#That makes me sound like my dream job was actually influencer but we didn't have those back then. Also. No.

[crow-caller]

started playing fallen london cause of your blog and i absolutely love it! Thank u :)

Excellent!!! If I have any power, let it be used to get people to play fallen london and its related games (sunless seas, sunless skies = Survival exploration, mask of the rose = visual novel)

[soberpluto]

Examining Neptune's Spell

Apologies for not being here after so much time, but now I'm back and very thrilled to share this with you all! I'm hopeful many can find this helpful.

Unnecesary context aside, just recently I was having a long and deep conversation with a friend of mine about my semi-recurring mini existential crises. After hearing me patiently, with the dear intention of making me realize I was drowning in my tiny glass of water, he simply (and brilliantly) replied:

"I think you're problem is that you have unrealistic expectations about yourself."

Any attempt to blurt out in self-defense ceased instantly because of how deep these words sunk in my mind. I stared into the wall before for me and felt how the missing puzzle piece finally dropped into the perfect spot. Obviously, the thought of having my sun in Cancer and Neptune in almost exact opposition popped inside, and it took a WHOLE new dimmension. How could this statement not be true?! OF COURSE he was right! It's not that I wasn't told that before or haven't read about it multiple times in my astrology studies, but the truth is, (a very Neptunian thing now that I think about it) I didn't believe it quite applied to me. Because I don't like to feel mediocre and because I think of myself as a spiritual and highly self-aware woman, I was convinced that holding myself to "unrealistic standards" was definitely NOT the reason that triggered me to want fleed to a desert islands at times when reality felt like too much. It was bitterly humorous when I realized I evidently missed the fact that Neptune was making a hell of a job doing what he does best: casting its spells of illusion and glittery distorted beliefs about how things were "supposed to be" in a surprisingly unadverted way into my life. I was truly relieved to actually understand (or accept, better said) why trying to have a simple and happy life seemed too tricky at times. It all made sense.

Now, let me introduce Neptune, if you happen to be unacquainted.

Neptune in astrology is like the ultimate dream weaver, spinning a web of intuition, imagination, and mystery. It’s the planet of all things ethereal, where reality gets a little blurry, and you’re invited to dive into the deep end of fantasy, spirituality, and idealism. Neptune whispers, "What if?" and suddenly, we're seeing the world through a kaleidoscope of possibilities, but a "little" foggy on the details. We're all influenced by Neptune one way or another, but when it touches personal planets or points in our charts, it’s like life hands us a pair of customized rose-colored glasses, but the prescription is way off. Suddenly, everything feels a bit magical, like we're starring in your own fairytale, except the castle is made of mist, the prince might just be a mirage, and that enchanted forest? It’s actually a parking lot.

But why bother making us feel loony? On a more serious note, our master illusionist possesses the higher purpose of awakening our connection to something greater than the everyday grind. It gently pulls us out of the rigid boundaries of reality and whispers, "There’s more to life than meets the eye." It invites us to explore the depths of our imagination, spirituality, and compassion, blurring the lines between self and universe. The illusions it creates are really a nudge to dissolve our ego’s grip, helping us see beyond the material and embrace a higher sense of love, creativity, and unity with the cosmos.

As inspiring and touching as it sounds, the catch is that fulfilling Neptune’s mission can feel like chasing fog—just when we think we’ve got a handle on it, it slips through our fingers. Neptune wants us to transcend reality and connect with the divine, but let’s be real: that’s not exactly a day-to-day, grocery-list-friendly goal. For someone with heavy Neptune influence, this pursuit of higher meaning can be disorienting, leaving them feeling lost in a sea of "what ifs" and "maybes." And thanks to its grandeur idealism, it can push people to be hypersensitive, highly fearful of failure and completely inaccurate with what they may achieve in a day, let alone a lifetime!

For a Neptunian, the intuitive desire to be flawless and sufficient does not come from wordly expectations, but from a place of soulful calling that more often unconsciously than consciously tells them they're limitless beings living in a limited reality. And this is exactly the greatest challenge of all: to accept that the truth must be known while respecting the illusion, just as a spiritual teacher Michael Mirdad states.

That said, you can imagine what happens when mystical and whimsical Neptune gets cozy with your personal planets. Let's see in detail how it sprinkles its glitter them:

Sun

Soft Aspects: With soft aspects, your Sun is shining brighter than ever! Neptune sprinkles fairy dust on your creativity and confidence, making you feel like a superstar in your own musical. It’s all about embracing your spiritual side and believing that you can conquer the world—cape optional!

Hard Aspects: You’re the artist of your own identity, but the canvas keeps shifting. One day you’re an astronaut, the next day you’re a poet, and by the end of the week, you’re contemplating becoming a full-time mystic. Neptune tells you, "Be everything," but sometimes that just leaves you wondering, "Who am I, really?"

Moon

Soft Aspects: Your emotions flow like a gentle river, and you’re tuned in to everyone’s feelings like a super empath (you could be a cool wizard/witch or clairvoyant!). Neptune wraps you in a cozy blanket of intuition, making heartfelt connections feel like a warm hug from the universe. Cue the happy tears!

Hard Aspects: Enter the emotional whirlpool! Neptune can stir up your feelings like a cosmic blender, leading to mood swings and a general sense of overwhelm. You might find yourself daydreaming your way through real-life emotions, and good luck figuring out what you actually feel!

Mercury

Soft Aspects: With Neptune’s gentle nudge, your thoughts become a beautiful symphony! Communication flows like honey, and you’re bursting with creative ideas. It’s a fantastic time for writing, brainstorming, or chatting about all things magical and dreamy! You could be a music lover, a great singer or a romantic poet.

Hard Aspects: But when Neptune goes rogue, it’s like trying to read a recipe in a funhouse—everything’s upside down! Your thoughts get scattered, and communication feels like a game of telephone gone wrong. Get ready for misunderstandings and the occasional “Wait, what did you just say?” This aspect looks very similar to a Piscean or Sagittarian Mercury, a common link to ADHD.

Venus

Soft Aspects: Love is in the air! Neptune turns your romantic life into a whimsical fairy tale, where everything feels enchanting. Your heart opens wide, and connections deepen, making even the smallest moments feel like a scene from a rom-com.

Hard Aspects: But hold on! Neptune might have you wearing those rose-colored glasses a bit too tightly. You might find yourself idealizing partners or being swept away by fantasies, only to crash back to reality when things don’t match your dreamy expectations. Ouch!

Mars

Soft Aspects: With Neptune in your corner, your drive becomes a creative spark! You’re ready to take action with a burst of inspiration, making you feel like a superhero on a mission. Time to tackle those goals with flair and imagination!

Hard Aspects: When Neptune throws in a twist, it’s like trying to run through quicksand. Your motivation might wane, leaving you confused about where to focus your energy. It’s a cosmic case of “I had a plan… what was it again?”

To wrap it up after such long post, living with Neptune’s influence means you’ve got a backstage pass to the land of dreams, creativity, and big feelings. But it also means you might find yourself getting tangled up in illusions, setting sky-high standards that real life simply can’t meet. So when Neptune touches your personal planets, just remember: it's okay to dream big, but keep a little reality check in your back pocket. You can chase those rainbows, but don’t forget to pack an umbrella for when they dissolve into rain.

Thanks so much for reading, love you! 🥰

Written by @soberpluto

[kingmagnificoofrosas]

Analyzing King Magnifico

Oooh boy, I have a lot to say! This is gonna be long. So brace yourself. But first 👇

‼️Note, this is my very personal opinion‼️

I'm honestly glad how the multitude of people realizes that we don't have a villain here. And honestly, while some nag and whine around that they didn't get one, I'm not mad at all that we got Magnifico the way we got him.

So in the end, it doesn't matter to me if disney actually failed to create a villain or purposely created a good guy who changes to be the antagonist.

Ok, now to the analizing part

The very first thing we learn about Magnifico is that he has a pretty dark past. He lost his home and his entire family, anyone he ever loved, all in one night. And in a very curel way. That banner tells us a lot!

First of all, if we study the picture, we see a palace in the back, some houses and right down below young Magnifico and his parents. Now, why is that so important? Back in the days only very important people were potrayed on banners. Such as royals, families of very high status or knights. Banners and wallrugs were also used to tell important stories. And since the palace is on the banner, I'm pretty sure we have a royal family here. That would mean that Magnifico had been royalty from the very start.

Further we see that the bottom got burned. This tells us that there was a big fire. Which leads me to conclude that what Magnifico saw and experienced was most defenitely hell on earth. Imagine, his family, his home, everything burns. Screams of terror everywhere, the stench of dead burning flesh and smoke that nearly suffocates you! And he was very young when that happened. So we now know that the king has big time PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) Keep this in mind, because it's literally the key to this whole analysis.

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Out of his trauma, Magnifico strived to build a safe haven, where he could make sure no tragedy like the one he'd suffered would ever happen again. He build his kingdom, (on top of already existing buildings, as we know from the art book) He taught himself magic to actually have power to protect. He made sure his people are safe and live well. That no one has to suffer, endure hunger or hardships. Sounds like a evil rotten monster right?

Just look at the way he looks at the (wishes) dreams of his people. He appreciates and treasures them!

His genuine desire to protect and keep safe has always been good!

We only see him snap after Asha triggers him. And while ptsd people react overly sensitive or exaggerated, it is understandable once you know where they come from.

Analyzing Magnifico's ptsd closer and how it influenced his actions and decissions

Magnifico had looked for an apprentice that truly understands where he comes from and shares his ambitions. But the first thing Asha asks as soon as she gets the feeling she has the job safe, is if he can grant her grandfather's wish. I understand, that she cares for her grandfather but I also see Magnifico's feelings. Can you imagine how used he must feel? Constantly feeling the pressure of "I must protect what's dear to me! I must make sure my past never repeats!" And yet, the most people see him as is the "wish-granter".

Trauma shapes you, it shapes the way of thinking and if something triggers a response, you just react. If you like it or not. And oftentimes you're not even aware you're acting up. I can tell from personal expirience ...

So what about him being slightly vain and wanting respect?

Respect is earned. Generally everyone deserves to be threated with respect unless someone gives you a solid reason not to.

So let's recap some of the things Magnifico actually deserves respect for :

Surviving a horrible tragedy and still standing

Building up an entire kingdom and reigning it well (protecting his people fiercly and sucessfully bringing order)

Being selfless

Being king and carrying a freaking lot of responsibility

Now, let's look at Magnifico's "vanity moments" more closely and examine the things he does and says with questions of why?

The thing with his hair. He makes sure his hair looks nice. Ok, is this a bad thing? Does this make one ultimately vain? No. Being content with your hair and wanting to have it look good isn't vain. Neither is being happy about it. Or looking at yourself in the mirror and like yourself. You even should be able to look at yourself and love what you see. Pure vanity is something different.

What about what he says about himself in his song?

I can't help it if mirrors love my face

It's genetics! Yeah, I got these genes from outer space

Lets consider the situation and emotional state he's in. He's pissed. And I'm pretty sure this a way to try and lift himself up a bit. I mean, like mentioned above, there is nothing wrong with liking your appearance. And he IS freaking handsome. He's not lying when he acknowleges that fact.

Of course you could twist his words and say, oh he's arrogant and vain. But people can say lots of things and not actually be a bad person.

And while true vanity is a bad trait, it doesn't make one a villain. Let's compare Magnifico to Gaston for a second.

Gaston is rude from the very beginning. He's selfabsorbed and narcissistic all the way and the only thing he cares about is himself. He shows off to be praised simply for selfgratification and because he thinks he's the center of the world.

Magnifico cares immensily for others and wants acknowledgement for it. Who wouldn't? If you do something great and constantly care for others and still aren't really appreciated for it, who wouldn't be like, "I do all this and you thank me by doubting me and wanting even more? How ungrateful can one be?" And the only things we see people acknowledge him for, is 1. His ability to do magic and grant wishes, and 2. His handsome looks.

I totally understand that he's fed up at one point. Deep down wishing someone would see him for the man he truly is below all his abilities and appearance.

Gaston would walk over dead bodies to get what he wants and in order to look good. He has 0 compassion and 0 remorse.

So, even though Magnifico is a "little" vain, he's not out of evil reasons! It literally doesn't harm anyone and it doesn't cause others to suffer. If someone tells him "You're handsome." He replies, "I know."

Good! Too many people look into the mirror and hate themselves. Of course, humbler people would just reply with "thank you." But still, this isn't a solid point to call someone a villain or bad person.

Ok, now. So far we have absolutely no reason to assume Magnifico is a "villain" so let's skip to the part where it get's interesting!

The thing with the shape shifiting entity (star) happens. Something that is outside of Magnifico's power, something he doesn't understand and it terrifies him! Why? Not because he's a power hungry psycho, not because he enjoys controling people out of complacenty and is afraid to lose that. No. It's the desperation of feeling helpless, the terror of losing control, the fear of having the past repeat itself. That is what drives him mad.

Ultimately he becomes desperate and anxious enough to let himself get possesed. Even during the whole process, he says that he never wanted this, he swore he'd never let himslef be posessed. He further says, "To this book, I don't wanna be tethered, but desperate times call for desperate measures."

Let's hear that again folks! Real loud for all those in the back! He tell us 3 times, 3 times ! How he doesn't want to turn to darkness but he feels forced to do so. Why? Because of his trauma! Not because he's a villain. He doesn't want to lose his control out of fear!

Let me show you something.

There you have it! 🫴 it's that simple. I'm tired of traumatized characters being labeled as villains.

Oh yeah but he literally goes bonkers after he let himself be possesed by the evil from this book!

Yeah, sherlock, of course he behaved EVIL after that. That's literally the evil that possesed him! This doesn't make him a villain! It make's his whole situation even sadder and more tragic. The actions are obviously bad, "villainous" if you wanna call it that, but it doesn't make him a villain!

What happens to a scared animal that you force into a corner? It bites. Does this mean the animal is evil because it bit? No. It doesn't make the bite ok, but it doesn't make it evil either.

So, I, like many others also underline that Magnifico is in no way a villain but a traumatized good guy who sadly slipped.

His personality

Composed when needed

He can be bubbly as much as he can be calm. One of the first things Amaya tells Asha is that Magnifico likes to talk a lot, yet we never truly see him talk a lot! He is more calm than he is loud.

When Asha has her interview, he gives her room to talk rather than showering her in lectures of what he wants and what he expects. He's like "Go ahead, you tell me! Imma listen."

I actually feel this very personally because I'm someone who loves to talk. If I'm comfortable around someone and I made sure I can trust them, I can ramble for hours. I can talk and talk and talk like a waterfall. But at the same time, I can also be intensly quiet and listen well.

Childlike behavior

One of my absolute favourite characteristics in Magnifico is his childlike goofyness. He has this really pure cuteness to him and a bombastic humor. He doesn't pay heed if his behavior could seem akward to others, he just acts however he feels like. He's one of those adults that would still do all the things they enjoyed doing as a child or things that children normally do and I love that!

I cannot stop chuckling over the fact that he hippity hopps down one of his corridors, giving cookies to knight armors. If that isn't adorable I don't know what is! 😂

Also, please, that whole scene! The dance moves, the excitement, the expressiveness! Aaawwww!

He has a whole miniature model of his kingdom and he makes little interactive figures! I laughed tears because it's so funny and adorable! Like he's that kind of man that would cheer at the simplest accomplishments like a child unwrapping the toy the really wanted on christmas day.

There is so much we can find in here. He's :

Playful, creative, quirky, funny, passionate, imaginative, spunky, talented - the list goes on!

But let's keep going and listen to what else shimmers through the things he sings.

I'd give the clothes off Benito's back, if you really needed that

I'd be the first one to volunteer if your home were to crumble, or if you were in trouble

He doesn't just blabber nonsense here or lies. He truly would do all those things! Why else would he sing this while alone? He has no one around so one could say he's saying this on purpose to look good. He's frustrated, offended and slightly hurt and is speaking his mind and emotions. And we are shown this as an audience.

What do these lines tell us then? They tell us just what he actually is! Altruistic. It leads us right back to what we found at the beginning. His actual desire to help, keep safe and protect.

Why would he be the first one to volunteer if a home crumbles? Because his did. A king actually doesn't need to get his hands dirty. He has enough people to do things for him, yet he'd go out of his way to take matters into his own hands because he genuinly cares!

I let you live here for free and I don't even charge you rent

Doesn't sound like a power hungry, wealth loving, gold hoarding dictator to me. Get this, you are living in a kinddom for fee! No rent! The most money you make you keep and only a bit of it goes to the king to sustain the community. That's pretty awesome if you ask me.

I clean up all your messes and I'm always there when you need to vent

So he's not only selfless but a good listener as well. He doesn't judge. He, well -

I give and give and give and give-

He wants to make sure everyone is pleased. That's actually impossible but he still tries and is secrerly suffering deep down from it. If a person only ever gives and hardly gets anything back ... it's like you fill a container with water and there is no hole to drain it. Eventually you are so overly full of others problems, you suffocate or overflow.

It's SO sad that he doesn't have ANYONE to really talk to. He runs across half the palace to let out his emotions rather than seeking comfort from someone. (Which would be the oportunity to talk about Amaya but this is for another post!)

Charming, charismatic, proud, confident

The characteristics that make him attractive besides his looks. He's a gentleman, he knows how to use words well, he isn't afraid to speak his mind and carries himself with confidence, which is displayed in the way he walks. He either strides, has a light bounce to his step or a heavyness.

Ok, now, that we have the positives, we can acknowledge the negative and neutral ones. And everyone has negative traits. Again, some of Magnifico's negative traits are caused and or intensified by his ptsd.

Idealistic and perfectionistic -Magnifico constantly obsesses over how things should and could be. Chaos irritates him. He feels safe in clear structures and always strives for the best outcome for things. If something doesn't make sense for him, he feverly searches for answers until he finds them. If not, he panics. The tiniest feeling of potentially failing wrecks his nerves.

Impulsive - He's got a short temper. Yes, he can swallow a lot but if one crosses a certain line, he snaps. His emotions control him more than he controls them. And that goes both ways. Happy, sad, angry. He feels everything intense and reacts intense.

Stormy and insecure - He reacts very sensitive to stress. He feels a certain degree of urgency in his feelings and tends to be sucess-oriented. He always wants to improve and thus pressures himself.

Controlling - Magnifico's obsessive feeling of need to control comes from his traumatic past. As long as he's in control, he feels secure. He feels safe. Control is his safeplace. Not because he has evil motives but because in reality he's deeply insecure and anxious.

Paranoid and pessimistic - Again a trait that has been heavily altered by his ptsd. Originally he'd belong to the more cautious kind. Being cautious isn't something negative, it can be very helpful since one analyzes and observes carefully before choosing to trust or do something. But his trauma causes him to always assume the worst. He becomes critical where he wouldn't need to be because of his fear. (We see this with his decissions over wishes. He disregards some not because of ill will, ignorance or arrogance but because of his anxiety)

Stubborn - If Magnifico has set his mind on something he could go through walls with his head. Once he's determinded to do something, it's nearly impossible to stop him.

Distrustful - His paranoia and pessimism makes it hard for him to trust others. He becomes hard to read and hard to understand.

Now, once the evil that has been trapped in the book posesses Magnifico, he becomes ruthless, cruel and cynical. He steps into "villainous behavior" but is it what he truly is? NO! Of course not! If people talk about a classical villain, they mean a purely evil person from the very beginning of a movie/story. If we have a originally good guy, who, through circumstances, starts reacting and making wrong choices, we're talking about an antagonist.

And good grief, Magnifico was more than redeemable! If someone actually hadn't been blind to the true struggle of his soul, if someone had actually cared enough to save him! If someone had only truly loved him. He was used, wronged, backstabbed, betrayed, left alone and dropped like a hot potato the second he snapped. Poor Magnifico. He deserved better. Far better.

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Thank you for reading! I'll soon post more of my analyses. 🧐

Also, creating a redemption story for Magnifico is the most fun I've had writing in a long while. 🌹 I'm excited to eventually share it with you, once it's done.

[linktoo-doodles]

you've probably been asked this before but if you could change anything (rewrite remove add) about ctntduo (character, dynamic,events) what would it be?

Interesting, haven't been asked this before actually!

One of the crucial issues with ctntduo especially once it was established as an actual plot point during Las Nevadas is that while ccWilbur was focused on his own arc and how he and quackity were paralleled, ccQuackity had his own story to tell. He clearly included cWilbur's influence on his character, but nothing past this. I think it impacted the weight of tntduo's dynamic in the story.

In his finale and pentultimate stream, Quackity focused a lot more on dapuo and his character's dynamic with Charlie. I don't even fully agree with how it went, because he clearly wanted to include more stuff with the whole las nevadas crew and his dynamic with Charlie kind of went into a direction that didn't really fully flesh out their nuances that I would have liked. Charlie was a bit... woobified in his writing. But most significantly for this post, Quackity did not have the same emotional investment for ctntduo for the same way Wilbur did, and it accidentally shifted the character dynamic to being less of equal stance too.

So firstly, I mean this is a common suggestion but to have more streams with Wilbur to intersect the burger arc was one thing. I really like how it was more in Wilbur's POV to make Quackity's role in this more uncertain! But I would have desperately wanted Wilbur to have taken part of the prison break, clearly idolized Dream for saving him, then wrestled with exile after Tommy told him. Pissed off Quackity got to Dream before he did. Wished it was him doing the heroic torturing to gleefully put himself as the hero "saving" his brother. Inconsolable differences, where Wilbur straight up fantasizes killing cDream over and over was one of the most beautiful streams ever tbh.

Another theory that my friend suggested and NEVER got out of my head is that after Wilbur planted tnt detonations to fuck with Quackity, Quackity actively destroys a part of his city and blames it on Wilbur. Vile. Underhanded. No one has any evidence and people are quick to turn on Wilbur -- Tommy believes him though.

And, I've never admitted this but I personally believe Wilbur's finale had initially involved asking Quackity run away with him to Utah. I know. Not Tommy, he'd idiotically choose Quackity. I know that sounds really stupid but for this to work, Quackity would immediately turn him down. It would parallel when Wilbur eagerly accepts the "offer" to join Quackity's Las Nevadas from the very beginning. During that time, Wilbur is so in disbelief that Quackity would turn him down. You can see him convincing himself that he's changed for the better, you can see him really believing he'd be the perfect man for the job. But this time, when Quackity says no, Wilbur accepts it.

They would never work out, bc that is not the POINT of ctntduo. Each have their own arcs that are not resolved by ending up together. They go their separate ways in the end, but respect each other. I never liked him anyway.

so TLDR

More burger lore streams... We really didn't get much of ctntduo

Dream's prison break with Wilbur's slow descent realizing his "saviour" is not to be idolized

Quackity destroys part himself in the process trying to get back at Wilbur

"Come to Utah with me?" "...I won't."

[thegirlwhowrites642]

Hiii

Do you have more Ginny headcanon ?

Do you have fifteen hours?

I'd say most of my headcanons are more like deductions from canon to be honest. You can find some of them in my one-shots. Anyway, I'll try to make a list of strictly Ginny headcanons.

her favourite colour is green (which between Harry's eyes and the Harpies is basically canon, it's like saying that red being Harry's favourite colour is a headcanon)

as we all know Ginny loves cats, but seeing that her family could never afford to buy her one, she always had in mind that with her first paycheck, she would buy her first cat, and she does

when she was little she wrote adventure stories about her and The Boy Who Lived

writing was a part of her healing process after the Chamber

in her second year, Dumbledore invited her many times to play chess and it was a subtle way to bring her to open up about the diary (this is technically not canon but it's way more canon complaint that Dumbledore did this than the idea that he didn't, both from the perspective of him being a good loving man despite it all, and the cynical perspective of him wanting to know more about Riddle)

I'm a strong supporter of the universally accepted headcanon of Ginny and Sirius having late-night chats at Grimmauld Place

Ginny jokingly promised Sirius that if she and Harry would've actually ended up together (like Sirius seemed to believe) she would've called her first boy after him

as the years go by, she and Rita Skeeter develop a sort of frenemies situation (this is actually something I've been thinking of writing about for a long time)

with tpfy @takearisk-ao3 made me fall in love with the idea that Smith would remain an annoying presence in her life

she was arrested at least once while Harry was already Head Auror, it was very embarrassing for the Aurors involved

McGonagall asked her to become Head Girl but she turned it down

she was the first woman to become sports editor for the Daily Prophet (for who doesn't know this: sports journalism is an exetremely sexist field)

I can't imagine Ginny as anything but the coolest of mothers

every young Quidditch player dreams of the stamp of approval from Ginny Potter, if she says a player is going to be great then that player is going to be great, she very much has the power of influencing the players' market with her opinions

in general, I imagine Ginny as eventually a very revolutionary, iconic, and borderline intimidating figure of sports journalism, someone people would aspire to work with and become like (a sort of way less workaholic and good version of Miranda Priestly)

obviously, she published books, but I totally see her publishing also novels and I think that Ginny specifically writing children's novels in her last years would be a very full circle moment seeing that she started the story in love with The Boy Who Lived

I'm kind of into the idea of Ginny eventually starting her own newspaper (with Albus, because I headcanon him as a journalist too)

she is extremely careful in making sure Lily Luna never thinks she can't do something because she is a girl and she makes sure James and Albus never shove her aside

she loves Harry's smile (this is kind of canon, to be honest, fourth book) and she absolutely adores the sound of his laugh

she rescues animals like it's her job, the Potter house is filled with rescues (Harry is always grumpy at first about it, more because he feels like someone should be the reasonable one but secretly it's just one of the many things he loves about her)

the animals obviously have the weirdest names

she kind of likes Slughorn, in the way you like a weird uncle you see once a year

she absolutely can cook, she is the only daughter of Molly Weasley, of course she can cook, she just doesn't like doing it most of the time

even after she stops playing she still keeps doing regular physical exercise

absolutely accidental fashion icon

Ginevra was the name of her half-Italian maternal grandmother who died of a broken heart after Gideon and Fabian's deaths

she passes on to her kids her arts and crafts love, but especially to Teddy

All is well is something she started saying to Harry after he had nightmares, eventually, Harry started doing it with her too, and it sort of became their mantra

she was a bit disturbed by the fact that she would never be able to know if James and Lily would have approved of her, she went alone to their graves the day before her wedding to talk with them

this is substantially canon, but according to JKR, when yew wands (like Ginny's) get buried with their owner, a yew tree is born from the grave and I adore that image (the tree protects Harry's grave too)

I'm pretty sure I could go on for an eternity but let's stop here.

[lil-melody-moon]

Hello dear 👋🏻👋🏻 how its going? Has your uni situation got better? For this weekend question:

Since your big love towards drummers (you know about Lars, Nicko, Keith, Bonham ecc...) I was wondering, can you describe whats so special about them? Like in terms of ability, style, and the personal influence that they had on you😄 and why so you like that instrument so much? you can make a list of your favourites if you want❤️

(Hope that this is clear🫣)

Hello!

It's going somehow good, I could rest this weekend, like yay! After two weeks of constant working!

The uni situation got better, I have the worst week behind me, but I still have two big tests and then exams *sobs*

*looks at the question* Oh God girl, you are up for a motherfucking essay...

Okay, I will tackle it this way. I will first answer on the question why I like drums so much.

This is a very simple story. My only real and first experience with music was in preschool. We had those music lessons with one older teacher, she was a very nice, older woman. We either had dancing, singing or playing with instruments, the third being most rare. I know I once or twice got my tiny hands on a simple drum, a tiny one, but I loved playing it. I didn't want to give it away, I wanted to drum - was so sad when I couldn't get it tho, but I was so glad for those two times! I remember I told my mom about it, I probably was hoping that she will catch the hint that hey, I love that instrument, can I drum? But that didn't happen and here I am, grinning like an idiot whenever I see a drum set - my friend, who works in choir sends me pics if she sees a drum set or the big big drum the ones used in orchestra (gosh I love the big BOOM of them, aaaaa!). I have that one dream and it's being able to somehow play the drums one day - if I don't find anyone, which is very likely, I'll keep living with parents, get a job in the next year, try to find a place for eventual drum set and buy it, later wondering how the fuck should I carry it around XD

And now to the drummers! I think I'll make a list of like 10 drummers and try to describe them - I will show their drum sets, of course I will show those beauties!

No. 10 - Lars Ulrich

I don't listen to Metallica at all right now, but I can't just ignore the guy, even when I heard Metallica after listening to The Who and was like: "Damn, Lars, you ain't nothing special" XD So he's always closing up the list, because I have to mention him. He was the one who made me notice drumming once more, I'll say even more, the one who made me realize that I like to hear drums. I heard him play back in 2009, so I was 11 years old and you know, you kind of don't realize a lot of things at this age, but damn does the drumming in "All Nightmare Long" kicked me in my face. Soft drumming just to make it FUCKING LOUD, not the fastest of his, but very powerful and most of all, it's louder than that fucking guitar, like yes, this is how it's suppose to be guys! But the favorite stays and will stay for all eternity, fucking "Dyers Eve". Rough drumming at the beginning, long intro, drumming slowing down just to go FUCKING NUTS THE REST OF THE WAY. I actually listen to the song I'll mention and now I'm listening to Dyers Even and I can hear those two bass drums and like only now I realize how someone else influenced my style. Here's the beauty Lars plays on:

No. 9 - Rick Allen

A very fresh drummer on this list. I've never wasn't a fan of Def Leppard, but I've finally gave them a fair chance thanks to @jimmysdragonsuit13 and I have to admit, I was wrong about them on so many levels. "Bringin' On The Heartbreak" changed it all. Drumming in this one is soft, but it still has that power Rick has in his arms while playing. See, I like when there is heard that power in hitting the drums when drummer plays. When there's power, the drumming sounds so good that I can actually lay down and fly away on a cloud, not noticing it. I have a soft spot for rhythmical guys - that's why someone is very high on the list - and Rick fills that spot just right. Plus, you know? "Switch 625" exists and if that ain't the true beauty of Rick's drumming then I don't know what is. Plus, he still slays with one arm - he sounds better than 99% of modern drummers, no I don't regret saying that. He had no influence on me, but he convinced me to the band, good for him XD And the beauty he plays on:

No. 8 - Dave Grohol

New one as well, @radioroger presented him to me again, after I forgot Nirvana existed. Then dad wanted them on his phone again and I listened and I was like: "I hear John fucking Bonham in his style" and I wasn't mistaken! Bonzo was the biggest influence for Dave and God bless for that, because Dave sounds amazing. Powerful, quick whenever he has to, the drums are the lead instrument - LIKE THEY SHOULD BE - and they're just fucking loud. His style is also very heavy, but once you get in the rhythm you just flow. The best example of his drumming for me is "Radio Friendly Unit Shifter". It's aggressive, rhythmical, very Bonzo like and I love it (the boom-boom on the bass drums <3)! No major influence, but I do remember hearing Nirvana once in a while and I already loved his drumming when I was younger. "In Bloom" being the song that convinced me to Nirvana years ago. And the beauty he plays on:

No. 7 - Jordi

I will sound very typical there, but he's new on the list, because I've never paid much attention to Slipknot in the first place. I was pushed away from them because of the clothing, but I once watched a music playlist on tv and they've played "Duality" and let me tell you, the first fucking thing when I heard Jordi's drumming was "Wait, I HEAR MOON IN THIS" and damn was I not disappointed - also guessed the influence. I've went on Spotify, listened to them and discovered "Psychosocial" and damn did my mind was fucking blown to pieces. I mean, the intro is tame for them, then soft drumming and then it's just pure aggression on drums and the power on them, omfg, mixed with the bass drums, like yes, this is how drummers should fucking play AND THE DRUMS ARE LOUDER THAN THE REST, LIKE DOUBLE YES. Not any influence, but like, I listen to Slipknot just because of Jordi. Also look at this beast of a drumset:

THIS IS A DRUMSET!

No. 6 - Cozy Powell

This guy is a madman on drums. This guy is a wonderful drummer and I can listen to him all the fucking time, this should be enough, but I will say more! We are going in the territory where I can't unglue my eyes when I see the drummer and damn is Cozy a candy to my eye when I can see him play. The way he seemed to fly on his drumset is impossible to describe and "A Light In The Black" only proves my point. Not only rhythmical, but talented to the point of composing his own songs and slaying every single one I heard so far. I'll say even more. If not Cozy, Rainbow wouldn't sound as good as it does. Seriously, the song I've linked is purely driven by Cozy's insane drumming. Not a major influence this guy, but I've discovered Rainbow and then Deep Purple thanks to him. I still like Rainbow more - Cozy, duh and Dio on vocals, no one can fucking beat that - and Cozy is somehow special to me. I think he was one of the first drummers that made me look at 70s music more seriously. And the beauty he played on:

No. 5 - Ringo Starr

Now this is the guy I mentioned earlier, that he is so high above while being a rhythmical drummer only. Now where do I start with him... Okay, maybe first of all, I'll start with this, I'll just talk about "Yellow Submarine" XD I was in a very dark place in my life a few years ago you know. Parents were painting walls in the living room, playing music and the tv station played this song. While it has a very simple drumming, I was drawn to it immediately. Asking who is it playing and all. This song actually saved my life back then, then I forgot about it and then I gave The Beatles a chance. Once I heard this song I started crying, happy that I've found the baby of a song that I've cherished so much. Then I saw the drummer and then it all went down that hill! I was listening to their records almost chronologically, until I've watched "Help!" and heard the song. You won't believe it, the small drumming part between verse and chorus was the few seconds that made me go "Ringo's GOOD". His drumming is extremely catchy, rhythmical to the point of him being the click himself, plus when I see him drumming it's just a festival of pure joy for me. He just fucking dances while playing, it's so good, you just see he has the best of fun on the drums, like, you can't have a better example of a drummer having fun in the 60s while being categorized by me as rhythmical drummer. Not a major influence, but he made a path for me to someone with the help of another drummer who will be on the list. The sweet drumset of his:

He did and still does so freaking much on this baby!

No. 4 - Buddy Rich

That guy is really really REALLY out of this list. I heard him by total accident while browsing youtube and I suddenly saw an old video of a drummer and then this:

11 minutes of pure, amazing, skilled beyond belief drumming. You have to see and hear it by yourself, it's impossible to describe what Buddy does on this freaking instrument while having such a tiny set. It's magic, pure pure magic. Not an influence at all, but I can see that he might be my starting point on to the jazz music, because if I have to find such amazing drummers likr him there, I might as well start listening to jazz.

No. 3 - Stewart Copeland

Now here's an odd one! I knew The Police for a long time, dad loves them, mom hates them and I didn't have a lot of chances to really listen to them, until the previously mentioned tv station. They've, my dear, played "Roxanne" during my fresh The Who phase and I only needed to hear the first few second of drumming before the slight pause to love it immediately. Stewart is a very skilled guy, rhythmical, chaotic, he has the fun of his life on drums, has the power to make the drums sounds soft but also smash them to give that BOOM sound I love so much. He also has the same hold of left hand on the drumstick like Buddy Rich, which makes it very easy to make quick sounds. Also the way he can keep the speed throughout the entire song? I mean, listen to "Synchronicity I", this is a drumming masterpiece, everything so well played I fucking can't but scream when I hear it. Also he's a great composer and I was so happy to recognize Copeland when I've played Spyro games and heard the soundtrack. I also bought The Police concert on DVD lately and finally could see him on stage - he's so focused on his work and it gives wonderful results. I wish the camera was focused on him more, I would DIE to see him all the time on stage, his work on stage IS INSANE. Not any influence from him, he just passed along, pulled me by my ear and let me listen to him in peace XD And here the beauty of his:

No. 2 - John Bonham

Now where the fuck do I start with him? I mean it almost seems like he came to me in the right time, in the right moment, literally wrapping his arm around my shoulders and saying: "I'll help ya with your troubles and will show you something" and it was also when I heard "In My Time Of Dying" as a whole for the first time in my life. I did listen to Led Zeppelin in chronological order, went nuts when I heard "Moby Dick", first drum solo I've heard in my life, but "In My Time Of Dying" convinced me that Bonzo is the guy for me in this band. The power in his arms is incredible, you can hear it in his playing, rhythmical, chaotic, you name it. He could go and play at insane speeds, and this song is a perfect example of John playing slowly, just to speed up and freaking thrash on the drums at the very end. He was a major influence for me, Led Zeppelin being the band that kind of started my obsession with music, "Babe I'm Gonna Leave You" being the first song that really hit where it should. I also don't know what's it with the sound of his drumset, but you only have to listen to it for a while and you know it's this bear behind the drum kit, killing it in every second of the song. AND GOD DON'T LET ME START ABOUT LIVE VERSIONS OF MOBY DICK. I can blast this shit for full 30 minutes without a single fuck given, I love his playing so much. He made me love the raw sound of drums and also made me realize that drums should be on the first place in music, not a background noise that is creating rhythm for the band. No, that is fucking boring. You gotta made them SOUND good, you can't just sit and play the rhythm and use all of the power you have in your arms and legs to play them. I also think Bonzo caused my ears to become so used to drumming that I'm not bothered by how loud they are. And honestly good, because like I've already mentioned while talking about Ringo, John was the second guy who made a path for me to someone... For now, his beautiful drumset:

No. 1 - Keith Moon

You knew he will be there, there couldn't be anyone else. Let's skip back to the story about the lonely drum at preschool I told you about. I kept the instrument dear to my heart, listening to various music, but there was a day when I've stepped into the living room when my mom was watching the original CSI series. I've stepped when the outro was playing and you know, 10 years old me was like "What is that? Can I stay?" and then I heard the intro. That day was the one that made me be obsessed with drumming. I heard Keith Moon drumming at that day and only now, when I started listening to them I've realized that this fucking drunkard is responsible for my drumming obsession. This was an instant impact, I loved the intro so much, along with the two others that I watched the series just to hear the music. Parents knew the band but they didn't play it to me, until I've discovered them again, and then again, and then in the last year for the last time, to become who I am now. An insane fucking loon about Keith Moon.

His drumming style is the base for me to look at other drummers. It's the most chaotic, artsy, insane, mad driven playing I adore with my whole soul and body. "Who Are You" being the first song I heard by The Who, still feeling very nostalgic for it. "Bell Boy" being the prime example for me how drums should sound like. Loud, insane, overtaking the whole fucking song, because this is the main instrument, bass, guitar and any other being the side ones, even the vocals being treated like a part of background noise that tries to overscream the drumming. Ya just listen to the part before the chorus - also sang by Keith - to hear how loud the drumming is, especially in the second part of the song.

Also his playing style. Mad, insane, all over the place, self taught, powerful, destructive even - those are the best qualities that a drummer can get. If a drummer can go to the drumset and destroy it with his playing power? Yes, that is what I'm talking about. Smash it to pieces because you have this much power in your arms and legs and you're giving it all.

And the path that I kept mentioning, led to him. John Bonham pulled me into older music, Ringo Starr convinced me to older music, then John took my hand and pushed me into Keith's direction, where I've found what I lost at childhood, so the most influential musician for me without who I'm a shell of myself.

And now, the beast of the beautiful drumset he had:

[todayisafridaynight]

OKAY THE JO ASK I MENTIONED

I'm working on next week's video and it's just like 8 Characters Appearing In Y8 or whatever, and there's a lot I've scrapped to keep it manageable, but obviously I re-listened to the teaser trailer and it got me thinking about Y8 Jo... as usual...

RGG's connection with reality is tenuous at best, but in the case of prison life especially, it's pretty obvious it's Mostly modeled off of movies and other media. Which is fine, RGG is more often than not actively "going for RGG-ism rather than realism" (per staff interview), but it does mean I'll be BSing my way through most of this ask <3

So unlike America, in Japan, inmates can't just make a list of people who can visit them (I would cry if that were the case). Only family, people connected to the case/law enforcement/civil servants, and people who need to consult them about personal matters with legal consequences (e.g. marriage, childcare, employment) can get in.

Friends and associates aren't generally barred from visitation, but Basically It's A Pain In The Ass that requires consistent correspondence to prove they know each other. On top of wardens summarily rejecting visitation requests they don't think will be Productive for the inmate, there's an additional challenge for someone like Ichi as people with criminal records are deemed Bad Influences and so face higher rates of rejection and letter confiscation.

Now. ABSOLUTELY none of this Actually Matters because we've seen Yasuko (who absolutely should have a right to visitation) get rejected and people who probably shouldn't have a right be able to get in. Most wardens don't actually do their jobs (either because they're corrupt or because they're My Man Kosaka From Y5). Because of that corruption, even if a big deal is made of it (50/50 on that), it shouldn't be too hard for someone like Ichi to arrange a visit. It's just down to whatever Yokoyama and co. think is the best for the story.

HOWEVER. It did get me thinking. Because even before I noticed it was Jo's voice, I noticed he definitely didn't sound surprised to see Ichi. He doesn't miss a beat greeting him. And "been a long time, Ichi" has some nuance to it for being such a simple phrase; if you're saying it, and you're Jo, you're not only not surprised to see Ichi, but also the one who's starting the conversation proper and in control of the conversation, whether Ichi knows it or not. At least that's how it's been used so far and how it's generally used in media.

So it's like, What's The Circumstance Here where Ichi is not only able to meet him but Jo also isn't surprised... are you playing it cool... are you gonna be cunty... have you been writing/calling so you know to expect it... do you have other reasons to expect it... If I May Dream A Moment are you meeting outside of prison, so Ichi's the one who's caught by surprise...

This literally isn't even Anything for how long this ask is lol sorry I'm just. Yeah. I am once again Thinking

nothin like a lil thinkin while we wait for more lad8 news yk..... im an encourager of it hell yeah.......

[fallenangelforestprince]

It's not that I honestly care about his unsavory opinions of trans people Like honest to God, I disagree, but I'm not here to police thoughts. And it's not like it will change anything so what the fuck does it matter He's a dick, who will get people killed. But as much as it does bother me. That's not the reason This pos was never home, and now that he is, he's glued to the tv. Filling his head with hate and lies Claiming public schools indoctrinate kids to be trans. But he only talks about how 'little boys and becoming little girls' And it makes me realize, he doesn't know kids (It also makes me realize just how misogynistic anti-trans people are. But that's for another day) Try. Just fucking try to make a kid do something they don't want to. Try to get child-me to wear a coat or socks. To get my sister as a kid to wear a shirt, or my brother as a kid - and even now - to wear jeans or shoes. Try to talk up a vegetable. Try to make something they hate sound appealing. Cause when I was little and you threatened to cry if I didn't try the fish you caught, did I eat it? No. Kids will not do what they don't want to unless scared. And then, they will only do it infront of who they're scared of. If a kid was truly being 'indoctrinated' by teachers, they'd be pulling anything the teacher put them in, off in the car. Why else do trans kids hide binders in school lockers or friends houses? Why do they put on skirts behind closed doors when no one else is home? Because they'll be themselves when there's no fear. All this tells me is how many dead-beat parents there are in the world, who - when their child doesn't live up to exactly who they had in mind, lose their shit. They weren't taught disappointment nor acceptance well enough to remain a good - and important - figure in their child's life, and instead of loving them, try to point fingers and find a source of blame for their shattered dream. Not realizing that this child was always going to be who they are If just being told something exists is 'indoctrination' then any form of contact with a child, is influence. Don't cook in front of them! They may become a chef! Don't draw! They may become a starving artist!! "Little billy loves astrology! He's going to be an astronaut!" *Billy discover geology* *Billy now loves geology* "SCHOOL INDOCTRINATED YOU!!" At this point, we could call learning of the mere word "depression" is influencing kids to die. Instead of teaching them they aren't alone in their feelings and opening doors for them to actually get help. That's how stupid this sounds. But no, still, hilariously, this isn't what bothers me most. What bothers me most is super selfish. It's the fact that even now, now that he's retired and home (has been for over a decade) he cares more about imaginary children than his own. Imagery kids occupy his mind more than his own. I'm collage-age. I need to learn how to get a job, drive a car, to get bank accounts in my name, how to sign up for classes, and how to figure out what I'm doing with my life. But no. He's not there for me. But 100% there and bitching about made-up stories He wasn't there when I got sick. Made no effort to help me figure things out. Or has even taken the time to learn what I have. There's a point where I may need a pacemaker, yet this man prays for EMP blasts. I do not feel loved. And I feel forever failed. Yet, I'm supposed to love him. As 'he bought me stuff as a kid' and """loves""" me! Listen here, there's plenty of old men with cash I can call daddy. You are not special. And you are not a dad

[hgghgfd]

Interview from Juice - May, 1994

by Mark Mordue Transcribed by nibble@gil.com.au

Australia's dark prince of rock lightens up on his new disc Let Love In. In his adopted home of Brazil, Cave and Mark Mordue lock horns, hymns and hugs.

Mordue: Could you describe for us a favourite walk you take in Sao Paolo, Brazil?

Cave: Well, I make my favourite walk daily. Which is up to my local bar. Out the door, up the street, past the junkyard where the chickens and the old junkyard dog sits. And up a steep hill to my favourite bar, San Pedro's. There's this giant barman there who is the fattest guy I've ever seen. He is constantly described by locals as a huge woman, but he's a man with a moustache. He looks more like a giant baby to me. I sit there and read, drink, and contemplate the meaning of life. Then I walk back down.

M: So what were you reading at the time of Let Love In? I was wondering about literary influences on the lyrics.

C: I draw influences from everywhere, in terms of a line that will excite me - and maybe a song will develop out of it. It can often come from the worst airport novel you could ever find. It doesn't necessarily have to be good literature to be inspiring. I couldn't tell you what I was reading at the time. I read three, four books a week.

M: 'Let Love In' is a very positive and celebratory statement.

C: It's supposed to be. There isn't much irony in it, although people have expressed that interpretation of the title. It's the idea of letting love in and experiencing what love has to give. It's not necessarily all good - but it's all worthwhile.

M: What about the lines in the first single, Do you Love Me? "I stacked all accomplishments beside her/Yet they seemed so obsolete and small."

C: Yet I seemed so obsolete and small... Well, I feel that way. That's a very personal song, actually. It's a nice line, I think.

M: Later you say, "Do you love me?/Like I love you?" I think when two people are trying to get along, in a way they are trying to make love be the same. But that is the big miscommunication.

C: Yeah, yeah, that sounds okay. (Laughs) I was really going to try not to go into what the songs are about. I did that with Henry's Dream and I always regretted it.

M: How come?

C: I think it demystifies everything. It's like an actor talking about his role in a film. If he does a good job of acting it, you don't need him sitting there on some entertainment program talking about what his character is supposed to be. I always find that immensely irritating. I just didn't want to have to spell out the songs, that's all I'm trying to say.

M: I'm not necessarily asking that of you. I'm just interested in using them as points to leap off into discussion. Jangling Jack really jumped out at me as the album's sing-a-long track.

C: That was written very quickly. And I hope it sounds like it. It's about an Englishman going to America and getting shot. It's my little ode to America. I deliberately wanted it to be as throw-away and as short as possible. So the only way I could record the song was if I could make it in under three minutes. We had to pare it down and down and down. It's about two minutes, fifty. It's just a hateful little track about a certain aspect of America which disgusts me.

M: In Jangling Jack I also got an impression of you hating a man being cool and excessively confident.

C: Well Jangling Jack isn't the object of hatred in it. It's the guy who kills him actually... It's just a quick, throw-away song.

M: Loverman was the other song that I got into. When my friend and I were listening to it, he described it as 'a real togs-off rock & roll song'.

C: (Laughs) I don't know about a 'togs-off rock & roll song'. Very briefly, it's about a guy or person destroyed by his life, feeling that he can become something if he is rejuvenated by the object of his desire. It's a flailing mess of a song. And of course he can't be.

M: So you don't think a woman can redeem a lost man?

C: (Laughs) I think it's a myth, but who knows?

M: I like the incantation at the end: "I am what I am what I am..." It reminded me of some cartoon character.

C: I think it's Popeye "I am what I am what I am".

M: I love the simplicity of the opening to She's Nobody's Baby Now, where you talk about trying to "unravel the mystery of Jesus Christ, the Saviour". It made me wonder about the first time you had a notion of what Jesus was in your life? And then maybe you rejected that in your upbringing?

C: You want me to talk about that?

M: Yeah, if you could.

C: Well, the line is in a verse in which someone is trying to work out why he isn't with a woman anymore. But at some point along the way I had some vague religious notions about things. I still read the Bible a lot. And I still think that Jesus Christ is an extremely enigmatic and exciting figure. But I can't really get my teeth around the resurrection and the virgin birth. I mean, I just can't believe that. I look at him objectively these days.

M: So you don't find yourself becoming more religious?

C: I don't find myself becoming religious at all.

M: A song that made me laugh was Lay Me Low, about when you die. And the cavalcade of cars and the six page feature articles that will be written. It made me wonder if you ever fantasised about having one of your songs played at your own funeral?

C: No, I don't. I've never thought about it.

M: Never thought about a song in particular? Or never thought about dying?

C: I've thought about dying. Everyone has thought about dying! But no, I haven't made a list of songs I want played at my funeral. I haven't written all my good songs yet, so that would be a bit premature. I'm not planning on dying in the near future.

M: Is Let Love In a breakthrough for you?

C: Every record has its difficulties. Mostly for me it's in the actual writing of the songs, and this was equally difficult. There was as much panic and fear that I wouldn't have it done as there was with any other record. But once the songs were recorded it fell together so easily. And I believe that is because we worked with people we knew, and who understood our work. Especially Tony Cohen, the guy who produced it with me. We knew that we were doing something that was going to be good. Right from the early stages, the foundations of the record were really strong. We didn't relax at any point, but we could play around with stuff a lot more. And it was a lot more of a creative experience than the last one (Henry's Dream).

M: Tony Cohen must be amazingly talented - producing the Cruel Sea's The Honeymoon is Over, Dave Graney's Night of the Wolverine, and now this. He apparently brings out the best in people.

C: He has an understanding. He knows what to do, and gets on with it. And he's great with sounds. He enjoys making offensive records, I think. He just enjoys it. It's not a job to him.

M: There's a real energy to this record, more so than for a long time. I wonder if you wanted to come out towards your audience more, and seduce them, invite them in at the same time? Some of your records aren't easy to approach, but there's something inviting and playable about Let Love In.

C: With Henry's Dream I wanted to make an incredibly aggressive record with acoustic instruments - a raw, nasty record. And it isn't that. It's basically a rock record - and not much more - and that's not what I wanted to make at all. Let Love In has a wide range of song styles, there isn't such a concrete idea about it. The songs are joined very close together lyrically. But musically it's quite diverse.

M: Have you gone through times when you've thought, "Is my talent slipping? Are things falling apart? Do I have the strength to be the kind of performer that I used to be?" And with these questions, were you looking to refocus your power with Let Love In?

C: I've always gone through that feeling. I've always been in a panic about these issues. Right from The Birthday Party. I used to approach each record with a great fear - that it wouldn't be accomplished enough or whatever. And it continues. It's always very difficult for me to write songs, and I don't expect that will ever change.

M: Why is it so difficult? The image, in spite of the songs having their work, is that they do pour out.

C: Or fall out of the sky? Well, they don't. It takes me ages, months, to write a song. Occasionally I get what I describe as 'given' a song, where you just suddenly find you've written a song and you don't know how or where it comes from, but it sounds okay. Normally, songs take a very long time to write, and a lot of consideration. With the artwork for this record, behind the actual lyrics I've tried to put various pages from the working process of the songs. They're like a backdrop to each lyric, showing how much writing goes on. Some of them have ten, twenty verses, to end up being a three verse song. I'm always very finicky about that side of things. Probably too finicky. I guess that's a strength and a weakness at the same time.

M: There is such a thing as letting your conversational expression tell the story that needs to be told, and forgetting about the style or technique.

C: Yeah. I Let Love In is like that. And Red Right Hand was almost completely improvised at the moment of actually singing it. But the other ones, like the two Do You Love Mes took ages to write. I don't think any one song is better than the other. I just think you have to get to a point, one way or another.

M: Currently I'm perfecting hunching over at the right moment on Loverman and singing along to it, or doing "Do-da-de-doo" down the street to Jangling Jack. I really do love this record, I think it's a beauty.

C: I love it too. I'm really very happy with it. I've survived in Sao Paolo for two months now. Usually by the end of the first month, because I just sit here and do nothing really, I'm champing at the bit to get out and start working again. Which is a basic panic thing that I get into. But here I am, sitting back with this, because I feel like I've really done something worthwhile with this record.

[thealexandriaarchives]

Y'know there are about 50 different straws on my back the last couple months but it's very fucking funny that the one that seems to have broken it is that from being burnt out as fuck at work again already after two days back and not able to give a fuck when I'm already missing deadlines, I've finally managed to get outside of the office for some fresh air and social activity. I am very late and I having a throbbing headache and nausea from day two of a severe period that is not being helped by the sounds of a baseball stadium, a game I don't really care about at all, but it is the home team and bougie stadium with my partner and until very recently they were having a killer summer, so I scored us tickets on the day that also gets us free pink hats and donations that support my favorite local nerdy museum with my membership to said museum. When we finally get to our seats and it is almost the 3rd inning already, my partner, understandably annoyed I left him outside for an hour (I had offered to send his ticket tbf and I had been rescuing his sister or I would have been a reasonable 15 minutes late) goes to get our hats before they're gone with the tickets on my phone and in the sudden silence between innings I have quiet and fresh air and 6 am meetings and work I can't give a fuck about and pushes to move further into a career path that is sensible and sustainable and not at all what I want to do with my life but makes enough money to keep the bills comfortably paid for two most months with new stress Hyperfixation purchases added in and all of a sudden-

My fucking parent corporation's name, logo, a stupid catch phrase I have never heard before, and 'come be an innovator / careers / team name' is all over the goddamn stadium. The Megatron, the banner boards, everywhere. In silence. For minutes. Then it changes. To another nearly identical set of ads for my parent Corp.

I am totally alone. With no phone for documentation for this surreal experience. Come on, be an innovator. Careers with us. It's been 6.5 years since you took your first job at this company and you like your company and the bosses and the work has been fine but the corporation who owns you is getting more restrictive and shitty and you are once again just staying put because you don't know what you want that's actually feasible and you like your boss and want to help which is a terrible reason.

It's a few hours and one talk with my partner who reminds me again that non-profits actually pay the big bucks to retain real full time qualified staff and one half assed overly filtered search later I am staring at indeed.com with a receeding headache and acid still churning in my stomache and half a dozen bad influence new blorbos whispering encouragement in my ear as I consider their opinion that there's nothing wrong with slapping your massive dick down on the table and saying 'so what's up i read your posting turns out I am your overqualified dream candidate with half a dozen things you didn't even ask for but don't worry I'll accept the low six figures and full benefits package you're offering anyways tbh I just want to feel some fucking control of my life again and like there's something useful to the office drone shit i excel at. here is my list of conditions, I await your call.'

[violetfairydust]

Trivia about my fic What Sees Us in the Dark that no one asked for. Here is the link to the fic on tumblr. I do spoil some things.

After I finished writing the fic, weird things started happening. We see and hear things that aren't there. Not to the extent in the fic, but we started seeing flies at the house and at my mom's new job

I had an anxiety attack writing this fic, particularly the scene with Stiles' dream about seeing the shadow figure and his following reaction

That is because, in real life, that happened to me

Every event in this fic happened to me and my family

That is the the reason I wanted to include the line "You wouldn't believe us if we told you." It can sound outlandish, but all of this happened

Some things I did dramatize, like Derek coming out to find the TV on and it's playing Poltergeist. Poltergeist was not on TV

The TV turning on seconds after it was turned off is not dramatization. And this is an old TV. I think my parents got it in the 90s, so it's not some Smart TV that malfunctioned

The events are condensed to a year in the fic when in real life, bar the ouija board scene, this happened over a span of 20 years

The ouija board incident happened to my mom and a family friend about 15 years before I was born, but I wanted to use it to show how dangerous they can be

I changed the order of events. In real life, the impression on the bed was first. I did have a dream about people being possessed and contorting at the neck (it was actually Teen Wolf characters in the dream) and I did have a scratch when I woke up. That was the last event and it was after we moved out

I did drop a ring. Just like the fic, it appeared on the floor as if someone placed it there. It was in plain sight a good 4 feet from where I dropped it. We would have seen it. The only difference is that we didn't find it for almost 4 years

Also for dramatization, I made the flies dead. In our house they were alive. My grandfather had to vacuum all these flies about 3 times a day for 4 days. My mom said there were about 80 flies total in the room at one time. Most of them were in the windows, some were just flying around. They never flew out of that room even though the door was open

I slipped in inside jokes. Just like Derek says, when my mom walked into the room, she said it was like Amityville Horror. Stiles also refers to the guest room as "the fly room." My family still calls it this

There were some things I cut from the outline. The most disturbing was I was having horrible nightmares. My family really isn't religious, but with my grandmother being a former Catholic we have holy water. I would cleanse my room with holy water and that seemed to make everything worse

Some of the things that happened were not at the apartment we lived in at the time, but I added them because I thought they were creepy. Like Derek feeling someone sit next to him on the bed. We lived in a different state at that time

I hated going into the hallway in the middle of the night. I hated being out of my room in general. And I hated the left corner in my room and the closets closest to the door, so those elements influenced the fic as well

Even a year after moving out, I still have dreams about possession, but when I use holy water to cleanse the bedroom, it works now

My mental health and overall mood has improved greatly since we left

[daylilifiedsundrewdrops]

Suddenly, Protag spoke up, placing his index finger up to Coworker's mouth to shush him. '' Okay, my friend, you wanna charm me into agreeing, sorry to burst your bubble but it just won't happen. '' He spoke.

Coworker seemed a bit surprised. It was usually him cutting off this newbie, not the opposite.

'' So, thanks, but no. I think I'm good to go, '' He finally removed his finger from Coworker's face. '' Because I don't mind this life you say I'm trapped in. ''

It felt as if he was challenging his colleague.

Protag stood up, standing to his full height. Which in fact, wasn't very tall. He still was a head shorter than Coworker. '' Now, I don't really admire you, but I admire this show you do, you're onto something. '' It seemed to pain him saying that. '' Really, it's something. ''

'' But I don't live among the swells, '' The man decided to sit back down, taking a moment to fully gulp down his neglected alcohol. '' And you don't pick up peanut shells. I'll have to leave it up to you. ''

At least he admitted to being broke, Coworker thought. He'd have to pay for the alcohol for this man.

Now, there was a surprised but amused look on Coworker's face. Contrary to Protag's unfazed one. '' Don't you know that I'm okay? I'm fine with this up-down part I have to play. ''

He sounded kind-of frustrated when he said that, Coworker noted. '' Because this job's all I need and I don't need to take that ride, I want to see that other side. ''

'' So go on, do what you do. I'll do like me. '' Protag glared at his colleague. '' Not in a cage so I don't need to find that key. ''

What a white lie. He was in a cage, and he knew it. A corporate prison shackling him with too many connections there.

''Now, can't you see I'm doin' fine? I don't need to see that other side!'' He waved off his previous thoughts, standing up once more. He seemed about ready to leave.

And leave he tried. Tried. His fingers wrapped around the doorknob, but before he could even turn it, his thoughts were interrupted again when that charismatic asshole of a confrère spoke up.

'' Now, is this really how you'd like to spend your days? Whiskeys, miseries and pitiful displays? ''

His voice sounded so nice. Protag can at least say that. It felt like lemons on your tongue to even compliment him.

Protag didn't hate him that much, but he seems to love getting on his nerves sometimes and being so unpleasant. At least he can get him to pay for everything.

'' If I collaborated with you, I'd be the talk of the work. I'm disgraced and disowned, I'm just another nameless face. '' There was a certain bitterness to Protag's voice.

He needs this job.

Behind him, Coworker's brows furrowed at his self-deprecating words, but quickly, he returned to his manipulatively charming look.

'' But you would finally live a little! ''

Protag froze.

'' Finally laugh a little. ''

Now, that did sound good…

'' Just let me give you such freedom to let you dream, it'll wake you up and cure your aching. Take your walls and start 'em breaking… ''

He could hear Coworker approach him a few steps… '' Now that's a deal that seems worth taking! '' …before seemingly changing his mind and turning away.

'' …But I guess I'll leave that up to you. '' He smirked. He knew he's got the man hooked already.

Without thought, Protag whipped his head around, completely deciding not to be left hanging.

But he still had some… hesitation.

'' I guess it's intriguing, but to go will cause me greatly. So how much influence over this partnership am I taking? '' He asked.

Finally, thought Coworker, he's actually using his brain this time. The Blonde gestured for the bartender to pour them some more drinks.

'' Fair enough that you'd want a piece of all this action! '' He mirrored Protag, facing him as well. '' I'd give you 7, we can shake and make it happen. ''

It didn't seem like his Coworker liked what he heard. '' I wasn't born this mornin', 18 would be just fine! ''

'' Why not just go ahead and ask for nickels on the dime? '' Coworker retorted.

'' 15. ''

'' I think 8. ''

'' 12! ''

'' Maybe 9… ''

'' 10. ''

Pause.

The shorter man looked at the bartender, who seemed to be waiting for his money. He looked done with everything.

Fortunately, Coworker immediately whipped out a few bucks and slapped it onto the counter, freeing them from their minor distraction.

It appeared so that they came to a mutual agreement. The two of them stood erect. '' So, we agree? ''

Protag nodded. '' Looks like you've got yourself a partner. '' He mused, reaching his hand out.

Coworker obliged and shook his hand. '' What I have is an overcompensated assistant. '' They both stared at each other for a few moments.

And they both smiled. Protag's was less noticeable.

'' I thought you wouldn't know how to convince me. '' The man admitted, leaning against the table and taking a swig of the new glass that his colleague just paid for.

Speaking of his colleague, he also did the same, though he took slower sips of the alcohol.

'' It's cause I got- ''

'' What I need, yeah. ''

At least he finished his sentence, instead of fully cutting him off. Coworker narrowed his eyes, before turning his gaze. He leaned his cheek up onto his palm. '' I got everything! And you don't even have to worry..... '' He trailed off, just realizing he's never even heard his name. '' ....Because I can do everythin'. '' He continued. '' Meet me tomorrow mornin'? '' '' Yeah, sure. ''

P A R T 1 The bar wasn't that busy tonight. Usally, Protag would be grateful for that, but not this night specifically. His fists tightly gripped his glass. his gaze looking anywhere but at the person sitting beside him. Protag has never really been much of a lightweight. He can down several bottles and only get a little tipsy. But with his coworker? Oh, he's going to try and down as many bottles as he can, so he doesn't have to remember agreeing to come drinking with him( Why did he even agree? He has no idea himself. ) He must've been on his 5th glass of alcohol, yet his mind still felt quite conscious. Only part that made it seem like he was finally getting tipsy was his just slightly flushed cheeks. No, he's still sober, okay. His coworker must've been watching him. Protag felt that man's gaze on his face the whole time, watching as he downed glass after glass, no sign of stopping.

Oh, Protag could already sense the other man smirking. '' Right here and now, I'll put this offer out, '' What's Bryce-Clayton-Chase, whatever his name is saying now? '' I wouldn't chase you down... but I know you'll see it. '' The shorter man looked up from his half-finished glass and gazed at his coworker, his eyes narrowed and a frown on his face. '' You agree with me, and I'll cut you free out of these drudgeries and walls you stay in. '' Coworker leaned against the table, slapping his palm against the table a few times. On cue, the bartender seemed to slide a bottle over to him. '' So, trade that typical, '' He gestured to.. Protag. He just gestured to all of Protag. '' For somethin' more colorful. '' His god-awful smirk burned into Protag's brain. Coworker poured a glass and slid it over to the man beside him. '' And if it's crazy, sure, we can live a lil' crazy. '' His tone of voice just exuded confidence. The type you'd expect from some rich man like him. '' You can play it sensible if you're boring, king of conventional. '' His grin widened. '' Or you can risk it all and see... '' The taller man stood up. '' Don't you want to get away, from the same old part you gotta play? '' His voice was charismatic, the type to make any desperate man fall. But Protag disliked this man enough to continue staring rather than act. He leaned over Protag, shadowing him. '' I mean, I got what you need, so come with me, take the ride. It'll take you to the other side. '' '' So, you can do like you do. '' Coworker took his colleague's hand all of a sudden and pulled him up. '' OR you can do like me! '' He gestured to himself with his free hand. '' Stay in the cage or you can finally take the key! '' Protag was not amused. '' See, suddenly you'd be free to fly. Come with me to the other- ''

[cooloddball]

Hi! I just recently (re)watched all of the JIB10 panels and there's so much going on there...

What's with Jared making all these sexual jokes about Misha? I know that they tend to be like this, but in previous years it was more them both having their minds in the gutter while this time Jared seems to be the one who goes there. First there's some weird implications during the giant gummy bear question at the end of the Jared+Misha panel (I'm not 100% sure I get what that was about). Right after that there's the mortar thing, "Misha can take a good pounding". And, of course, there's the remark of Misha being the only one who didn't flinch when they were shot at with the water guns during the J2M panel.

Maybe that's just Jared and Misha being Jared and Misha. They are chaos after all ;) But I really enjoy hearing your take on things so here we are.

On a more serious note, what was up with Jensen before his panel with Misha? I couldn't find much on that, especially not in jenmish positive spaces. Someone said that he threw up?

Either way, I thought he did a good job with that panel even though he was visibly tired. (And we got some amazing moments between him and Misha, so there's that.)

Hey Nonnie.

I just watched the panel and it was like watching a commercial break that was kinda funny but not really.

as you said, there were a lot of sexual jokes from JP.

More under the cut. (18+ only)

Mishalecki Panel

The first time it happens when Misha explains that Busty Asians porn magazine has an actual porn magazine so when you open it up you go "ahhhh" and JP asks "is it that fast for you?" implying that Misha comes fast.

Then a fan asks JP how long it would take for him to eat a giant gummy bear. They talk about it some and there's an implication of there being a giant hole in it. JP says that Misha would love that so long as the hole is soft. You can't waste space in a gummy bear? WTF? I don't know what that means tbh. But to me, it sounded like some sort of an anal sex joke?

Then there's the whole if you were a kitchen appliance what would you be and JP says Misha is a mortar because he can take a pounding.

There was also an influence joke at one point. I honestly don't know .what's up with JP and the sex jokes tbh. Maybe it has something to do with Jensen and Misha looking frazzled that day, Jensen didn't even have products in his hair. Misha also changed his shirt somewhere between the Mishalecki panel/the cockles photo ops and the cockles-J2M panel.

Cockles Panel

Jensen also wasn't happy with the way JP kept talking about how people were talking about how he was mounting Misha weeks after. His reaction tells it all. JFC. Help-

And when Misha requests a fan to ask a question so they can move on from that, JP keeps talk about how Misha didn't fight really hard and he says how he told Misha "shut up bitch!" and Misha shakes his head to indicate that JP was lying. Jensen shushes JP and even facepalms himself. He's literally the facepalm emoji.🤦🏼‍♂️ Jensen was really frustrated with him tbh if his reaction was anything to go by.

Misha scratches his ear and looks at Jensen I don't know if they were communicating something or it was just an ear scratch but after that Jensen calmed down.

Jensen was so done with Jp and his jokes after a fan asked what they would write about if they were in charge of everything. Jensen mock imitates him. He was pissed.

When Misha asks Jensen to tell his dream then JP says it's getting romantic. Like it's so weird but it makes Jensen look at Misha and smiles for the first time since JP joined them. Did he know that the implication that Jensen and Misha were a couple irl would make Jensen smile? No, I'm not reaching it literally happened.

He also made fun of Jensen's boner a lot especially when he used the balloon to pop a boner and gave it to Jensen and Jensen said, "y'all are fucked up."

Look at Misha's face here it's literally the cringe face emoji 😬Jesus.

I don't know what was going on on this panel after JP showed up but I'm with Misha when he said "is it possible to time travel to the end of this panel?"

Jensen was so done he literally told JP, "No! We are done after JP tried to make more jokes.

After that, I don't think there are any more sex jokes because I think he could tell Jensen was pissed.

However, it was short-lived because someone sprays Jensen with water and Jensen says "I got wet." The way he says it is so adorable, it's like he was in a daze. Anyway, JP takes it and runs with it.

The way Misha moves to placate Jensen after he's been sprayed with water is adorable because Jensen is laughing I think after that because his body is shaking.

Of course, JP couldn't miss another chanceand he had to make a sexual joke about Misha being bukkake'd (if you don't know what bukkake is please don't google it, it's NSFW) Misha is not happy about that implication because he frowns at first then he manages a somewhat weird smile. Jensen is not amused either. Can we talk about how Jensen looks at Misha here though. Damn son, I now know why they went to the loading bay to take that selfie.

But then Jensen looks away and this time he looks annoyed and sits down. Misha scratches his forehead and looks uncomfortable while JP scoffs. When a fan says Jensen started it (I think the water spraying, I'm not sure when he did that) Jensen asks, "I don't know, did I?" He is not happy.

After that, the panel goes on well but still cringey, I guess. I have more to say about that panel but this is not the place for it. This was about JP's sex jokes.

All in all, to date, it's still cringey to watch jib10 tbh. I can't look most of the time.

I don't know about Jensen puking o anything like that since they didn't mention it in the panel but if anyone knows what happened with him before the panel let me know. I personally have my own theories as to why he was late and why he didn't have any product in his hair but that's a topic for another day. However, I will say it may or may not have something to do with him flirting with Misha about not wearing any pants.

I hope I answered your question and thanks for your sweet words about how you like hearing my take on things.

[alirhi]

10 Sebastian roles as boyfriends

Because... I'm bored and I feel like it. 😂 Probably some spoilers for, like... everything? So yeah... That.

Putting it under here for easy scrolling:

10: Chase Collins

Who doesn't love a goofball? In the first half of the movie, Chase is basically perfect. He's sweet, funny, not all caught up in his ego, and actually pays attention to what the girls around him are saying, not just to what he wants to hear. If not for the whole... it was all an act to get close to Caleb and try to steal his magic thing, Chase would actually be a damn good high school boyfriend. He's adorable and would be a fun date, but he's also only 18 so best not to start making long-term plans lol. Also, y'know... the whole psycho revenge/power grab thing.

9 Jack Benjamin

Y'all. Y'all. Words cannot describe how much I love Jack. Pretty sure I've made this clear. As a person/character in general, he's absolutely in my Top 3 - not just of Sebastian's characters, but any character ever. ❤ But as a boyfriend? Boy's got baggage. It's what makes me so protective of him, but seeing as how he's trapped in the closet thanks to his overbearing homophobic family and the insane expectations heaped on him, as the show left him, he can't handle an honest relationship. He's too easily influenced by all the wrong people, poor babe.

8 Chris (Destroyer)

On paper, undercover cop sounds cool and exciting, but even if you ignore the fact that he, y'know, dies... Chris got in too deep and kinda lost the mission, so to speak. Best case scenario, you're his sexy partner and in on it all with him and end up on the lam for the rest of your lives. Worst case, this man lies for a living, so can you even trust him? And... yeah. The whole dead thing. Chris is hot af but getting involved with him is a recipe for disaster.

7 Ben

Min and Hathor have mercy, I love Ben! He's smart, he's snarky, he's caring and loyal... he's an absolute disaster. He's another one who seems allergic to honesty, until his lying and avoiding nearly kill his girlfriend. Not exactly relationship goals lol. Everything before totally was, though! Ben's adorable, and I love how he stayed up all night to protect his girlfriend (from a ghost/demon thing... with a baseball bat. I said he was smart, not perfect, okay? XD points for effort lol)

6 Mickey Henry

I. LOVE. MICKEY. Oml I love Mickey. He's a spazz and - even more so than Ben - an absolute disaster of a human being, but I love him. Pros for dating Mickey Henry: he's fun, he's carefree, he'll cook for you even though he's kinda bad at it lol, he loves his son and wants to be a good dad, he wants his partner to be happy and to love life as much as he does. Cons, and the reason he's not higher on the list: He's a pushover; easily influenced by the toxic people in his life, and it gets him into a lot of trouble. Being easily influenced by toxic dumpster fire of a human being Chloe almost lost him the partial custody of his son that he barely even had. He's an absolute sweetheart, but he's a complete man-child, and dating him would often feel more like raising him.

5 Frank "Suffer Buddy"

Come on! You know he and Mickey had to be back-to-back - they're practically the same character! 😂 Frank is Mickey... slightly more grown up. He's still a disaster, but he's respectful of boundaries, he's caring, he's funny in a dry, witty way that I just adore, and hoo lordy that man is a giver! 🥴🥵 Honestly, if he didn't smoke and didn't ditch Daphne in the middle of a party hours away from everything familiar to her surrounded by strangers to go do drugs, I'd call Frank perfect. He listened, he respected her wishes, he tried to keep some distance between them when he found out she'd gone on a date with his best friend (it failed utterly and brought us to the "damn that man's good with his mouth" portion of the movie lmao but still)... I don't have a whole lot of experience with men who actually give a shit, okay? So Frank is like a goddamn unicorn to me lmao. But that drug thing... That keeps him at the bottom of the Top 5 for me. Sorry, bb

4 Bucky

I can already hear everyone on here raging at me for placing Bucky so low on this list, but hear me out: I love this man. I love all four iterations of this man. Flirty 40s Bucky was a doll (fun date, not commitment material). Post-POW camp 40s Bucky had a fire to him that set me on fire. The Winter Soldier can choke me any damn day. Unf. And TFATWS Bucky... Oh, lady above, 2023 Bucky is a gem! He's sweet, snarky, and broken. He feels utterly, wretchedly alone in the world, and everyone around him, including his only friend, is telling him to "man up" and "make amends" for shit that was never his fault to begin with, rather than helping him come to terms with all that he's suffered and all that he's survived. Bucky needs and deserves love. A relationship with him would be so solid, if he found the right person... But it would take a fuck ton of work. He needs someone strong, patient, and more stubborn than he is to prod him until he finds a better therapist and actually opens up, and to keep him on track because even good therapy comes with homework. He does have to "do the work," Sam was right about that much, but he was way off base with what that "work" is. Bucky needs help and understanding, and he would be an amazing boyfriend... if he found someone with the strength to help him weather his nightmares and flashbacks, and help pull him out of this PTSD pit he's been in since 1943.

3 Chris Beck

Big brains turn me on, okay? 😂This man is an astronaut and a surgeon! Yes, please! Come here, you sexy genius! He's smart, he's funny - pretty sure Sebastian is incapable of playing anyone who's not delightfully snarky lol. He's pragmatic when he needs to be but there's also nothing he wouldn't do or risk for the ones he loves. This man is husband material and I cannot be convinced otherwise! So why isn't he #1? Cuz of the whole... spending years in space, thing. Super cool job and I'd be his biggest fan on the ground, but god damn, I would miss him while he's away!

2 TJ Hammond

Look, I'm gender fluid and he's a little bit bi 😂😂😂 Let me have my fantasy, okay? TJ's definitely got a lot of shit to work through, but love brings out the best in him. Before that fucking closeted shitbag broke his heart and stomped on it for good measure, TJ was clean and sober for months, he was happy, he was playing piano again, he was pulling himself together. Not only would he be an amazing boyfriend, but his partner would get the extra joy of getting to watch their love and devotion to him be the thing that saves this beautiful man's life. It's not healthy overall to tie your self worth and will to live to a relationship, but if he found the right person who would be there for him through all of life's shit and stick it out, I think he'd be okay. Even after his lowest point and without the support of his family, TJ still had a dream and he still chased it. He's not just the sweetest person to ever grace our screens, but he's ambitious and business-savvy, too. Keep him off drugs and watch this man take over the world, I'm telling you!

So why is TJ only #2? Well, besides the fact that he's like 99% gay and I have no bits he'd be interested in lmao, there's also the fact that this guy owns my heart:

1 Will Franklyn

And not just because we get to see him wet and mostly naked lol. Will is fucking perfect. I would die for this man... because he's already shown that he would die for his love. He almost fucking did, and they weren't even together yet! He's smart and very aware, he's a writer so we'd get to bond/geek out over books together, he's not all full of himself (self-deprecating humor ftw!) and he's willing to help a total stranger despite actual mortal peril, just because it's the right thing to do. Fierce, intelligent, sassy, strong-willed, and a flawless moral compass? YESYESYESYESYES! Forget boyfriend - let me MARRY this man! 😍🥰

[razumairon]

Reblogging cuz I'm too lazy

1. Are you named after someone?

Yes and no, my mother said she and my father liked my name but that she was influenced by my name being the one of one of Sofonisba Anguissola's sisters (she loves history of art and she wrote her thesis about Sofonisba Anguissola). Similar story for my sister.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Depends on what you mean for crying

3. Do you have kids?

Nope, I'm too young. I'd like to have some in the future though

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Me? Never

5. What sports do/have you played?

Several: swim and dance when I was a kid, aikido when I was in middle school but then started basketball, hated it and went back to dance until half of high school. I also played soccer but I gave up after two weeks because my friends always did fun things the days I had the training (my father will tell you that he took me out of it because he didn't like that the teacher encouraged us to hit and play dirty in order to win, but it's not true). Also, not a sport, but I played the piano for 8 years.

6. What's the first thing you notice about someone?

A plethora of things that tells me if I like them or not

7. Scary endings or happy endings?

Angsty endings

8. Do you have any special talents?

I'm very good at getting on people's nerves

9. Where were you born?

Italy

10. What are your hobbies?

Writing, drawing, playing videogames, editing videos and pictures, playing tabletop roleplaying games (like D&D), making RPGs maps, "cosplaying" (I'm trying to get into it) and annoying people on the internet

11. Do you have any pets?

Two cats, brother and sister. They're called Tone and Tina (from "gattone", big male cat, and "gattina", little female cat. They're also the short form of "polpettone", meatloaf, because Tone is fat and hairy and looks like a meatloaf when he lays down the floor, and "suppostina", an "affectionate" way to indicate the medicine that goes straight up your ass, because Tina is a pain in the ass. Of course we love her very much). Their original names were actually Micerino (from the pyramid. I think my mother wanted him to call Tone that way because it sounds like "micino" that is a dialectal way to call a small male cat Italian) and Korra (my sister and I had just finished Legend of Korra when we took Tina in). Tina and Tone usually go with "the" behind the name. I jokingly say that they're the cat version of Risotto Nero and Prosciutto because Tone is huge, black and white like Risotto Nero and Tina is yellowish and slut just like Prosciutto

12. How tall are you?

165 cm I guess

13. Favourite subject in school?

Italian and German literature

14. What's your dream job?

I have no idea, I wanted to be a writer some years ago but now I want to do something connected to tabletop RPGs and videogames

15. What colour are your eyes?

Dark brown, almost black

I'm too lazy to tag, feel free to do it<3

tagged by @weeping-in-the-willows! ty!

1. are you named after someone?

maybe Captain Morgan a little bit, but other than that no.

2. when was the last time you cried?

sometime in June, but i don't remember when

3. do you have kids?

only my students

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

allll the time

5. what sports do/have you played?

uh, i ran track for a year and that's about it

6. what’s the first thing you notice about someone?

probably their hair!

7. scary endings or happy endings?

scary

8. do you have any special talents?

no i am very boring

9. where were you born?

kentucky

10. what are your hobbies?

reading, writing, internet browsing, napping, going on walks, organizing things

11. do you have any pets?

yes i have a cat named Roo

12. how tall are you?

5'6"-ish

13. favourite subject in school?

English

14. what’s your dream job?

if i could be anything i'd probably work in a museum of some sort or be a poet

15. what colour are your eyes?

green

tagging (no pressure): @yoursummersuns @writermagnolia @whennyxfallsinlove @track6ts and anyone else

[yiqiie]

I am not sure why they make boys sit outside in first ep. that was little weird since some of outside boys ended up doing well. but now I think about it, I think they did those kind of things to encourage boys to work even harder. IP boys (esp Kun, Nong, Justin) kinda have things handed over. This season, nobody have it easy. Li Wenhan's team almost lost to Casper's team. "Tough" Rappers did a cutesy vocal song. Casper's team and team A of vocal song got too comfortable and didn't work hard (1/?

you can see it in ep 4. Rappers and Li Wenhan’s team worked hard and kept practicing while other teams (who suits the songs better) didn’t stay late. I actually find myself losing my respect for Casper. He was very cocky and confident because his team have rappers while Li Wenhan’s team are vocalists who have to rap. This season show that you still have to work hard even if you’re good. Also, I heard that all new rules was due to copyright issues (mnet threw hissy fit) so IQIYI have to change all rules. unfortunately, that includes allowing both teams perform on stage. there’s nothing IQiYi can do about it. personally, I like new rules. it fits the reality. idol industry are brutal. if boys can’t handle QCYN, then they are NOT ready to be an idol. idk if you watch ep4, but I am impressed with losing teams’ reactions (except for casper’s). a lot of them took it as a lesson and put their best in practice video. IQiYi did good job at giving losing teams screen-times they also released the practice videos so fans can vote for them as well. I just checked the result of first elimination and I saw several boys from winning and losing teams being eliminated. personally, I think IQiYi show less favorites in this season. Their favorites are those who worked their asses off. those who fools around got less screen times and I am totally fine with that. Dream’s Team A is an example. Mingze got a lot of screen-time even if he’s from losing team because he worked hard while his teammates (who received less screen-times) didn’t work hard enough until it’s too late. lol im rambling now. anyways. HOWEVER, I do agree with you that there’s a lot less of fun scenes like playing games, etc. idk about bts videos since I relied on lovely subbers lol I think it’s because IQiYi actually tried to give all teams decent screen-times 3 hours and it’s still not enough lmao. hopefully, it will become more funnier since there’s less boys now. don’t give up yet!

i’ll put my answer under a keep reading so this doesn’t clog up people’s feed! 

the first episode seating was based on preliminary voting, i.e. lower ranked boys were forced to sit outside and to me, personally, that was pretty unfair. Trainees with established fanbases are obviously going to get more votes, company fans are going to stick to voting for trainees from the company they stan (bigger company trainees have a better chance of getting more votes) and new fans are going to vote for those who they consider to have the best ‘visuals’ so it ended up turning into a kind of ‘visuals ranking’ / previous popularity ranking which i didn’t really like as much as last time which was just they got to choose for themselves 

i think it would be very unfair to say that IP boys, esp Kun, Nongnong and Justin, have things ‘handed over’ to them. Kun had a previously established large fanbase, yes that’s true, but that doesn’t just devalue all the hard work he puts into his training and all the shit he went through. He voluntarily handed over a position he could have easily won in ‘Dream’ Team to let Qian Zhenghao stay, he let Zheng Ruibin take center in ‘Listen to What I Say’ and when he won that evaluation with the most votes, it was because he worked his ass off with the team to help them improve. Nongnong is the same, he started off in A grade and fell down to C because he was an inexperienced dancer and truly couldn’t keep up at that stage. He worked his ass off all the same for the evaluations and still, he wasn’t guaranteed placing first in his teams. To say anyone had anything ‘handed over to them’ or had it easy in S1 would honestly not be true. 

I also don’t think it’s necessarily true to say that Casper’s team ‘didn’t work hard’. Maybe in comparison, they didn’t stay as late as Li Wenhan Team, but I think it would be harsh to conclude that they didn’t work their asses off all the same. Personally, for me, I think Casper’s Team had a tiny bit better stage presence in the end but then again, I knew Li Wenhan team would get in (more on that later). 

This seasons’ showing that you have to work hard even if you’re good is not any different from last year. They’ve emphasised it differently with the new rules, but I don’t think we should take away all the hard work that the final top ranking boys put in in S1. The Mnet think makes sense because Mnet is a shithole so welp 

Now, with the whole losing teams thing. I understand why they used that new rule. Like you said, it’s realistic. But for their first stage, I think it’s a bit too unfair. There are people who have barely had like two minutes screen time altogether, and we all know how much live performances can influence someone’s elimination result. I think at least for the first live performance, everyone should have an equal opportunity to win some new fans on a live stage (which is way better than a practice room). If they used this for a later evaluation, I wouldn’t have complained. 

Another thing, I literally could predict every single team that was allowed to perform (except maybe one I think) based on the team members. @linm0mo basically covered what i want to say about this so here’s the link 

I have to disagree with you on screentimes. When I said iqiyi was being unfair with screentime, I wasn’t really referring to only the losing teams. Yeah, they showed their practice videos in the episode (because they have to) but I’m kind of talking about individual screentime. I’m not sure if it’s just bc I’m hypersensitive to this now (because of S1 criticisms) but I felt that those teams with more popular members were given just more time with behind the scenes footage in general . We are always seeing the same few faces, whether that’s a close up for reactions, interviewing them or just in general editing to show more of their conversations in favour of other people. It seems exactly the same as last season which was the one thing I hoped they would improve. 

After experiencing iqiyi for a whole year, i have a better feel of what they’re doing. The popularity and trend of s1 is something they want to continue and how would you do that? giving people who have previously established fanbases just that little bit extra screentime because they know that’ll secure more people to watch. It sounds really bad when I say it like that, but you can’t deny it’s true. I have nothing against the top ranking boys (i stan guan yue for god’s sake and i’m an ikun lol) but i guess i’m just disappointed iqiyi isn’t at least trying to hide the fact that they’re slowly playing favourites again. 

I’m going to continue watching because I already have boys that I’m supporting again and I hope they do well. Hopefully, iqiyi can up their game in providing more content about their developing relationships like they did in s1.