#TYSM YOU WILL MAKE ME CRY /POS

[kerizaret]

i can be very quick with these. HAPPY BRITHDAY ANITHER WONDERFUL YEAR OF KERI IS UPON US!!!!!!! YAYYYYY

GNFNSHHD EHNEPPP??? HELLPP??? HOW ARE SYSOU SO FAST OKGGGMYGODD???? THNAKK YOU SO MUCH THIS OS SO CUTE OUHDHRH.????.

TBANAKNYOU SO MUCH HES SO CUTE I LOVE HIM OUFYHH.... THR BOH EVER... AND FOR THE WISHES... OIFUDUEUE YOU ARE SO NICE TO ME WJAY DO I EVEN SAY TO EXPRESS MY GRATUTUDE 💔 IM IN LOVE WITH U MARLO CAN WE KISS /P /SILLY

[youjustfeelthemforever]

You're probably my best friend

I'm not saying this off anon because I feel "best friend" as a label could carry an unnecessary pressure to reciprocate, and i wont ask that of you, im perfectly okay with not being even close to being your best friend.

Just know you're one of my favorite people, you're such an amazing, kind, fun, lovely person, I hope we never drift apart.

Even in my most pessimistic outlook, if life were to play out like that I know I'll never forget about you and wish you well for the rest of my life. I love you, I wish I could hug you, hang out with you and bring you snacks and be stupid with you past this tiny screen, you genuinely mean the world to me 🫂💕

Anon I am genuinely crying. I'm so glad I can brighten your life, and whoever you are, I hope we stay close. I love you, thank you for this, knowing it means so much to me. Sending you so much love, my friend 💛💛💛

[triona-tribblescore]

WHOAAA OH MY GOSH!!

THE SCENES!!! THE- THEM!!! WAHHHHH IM SOBBING NFNFNFNG 💕💖💗🤍✨!!!!

OMG YALL THIS WAS SM FUN

THIS IS FOR @triona-tribblescore DTIYS

I SAW THE POST FOR IT AND I IMMEDIATELY JUMPED TO FIND SOME OF MY FAVORITE SCREENSHOTS FROM SEASON 1-(I took some liberties lmao) I especially love the last frame, probably the best i’ve ever drawn Usagi.

When I first saw a post for ANLFM, I was like “huh, didn’t this happen in ofmd?” and then I looked at the tags and was like, “OH. THATS BCUS IT IS”

My point is that Triona, i’m so excited to see where you take this story!! And I will be there to draw more fanart :>

[isjasz]

i keep re reading the hgcz,your part still makes me cry or want to cry/pos

it’s amazing and you are as well!

UAUSEAEAKLJ HGCZ TYSM!!!!! man i miss it sm, so so glad u liked it <3

[polaris-stuff]

Hello hello!!! Me and a friend were discussing ships recently and I wanted to know if you had feelings about Bloodmoon/Bloodmoon? Or any similar ships in TSAMS? I adore bloodmoon/bloodmoon, but also Lunar/Lunara and Eclipse/Solar!

Anon, i just want to let you know i'm shaking ur and ur friend mind rn /pos

I LOVE THIS SHIPS AJDLAJS

BM x BM? Two halves of a whole, each other's world, are all they need to be happy, the two of them against the world. UUGH LIKE, THEY WERE SO CUTE SOBS ಥ⁠╭⁠╮⁠ಥ I really thought for a long time that there would be more content of them considering the adorable way they called each other on the show but I was very surprised when I didn't find anything 😭

Man, Lunar x Lunara would be so fucking cool. Lunar literally just wanted to be happy and consequently ended up with everything he saw as a potential threat (adding that Lunara was very childish when he got the star so anyone who contradicted him would automatically receive the "you make me unhappy" treatment.) BUT TALKING ABOUT THE SHIP AGAIN-- Lunar being proof for Lunara that in other universes he can be happy and have the family he always wanted, I feel like Lunara would cry a little, just a little, hugging Lunar as if his life depended on it and following him around to see how Lunar lives. I'm 100% sure Lunara would also be like:

Lunara: you have this power (star power) and yet you're still here? You could have done everything yours and you didn't, why?

Lunar: Because everything I need is here

And then Lunar points to the daycare and his family and that makes Lunara's heart tighten a little, choking back a sob in his throat as his hands clench into fists. Lunara could have had all that and he destroyed it and now he is living the consequences after living years in the madness of the star, but its okay, Lunar is there for him.

🥺💕💕💕💕

AND GOD, Eclipse/Solar es tan JSLFOAK two cat fighting each other. They are both eclipses, they are both assholes, they will definitely use their claws on each other and then hug each other like nothing happened. Eclipse being a total tsundere saying how much he hates Solar while hugging him and playing with his rays LOL

TYSM for the ask!!!💕💕💕

[4ddi3addie2005]

Hi hello once again- NEW CHAPTER ANNOUNCEMENTAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ANYWAYS I HAVE A CHOPPY ANIMATION JUST FOR THISS OCCASION:

Choppyanimationhere

(ps: Sorry in advance for the end- It's really rushed cause I was desperate to get it done before the chapter came outttt. ANYHOW PS OVER RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH💥💥💥💥)

DUDE.

This is so good I actually cried. I knew you had an animation in the works but I was NOT expecting that /pos I’m actually going through it frame-by-frame just. drinking it in. You went above and BEYOND for this and I’m so happy I was able to inspire you and I can only hope the next chapters can do you some justice 🫶😭 Trust me when I say YOU got the ball rolling on CH3 cuz I was like What?? Somebody likes this?? I better get to work!!

This kind of hype is foreign to me I’m unlocking new emotions rn TYSM this video is getting implanted in my brain as we speak 🫶🫶🫶🥹

-Okay now I’m gonna talk abt it LOL literally the first scene with Reader waking up to Digital Life??? Cold harsh reality VS deceptive inescapable fantasy??? Freaking EPIC

-AND AAA HI KINITO!! HE LOOKS SO HAPPY!! He said ^-^ ^-^ He has NO IDEA

-Reader going through all their avatar phases… they can be anything they want all the time… Not Good.

-AND DUDE THOSE TRANSITIONS?? I SEE EVERYTHING YOU SNUCK IN THERE!! RAHHH THOSE ARE SO COOL!!

-AND WHEN THE CAMERA IS GOING AROUND THE READER??? DUDE YOU ARE SO GOOD AT IMAGINING 3D FIGURES!!!

-OKAY BACK TO THOSE BETWEEN-FRAMES HERE ARE SOME THAT I LIKED

-THEY ARE SO COOL AND SOME I ONLY SAW WHEN I PAUSED EVERY SECOND… UR SO WILD FOR THAT!! IT’S LIKE I’M TREASURE HUNTING FR

-Kinito looks so sweet and innocent how… like :(((

-I do like the little flashes of EVIL KINITO like. You get it.

-HUMANITY JUMPSCARE 💥💥💥

Once again I cannot articulate the words in my brain for the appreciation I have for The Things You Make. My heart is crawling out of my chest to get 2 you we are bonded together like wolves now. Can I mention you in the notes of the next chapter?? You have earned a spot in the credits trust meee 🫶 Cool if not tho!!

TLDR: YOU MADE ME CRY. Sorry if I’m getting WEIRD but I AM GENUINELY SO ‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥🎉🎉🎉🎉💙💙💙🫶🫶🫶💯💯💯🗣️🗣️🐛🐛🐛

[chocosnowflake0]

im sorry but is that narinder's cloak thing sown onto corrupted bishop! lamb's outfit?

i don't know if it's cause i have had an emotional morning but genuinely trying to hold back tears right now fuckkk, aAAaa the implicATioNsss, trying to piece the story through the design and every detail is just making me wanna cry moree why does lamb have so many cat skulls is it like an in memory/trying to keep nari's memory close or or i fhujfesihr

your art design is absolutely gorgeous op, wonderful work and as always your style is so pretty, dunno why i always love how you draw lamb's snout if that makes sense

it's very shapes/pos

hello anooon And yes! thats Nari's cream cloak, the upper part of it at least. Their cat's gone and now its time for the Lamb to keep going by themselves which... didnt go well btw. I mentioned somewhere in a post some weeks ago that the Lamb would be kinda lost without Narinder by their side and imma holdin' onto that idea. Fluffy soft thing rolling into madness once they noticed they (for some reason) are not able ot revive Nari 👀

THEYCRYHEREHEREANON /PATSPATSINTENSIFIES tysm, honey! <3 Here to gib y'all some furry floofy lamb to enjoy Also,,, sum au sketches ; )

The Fox here to give terrible advises -> corrupted Lamb starting a whole cat genocide campain thanks to him. the cats skulls are just victims trophies since skulls arent the type of bones needed for rituals -

/dissapears sorry if my english slipped somewhere, its rusty af

[miilkybnn]

Sometimes your art makes me so sad but like in a good way, but oh god the Strangers to Lovers one MURDERED me :(

(Also the way you draw Roach is 🤌)

someone: ur art makes me cry (/pos)

me:

anyways, tehehe!!! tysm I'm so very happy I got such a reaction out of yall, I spent so much time giggling over the reblogs

I'm gonna take this as a chance to talk about how I depict Roach, at least just a little bit.

always imagined his as just some guy compared to the 141 😭 like if you saw him on the street, you would BARELY pay attention to him. Which is why when I draw him, he kinda just looks like some other person you'd see!

If you stopped and look you would probably begin to notice the things that make him interesting (the scar on the bridge of his nose, the scars across his neck to name a few) and maybe even find him attractive (he's such a handsome boy) but compared to everyone else in the 141, he's not very... eyecatching? He probably blends into the background more than anything and that's exactly what I imagine Roach would be like.

But he'd uses this lack of attention rather than work against it!! While everyone is out panicking over where the big guy with the skull mask is at or the guy with the mohawk (or even the guys with the funny hats), you bet this guy is sneaking behind enemy lines and thinning the herd. By the time they notice something is wrong, it's too late :)

I know u probably didn't expect this long of response but honestly, I take any chance I can to talk about Roach— he's just my favorite guy ever 🫶

[zhongrin]

ー and that's a wrap!!!

note: this is a thank-you post and i’ll be posting an ‘explanation’ post after this, just give me some time to compile all the information <3

so. obviously i just have to do this because man. that was a whole ride hahahah thank you so so so so so SO MUCH to people who participated actively in the ebg???? i am????? not worthy??????? lsjdkfjskldf

special mentions to: (ps. please check them out; these are all wonderful, talented writers. be sure to read their rules first, though!!!)

@kurikurikurisu / @risustravelogue thank you for putting up with my insanity throughout this event…. and for being the first to bring in their hubby to sneak around the teahouse! lol smart move!! i’m guessing you’ll bring your other hubby next time for the fun of it and i am. looking forward to it already hahahah also that morse code → vigenere cipher will haunt my nightmares now thanks- /silly

@crystalflygeo you precious precious gem. i am still wheezing at that meme you sent me. here’s to hoping the next time crys visits the teahouse it doesn’t smell like sea salt and frost anymore heh ;)) also fontaine tea time double date when? <3

@floraldresvi thank you for being the source of romance this ebg lol tartarin is a sinking ship so everyone better hop in to covivi!! all jokes aside, i love writing your interactions with coviello so much (and based on the comments everyone else seems to enjoy it too hahahah) i 🚢!!!!!

@silentmoths MOTH!!! YOUR WINGS 😭 will drinking tea make it grow back??? i offer the finest silk for you to munch on after this hsdlfjskdf anyway, be it the last ebg or this one, i love seeing the little moth flying about in the teahouse hehe <3

@ainescribe / @lychniis i hate (read: love) you. why did you have to bring back the nightmarish cipher into this smh /j anyway…. another event to be recorded in the record keeper’s books, eh? i hope you enjoyed this ebg too <3

@queen-belial you madlad /pos. the way you write ousldjflshdjflksd i feel a little bad i can only respond with small snippets because man. those are. yummy yummy meals you were dishing out there!!! capitano is coming for childe’s ass atp that ginger better watch out lmaoooo

@abyssmal-skies tysm for granting me the opportunities to up the creepy factor lol i’m glad you managed to piece together what happened!! looking forward if you ever decide on joining an ebg next time :3

@the-travelling-witch HOLLYYYYYY. thank you for letting me 'borrow' your husband and allowing me to make him a little... uhh... #deranged lol. honestly you’re one of the reasons why i went “ok so…. only my blog needs to simp for childe. i don’t…. time to make someone else ‘run’ the blog…. >:)” because for lord’s sake i am very much not attracted to him and i just. can’t. do. it. #chilly4ever #chillyno1

@leftdestiny-posts / @intothegenshinworld that letter almost took me out ngl i am. i am still crying and sobbing over it hsldfjskldjflksdf PLEASE. also shiro protection squad &lt;;3 *silently wipes bloodied hand on a tea towel*

@kopidense / @ask-court-genshin heyyyy fellow murder accomplice (for legal reasons, disclaimer: this does not involve any real human bodies whatsoever) 🙌🏻 thanks for dropping by!! also pls tell your two friends i said hi winkwink #truezhonglimainsstickstogether /silly

@navxry actually yk what no. no thanks for you, you gremlin /silly but thanks for the trauma i guess- /j

@i23kazu YING!!! thank you so so so so much for hosting this ebg! it has been super fun and i (and i’m sure everyone else thinks the same) really appreciate your effort in putting things together!!

and of course all of the other people who sent in asks, be in anon or non-anon, be it a silly ask or a sabotage attempt or a rp attempt — please know that i really really really appreciate each and every single one of you!!!

your participation means a lot and it’s the literal driving force behind my passion in constantly drawing and writing stuff whenever i have time these past 7 days. i haven’t written or drawn any content whatsoever in weeks. do you see the power you hold over us writers by sending in fics & silly stuff now?? i hope you do.

also, even if you didn’t participate at all, i appreciate you for still sticking with me despite having to deal with my silliness for past week 😌

sending you all my kithes /p and hugs and a cup of your preferred tea! <3

[c00kietin]

SOBBING I SAW UR ASK BUT MY DUMB NUT BRAIN ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT WHILE TRYING TO EDIT IT BUT THEN I REALIZED YOU CAN EDIT ASKS </33 *deflates like a balloon*

BUT UR ASK WAS SO NICE KAJDJSJSJWAJ ur gonna make me cry <\3 /pos

IM SO GLAD WE'RE MOOTS TOO !! I love your OCs! Their designs are all so cool <33 and it's fun talking to you ! I jump in joy seeing ur asks and reblogs :-))

You make me go BIG smile

:-D

(like this ! ↑)

BUT !! I HOPE U HABE A SWELL SLEEPB! GOOD NIGHT ! SLEEP TIGHT ! DREAM NICE UNTIL THE SUNSHINES BRIGHT 🌞 !!

OH MY GOD TYSM SADFDGFDDSFSAKA <<333

I LOVE SEEING YOUR OCS TOO!!! I GIGGLE AND GRIN SEEING YOU POP UP IN MY ACTIVITIES <<33

as for sleep, uh-

yeah, idk if I'll do that anymore-

[sick-ada]

I said this in tags already but the trademark you have are the POSES...and LINEART.. but most of all the face...I can just immediately tell by the pose and face "woah!! It is THE sick-ada tumbrl mutual!!!" And it makes me go FERALL /pos

All in all i love your art forever and ever

WAHHH SOBBING CRYING SCREAMING TYSM I STRUGGLE ON POSES SO MUCH THIS MEANS A LOT

(i have a secret for you. i dont actually do lineart my sketch is just very thick and i erase the unwanted bits. i hate lineart with all my heart forever and always </3)

[artsycloudysleepy]

I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! TYSM FOR DRAWING IT, THEY LOOK WONDERFUL IN YOUR STYLE :DDD

Doing this for ocs and other characters

[the-mythos-collection]

could you make an emoji of someone hugging someone else and glaring off to the side? like "how dare you (person not in the conversation) hurt my friend" vibes. maybe with a version where the person being hugged is crying or a version with the "/nay" (not at you) or "/nmaah" (not mad at anyone here) tone tag? your emojis are so emotional /pos

sorry if that's too much but often ppl send me requests that are confusingly vauge and so i like to be super specific.

Hello hello!!! I think this is what you're lookin for?

It's been a long while since I've done emojis so I'm a bit rusty and hope these are alright

Tysm for the ask it means the world!!! :3

[starry-mang0s]

Those of you who rb my posts and leave stuff in the #s tysm y’all are always so incredibly sweet 😭😭💕💕 it always makes me so happy

Cry’s/pos

[kheprriverse]

You have to stop making such amazing art. Tumblr is so restricting I can’t possibly reblog it enough /lh But alas. Words also have meaning, right?

Be warned: I may not make any sense because I’m tired <3

Your art is literally so. Inspiring though. Your style is so beautiful and pretty and it’s just somehow— It makes me want to create? Honestly. I’d love to have a style like yours, but also I’m happy with mine! So instead, the inly valid thing to do is EAT YOUR ART AND REBLOG SO MANY TIMES!!! I’m keeping my own style, and building off it: While you and other artists do the same with what you do!

That being said. Your art just makes my day sometimes. Seeing you post gives me such joy and anytime I see the stupid silly (Cedar /Affec) it’s an instant giggling and kicking my feet like a feral child. So much stimming happens, and I literally love every design and thing you come up with. It’s just. Woah <3

My want to eat art is always at a 10/10: Let me consume the heckin heckles out of everything. Like. shredding the entire walls up. Such zoomies from art. Everything about your art most times just feels. Soft and cozy. Makes it feel like home sometimes and probably tastes like. Fluff. (That’s not a taste but whatever. It counts in my brain?) Maybe even like some sweet candy or dish, idek. Tastes aren’t tasting but damn art does arting?

Not only are you a cool and amazing talented artist, you’re also such a cool person beyond that and just so sweet I would just like to hug, yknow? Strangely I feel like I should be like. Somewhat intimidated because COOL PERSON ARTIST WOAH YOU INTERACT WITH ME??!? But also, I’m not… Really that intimidated? I don’t know, feel welcoming, just like the feeling yoir art brings and its just. Comforting?

You and your silly goody personality is so amazing and you’re so talented, I’m gonna flee now back into the ground: Hopefully this made somewhat sense— And that you have a lovely week/day/month— Just time in general!

*descends away*

~ Z

No I won't stop! Only pretty designs and silly guys ✨! (I am also very tired so its all okay. Also apologies if you wanted this answered privately.)

Also I'm gonna cry abkvjadbvjkkdvbad /pos This means so much! I'm very bad with explaining how I feel but I'm gonna try my bets lmao. It makes me so happy to hear that people really like my stuff, AND think I'm a cool person! I want my space to be kinda chill, friendly, etc and I'm very glad that so far I've been doing a pretty good job :'D

tysm again! I'm very glad u like my stuff (and think I'm cool). I woke up a few hours ago with a headache, dizziness, and was just generally feeling kinda bad and couldn't go back to sleep. But seeing this ask has so far made my day 100 times better! I hope the space I provide continues to bring joy (or just general silliness) to you and others <3

(also I'm glad you like my art too. Ive been having weird issues looking @ my own art since December, which I've never had before, so it makes me become a little silly whenever I get a comment on it. Really improves my motivation and lot and helps me continue what I love most: drawing funny guys and beasties :>)

[cenvast]

hi hi! i stumbled across ur kabru x toshiro stuff when browsing one of their tags and im sooo hooked now after reading ur explanation post that i gave ur fanfic a read too, love it!! ur story and posts about them made me have some questions, i hope its not too much!

the fanfic mentioned kabru in a kurta when toshiro thinks about their hypothetical wedding. is there a certain type of wedding u imagine them having?

on the same note: would they end up having one? or would they rather stick with a close relationship?

would they think about adoption? is their statuses keep them from adopting because they would be busy?

would toshiro notice kabru spiraling over the thought of utaya and what happened?

srry if this is a lot, i just love this pairing now!

Tysm for reading my writing!! I'm so honored that I got you into Kabshiro <3 And dw, I'm more than willing to answer any questions about my kabshiro meta or "debts and delusions" (this fic is 18+/nsfw)! The fic is a capsule of many of my dunmeshi hcs, so I can always expand on it hehe

I'll put my answers under the cut and divide them into sections for readability!

On Marriage

I think since both of Kabru and Toshiro had traumatic upbringings, they'd be less inclined to get married or have kids quickly, but they would eventually get married.

From my understanding, feudal Japan normalized sexual relationships between samurai, but marriage was an arranged political move between a man and a woman, at least for the upper classes. Toshiro understands marriage as potentially romantic, given his interactions with Falin, but since he lacks models of same-sex marriage, pursuing marriage with Kabru would stump him at first. I think Laios and the others would clue him in that marriage can literally be whatever he and Kabru want it to be, and after a while, he'd make his peace with that.

When he becomes more secure in their relationship, he wouldn't feel the need to marry Kabru out of insecurity anymore. He would continue fantasizing about the domesticity and commitment of it all. He'd also have to work through his trauma-based fear that he'll cheat on his spouse before being willing to marry Kabru.

Toshiro would propose at around year five of their relationship. He'd recognize that he can't imagine a life without Kabru and that all the best things in his life are because he took the initiative to hold onto and voice what's (and who's) important to him. Laios would be a large contributor in encouraging their marriage with his constant reassurances of "Yes, I'll marry you two in Melini :D." Because romantic proposals weren't really a thing in feudal Japan, Toshiro's proposal would be a very agonized-over question — but just a question — he poses to Kabru in private.

I like the idea of Kabru and Toshiro attending Marcille and Falin's wedding, and their marriage being the catalyst for Toshiro deciding that he needs to marry Kabru immediately. Kabru would sense what was going on with Toshiro but give him time to approach him on his own. Out of the two of them, Kabru would be more content with not officially recognizing their relationship via marriage, but he'd still be very excited to marry Toshiro and giddy over the fact that Toshiro wants to marry him.

I imagine their wedding would be a combination of customs from Utaya and Wa and elven customs. Kabru would want to honor his mother and his hometown, and Milsiril would probably want some elven elements. The Wa customs are self-explanatory from Toshiro's end. They'd hold it in Melini with Laios officiating. I also think Toshiro would cry at their wedding because he'd be a little more healed from thinking that crying is unmanly and he'd be overwhelmed by Kabru /pos.

Here's the excerpt from the fic that you referenced:

In Toshiro's wedding fantasy, I included elements from both Indian and Japanese wedding customs. According to my quick research (which could definitely be off, so please correct me if needed), silk and/or embroidered kurtas are considered appropriate wedding attire, and Indian weddings generally involve a lot of dancing. The sea bream, red rice, and daifuku are foods traditionally eaten at Japanese weddings. There's more specificity for the Japanese customs since it's from Toshiro's POV, and in this scene, he's drawing the Indian wedding elements from conversations he's had with Kabru. Obligatory moment of silence for how ridiculous they are for discussing their cultural wedding customs while pretending like they aren't down horrendous for each other 😭

On Children

Toshiro

Prior to being with Kabru, Toshiro expected to have children; he thought he'd inherit his father's position and produce an heir. But he's always been terrified by the idea of actually raising a child because all his parental figures — his father, his mother, and Maizuru — failed spectacularly in raising him. Right after canon, he wouldn't be able to articulate where they went wrong because he's still repressing most of it, but he knows that his father's treatment of him as a failed investment or discarded amusement did not benefit him. Likewise, his mother's neglect and Maizuru's overbearing, terrifying parenting style, coupled with her expectations that he'd take his father's position one day, were not ideal.

If pinned down about it, he'd say that he'd want his child to be raised with proper emotional support — for them to feel loved unconditionally rather than valued for any position they may eventually take up, but overall, he feels ill-equipped to raise a child. Since Kabru would never pressure him into having children, Toshiro would realize that having children is an unwanted expectation his family and society placed on him. After realizing this, up until maybe his forties, he wouldn't even consider having children again because he'd fear traumatizing them like his parental figures traumatized him, and more importantly, he'd be content with his life as it is.

Kabru

By the end of canon, I don't think Kabru has had the mental space to consider having children. He'd be of the mindset that bringing a child into an unjust world would be irresponsible, especially if he's yet to accomplish his goals of equality between the races and sealing off the dungeons. But in his position as Laios' advisor, he'd feel more empowered to improve their world and raise a child in it.

However, if someone seriously approached him about having children with Toshiro, Kabru would probably have a traumatic episode. His associations with having children of his own are:

His trauma regarding monsters eating his mother and other children from Utaya

Milsiril as his adoptive mother and her inability to fully understand and meet his emotional needs due to not conceptualizing short-lived races as equals and her career rooted in elven imperialism (Sidenote: Milsiril does push back against the societal position she's been placed in, and she raised Kabru with good intentions, but impact > intent. She was still raised in elven society and an active participant in imperialism for many years)

The elves' horrible, dehumanizing treatment of Rin

The thought of having children would send him into a panic because he'd fear being killed by monsters and unable to care for his children, his children being killed by monsters, his children being mistreated by those more powerful than him, and being an unsatisfactory parent to them. Not all of his fears would be rational since he lives in Melini where Laios is a living monster repellent. But since he hasn't unpacked all of his trauma, these thoughts would come up.

After processing more of his trauma, Kabru in his thirties would be open to having children if Toshiro wanted them, but since Toshiro doesn't, it likely wouldn't happen.

If we fast forward to their forties or fifties, that's when Kabru and Toshiro might consider raising a kid. Their lives are stable. They've unpacked a lot of their childhood traumas. They have a support network and a reliable method of travel between their homes. They could do it. I still don't think they'd feel the need to have children, but if a child tumbled into their laps (I'm thinking of how Izutsumi appeared for the main party), they'd have a long, serious discussion about it and ultimately decide to raise them. Similar to Izutsumi, I could see them raising an older kid.

TL;DR: I don't think Kabshiro would adopt/have children, but after they hit middle-age, if a child fell into their lives, they would raise them.

On Utaya

I'm so glad you asked about Utaya because I wish I'd been able to explore Kabru's trauma more in "debts and delusions." He deserves an in-depth analysis of his past and to begin healing from it.

The short answer is: yes, Toshiro would definitely notice Kabru's trauma surrounding Utaya. Toshiro is fairly observant, Kabru's already opened up to him about what happened in Utaya, and when Kabru's trauma manifests outwardly, it's actually not very subtle, so it's a little shocking more people haven't tried to support him through it before. Or maybe it's unsurprising since he tries very hard to project being emotionally secure and stable.

The next step in Kabru's arc is beginning to heal from Utaya. Now that he and Toshiro have established what their relationship is and can correspond and visit each other regularly, Toshiro would have the emotional bandwidth to address Kabru's panic and nightmares and aim to support him by talking with him and encouraging him to lean on him. He'd want to return the favor of Kabru supporting him through his difficult times. He'd also feel guilty for complaining about his concerns over Falin, considering everything Kabru has gone through, but that guilt and negative tendency towards comparison could be something Toshiro works out with his other friends.

After learning to depend more on Toshiro and hopefully, on his other friends, Kabru would recognize that he should take his own advice about voicing one's wants and needs. He'd eventually have an honest conversation with Laios about his feelings on eating monsters and where those feelings come from, and that would open Laios up as another person he can be emotionally open with about his past. Because I am a strong believer in Kabru and Marcille as friends post-canon, she'd also be another person for him to lean on. Her perspective as a half-elf would be valuable for both of them. (Unrelated, but I also strongly believe in Kabru helping Marcille let go of her comphet.)

I'd also hope that with time, Kabru would realize how he's taken Rin for granted. They could actually talk about her feelings for him and unpack their traumatic upbringings together. Talking with Rin would probably be the most healing interaction for him, but it'd take a lot of work on his part. He'd have to apologize to her for being sexist, rebuild their trust after years of him shutting her out emotionally, and uncover the most difficult parts of his past with her, a friend who knows it intimately. Realistically, Rin would be willing to support him even without an apology because she suffers more than Jesus, but for the sake of her sanity and mine, he should definitely apologize to her first.

If there was ever to be a sequel to "debts and delusions," it would focus on Kabru and his healing!

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Thank you so much for sending this ask! I'm always willing to yap about DunMeshi and/or my writing. If you have any of other thoughts on the fic, hcs, or more questions, feel free to send them my way <3