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patchworkheartouija · 2 years ago

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After 5 million years waiting, episode 2

So I kept putting this off, because I was worried about its quality and stuff, I still don't think its as good as episode one. However I have come to realize there is a lot more I want out of PH that can only be attained in a visual medium, and that my biggest issues with the second episode were almost all things that were just a result of this being a story made for a visual medium being written in a non-visual one, in such ways that I want to create intricate fight scenes as well as use trippy surrealist visuals because both are things that I've always really liked in media

Plus I've been starving my 4 PH followers too long so here ya go!

Patchwork Heart S1E2: Post Mortem - Ouija

After escaping the ship the two had been imprisoned on, Sapphire and Faria were sure to be better off, right? That would be nice, for their misfortune to end here. But escaping was one thing, surviving was another.

Sapphire had found out from the ship’s computer that they were currently right in the middle of the atlantic ocean, or at least were when she had first jumped from the ship onto the small plastic dinghy that she was currently trapped on. Accounting for wind, tides, the way her dinghy likely was moved when she first jumped, and further moved when the ship sailed by creating a disturbance in the water, and the unknown amount of time that had passed in which she was unconscious, she was likely quite off centre, and no longer had such a good idea of her current location.

Of course, if her destination were a large landmass this wouldn't be such an issue. However, the other passenger of the ship, a far larger monster than herself, Faria, had insisted they travel to a small, dangerous island in which they could easily be recaptured if they were not careful, for the purpose of rescuing two creatures with no biological link to her that she had decided were her siblings. Getting there would be hard enough, but of course she needed a plan of attack as her only option seemed to be to enter the facility itself in which the two monsters were kept, and then an exit plan for if this failed, and another one for if it didn’t when she needed to leave the island. Of course she would normally be confident in her ability to easily formulate a plan that accounted for all possibilities, however her most recent plan, although it had gotten the pair off the ship, had been a complete and utter failure in all other regards simply because she didn’t account for the guards on a ship full of dangerous monsters to be able to fight dangerous monsters if need be.

That obviously was bad enough, but there was the final issue in that Faria, who has been indispensable in all means except for her intelligence when on the ship, was cripplingly afraid of water to the point where she had curled up into a ball and had not uncurled since. This also would not be an issue if Sapphire could abandon Faria, that would solve a lot of issues, or even if she could simply ignore the cat’s mental state. However Sapphire had for the first time in her recollection, formed a bond with another creature, and while emotions were not new to her, this was the first time they had ever interfered with her act of reasoning. Abandoning Faria in the ocean was not an option, nor was ignoring the fact that she was currently having a mental breakdown. This was the most immediately addressable issue, and likely would be the easiest to work on while multitasking.

She managed to estimate where exactly she was based on the forces the ship had endured, and the position of the sun, and began rowing in the direction of the island she hoped to reach.

“How are you so fucking calm?” the cat asked. She had spoken to Faria earlier but it had been awhile since the cat had said anything since then. The cat was obviously crying. God Sapphire hated other’s emotions, almost as much as she hated her own. The topic of emotion alone was an inconvenience to her, and to actually deal with not only her own emotions barring her from the best course of action, but also the emotions of another creature being so unreasonable, this was Sapphire’s worst nightmare.

Sapphire thought through her possible options, before eventually saying; “I promised I’d get us out of this. As I said, this happened because I didn’t account for all possibilities. Likely just the saltwater in the air clouding my judgement or something of the sort. I do not usually make these kinds of mistakes.”

“I’m going to die, aren't I?”

“Your behaviour has changed drastically from when we were on the ship. Notable. No you will not die. I considered letting you die of course, I mean, it’d be easy to throw you overboard when you are like this, however I have grown slightly attached to you, and cannot bring myself to plan, or enact your murder.” this was seemingly the wrong thing to say as Faria stops talking again. Ok Sapphire is going to need to come at this differently. Having been alone so long, as long as she could remember in fact, Sapphire had never had to deal with someone so… sensitive.

“I would like you to know, my decision not to kill you is also logically founded, as while ditching you would allow me to ditch this horrific job you have forced me to do, I have a feeling murdering a 6’4” murder cat would eventually come back to haunt me. So yes, while there are emotional aspects to this issue, my logic is not failing me.” This does not seem to work either?! What does this monster want of her!?

It appears that treating this like a battle of the wits between her and the cat is not working, as obviously this monster has none.

She will just have to beat this monster at her own game, that being speaking without thinking. It shouldn't be hard, she does it all the time, just usually not of her own volition.

“Look I… I don't know how to help you. I fucked up, ok, I fucked everything up. And now you’re here, and it's my fault. You did basically all of the work when we were on that ship because I was helpless, now you are helpless, and if I didn’t return the favour, I would know that I had failed you, and failed myself. I am terrified, however, I am willing to mask my fear in order to complete my mission.”

Well that came out terribly. Sure it was true, but the truth clearly won't help her college’s confidence in her. Assuming Faria has a rational bone in her body, the fact that Sapphire just admitted to her own weakness and fear will likely prove to Faria that their death is imminent. This social interaction has gone terribly, and her own doom is imminent. Faria will likely kill her at first opportunity for being a weak link both mentally and physically.

“Thank you…” the cat chokes out. Sapphire does not know what to make of this response. She’s never spoken to another person before Faria, at least not directly, is this what they are all like? Why??? How???

Sapphire tries to grasp Faria’s strange illogical behaviour, Faria herself seems pretty blunt so why exactly was it that she based so much of her judgement on such loose factors as emotions.

Regardless of the reasoning this new approach was… working?

“I get that you cannot swim, however I do not understand why it scares you so much while on the boat.”

“It's not… It’s not just the water.”

“Then what is it?”

“Everything… I can’t run, can barely move, it’s so bright out, there's nothing for miles, I can't see what’s under me, I can’t defend myself, it's so hot, I’ve never been here before, I don’t know where I am…”

“I suppose for a creature such as yourself those would be issues. According to the files I read about you on the computer, the humans believed you to be a cave dwelling nocturnal predator. These phobias can easily be explained by that theory.” This brings up an interesting point actually. Faria is afraid because of her species. Sure, no one really knows what Faria is exactly, but the research done in the background with her training was fruitful, quite a lot was known about Faria’s bizarre, clearly genetic, behaviours. Perhaps she could use what little she did know about Faria from the files to attempt to calm her down.

Sapphire reaches out to touch the cat’s head, according to the files she responded positively to this. Sapphire recoiled in slight disgust when her hand was covered in a substance with a slimy consistency like butter.

Cat Butter, that’s what the files had dubbed it. Faria’s thin body was good for crawling through caves, but bad for the tundra that was her hunting ground. So a strange evolutionary path had led to fat excretion from sweat glands, creating a protective film of grease over the monster’s body. It appeared that with Faria’s stress, the high temperature, the moist air, and Faria’s own body heat, that the cat butter had begun to melt.

Touching her, and thus removing the little butter that still remained on her body would only stress Faria out more as being stripped of her cat butter had always resulted in extreme discomfort in the past.

Sapphire returns to rowing, she’d have to figure out better how to handle this. For now, it seems she may have drifted off course, it was time for another recalculation.

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Kim-Ly woke up to her wolpertinger chirping, a stark reminder of the choice she had made. She still doubted her choice to betray Sabrina like this, but she had to accept that Sabrina’s genocidal tendencies were not her responsibility to endorse.

Kim-Ly goes about her day as usual, with the addition of feeding the wolpertinger. Kim-Ly has never owned a rabbit, she has no idea what they eat, the only pet she ever had was a goldfish that died 2 days after she got it. The reason for this of course was allergies (Yes they affected her with her new pet Chiffon, but research always comes first over personal safety). Kim-Ly sneezes at this thought.

Of course her rabbit inexperience was irrelevant because this one could fly, had horns, and made bird noises and she was pretty sure also had a beak inside its mouth that it stuck out depending on what it was doing. It was similar enough to a rabbit for her to be allergic to it, but apparently not similar enough that she could safely keep her windows open without it escaping into the monster hunter infested city.

Eventually after googling ‘What does flying bunny eat (SFW)’ (after a number of other searches had left her with less than ideal results) and finding absolutely nothing of value, Kim-Ly gave up and decided to feed the rabbit kraft dinner, because it surely couldn't hurt it. I mean, rabbits eat carrots all the time and those are bright orange… ok she’s definitely reaching here and she knows it. She just doesn't have any veggies in the apartment because she hasn't gone shopping yet.

Chiffon ate the kraft dinner rather quickly, using the beak it had hidden in its mouth. A fact Kim-Ly quickly adds to her notes alongside the fact that feeding wolpertingers store bought, unnaturally orange pasta did not seem to have any adverse effects. She’d still need to find out what would be healthier for Chiffon to eat, but for now it wasn't hurting anything.

Kim-Ly was startled out of her clear horrific lack of knowledge of how rabbits worked by the phone ringing on the table. She goes to answer it quickly.

“Heya Kim!” Sabrina yells on the other end, a clear echo noticeable. “Listen I know I usually only call you for one hunt every couple weeks or so, but I really need your help.”

Kim-Ly sighs. As much as she wants to say no, she’d never pass up field research, even if it did damage her mental health greatly.

“What is it?”

“Ok so basically, it's a werewolf pack.”

“Aren't those… like just humans who shapeshift into wolf men because of a blood disease.”

“They stopped being human when they got bit. Now they’re just as rotten as the others. I need to kill 21 of them to get paid, and I get $100 for every corrupt mongrel I shoot after that. The reason for this is that the guy who hired me doesn’t want them gone, he just wants their skin. I’m still going to kill them all, but hey, he’ll get what he wants. Mostly.” Sabrina explains.

Kim-Ly is about to respond but is cut off with the sounds of Sabrina loudly swearing and gunfire. It echos greatly showing that Sabrina is definitely somewhere weird.

“Sorry, one of them tried to jump me.”

“Ok where ARE you right now.”

“Inside the dead monster off mainstreet.”

“Isn’t that thing at risk to blow up due to the stomach gases?”

“Nah I’m sure it’ll be fine.”

Kim-Ly thinks about the potential of going inside a monster carcass, and just how much information that doing so could give her, as long as she wasn’t being dragged along by Sabrina. “Listen, I’ll run a little late, but leave some stuff for me by wherever you entered. I’ll probably be awhile so just go in and do it.” Kim-Ly says, getting ready to go. She was close to the carcass, quite close, she could be there in minutes, but by lying about this she’d be able to explore the body with no Sabrina to make her rush.

“‘Kay Kim! See you later! I’ll leave a walkie talkie by the entrance.”

“...But there's cell service.”

“We gotta be authentic to the kaiju exploring experience. Do you think the people who fought king kong had cell service?!”

“Ok but that's a movie.”

“And a great one! Bye!” Before Sabrina can hang up more gunshots are heard, so Kim-Ly takes the initiative to hang up herself.

“Chiffon… Mommy’s going out for a while to go explore a rotting corpse full of werewolves. Be good!” Kim-Ly says, leaving the rest of the kraft dinner for her rabbit.

🜘🝠🜘

The tiny dinghy swayed with the waves, causing shivers to run down Faria’s spine with every movement.

The cat hadn't moved for hours, she feared that if she were to even budge the tiny boat would capsize leaving her to drown.

Faria did not know what lied beneath the waves, although her brother used to tell her stories about it. Zero wasn’t like her or Katya, he hadn’t lived his whole life in a cement box, and so her brother had seen more than Faria thought she ever would.

It had been Faria who asked Zero if anything lived in water, a choice she later regretted, at the time she had assumed the answer would have been no, but Zero had gone on to tell her about the creatures living beneath the waves. He had told her a great many creatures that kept her up at night, but what really scared her was what he didn’t say. Zero didn’t know how deep the water was, how long it would take to drown, how big the creatures were, and he had told her that no one really knew much about the sea at all. Zero had been her authority on everything, if she had a question, Zero would always have an answer, but he didn’t. On this day, Zero had told her he himself didn’t know, and that was what really scared her.

Faria jolted as she was sure she felt something swimming underneath the dinghy. What was it!? Could it eat her?! Could she eat it!? Was it big?! Was it- Faria’s panicked thoughts are interrupted by the sound of a splash, one that caused the ship to be driven back. Faria let out a panicked screech, akin to her attack scream.

The monster peeked over her legs to look around. Sapphire was no longer on the ship.

Faria’s breathing sped up.

Sapphire had abandoned her, she was going to die, she couldn't do this alone she- a couple moments Sapphire remerged from the water, carrying a fish speared on one of the harpoons that had been stuck through Faria’s torso the day before.

“Got… Food.” Sapphire pants out. Faria doesn’t respond but her breathing slows. Sapphire hands Faria the fish.

“D-don’t you need some?” She asks shakily. God she hated this. She had never stuttered a day in her life before this.

“I don’t eat. I have never needed to.” Sapphire says simply, before returning to rowing. Faria decided to try to eat the fish. She had never been given fish before, and isn’t quite sure what to do with it. Eventually the cat monster just decides to shove the entire fish in her mouth, one of the few things her muzzle was good for.

Faria seemed to have gained the ability to look around now and slightly uncurled, still flinching at every movement. She stares at Sapphire, who is still silently rowing.

Sapphire was a weird creature. That's not to say Faria didn’t like her, but she didn’t quite understand her. Faria had never liked silence, in fact she disliked it so much that she frequently made her own noises to combat it. It angered the guards, yes, but it kept her mildly sane. Sapphire on the other hand would frequently go completely quiet whenever she seemed to be thinking about things.

She also couldn't quite understand why Sapphire said the things she said. When Sapphire was speaking to her earlier she seemed to think Faria was worried about her skills in planning, when in truth she was only worried about the water and Sapphire’s plan had had nothing to do with it.

Sapphire stops rowing for a moment and just sits still, similarly to how she had in the computer room. Was she ok? She seemed sick, or hurt or something.

“You’re staring at me.” Sapphire notes.

“You’re being a fucking weirdo, thats why.” Faria says, the fear still evident in her voice, although her regular demeanour had returned.

“I’m just thinking. You should try it sometime.”

“Rude.”

Sapphire exaggeratedly sighs. “I apologise.”

“Really? Why?”

“Your mental state is fragile, I do not understand it.”

“I don’t mind, I’d honestly prefer if you DIDN’T act like I’m made of fucking glass, thank you very much.”

“If you say so.”

“What were you thinking about? You’re not gonna betray me or some shit are you?”

“We have drifted off course, I’m calculating how much, and thus how much I need to adjust my plans to accommodate for this.”

“Wow that sounds really boring.”

“Screw you too.”

“How do you even figure that shit out. I always just do things and hope they work.”

“Yeah I understood that about you by now. It’s mostly a lot of math. I was out for exactly 5 hours, in which the boat likely, with the aid of my initial jump, and the propulsion of the ship, was moved exactly 51.27 metres. I have been rowing for 6 hours since that point with an average speed of 20mph bringing the grand total of how far I have travelled to 120 miles, that last jump and later boarding I have done moved us a metre west, and every second due to the wind and waves we move exactly 4 centimetres west as well. With this knowledge I estimate that we will arrive, give or take, in 28 hours.”

“I understood all of none of that, and I don’t understand how you did.”

“I have a high level of understanding of most subjects, particularly math.”

“Uhuh… and what’s math again?”

🝁🝢🝁

Kim-Ly stands before a large gash in the kaiju’s side, there is a gun and a walkie talkie waiting there.

She really didn’t expect it to… smell like this. Somehow it had never registered to her that the beast would decompose the same way as any other animal.

Despite its immense size the monster was underwhelming. Honestly this was a sentiment that could go for most monsters. Vampires preferred to drink from pigs, unicorns possessed no magic, at least none usable to them in any way, zombies talked just as fluently as anyone else, and to see a haunting that was any more than a mild annoyance was an incredible rarity. Monsters just… weren't what anyone expected, sure some matched up to, or even were underhyped by their legends, but most of the time they simply weren't very dangerous, and even those who were dangerous tended to only be violent when threatened. All monsters were always underwhelming, but Kim-Ly had yet to get used to it.

That’s not to say that some could be, and were dangerous, she definitely still would never want to meet any one of these creatures. (Ok that’s a bold faced lie, Kim-Ly lacked the self preservation to avoid them.) She was sure when this thing was alive it was an object of awe, but still, no matter how big or scary it had once been, this creature had never been the godzilla everyone was expecting, and it was even less now.

After a few moments of silence, examining the bloated corpse, Kim-Ly sighed to herself, regretting her choice of shoes, and entered the wound.

She came into what she could only assume were the creature’s massive lungs, filled to the brim with maggots, flies, and the corpses of werewolves Sabrina had ripped through.

She took out her notebook, and began to sketch the lungs. She had started a drawing of the kaiju and planned to add every single organ she could visit.

After she finished drawing the lungs, she moved towards one of the corpses. It’s skin was missing. Of course it was. Sabrina’s client didn’t pay for any more than that, she was sure. She would have preferred an intact corpse but a desecrated one would have to do.

Kim-Ly began to inspect the corpse, its eyes were still human mostly although they had been mutated to better hunt in darkness. She wished hers were like that, it’d make all of this far easier, all she had to light up the darkness of the corpse she was inside was a poor quality flashlight that upon further consideration, she should probably have replaced the batteries of before coming here. Shit.

Kim-Ly continued her inspection… she needed its skull, didn’t she. Oh god. The act of getting it would be disgusting but it was already desecrated… and the information she could get from it would be priceless. Before taking another moment to consider if she wanted to rip out a werewolf’s skull, she was already doing it.

Kim-Ly ripped the skull from the creature’s head, and began to jot down notes. Its skull wasn't quite human but it was far from the skull of a wolf, looking more like a human skull that had been stretched and mutilated.

Kim-Ly slipped it into her bag for further studies. She stood up to look for whatever path Sabrina had ripped through the kaiju… she’s not done yet, is she… alright, organ time, this creature was too interesting not to study further.

She really can't believe she’s doing this, but she won’t get another chance like this again.

The organs are human, disappointing, although the lungs are enlarged, the bone structure is where it truly gets interesting however. The bones were naturally thickened, stretched and twisted into a structure more like a jaguar combined with a human than a wolf. Upon closer inspection of the skull as well it had some particular traits like one. Kim-Ly put some of the body parts in jars as well as taking one of the arms, definitely longer than hers. She hopes to analyse its DNA somehow when she gets home, not that she knows how… or has that kind of technology.

She finally stands up, satisfied with her vivisection. God she’s covered in so much blood. She DEFINITELY wore the wrong shoes.

Kim-Ly seems to have snapped out of whatever trance she was in before and now feels like she’s on the verge of throwing up, how did she even do that? She’s never done something like that before. It felt so easy… maybe she should have gone to med school after all.

She steps gingerly through the spongy rotting lungs. This body had been here for 4 months and it shows. She can feel the maggots crawling over her as they had started when she was working on the body. The flies swarmed her, the blood dried on her skin, the fluids oozed through her shoes, the smell had grown overwhelming… Kim-Ly wanted desperately to leave, however she could not do so, not yet, she still had research to do.

As she walked through the organs, travelling through the many holes her friend had punched through them, she added them to the diagram.

Corpses of werewolves missing their skin are everywhere, although she doesn't need to dissect any of them. She’s still not sure why or how she did that so cleanly.

In her distraction, Kim-Ly trips, falling into a pit inside the monster, she screams, and upon contact with the oddly solid floor, everything fades to black.

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Sapphire looks over to Faria, she was talking now, although her stress levels were still clearly elevated.

The cat butter had mostly melted at this point, filling the bottom of the boat. Sapphire picks some up on her finger. Greasy, sticky, but still slippery. Potentially useful as machinery lubricant. She will have to remember this for the future.

She looks back towards Faria. Her condition is poor. Sapphire would not be shocked if she suddenly dropped dead.

Due to the evolution of cat butter, Faria’s body stored very little fat, not enough to last even 2 days if fed well, and she is under the impression Faria was not. Sapphire could swim and get more fish but she was very bad at it, her body was incredibly buoyant and hard to even get under water, and the fish were hard to catch. She had also recalled another need beings like Faria had for water, and the fact salt water would not do.

Sapphire had no idea why she herself lacked these needs, they were far from the only ones. She never blinked, could stand far higher and lower temperatures than the average person (a fact she knew as she had accidentally locked herself in a meat freezer once when trying to take spare parts, she liked to tinker with things. She had learned of her tolerance of high temperatures rather recently, as she was not experiencing any heatstroke currently).

They still had a ways to go on this trip, and Faria was steadily declining, she must find a way to keep her alive, if she does not she is likely doomed.

Unfortunately the only tools she had at her disposal were the harpoons, which had proven quite useful, and the cat butter, which could be a very valuable resource in the right context…

Sapphire looks at the butter and realises that it seems to be about 20% water, if she could lower that amount it likely could be used as a glue. More useful still, if only that were helpful.

“Saffie… you’re doing that thing again where you just stare at things with a dumb fucking look on your face.” Faria reminds her, snapping her out of her thoughts.

“I am trying to figure out how to better maintain your-” Sapphire notices something. Faria’s coat has pockets, and they look quite full. “Wait, empty your pockets.”

“Wha? No.”

“Faria, I am trying to keep you alive. I estimate you will die within the next two hours unless you are given a fluid change.”

“...You mean if I don’t drink anything?”

“Yes yes, that.” Sapphire says, rolling her visible eye.

“You can't have my stuff. It's mine.” Faria says, hissing at Sapphire.

“Do not be a child, Faria, I shall return it.”

Faria stares at Sapphire a moment, as if sizing her up. “Fine. But it’s mine, you can't keep it.” Sapphire sighs in annoyance. The files had mentioned possessiveness, why did she not see this coming.

Faria opens her pockets and pulls out a few objects, due to the size of her hands her fingertips barely fit in. Faria pulls out two shiny metal cups, a metal lighter, a couple lenses for glasses, a fork, a ton of coins, some metal washers, and a belt buckle. Ooookay. That is a very strange collection of objects. ‘But very useful.’ Sapphire thinks to herself.

She immediately grabs the cups, and the lighter, and picks up three of the harpoons, putting them together like a tripod and placing some cat butter between them, using the lighter to evaporate the water and bind her makeshift tripod together. Sapphire fills one of the metal cups with sea water and places it on top of the tripod, and another empty one beside it on the boat. She proceeds to remove her own tie and lay it over the two cups. She flicks the lighter back on and places it in the small space between the cup and the middle of the tripod.

“Wow… you uh… certainly made a thing.”

“It's a thermal saltwater purifier.”

“You look weird without your tie.”

“I feel weird without it as well, I would like to have my tie back just as much as you would your random garbage.”

“HEY! It’s not fucking garbage.” Faria snarls.

“Then what exactly is it?”

“My hoard.”

“...What?”

“It’s my hoard.”

“Saying it again does not remove any of my confusion.”

“Y'know Saff, like that cool shiny stuff you like to keep in your room and sleep on. This was all I could get before they moved me out.”

“I… I was not aware this was a common behaviour.” Sapphire says, sure, Faria may not be human, and Sapphire may know very little about other monsters, but this feels strange. “Where did you… get these?”

“The guards and science guys left a lot of stuff around, and I wanted it. Eventually they stopped trying to take it from me because I kept scratching them.”

She must have missed this fact in the files.

Sapphire removes the now half full cup of clean water and hands it to the cat, who quickly pours it all in her mouth. She almost spits it out but Sapphire places her hand over the cat’s muzzle. “It is all that is available. I apologise for the temperature.”

Sapphire lets go after a minute.

“You could have at least… I dunno… FUCKING WARNED ME?!”

“If you did not feel its temperature when it was in your hand it is your own fault.”

“Well excuse me for having pads that barely feel temperature.”

“You have extended your lifespan by approximately 30 minutes. The temperature of the air is not in your favour.”

“Why are you fucking immune to everything. You don't eat, don’t seem like you need to drink and don’t look hot… well at least not in temperature.” Sapphire rolls her eyes at the last comment.

“I don’t know. Why can you survive obvious deathblows?”

“Tushy.”

“Touche.”

“Yeah, tushy.”

“You have the mental capacity of a deflated basketball.”

“‘S that good?”

“...Sure.”

Sapphire turns back around and continues silently rowing. She had averted a potential crisis. This was good. She was managing to form a closer bond with this powerful monster while keeping her alive.

Although she couldn’t actually explain why she felt the desire to do this.

The logical part of her mind, which she had until recently thought to be the only parts of her mind, told her she was only doing this because of what Faria could do. The cat monster was likely one of the most powerful monsters kept on the entire ship, her healing abilities bordered on immortality, or at least invulnerability from most physical damage. The scientists had theories on how she could potentially be killed, mostly revolving around removing her head or otherwise destroying her brain, or killing her without physically damaging her body, such as by drowning (which indeed did make being out at sea dangerous, especially since Faria seemed to buy into this idea), but they had no proof for these ideas. For all they knew, Faria could just regrow her own head, she had regrown limbs and organs before. With this invulnerability to physical attacks, and her skill in battle, Faria was an indispensable ally.

Except that she really wasn't. The cat may be large, incredibly manoeuvrable, and nearly unkillable, but she wasn’t perfect. Sapphire would likely never need an ally as physically powerful as this monstrous cat if she had just left her to die. If she went back home, returned to hiding, Faria would be of no use. Nothing in the area posed a serious threat that couldn't be combated intellectually. Not to mention Faria was very loud, very annoying, not very smart clearly, at least not intellectually, and now had the two of them on a suicide mission. As soon as Sapphire stepped off that ship, Faria’s usefulness expired. Sure she may offer some things, like that ‘hoard’ or the cat butter, but she would need none of this if not for the need to keep Faria alive. If her goal was to try to harness Faria’s invulnerability that too was a bust, Faria’s immortality came from a special organ (the organ itself regrowable) that pumped stem cells into her bloodstream. Reasonably a blood transfusion would pass on the stem cells but clearly not the true invulnerability, but even that could not be done. People had tried to use Faria’s blood before. Her blood type was unique, and rejected by all donors. Faria really wasn’t that useful.

This information confused Sapphire. She was aware of Faria’s seeming lack of any purpose for being here. Logically abandoning her was the best choice, but she could not bring herself to make that call.

Sapphire is snapped out of her trance by Faria grabbing her, and pulling her into her arms. Strange.

Sapphire looked around, the sky was grey, and rain was starting to fall, the sea getting more unruly. Unfortunate. She should have expected this, but she had somehow diluted herself into thinking the weather could possibly remain ideal for the entire trip.

Faria was making a strange noise. She did not like it. It made her brain feel strange.

Sapphire deconstructs her purifier and puts her tie back on. The harpoons had come apart in the rain. Perhaps not the greatest form of glue.

She hands Faria back all but one of the cups, as well as giving her the harpoons to hold onto.

Sapphire holds up the cup to catch rainwater. The rain brings its own benefits, regardless of if Faria is going to perpetually be a problem or not she must utilise them.

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Kim-Ly wakes up a few hours later in a tall, bright room. She was lucky to survive the fall, as the floor seems to be… cement?!

She rubs her head in pain, definitely bleeding, before standing up to examine her surroundings.

The walls are metal, with rows upon rows of holes, filled with large cylindrical batteries. Inspecting them closer reveals they truly don’t look like any brand she’s seen before. In fact, they’re inscribed with a language she’s never seen before. Granted, Kim-Ly is barely bilingual and she knows the world has a lot of languages, but the script doesn’t look like anything she’s seen before. It looks like something aliens would use in a scifi movie. This whole place seems alien.

“W-what the fuck is this? This looks… what the hell. Whatever this is its well the fuck above what I’m qualified to handle.” she mutters to herself. “Is this thing… artificial?” she asks herself aloud. “No… no it couldn't be. The kaiju is too real, if it were manmade I… I don't even know how that would be done. This room definitely is… and its full of these… batteries… I think they are… what else could they be? Ok calm down.” Kim-Ly tells herself. “Someone made this place, and whoever they are, they’re sure as hell not Usapoadin. I may be looking at the creation of something not even HUMAN. If that's true it means whoever made this is as or maybe even more advanced than humanity. Monsters are clearly capable of intelligent thought, and speech but this… if they did this… shit.” Kim-Ly says to herself.

“Before I fell, I didn’t see this place, and while I was falling I recall it being dark… so these lights must run on sensors. Either that or I’m not alone and someone is helping me, but I find that unlikely.” Kim-Ly pulls out her journal, and starts to jot down the little information she has about the room.

She sees a strange hatch on one of the walls, like the rest of the room it doesn't exactly look like human architecture. She approaches the hatch, still writing, and almost falls over when it suddenly opens.

Kim-Ly regains herself after a moment. She’s not athletic enough to scale the walls, and her curiosity is once again getting the better of her.

She slips into the circular hatch and the room inside lights up.

It's a long room, littered with desks, large computers and tables. Every surface is covered in papers and writing. Unfortunately for Kim-Ly though, all of it was in that same alien language as before. There is a large spraypainted logo of a monster on the wall, with more of the “letters” beneath it. The monster itself looks like one straight out of a kids book. She can only understand one thing. This is some kind of lab, or base of operations, and it looks long abandoned. Why it's here, inside the kaiju she doesn't know.

As she walks across the metallic tiles she feels like she understands why it’s placed how it is, it feels like the entire room rotates to always be upright, there are multiple places the hatch could attach to, on the walls and floors, seemingly so that entrance is never blocked regardless of position, she adds this new information, as well as the logo into her journal, and slips it back in her bag.

She mindlessly walks around the lab, in utter awe. She’s never seen anything like this. It's about modern in technological advancements, which would be nothing, if it were not clearly made by someone nonhuman.

While not paying attention, she steps on one tile, which proceeds to sink into the floor. Hatches open on the walls, and in fly small drones, definitely not of any human model, the shape is alien and insectoid with propellers on both the tops and bottoms.

A red beam of light shoots from the drones, scanning her. A second passes, and then an alarm goes off, he hears something being said in a strange language by an artificial voice, and the drones fly back to their walls. The alarm blares, filling the room with red light. Other hatches open, and spider like robots enter the room, with scanners on their faces and guns for arms.

The message is clear, she has to run.

🜞🝣🜞

The rain was pouring down as Sapphire’s cup had been filled quite a number of times. It was starting to fill the boat as well, a side effect she liked far less.

Fortunately Faria would likely survive the rest of the trip with the provided hydration.

However the cat’s behaviour had not changed, she was still clinging to Sapphire, her grip inescapable.

The waves were getting higher, starting to crash over the sides of the boat. She returned the cup. It was of no more use like this.

Now the storm was just inconvenient.

Not to mention that while she wasn't cold, and barely felt the water, she could feel it getting into her stitches. It felt… Well, it wasn’t painful, but it was very unpleasant. If she weren't too worried about her potential death, she would have cut herself open to finally see if she could learn something. But she feared her own death greatly, survival was of utmost importance, besides, what could be learned from it, anyway? She surely has the same veins as any other creature, maybe less organs, or different ones, but that wouldn’t be helpful either. She was no biologist as much as she knew she couldn't study unique organs, it had become clear she somehow knew nothing about the supernatural, much less if they were inside her own body.

The rain poured down against her head creating an odd pressure she was sure would rip her stitches apart had they not been made with wire.

The boat rocked terribly, the weight of Faria’s body at the back seemed to be further throwing it off balance, but in the state the cat was in it would be quite impossible to move her.

A large wave crashes around them, the two engulfed in the small pocket of air, giving the impression of being in some sort of tunnel, before the water crashed down on them, and the boat was finally tipped, dumping the two monsters into the inky darkness of the sea.

Sapphire immediately surfaced, her light and buoyant body allowing her to float without effort. She was tossed violently by the waves absolutely sure her body would be crushed, she looked around for any sign of her ally.

She saw nothing but the now deflated dinghy.

Panickedly, she searches the water, hoping Faria will surface soon. Of course she will, all animals instinctively start to swim, or at least flail when in water, but nothing was seen.

Sapphire dove down beneath the waves. Her body felt light, weightless, as if floating in the vacuum of space. It rather looked that way too.

All she could see was water, infinite water, beneath her a void of the stuff so deep she could never escape.

She felt exposed, weak, more than she had ever felt before. When she had swam earlier there were fish, she knew that, she knew what they were, and she knew she could kill them. She had a boat to return to, an idea of where she was. Now she had none of this.

Only an infinite void in each direction of which anything could come out of at any time and take her.

She managed to spot Faria, sinking deep into the void. Motionless. Helpless. Lifeless.

No… Faria had a high lung capacity surely she would live, surely. She couldn't just accept her death.

Faria was her friend. A realisation potentially come far too late.

Sapphire dove towards the cat, forcing her light body under the intense density of the water. It felt like trying to swim in sand.

Eventually she managed to reach the cat, grabbing onto her massive hand. Faria did not grip her.

She pulled the cat up with her as they both began to float due to Sapphire’s buoyancy, which seemed to have increased somehow.

She tried to rouse the cat any way she could, nothing worked

She pressed her hand to Faria’s chest. Nothing. No pulse. She was… gone.

No no no no no no no this couldn't be right Faria couldn't die, she couldn't leave Sapphire… couldn’t she see that she needed her?

Sapphire shook the cold body in desperation, when she still did not stir she curled herself in the arms of the cat.

She screamed without truly knowing why, and as she did, she felt a strange surge through her body… the surrounding area was shocked with a stream of electricity coming from Sapphire’s small body, and then as quickly as it started, it stopped.

Then she felt something. A weak pulse which most definitely was not there before.

Sapphire quickly surfaced, trying to force the water from the cat’s body, as her limbs began to twitch.

Whatever that shock was, it had worked as a defibrillator and restarted the cat’s pulse. Sapphire was not at all sure how she did that. She had never done that. She didn’t even think something like this was possible.

But right now, she didn’t care how possible it was, only that the cat had been revived.

She found herself looking into Faria’s bright green eyes as the cat gasped, trying to hold on to her small body as best as she could.

“I’m… alive…?” Faria questions between gasps.

“L-likely… I doubt you would be able to ask me such a question at all if you were not.”

“Why?”

“Because dead people rarely possess the ability to talk.”

“No… why did you… save me?”

“...Because you’re my friend Faria. I couldn't let you die.”

“We’re… friends?”

“I believe so. That appears to be why I have been behaving so abnormally… I haven't exactly had one before, a friend I mean. In fact, you’re the first person aside from myself I have ever spoken to.”

Faria is silent, but looks happy.

“We are close to the island. Let’s get to dry land.” Sapphire says, not wanting to speak about her feelings anymore.

“Thank God. Or Satan, or whatever. Let’s get the fuck out of this water.”

🝁🝢🝁

Kim-Ly has never been an athletic woman. She was always slow, and ran out of breath fast. Now, with her head pounding and adrenaline pumping through her veins, she was starting to regret not being good at PE.

She runs from room to room, not getting time to inspect any, as she barrels down long hallways with the robots shooting at her. Their aim isn't very good but she doesn't exactly take the time to figure out why.

Kim-Ly finds herself in a smaller room the hatches won’t open. She's at a dead end.

A machine whirs to life, something is said in a different artificial voice, not that it matters, as she can’t understand the language.

Mechanical arms fasten around all her limbs as she thrashes in their grip. Her mouth is wrenched open as a large pipe is shoved down her throat, causing her to choke. She fights harder against the machine’s grasp but its no use.

Long tubes held by more arms, with large needles on the tips are brought towards her, despite all her struggling and crying she is unable to break free, and they plunge into her body, injecting into her spine, multiple parts of her arms and legs, her kidneys, the nape of her neck, and even her forehead, piercing through the her skull.

A glowing blue liquid is pumped through all the pipes, she tries to scream but the pipe prevents it.

Her body becomes weak and goes limp, before being shocked back to struggling when what seemed to be barbed wires wrap around all of her skin, the hundreds of needles injecting more of the liquid.

Blood drips down, creating a large puddle on the ground beneath her.

The robots are about to enter the room when the door slams shut. A screen is lowered in front of her displaying what looks to be an instructional video, but the tech is long degraded and glitched, so really its nothing, her head is held in place so she’s forced to look at it, as more of the needles drive themselves into her skull.

She feels nothing but pain, knowing this is the end of her life surely, and still the machine continues its mutilation.

The barbed wires around her torso unwrap, and for a moment, she thinks it may be ending, until she feels a horrible pain. She can't look down as the machine keeps her looking at the screen before her, she doesn’t even have the strength to wonder what she’s supposed to be being shown.

Unfortunately for her it goes black, long strained technology finally having given in, and in its reflection she can clearly see a large scalpel vivisecting her, once it finishes more tubes are inserted deep into her nostrils, fully cutting off her breathing, but the machine does not have the mercy to let her die, instead a blade slits her throat, allowing air in through the wound.

The blood has fully covered the floor at this point, and she wonders why she isn't dead yet. She realises the machines are keeping most of it in, overfilling her veins as the new liquid fills her.

She sees long skewers scissor her large chest wound open, revealing her organs inside.

A large needle plunges into her heart, starting to somehow specifically extract all of her blood. She thrashes wildly, before goggles are forced over her eyes, displaying the same swirl as before, as speakers are hooked up to her ears. She can understand what they are saying despite it being the same alien language as before. “Be calm. This does not hurt. Magification will be completed soon.” it repeats those words over and over. She doesn’t have the mental fortitude to analyse those words, or why she can understand them, due to the immense pain and now about 16 skewers in her head, and the hypnosis.

Said hypnosis does its work convincing her to stop struggling as every drop of blood is extracted from her body, and replaced with the blue substance. That of it that doesn't make it into her bloodstream fuses to her flesh.

The machine finishes its work on her heart, and the needle is pulled… before her heart is ripped out entirely. How the fuck is she still alive!?

A metallic piece is shoved in its place, seeming to resume its work.

Her lungs are ripped out and replaced with something oddly fleshy that is attached to the new faux heart.

Another organ entirely is shoved in her body, connected to her spinal cord and her faux heart.

“Sleep.” the machine orders, and she does.

🜞🝣🜞

The pair crawl onto the shore of the island, Sapphire definitely exhausted.

Whatever that thing was that she did earlier, it had sapped a lot of her energy, and even more had been depleted when swimming herself and the rather heavy cat monster to the island. The water did help to lighten the weight but she was still on the verge of collapse the whole way.

“Oh sweet land, I will never leave you again.” Faria says, sitting in the sand.

As soon as Sapphire gets onto land she kneels over and pukes up a strange substance. She's not quite sure what she should call it, it's like water, but not quite.

She had had no problem breathing underwater and had inhaled a lot of it. Something she was actually quite curious about, as she had always assumed she couldn't. When she never ate or drank it was because she never felt any need or desire to, but she knew living creatures like herself tended to need oxygen, so had always tried holding her breath… but did she really not need to? It seemed like what she just puked up was the water that she had swallowed, although being inside her had clearly done something to it.

It felt unstable. Or too stable. It was hard to say.

What had she done to this, how had she managed to release such a high quantity of electrical energy, more than she’d even think would be contained in her body, and what does this mean…

Sapphire starts to wonder where her energy is coming from anyway. She sleeps sure, occasionally, but she never dreams, she never eats or drinks anything nor feels the need to so her body can't be burning fats or sugars, she hadn't gotten a pound lighter, energy cant be created or destroyed so she had to be getting it from something.

So how does she work?

From the little she knows about herself she seems to clearly violate the first law of thermodynamics.

Maybe she’s “overthinking it”, as much as she hated the phrase as until now she doubted such a thing was possible. Perhaps she somehow got energy from the sun or something.

Still, it was rather confusing… She needs to figure this out. She can’t go on not knowing something, especially something as vital as what she herself was.

Sapphire is snapped from her thoughts by Faria running up and down the beach on all fours, kicking up sand in Sapphire’s face.

It was rather impressive actually, Faria had not had full room to run on the ship, Sapphire hadn’t truly believed she could really run like this, she assumed the files were exaggerating.

Sapphire stands up, miraculously having had her energy restored, another strange ability relating to it to regain it fast without doing… anything.

Now is not the time to think of this.

“The building is on the other side of the island, we could go over there, but going in guns blazing, which is a figure of speech by the way as you seem to misread such things, we are likely to be captured. They had a 3D render of the island, rather impressive. Regardless, there is a cave nearby and it is not listed as being monitored. It would be a good place to rest and make our plan.” Faria is not paying attention. “FARIA!” Sapphire yells at her friend in frustration.

Faria looks up, there is a crab in her mouth, shell shattered by the power of her jaws. “Yeah?” She says through her full mouth.

Sapphire sighs, and smiles slightly, annoying as she was, Faria was good company and Sapphire was very glad she had not died. “Just follow me.”

🝁🝢🝁

Kim-Ly awakes half submerged in a pod full of water. She immediately shoots upwards, gasping. Her whole body feels weird, plagued by a buzzing sensation as if her veins were full of bees.

Her clothes are drenched in her own blood, but her wounds have miraculously already become scars, she panickingly lifts up her shirt to look at the place she was cut open, sure enough, there is a line of stitches going down her torso.

“Shit… what… what was that… what did it do to me?” She gets out of the pod.

Her mind still feels a little bit fuzzy. She’s in a new part of the lab, one covered in posters that she can somehow read as being classic motivational phrases. Huh. She notices her bag is missing and panics, it must have come loose when she was running, she needs to find it, and then find a way out.

Kim-Ly sees some magazines on a table, this place is set up like a waiting room. They’re human ones, or at least most are, with all the writing covered up in whiteout and replaced with the strange language. She finds herself still being able to read them.

Whatever happened to her, she can now understand this language.

Writing on the wall reads “Welcome new magi.” Magi… is that what she is? Did that thing make her a… magi? What even is a magi?

She sees a book laying on the table, “Introduction to Magic: A Magi’s Guide. By Moray.” the book is small, light, and looks very old. She opens it up to the first page.

“After undergoing Magification you may be confused, especially if you stumbled in the chamber by accident, I’ll be totally honest here, because I know none of the others will read this. ParanormalU is going down. We all know it. I wouldn't be shocked if no one ever reads this. And if someone does, I’ll bet you didn’t even know what that machine was. Since there's no regulation anymore, Smokey and I have decided to make this book special.

Congratulations reader, you now own the one of a kind, limited edition, go fuck yourself book. Since I’ll bet you have no clue what a magi even is, you are one, I am one. If you still need to know more, we’re humans imbued with a substance with a long boring name I prefer to just call magic gatorade, and since I can do whatever I want now, I will.

Basically we’re humans artificially turned into pseudo-sorciforms, we do magic, we’re good at it, and Smokey fucked with the machine when the boss wasnt looking so you wouldnt get knocked out until the end. Trust me, it's for the better, if you get knocked out you go limp and your veins contract in a way that's inconvenient, you come out weak and bland.

This book will teach you a couple standard spells and some of mine. I’m not allowed to teach those, but again, no one will ever look at this. They’re too busy trying to stop our organisation from falling to proofread my shit.

I have more answers that even now I hesitate to tell you through a medium such as this one. So I’m going to take a slightly smaller gamble than that and give you my address.” There is an address, ok she probably shouldn't call it that because it links her to a deeper sector of a nearby forest but regardless it’s actually pretty close to here. Kim-Ly wants to read more, but she should probably get out of here.

She walks back through the lab, and steps on another pressure plate, having not learned her lesson. However this time, the robots make a ding and simply leave when they scan her… odd…

She’s free to explore this lab, she’d rather go home currently given her body aches and today has been horri- no lets be honest here this is still the coolest day of her life regardless of the new array of scars. I mean it's not like she hadn’t gotten scars from monster hunting and this is way more interesting.

She finds her bag, the contents having fallen out.

The walkie talkie is on, Sabrina finally messaging her, having forgotten to until now presumably due to pure bloodlust.

“KIM! KIM ARE YOU THERE?! KIM!!!” Sabrina calls.

Kim-Ly picks up the walkie talkie. “Yeah sorry I’m here. Over.”

“HOLY SHIT KIM WHERE WERE YOU?! I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!!! Over.”

“I’m fine, I got attacked by something really weird and accidentally dropped my bag in the superior vena cava. Over.”

“Oh thank God! I don’t know what I’d do if… if you weren’t around. Please don’t do that again… I… can't lose anyone else. Over and out.”

Kim-Ly sighs. It felt bad lying to Sabrina. However, it has to be done… “Well…” She looks at the book. “Time to find this guy.”

#Patchwork Heart #Ouija #Thalassaphobia stuff I guess #maybe???#Sorry nerves got the best of me guys #be nice

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𝙂𝙀𝙏 𝙏𝙊 𝙆𝙉𝙊𝙒 𝙈𝙀 𝙏𝘼𝙂 !

tagged by: @luvvseong @yangyangify @spookybias @iuwon @floraljae (thank you, my loves <3)

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notes from vie: oml what the hell was this. honestly, this was so long, but i think it allowed me to reflect upon myself for a moment lmao.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙞𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙙𝙖𝙮

october twenty eighth! on winwin day, nonetheless!

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩❜𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧

i adore every single one smh. if it were palettes we were speaking about, then it would probably be greyish blue tones and beige to yellow ones!

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩❜𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙮 𝙣𝙪𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧

my lucky number does not work, because my misfortune overpowers it way too much. i like the number eight, though!

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙥𝙚𝙩𝙨

i used to have pet baby cobras, fishes, yellow and blue budgies, and aquatic turtles!

𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪

i am aspiring to reach 170 cm, but i am currently 159-160 cm! that would be 5'2"?? i think.

𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚

a pair of combat boots, white canvas shoes, and one sneakers for sports class... not many lmao i am not a shoe gal.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜

changes everyday. as i am typing, however, it would be lose it by oh wonder, rush hour by gaho and run by one republic!

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙚

i have three: rise of the guardians, room (2015), and... any studio ghibli movie tbh. whoops.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙣𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚

i say that i do not have a type all of the time, but all of the people i have been attracted to and had a crush on were the wild, fun, and cute guys in my class. they also tend to be very kind and understanding as well. i am a sucker for people who smile often.

they would have to be accepting of all of my flaws and love me regardless, just like the way i would do the same for them if i love them as well. i am also extremely touch deprived haha, so i would honestly be over the moon if they don't mind hugs and physical affection.

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙣

only after i have a stable income and have things sorted out, because i don't want to struggle raising them because of financial and mental issues. no kid deserves parents that can't take care of them ig.

𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙣 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙖𝙬

the law from where i come from are terrible and something pretty bad has happened, but i'd rather that's kept in private haha. i swear i didn't commit any crimes lmao police are just incredible blind and unfair there.

𝙗𝙖𝙩𝙝 𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧

shower. i am way too impatient for baths. also, i feel weird sitting in a tub filled water while naked lmfao it's so weird for me.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙘𝙠𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜

grey.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘

k-r&b, indie, pop-rock hybrid ig, lo-fi.

𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙥𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙨 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝

only one below my head.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣

it varies. i sleep like a rock even though i can’t sleep for long, so i wake up in the exact position i initially fall asleep in. either on my back or my right side, since my left side isn’t too good lmao.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤𝙣❜𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪❜𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙜

buzzing mosquitos and damp, hot air (which is very rare, so i guess we are okay). i also hate being cold, so i sleep with two blankets even during summer haha. my limbs are ice-cold all the time smh

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙠𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩

oats mixed with chocolate chunks.

𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙧𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙮

i never went to a club or took lessons, but we had a backyard where my dad allowed me to shoot at stuff with a bow and the few arrows he made. i was pretty good at aiming, but my eyesight has deteriorated, so i left it at that lmao

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙛𝙧𝙪𝙞𝙩

watermelons and mangoes... also rambutan and mangis, but we don’t have them in germany ;-; i missed them.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙

fuck. and i am sorry to say that i use it here quite a lot.

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙨

tons.

𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙧

some have called me a psychopath before, but they just don’t understand that i was raised by very strict parents and learned how to lie lmao. i am pretty ashamed to say yes.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩❜𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚

i have tested twice. once when i was fourteen, which showed that i was an infj-t, but then i took it again last year and it showed that i was an infp-t. i heard that 16Personalities was trash, though, so take it with a grain of salt.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩❜𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡

my best friend. she is a wild character, ngl, but she and i communicate extremely well. she is outgoing, courageous, hilarious, and has no qualms with being the odd one. she isn’t overly obnoxious, but she has a nice kind of self-confidence going on.

𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙚 𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙚

i love yang jeongIN. definitely an innie, because i don’t even remember what the front of my house looks like haha. i don’t go out unless someone literally grabs my arms and physically drags me out and i am not even joking with this one.

𝙡𝙚𝙛𝙩 𝙤𝙧 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙙

i was originally right-handed, but then i got paranoid of breaking my right arm and having to study with my left arm all of a sudden and get bad grades, so i learned how to do stuff and write with my left hand as a kid.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙

don’t have one. call me when we’re talking about dessert.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙞𝙜𝙣 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙

don’t have one.

𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙮

my entire aesthetic is chaotic academia irl, so you tell me.

𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙥𝙝𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙚

oml, how tf, bahaha, bestie, no because-, hehe, lmao, i’m sobbing, i guess, toodles, etc etc.

𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮

i can techincally be ready in five, but procrastination is the sole thing i excel at, so yeah, definitely half an hour.

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛

cnversations happen in my head, my the office-esque reactions happen out loud. i talk a lot and imitate phrases i hear from someone to myself and reenact scenes from my daydreams bahaha

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛

i don’t shut up. someone save the people that live with me.

𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧

definitely not the most technically sound vocalist, but i can hold a tune or two. i was a soloist in my choir for a few years and was the vocalist for a band, but we disbanded smh i am still very sad about that :/ i loved them so much.

𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧

seeing my loved ones die before me.

𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙥

i don’t feel comfortable talking bad about people :/ just ignore and move on.

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙞𝙧

i have hair that reaches my knees, but dear god do i want to chop it all off in one motion and get a yeeun-style bob cut.

𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙤𝙡 𝙨𝙪𝙗𝙟𝙚𝙘𝙩

sports and art. to hell with everything else. i’m not bad at them at all, but oh gosh i want to burn them all.

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙧 𝙚𝙭𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙩

... idk. i hate speaking to strangers and feel so awkward during one on one conversations with friends. i don’t go out a lot and social events tire me out, but i also crave noise happening around me. so,,, ambivert? i do tend to be the life of the party often during the few times i go out, but then i just lug myself back home and crash for the week lmao

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙤𝙪𝙨

anything related to school. i have regular panic attacks /gen. also, i have thalassaphobia and megalophobia, so things larger than life and the vast, empty ocean terrifies me and movies like that just make me nauseous.

𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡 𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙝

my first real crush this one guy in my band. he was the other vocalist and was so pretty and fun. he always used to tease me smh. at least, that was something. but then we had to disband last year, because the older guys were moving away to study and us high schoolers were also moving to different cities ;-;

𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙧𝙪𝙣

i was in my middle school track team and used to compete a lot since i was pretty agile, but then i started to hate running, stopped, and now i am just a little above average bahaha.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙞𝙧

black. i want to dye it with cotton candy colored highlights, tho!

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙧𝙮

unnecessary comments, rude and obnoxious, self-entitled kids and people in general, people who tell you how to do your own job, hate comments, the basic dni criterias as well

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙚

kind of?

𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡 𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙙

i would want a girl.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙩𝙝𝙨

i have cold hands if you want to cool down. i can adapt to any kind of environment instantly, since i have moved twelve different times to fifferent schools and countries. bless my parents. i have gained the ability to conquer shifts in social environments at the cost of my mental health :’) i also consider myself to be nice and can get things down quickly, so i am a fast learner.

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙨

kanemoto yoshinori, yoshi, eye smiles, and brownies. i am also very impatient, a perfectionist, a procrastinator, and have absolutely zero self-control over aggression against my own body. i have trouble reacting to other people's emotional outbursts, be it crying or anger and don't know what to do and how to comfort them. i also have trouble opening up and am never authentic around people, so i don't have... friends, if that makes sense? i don't feel comfortable being myself and feel like i have to be the person that they want me to be? idek.

i get bored extremely easily and nothing interests me that much ig

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩❜𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙚𝙙𝙨𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙

blue.

𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙢

white and hints of blue.

#“(r)” ⸻ tag game time.

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