#TLDP (make a fucking guess) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

aeolianblues · 2 days ago

Text

The worst feeling in the world is 'I reached out for an interview, oh, you left me on read. Oh I see you've just posted that you're curating and hour of music for the BBC tomorrow. Oh I see, the US tour has sold out in 3 hours. You knew that. I'm embarrassed I ever asked. Sorry for bothering you. I can imagine your smirk right now. I can see your mouth forming the words now, 'poor sod'. Sorry for embarrassing all parties, sorry for wasting your time. I'll go kill myself now to make up for it.'

#This has happened with Sports Team (left on read; curating and hour for 6 tonight)#TLDP (make a fucking guess)#Fontaines (3x).... I hate being in this position; it is the most grovelling and uncool thing #I hate emailing initiating reaching out following up it seems so pathetic to want and to be ambitious in ways that look #foolish in hindsight #Like don't get me wrong I don't expect to get every interview I email out about #And I love every guest I have had on my show #But I do wish I could be aloof and cool esp. when the people I'm repeatedly following up with are literal cool rockstars.#I want to just lose my email address go into the woods start my own cool band and wear shades #I literally could not hate the embarrassment that comes with cold-emailing/messaging bands.#I hate it so much it makes me want to die in the moment #Radio stuff #Music #But you've gotta do it; you've gotta keep hoping; you've gotta stop feeling sorry for yourself and imagining everyone hates you #Because they don't. They're so busy. They haven't the time for that kind of spite.#Most are also just nice people but also they don't owe you. This is a sort of business transaction to them #(we're community radio so that's not really true but they don't know that and that shouldn't really change their decisions #They'd be burnt out if not)#It's nothing personal. But when it works out it can be so so good! So you've got to keep trying #Just brush aside the disappointments and embarrassments. Luckily nobody knows about it except you #The bands don't; I promise #We go again

3 notes · View notes