#They did it in 2017 so maybe they'll do it again

[theirloveisgross]

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[blessyouhawkeye]

in shinee's dms like

[no-goodbyes-no-regrets]

I just hope that if they do bring back Seb that they actually don't talk about his vile mother at all. I stopped watching because of how Aaron was treated in that storyline and bringing back her child is like opening the gates to talking about her again.

I couldn't even enjoy any scenes with him in before because the entire time they were talking about Rebecca and it makes me feel so sad for my little fave Aaron. It's like Robert and Rebecca are the Main Couple and Aaron just the clinger on and it's horrible. Even if she's not in the show she's still there. Robert always put her feelings first because she's the mother of his child, even when she's being a complete vile person. I just want her wiped out and never mentioned again like the virus she is.

Losing Seb would be sad but at least it would draw a line under that horrible story and give Aaron and Robert a chance to have a family that they chose that can't be taken away from them, rather than having to work around her whims and demands.

I know you think he's the only good thing about that story but to a lot of us he is just a constant reminder, as the writers use him as an excuse to make scenes about her. "I can't he has to go back to his mums" "haha Rebecca said this when I dropped him home" "Rebecca doesn't want us doing this with him" etc etc etc even if it doesn't be to be said.

killing her off would be the bare minimum as long as she's not talked about. Aaron would'nt ever be a equal parent if she is alive, or even an equal husband in his own marriage. If Robert comes back with seb it would be exactly the same boring dad Robert who revolves around his son and his sons mother first. Which isn't robron. It's robecca featuring Aaron.

You don't have to respond to this by the way. Sorry.

I know I slept late today but did I wake up in 2017??

Sorry anon, I get what you mean, I used to feel that way too. Throughout rebecca's whole pregnancy I was like "how are they EVER going to fix this?? That baby will always be a reminder of The Incident." But then they showed Rob loving him and putting him first (instead of his schemes), and then AARON falling in love with him because he's Robert's and he loves Robert so he loves his son too.

And after she gave birth (which focused more on bringing Aaron back into the story than her having a baby) rebecca was an afterthought in her own kid's life. Seb was 'used' to bring robron closer together - with Aaron looking after him instead of spending time with his doctor boyfriend (🤣) - Aaron 'rescued' him when rebecca fucked off and nearly burnt Vic's house down, Aaron was the one to suggest Seb moved into the mill, and Aaron referred to himself as his stepdad/parent more than once ("This is about MY HUSBAND and MY STEPSON"). I'm willing to bet Aaron had more scenes with Seb (with or without Robert) than Rebecca did.

And after losing Rob, Seb was the only one who could put a smile on Aaron's face. He loves that little boy.

And even if they don't kill rebecca off off screen... That doesn't mean she'll get mentioned all the time. I mean Ross is supposedly very much alive in off screen land, yet Charity mentioned him maybe once the past year? Jai NEVER mentions Megan and Eliza - not when he and Laurel got married (you'd think he'd want his daughter there, right?), not when Rishi died (he was Eliza's granddad too), David never mentions Priya and Amba (and they left pretty recently), Gabby never talks about Jamie, Kim never talks about the demon child Millie. Vic never mentions Seb OR Robert. (There used to be a picture of Seb in Vic's house but it's gone now.)

So long story short, if they bring back Robert (🤡🤞) I really hope they'll let robron raise Seb AND let them have that football team of kids they talked about (Seb needs siblings!).

[kylesvariouslistsandstuff]

"You gonna talk some more?"

Yeah, some addendums and such, re: Jennifer Lee steps down, Jared Bush takes over as WDAS Chief Creative Officer...

So, she is still at the studio, which tells me that there wasn't any major rift here. That she's still going to direct the next two FROZEN movies and maybe help out on other projects, seems like it was a smooth step-down. I still think having trouble as CCO, STRANGE WORLD and WISH flopping, and filmmakers leaving played a part, but it's not just on her...

Which is why I'm curious about Bush taking the reins. Does anything change? ZOOTOPIA 2, which releases after MOANA 2, is already deep in production and he's writing-directing that. I think we truly get a taste of what Bush's WDAS is with that yet-to-be-revealed original 2026 movie. Lee at least confirmed that for us at D23 last month, before the presentation quickly shifted to FROZEN III, which hits theaters after that. So that one's two years away, and anything can change on its story/character stuff between now and when it enters full production. But when those changes come, they'll be under Bush. If this film, whatever it's called and whatever it's about, isn't nearly completely redone 5 months from release (at the behest of whomever, be it Bush or those focus groups), then we'll know. I think. At least in that regard... And Bush was present for both her and Lasseter's ways of doing things, maybe he watched and learned the don'ts from both leaders' respective tenures...

I think it also has to be emphasized what Lee tried to do in her brief 6-year run... After finishing FROZEN II, the first movie she would truly oversee was RAYA AND THE LAST DRAGON. And right before she heads into that one... COVID-19 happens, and is a national emergency by the first third of RAYA's intended release year - the hell year that was 2020. Meanwhile, the larger Disney company is fired up about their newly-launched Disney+ and tasks WDAS to make "content" (shudder) for the service. So, I gotta give it to Lee there, she did jump head-first into that while working on the big-time movies. While the majority of the stuff was based on previously-released movies, it was still cool! BAYMAX! was fun, and because it wasn't a big budget feature, they got some nice rep into that one (though not w/o the usual fuckfaces making noise about it), and I liked the format of ZOOTOPIA+. And hey, she was willing to partner up with a Nigerian upstart whose founders said they wanted to take Disney on... Savvy move on her part! IWAJU was an okay show to me, but it was neat to see a WDAS collaboration like that. Maybe it opens the door to more. And of course, MOANA 2 began life as a MOANA series, and TIANA's still happening in some way or another. That they chose THE PRINCESS AND THE FROG, a movie that otherwise "disappointed" Disney bean counters back when it came out, to do a sequel series to all those years later... Again, gotta give it to Lee for that.

It's worth noting that WISH seems to be the only released film she greenlit, as development is traced back to 2018. Lasseter couldn't have okayed it that year, given the weird protracted way Disney Co. chose to slowly oust him. STRANGE WORLD, released fall 2022, was in development as far back as early 2017. That was after director Don Hall finished up his work as co-director on MOANA, working with his BIG HERO 6 partner Chris Williams underneath Ron & John. RAYA was conceived by Dean Wellins around 2015, who was supposed to direct it, until Lee removed him and replaced him with Hall and Carlos Lopez Estrada (taking the latter off of an original project of his own). ENCANTO was on the boards as far back as 2016, after Byron Howard and Bush finished up on ZOOTOPIA... So that leaves not only WISH, but MOANA 2/The Series greenlit in 2020, ZOOTOPIA 2, and FROZENs 3 & 4. In late 2019, Lee said that directors Suzi Yoonessi, Carlos Lopez Estrada, Marc Smith, and Josie Trinidad were at work on original movies... Estrada left WDAS after RAYA came out, Smith's on the FROZEN sequels, it is not known if Suzi and Josie's movies ever made it past the announcement stage. (Suzi's Insta bio still says "Director Disney Animation", so it still seems to be a go?) All those years ago, no less...

If Bush greenlights something by the end of the year, I wouldn't expect that film to show up until 2028 at the earliest. So for now, Bush is working with Lee greenlights. Just like Lee did with what Lasseter left her... And funnily enough, about half of Lasseter's run is stuff leftover from the final Eisner years when David Stainton was in charge: A DAY WITH WILBUR ROBINSON, AMERICAN DOG, RAPUNZEL UNBRAIDED, JOE JUMP... You can probably guess what those all became, haha.

So for now, it's gonna be a bit of a long ride. MOANA 2, more than anything, will hold us over, no matter how it turns out. Maybe Lee approached this one differently from WISH and STRANGE WORLD, maybe not. Maybe those two in a row flopping - *especially* WISH given how STRANGE WORLD was straight up abandoned - gave her a real jolt and she went about this movie differently. It's also very possible that Lee was looking to exit some time ago, as some rumblings suggest, and that maybe Lee and Bush lead together and shared duties throughout the year before an official announcement. Who knows!

I myself haven't been blown away by a WDAS movie in a while, and I think the last one I found to be really good was MOANA, ENCANTO did come pretty close in parts, RAYA had its strengths too. I'd love to really love a movie from this studio again, and hey, maybe the return of Moana and pals will be just that? We'll see!

[remyfire]

tbf re the “just because a bigger writer did it better” I think is not so much a deterrent bc plagiarism but more “who is going to pick mine to read vs that” which isn’t a good way to think but is probably a mindset folks have had before

You're right!! I mentioned that because in a past fandom, I had a friend who left her very popular fic unfinished when she left the fandom, and about three years later a new author to the fandom had clearly taken her entire unfinished fic, gone through and changed the wording here and there, and expected nobody to notice, and it still really grinds my gears to think about haha.

That being said, now I am going to ramble about my own personal experiences as a writer in this fandom. I have no idea if this will be helpful for anyone else to read, but my experiences are the only ones I can pull from, so here we go. I'm gonna be referring to the royal you in this, btw, so anon pls don't think I'm just throwing a million paragraphs at you specifically hkdfds

Okay, who is going to pick yours to read versus that other fic? A good thing to remember is that new people come into the fandom all the time. These readers have no idea who the Big Fic Authors are. Sure, sometimes they'll ask for recs or sort the ship tag they're curious about by highest kudos or hits or whatever, but a lot of times they'll just pull up the ship tag and start browsing from whatever was most recently updated, so if your fic that you're nervous about trying a trope out on is the most recently updated one, that's what they're gonna open up. Before you know it, you are the author they associate with that trope, and they're going to remember your fic so incredibly fondly even if they do eventually trip over the Big Fic Author's fic from two or three months or years ago dealing with the same trope. Yours will likely still live larger in their heads because it was their first and they loved it so much.

People typically remember me for two big fics, Scratching the Itch and Just A Drink Away From Honesty. I actually didn't read many fics before I began writing Scratching the Itch because I didn't want my characterization to be influenced by others, so when I discovered that me writing Hawk as inexperienced with men and BJ as experienced with men was counter to fanon, I was incredibly surprised. I got a massive positive response from it. The massage scene in particular received really lovely reviews. Suddenly I was the person a lot of people associated Experienced Beej and Massage Fic with.

Imagine my delight when I did begin reading older fics—ones from 2017 through 2021 or so—and saw, A, a remarkable amount of inexperienced Hawk/experienced Beej and, B, extremely evocative massage-centric fics centering Hawk and BJ. I hadn't actually pioneered anything. I'd simply picked tropes that resonated with me and just wrote. And now I got to go back and read authors who maybe will never know my name but who loved those same tropes and wrote them fucking beautifully. I'm still thrilled to bits about it.

Same with Just A Drink Away From Honesty. Glory holes are my favorite underutilized smut storytelling device. This isn't the first time I've written about one and it won't be the last. Readers ate it up. It's far and above my most popular Trapper and Hawk fic and I imagine it always will be.

Again, I was delighted when I started looking back at older fics and saw a few glory hole ones had already been written. You mean I get to read these and my own? Two cakes!! Two delicious cakes that I am devouring whole!!!

Even more interestingly, when I finally started reading those old '17-'21 fics, I literally began finding phrases that I wrote into my fic that I had not previously seen before. I found someone's Trapper saying that Hawk was the best I ever had and I remembered being so !!! because that was such an essential dialogue moment in JADAFH. Again, I had not revolutionized a damn thing. These authors were the PEAK Big Fic Authors of their time—and yet now so few readers have a clue who they are. They can't name their fics.

In three or four years, readers aren't gonna know who RemyFire is. My fics aren't gonna stand the test of time. New authors will come in and pick up the gauntlet and spin their own beautiful, sexy, aching stories. Honestly? That excites the hell out of me. Writing is always going to be new and fresh no matter who did something first.

Anyway, people are gonna remember your fics over That Fic (whatever it is) because you're gonna write it beautifully and your fic is gonna be their That Fic. But for that to happen, you have to write it first. Again, this is the royal you. Whoever is reading this, if you need the nudge to write it scared, I'm handing it to you. If you need encouragement to get started, come send me an ask. And if you write something that you're excited about, let me know so I can read it and squeal in delight!!

[highly-opinionated-art]

I wanna share with you guys some traditional art I've been making recently- since November I've been doing this album-of-the-week thing, and a few weeks into the year I started picking out my favorite line from the album of the week and doing a little illustration for it. If you can call it that- they're just quick, rough little pictures, more experimental than polished. Some are better than others. But I have some watercolors and acrylic paints that I never used before this project, and a hell of a lot of markers and gel pens and colored pencils that need to be used, too. I've been learning a lot and getting some use out of what I have at the same time, so that's good enough for me! Here's the first quarter of 2024 done:

Albums/artists/lyrics under the cut, plus some additional commentary because why not.

(2024 part 2) (2024 part 3) (2024 part 4)

Week 1: "I wanna be what my body wants me to be" is from the song Townie, from the album bury me at makeout creek by mitski. I actually kinda hated this whole album, but Townie is a tolerable song.

Week 2: "it never hurts to give thanks to the local gods, you never know who might be hungry" is from the song Younger, from the album In League With Dragons, by the Mountain Goats. Mixed feelings about the album. Mostly just mad that I can't just put a mostly transparent blue layer over everything when I want it to look like night with watercolor the way I can with digital art.

Week 3: "that we won't run, and we won't run, and we won't run" is from the song King And Lionheart, from the album My Head Is An Animal by Of Monsters And Men, which is a meh album but I love this song.

Week 4: "Make it a dirt dance floor again" is from the song Bleed It Out, from the album Minutes to Midnight by Linkin Park. GREAT album. The art looks just like poop but I swear the paint came out of the tube like that, I didn't mix it with anything or anything!

Week 5: "gotta be more to life than just try, try, try" from the song Half A Mile Away, from the album 52nd Street by Billy Joel. This was actually the first one I made, I went back and did the first 4 a little later.

Week 6: "I'm gonna keep on dancing" is from the song Pink Pony Club, from the album The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess by Chappell Roan. The album is ok, I guess? Not my favorite but this track is a really good one.

Week 7: "maybe they'll love me when I finally get out of this town" is from the song Made For This, from the album Built To Last, by Arrows in Action, which is a FANTASTIC album, like DAMN.

Week 8: "together, Wendy, we can live with the sadness, I love you with all the madness in my soul" is from the song Born To Run, by the album of the same name by Bruce Springsteen. It was really hard to get a picture of this one for some reason. Metallic gel pen might have something to do with it.

Week 9: "inside, everybody's hiding something" is from the song Slide, from the album No Angel by Dido. I LOVE Dido. I meant to add more masks in the picture, ok. I got lazy. I should have just made the other ones bigger...

Week 10: "tomorrow's just another day" is from the song Don't Cry 2020 (which was released in 2017), from the album How Will You Know If You Never Try by the band COIN. Forgettable album, but the art is of my room, but I didn't get up and walk 10 steps to get a reference, just did it from memory. The window is too small and not in the right place, and I just changed up the patterns on the blanket because I didn't feel like checking.

Week 11: "if it's ever gonna happen, it's gotta happen here I am" (which seems like it should be missing a comma, but it's like that on purpose) is from the song Shine On Me, from the album Pure Fiction by Eric Hutchinson (not his best work I fear).

Week 12: "make new symbols, make new signs" is from the title track from the album New Beginning, by Tracy Chapman. AMAZING album, I loved it. I'm completely pissed that I messed up the art, though. I thought I had it going for me. Boo.

Week 13: "I don't look important, so they're telling me to wait" is from the song WaldorfWorldwide, from Good Charlotte's self titled debut album. Self portrait of me, a teacher, being mistaken for a student at an event, which is a frequent and frustrating occurrence. This album is ok, but I think they were pretty clearly still developing at this point in their career.

[despair-to-future-arcs]

Well duh, there’s more to it.

Right... we got the next session, Nagi - y'know what to do...

Right, clicking play now.

*CLICK!*

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[10/02/2017]

*At the start of the session, Koyuki was in her chair*

USAMI: Hello Koyuki, so... I guess your ready to talk again...?

Right... I suppose we should, huh? I'm... not sure what to make what happen, Hi-Hiyoko had attempted suicide...

...Is it bad that I actually wanted her to drown herself? Or I'm thinking she was doing this for attention...?

USAMI: ...It is, I do think Hiyoko did feel sorry for everything she did but at least she realize it now instead of never, correct?

I suppose so, huh? I just wonder why it took so long for her to realize the harm she cause?

USAMI: Well... maybe the reason it took so long was everyone treating her like a child due to her child-like appearance and when she had her growth spurt is when she started to deal with the consequences.

Ri-Right... that does seem to be the case, I still don't like that it took so long but I guess it's better then nothing I suppose.

USAMI: Indeed, at least she's going to work on being better along with the rest of you! Now how about we start to talk about the rest of your time at Hope's Peak Academy then? Was there any other relationships you formed...

We-Well, there were some that I did remember before Junko came along...

It should be obvious that the teacher never let us interact with each other at all, in fact when I was in the infirmary; I was only told to do check-ups and nothing else...

USAMI: So you were limited of who you interacted with...

We-Well... it wasn't all that bad, I did have 1 person visit me usually - it was Tsubasa Kamii, she actually enroll as the Ultimate Child Psychologist and usually came to visit me - she was very nice to talk to.

USAMI: Oh so you interacted with her, then maybe you can talk about her.

Su-Sure thing, I'll start from the beginning...

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Date: April 3rd, 2010

*Mikan was in the infirmary, as she sat at her desk*

Ah, fi-finally! I was able to fi-figure out where everything is now!

No-Now I just need to wait to see if anyone comes in for a check-up, hehe!

???: Excuse me but is this the infirmary...?

Hm? O-Oh uh, yes it is...

Ah good, thank goodness I found it! It was so difficult to travel around the school; I had some help looking around a bit but I never got to check the infirmary.

*walks over to the bed as she looks around* Hmm, I guess this is where students can sleep if they aren't feeling well?

Ye-Yes, we have bandages, medicines and things for any injuries of the sort but if it's serious, I can even do vaccines as well if need be!

Wait so you can actually do vaccines, but your a high schooler, aren't you?

U-Unless it's very serious like if someone was actually hurt then they'll need to be transfer to an actual hospital.

Ah... right, I suppose that does make sense hopefully we don't have anything like that happening.

Well anyway, I don't think I introduce myself, correct? I'm Tsubasa Kamii, I've been enroll as the Ultimate Child Psychologist from Class 77-A.

Wa-Wait... I... I think I remember that name, you usually came to our hospital helping children in hospitals after suffering a traumatic experience, correct?

I-Infact, I even remember seeing you when you were comforting a child after his mommy got hurt, I think it was around June 14th, 2009?

Oh, so you work at that hospital! Yes I did remember that too, if curious his mom was doing alright; she had to get some stitches for her arm and she just fell during a hike so it's all okay, thankfully!

I even remember drawing with them, he appears to love drawing as well - I even remember him giving me the drawing he drew as well - ah, I sure love seeing children happy.

I-I see well I had patients that I enjoy taking care of, so I understand that; sa-say, do you want to talk more...? I'm still learning to be a nurse, I want to at least have a general understanding.

I see, well... I don't mind, sure thing - I be honor to talk with you then...

'And that was when I started to talk with Tsubasa which I was quite interested in her as a person and she was... such a kind person, so empathetic of others as well.'

[squireofgeekdom]

yfnsm Thoughts so far

tl;dr I really like its Spider Man choices, unfortunately the Don't Forget The MCU of it all is increasingly making me want to fight an exec in an Arby's parking lot, and despite really liking their Peter I continue to stand by that this should have been Miles' show

I am really enjoying the characters, I like their Peter and Spider-Man so far especially in the friendly neighborhood cares about protecting people So Much (more than getting the bad guy(TM) and cares about protecting even people who are doing bad guy(TM) stuff) and second chances and fairness, it's all stuff I really like about the character and it's really nice that the creative team seems to like what I like about him, Nico is great absolutely no notes, I so absolutely feel for her, I love Lonnie and I love the narrative foiling they're doing with Peter (though I think they brought out the Tombstone name too quickly), their Harry gives very queer vibes which means they understood the assignment, this is always and forever a Norman Osborn hater house but I think this is the most I've ever enjoyed watching a take on Norman except for the moments where they very effectively have me cringing back from the screen like I'm watching a horror movie practically shouting 'peter get out of there'. I'm excited about this Otto and his little twink boyfriend I mean lab assistant.

I'm very here for the stories they're setting themselves up to tell and the big swings they're taking - like, Harry finding out Peter is Spider-Man within like, a day? days? Of having first met Peter and not even properly knowing his name is Such a fucking swing it is so funny to me, Personally. Raimi, Webb, 2017, like everybody does the Peter|Spider-Man and Harry secret identity drama and conflict and they just chucked that Right out the window and tbh if I had to follow up how compelling 2017 made that drama I too would also be like maybe I just don't. I'm very here for what we've seen of the two of them so far. And they've got plenty of potential for friendship drama! The way Nico feels worried like she's going to be left behind as Peter's friend I feel for her! and Peter genuinely trying but also trying to be a good friend to this new friend Harry! and whatever tension they might play on with new friend knows about secret identity stuff when his old friend doesn't. The dramatic tragedy already being set up with Lonnie. And I mean it's not like they've ruled out the classics of Harry being pulled in different directions when things break bad with Norman.

I really like what they are doing with this as a Spider-Man show. I really increasingly don't love what they are doing with this as a 'this is in a MCU adjacent universe! Don't forget about the MCU of it all' like. The little nods are fine-to-whatever but like. Dear god why did they think anyone wanted to think about cacw disk horse again. We get it y'all hate the way spider man was brought into cacw you hate the iron man of it all of the MCU spider man movies we get it man we went over this shit years ago. Write the grumpy meta and the fic like everyone else who was annoyed with it has already. Years ago. Marvel got the rights and immediately had to lick the donut to go MINE about it that is literally all it is. It's jarring to be watching this show and then suddenly being slapped by a 2016 text post about blah blah blah. Also the more I think about it the more it makes me dread that this goes hard on the parallel universe track and we like. Have to deal with the Snap again like. No. Can we not. Can we please have a Spider-Man show. I hope I will be wrong, or maybe I'll be right but they'll handle it so well that I'll eat my words but like. I'm glad it's not a prequel show but also. If it is going to keep being this closely tied to being parallel to the MCU and so very annoying about it. I almost would prefer a prequel than having to deal with cacw-and-onwards slapping me in the face like a rotten fish. I hope I'm wrong and this is executive demands/annoyed response to executive demands and will get shaken off in a second season and the show can be allowed to stand on its own because the spider man show they've got is really fun so far!

That said... It does come back to what I've tag rambled about this show about the 'this should've been the (first) Miles Morales Spider Man show' of it all (like 3 different cartoon shows with Miles as a supporting Spider, the Spiderverse inspiration with a lot of this shows' visuals, and Walloping Websnappers also broke down some really interesting points about how various plot elements for this Peter are more of a match for Miles' stories) and it feels like if there hadn't been this initial call for a MCU Spidey prequel / the continued insistence that it still be tied to the MCU, it would have been Miles' show, which like. It's past time for it And as a bonus it wouldn't have had all the tying to MCU problems I just griped about.

Anyway. Still mostly having fun and excited and interested. If you're also watching this show please come talk to me about it if you'd like! (You think I rambled here, I have so much more to say XD )

[mghamster]

and this is about last saturday, I'd to send my car to have a quick fix with the leaked gas for the aircon, to top up the gas, (quick fix, I'll have to leave the car with the workshop to get the broken pipe replaced!) before saturday, I told him, that I want to eat the noodle, my hometown style, he said he knows a place… so, after we left the car at the workshop, in his car, we went to a place, which he's been there before, it's a small outlet, with 4-5 small tables!!! and it's the usual typical residential area shoplot where it's simply difficult to get parking, when we arrived there, we're looking for a place to park, but right in front of us, is a icetube delivery truck, they stop the truck right in the middle of the small road, blocking every single car after them, and he started to complain, making some funny childish gesture and I laughed, cos, it's just so childish ok, he complaint at the fact that they should've parked the truck somewhere, I told him to be patient, they're just worker who wants to get the job done quick, there ain't parking available right in front of the shop that they want to deliver the ice, so, they'll just stop the truck right in the middle! they've more delivery to do, but he continue to complain and make the same gesture, maybe it's because I'd laugh at it! he then said, "if there'll be other car coming out of the parking lot, then, I'll be fine waiting here blocked by the truck in front!", just when he said, and just when the truck was about to move away, there's one small car right in front of the noodle shop that we intended to go, came out of the parking lot, we were like, bravo, so lucky!!!

I'd my noodle, he'd his laksa, the laksa was good, the noodle, I'll prefer the other one, but it did satisfy me as a noodle that I expected, I order a "large" size, when it's placed in front of me, I asked the chatty lady boss, "is this large?", she said yes, and mentioned that, it's 150g of noodle, she then said, there's an option which is double-portion, but I bet, you'll throw up after you eat it! I laughed!

after my noodle, I tasted his laksa, it was good, so, I ordered another laksa, (laugh)

when we've finished all our food and drinks, we went back to the workshop, I was waiting for the workshop to text me or call me instead, but it never happens, so, we decided to go there first, but before that, he thought it'll be a good idea to get some starbucks coffee, so, we went to the drive-through… luckily, again, it's a buy 1 free 1 day, so, we'd 2 drinks, satisfying!

we get to the workshop, though they've not contacted us, but it seemed like the car was ready, so, we checked with the owner, fixed the next appointment, and since the car is in fact, ready, we took back the car, all these, FOC, we've been sending this car to this workshop for many years, and the owner and his staff have helped to fix a lot of problem of my car, and that, I love driving my car, a car since 2017, I told my husband, that I won't change my car, for one very good reason, as it's really good to drive!!! the only problem that comes up on and off, is the airconditioning, and no one can guarantee that a brand new car will not give you any problem eventually… leaked pipe, stuck pipe, out-of-gas, bla bla bla… the owner told us, this model of mine, ford focus M2, is considered a good model, the newer models, all internal parts got wear off after 5-6 years! after chatting with the owner, he then told me, "alright, so long this workshop is here, you don't have to change your car!"..

at night, after dinner, we decided to go for coffee, somewhere nearby, we did we go for dinner?? oh ya, we went to another park, (for our usual saturday park walk in the late afternoon!) and then we went for dinner, to have this braised duck rice, which we haven't been, for more than 10 years, I guess, but now, our children are bigger, and they're more willing in taking up new taste, new food, so, this time, we enjoyed our dinner… and it's a very cheap meal… so, we decided to go for coffee, somewhere nearby, somewhere new… and we decided on one cafe… upon reaching, we were looking for carpark, again, just a short while, one of the car next to us, came out of the parking, so, we got our parking again, easily!!!

I then, was telling baby, "today's a lucky day, since morning!" and told her all the events… she listened and nodded, and I was being thankful, again..

Praise the Lord!

[sasquatchwalker]

The Nothingness I Live in Now

11/26/25

This Friday I turn 29. My golden birthday. It doesn't feel very golden, not with me being unemployed, single, living with my parents and -$64.38 in my bank account. But it will happen nonetheless. I will turn 29 years old. 29 and at the lowest point in my life.

I recently got back into drinking tea every morning, because it's cheaper than coffee, and as I was drinking it one morning I couldn't help but be reminded of high school. Back then I too would drink copious amounts of tea, partly because of my grandma and partly because I was obsessed with all things British. I was struck by the fact that I was much the same then as I am now; jobless, penniless, and with a vague plan for the future. Except when you're in high school that's acceptable. At nearly 29 years old, it feels like failure.

I keep thinking things like, I should've saved more, I shouldn't have moved to Southern California, I should've been more proactive at work. Maybe they would've seen how valuable I was as an employee and not laid me off. But I didn't save and I did move and they did lay me off. And there's nothing I can do about it besides apply for job after job and hope one sticks. So far, nothing has.

People keep telling me they'll keep an eye out for jobs for me or they'll be sending positive vibes my way. I am grateful for the optimism but it also makes me feel so much more miserable. "You'll find something," they say, "You're qualified for so much." But it seems that “qualified” just isn't good enough these days. Or maybe it's too much. Either way, qualified or not, I am still nearly 29, jobless and living with my parents. Three months of no work and no money and too much guilt welling up inside of me.

The other week I cried in the shower. No, not cried. Sobbed. Bent over, wailing, clutching my chest sobbing. If the water hadn't been washing it away I would have had tears and snot running down my face. A small, inconsequential thing set me off and it was the hardest I had cried in literal years. I'm not saying I don't cry. I cry at least once a week for one reason or another. No, this was like the dam of my heart burst open and out poured every miserable thought I had ever had about myself. You're a terrible friend, you're selfish, you're a leech, you're ugly, you're useless, you're a failure, you're unlovable. Over and over again these thoughts whipped at me like those spinny brushes in a car wash until the water started to get cold and the realization that my dad would be home soon hit me and I didn't want him to find me sobbing in the shower. And then afterwards, hair wet and skin dry and cold, I laid in bed and let tears silently stream down my face.

The day after "The Big Sob" was election day. I hung out with friends, we played games and ate food and tried not to think about what was happening. I drove home from their house around midnight and the entire 45 minute drive felt like the night of the 2017 fires. The wind whipped violently, debris being thrown everywhere, a feeling of foreboding in the air. I hadn't brought my glasses so the road felt extra hazardous. And when I got home, I felt so empty and too full all at the same time. My dreams were not memorable but I woke up with a deep aching sadness in my chest and tears began falling from my eyes. Unemployed, single, no money, living at home, and starting in January, living under a fascist. The tears didn’t stop for a while and the ache never fully went away.

On top of all this, I've been struggling with a mysterious foot injury for nearly the entire month of November. Weeks of pain and discomfort that have finally subsided somewhat but flare up if I stand for too long. I keep finding myself in this miserable cycle of feeling sorry for myself and then feeling childish for feeling sorry for myself. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of hurting, I'm frustrated with myself for being out of shape, which is likely the cause of my injury. My sedentary lifestyle biting me in the ass yet again. I'm tired of this endless nothing, this endless waiting. Waiting to hear back from jobs, waiting for my foot to get better, waiting to find just the right motivation to better myself. I'm tired of it all.

And then there is my writing. For the past week I've been stuck on the same passage of my book with little to no progress. My goal was to be finished with the first draft by the end of January of 2025, but the way progress is going now, I highly doubt that will be the case. At the end of October, I had challenged myself to write 50,000 words in the month of November. Midway through the month I abandoned that goal. Too many obligations, too little motivation, one thing or another got in the way of my writing. One would think that being unemployed would leave ample amounts of time to write a book, but oh, do I find ways to fill my time with endless nothing. A project that once brought me joy now feels like a daunting chore.

But things are not all bad. As the end of November approaches, I've been focusing on my birthday party. Buying decorations, cleaning, making lists, etc. It's a good distraction to have, the planning of a party. Something joyful in the midst of misery, both self-inflicted and not. Since it is my golden birthday, the theme is gold, shockingly. I will be wearing gold pants and we will sing karaoke and play games and eat cake. I will be with my favorite people and it will be an evening filled with fun and joy. It has to be. If nothing in my life can go right at this moment in time, at the very least let this party be something that does. 

I have so many plans for 2025. But I am so scared that they will all be derailed, like many of my plans these past four years have been. 2020 was supposed to be my year. I was going to turn 25, I was going to go to concerts and get more tattoos and travel. I liked my job, I had a boyfriend, I was starting to really settle into adulthood. And then the pandemic hit. Two weeks in, my boyfriend broke up with me, claiming there was no more spark and he wanted children and I didn’t. My grandfather fell ill but because of restrictions we couldn’t see him. He died in early spring and I cannot remember the last time I had hugged him while he was still alive. I had two trips planned and had to cancel both. My job couldn’t give me enough hours so I left and started a new one in August 2020, the job that would eventually lay me off exactly four years later. 2020 was no one’s year but for me it felt like the jumping point of my gradual descent into the nothingness I live in now. 

That being said, even though I am scared of the future and what it holds, I am trying so hard to wade through the muck that is my misery and find solid ground again. My life is not all bad. I am lucky to have my family’s support, I am grateful for all my friends' love and care. I am healthy-ish, my dog is healthy and happy, and tomorrow is a new day. And even though there is pain in my heart, I am determined to enter 29 with optimism. Yes, I am jobless, single, and living with my parents, but I am also loved and alive and that is enough for me. 

Cheers to 29.

[justoutsideofdoncaster]

Blog #3

Todays hangover wasn't nearly as bad as yesterdays. I can't believe I went out again. It was a really good night out though, no matter what the hangxiety says.

I remember when we all finally got inside and met with the others, just standing and smiling and watching all these idiots dance and sing and yell and jump on each other and I felt so so happy. I'm so much closer to my team now then I've ever been before.

He obviously wouldn't stop staring at me, so much so that one of the girls came up and said that he was - I told her I knew. It's strange, he's so sweet and shy and awkward and then he gets drunk and all he does is stare at me all night with those big stupid puppy eyes.

I do love having a crush, but of course I haven't done anything about it. I've always been that way. It's hard for me to believe anyone could look at me like that, so I'm just waiting for the inevitable moment when they snap out of it. When they see me for who I truly am, not some romanticised version. I've never felt good enough to be someones girlfriend. It's largely the asexual . I can't give them enough of myself, or I won't, and I know that when they find this out they'll no longer be interested. And I know there are plenty of asexual boys out there, but for now I have a crush on a boy who could never date me. So that's why I stand, under the strobe lights and the fog machines and the confetti and the music and all of it, and I do nothing. We share a shit eating grin and everyone holds their breath waiting for one of us to move, and he doesn't because he's shy and unsure and I don't because what? I move forward and then what? I pretend I want to kiss him? No I won't do that. I'm willing to spend my entire life alone rather than pretending to be something I'm not for the sake of some man.

I woke up to four deleted messages from him. He could have any girl on the team but he's picked me and I think it's probably driving him crazy.

Anyway, that whole low self esteem - i'm gonna die alone - asexual fuelled self hatred crap can be unpacked in another blog.

I watched some lectures and had some food (guac on toast for dinner, vegan burger with fried egg and mushrooms for tea), and went in to the studio for like four hours. Managed to kick out an entire painting, which is pretty baller especially considering I felt nauseous the entire time. I also planned on going to the gym today, but the hangxiety is telling me to stay in my room. I've not been to the gym in weeks which sucks, but I honestly don't think I'm gonna go tonight.

Also, meal wise, ate really well today! Don't feel guilty either really, although maybe it's because last night I got KFC and then proceeded to throw it all up... so... not my best moment.

Small side rant: My flatmates were pissing me off today. I've been out two nights in a row, which yes I did drink a lot the first night but that's still just two nights, and they're acting like I'm crazy or pathetic or something. Writing this I know I sound paranoid and I know it's not that deep but idk, both of them have specific quirks that are just rude and nasty and it always makes me feel bad. Little comments and looks. It annoys me so much because they both like to act so caring to others, but it feels like I'm the only one who actually gives a shit about others feelings, more than myself, enough to put their feelings before mine. Just basic functioning adult stuff. It's always the people who call themselves empaths or people pleasers that are actually the hardest to be around. Only one more year though, and then I'm free from living with crazy people. Deep breaths.

Anyway, here's a painting I'm currently in love with by Jennifer Packer (2012-2017). That blue is just beautiful. I've been using a lot of Ultramarine at the minute.

Bye

[6mayhem]

anyway anyway this has nothing to do with anything but one more thing i wanna complain about: not to sound like a twitter user but the state of cancelling people has gone way too far. no longer is it a way of cutting off monetary gains from celebrities who shamelessly use their power to exploit and harm others. now it's a way to once again prove your moral high ground to others. just like how dni's aren't actually designed to be instructive. it's superficial ways of showing if you're with the #good guys. and everyone's getting cancelled for everything. i don't think we need to exile that social media user for sharing a stupid opinion online once in 2017 to prove we don't agree with that. i think it's quite a harmful environment online if you always assume the worst from someone. oh you associated with someone who reblogged furry porn once? must be into beastiality, both of you. guilt by association is so stupid. maybe instead of trying to dig up dirt on someone we can just ask them their opinions on whatever political thing we care about. maybe we can look at their current actions instead of trying to find that one time they said something insensitive when they were 16. it's almost as if people can change. (this i am particularly annoyed by. "i grew up like that too and i never believed that!" "i was a teenager too yet i would've never done that!" ok cool. they did, though.) (tempted to add an "unless of course they-" but that honestly undermines my point so hard. yes sure there's fucking exceptions but that just confirms the rule, right? and we should be capable of making the distinction. generally though i assume the best. I'd rather be disappointed by someone than socially exile them by just assuming they'll forever be the way they were)

[mayasdeluca]

Well, I haven't been here since last year with all the Gotham drama but now I feel like I have a few things to get off my chest and I feel safe here you know.

Yeah, I've been thinking the same... that moving all of a sudden to nj/ny took a toll on ashlyn... I mean she really struggled on the field last year, then retired unexpectedly and the fact that whenever she would talk about or be in Orlando she made sure to call it "home". And to be honest she just seemed different to me when I saw videos or photos of her.  Then this year with a new role with gotham and all the traveling she was having a life she couldn't have while being a professional athlete and she seemed different too. What I'm trying to say is that I think all the changes and new things in her life in the past two years really affected her in many ways you know and it ended up affecting their marriage too unfortunately... Of course this is just something I think about the whole situation since I don't know them.

Now the thing with sophia... Do you really believe it might be the reason? I mean I think if the reason they split was something like that she wouldn't be hanging with ali's friends (I know they are ash's too) in this moment like that as if nothing had happened. Not that they have to take sides, but I assume it would be at least a little weird and at rapinoe's match and party they were all there and this picture of moscato and ashlyn hugging made me feel like that was just not the case. I mean, if you cheat on or leave my best friend for another woman I wouldn't be hugging you and posing for pictures.

In the end I'm just sad, this whole situation really sucks. I just wish they could've worked things out and now that they'll both be retired they would go on many trips together (that honeymoon they never had 🥲) and as a family of four...  and I'm not ready to not see ashlyn besides ali today during her ceremony.

Sorry anon, I know you posted this a few days ago but it got buried with a bunch of things happening every day lol

I think the move from FL to NY/NJ was probably the beginning of the end, yeah. And also the fact that Ashlyn retired a year before Ali did. But to me that just proves that maybe they weren't as strong together as we thought, because if location of where you live really matters that much and you really couldn't make conflicting schedules work for a year, were you really that solid or meant to be? It just feels like Ashlyn wasn't putting in the work then and let the retirement life affect her in ways she knew it shouldn't have. Sophia swooped in and Ashlyn just let her be consumed by it because it was easier than trying to make the difficulties with Ali and their family work. It's a stupid decision and I'll never understand it but that's what it seems like.

I mean she had to know retirement was going to affect her in different ways, it was going to be tough no doubt and I'm sure she couldn't get as much support as she needed or wanted from Ali because she was still playing and they also had kids to take care of but again, that was something she should have expected and not resent her for. When Ali was going through getting fired off the NT in 2017 and was miserable every day, they still got through it and Ali put the work in. It's obviously different situations since they have kids now and all of that but I just feel like it speaks volumes that they were able to get through that but not this.

I think Sophia just came around at the perfect time and Ashlyn was liking the attention and validation she was giving her and so she took that route instead. I'm still confused on which of their mutual friends knew what and when and how much, it does seem a little shady especially when it comes to Megan's retirement game and the morning after of them all together and stuff but you can even see Megan being kind of standoffish with them on the field so who knows. There's some things we just aren't going to find out or be able to make sense of unfortunately.

[targwh0re]

Thoughts on Teen Wolf the Movie while watching it (SPOILERS) pt.1

Before I even start let me say that they should've just made it another 12 or 10 or hell even an 8 episode mini series

Should've opened with Isaac instead of Liam and Hikari in Japan smh. He was the last one to have the triskele box, how tf did Liam get it? (I do understand that Daniel Sharman couldn't be in the film but still...at least give me an explanation)

I don't care what they say, Hikari was supposed to be Kira and Hikari wasn't supposed to even exist. Liam and Hikari are clearly what Scott & Kira Should've been, minus the restaurant in Japan, if they'd done the right thing and brought Kira back in the last season. He said he'd wait for her😭. (Though I Stan the actress for not coming back when they were going to pay her white female castmates more than her. Honestly fuck them for that)

Why does Liam own a restaurant in Japan. How did we get here in our lives. Liam u supposed to be protecting Beacon Hills. Also idk what career I though Liam would get but it definitely wouldn't have been restaurant owner. I can see him as a coach maybe (at Devonford Prep in honor of Brett; huh maybe I did know what career I thought he'd have🤔)

Damn y'all really keeping Nogi with teas and spices. Ig hiding it in plain sight works idk 🤷‍♀️

Why Liam fall like that 😭

Damn Nogi really reminding me of the Witch from Narnia when she appeared in that ice wall thing in the second movie

also if Nogi can talk through that thing, why hasn't he manipulate someone into setting him free already

Though that Nogi was like a regular fly, not a firefly...

Scott being call "The Alpha" like they'll never know🤫 also like I thought Monroe went international w/ her hunting. Ain't no way Scott's just chillin all carefree enough to put his name on a business.

Yeah Scott save that doggie...oh and the little grl too. Also this would've been better plot wise if this was a flashback of Scott saving a little Hikari, it would explain how she's randomly apart of the pack now

Love how Scott's animal clinic looks like a mixture of Deaton's vet place and Derek's loft

Scott talking about having kids one day was how I knew they'd give him Eli at the end. Like wtf, he should be raised by his family, by other born wolves who know about the werewolf history that Derek did. Like hello we got great uncle Peter, auntie Cora, and hell even cousin Malia. Derek WOULD NOT want his SON raised by an ARGENT!

"I didn't see it. I took my eyes off the road for like two seconds to change the song on my ipod"

Wooo spooky 👻

I said ah oop jump scare Chris "I never use the front door" Argent

Poor Chris no parent ever deserves their child to die before them

Bardo! and who stayed up all night doing research about Bardo for you, huh, Mr. McTruealphaman. KIRA!

Yes papa Argent, say fuck

Well Jeff Davis said he wanted the timeline to work out so that Eli was born before Derek returned to Beacon Hills in an interview (idk where it is and I'm too lazy to find it) and after the series finale timeskip in the last season it was 2017, its now 2026 so technically it's been 11 years Scott my boy

Look at me out here fixing the timeline for everyone😁

"I got a feeling the real answers are in Beacon Hills" Yeah no shit Chris, everything's gotta do with Beacon Hills

Scott your the alpha. Be the alpha. Quit asking other people to to decisions for you, for the love of God

So Scott I understand why you left Beacon Hills but are we going to address what happend to Monroe and the internatipnal hunters Corp? No?...okay then

Chris why did you leave mama McCall. Jeff u really out here breaking everyone up. Should've got w/ Papa Stilinski so Scott and Stiles could be brothers fr "oh what could've been"

Why the pack break up? not gonna give me an explanation again...okay I'm sensing a pattern here

Yeassss!!! Business woman Lydia, we knew u could do it. And she looks very snazzy in that white outfit with her ponytail if I do say so myself. Funny how the banshee's business has to do with sound lmao it's perfect.

Lyd!😭 Thats Mrs. Martin-Stilinski to you! Shit at least call her Lyds so that you don't sound like your calling her a lid💀

Damn u think Lydia would've learned to look at stuff by now before handing it out. Nah but on a real note I feel like she should have a better understanding of her abilities by now, and have expanded on them, and had more control of them but that might be just me

I SAID ITS MRS. MARTIN-STILINSKI Ray or whatever ur name is!

Oooo the automatic writing again

Yayyy Eli Hale! In my head Eli is a nickname for Elijah, just like Derek is a nickname Frederick (if you known you know🤣)

Hale Auto?! Ain't no way. Derek ain't a mechanic. I refuse. Terrible career choice for the man. He's rich, he ain't even gotta work

Maybe Malia could be a mechanic but I doubt it, ooo a Park Ranger would be perfect.

Love how Eli just hotwired that jeep😂. Oh and just let me say this here and get it out of my system. Eli is similar to both Stiles and Scott when they were younger but he is NOT STILES. Yes he's sarcastic and a little delinquent but do you guys know how many teenagers are sarcastic little delinquents? Alot. It's a teen thing. I was the same way (minus the crimes😂) and still am sarcastic af. Love Eli as Eli, not a mini or replacement for Stiles. Love u guys to death but we went into this knowing there was no Stiles.

Jeff Davis: No Stiles.

Us: No Stiles?

Jeff Davis: No Stiles!

Boys gonna pop a damn wheelie in fucking Roscoe

Love how Parrish just calls Mason instead of tailing him

I'm fucking dead💀they was all too scared to tell Derek (me too thou bc sourwolf is scary😶)

Why is Mason a deputy? Feel like he should be working at Lydia's, like he's right under her is what I'd say he should be doing. I could see Corey, his husband, maybe being a deputy though. *gasp* or a cute little school teacher🥺

I stand by what I said earlier, Malia should be a park ranger and I add to that by saying that she should be the consultant and not Derek (though i understand they had to reintroduce his character) she spent a lot of time in those woods, and she's more intune with her animal side than anyone else

Derek still sexy af

serial arsonist...wolf pack also has a serial arsonist. I swear to God they should've just made it a spin off instead of its own thing

You definitely should call Stiles, he's head of his own supernatural devison in the FBI👍

Love how Derek was like a fugitive for most of the series and now he works w/ the police. Eli taking up that criminal mantel now😂

I mean...is it really grand theft auto if he took it from his own dads shop🤷‍♀️🤣

Derek's got ptsd from the jeep

Eli wanted to race that grl, I now headcanon that's how he flirts. Just like his daddy he's like haha look I'm better than you at something "you wanna see some real speed bitch" (flashbacks to when Derek flirted with Paige by being an ass with that basketball, like grl just wanted to play her cello in peace and quite)

Love how Derek just like slashed the tires. Really said "i don't think so. My names Derek hale. I go way back" (I'm so sorry to anyone reading this)

Part 1-5

[daisymondays]

I hope this isn't an annoying question but I really wanted to ask if "All missing things" will be continued. I dont want this to sound like a "whens an update?" because im not trying to ask that, but if its discontinued or not.

Your writing is just an inspiration and amazing. I couldn't stop reading.

Again I hope im not bothering or anything <3

This isn't an annoying question, and the fact i have more than I can count others in my inbox has been bothering me for a while -- only on a guilt front because I haven't known how to respond and i don't want people to think they're being annoying by asking

I wrote All Missing Things at the tail end of 2017 and it took me 4 months to write. The fact that I wrote 100,000 words and thought that 4 months is a long time to do that in is absolutely wild to me... like what a time!!!!

The reason I've never wanted to answer the question of is there is a sequel is because for the last few years, the answer has felt very clearly to me as a no. I burnt myself out of the Harry Potter fandom with a hyper fixation that my life near enough depended on at the time, but now I don't need. I don't live to write anymore, and while that is possibly the best thing to ever happen to me... It still makes me sad? And it's weird to miss being unhappy because I miss one of the outcomes of being unhappy. Sometimes I really miss the way I used to write. And I say I want to put in a new writing routine, but the truth is I must not that much, or it isn't a priority enough that I sacrifice my job, or cooking or sleep or time with my loved ones for. So occasionally I write or edit, working away on the original fiction story that I've been working on for three years, but it doesn't consume me in the way it used to. I'm not missing enough of myself to let it.

This is all to say, that I don't want to say there's no sequel because I at the time I loved the story I told and I love that people still read it!! People still read things I wrote 6 years ago as a depressed university student and it brings them joy like it did me!! And just thinking about that makes me want to get back into it, to write fanfiction and a sequel to All Missing Things.

Writing fanfiction is so fun for that community, for the encouragement and the comments, and the other people revelling in characters that you love too!! I don't get that editing my own original story by myself. And sometimes the memory of people online liking my writing is what keeps me going with a story that I don't know if anyone will ever read.

I don't want to say there's no sequel because part of me hopes maybe one day I will want to write it. It'll bring me joy again to write these stories, and they won't take up my whole life but they'll be another part of it.

This is a very long answer that you may never read as I can't remember how long ago I received this exact ask. But I was thinking all these things, and I checked my AO3 inbox for the first time in a while and saw a wave of fresh comments and new readers on all of my HP stories, and it made me want to say something even if this answer is more of a non answer.

TLDR: I don't know if I'll ever write a sequel to All Missing Things and I am sorry about that. I miss the girl I was when I wrote that story, but not enough to ever become her again

[willel]

Hello! So I know you aren’t a big fan of the kids ships but since it’s gonna be pretty much canon that both El and Will have feelings for Mike, what do you make of their respective relationships with him?

Hmmm.... I really don't know. :/ I guess I will ramble my thoughts in this very post and see what my heart says. I'll try not to complain, I promise.

To start off with, I watched season 1 and season 2 together innnn... 2017? Whenever season 2 came out. I hadn't heard of Stranger Things until then and then my mom and I decided to binge it together. Needless to say were were pretty surprised. I wanted to give this context because I was not in the fandom from the getgo, I was about a year and a half late.

By the time I got here, I feel like most people were already in their corners, but there didn't seem to be as much conflict back then as there is now. But that could just be me being oblivious. I don't read analysis on ships so if people have analyzed stuff about them, I wouldn't know. The ships are the last thing I think about when ranting about theories.

I'd also just like to get out of the way, I didn't really care for most of the kid ships until recently because well, they're kids. Their first loves, first relationships. They're bound to make mistakes and screw up. We've all been awkward teens so I have the upmost sympathy for all of them. I think it's immature to come down too harshly on any of them for silly reasons like this.

This season, Lumax has brought on the maturity I've been looking forward to and they are precious. So if there's a "kid ship" I ship now, it's them.

So onto the ships I suppose

Mike and El

They were obviously leading into this for season 1 at least so I wasn't surprised. I kinda didn't like that Mike just.. .kissed her you know. She didn't even know what a boyfriend or anything was. But again, he's just a kid himself so eh. Overall, it was sweet.

Um... I suppose I really really feel it from El's side especially. Mike was the first person in the scary outside world to be kind to her, gave her a safe place and everything. And in her own way, she felt obligated to repay his kindness and keep him safe from the "badmen" (refusing to let them tell his parents or they might get shot). She adores him and what he's done for her.

A part of me feels like it was initially too formulaic. The "fish out of water falls in love with the first man she sees" trope but I also feel like it's not that bad since it's not like Mike is a bad person or anything. He's legitimately a good guy so she lucked out on that one. If she didn't like him, she was fully capable of running again, especially back in season 1 (which she did for a split second)

She's also come in contact with many different boys and girls at this point so I'm sure it's not a matter of lack of options either, probably. She really likes Mike. So there's that.

Mike, lately... seems weirdly obsessed. It could be his fear of losing her, pretty sure he said that before, but he's gotta learn to rein it in. And it's a weird kind of obsessed to. Like obsessed enough to drop everything and everyone else to be with her and only her, but also not obsessed enough to tell her everything or that you love her? Teenagers make no sense.

But hey, I'm a lady who has never been in love or attracted to anyone so maybe this is just normal behavior for teenage boys sometimes, especially ones that are traumatized from a young age like he is.

Maybe there's a bit too much co-dependency that they'll have to work through if they ever hope to move past this hump they keep finding themselves in if that's even possible. Maybe they are too different or want different things? I dunno.

Mike and Will

Much like with Mike and El, I've also thought Mike and Will are sweet. Mike can be a very caring and honest person and very reliable. Will and El can be so timid, so I'm not surprised they both end up leaning on Mike who is not as timid and can be hot headed and take action to protect the people he cares about.

It gets really tricky here for me because without a doubt, I've never considered Will to be straight and it's clear Mike and Will have a very special relationship. But Mike... I dunno if the feelings go both ways.

Will really seems to adore Mike as friends and obviously in a romantic way too. But it very much bothers me that it gets ignored by Mike himself. You know? Maybe season 4 will address this but if I were Will, it would hurt me deep down that my friend and crush will only acknowledge me when his girlfriend has blown him off. Of only if he can actually see how upset I am after already trying to interact more civilly. I had a similar situation in middle school. In my case, it was platonic, but by best friend at the time ditched me to do some things with a guy. I didn't find out till later when she told me, but I was pretty sad about it and didn't say anything.

From Mike's side, I don't know what to make of it. Like I said, this constant trend of blowing Will off for his love life is pretty bothersome whether he considers Will just his friend or secretly likes him.

I don't really know what Mike feels regarding Will, definitely cares about him... but not enough to keep in touch properly? Or to play dnd one time out of the whole summer? Or talk to him at all for a whole day when he gets to California? I don't get his deal at all.

Mike is feeling a certain way towards Will for sure but I don't know what it is. It felt kinda hostile but I don't know why that would be. Maybe not hostile, but blasé? If they writers are intending to have Mike questioning his feelings regarding Will in the romantic sense, I don't like how they're doing it and shippers should push for better secret pining.

Like, we KNOW Will is pining because of all the looks and secret glances. I might've missed them, but I didn't see any slow camera pans of Mike staring wistfully at Will like they've been doing for Will lately.