comes to me and tells me everything. So now we are working with Steffen to try and find a solution... Hopefully all of this stuff is true, because if not, who the hell knows who is leaving tonight.