#TMI sorry this was kinda personal lol

[aspellonyou]

i have reached terminal levels of horniness, i fear

[waitineedaname]

Wish you best of luck in your human meeting! Hope you have a fun and nice time

thank you! we didn't have much chemistry so idk if I'll see her again, but it was still a nice night. I had pierogis. pierogis make any night good.

[strniohoeee]

Ache

Pairing: Chris Sturniolo X Female Reader ⚠️SMUT⚠️

Synopsis: Chris is struggling with some issues,Y/N is there for him to help him with whatever he wants😌This for that anonymous request I got! Smoochie this for you🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽 message me if you liked it😗

Warnings⚠️: THIS IS SMUT so please back off if you’re a child. There’s hair pulling, spit, roughness, manhandling kind of, use of “good boy”, and tbh I think that’s all🤭🤭

Song of the imagine: Flatline- Justin Bieber

This is a 18+ imagine, so minors please do not interact AT ALL

Chris POV

I had my hand tightly wrapped around my dick stroking going in between firm and light tugs. I was letting the hot water hit my back as I tried to get myself off. It has been a month since I last came, and everytime I try now I simply can not cum. So everyday I'm miserable walking around with blue balls, and there was nothing I could do about it.

I had finally given up when I couldn’t clear my mind to cum, immediately getting frustrated. I just decided to finish my shower, and hope that I could actually cum after my relaxing shower.

I hadn’t been able to cum since coming back from tour. I couldn’t touch myself for a month and a half since I was either on the tour bus, or sharing a room with Nick and Matt. I’m finally back from tour, ready to explode, and here I am struggling to blow my load. Embarrassing….

I finished showering, and decided to lay in bed trying to ignore my painful bulge, but I simply couldn’t. So I decided to try one more time. I removed the covers off myself and decided to pull my pajama bottoms down slightly allowing my hard cock to spring forward. Once again I allowed myself to have no thoughts and began to stroke my dick, but to no surprise my arm was starting to cramp, and I couldn’t cum no matter how hard I was trying.

“What the fuck is wrong with me” I groaned in frustration as I rubbed my eyes

I decided to pull my pants back up, and text Y/N asking if I could go over. She was my best friend and we were so comfortable with each other that I could tell her anything with no judgment.

-Hey. I’m sorry to bother you so late, but can I come over??

-Hiii Chris! Yes ofc I’m actually really bored :(

-cool I’ll be over in 15. I really need to chat with you

-ohhh okay you’re scaring me lol

-oh no sorry it’s personal issues

-gotcha! Okay drive safe see you soon<3

I hearted the message and put my hoodie on, and grabbed my keys. I hopped into the car, and drove over to Y/N’s. No music playing either because I couldn’t hear anything other than my throbbing cock

I parked in a spot, and walked to her apartment building, heading up to her floor. I knocked on the door, and within 30 seconds the door flys open

“Chrissssss I missed you” Y/N said pulling me inside and giving me a big hug

“I missed you too” I said hugging her tighter

“Come sit down” she said letting go and plopping down onto her couch

“How was tour?” She asked as she looked down at her phone

“Uhh it was good. It was very fun meeting everyone” I told her looking at her every move

“I’m glad you had fun, but I’m so glad you’re back home” she said smiling at me

“I’m so glad to be back too” I said staring at her lips

“Chris, you seem off, what's wrong?” She asked examining my face. She hadn’t noticed my bulge as I had a pillow on my lap in a nonchalant manner

“I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, but something’s not right” I told her

“What do you mean?” She asked getting concerned

“This is so embarrassing” I said rubbing my face

“Chris, come on. We’re best friends and we tell each other everything. You can be as TMI as you want I don’t care” she said giggling

“Yeah, but this….its a little weird” I said

“Chris, just tell me please” she said, losing patience.

“Okay. I haven’t been able to cum since we got back from tour, and on tour I couldn’t masturbate because we were on a tour bus, or sharing a room, and now that I’m back I can’t fucking cum, and I need to so so bad” I said kinda whining the last part

“I’m sorry Chris, but I’m not sure what to do” she said looking at me concerned

“Could you maybe help me?” I asked her avoiding eye contact

“Chris…. I don’t know this seems like territory I shouldn’t get myself into” She said looking away

“I know, but can you at least talk to me while I masturbate, and if I can’t cum then I’ll leave, and this never happened” I told her

“Chris” she started, but I cut her off

“Please Y/N. PLEASE I’ll get down on my knees and beg” I told her looking at her

“Okay fine” she said

“Thank you so fucking much” i told her

“How do you want me to do this?” she asked me kinda laughing

“Uhhh can you take off your top I wanna look at your tits” I told her licking my lips

“Okay but take your shirt off too” she said getting down on the floor, and removing her shirt and bra

I removed my hoodie and slid my pajama pants down a little bit. Allowing my cock to spring up

“Fuck you look so hot like that” I told her watched her with half lidded eyes

“Chris you can’t say stuff like that to me” she said looking away blushing slightly

“Sorry you just look so fucking hot” I told her stroking my cock

“Do you want me to talk to you?” She asked, and I nodded my head yes

“Chris I don’t know what to say, this is awkward” she said laughing

“Say whatever you want, but before you do come spit on my cock” I told her, and she gasped, but complied. She crawled over and spat all over my cock

“Fuck” I said as I rolled my head back

“You like that?” She asked in a seductive way

My head snaps towards her and my eyes are wide with surprise, and for some reason that made my cock even harder

“You’re such a dirty boy” she said batting her lashes at me

“Oh fuck, please keep talking like that” I said as my hips thrusted upwards

“So pathetic, can’t cum on your own. You have to use me” she said as she rubbed her tits

I just moaned and allowed my jaw to fall slack

“You like being treated like a dirty fucking slut don’t you” she asked me touching my thighs

I fucking shuddered, and allowed my hips to thrust upwards

“Answer me now. You like to be degraded like a dirty boy” she said inching her hands closer to my dick

“Ohhh fuck I do! I DO! I love being treated like a slut” I said looking at her through my lashes

“Are you going to cum” she asked, spitting on the head of my cock as my hand went down. I let out a loud whine and vigorously nodded my head up and down

“Awww look at you. Cumming so fast you can’t even last a long time. How pathetic” she said laughing, and this made me lose it. I fucking came all over my lower stomach with a loud groan and my eyes shut.

She got up quickly and got a paper towel to allow me to clean myself up. I cleaned myself up, but my cock was painfully hard still

“I need more” I told her breathing heavily

“Chris that’s not what you said” she said still shirtless looking back at me

“Fuck I know, but I’m so fucking hard right now I need more” I told her looking at her tits

“Well touch yourself again” she said

“No I need to fuck you” I told her biting my lip

“I don’t know that seems…”

“Please let me fuck you please” I said still looking into her eyes

“That’s not something I could help you with” she said

“Please I’ll be your good boy. I’ll be your best boy you can use me for your own pleasure too” I told her

“Fuck Chris that was so hot” she said biting her lip

“Please Y/N” I said giving her a sad look

“Fuck it. You’re so hot right now I can’t deny that I’m so turned on” she said starting to remove her bottoms

I stood up and grabbed her by the neck and pulled her mouth into mine. I started to kiss her in a sloppy way. Moving from her lips to her neck and down to her boobs taking one into my mouth as I moaned. She shuttered when i did this

“Fuck Chris I need you now” she said tugging my hair at the roots

I grabbed her again and walked her towards her patio windows. Slamming her against it as I kissed her harshly again

“You’re so hot right now I want to fucking cum just by looking at you” I told her. I spit on my fingers and brought them down to her pussy, immediately mixing with her own arousal I started to rub her clit

“Oh my god” she said looking into my eyes with her mouth wide open. I slipped two fingers in as we made out. I fingered her for about 5 minutes before I pulled away

“I need to fuck you now” I told her, but before she could answer I roughly turned her around and pushed her against the glass

“Chris someone might see” she said as her breast and side of her face was up against the window

“Good, they can see you getting fucked” I said as I smacked her ass

I grabbed my dick allowing it to meet her entrance and slowly started to insert myself into her

“Oh fuck fuck fuck” we both said as I slowly pushed into her. She had her right leg propped up on the nightstand she had with a lamp on it.

I grabbed her right arm holding it back, as my other hand grabbed her hair. I started to relentlessly pound into her

All that could be heard was our skin slapping, and our loud pants

“Fuck you take me so well” I moaned into her ear

“Chris you feel so fucking good” she said allowing her head to roll back in ecstasy

I kept pounding into her at a ferocious speed. I was starting to sweat

“Fuck you look so hot all red and sweaty” she said looking at me as her head was turned

“Yeah and you look fucked out” I said kissing her harshly. I was pounding into her as we were sloppily making out

“Wanna ride me baby” I asked breaking away from the kiss

“Fuck yeah” she said. I pulled out of her so I could sit back on her couch. I positioned her over my cock and slowly helped her sink down onto me

“Jesus” she said as she threw her head back.

She started to bounce on my cock as I massaged her tits

“Fuck keep going I’m going to cum so hard” I told her biting my lip and moaning

She went from bouncing to grinding on my cock and clenching down on me

“Chris I’m gonna cum” she said still grinding down on me

When she rolled back I leaned my head down and spit in the space where her clit met my Pelvic bone. This allowed her clit to glide against my pelvic bone with ease

“Shit that was so fucking not Chris I’m going to cum” she said grinding harshly against me

“Keep going baby I wanna see you cum on my cock” I said running a hand through my hair

She kept grinding and soon I felt her twitch, and loudly moaned as her body shook and she fell into me riding her high out.

“Fuck Chris” she said still slowly grinding on me, and kissing on my neck

“I’m gonna cum, can I paint your tits?” I asked her, and she nodded her head yes. I pulled her off of me, and she got down to her knees in front of me. I spit down on my cock and held eye contact with her as I pumped my cock up and down

“Fuck” was all I said as my jaw fell slack, and I came all over her bare chest. Moaning loudly and breathing heavily

Soon I came down from my high

“Fuck that was amazing” I said as I helped her up

“Chris that was the best sex I’ve ever had” she said biting her lip

“Don’t move,” I told her. I grabbed my phone, and snapped a photo of her bare tits covered in my cum

“You look so hot. I will be cumming to this photo for the rest of my life” I told her as I went in for another kiss

“I’m gonna be cumming to the thought of this night every time now” She said back to me

“Just call me up, and I’ll fuck you again and again” I told her

“Mmm i like that” she said getting up. “Come take shower with me” she said sticking her hand out

“Round 2 in the shower?” I asked her half joking

“Mmm that sounds amazing” she said

We both ran to the shower and def had another round in the shower. ;)

The End

Whoever requested this I LOVE YOU, and I hope I didn’t disappoint lmk if you liked 🫶🏽, and if you have any requests don’t be afraid to comments them down below, or ask anonymously, or in my messages🤭

-J💅🏽

[sophisticatedgia]

blessed are the humble , mom says through text. i'm wearing such high granny panties today that they show through the top of my leopard print leggings. thank God I have a long v neck shirt on, to cover. I talked to my old best friend jen today. i told her~ was like ~didn't u ghost me lol. but she still my friend! jen went to washington university and her mom is a professor there for archaeology. it's cool. jen is the person who i worked at the renaissance faire at when I was 14 or 15 (my first job) selling fairy wings. we had to wear corsets. mine was purple. anyway me and jen had so much fun being goofy selling fairy wings lol. a witchy lady told us that jen's aura was blue and mine was pink. i was so jealous cus i love blue. but! ~*my boyfriend told me out of nowhere one day that my aura is seafoam green*~ and I'm perfectly happy with that, appeased greatly. i do like pale baby pink too but at the time my age 14 or 15 I was not very into pink and was very jealous of jen's supposed blue aura color.

walking back from the gym. birds are lightly chirping, cars roaming past, man walking by, shade from trees, sunlight streaming through this way and that. i'm walking in the sun. today the man at grocery store said God bless. that sure do piss me off. mom says the most important part of blessing someone is the word "you" and i wholeheartedly agree. because for all i know the dude could just be saying God bless whatever, God bless himself, the situation. saying God bless is not a nice thing to say to someone in my opinion. i'm not mad though.

God bless you all. God bless you.

my leopard print pants are size large and they are a little baggy on me now. but I know for a fact medium will give me a camel toe lmfao sorry if that's TMI. walking amongst the autumn leaves. I am going to shower today.

guess what? my adorable polish neighbor gave me a twenty pack of disposable razors yesterday when mom stopped by. mom gave them to me from her. one time I went to a christmas choir with them, neighbor and mom~ and i cried tears of joy and relief as the choir sang deeply from their heart, beautifully praising Jesus. but you see it was a play, also. and the play was kinda, in my opinion rude and too playful making a mockery of God's reign. but the choir brought me to relieving happy tears.

i miss mom and neighbor. we used to go swimming together and she'd make us polish treats and dishes for dinner or christmas or just, often~ in general. she's a good lady.

hope y'all have a good day. i bought two acai berry almond milk yogurts and ima eat a protein bar and banana for breakfast. had a good poo this mornin.

~*.our body is a wonder land.*~

(edit also i don't hang out with jen anymore but still consider her my friend, yay!) seems like no one but amber and perhaps alix want to hang out in real life. but we rarely do. it's been over a year since i saw amber and years since hanging out with alix. a year and half ago i used to hang out with my friend nicole often, going to creek with her daughters, or me babysitting or helping her clean house. i don't wanna be close with her anymore tho. she hung out with my bf behind my back. throughout her life she had crush on him.

[nerves-nebula]

So I went through your neglected turtles au (love it btw) and I have a question. If Raph raised his brothers was there a time Leo wasn’t like how he is now? Like did Raph have to watch Leo get corrupted by splinter or was he always a little asshole?

Thank you! Yeah OK SO. Leo was always very outgoing and confident, even as a baby. He absolutely turned into a little monster because of Splinter, lol. He wasn't predisposed to being an asshole, it’s just unfortunate the kind of asshole he turned into was an aggressive, egotistical one. (this questions got me thinking about what the OTHER'S would be like if they were splinters favorites but that's for a different post)

It’s really rough for Raph, being the only one who remembers back when Leo was just a cocky troublemaker instead of the terror he is now. Most of the time Raph just doesn’t think about it, because it’s heartbreaking to remember about what could have been, and what Splinter fucked up. And also cause Leo has done horrible things to all of them and there really isn’t space in their home for forgiveness when Leo might take advantage of that to hurt them more, hahhh.  

Storytime! Those of you who’ve been around for a while might know that my oldest brother is the worst person I’ve ever met IRL and I HATE him. I’ve literally never known a version of him that wasnt the fucking WORST. However, sometimes my oldest sister will tell us stories about them when they were wayy younger, before me or my other siblings came around. And apparently he used to just be like a normal kid?? Kinda awkward and weird but generally fine. We have no idea what happened (It probably had to do with our parents) so I’m kind of loosely basing this story on that. Except irl one of the reasons I hate my older brother is because he WILL NOT change. I want him to, I would love it if he did, but he WONT and he doesn’t really want to :/

So it's not like Leo is based off my brother or anything, so much as the general dynamics of our household. Like, my mom would never SAY my oldest brother is her favorite, but he always gets away with being an absolute menace and she’s always willing to tell us we should all get along cause we’re Family whenever he fucks with us. 

ANYWAY sorry for the tmi ramble, here’s a doodle of the turtle tots getting along <3 

[bookishjules]

i feel like this has to just be him being ridiculous. like a herondale is gonna make up a dramatic story yk? i'm just confused how he knows about mailboxes lol like yeah i guess it's contemporary, but it's also.. not really something you see in nyc. and i highly doubt he would have had one growing up with valentine. i like the idea about him picking something up when he was rooming at casa de magnus tho lol he probably filtered through a number of random dvds while secluded there.

This is such an oddly specific story and it makes me deeply curious about what happened. @layla-carstairs , thoughts?

[platinum-iridium]

same anon from the dove whole body deo. okay okay so, maybe a bit tmi, but I half-agree and half-disagree with the idea that full body deodorants are just a scam to prey upon women's insecurities. I half-agree, in that I don't doubt at all that the intention is to keep women constantly self-checking and feeling disgusted at themselves for not smelling like vanilla extract 24/7. I CAN, however, get behind full body deodorant, because I work a labor job, and at work our AC oftentimes isn't great, so I get very sweaty, and it's good to have a product that will keep me from getting too rank. The tmi part is just that I sweat between my thighs and groin, and after a few hours on the job, it doesn't smell great. It's never bad enough for any people to notice, but the animals I work with sure do, so if having them stuff their noses into my crotch can be avoided a bit easier, I like to. The thing is, though, that I know damn well that men aren't worried about the same thing, and that women who don't have any reasonable reason to worry that their darker, sweatier areas are going to be a special breed of rank after a few hours will still purchase it to battle an insecurity they shouldn't have.

TL;DR: I don't think whole body deo is a bad idea (better to have people use a product that's safe for that purpose, instead of deodorant that's just meant for armpits being used in places it shouldn't be, if nothing else) but I think it should be a much more niche product than it is. The average person really shouldn't (and tbh, DOESN'T) have any need for it. All of that being said, I mostly named off that dove deo because it smells good, works well, and is all natural (if I remember correctly, anyway. At minimum, it is aluminum free, which was my primary concern when picking). Sorry for all of the deodorant talk, I'm a yapper

never apologize for yapping in my ask box that’s what it’s there for. a yap receptacle.

that’s a fair point about sweating at work i occasionally have to work at hot sites with a full fire resistant kit on and the pubic area can get a little smelly after a full day of work but like you said we aren’t the target demo for those products at all. and i wouldn’t wanna put full body deodorant anywhere near my sensitive parts. even the safer kind but to each their own. speaking as someone who used to nair my pubic hair lol i think i’ve done enough damage. i just let her breathe now. i just avoid bussing it wide open at the end of those kinds of days. i also don’t like live with anyone so if i get home and my musk is strong i don’t really think about it too much

that is kinda funny about the animals though. like after a few hours of real body sweat they finally recognize you as also an animal

[dr-lizortecho]

I would love to hear more about why delena taught you about love if you ever want to talk about it! I'd also love to hear what you see as Damon and Elena's similarities and differences.

So this is a really difficult thing to explain anon, at the very least without explaining the triad of ships that I attribute the same thing to, so I apologize for rambling about non-delena ships in my answer! And this will probably be tmi like everytime I discuss how shows/ships personally impact(ed) me

One of the first ships I ever became invested in enough to create content for- and start discussing in depth was Malec (The Mortal Instruments Series). To start this off I’d like to give a very short disclaimer- I was thirteen or so and still believed in destiny and fate and singular soulmates (one person literally designed to be with you that you just stumble upon out in the wild) and grew up pretty much under a rock (the only reason those books ever graced my presence was my eldest sister sneaking them to my older sister who snuck them to me) and had no clue that queer people existed at all. So color little me shocked for a solid second and doing math tryna figure out the scene where Clary says that Alec is in love with Jace (I philosophized about souls for five seconds and figured it out). All of this to set up how naively blind I was to the concept of love, to the point where Clary and Jace made perfect sense as true love from the moment she sees him- because my little mind had subscribed to the disneyification of romance without much thought to it as a whole. So being able to watch what seemed to me as obvious connection and therefore love between Alec and Magnus while the former second guessed himself was a new experience for me. Realizing that not only is love something that transcends the obstacles in life- but that it’s messy and complicated. Basically Malec taught me that love is a mess- it’s not always logical and above all it’s not something linear that exists at 0% or 100%. Because sometimes you’re falling in love with and choosing to pursue someone while still moving on from someone else- that feelings don’t just snap away because you’re actively pursuing something better for you.

Then Delena came into my sphere. Which I won’t lie wasn’t my first introduction to ships of their caliber, however, something about the individual characters made it come to life and made something in my brain click into place. Because there’s this big question that keeps floating around Delena in the early seasons which is ‘does Damon deserve love and forgiveness?’ aka Elena. Now the answer to that question appears quite simply- no. Damon doesn’t ask for it, he doesn’t try to change, he doesn’t attempt to earn it. However, Elena chooses to forgive him anyway to show love and kindness and turn the other cheek (okay- sorry for the religion bit, but biblical love anyone???). Which was eye opening and beautiful to watch. Because even with more years on me and more emotional intelligence it had never clicked how much work love could be. That you had to consciously make difficult choices and choose to forgive, to understand that people react to pain in all sorts of ways. So Delena taught me love is messy (lol, if you’re noticing a pattern it’s cause there is one). That people are chaotic and their emotions even more so, that you have to choose love everyday. And above all it’s not just something that exists in the good times, it’s bigger than that. That without that choice- that forgiveness love doesn’t exist and will fail every time.

Now- if you follow me and haven’t seen the show I apologize for the continuous spiraling, but Echo is the third ship that taught me about love. This one is much more complex and difficult to explain (but I kinda did explain it a long time ago in my farewell to the show) but Echo taught me to love my faults and myself, to see we are all worthy of love without tying ourselves into perfect knots. And to spare everyone me talking way too much I’m going to leave it there.

[mononcmarc]

INFP male. WTF? FML.

Being an INFP male is litteraly Hell on Earth. And don't worry, I'm not going to go on an incel rent. I've always found incels to be immature misogynistic humans who believe they don't have any inner growth to do. No. I know I can't blame others for how I am. I found out through introspection, or in my case I would call it daydreaming my life away, that I am omnisexual. Basically, this means that I can feel attraction towards men, women, gender fluid, trans, non-binary, wathever. I am also attracted towards some traits, like creativity, compassion and empathy. Basically, it means that I am falling in love and/or am aroused by around a fifth of all the people I meet. You know the cliché of how we INFPs tend to fantasize about people we meet and daydream about our hypothetical loving relationships? Well, guess what, it's true and the fact that I'm a man doesn't change that at all. Now on top of all that, in the same introspection process, I found out that I am polyamourous and totally capable of having at the same time many hypothetical daydreamed loving relationships. Imagine having to go through that for 1 person out of 5 you meet IRL, online, celebrities, friend of a friend of a friend that you see on social media, random person who decides to make a video about INFPs on YouTube, came out of nowhere human being on Instagram (clearly not a bot, right...?) who dm me because they liked something I posted 3 years ago, EVERYONE ! And how we INFPs process everything, every information we get : introverted feeling. This means that most of my time (normally 2/3rd of my waking hours) is spent analyzing every sentence, every word, every comma, every gesture, every non-verbal communication that I make or percieve from others in order to make sure that I haven't miss any red flags or that I've not commited a faux-pas of some sort, and of course, I will at some point say too much (TMI is one of our many middle names after all). On top of that (because it ain't over - lol - you sweet summer child you) don't forget that I have to repeat the whole process for every sentence, every word, every gesture of all hypothetical daydream love scenario that my brain pops out (oh yeah, sometimes even with fictional characters also) with facts, logic and my own personal values in order to separate what is plausible, what is maybe usable for any creative project and what is just plain bull****. Most days, I just want to stay in bed and speak to no one, see no one, text no one, read no books, watch no movies or shows and simply exist in my own inner world in my mind but I can't. I'm an INFP and deep human connections is what I desire the most. And I know I'm kinda charming and funny without even trying and I've been told that I have soft big puppy brown eyes and a deep relaxing manly voice, so making new friends ain't hard. What is super hard is having to "man up" because that's what people expect you to do while having the inner emotional turmoil of a Disney princess who's out of fairy dust. Litteral Hell, I say. I've cried the whole time I was writing this. I'm tired. Don't worry, I'll be OK. I'll make myself a tomato sandwich I guess and watch videos of cute cats or something. Sorry. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Hope it will make you understand us male INFPs more. Or maybe it won't. Does it matter? I guess not. What matters is you who's still reading this. You are awesome and I love you. F***. Now I'll daydream about a person who is virtually inexistant but could be plausible and then go through the whole Fi judgemental process again. See? Hell.

[monstersinthecosmos]

I am sooo happy I sent that ask!! Your reply was everything I could have wished for and more. I didn’t know anything about the VC universe (I did see the movie adaptation as a kid, but all I could remember were the ~vibes), and now I might actually want to check out the books. I mean I can’t believe how much of it is canon LOL, traumatized kinky asexual vampires wtf? sign me up??? Which book(s) of the series would you recommend to me? :o

In the meantime, I will DEFINITELY be giving your VC fics a try, thank you so much for the pointers!!! I’m already weak just reading your reply, esp. that parallel of post-disaster Armand and Marius being kind of like an AU where Shiro *does* give up on Keith - that actually broke me. A lot of what I love about your fics is how you characterize Keith so realistically and in a way that’s meaningfully informed by his upbringing/subsequent abandonment issues and that’s a thrill to read because, well, it’s just good writing - but also because it makes so much sense, not just abstractly but in a very real and personal way. And while the ~relatability~ of it all makes for a super intense reading experience, it can also be weirdly and sometimes incredibly cathartic imo - which is one of the reasons why I think I keep revisiting your fics (sorry if tmi LOL 😭). But!! In the case of Sheith it more or less all works out in the end because, like you said, it’s such a wholesome ship and they love and prioritize each other so much that (as a reader) they’re kinda like a safe space, delectably complete with all the angst and hurt and fuckedupness of their circumstances/selves (you know, for flavor). However, thinking about a timeline where it does NOT all more or less work out, well that’s kinda super heartwrenching! But yummy? And I kinda can’t wait to get into it but I’m also genuinely scared for my heart LMAO. Anyway I’m sorry for rambling!!! With your permission I will definitely come back and scream about Sheith and vampires because I sorta already am lol.

Re: the teaser xmgdknfnrmsmgdk I can’t even gather enough brain cells to form coherent sentences, I’m just squealing and awaiting my resurrection I guess. Thank you sooo so so much! I got so excited I haven’t even been able to finish reading it 🫣😳😵😵😵

!!!!! Thank you again for such a thoughtful and delicious response! <3

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So this post got really long I’m so sorry asdghkads  TLDR: I recommend all of them but I also don’t LMAO and you can skip around and won’t be confused but it will spoil stuff. This is a LOADED QUESTION.

It’s wild like I was thinking about the fic i could stop dreaming and also just in general AGAIN IF WE CAN TALK ABOUT COMMON SHEITH TROPES/FANON like I’ve read many S8 fix-its where Keith is drifting around and he’s just like so cold and broken and empty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And that’s how Armand feels to me! Even a fic like heart nailed open where Keith is just so fucking empty! Or SOURCE DECAY??????? Like I think there’s tons of Sheith AUs or S8 fics where Keith is like Depressed Guy Keith and !!!!!! God it fucks me up lol. Armand is kinda like if Depressed Guy Keith was also like a 500 year old fucking weirdo.

And like BECAUSE they’re vampires and they’re immortal they’re sort of always coming in and out of each other’s lives so like there’s always a hypothetical future where they can work it out. Like i could stop dreaming is about them working it out, right? And what it would take to heal that injury. And there’s a lot of stuff in canon where these characters commit absolute fucking atrocities to each other and still manage to work it out and I think it’s again just an exercise in empathy and asking if we can still deserve love when we’ve fucked up. The characters have CENTURIES to get over stuff (and some of them STILL DON’T LOL) but sometimes they do. Famously & without spoiling too much of IWTV, Armand does something pretty fucking atrocious to Louis and they still have a long relationship and still love each other very much!!!

But ON THE QUESTION OF WHICH BOOKS, jfc hold my beer

I think in Sheith you see people like almost universally dismiss S8; the only fics I ever see of it really are like just gratuitous whump or fix-its LOL which is valid. And VC has FIFTEEN FUCKING BOOKS and you could honestly ask ANY fan in VC which books “count” and which books are skippable and I think everyone has a different answer.

I also think you can read them out of order and there’s always a little bit of exposition to catch you up so you won’t be lost; the only downside is that you’ll get spoiled on the previous book. For example, if you jumped in and read Armand’s book first, it would make sense, but it would spoil what happened at the end of the book before it.

Also to get the movies & show out of the way because it’s faster than committing to fifteen books:

The 1994 movie is a pretty solid adaptation; you can tell they condensed some details for time or whatever but it’s pretty faithful. There’s also the show that came out last year which is …………….. not so faithful lol. The show also heavily focuses on Lestat & Louis which is the juggernaut ship of the fandom but they’re also like the missionary position of the fandom so who the fuck cares lol. (Loustat fans lurking in this extremely niche post I am so sorry, I'm kidding ilu LMAO it's just not my thing!) And tbh the show wrote Armand & Daniel’s characters SO POORLY it like absolutely killed any motivation I had to continue watching so as an Armand stan I can’t really recommend it but it’s kinda like silly and fun if you don’t take it too seriously. And tbh if this entire fact finding mission is to understand VC more, the show literally changes EVERYTHING; it changes the time period, it changes the lore, it changes the story, it changes the character ages, etc. Basically it just kept the names lol. It's a completely different canon so I think even show fics & book fics aren't compatible either.

There’s also a movie of Queen of the Damned from 2002 which is like SO BAD LMAO but also silly fun. It’s a really bad adaptation but I’d put it in between the movie and the show. Marius is in it and the characterization is really strange LMAO. Armand is an extra.

The thing about VC is that it’s very sort of like non-linear and nontraditional storytelling. Most of the books are narrated by Lestat but several of them are narrated by random other people, and a lot of times the same story is retold through other people’s POVs. Like you get the story about Marius & Armand in three different books and each version is a little different because everyone has a different perspective. And regarding reading out of order and having spoilers, I do think it often creates like a suspense vs surprise element because we circle back and revisit the same stories so many times; you might get a spoiler and read a book knowing that a certain thing is going to happen and there’s still the tension of waiting for it to happen haha. Like when I mentioned the cult raids Marius’s house—you learn about that in Book 2 so you read Armand’s book later going into detail about his life and you’re just SWEATING because you know it’s coming. AND THEN YOU READ ABOUT IT IN MARIUS'S BOOK AND YOU'RE JUST DEVASTATED ONCE MORE.

I will say that for me I always recommend just fucking read them lol. Just read all of them. LOL!! But they’re weird and like, you’re gonna hate some of them, but I don’t think you can take someone’s word for it on Tumblr, it must be experienced. But I do understand that it’s a lot of material to get through and so I can give a fair cheat guide I think.

Most fans agree that the first three books (“The Trilogy”!) are solid and worth reading. Those are Interview with the Vampire, The Vampire Lestat, and The Queen of the Damned. IWTV is like this gloomy gothic tome about Louis’s life that started this whole thing and was written as a conversation about grief because Anne Rice’s daughter had died. It absolutely reads like a book someone writes about their daughter dying and it’s REALLY beautiful but it’s also a bit dense at times. If you’re put off by the vibe IT GETS EASIER when Lestat shows up because he literally bursts into the series like Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way ready to like tell you how blonde he is and how he’s gonna fuck everyone’s lives up. The books are still very heavy on existential questions and angst and grief but the text gets a bit lighter and super absurd LOL.

The first three also establish the universe and lore, though, so I think it would give you a pretty solid foundation to understand that type of stuff.

After the trilogy the books just go off the rails like there’s a few about Lestat having stupid adventures and doing dumb shit, there’s a few that cross over with Anne Rice’s witch series (so add three more book so if you truly wanted to read all of them!), then Anne Rice went back to the church and stopped writing vampires so there’s a huge gap, and then she quit the church again and returned LMAO. There’s a final trilogy she wrote before she died that are like, not the heaviest reading and they’re just kinda like silly good times with lots of Easter eggs and fan service. I feel good about the final trilogy being how it ended, just really silly times about them trying to use iPhones and shit, completely wild.

As far as ARMAND CONTENT THOUGH.

Armand does feature heavily in the trilogy so that’s also a good Armand foundation. And it’s REALLY FUN because he shows up in IWTV as sort of a chill mentor to Louis, but then in TVL you get the story about how Lestat met him when he was still in the cult and he was a feral little monster!!! And I love the duality of how Lestat and Louis describe him!!! It’s framed as unreliable narration a lot of the time because like Lestat’s resentment & Louis’s respect for Armand absolutely color the way they describe him, but idk like 100 years go by in between the two meetings so you also see a lot of character growth and see how Armand is doing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God. My heart.

Anne Rice also very often uses like texts inside texts so like, IWTV literally is an interview with a vampire where the bulk of the book is in quotes as dialogue LOL and then in other books you often meet a character who will talk for like 40 pages at a time to tell a story. So in TVL when Lestat meets Armand, Armand takes over for a chapter and tells the story of his life, and then later he meets Marius and Marius ALSO tells the story of his life.

QOTD is a modern story (modern in the 1980s when it was written haha) about how the whole vampire world has to deal with Lestat’s bullshit and they all come together for a common cause. This book features the little novelette about Armand & Daniel as one of the chapters!! It’s so good!! (The chapter is called The Devil's Minion and basically if you needed to understand Armand & Daniel you could just read that one chapter and that's basically it bc then it goes to shit!!! Not to spoil anything but also don't get your hopes up about like heaps and heaps of ship content because there isn't any lmfao fml)

It also features Marius and Armand reuniting with each other after 500 years!!!!!!!! HEARTBREAKING! It’s really good and very preposterous but the writing is so lush and takes itself so seriously you kinda forget that it’s preposterous.

Armand has a POV book later in the series, it’s called The Vampire Armand, it details his life as a human and some of his early years as a vampire with Marius. IT’S SORT OF LIKE A LONG EXTENDED VERSION OF HIS CHAPTER IN TVL.  

I do want to say that regarding the BDSM and whatnot that I mentioned; this book is quite controversial because there’s not good BDSM etiquette LOL and like part of the genius of this book is that it can be read as abuse, even when Armand isn’t setting out to tell you the story of how he was abused. I have a lot of thoughts about this because Anne Rice was also an erotica writer and her erotica books were all noncon BDSM; I WROTE ABOUT IT HERE I DON’T WANT TO GET INTO IT NOW but I think depending how people go into this book they either see the kink & sex stuff as explicit abuse OR you can read it as like, fantasy from a porn writer. As a Sheith fan I’m going to assume you’re not that sensitive lol. (But also por que no los dos, that's the flavor baby!)

Personally I think you could read this book as a standalone and like, it’ll be a little whacky without context, but I think I’ve given you a lot of context. It’s basically about his sad sad life, the religious trauma, and all the freaky sex he had. (Also just so you’re not disappointed, the sex isn’t graphic haha but he’ll be like “And then I went to the brothel and they licked honey off my nipples and I came home and Marius sucked my dick in the bathtub” but not like crazy sex scenes.)

Marius also has a POV book called Blood & Gold and it’s my favorite in the series!! IT’S MARIUS’S LONG EXTENDED VERSION OF HIS TVL CHAPTER. I think it’s the one that handles IMMORTALITY the best; the other books often focus on a short period of time or a specific incident and don’t often span someone’s ENTIRE life. IWTV spans Louis’s entire life but he’s only like 200 years old. Marius is 2,000!!!! He’s from the Roman Empire!! So like it’s really exciting to me to read about his whole life and all the eras he lived through!!!!!!!!!!!!

In his book you also get a few chapters about his time with Armand and it breaks my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There’s also a third secret option which is the book Pandora which isn’t part of the main series; VC is like actually 13 books and 2 side books? LOL So Pandora is one of the side books. But she was the first vampire that Marius made and they were lovers for like 200 years. This book to me feels like Anne Rice had a lot of leftover historical research and wanted to park it somewhere so a lot of the text is her talking about history stuff but there’s really great Marius content here and Marius/Pandora is one of my fav ships.

A lot of the fandom are more into the original trilogy and the Lestat/Louis content but I’m all about Marius so I’m into the DARK TRIAD of The Vampire Armand/Blood & Gold/Pandora. This to me is the more interesting section of the series but it’s an unpopular opinion so don’t take my word for it.

Other than that I’d also say Memnoch the Devil is my absolute least favorite VC, I think it’s so weird and boring lol but there’s some absolutely incredible Armand stuff in it and the stuff Armand does in this will be spoiled immediately if you check out Pandora or TVA. All in all it’s like idk 10 fucking pages of Armand LOL so if you got an ebook you could probably word search him. BUT YKNOW WHAT? Again don’t take someone’s word for it from Tumblr because like I find this book very weird and boring because it’s the most religious and I was raised atheist; there are people who were raised religious and say this one is their favorite. So what the fuck do I know!

Marius & Armand & Daniel are all in the final trilogy as well if you make it that far. Daniel is sort of always shuffled to the side because Anne Rice didn't care about him so like every time Daniel shows up I like feast on the breadcrumbs LOL but I'm glad to get some context about how he's doing and what's going on with his life.

ANYWYA I’M NOT SURE IF THIS ANSWERS THE QUESTION OR MAKES IT MORE CONFUSING LOL but ! ?!

They’re very weird books, they’re also kinda outdated and racist, but very queer, beautiful prose, incredible characters. They were my first hyperfixation that I can never seem to shake even when I’ve done all the work to dismantle all the ways they’re problematic and imperfect, it’s just yknow sometimes something gets its claws in you LOL. And I go out and explore other fandoms and still always come back to Marius and Armand and Daniel lol. I say that to say I wouldn’t be offended if you didn’t like them LOL but don’t judge me if you give it a shot and you’re like “what the fuck is this”

I just think Armand is like the most incredible character of all time okay!

SORRY FOR THIS VERY LONG REPLY LOL love you, patience yields focus!

[goldenhypen]

hi em! i was gonna make this anonymous but ta heck w tht LOL okay so this is gonna b a long one js bc i wanna b as clear as possible for u but i jus wanna kno ur opinion on this n im sorry if this sounds redundant (given what ur whole acc is abt) but i saw this tiktok that was basically talking abt how ppl who read rp (real person) fanfics r weird , disgusting , and freaks (that one hurt ngl😭) and ig bc i never interacted w ppl who read them i had no idea this was such a controversial thing yk? so it kinda hurt and i got hella defensive bc these fics have helped me thru some hard times n r my safe space (esp ur acc i love it sm ur fics r quick n easy reads but so so good! and i love tht u write wholesome sfw fics i don’t like / can’t read nsfw rp fics) and r good when i need a quick romance fix bc i have none irl (tmi fr sorry!) but honestly it made me feel horrible abt myself bc im like damn am i sick freak for reading this even tho i read the sfw n wholesome ones?? n they were sayin the y/n , self inserts were even worse! 😭 n idk if this makes me ignorant but for the life of me i couldn’t figure out what made it weird! nsfw ones r different but regular romance or fantasy? esp since i never see this take when ppl mention they used to read one direction fanfics or mindless behavior & august alsina ones (these were popular among the black community for context!) like everyone laughs n reminisces i feel like ppl r a lot more critical n harsh on kpop stans tbh but i even thought abt deleting my tumblr bc i felt wrong for doing so it made me question myself for awhile just being honest anyways i’ll get off my soapbox im so sorry this is so long i jus wanted to give as much context and detail as possible! if this is too much please disregard but idk i just wanted an opinion on this take from a fix writer and i assume u read some too correct me if i’m wrong! thanks so incredibly much in advance and i hope we can b friends one day! 🧸🎀✨💌💕🫶🏽

this is so real of you omg ok first of all, thank you for going out of your comfort zone to do this! things like this make me so happy cuz you coming out of your way to do this (comfort wise and time wise since it must’ve taken you a while to write sm, esp considering the technical difficulties 😭) makes it all the more meaningful. and i rlly appreciate you coming to me of all ppl too! so thank you!

secondly, i agree with you on all the things you had to say !! i was once in your shoes, and if i’m being completely honest, a part of me is still navigating this as well. like some things i still question for example is if there is rlly nothing wrong with this, why do i feel the need to hide that i read/write? but for the most part, rn i am definitely set on there being absolutely nothing wrong with this! i can definitely see where these other ppl are coming from if they had never thought much of fanfiction or reader inserts etc. bc it’s probably similar to how i felt before being more exposed to fanfiction. but imo these are fantasies i just imagine in my head anyway and are almost like dreams to me yk? and so imo, they’re harmless. in fact, writing and reading ffs help grow my creativity, which is smth i value. cuz not only am i doing this for entertainment, i’m also doing it for the art (this is in terms of writing more so than reading but can still apply to both). however, similar to you, i do believe that imagines can be taken too far, as that is what aligns with my beliefs, such as nsfw fics (which is not anything personal at all to nsfw writers!). that imo can be harmful for the mind and spirit etc. (sorry if this is getting too deep and personal 😭)

ugh this is honestly so nice to talk about and have someone relate to on this cuz literally the things you are saying describe me !!! and dw, i have and never had any love life,, it’s non existent, believe it or not! so dw, you’re not alone 😭 like we can be delulu tgt 😭😭 and ahahaha yesss like i can’t tell you the amount of times i considered deleting this app or stopping writing/reading. it was challenging to process. but after doing so, i have come to the conclusions i mentioned earlier (how i think reading sfw fics are harmless). it’s literally just a form of harmless entertainment lol so i don’t see why ppl have to be so judgmental about it and can’t just mind their own business 😭 so dw, coming from a fellow reader and someone who has faced the same dilemma, you are not at all a freak 😭 and don’t let anyone let you think otherwise 😤☹️

also i can’t go without saying a huge thank you for all the kind things you had to say about my works :((( <3 that is so sweet of you to say and is so encouraging. it’s smth i’m finding i need a lot of, esp lately, so i rlly appreciate that and it means a lot. this whole ask and talking about this is rlly quite meaningful to me tbh 😭 so thank you for coming to me and being so brave to bring this up! 🫶🏻 also, yes let’s be friends omg !! i’d love that 🥹🫶🏻

[theflyingfeeling]

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I really wanna take myself on a date to see the Barbie movie tonight but it's some sort of special show with the possibility to purchase alcoholic drinks from the lobby bar and I just know there'll be lots of friend groups there making a Thing(tm) of going to see the movie together and I'll feel so alone and I'm already a little teary-eyed about it and the only two friends I have in the city can't make it tonight but this might be my only chance to see it before some time in August maybe and I really want to see it?? 😭

(tmi my period is ending soon so maybe that's also why I'm feeling more boohoo about going to the cinema alone than I normally would, plus I woke up an hour ago and I'm still a bit sleepy and in bed and I should probably get up and eat something and the world just might seem a little less devastating eh? can someone out there already up and running confirm it's safe to go out there and face the day?? 🥺)

((also I hate how at least some people are gonna dress up for the occasion but I’m not that kinda gal, in fact I'm the most boring bore that ever bored, and my hair is icky but my plan was to shower later tonight so that my hair will be nicer for longer because I'm travelling to Paris tomorrow and sorry I mentioned that in a sub-clause but I don't want y'all to hate me for boasting about such things but also now I'm worried you might hate me for humble-bragging about it because I'm always prepared for everyone thinking I'm the worst person ever the way _I_ think I'm the worst person ever and yeah can you see I'm overthinking everything the first thing in the morning lol how could I possibly go out and about today when I'm a crying mess because I've managed to convince myself I'm the worst and deserve nothing good ever))

(((I know this is just my brain being mean to me and that I need to just tell it off so I can hang out with my old friend Barbie and go on a much-awaited vacation in peace)))

((((didn't mean for this to become so emotional lol sorry I don't mean to alarm anyone I'm fine I'm just tired and hungry and greasy and hormones going wheeeeeeeee 🙃))))

edit. "one ticket to the Barbie movie please" (🥲)

[chryblossomjjk]

You said diary, so I'm here to deliver

TMI WARNING (lol):

Fortunately, I never did the nasty with him (the thought is 🤢). Only went as far as the back seat canoodling (is that how u spell?) bc even tho I had no standards, I knew my limits. He sucked at kissing tho and his nostrils were so big that his fucking snot got into my mouth 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. His kissing skills were extra disappointing bc he was my first kiss, and my dreams were shattered bc I thought kissing was gonna be boring for the rest of my life.

While i wasn't dating him at the time (15 y/o me was depressed and insecure 🙁), he was my first boyfriend technically (only when he wasn't cheating on me 😉🙄). So, I guess you could say the whole dating experience was ass.

Man's made me very sad and took advantage of the fact that I was so hung up on him to have the chance to get off. However, he was ass at that, too. I'm pretty sure the dude had a death grip on himself whenever he watched porn bc he'd always suggest we "finish at home," as in by ourselves 🤨🤡.

Turns out he was still ass later bc his ex-girlfriend came to tell me all the tea when they broke up.

Also unfortunate, but he was so a part of my friend group bc me and my friends were immature. BUT, this gave me plenty of opportunity to roast his fragile masculinity as much as I wanted. He was gonna pay for my therapy and emotional trauma somehow 🤷‍♀️😂.

Sadly, I tried to date another emotionally and physically stunted guy after that, which ended before it started (I could go on about him, too ugh).

On a happier note, i haven't dated since, and while sometimes I feel like I'm missing out, I know that I need to have a great relationship with myself first. I'm really finding myself even though the past 4 years have been hard, and it has been and will continue to be worth it 🥰

But fuck, I miss kissing and cuddling 🫠🥺.

Thanks for letting me rant, most darling Kiki. I 💖 you.

im so sorry my love! honestly, it's kinda nutty to see how that first person you're really into heavily influences the way you feel about yourself, relationships, etc. i'm so sorry your first experience with love was traumatic and i'm so glad to hear that you're healing <3

and unfortuantely its all trial and error and sometimes you find another dud like you did the sceond time. however, you were able to spot the red flags asap n gtfo of there!! v proud of you for that like thats not an easy thing to do!

i really hope when you're ready, you find a love that is kind, sympathetic, and easy, bc you deserve it :( <3

[cryoriku]

general final fantasy for the ask meme as well! <3

ok this took forever because we kept switching so we couldn't get one person to answer, but then we decided we would both answer so i hope that's ok! (we are a system)

Cecil's Response

Favorite Male Character - Sephiroth<33 estinien and alphinaud are close contenders

Favorite Female Character - sure lemme (unrolls scroll of list of ffxiv characters the devs killed off or abandoned after an expac. the scroll drops to the floor and keeps going) but esp ysayle and lyse! alisaie's a fave too. and vanille. and cissnei. i like girls

Least Favorite Character - steiner my behated. idk he just bothered me. i never got far in ffix before my ps3 died tho u_u

Favorite Ship - sephzack is my biggest ship out of any fandom ever. but i enjoy any (age appropriate) sephiroth pairing really! i also like estiraha (estinien/graha) and most estinien ships... yes i love to see my fave boys winning

Favorite Friendship - g'raha and alisaie tickle me so much they're great. also vincent and shelke, shelke boomerifying vincent's phone so he would actually use it killed me

Favorite Quote - "My soul corrupted by vengeance, hath endured torment, to find the end of my journey in my own salvation... and your eternal slumber." - Loveless Act III

Worst Character Death - i was melancholy for 3 days over ysayle. WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DIE!!! YOSHI P ANSWER ME-

This Moment Made Me So Happy You Have No Idea - that crisis core bit where sephiroth is scheming with zack to purposely botch their mission and zack goes "for real!?!?" sephiroth laughs and goes "yes. 'for real.'"

Saddest moment - THE END OF STORMBLOOD!!! more of a horrifying kind of sad than a boohoo sad, but you get me.

Favorite location - just all of norvrandt... it makes me habby :)

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Roxas's Response

Favorite Male Character - Prompto and Hope mean so much to me as an emo kid you have no idea

Favorite Female Character - will my bias be showing if I answer Lightning LOL

Least Favorite Character - never liked cat sith (ffvii)

Favorite Ship - .............promptis has a grip on me still i'm sorRY i also enjoy wolraha i don't play xiv much really but catboy hot

Favorite Friendship - Hope and Vanille, also Cloud and pretty much any of the girls

Favorite Quote - "People die, and Yuna dances. When will she stop dancing." I'm sorry that my reasoning is my friends and I meme on it a lot cuz I never finished x (died with my ps3)

Worst Character Death - Lunafreya. not cos it impacted me the most but actually the opposite. i straight up did not care that much, i wish they would have given her more justice and wrote her better

This Moment Made Me So Happy You Have No Idea - i've got so many my brain decides to show me none of them. canon gay snogging in ffxvi was pretty top tier tho

Saddest Moment - EPISODE PROMPTO..... the entire build up on the train and shit from Noctis's end too ofc, but that dlc got me so bad. kinda tmi but as someone who struggles with self harm.... it was hella cathartic for me.

Favorite Location - Costa del sol (ff7)

[daz4i]

hihi. I saw your ask about the toys you like and it actually really improved my day seeing someone open about what they use. I've never had one before and Ive been looking around the Internet for my first toy and it's really intimidating aakdhdjska. I don't really know what I like yet so it's hard to know what to get. Seeing you talk about what works for you kinda made things seem less idk the word abstract? Is there any toys you would recommend beginners stay away from or work up to before trying? sorry if this is TMI.

aw that's really sweet, i'm really glad to hear omg 🥺

sure thing! this is by no means an expert opinion and i'm sure there are good guides out there, but :P

so like. ignore the clamps and suckers i mentioned in the previous ask, they're not the most beginner friendly (there are versions of them that are way more light, but i can't vouch for those heh). generally stay away from any bdsm section of any site for now lol

when it comes to like, dildos and such. avoid anything too unique - a-la bad dragon and the likes - or big. try looking for a medium firmness average sized (usually somewhere around 6in) silicone one for a start, that's as basic as it can get i think 🤔

as for vibrators and the likes, don't go for anything too expensive! not just bc you don't know what you like yet, but also bc they can get really strong lol. i recommend smth like a fairy wand, which is basically like a magic wand but smaller and it doesn't go up to high intensities. there's mini vibrators and the likes but i can't vouch for those heh. personally i don't like em too much bc they're just harder to hold, but i've seen them recommended for beginners the most probably 🤔

i do rec rabbit vibrators, you can get a lot in one not too expensive product, but again don't go for anything big hehe. also probably best to avoid those that come with, ig, special features? like thrusting or spinning etc. just good ol basic rabbit. their insertable part is usually smaller than other insertable vibrators too and they require less "aiming", which is why i rec them over others 🫡

biggest tip i can give you is to look at reviews! ppl will often say who they think it fits (like "i'm a beginner and this was too much for me" "i never used a toy like this before but i'm glad i started with this one" etc) so you can go by that :D the more reviews the better hehe.

this feels a bit overwhelming so tldr: don't go for anything too expensive, too big, too unique. avoid extra features and stick to basic, regular products at first. they usually have the most reviews too, so check those for more insight!

i didn't mention every single type but these are like the basic ones. there are some i heard good things about like yanking vibrators and the likes, but unless you already experienced this type of sensation with a partner for example, i'd say avoid these for now. they're very person dependent and can be intense for some 🤔

good luck 🙏 i hope this reply helped and that you can find a toy you like! 😌✨️ don't forget to keep em clean when you get them 🫡

[coupsnim]

Secret carat anon here again :) Aw don't worry about it, hope it was a good kinda busy at least! My weekend was alright, just worked worked worked lol.

Honestly I completely agree, there's few other groups with discographies I can just listen to without skipping many songs! It's so impressive and definitely one of the reasons why I love them so much.

Ah wow it really has been a long time for you then! No wonder your content is so amazing, all those years of experience pay off I bet. And I love that you were inspired by other svt grfx makers to start making your own <3 There really are so many amazing talented creators in this fandom, I appreciate you guys so much.

I'm sorry to hear you feel that way about your grfx :( And I 100% disagree! Your creations always look so good! Your style is so gorgeous and unique and iconic and I just love everything you make so much. It's always easy to take your own accomplishments for granted but trust me that others are always amazed by what you share with us <3 And I hope you get some time to draw soon!

Omg yeah fallin' flower was truly impeccable, I really wish we got more like it. And I get what you mean about home;run! They're such musical theatre nerds that the concept for home;run made almost too much sense for them haha. I'm personally a sucker for darker concepts like fear, getting closer, and 24h and hope they'll try something like that again in the future :) A dark academia style like they had for the social club photobooks would be awesome too! Very sophisticated and sexy <3

Next round of questions: Do you own any albums? If so, which ones? If not, what are some you would love to own someday? Who are some of your favourite painters/artists? And since you often use flowers in your grfx: do you have a favourite flower?

hii! sorry it took me a bit to reply, my mom visited me for a few days so I was quite busy 😊 hope you had a great week!

thank you so much for all the compliments! 🧡 I really appreciate it!

hmmm I'm not a huge fan of dark concepts in general, fear is probably my least favourite concept they tried (still really cool though ahah), but I did loooove getting closer! the song is amazing and so is the choreo (probably one of my favourite as well)

I usually like dark concepts when they are a bit quirky (not sure if it's the right word ahah my brain can't think in english today), something like red velvet's peek-a-boo or really bad boy, or shinee's married to the music, you know? not sure if it would suit seventeen though ahah but yeah, I totally agree with the dark academia style! they should try something like that for a comeback

I do own a few albums. the first albums I bought were you made my day and you made my dawn (although I "lost" them when I moved back home after uni, they are probably in a box in my parents' basement), then I have two versions of heng:garae (basically destroyed them as you could create your own album, I cut all the pages and mixed them up and made collages with old magazines ahah), then I bought face the sun (carat version because it was super cute) and sector 17 (new beginning version because I'm a sucker for pretty men with flowers). also tmi, I always pull joshua's photocard ahah

I didn't buy the others because either I didn't like the design, the concept or there were too many versions and couldn't choose the one I wanted. however, I would like to own boys be (love the cover and the concept) and al1 (for sentimental reasons). also not an album, but I would like to buy their social club photobook, I decided too late that I wanted it and now I can't find it anywhere ahah

hmmm another hard question, I think my favourite painter is probably amedeo modigliani, there’s just something about his portraits that fascinates me. I also like impressionism in general, artists like monet, renoir, degas, cezanne, etc. last week I also went to an exhibition of niki de saint phalle and it was amazing, we have one of her sculptures in my hometown so I always felt quite attached to her work. I also adore the sculptures of alberto giacometti! and toulouse-lautrec as well, my parents have one of his sketches at home and it’s one of my favourite pieces they have at home. ooh and george grosz, I wrote my high school thesis on some of his works

and for flowers, I think my favourites are forget-me-nots, but I love daises, sunflowers, primroses, dahlias, tulips, poppies and daffodils too