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Im not sure if someone already asked this, but what things (personality, physical appeareance, emotional wise etc) does Jasira find attractive on JJ and vise versa?

hello. well, no one has ever asked me this before, actually. not outright. so, thanks for this question. i'm happy to break this down. so, buckle up bcus this ain't finna b short, and i feel like u knew this coming into it. but this is long even to my standards. this is gonna essentially b an essay. so, i'm not being cheeky when i say, buckle up. i can only hope that for as long as this is, it is clear.

disclaimer: i'm answering based on where we are in the timeline of the story rn -- apr 2007, chapter 13.

so, there is a major thing to note before i dive into them as individuals. when they first met, from the v first conversation they had, both jj and jasira felt that chemistry and familiarity that makes u feel like u've known someone for ur whole life. the immediate feeling of comfort is big in being attracted to a person - b it romantic, sexual or platonic attraction. when things don't feel hard or forced, it's easy to want to keep going. from the v beginning, on both ends, there was that feeling of familiarity. even despite them being worlds apart in terms of how they move about this world and have experienced life. it started off feeling easy and comfortable and safe because of the way thy vibe. every interaction/skype call/phone call since then jus further cements that safety and that comfort and thus that feeling of ease. it's a big part of their mutual attraction to each other, on like the most basic of human levels. it is what makes them continue to crave and therefore come back to each other.

now, for individual breakdown, i am going to start w my butch baby, jj, and what about jasira creates such a moth to a flame feeling for her. bcus that is exactly how jj feels when it comes to her -- like a moth to a flame. jj doesn't feel like she could resist or leave her alone if she wanted to at this point. jj's answer is much less muddy than jasira's, far more cut n dry.

i'm going to start w her physical/lustful attraction to her; shy's visual features as well as her aura. bcus both of those things are about on the same level when it comes to attraction. i think the difference between recognizing that someone looks good n being attracted to them is the effect their aura/vibe has on you. this is jus my personal ideas and my work is a reflection of various parts of myself and my ideas at this time. in this instance, how i write attraction, it certainly is hinged on that idea.

going pure physical first -- basic face and body. this is one of those things i def intend to lament on in the series i am planning about her exes. jj does, indeed, have a preference in type. now, it isn't a preference that she is cognizant of. now, she doesn't see herself as having a specific type bcus the preference isn't necessarily strict. it certainly doesn't correlate between her sex life and her dating life. the only commonality (w one sexual exception ever)(n there's a thing there but that isn't what this post is about so not rn) between her sex life n her dating life is femininity. jus v feminine women, that's what everyone has in common. so, if u were to ask jj what he type was, she would jus say v femme and leave it as that bcus she'd b thinking about her experience in total but she does have a type that is more specific than that. it comes out in the instances in which she actually ended up in relationships. it's more of a body type than a face/feature type bcus aside from their shape/build, all her gfs looked pretty different. but jj's exes were all of petite and slightly thick. like imagine monica geller body but a lil thick on the bottom; thicker thighs w a slight booty. regardless of face, that is what jj's exes looked like: thicker versions of monica geller w the thickness varying a lil bit from girl to girl. that's jasira. she has a more plump booty than jj's exes but that's pretty much her body. she's tiny and slim thick. body wise, she is jj's type w a lil more to b thankful for. i have to again point out that this isn't a conscious thing in jj's mind, but women w that body type always turn jj's head first. so, there is no circumstance in this universe where jasira walks past jj on the street n jj doesn't nearly snap her neck to turn n look at her. that's jus what it is. now, her face is really like super important to jj's attraction to her, obviously. it is not uncommon for jj to jus stare about her n marvel over her facial beauty. so, in this universe, when jj was a super young kid, im talking pre-conversion therapy -- which im not sure where u are in the story but her childhood pre-conversion therapy is v fuzzy in her memory; it's really more blanked -- jj had a crush on a celebrity that drove her mother crazy (it's talked about in little bama girl). her v first crush in life was a woman named lola falana. she doesn't remember this crush; if u asked her who her v first crush was, she would think really hard n give u an idk at this point in the story. now, jasira doesn't look exactly like lola falana, but there are similarities. their skin tones (not jus both of them being black women; i mean, like their actual skin tone) are v similar almost the same. they both have big brown, almost doe-like eyes that kinda thing going on. they have similar lips shapes. they have similar nose shapes. it's def not a carbon copy/copy-paste situation, but they do look similar enough that if someone put picture of them together n said they were related in some way, most people would b like "yeah ok" n not question whether not it was true. they look that similar. so, jasira fits jj's ideal body as well as looking like the woman who made jj know that she liked girls when she was little. so, w all that in mind -- face and body, there was no scenario where she sees jasira n doesn't experience intense attraction at first sight, based on pure physicality alone.

u gotta combine that w vibe/aura bcus yea, aura is a huge part of attraction. so, diving into aura, simply put, jasira is sexy. this isn't me biased bcus i really like this character i created. no, i created her to b one of those people that is more often than not precieved as such by the people she meets. she's jus sexy. jasira is one of those character's that people triple take at on the street. one of those people who stops conversations. she is both one of those people who is often describe as someone's type while at the v same time being one of those people that are typically the exception to people's type in the chance she physically she doesn't fit it already. she is jus sexy to most people. it's the way she was designed by me, and i would like to point out, she was an independent oc. i didn't create her for jj. so, she truly is jus like that. so, keep that in mind. when u circle it back to the story n to jj specifically, that + the information i told u about what made her stand out to jj in the first place + the remembrance of how they first met. jasira is sexy jus bcus for no reason at all already, but she is also a dancer. a performer. she really plays it up, really is intentionally alluring when she's performing. now, if u know anything about jj's first crush (which wouldn't b surprised if u don't) but lola falana was always a performer; a captivating one at that, imo. so, u have to imagine, that -- on a subconscious level -- seeing jasira who has already checked boxes but also triggered og baby gay feelings by looking like her first crush while dancing/performing in a really alluring, almost siren like way, i mean, boom. recipe for immediate so-far-gone-ness.

jasira boudreaux just really, really does it for jennifer jareau. it's one of those "god had to have designed u for me to b smitten w" kinds of attractions.

an extra tidbit on this, bcus i do think voices count towards physical attraction, is that jj loves the sound of her voice. she finds it sweet sounding and femme, but passionate in expression. i don't mean language choice, when i say passionate in expression, i mean the way she actually uses her vocal chords. couple that w jasira's new orleans accent and jj loves to jus hear her talk. there are certain words she jus loves to her her say. an example would b "baby", she could literally listen to jasira jus say that one word on a loop n not get tired of it bcus she loves the way that word sounds when it's dancing w her accent. so, there is also that.

now, as for the non physical part of her attraction to jasira, once again, there are things about jj and her history u have to consider and take into account. it isn't that jj has like never been on the receiving end of love and kindness. that's not true at all. she had ros for the first 11 years of her life, she had her cousin charlotte. she was a popular athlete in college; she has her team, and she does have friends. plus, i mean, she's a conventionally attractive white woman, let's b real and acknowledge what that means for her especially w her femme presentation in public. so, being treated w kindess or love or jus general favor isn't new to her. quite the opposite. so, jasira treating her the way she does isn't necessarily special for that reason on a surface level basis. bcus while she has been loved within her family (ros and charlotte) and her friends (her team n her out of work friends), she's never quite been seen in a positive way that wasn't platonic (or wasn't by ros) bcus she has had one friend who clocked her n they became friends bcus he clocked her (we haven't met him yet but he's been v vaguely mentioned n we will him). but again, that was only one time in her entire life, one and it was platonic. also, at this point in time, the friendship isn't super deep. but she's never been seen by anyone else -- truly, certainly not in a positive way -- bcus she suppresses the most honest, most comfortable part of herself. even from her cousin charlie. to understand that, u have to understand that her mother was, let's b honest, psychologically and emotionally abusive who was regularly attacking and penalizing her butchness/her masculinity. in her dating life, she had a habit of ending up w femme4femme femmes who did not value butches/butchhood at all. they made room for in the bedroom bcus they liked the sexual dominance that came jj when she was leaning into her true self but that was the on place outside of sports she was allowed to authentically exist. her past romantic relationships, for the most part, were really jus reiterates of the traumatizing parts of her childhood. and in the last two relationships she was in where her masculinity wasn't penalized, her butchhood-- the queerness of it all -- was not seen or catered to bcus she was dating straight women for some semblance of breathing room and relief from her past. in these v same relationships, she was penalized for not only attempting to b her most authentic self but also shutting down n not sharing, not being emotionally available after trying n failing in embracing who she is. so, jj is used to always having to cut a core piece of herself, her identity away to b accepted to some degree, and she is used to walling off her emotions to shy away from the pain that repressing herself causes her. overtime, it's made her become jaded n sort of devalue and detach from human connection and the idea of (unconditional) love in its totality, but especially in terms of romantic love. it's the reson why up until shy, she doesn't do anything but meaningless sex anymore bcus she'd given up on trying to b seen, b truly cared for and truly loved. but it is something she's always quietly craved. that has to b kept in the back of ur mind at all times, when ur reading all their interactions. u have to keep that in mind. the only time she's been seen by other people she's tried to b close to, she's been conditioned to see what they saw as unworthy and something that needed to change. it's why she force-femmes; it is why she conforms to societal gender norms around people.

the reason i made it a point to discuss all that and bring it to the forefront of ur brain is bcus w all that in mind, u realize that from the v beginning -- i mean, first conversation, even -- jasira has been doing the directly opposite of that. the first time, in a v small, miss-able way was when she saw jj and acknowledged that despite her appearance, she wasn't dainty at all. that was the first nugget. jj was so set on the excitement of the in, from jasira really opening up that conversation hat she didn't dwell on it, but it was an important thing for her to have said. it is absolutely of note and really held insight into how she would see jj going forward bcus it's already drastically different than how jj knows she's viewed n how she's treated in the world. that was jus the tip of the iceberg. that same night even, everything about the way jasira treated her was thru the lens of peeping her masculinity and finding it attractive. everything the way they danced, the way she let jj lead their kisses, her calling her a gentleman -- her refusal to open her own doors in jj's presence. it wasn't overtly acknowledge by jj internally at every step as "omg this is so affirming" but it absolutely was. the constant, natural and earnest affirmations throughout their night together, made it feel all the more special for jj. it made her feel that much more connected to jasira and thus all the more willing to continue. then, after all that from the initial first night, u have the morning after. the feeling of comfortable domesticity that jj absolutely reveled in. but aside from that, when jj found herself drawn to the images of jasira w her family. when she found herself mentally lamenting over a feeling of love, of togetherness -- of being apart of something that she was really truly feeling and internally acknowledging her lack in that regard -- jasira let her into the family. she told her stories and histories and secondhandedly introduced her to a new world of people -- and love, by extension -- bcus she saw it. she saw what jj was feeling. she saw the void, the longing, the loneliness. which is something that, w jj, tends to far more unnoticed than her masculinity, even bcus of how well she holds herself and seems to have it together. bcus of how intentional she is at hiding that bcus she herself doesn't even wanna look at it when she's alone w herself n her thoughts much less share it w other people. bcus of the night before, bcus of how affirmed n thus comfortable in her own skin jasira made her feel the night before, the mask slipped down. the mask slipped and jasira saw it, but she didn't shun it or shame it. she didn't push n question and make her uncomfortable. she nurtured jj in that moment; she remedied the feeling, even if it was jus for a moment, without jj having to even kinda ask. all she did was stare at pictures. so, u have two deep, hidden but v key aspects of jj -- one of her identity and the other being emotions that have long jaded her ability to really connect w other people -- being seen n treated w softness and kindness. that, is something jj is far from accustomed to, especially as it relates to people she's attracted to in a potentially romantic way. it's then that her attraction to jasira truly truly cements as emotional. it's how she knows there is no way she can go on n not get to know this person.

now, there are certain things about a person's personality that would make them not jus able to do something like that for someone else, but willing. they'd have to attentive, perceptive. they'd have to b open -- to a degree -- and earnest. they'd have to b loving in nature, kind -- empathetic. not only that but solution oriented/action based. someone else could have been in jasira's position in that moment, discerned what she discerned n been frozen about what to do or how to possibly help. but jasira wasn't. all those traits came into play n jasira immediately had an idea and acted on it. that says a lot about character and her personality. those are all traits that jj finds v admirable in her. they are all traits that make jasira more attractive to her than she already was. jasira's ability to see people around her, that's the key to jj's emotional attraction to her.

to not truly love urself bcus u've only really being conditioned to see ur core self in a negative light and then have someone raise a different mirror to u and reveal the same core that u have been conditioned to hate but jus in a beautiful way… i mean, imagine that feeling. i don't think u can put words to that feeling but it's the kinda thing that makes u love a person, i think. that's really what jasira has been doing from like jump. n i think falling in love w a person makes them all the more attractive to u n idk what part of the story ur on but it's been established, jj is in love w her.

additionally, jj respects jasira. there are other traits about jasira that jj already loved and thought the world of. jj's always been drawn to extroverted, life-of-the-party kind of people; she’s used to being the more quiet person in the room/in a group. i would describe jasira as courageous, bold, passionate; she doesn't pull punches but she uses her discernment in that. she's fun and likes to have fun; she likes to make people laugh, v playful. she doesn't, from jj's perspective, often shrink herself n dim her light for those around her. she gives herself permission to shine. those are things about her that jj likes and admires about her on their own. those traits make her attractive on their own. It woulda always been a draw for jj. however, having learned what jasira has gone thru -- is still going thru, while also knowing first hand about the affect it can n does have on many survivors makes jj see the beauty in those traits amplified by a million. to jj, above all else, those traits aren't jus cool n alluring but a sign of resilience. to b urself out loud so strongly. to b able to not even jus ask for what u want but make demands when u have regularly have someone trying to violently break u from their own personal gain is a huge sign of strength n resilience, n jj absolutely recognizes it as such. she respects the hell out of her for it. she is inspired by it, to b honest. not even jus that, either. jasira's ability to still b soft, still b kind, still b hopeful and still dream, even, jj sees the strength and resilience in that, too. so, boom, amplified feelings of attraction here.

also, jasira being family oriented is huge to jj. it plays a major role in her attraction, her interest, her intrigue. jj's family structure is broken. her sister has long passed on; she has not spoken to her mother in a decade. she hasn't so much as gotten any signs of life from her father in the same length of time. n even when she was under their roof, those relationships were nowhere near positive or in her father’s case, existent. the only family jj has in her life that she keeps in (semi) regular contact w -- from either side of her family -- is her cousin, charlotte, who also doesn't keep in contact the rest of the family. as far as blood relatives go, those two are pretty much on an island together n they aren’t even surviving together; they jus meet for solace sometimes. jj's family is shattered n in a few ways, that has always been the case. so bcus shes been conditioned n used to not connecting w people -- also broken families (that were still by other means “together”) were not uncommon in her environment at all-- the idea that people even actually liked the families they were born into, for jj, that idea was jus that. an idea. it never really seemed like reality to her bcus she's not used to loving families in a unified kinda way. it's such a foreign idea to her that she hadn't even considered that she wanted, craved that until she walked into jasira's world n saw it. jasira having a loving family n being family oriented is part of what fuels jj's attraction. it's part of the reason why when jj does begin to imagine herself creating a family of her own -- beyond that hypothetical ideal than many adults jus have bcus of societal expectation -- she can only imagine that w jasira.

there's also the cultural difference n the vast differences in upbringing. aside from n beyond being a romantic prospect, jj finds jasira to b literally the most interesting person she has ever met. she likes learning things from/about jasira n she likes that jasira is patience n kind enough to teach her. jus knowing jasira is expanding her worldview n making her cognizant of experiences n walks of life and thus the mindsets borne from those walks of life that she otherwise couldn't have imagined bcus i mean, she's white. she really values the exposure, she likes the learning n she likes that jasira doesn't make a thing of her not knowing or make her feel small for not knowing. so there's that layer.

there's jus so much about jasira that jj finds extremely attractive and all of those things not only make being attracted to her so intense, but it made falling in love w her easy. so, yea, jj fell uncharacteristically fast. she's in it deep.

now, for jasira's half of this connection.

once again, there are multiple things to have in ur mind about jasira before we dive into her attraction to jj.

the number one thing that u absolutely need to know before i get into her breakdown: as much as jasira really likes jj n as much as her feelings for her are deepening, she and jj are not on the exact same wavelength. yes, every once in a while, she will have these thoughts of them being serious, of them being official. she treats jj like they're pretty much together already, yes. she does feel strongly for jj, but it is not the exact same thing as where jj is. jj is sure, at this point, that she's in love n she's blind to anyone that isn't jasira. jasira is not in that place. she likes jj so much, like so so so much n she feels safe when she's w her, but she is a bit on shaky ground, mentally. she def isn't ten toes behind this jus yet like jj is tho. but she does like her a lot, and there is that a nagging voice in her head, especially when she's physically w jj that says, "this is it” but jj has submitted to that; jasira absolutely has not gotten there yet. she's not gonna let herself get there for a while, either. she absolutely keeps herself in check, does not herself go off into the deep end right away. she has thoughts n she pushes them off for a bit. that is extremely important to have the back of ur mind.

another thing of extreme importance to have in the back of ur mind is jj. by that, i mean, the way she conducts herself in this connection. the way she interacts, engages in their conversations. the type of person she is in relationship to people. she is v much not an open book. she's private as hell. she neglects to get personal beyond a certain level; she purposely avoids sharing. shy tries but jj redirects back to shy every time. yes, she is more open w jasira than she has ever been in relationships in the past – jasira gets more of her unguarded personality but the lack of sharing is something that shy has noticed a few times over. so, u have to consider that shy does not know jj nearly as well as jj knows her. which def affects her view of things n their connection, despite how much she likes her. it's easy, for her to pump the brakes n bring herself down to earth bcus she's reminded more than once, more than twice, well over a few times, that she does not know jj like that. n the thought of being serious w someone she don't really know, of really tying herself to someone she don't really know is anxiety-inducing for her. so, bcus of jj's strong sense of privacy n struggles w opening up, despite how shy feels, it makes it easier for her to walk this connection w her mind more than her heart despite the fact that her heart isn't quiet in this at all.

we all know shy's past. she's got an ex in his mid-30s who groomed and abused her in her formative teen years, during her college years. an ex who continues to stalk her n harass her. she didn't get to go to school dances, not even homecoming or prom, despite having won both of those titles. she didn't get to go to parties. she didn't get to participate in senior skip day w her peers. she didn't even get to enjoy the freedom of traveling w dance competitions bcus her coach was her bfs sister so he was there. shy didn't get to have any typical teenage experience, so she's kinda in a delayed adolescent state of life rn. she likes it; she needs it; she's determined to have it. she's reclaiming her freedom, sense of self n experiences. so, that also needs to b in the back of ur mind.

another thing is how she grew up n her role models. ive mentioned it in the story, but shy adores her grandpa. i mean, basically worships the ground he walks on. not even jus him as the grandpa he is to her but him as the husband he is to her grandma; she idolizes that whole relationship. that was huge for her, when she was a lil girl n living w them before she moved to new orleans. n most of the other members of her mother's family have healthy, loving marriages. that was the standard, for her, before she moved to new orleans when she was a lil girl. when she moved w her parents n she begin to notice the relationships n marriages of those around her, of all the people married people she knew, all the relationships she saw cycle in n out -- which was a high number; jasira has always been community oriented n she has a huge family as is -- she never saw a healthy relationship. they are all toxic in some way shape or form n no one seemed to notice that they were toxic. so as she grew up, the love she saw in marriage n relationship on her mother's side of the family shifted from becoming her standard to an ideal that felt out of reach bcus in her mind, clearly, they were actually the exception n not the rule. so, keep this in mind as well.

jj's laidback, easy-going -- in shy's opinion -- cool/suave. she not flashy, not showy; she doesn't walk into a room tryna prove herself or puff out her chest n doesn't need to; she's got that strong, silent thing about her. she can command attention without trying too hard n she can go under the radar if she wants to. shy peeps it; shes into it. its her ideal/dream n it always has been. plus she's protective; the first time they officially met, jj was protecting her so it def did a thing for her. she reminds her of her grandpa n when shy was a lil kid, her ideal of a husband was her grandpa in her uncle jo's font (her uncle jo is a butch lesbian btw). so, when she first actually met jj, she reminded her of her grandpa n bcus of that shy was even more interested n attracted to her before they actually met she was more intrigued/drawn to her bcus of the way she managed to make her feel bcus the feeling was unusual (but v desirable) for her. to top it all off, while jj is not the person shy would describe if u asked for her type, jasira doesn't think shes unattractive. she is v good looking, in jasira's eyes; like shy thinks jj could easily b a model, if she wanted to. so, i have to say that jj not being shy's type doesnt mean in anyway that shy thinks shes unattractive on a physical level bcus also circling back to her grandpa (hes a white presenting mulatto(white passing n white presenting arent the same thing btw) jj n shy's grandpa have features in common. specifically their eyes, which blue eyes arent rare or anything but her blue eyes paired w her energy/how she carries herself n the fact that she already reminded shy of her grandpa (in terms of how she witnessed him engage w her grandma) def makes her easier to b attracted to bcus it triggers a "fairytale ideal" shy's dreamt of that she had overtime written off as an anomaly of sorts. so thats the "basic" attraction. but there are personality traits for jj that makes jasira feel safe w jj which makes her really like jj as a person n thus increases her attraction more n more.

like the fact that jj respects boundaries that shy sets, even when its like body language n not overt. shy loves that. jj's good at noticing things about jasira n adjusting according to make her comfortable. jasira first picked up in it during sex when she pushed jj away a bit bcus her was a lil too strong in her thrust n jj immediately got the message n respected it. it is a bare minimum thing to most people, yes. it is the standard, yes. shy, however, has a lot of sexual trauma so it meant everything to her. but that was something that made shy feel more comfortable w her. it was one of the things that got jj invited back to the house. it's also another thing that made her feel comfortable "giving orders" so to speak when they got back to the house. the moment w the waistbeads jasira set a firm boundary n jj immediately respected it. it was special to shy. those things revealed that jj was respectful but also attentive (referring to the nonverbal cues). it also, to shy, read as a lack an ego. which was attractive to shy. to shy, jj's lack of an (unhealthy) ego meant self security. self security meant she didn't have to worry about jj tryna "control" or "dominate". which made jj feel like a much safer person to explore w. the feeling of security made jj that much more attractive. as they talk n get to know each other, it's reaffirmed by the fact that jj allows jasira to dictate the terms of their connection n jus kinda follows her lead in that way n respects what she needs. jj makes shy feel like shes in control of her own (love) life truly for once n its exactly what shy needs rn.

or the fact that, during the morning, after they had sex the first second time, shy had cooked for them n gone to take a shower. jj waited for her to get back so they could eat together. jasira thought that was really sweet of her to wait. she also was thought it showed patience n discipline which she liked n found attractive. when they finished eating together, jj offered to watch dishes. it was both sweet n considerate of her. n sure, shy wasn't gonna allow it but she liked that she offered. shy really likes how sweet jj is w her. its another one of those things that makes liking her feel safe n thus making jj more attractive.

jj is dedicated to staying in contact w her which shy really likes. she thinks people pouring into things they value to b hot on its own, in relation to like if its a passion or something but it is extra attractive to her if they pour that heavily into a person n the person in question being her makes her view jj as more special. she knows jj technically doesn't have time to put into this connection n yet jj's found every crack n hidden corner of her day to fill w jasira n that means a lot to shy. makes her like jj more n thus makes jj sexier.

gonna circle back to jj's humility/lack of an ego. jj actually asks questions n actually lets herself learn from the responses. it really takes humility to admit u dont know something much less ask for help to learn more. so the fact that jj isn't bashful w her when it comes to doing that, the fact that shes humble enough to do that makes jj so hot to jasira.

oh! jasira thinks it is SO hot how easily jj can pick her up like she loves jj's physical strength. its one of those things that instantly turn her on ngl. its so attractive to jj.

but yea shy is still learning about jj n stuff so yea it affects her side of things.

another thing that, i dont wanna necessarily use the word attractive or imply that she likes this about jj but it is worth noting bcus its important to jasira's desire when dealing w jj -- jj's repression. shy knows what jj's like when shes really being herself n she also sees the switch flips when she doesn't feel like shes allowed to b herself n retreats into herself. again im not gonna say that jasira is "attracted" to that but she is determined to help her thru that need she has to hide n pretty much degrade herself on account of her masculinity. like her genuine desire to make jj see that its not jus okay for her to authentically exist but also its beautiful when she does exist authentically is super important to why she wants to b in jj's life rn. shy kinda feels like jj is important to have in her life rn as shes exploring her sexuality (not referring to exploring sexuality in terms of orientation but ya know) bcus sghe provides a safe space to do that while also helpng her reframe sex n romance back into something positive but she also thinks shes jus as important to jj rn. like she thinks they met each other at v important, v necessary times in both their lives which kinda plays a roll in how much she pours into jj n their connection; she sees their potential to help the other grow n is def striving for that above all else.

anyway this was v long; i tend to b long winded n a bit rambly. i hope it didnt lose u.

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