#That's me 🤝🏻 dying and I hate it. At this point I just gave up. They should hire me as training dummies or smth for explosions I'm sure I | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

twpsyn-who · 4 years ago

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I love the fact that this month I have been talking and going places for this new job I'm meant to start on Monday, but apparently I have done absolutely nothing this entire time only because I had to wait for them to call me so I could go sign the fucking contract (:

This ungrateful piece of shit that now is also doing absolutely nothing to 'bring money in the house' because that's what we should give a fuck about, not your child being able to make a goddamn future for themselves when they literally panics while talking with people.

I really hope everything works well and this job will last at the very least a few months, just just to see his reaction when he will notice that I'm contributing with absolutely nothing to this house. Fucking hell, I can not believe all my childhood I actually felt like a blight to these people and tried my best to ask for as little money as possible (ending in me lacking things that could have made my school period a lot easier).

Now I feel bad that I didn't ask for money every fucking day in the past 10 years.

#i actually was going to repay them for everything they have done for me (aka probably my first 3 salaries would have gone to my parents)#but if I think about it they didn't do shit for me. All I can thank them for is not kicking me out of the house I guess #thought I bet if it weren't for neighbors gossiping he would have done that in a heartbeat #i can not wait to move out of this house god #rant #personal nonsense #I'm sorry guys I just had to let it go for a moment #all I'm saying is that depressed me from the past should have been a big jerk while they could #now I'm just angry at myself for thinking they way I was thinking back then #I LITERALLY RISED YOUR SECOND CHILD AND I'M THE UNGRATEFUL PERSON HERE????#I didn't ask for anything other than to fucking understand that is a little harder for me to do what everyone is expecting of me #God I miss my classmate. I feel so helpless without him I can't do shit man. At least in high school I had him by my side #now they all expect to suddenly be able to do everything myself and I fucking can't man #and they wouldn't understand that everytime I have to talk with people I just #god is like you're sentencing me to death (or better said it feels like it should feel if they would do that)#Like I wanna die since 2014 dude that shit doesn't actually scare me #I'm more afraid of talking with people than death lol (and it has nothing to do with the past two years)#hahaha why they didn't work gosh I wish I had died back then #You know when you do something so many times and it doesn't work so you just... give up and recognize the fact that it won't work???#That's me 🤝🏻 dying and I hate it. At this point I just gave up. They should hire me as training dummies or smth for explosions I'm sure I #wouldn't die hahaha #fuck life #should i tw if the thing is in the tags???#actually fuck everything dude why should I care about everyone???? I'm sick of actually taking in consideration everyone else #fuck giving a shit about people man (then process to be a billionaire and live happily ever after while other people d i e of starvation) —#— jkjk (what a shitty joke)#pls mrs/mx/mr billionaire don't shit on me man I already do that myself I don't need another one #In Conclusion : Don't Make Kids If You're Not Willing To Sacrifice Some Things For Them #I feel like once you do make a kid you do have the responsibility to help them and be there for em no matter what yk?#You can have your life man but shouldn't you put the child first then yourself???? Otherwise why make that kid lol

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