#Tae commented at 4 o'clock

[mrs-monaghan]

Something I've been pondering. Just wondering if any other JKK get this vibe. Jikook are fine. TK are fine. Even after the Taennie pics, TK are fine. You know who's not? Vmin. I keep thinking about when the Taennie pics dropped & we saw Tae for the first time in public after the pics dropped, he was wearing a shirt that said J I M on it and Jimin was hanging on him in in a way where if you focused on him, you couldn't help but notice the JIM on Tae's shirt. Also JM's first live after the Taennie pics, Tae was in his comments asking if he was okay & telling JM to facetime him and JM said no & then JM told us that day he got his moon phases cause of Tae & even said he didn't know if he should say it. Why not, afraid of ticking off Tae's new partner? JM didn't go to the Harry concert, not even to sit with Suga and RM, if he didn't wanna sit with TK & now we know Jennie was sitting just seats away from Tae.

Sweet Night being about falling in love with his best friend and Tae saying JM is his only best friend. I also keep thinking about Letter. Letters are associated to Vmin. Tae wrote JM a letter, then wrote a song about JM referencing the Letter he wrote him. And only like 2 months ago, Tae wore a shirt in one of his lives that had "I wrote a long love letter to you, because I found it hard to write a short one" & the lyric he wrote in 4 o'clock about JM is "I wrote a long, long letter to the moon" which references Tae's letter to JM in BV. JM also wore a shirt with the exact quote as Tae's shirt. So they've both worn that phrase on their shirts. Title of JM's secret song is called Letter & the lyrics match Blue & Grey, Promise and Friends. I'm probably overthinking, but Vmin be giving off sus vibes, esp Tae. There is only one duo who seems to be annoyed with each other since the Taennie scandal and it's not TK or Jikook. Jikook seem to be fine, TK seem to be fine, but Vmin acting divorced. And add Jimin's album seemingly pointing at a bitter break up. Sus, sus, sus all around. I'm starting to think there's a triangle alright, but not Vminkook more like Taenniemin. UGH, chapter 2 is really showing true colors all around. I think we're all wrong. TKK and JKK. There I said it, but I just hope I am wrong.

[nekathyran]

I wish you good night, good night, good night Good night, good night

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[95zintheirownworld]

Since when and why are you an army and like vmin? :)

ive liked bts since 2016 when a youtuber I followed reacted to fire. ive been lowkey following their music since 2017 bcuz a very close friend of mine became an army after dna went viral and used to share a lot of bts mvs and songs with me. i started watching bts edits and clips in 2019 when a twt moot became a minjoon biased army and i had bts content all over my tl, and ive kept up with them ever since lol. but i couldn't Properly get into them until the lockdown in 2020 when I finally sat down and listened to all their songs and watched their performances. i think the BST mv + stage performances rlly solidified my love for them.

I watched a lot of bts compilation vids as well and rlly imo I think once you start watching bts content, there's just No turning back from there. they're so sincerely charming as ppl on top of having a Very solid discography theres no way out loool. in this bangtan sonyeondan shit for life, as a truly wise person once said. and ik in general most yt vids suck and include a lot of stereotypes for members and i don't recommend them as your intro to bts at All but there's So Many Cute ones as well. bts interview compilations, bts taking care of eo compilations, bts being funny compilations, etc. still i switched over to the original content quick enough lol, and there's So Much of it idt I'll ever be caught up entirely.

id say id joined and started interacting with the fandom by may 2020. bcuz i remember theorizing about the countdown to D-2 and screaming about spotting jinkook in the daechwita mv on the tl loool.

my bias has been jimin from the very beginning. ive been crying about how beautiful and wonderful he is since 2019 and im genuinely in love with him in a very best friend way (tae gets it). i think the first bts song i had on loop for a Month straight was filter lol. i saw this one edit by stussyjimin on twt that I was Obsessed with and ive been jimin biased ever since.

joon was my bias wrecker for a while bcuz he is genuinely so charming?? and Smart??? and his lyricism?? is out of this world?? and those yt compilations of him being patient with all the members rly made me love him sm

after i started watching videos of All members during the lockdown tho, i realized i was So Endeared by tae as well. he made me so Fond of him. he's always so sincerely Him. funny and strange and attentive and sweet and Observant. and then i watched a sweet night × tangled edit on twt and his voice??? was so Soothing?? i fell in love with him in a very best friend way too(jimin gets it). he's been my bias wrecker ever since ;-;-;-

when it comes to shipping, i started off as a moonfairy bcuz of the twt moot i mentioned lol. there was a Lot of soft minimoni content at the time, the kitchen run ep, the vlive, promise making behind the scenes and i found them So cute. i think id sat and watched All tae and jimin ship compilation vids at the time tbh. esp taejoon and minjoon. at heart, for some time, i was also a simple vminjoonist.

however as u know eventually yt starts reccing the analysis vids. and Those put me off both jkk and tkk so thoroughly ive never been able to get into the two ships again ;-;-;- it was very frustrating to want to watch minimoni compilations and have yt only recommend slowed down zoom ins on Proof That jkk/tkk Real. the comment section for these videos were also especially awful im ngl. the whole experience made me so sour i quit watching ship compilations on yt entirely. ;-;-;-;

i got into vmin specifically after i first Properly heard the soulmate anthem with lyrics and went ?!?!?!? this + the June 2020 Avalanche of vmin content turned me into a vminie. vmin content doesn't rlly filter into the ot7 spaces as much, so you've to Rlly go looking for it. i think after the unit interview 4 o'clock revelation i got curious about vmin and went ahead and found the small corner of vminies in the fandom bcuz even in June 2020 there Weren't very many of us here lol.

the old vminies kept talking about how vmin had changed over the years, so I went back to watch the old bangtan bombs to pay attention to vmin in particular. and like, once you See it, you can't Unsee it. ive talked about this before, but vmin have gone from The most rowdy best friends who roughouse for fun to The most gentle and tender soulmates and the transition is so ?!?!?!?!?

i think This particular video rlly converted me to vminism and idk why it's not talked about as much

firstly, how does one even reconcile 2014 vmin with This vmin lol. secondly, what even is going on in this video. "when you were dancing i was watching you." "you were?" "ive been watching the whole time." "don't look at me!!" spoken in the softest voices. i couldn't get this out of my head for Days!!! tae is so awed!!! jimin is so shy!!! they're so tender!! why!!!

consuming seven years worth of vmin content where they're just loving eo, comforting eo, writing songs for eo and just declaring over and over that they're The most special to eo even tho they used to fight the Most rlly got me further in. i watched run eps and bon voyages and bts episodes and bangtan bombs. i stalked the vmin archive. @btsandvmin's blog also helps, it's quite well organized. and they have a very Balanced approach towards shipping.

the vmin evolution!!! vmins bond!!! all their moments!!! rlly made me love them sm

for anyone newly getting into vmin, I will Always say watch vmin clips from the source content instead of in isolation. that's the One thing ive always done, bcuz context is very important and also, most vmin content is even more precious With context ;-;-;-

when you realize the sheer number of Times vmin have expressed in big and small ways how much they mean to eo. you Can't not love them. i adore vmin sm i adore their bond i adore how much they love eo there's rlly no way to Not love them tbh.

thank you anon for this ask, i loved answering it <33333

[btsandvmin]

Collection of asks 2 - BTSandVMIN

I had to make a second one because the length of the first one was getting way too long. If you are curious about some of my older asks here is the link to my first collection post - Collection of asks - BTSandVMIN

I have this post because I feel some of the asks I answer are worth saving, for me personally, and perhaps for you as well. But I don’t want to put them all in my Masterpost where I want to keep it a bit more structured for my longer posts and analysis. So for asks that are more about answering specific questions or about general things or my feelings I will put them here.

Asks are written more in the moment than my usual posts, so they might be less accurate as it’s all mostly from the top of my head. The newest ones will actually be on top, and then they will get older going down the list. I’ll update it regularly as I answer more asks. :)

Look at jhope's interaction with maknae line

Sorry for spamming with asks

You're so right about how any ship can be possible if you focus on it

I reject any idea of a couple being pushed to protect another 

What do you think of vmin’s busan forehead kiss?

About tae changing the choreo of fake love

What do you think of that famous ji/kook trip together ?

"Friends" doesn't speak about a friendship to me and the title seems like a way to "hide" the true meaning. Thoughts?

I honestly do feel his "best" friend is only ever needed when it's convenient to him

When j/k wore matching shirts asked them something like are u guys dating Its so differnt from his rn to vmin

Looking at th and jm for what they are or represented to be their bond shouldn't be taken at face value. Just reminding that jealousy amongst bandmates do exist

Jimin kissed tae on the pretext of kissing tanny. tae blanked out for a few secs after that

Jin in Jimins Festa profile this yr called Tae his "Bf" and then the next word is "best friend"

I dont think vmin or any other ship in bts for that matter are in any form of relationship right now.

Kind of agree with vmin not spending much time together outside of work & things they do/say barely even give off that "possibly a couple" vibe in general

IF feelings are involved, who do you think fell first and why? 

You already said that you ship them, but do you think that they're real?

I found it kinda weird how jimin apparently "didn't know" 4 o'clock was inspired by him

Have u seen that one radio interview in the past Th openly called out jm for liking men? 

We never see them hangout tgt I mean we have seen ji/kook tgt more often and tae with his wooga squad

What did you think about jimin playing the video game using tae's acc while the latter looked from behind?

When tae posted 'lets keep going for a long time i only have u' they probably only knew e/o for about 2 yrs and now we also know that at that time they still argued and fought with e/o alot. Yet they felt so strongly for their frienship.

What are your thoughts about tae choosing " my time " to recommend it to a non army.

If we look at their personalities tae is more of introverted and shy these days while jimin is more outgoing and loud. But when it comes the them jimin is always the one who seems cautious

Is it my imagination or is Jimin VERY loud lately? I feel like the roles have somehow been reversed.

The timeline of the dumpling incident really confuses me. 

Why do i feel like vmin dont hangout outside of work anymore

Just read your ji/kook vs vmin post regarding festa and I agree. you can tell that jm gets very serious when it comes to tae

A possible sexual relationship between Jimin and Tae. I've seen subtle hints where this might be happening behind the scenes like the recent bang bang con

Whenever joon says stuff like 'what a nice friendship/bcoz he is your friend' vmin have a very neutral or blank face

When do you think their friendship turned into something more?

Did u see how tae coloured jimin's name on the soft board with purple. 

Jimin recently in this festa says jk is his soul brother

Nj nearly always tries to underplay vmin's bond.

Sweet Night: “Sharing my fragile truth That I still hope the door is open Door' 

I feel like jimin was reluctant to talk about the dumpling incident probably bcoz it involves him getting drunk?

Your opinion on the whole "that's smth a couple would do" "you two look like a couple" for ji/kook vs "it's cause he's your friend "

What ur opinion is on the new kdrama that is based on homosexuality. 

Tae has many a times mentioned wanting to have kids or wanting to be father.

Taehyung has always talked about having a family, children and wife etc. 

I personally feel the maknae line in general have been advised not to do lives alone tgt bcoz of the intense shipping

I spend hours reading your posts and I could never get tired of it

I have a doubt about vmin  recently V is so close to JK it seems like V avoiding jimin

Taehyung talked about the movie Call Me by Your Name and its soundtrack

I honestly like how unpopular vmin are.

Let's say JM and TH have other partners - do you think said partners would be okay with a whole song of vmin declaring each other as soulmates? 

In the end there is no moment that is unique to a ship. do you agree?

Some vlives are arranged by the company and sometimes members themselves when the find free time they go live. 

What was the point of making a decision tght to come on vlive tgh infront of the fan to then not do it?

It cant be the company stopping v and jm from doing a live can it? 

Do you the think the reason vmin dont do vlive is because taehyung's feelings are one sided?

Theory on a possible reason on why vmin has not gone to do a vlive on their own for so long?

On bon voyage 3 j hope mentions how v and jk were hugging each other in their sleep.

Ji/kook is obvious (ear nibble) and Tae reacting blank to Vmin moments

But why they dont have funny bro handshake like v/kook?

You are so delusional like seriously how do you function in real life

You know how vmin called eo soulmates. The term can also be taken in a platonic way too right

If there’s a real ship in bts, can you give me your opinion on who?

Tae kissing jimin's cheek after they won an award in some music show (About ship edits)

I think vmin is real. Can you do a Sweet night analysis because in my opion the song dosen't match with the drama

Why are you a Vmin shipper if you don't think Jimin is gay or at least bisexual? 

I don't blame V and Jimin for not doing Vlive together

You know that blurry picture of vmin in 2014?

Tae and jk seem like the members who are most non straight to u and also that jimin might be straight so then isnt it more possible for t**k***k to be the couple?

Do you think that vmin are straight?

Can you tell me what makes you think jk is not straight

Ppl connect sweet night and 4 o' clock with vmin After tae's live yesterday n i m also seeing some ppl being offended by it.

Why do I sense that Tae has more of crush on Jimin (and realized it) but Jimi is oblivious?

Will you still publish that long vmin and lgbt in korea analysis.

Even namjoon said they should go live to discuss about their song.

I dont really consider minjoon vlive as one they did themselves. it was mostly organised by the company

Maknae line avoid vlives and  its really weird that jimi would do it with rm but not tae

Shouldnt it be easy for them to go live tght than anyone else?

Tae is very reluctant or scared to do a vlive with jimin

In the past month when vmin did mention about the song they just made superficial comments

Hi 💙 do you write vmin fics?

I also feel that jm is nervous to talk about the song even though he said he will in the comeback show

If jimin doesn't go live today as well maybe we can get a vmin live?

Vmin antis say vmin are not friends irl and use the fact that they are never spotted hanging out offscreen as "proof"

Will you do a Vmin throwback - 2019?

Can we even be considered delulu anymore for thinking not all of this is a coincidence?

Sweet night doesn't really fit the couple relationship in the drama

What do you mean when you say 'not being delulu'?

I dont know why after listening to sweet night i feel very nervous?

Maybe the lyrics to SN are very well just about the drama/webtoon.

Do you think the songs lie and stigma are related ? 

Namjoon talking about Friends 2 - Making excuses

Namjoon talking about Friends 1 - Can’t write about them

About the “Hello my alien” line in Friends

Do you think they gone do fansing this period of promoting?

Jm said when he wants to make and gift a song if he finds someone he loves and he actually helped write n produce the melody of chingu

Omg Ive been crying over the vmin song lyrics ever since they came out.

Thoughts about the song and what you took out of it

Its not a light hearted thing to call each other soulmate

This kind of debunks the christmas song theory… i feel sad like they are commercialising their friendship

Jimin is partly involved in the making and it will be about Jimin and Tae’s bond

I fear that vmin will become the next larry 

Chrismats song, smile awards. Arent those awards previously decided and even the words written for them by the company?

I was wondering if you're going to write something about bv4 and all the vmin we got there

Do you think that vmin say they love each other truly or for fan service?

Recently i watched a vkook video to compare

Do you know how exactly vmin met?

Whenever I do get the chance to focus on Vmin it’s usully one of three things

At the airport Tae had his arm around Jimin's shoulder but removed it quickly when they arrived in front of the cameras.

I don’t care if people don’t ship Vmin romantically. But with Vmin doing things like this you can’t really blame us if we do.

I got a looooot of asks on the Christmas song and I will adress the ones I have left all in one go

The reaction in bv was probably cause he wants to visits there and jm got there first

Vmin talked about tannie and how they went to visit tannie at tae's parents house

Just do it how you feel comfortable, we are waiting for your analysis

What video is the gif you post with this : Jimin and V talking about going to the Sapporo snow festival and playing in the snow together 

This break was an opportunity for them to be around other friends and family so maybe they just wanted to spend this time apart

Do you really think vm are soulmates? Sometimes i feel like we might be over using this word for them 

Once again thank you for all the asks you send! And also sorry for not being able to keep up and answer them all. I’ll try to answer some old ones as well whenever I can, and I will keep adding some of them to this list. I hope you found something interesting. Thanks for reading!

[dis-pose-able-blog]

Blue moon- vmin

Note: So hi? I was listening to 4 o'clock and well remembered that it was written based off of Jimin and then I like properly appreciated the lyrics once again because is a beautiful song and well I was like hey, why not write a one-shot based off of it... so I did and I ended up enjoying what I'd written (kind of) and well I wanted to publish it but it's a one-shot and I have no idea where to do so bc I'm too lazy to make a one-shot book :")

anywhore.... here's my one-shot based off of 4 o'clock and spring day! It's unrevised and fresh from my mind's womb! Enjoy!

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I took a deep breath as the cold clawed its way throughout my body, and released it with the faintest rolling of steam slipping past my lips; the time I was unsure of though the moon was up yet I seemed to be the only soul risen with it.

My fingers numbed with the moonlight breeze, though that letter I wrote so long ago now was still firmly gripped between my fingers, it was for someone - someone I no longer have, I planned to read it to them though missed my chance and I've simply written a long, long letter to the moon. It was merely a corrupted file now for the mood could never equal that whom it was intended for - he shone brighter than the moon; everyone saw that but himself and I vaguely remember him whispering, on one of the last occasions in meeting him, that he was 'nothing more than a small lit candle in a life full of chandeliers' and I felt my face contort in almost anger yet the molten tear that radiated down my cheek, freezing my heart even more, told me all I felt was nothing but sadness toward the boy who'd sold his soul to the moon.

With a gruff weakness I wiped away the tears from my face and stood, allowing my feet to wander; my mind seeming to become confused between itself and the appendages for it began to wonder, tripping up and landing upon a desert - its once beautiful seas draining out through my eyes, washing a mirage of an oasis of happiness upon it whenever someone asks "how are you holding up?" with that condescending rub of the arm and a head tilt with that stupid tone of voice - I hate it!

I was so caught up in my thoughts, the brewing sand-storm halting at the sound of a song. Was it a bird song? That sound? Just simply a nameless bird calling out into the dark? Crying for its baby to fly back into the safe embrace of its delicately crafted fortress of a nest? Or was it you? Was it that voice I'd heard once upon a dream? Could it possibly that voice that brings a red-hot desire to see you once more each step I take this?

I found myself taking another step, one after another - I was running toward that voice, for it was more than just a nameless bird singing; so I followed it into the deep, into the ocean of darkness.

One step, another step. My grip tightening around the paper, the cold numbing being but something I ignored for I longed to see your brightness once again and I found myself stumbling into a park - one from when we were younger, happier... or were you never truly happy?

The sweet melody of your voice took me deeper into the darkness though I still couldn't find you. "Where are you?" My voice cracked and crumbled into the ground beneath my feet. "You?" My heart lurched and fluttered, I was pretty sure for a moment that repetitive thumping of it came to a complete halt upon the sight of you before me, swinging backwards and forwards shaded by the blue of moonlight, humming to yourself a tune of your own and it carried out into the night as if you were a siren calling sailors to their peril.

He's still as ethereal as ever, if not even more so- the way the light cascaded down upon him, he possessed none of his usual traits, however. His tan skin had been bleached into a radiant blue-white and his deep rose lips had been kissed with hues of navy and his once black hair had been stripped into a tincture of chalk white and there was something empty about his once full eyes - he was before me and yet something in him was lost.

"Why are you crying?" he turned to me and asked, though the oceans in his shaded eyes made me wonder too why he was crying - he'd gotten his wish and left. He did this; ran off and followed the stories of children of the moon; like Wendy, Peter and Micheal flying off to Neverland... except for this time he can't fly back. The window had been shut. Locked. Bricked up and he did it to himself.

I shook my head with a frown, running to his now standing figure, embracing him the comforting smell I'd begged my nose to remember hitting me in a strong wave, the welcoming arms and once warm, now cold, cage he'd delicately caught me in causing my heart to burn and shake and my eyes to drain the last of the oceans of my mind and I sobbed into his neck and he into mine.

"Why do you cry?" He repeated through sobs. "You and I are the only ones here - like it used to be - like you wanted! Me and you! So why do you cry?" his muffled cry of pain vibrated against my skin as my breath tried to catch up with me.

"You've been gone too long, Jimin! You left me! I loved you and you left me!" I screamed back, our voices creating a chorus of agony "You left us! I - we needed you and you left!" I tried to collect my shattered self, though the dim moonlight hindered me from putting the house of cards back together.

It remained quiet on his part, words seemingly caught in his throat as I choked out the words I'd been wanting to tell him since the day he left, I shoved the letter into his chest "read it when you miss us" I muttered, seated on another bench, though I hadn't realised we'd moved, I found myself leaning down and resting my head upon his lap, stray tears seeping out of my eyes as his fingers carded through my hair, that tune from earlier arising in his throat, a self-made backing track accompanying his words.

"Tae, I loved you, I did - do, even... Blaming yourself... don't do that. I had my reasons but you were not one of them i -"

"So what were they, Jimin?" I interjected, earning a flick to the forehead.

"Don't interrupt me, I'm older than you remember" we both half chuckled, a bittersweet exchange, however, it was refreshing - hearing his laugh for the first time, in person, after almost two years was beautiful. It was the only sound I could never get tired of and was something I never wanted him to stop doing. "Some things are best left unsaid, I had reasons and only I am to blame for my actions, don't let your heart freeze over, it's far too beautiful for that."

"So was yours and yet... you destroyed it. You did this, Jimin alas other people were also to hold accountable! You can't always blame yourself for the things that go wrong" I sighed, playing with the hand he'd rested upon my stomach "you put so much pressure upon yourself - destroy your mind with a self-made poison and it does nothing but brew trouble! You think I didn't notice how certain comments affected you, you think I didn't understand - that I'd reject you if you told me everything you felt, you thought that by putting on a brave facade that those thoughts, comments, judgments were hidden... well, they weren't! Not from me anyway! I knew it all! I should've helped you!" I gritted out through my teeth, looking up at him and sighing when I saw that lopsided half smiled he'd do and my eyes watered yet again, my mouth opening to speak yet again, though he silenced me with a small kiss - a tiny peck, a gesture that was reassuring yes though it seemed alien it'd been that long; my heart abducted and replaced with butterflies and fireworks just like it had the first time we kissed. He began to stroke my head again, causing me to shut my eyes and bask in the beauty and comfort brought to me under the blue the light of the moon shaded me with.

"I miss you." He started, his voice soft and broken "I didn't want to hurt you but I did, I came to apologise - to ease the pain, I came to erase the hurt and anger, to find closure and let go and yet I can't really let you go yet, Tae" he whispered "do you hate me for it? Would you rather forget my existence for leaving?" I stopped playing with his hand and looked to him.

"Yeah, I hate you; you left me, Jimin." I scoffed "But, the two years you've been gone? I've never stopped thinking about you and I don't plan to." I continued to play with his hand before linking them together "other people drove you into leaving-"

"Tae, it was my decision." He frowned, squeezing my hand "you keep passing blame and -"

"Because, Jimin! It hurts less than to blame you! Every day I want to see you, speak to you, you're my best friend, yet you're not there, you're gone and there's a hole in my entire existence now that you've gone and blaming you only seems to put salt on the wound and not only does it hurts but it makes me bitter toward you" my voice softened, looking to the man so our eyes were locked "and I can't bring myself to hate someone like you, Jimin. You're too... Jimin!"

There was an empty laughter, one that resonated in my heart, he sounded so pained, so broken that I recalled him using the same one just before he died. Looking up to the stars, he let out a breath before running his hands through my hair yet again, that tune from earlier bubbling up through his throat, this time in words, and out into the sky, a lullaby to the moon, a lullaby to me, a warning of the close coming pass of dawn.

You know it all, you're my best friend.

The sun will rise again;

no darkness, no season can last forever.

And, once the moon had fallen to sleep and the sun rose to suffocate my being, I sat up with a strangled, cold cry clawing throughout my body upon this dusty bench in a park somewhere just beside the city, the blue shade that'd been cast over me disappearing "J-Ji-Jimin! Please - don't leave me! Don't leave me again!" I said, trying to grab onto the soft hand stroking my hair.

"I'm sorry." It took one disgustingly warm ray of sunlight to wipe out the silhouette of the moon child before me, one final injection of UV rays to strip me of my Jimin once again.

[hanadulsettt]

Magic Shop

Genre: Angst

Word count: 0.9k

Notes: Ddosun is the name of Jimin’s old dog.

My head sways slightly back and forth…

Wait no - I’m still. This is all in my head. I’m not even moving anymore. My bare toes clench the laminate floor, grasping it after another sloppy pirouette.

I shut my eyes, squeezing all my muscles towards the bridge of my nose. Trying to regain my balance. The only real sounds I hear are my shallow pants echoing off of the mirrored walls. I try to push Ddosun’s voice deeper into the back of my mind.

I know you’re not real, Ddosun.

I won’t say cliche things like ‘have strength’

I’ll just listen Jimin, I’ll listen

I feel his fur against my calves. Just as soft as freshly fallen snow, but equally as unreal. It's August. I look down to see nothing but my blood rushed feet. My eyes flicker in rhythm with the broken light in the corner of the dance studio. I feel the purple pain and agony and my knees hit the ground. From my ears which the sickening indigo ache runs to, I hear boldy consistent footsteps approach.

“Holy shit”

Taehyung...?

“Damn you Jimin.” He grits his teeth.

Today, his voice is like a river encouraged by an impulsive tsunami. Unlike his usual tone, which is as smooth as plummeting beads of rainwater. His syllables could be spring droplets, but which of mother nature's marbles have the power to move boulders? My thoughts begin to consume each other much like these beads that dive into the waves of tsunamis. They evaporate and become the sky, flying through this deep space of my mind, tumbling over each other. Tag, you’re it!

Ah, hello, memories.

Eating only cup noodles with Taehyung through our rough pre debut. Ddosun’s fur soaking up my bitter tears of failure... You were all I had. But do I still have you?

The thoughts are gone by the time my tsunami ruins the ancient city. The calm in between the many August typhoons arrives. My mind runs silent as I hear a familiar voice.

“Yeah. He's in the hospital for starving again.”

Excitedly welcoming the new words, my eyes crack open to his talking only to realize he's outside of the room. An attempt to move my arm only results in a sharp prick from the IV tube cutting through my muscles. An electric current igniting my body into a rapid dance of pain. I prefer softer dances, thank you. The bright sun from the window blinds me. Ddosun. The aftertaste of iron blood glisses across my mouth. Ddosun. The blinding rays spiral through my eyes and weave past my various thoughts... until they meet Ddosun’s voice again… we’ve made it to him again.

I told you you’d overcome it

You didn’t

But I believe in your galaxy

How will the stars in your milky way I see embroider your sky?

What does that even mean, Ddosun. You’re not even human. You’re not even on this earth anymore. What are you doing in my thoughts… to my thoughts… I remember when you were alive. You had so much love to give, and I had a purpose back then.

My eyes are still hazy but I see the brass door knob turn. A familiar face meets my eyes. I refocus on the pang of bitter on my tastebuds to avoid the yellow emotion that is growing from my stomach up.

“Tae...”

He doesn’t wear his boxy smile today. Nor are there galaxies in his eyes....

“Your body can't take any more of this shit. We worry about you so much, damn it.”

Taehyung sits on the corner of my the hospital bed. Rubbing his eyes with his soft hands. I brush my face with my palms as an attempt to rid my face of this feeling that continuously crawls up my abdomen no matter how many times I fight it to stay at bay. Thoughts, thoughts… Ddosun.

Remember 4 o'clock. That song is about you. Taehyung wrote about your friendship. You’re the moon, the blue shade, you see?

… the moon?

Following into the deep night

The sound of you singing

Brings the red morning

A step, and another step

The dawn passes

And when that moon falls asleep

The blue shade that stayed with me disappears

“You look like a fat pig that can’t stop eating”

Days when you hate that you’re you

Days when you want to disappear

Let's make a door in your heart… and when you open that door and go inside, this place will be waiting for you

Magic Shop

I want to love myself. How can I love myself who needs to eat less.The self that can't lose any fucking weight without passing out? Even me, can't love myself.

“Magic shop… maybe I'm almost there, at least I'm discharged, Ddosun…” I hum to myself.

I push the glass door, leaving a hand print with curves similar to rivers on it. Walking out of the volumeless air conditioned breeze behind me, welcoming the thick August heat. My phone sits quietly in my palm, hand wrapping around it. But just by staring at it I hear the screams of the comments. My hand quivers as I swipe my thumb up and tap in the password.

Twitter.

“Fat pig”

“He needs to go on a diet already, the other members are so much more handsome”

My breath hitches and my nose pricks. The feeling of getting chlorine pool water up your nose, that's the feeling of the trigger pulling tears down your face. The door Ddosun told me about… where is it…

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I'm learning how to love myself.

I'll find my magic shop.

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his presence | sj

🌸 pairing: seokjin x you; taehyung 🌸 genre: medical, fluff, domestic 🌸 summary: a trip back to memory lane with your ill-stricken boyfriend, with a twist at the end

Taehyung looks really good in suits. "Lose the glasses Tae." You scoffed and he slide them glasses down the bridge of his nose and peered at you.

"Why aren't you dressed yet." It was a statement, disguised as a question. "I couldn't pick out a dress that would impress Seokjin." You are already disappearing through the hallway. Pictures of you and Seokjin on the round table next to the wall phone, stood proudly.

Taehyung waddles, following your lead. It wasn't his first time here, anyways. He spends way too much time here than his own place for no reason at all.

"...I honestly think it doesn't matter because he'll like it however you're dressed... but if you want to make a fashion statement, then you've come to the right person." A bag full of comics, on the floor by the hallway, spilling out and the dust that piles on it suggests that it had been there for awhile. Left there, abandoned and forgotten. Until you walked out and kicked it away, by accident. And it halted your haste. It halted you thought and it 'stopped' time.

May 30th, 2015.

A dream-like presence. A mirage of endless possibilities. A miracle of some kind. Seokjin is the only angel you know. The missing piece of you that you will never find a replacement for. You could feel it in your heart that Seokjin is one of a kind. We all have our defense mechanism, our coping mechanism, the way we deal with things that upsets us. For you, it was easily, Kim. Seok. Jin. What else do you need? Those luscious lips, incredible wit and glorious laughter.

You never believed in the existence of a perfect man, until Seokjin came along.

And that's your remedy. It comes in the presence of one man.

But Seokjin, his coping mechanism isn't a human. He makes jokes. Jokes are his way of coping. Odd, right?

You walked in with a bag of comics, you knew he'd enjoy. It was the only thing he asked for and he's not the kind that would request anything. So you knew that if he had said them out loud, he must have wanted them so much. "Oh thank goodness, it's here." He gasped upon your arrival, eyeing the back you brought with you. "...Hi, I love you too," you pull his head and kiss the top of his head as he lay on the hospital bed, hands already grabbing the straps and fishing out one of the book, being impatient. "You know, we could subscribe to Netflix and watch movies together..." You sat on his bed, running your fingers through his healthy lock of brownish hair, noticing that it has gotten a tad longer than it used to be.

"You need a haircut." You commented, but Seokjin didn't pay any attention so you grabbed him by the chin and forced his to face you but his eyes are comically still trying to read the first page of the comic he was holding in his hand. "Kim Seokjin." You stressed on each syllable and he looks up at you with doe eyes. "I'm going to use that coupon now." You gave him a thin smile and Jin blinks rapidly at you, slapping a smile on his beautiful face. "What coupon?" He frowned in a second. The coupon. The coupon he gave you on your birthday from last year. There are six altogether. "That's not valid anymore." He fidgets his eyes away, pouting his lips as he speaks. He tends to do that when he's unsure about something.

"What are you saying. My birthday is tomorrow, I still can use this." You sang cheerfully as you jumped out of the bed and to your purse where you kept them. You've used all four in the span of a year, so there's two left. The used coupons are as follow:

1. Have your hair washed by the Great Seokjin. 2. Have a wish granted by the Amazing Seokjin. 3. Free hot chocolate mug made by the Beautiful Seokjin. 4. Say 'Yes' to the question Seokjin asked.

Now you had to decide between the two.

Seokjin peeks over your shoulder from afar and take a binocular from his side table next to the ECG machine, trying to get a glimpse of the last two coupons you have. But when you turned behind you suddenly, he hid those binoculars under the sheet. You skipped next to his bed when someone came knocking on his door. "Mr. Seokjin, I've come to take your vitals." The nurse came with her own blood-pressure cuffs, blood sugar test, and some packs of needles and tools needed to perform simple medical procedures. "I have to remind you that we'll take his fasting blood-sugar test, so he'll start fasting at noon." The kind nurse informed you even though you remembered them from yesterday's visit.

You couldn't help feeling the prick as well when he hissed. The needles goes into his fair skin where the elbow folds, and the burgundy blood fills into the tube with ease. "We will run blood tests on some medication to see if he is compatible with it or not. We won't want him to develop allergies. That's why we're doing this." The nurse took out the needle and threw them into the sharp bin next to her and you pressing gently, a cotton ball on the area of puncture, folding Seokjin's hand as he knitted his brows together. "Take all you can, while I still have some..." Seokjin bitterly replied. He never liked needles. But his arms were filled with puncture scars, it was understandable why he might feel irritated by the procedures. Enamored, you followed after the nurse. She gave you a look that signals, "There's something I know that you don't."

To which you pursued, and she deliberately explains, with much difficulty that displayed all over her face as you stood just outside Seokjin's ward. With a few moment of silence, you helped her say the inevitable. "...The medications are not responding, are they?" The nurse wasn't surprise at your knowledge. You were a practicing pharmacist before you took a temporary leave that turned into a permanent leave, when you knew Seokjin was unwell. It was no surprise that you would have suspected this long before they declared them to you.

"They had stopped responding since last two weeks and the doctors don't know why. So we are collaborating with toxicologist and several experts to sought after a plausible alternative. Several alternatives." It made you glanced over your shoulder at Seokjin who was reading earnestly. He looks so angelic with the golden sun shining through the shades, refracting on his skin and his brown hair. It was difficult not to cry.

"...He is young, his body is capable to withstand damages. And he is in his prime, there shouldn't be any problem. We won't be expecting any setbacks." The nurse assured you but you snapped your head at her, "...And yet here we are. If I found out that my Seokjin is becoming your lab rat, I will sue each one of you. I expect to see his full medical records." And you knew very well you weren't supposed to review his health conditions, but you have friends who could. "I dislike making enemies out of people who treats you, but wow, they're getting on my nerves." You walked back in with a little shake of your head. "A guy asked me out on a date today.Should I go?" You lazily said.

He froze. He pretended he was reading so you repeated. "Should I go on a date with him?" Seokjin eyeballs shake and he flips the pages even though he isn't finished reading. He couldn't even answer. You and Seokjin had gone through several break ups before he got sick. He was doing all kinds of ridiculous thing to get you to hate him, and when you find out it was because he was afraid that you knew he was ill, you cling on him, suggesting that you both could stay as friends. And 'friends' was what you two were, with each other.. Seeing that he had no response what-so-ever, you took out your green card. The coupon. The handwritten by Seokjin-coupon. That coupon.

Seokjin set the book down. "Let's see which one you chose." He said, as he took them.

Grant a wish. In which, Seokjin has to grant you a wish. "What is your wish?" He monotonously asked and you sat at the end of his bed, scratching the strand coming out of the blanket he uses. Jutting your lower lips out, you blinked to your fingers playing with the strand, and mumbled, "...Tell me not to go on a date with anyone, ever." Seokjin blinks to his lap and the book he placed there. "You really want to waste your final last coupon on something as stupid as that?" Seokjin scoffed. "It's my wish, I can do whatever I want with it." He was not impressed. Or was he? You would use that last wish to have him say possessive things. Should he be proud or should he be offended?

"Why won't you date other people? Healthy...people." He asked, blinking slowly. He pressed his lips together, feeling rather ominous with the situation. Why would you? Why would you waste away your youth for this ill-fated man?

"Because I don't want to." Because healthy people didn't have Jin's heart.

August 30th, 2017.

A bag full of comics, on the floor by the hallway, spilling out and the dust that piles on it suggests that it had been there for awhile. Left there, abandoned and forgotten. Until you walked out and kicked it away, by accident. "Did you see my phone?" Taehyung shouted from outside and you snapped back into reality. "I think...I think I saw it on the couch." You took them for him. Inside the car, the radios were tuned to the most popular morning shows. "What do you call zebras that are friends?"

You smiled to your phone and answered, what the radio DJ asked, effortlessly, "...ZeBROs." Taehyung chuckled short. "What did the dog tell the wall..."

"Wall~wall."

"Do you know who would appreciate these shows?" You turned to Taehyung as he drives. "I think I have an idea on who." Taehyung proceeds to smile to the view ahead. "I'm glad that you choose that dotted dress. Seokjin would really love it. "We will play RM and V's 4 O'clock on this sorrowful rainy morning, hope all the listeners will enjoy the suburban feel this song has." They picked the right song.

Seokjin’s tombstone. Taehyung straightens up after laying a bouquet of daisies next to his name. “He would never leave us alone with those lame jokes. I used to joke around on how stupid it is, but now that he’s gone, I kinda missed it.”

Taehyung would have pretended to laugh if he were to hear them again, Seokjin’s dad jokes. And so would you. “His presence was everything. So his absence is devastating.”

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Ship for @before-i--fall-in-love

Request: Hey there!! I love your blog. You’re doing so great and you’re probably busy given how amazing your writing is, but I would really appreciate it if you could do a romantic ship for me with BTS?

 I’m very cuddly, loving, motherly in nature. Really nice a friendly to everyone including strangers, good with kids (and animals!!), polite around adults. I absolutely love being around animals and people. I tend to be very empathetic and I love to encourage people through their hard times because I have been through hard times. I love that I can let go easily like moving on happily with understanding. People tend to describe me as sweet and charming with a very quick witted sharp tongue lol. In my spare time, I dance and work-out, as well as watching movie (horror, animation and romantic comedy movies) and cooking. I love cuddling and skinship in general. I am also really family oriented. I spend a lot of time with my family. I especially really love children. I really want to get married :D and be a mom someday. If I can’t be a mom, I want to be a mother to a bunch of puppies. Thank you very much and take care sweetie 💗

~Hello hello doll, admin Whiger to serve ya!~ Firstly, thanks for the compliments (I'm sure all of the persons that are requesting are trying to kill us with your love!), I and Haethers couldn't be happier than to know you love the blog! We've gotten kind of busy today but we're sorting through our requests and it's always a pleasure to write so of course, you can request a BTS ship!

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When reading your description, one name was flashing in my mind all along; I could totally imagine you taking care of a whole lot of animals and then having a nice family with Taehyung. I think you would immediately have a connection with a Taehyung as you like a grand diversity of things and are nice to strangers; Do I really need to remind everyone that TaeTae can basically charm everything (and everyone) with his personality? He basically ATTRACTS persons to him and you would be no exception, especially not when you realise all the things you have in common (such as your love for animals, I can see you both looking at a screen to see some pictures of kitten -before going to wake Suga up to see his grumpy cat face and attitude😉). Your motherly nature would probably make him laugh -because seriously, he already has Jin for this- but I can assure he would also be fond of it because he would probably love the fact that you give him your attention and basically wants to take care of him (although he might tease you about it). Would be kind of surprised the first time you place a sharp remark (he will not know what to do and probably be embarrassed because he never expected that) but would get used to it fairly easily and would often pursue the game with you so you two would have playful banters with each other (and if really doesn't succeed, he would probably go to see Suga and ask him how to keep up with you ^^). For the activities you can do as a couple, I totally see Taehyung initiating dances in the middle of nowhere, with or without music because he doesn't care. He would try to make you join him, showing you his boxy smile (yup, that's strictly not fair but it is war) and would either dance something energetic or a slow -and in this case, expect him to be whispering or singing ballads to you in his baritone voice -because we all have to admit he sounds amazing when he sings like this. As you're someone empathetic that gives a lot of support and affronts hardships, it would be perfect for Taehyung as he deals with difficulties with his grandmother death for example; your support would be absolutely welcome and he could trust you with his problems. He would probably use you and your relationship as a muse and as a way to ask you out, he would probably dedicate you a song ('4'O'Clock feels) to thank you for taking care of him and always being here to hear him out and support him. After this, it would be impossible to deny that you two are a couple -well, it was not like one of you would try to deny it anyway and Taehyung would try his best to always surprise you and give you the bests moments: I can absolutely see him taking you to visit a zoo so you can see the animals -and maybe pet some of you can- or going to farm where you would be surrounded by tiny rabbits jumping around you. For your first birthday anniversary, he would reserve a restaurant -because we all know Tae isn't the best cook ever, he prefers to sabotage things ^^- and plan a romantic soirée. At the end of it, he would simply give you a little card with the name of a pet shop written on it so you can go there and choose a puppy together; he knows you're fond of them and it would make him as happy as you so why not? It might be difficult to go on tours with him if you want to take care of the dog but if you're not with him, Taehyung would call you, always asking you to send him pictures of the dog to see how he is doing and if he is growing up. As I can see you hit it off with Jungkook -I can see him be your best friend in the group once you both get over your shyness (I mean, he would have a partner to exercise !) and you would watch films together some nights when Taehyung works late, I think he would send you pictures of Tae with comments like "whoa, this child is growing up too!" For the skinship, Taehyung will probably try his best to give you what you want because he would want to hold you -and show you off because he is proud of his girlfriend and the world has to know about you because you're the most beautiful in his eyes and your his (he wouldn't want anyone to actually get too friendly with you and steal you from him, sometimes when you are too close to Jungkook, he would come behind you and put a lingering kiss on your forehead). I actually picture forehead kisses and quick pecks being your things (well, sometimes it's more than a peck but people are always here to remind you that you have to stop, not that you're always listening to them), as well as hands holding and gazed full of adoration from the both of you (whenever Taehyung do one of the things above in front of Jungkook, he would whine and complain to his hyung saying that he really is too stressed and that he wouldn't want to go out with his best friend anyway). For your first pregnancy, it would come as totally unexpected -you were both sure you were paying attention to everything- but as you both want to have children, you would decide to keep the baby even if Taehyung still has to go on tours. This would make him want to act more maturely as he would be a soon father to be and he would immediately decide to introduce you to his family so you can get to know them and get accepted by them. At first, they might be a bit doubtful because they would be afraid you had gotten pregnant only to profit from his success but Taehyung would explain everything clearly and the family would instantly warm up and support you both, even offering you help if you need anything. You would already have introduced Tae to your parents before so you would only announce them your pregnancy and even if your parents are surprised, they would also give you both their full support. When you will finally have your baby, Taehyung will cry when holding it for the first time: it will be such an emotional moment for you both and even through your tiredness, Tae would find you radiant. He would be a perfect father and might take a quick break to take care of his baby before going back to work. With the passing years, he will try finding more and more free time to spend with his family and will probably have more children with you as you both dreams to have a big family. Your conclude will have a really strong base because you would have affronted hardships and stressful moments together, you would have stayed together even with the distance and nothing could break you, you both will learn new things about yourself and the other one as well and that's why I think you and Taehyung would be a great ship.

Hope you enjoyed your ship and thanks for requesting! Don’t hesitate to leave some feedback (positive or negative) so we know what you thought of it. Have a nice day! 

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Somebody Else Pt 5

Pt 1 Pt 2 Pt 3 Pt 4 Pt 6

Rating: NC-17

Genre: Smut, Angst, college AU

Pairing: Jungkook x reader x Taehyung

Warnings: Cheating, Explicit sexual content.

Summary: You had met Jungkook on a summer day at the age of 10,  at 12 you became best friends,  at 14 you had your first kiss,  at 15 you fell in love and at 16 you made love. You’ve never really knew what heartbreak was until at the age of 18 he broke your heart.

Inspired by Somebody else by the 1975.

A/N: Sorry if i have grammar mistakes, English is not my first language.

An apathetic Tae looked at you before leaving “Yeah, I’m sorry too for thinking you were more than this”. The comment felt like a punch in your face, your heart trembling at the sight of the man who had given you an opportunity without asking for nothing in return, walking away from you and your rotten soul.

The next few days you felt like complete shit, you had thought a thousand ways to text or say something to Taehyung but you didn’t find the right words, the damage was done, you had been wrong, there were no excuses really, and you knew it. The only thing you could do was apologize to him correctly, you didn’t think he would forgive you, but you had to try it.

After all Tae had been an angel, it was him who was there all those times that Jungkook left you for Bora, all those times that you felt depressed and the bad thoughts returned, he had been your pillar in these last months and you felt like trash for not having considered his feelings, because you really didn’t, you still were with Jungkook and every time he disappointed you, you ran into the arms of the blond haired boy. You were, after all, the same or worse than your ex.

Even Minah had been angry with you, but being your friend she had forgiven you two days after, nevertheless she didn’t stop telling you how bad you had been, and you were already tired. You felt really bad and you knew that you had fucked things up; you didn’t need anyone to remind you of it.

“Aren’t you going to talk to Tae?” Minah asked for the tenth time.

“I’ll talk to him when I know what to say, I want to do things right,” you replied dryly, already tired of responding the same thing to your friend.

“You know? The problem is that you don’t even know what you want, because even if you try to deny it Jungkook is still in your heart and Tae really doesn’t deserve to be with you when you’re still in love with someone else.”

The words sucked the air out of your lungs, Minah was right, even when you hated to admit what that phrase meant. In those months you had not been more than a selfish asshole, only considering your feelings. You were confused, that was clear, a part of you knew that Jungkook had done you wrong, and that things would never be the same again, but your mind and body were attracted to him as gravity holds you to the ground.

On the other hand Tae had been magnificent, and you had developed romantic feelings towards him, you really wanted to be with him. But not if Jungkook was still around in your mind and heart, it was not fair to Tae.

You had to once and for all decipher your feelings, was Jungkook really worth it? Did you really love him as before? What happens when you have to choose between what you like but you know that does you wrong or what is uncertain but it does you good?

You were at a crossroads, but these days of solitude had opened your eyes a little to understand that you were still tied to Jungkook not only obviously because the inevitable mutual attraction that you would probably feel for life, but for the security he gave you. With Jungkook you knew how things worked, you knew him better than anyone, you knew how to satisfy him and how not, but on the way something broke and things were not the same, and never would be, because the security that he once gave you, was betrayed completely, you would always love him somehow but he made you wrong.

With Tae you knew you felt good, you felt that he wouldn’t betray that trust but how do you really know it? You hadn’t been with him for more than a few months, and the future was uncertain with him, because you once believed that the person that you loved and loved you back stabbed you in the back, then how would you trust someone again?

All these thoughts hovered in your head for a week until you finally decided you would take the difficult path, the path that you knew could fail but it was worth trying, it was worth trying things with Tae.

So one morning you got up with the final decision to talk to Taehyung, maybe he would never forgive you, but you had to get out what you had inside your chest, you had to at least say sorry to him.

You thought If it was better to send him a text or simply appear in his apartment door, although the last idea was not quite good, Jungkook could be there, and appearing at his door from nowhere was not appropriate either. So you opted for the first option, praying for Tae to answer you typed a text and sent it to him closing your eyes.

-You: “I know you probably don’t want to talk to me, and I understand, but I need to tell you something, please can we meet at the usual café?”

The usual café was a quiet place and there were always few people, you had never seen any acquaintances there, beyond having gone a couple of times with Taehyung on the way home on cold winter mornings after some party.

It took 5 minutes that seemed to last forever until your phone vibrated on your bedside table, you quickly lunged to it and took it with your hands; you took a deep breath, closing your eyes, afraid to read the text you had just received.

You opened your eyes and squeezed the open button, holding your breath for a second until you released the air, and your heart began to slow down.

-TaeTae: “Okay, I’ll see you at 7”.

You internally screamed in joy, the text was somehow short-spoken yes. But it meant that at least you could apologize to him face to face. You tried not to get excited and quickly left the cell phone in place to calm yourself mentally.

“Okay, breathe, one, two, three. Do not get your hopes up” you murmured to yourself as you slowly inhaled and exhaled air from your lungs.

You looked at your watch and saw it was 4 o'clock, good; you still had a few hours to mentally prepare yourself to talk to Tae. Lost a second in your mind, a knock on the door of your apartment woke you up. Who could it be? Minah wasn’t in the apartment and you weren’t expecting anyone.

You looked through the peephole of your door and your heart skipped a beat. Jungkook. You put your hands in your mouth to quell a screech. But it was in vain.

“Y / N open the door, I know you’re there, I could hear your steps when you came to the door to see through the peephole.” You mentally slapped yourself, there was no way now to avoid him, you knew that if you tried to make it like you weren’t home Jungkook would wait at the door until you have to leave or until Minah came, and neither option was good.

You let out a deep sigh and opened the door quickly.

“What do you want Jungkook?” You chirped, trying not to look suspicious. You hadn’t seen Jungkook since the last time at Jackson’s house, and you really didn’t want to talk or see him because it made it harder to clarify your feelings.

But you had already decided, and you could not turn back down now.

“I miss you, I wanted to see you,” he simply said, with a slight smile. Your heart stopped for a second when seeing that smile that you loved so much but couldn’t fall for it. You shook your head from side to side. “Jungkook, this is not a good time, I’m studying for a test tomorrow.” You lied.

“I had to see you” he said taking a step inside your house, closing the distance of your body and his, putting his hands on your waist. “I feel you… distant in some way, something happened?” You looked at him for a few seconds without saying anything, of course Jungkook wasn’t aware of what had happened between you and Tae, and you knew that at some point you would must have to tell him in order to be with Taehyung, But this wasn’t the time, if you did, Jungkook would lock you back into his heart for himself. And you couldn’t afford that, so you faked it the best you could and hugged him holding your breath.

“I’m fine, I’m just tired of studying, and this test is really difficult” you said trying to sound calmed, as if you weren’t lying. When you let out the words you smelled his fragrance and a chill ran through your body.

DON’T. Control yourself you thought.

Jungkook squeezed you harder against his body and lowered his head to rest it on your shoulder. He took a deep breath and turned his face away to look at you. You tried not to look him in the eye but then he lift your chin up with his long and warm finger and brought your face closer to his to kiss you. His lips that you already knew by heart grazed your own and melted deep in each other, you opened your mouth to take some air and Jungkook took the opportunity to introduce his tongue into your cavity and kiss you more intensely, you let him do it, following his pace involuntarily letting out a low moan from the inside of your throat.

Jungkook continued kissing you for a few seconds until he pulled away from you, his hands still at your waist. “I’d better go … I don’t want to delay you with your studies”.

You nodded and he gave you one last kiss before turning away and leaving.

You closed the door and leaned against it sighing. That had been close, you thanked internally that Jungkook believed your lie about studying, only God would know what you would be doing right now if he hadn’t. You shook your head and pushed the thoughts to the back of your mind. You were gonna end things properly with Jungkook after talking with Tae, not matter what his decision was.

Then you went to have a bath to calm down and think about what you would say to Tae.

After the bath, you combed and dried your hair with your dryer. You opened the door to your closet to decide what to wear, it was cold and it was snowing outside, you could see it from the window of your room. You chose to go simple but cute, after all this wasn’t a date but anyway you wanted to look good, so you put on your favorite black jeans, a brown coat that reached to your knees, a white sweater, and your black leather boots.

You looked at yourself in the mirror happily, before grabbing a scarf and your keys together with your phone and wallet, putting everything in a small purse.

You quickly left your house, trying not to be late, the café wasn’t far away but the snow prevented you from walking at your normal pace, after about 15 minutes of walking you arrived, opening the door of the shop you automatically saw him, sitting at the table which you usually seated at.

His eyes met your own, and you saw a glow in them that you couldn’t pinpoint accurately. He got up from his seat and you chucked at his chose of outfit. He was wearing black pants, a turtleneck sweater that was also black and a brown coat similar to yours, you walked to the table and he was the first to speak.

“Why do you copy my outfit?“ He giggled. It was the same Taehyung as always, and that made you relieved because he didn’t look angry, and really the whole way you had been thinking about how uncomfortable it would be, but it was not like that at all.

You both sat down and continued the conversation. “Do you want to order something?” he politely asked as he gestured to the waitress to come to take the order. “I want a cappuccino please.” He said, the waitress nodded and jotted down in a notepad, then looked back at you. “Ah … yes, I’ll have a latte, please.” You grimaced slightly and the waitress left the table.

“Looks like you’re cold, did you come walking?” he inquired frowning. Before you could answer him he took your hands in his and brought them to his lips, exhaling hot air to warm them. The gesture sent electricity through your body.

“Listen” you sighed “I’m sorry, I’m really sorry, you don’t know how bad I feel for having done what I did, I’m an idiot and there really are no excuses I can put, I was wrong and I understand if you don’t want to forgive me but I needed to talk to you” You lamented.

Taehyung observed you for a few seconds but before he could open his mouth to say something the waitress returned with the orders. You use the interruption to continue talking, not letting the blond haired boy answer you.

“This week I thought things out a lot and I realized that I want to be with you, I don’t know how things will turn out, I don’ know what can happen, but it’s worth it, it’s worth a try if it’s with you, and I understand perfectly if you don’t want to forgive me…” you stammered quickly.

Taehyung was silent and you felt your eyes begin to fill with tears. You were going to bring your hands to your face to cover yourself when suddenly Taehyung brought his hand to your face and dry your tears with his thumbs.

“I… I know I shouldn’t forgive you, but I do, because I love you” He confessed, his last words quickened your heart and filled your chest with oxygen, as if they brought you back to life. “And I think it’s worth a try if it’s with you,” he finish smiling.

You giggled, getting near to his side of the table to put your arms around his neck and give him a hug. Taehyung strongly hold you as if you were the only thing that attached him to the ground and without warning he sank his lips into yours, both melting in the heat of the other, for a minute you forgot about anything else, and you could only feel the presence of the man who was kissing you, but the spell was quickly broken with a strong bang of the café’s door.

You were startled by the sound and you turned to see what was that had broken the conformity that you had felt a few seconds ago.

Jungkook.

Your heart stopped and the fear grew fast in your chest. You looked out of the corner of your eye at Tae, who had a serious look, his lips forming a single line. You looked back at the door only to find a furious Jungkook striding towards you.

“What the fuck are you doing!?” he screamed, no mattering about the few persons who were in the place.

Taehyung got up from the table in one motion, facing the black-haired man. “Back off now” he growled.

“Who the fuck do you think you are? She is MINE” Jungkook snarled, anger growing inside of him.

Taehyung snickered at his comment “She is not yours and she never will be, you lost her the day you decided to fuck someone else!” Taehyung shouted.

You quickly got up from your seat and you interposed between both bodies, fearing that things would get worse. Jungkook observed you silently before looking up to glare at Taehyung directly. He sneered at him.

“Funny you say that when that person is your ex, are you jealous?” Your body stiffened, the words ran through your brain, trying to decipher them, it couldn’t be. Jungkook grab you from your arms, you blinked at him, not being capable of speaking.

“Y/N I don’t know what Taehyung has told you but from the expression of your face I can guess he didn’t tell you about it, right? He didn’t tell you about Bora, his ex” he croaked.

Taehyung stretched his arm to turn you around, you understood the words of Jungkook but a part of your mind didn’t want to accept them, it couldn’t be.

“Listen Y/N it’s not like that, it’s not what you think, she is not my ex, she was just a girl I used to hook up with, let me explain” he blurted out. You stared at him, the words echoing in your ears. Suddenly you understood everything.

You blurted into laughter, tears rolling through your cheeks.

“It couldn’t be true, it was too good to be true, now I get why you never got angry, do you think it’s funny? DO YOU THINK IT’S FUNNY TO PLAY WITH PEOPLE’S FEELINGS? DID YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR REVENGE FROM JUNGKOOK? You shouted, not caring about anything anymore.

You detached yourself from his hand and ran outside, without looking back, crying in despair, snow falling from the sky, you could hear your name being shouted behind you, the voice of Jungkook and the voice of Taehyung pleading for you, getting mixed with the sounds of traffic, you quickly crossed the street when you heard a loud NO being shouted and then the noise of a car’s wheels screeching against the asphalt, a loud crash, the sound of bones crashing against the pavement.

You stopped abruptly and turned around to see one of the worst things you’ve ever seen, Jungkook sprawled on the floor, blood sprouting from his body, eyes closed and body covered with glass. You feared the worst, running to his figure lying on the ground you crouched, crying and calling his name.

“Please don’t leave me, I beg you! SOMEBODY CALL AN AMBULANCE!”

I’m really sorry if this has grammar mistakes, I wrote it fast and didn’t have time to check for any mistakes. 

[kanmom51]

Please let your anon know that Tae just confirmed in his Rolling Stone interview a couple of weeks ago, that Sweet Night was his PERSONAL SONG already written for his Mixtape and he decided to hand it over for the movie. Those are Tae's exact words. Please go read his article. It is now confirmed and no longer a rumor, Tae did not write it for the movie, it was already written by him and confirmed BY HIM as a personal song. Seems some of your anons are unaware. Not saying it confirms anything.

ask 2: 

Hey just a heads up. The anon who claimed V wrote that for a movie is wrong. V confirmed it was a song he made for his mixtape and he called it a personal song. It was not for the movie, it was given after it was already written. He said it in the latest rolling stone interview. So people can stop saying it's for the movie, cause Tae had come out and confirmed it had nothing to do with the movie. Which is also pretty brave of Tae, considering it does have the "are you my best friend" lyric. BOLD

Ask 3:

The anon just contradicted theirself. Said V said JM is his one and only best friend, which is correct, BUT said he doesn't like JM. V wrote Sweet Night, his personal song meant for his mixtape. V confirmed it in the rolling stone. Lets look at this lyric. "Are you my BEST FRIEND, feels like a river rushing through my mind" "And would it be alright if I Pulled you closer?" How could I know One day I'd wake up feeling more." Self explanatory. He's in love with his BF, Jimin, but JM loves Jungkook

Ask 4:

Anon talking about connections between Sweet Night, Scenery, 4 O'Clock is correct, they're connected, which means they're all for JM. Easy to figure that out with the best friend line and knowing 4 o'clock was written about JM and now we have confirmation from Tae that SN was his personal song for his mixtape, which means he was sitting on it for a while before it was released. I'm guessing JM turned him down, but gave permission for him to release the song. Explains why JM never talked about it

I personally cannot access this article, so I cannot comment.