#THIS WAS REALLY FUN ily music i love humans for creating this so much

[chaotictomtom]

❤️💡 🤡

+ only if the spirit moves you! 🎶, and annotate the songs with the 3 above 👁

tHANK YOU FOR THIS ASK it was so fun to do!!!!!

❤️ fav. line - 💡 thing associated with this song - 🤡 describe the song worst way possible - 🎶 make 5 song playlist with this song

i got Ma Solitude by Georges Moustaki, Chase the Devil by Max Romeo and Midnight Star by Weird Al!!!!

❤️ non je ne suis jamais seul avec ma solitude </3 quand elle est au creux de mon lit elle prend toute la place

💡i hate myself for this but i associated with breaking bad mike 💀 this is a clear problem my brain has that i am aware

🤡 whahh im so lonely </3333

🎶 got possessed with pure melancholy doing this one idk if it makes much sense out together

Ma Solitude - Georges Moustaki

Travessia - Milton Nascimento

I Talk to the Wind - King Crimson

Vienna - Ultravox

No Soy Aquí... Ni Soy De Allá - Jorge Cafrune

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❤️ "i'm gonna send him to outer space" is such the most ever line of all time talking about the devil

💡as a kid i've heard my dad singing and playing this song on the guitar so many times, i can't dissociate this track from him

🤡 me in minecraft (putting on an iron shirt)

🎶 playlist consisting of other nostalgic reggae bangers i grew up on!!!!

Chase the Devil - Max Romeo

007 (Shanty Town) - Desmon Dekker & the Aces

Gawé - Baster

Right Time - Mighty Diamonds

Ready, Aim, Fire - Pablo Moses

Mini Bus - Barrington Levy

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❤️ YOUR PET MIGHT BE AN EXTRA-TERRESTRIAL!!!!!

💡a dnd character i got to play only once </333 tiefling bard loosely based on weird al teehee. also heard to the live version first and i think it's one of my most listened track of weird al!!!!

🤡 touch tone telephone but magazine tabloids. KIND OF

🎶 had a hard time doing this one so i finished it off with two silley tracks lol

Midnight Star - Weird Al

Chase - Giorgio Moroder

Mind - Talking Heads

Twilight Zone/Twilight Tone - The Manhattan Transfer

Pac-Man Fever - Buckner & Garcia

[mr-laveau]

-hands you my Love listener and also all my actual love ily booboo-

One. They have been called Love and/or Asset and will name themselves Ariel.

Two. Unfortunately, we already know all there is to their backstory 😭

Three. They’ve played around with the idea of lots of aesthetics and have settled on a sort of pastel, casual look with academia elements.

Four. They’re gender-fluid, so they switch from male, femme, and androgynous presenting on a whim.

Five. (Now that I’m really reading these questions, I’m so sorry for sending you an Android 😂) Marcus is an anime nerd in the worst way, so Ariel was deffo made with East-Asian features.

Six. They were made to look in their early twenties.

Seven. Slender and androgynous.

Eight. A Scorpio, though I’m not confident about that answer, I’ll admit.

Nine. Anton, who is the only person they feel likes them, and James, who is the only person who they feel respects them.

Ten. They’re still discovering hobbies and interests but so far, they’re enjoying listening to music and learning piano.

Eleven. Hmm, I think it’d be interesting if it was Psyche, Greek Goddess of the Soul, since it could be argued whether they have one.

Twelve. RedactedAudio 💕

Thirteen. Ariel is a sex-neutral/averse ace, so when they do sex without the obsession-code, it’s done with curiosity and the partner’s pleasure as the main priority.

Fourteen. Hmmm… that’s a new question for me. I think they actually don’t know yet.

Fifteen. I am Not a Robot by Marina and the Diamonds. It unironically makes them feel a lot of things.

Sixteen. Lowkey Natalie Portman’s character in Ex Machina.

Seventeen. Almost like a stock photo or a model’s shoot. They are symmetrical and physically attractive, beautiful almost, but there’s something impersonal about the stiff way they hold themselves and the lack of emoting on their face.

Eighteen. They really want to meet a dog. EDM music confused them and holds up appeal. They wish they could try coffee and lemons.

Thank you, my love 🧡

LaVeau-gue - design #003 - Asset/Love - Ariel - Lexi Sun

You are most welcome Lexi, always an honour to get to work with my first redacted friend, especially when it comes to this bean, Ariel! I still remember a few of the details from our previous conversations in regards to how you see them so I hope this does them justice!

Design Notes

Approaching Ariel's design, I had already had remembered conversations with you in regards to previous inspirations you'd mentioned for your take on Love. I also added in a bit of my own inspos to the mix to see what would take

For Ariel's design I wanted to keep in mind the solid collection of notes you'd written up so I could incorporate as much as I could whilst also condensing the design so I could make it simple to redraw (as I do with some of my other designs). My main focus when getting into this design however was to create a human and android Skin similar to how I'd made my Asset, Prim.

A big inspiration I had for them was Jenni from My Life As a Teenage Robot and Hatsune Miku so I decided that white metallic plates reminiscent of Jenni would work and blue hair similar to Miku would tie things together. Additional, I also chose to include colours from the PM title cards to establish that visual parallel .

As for clothing, I followed your instructions as best as I could, creating an androgynous fit that was pastel and had hints of academic elements! On top of that, I incorporated musical notes as a reference to the singing Ariel from the Tempest and the little mermaid does and to reference her proclivities for piano music. To reference back to your choice of Psyche as a god to represent Asset, I included butterfly designs on their overalls. To balance the whole pallette I combos the PM pallette and the pallette of their clothes which ended up being pretty readable overall! Another fun fact is that I also ended realizing that Ariel shares a clothing pallette with my Caelum!

Wanna have your listener designed by me? Check out my rules for LaVeau-gue and send an ask my way! Also, currently I am looking for money to replace my computer so any interested parties who wanna help can check out my commissions!

[amoderndreamletdown]

400 followers?!? That’s insane!! Thank you guys all so much. i love and appreciate all of you!! please take a break and drink some water/ get something to eat, even if it’s small.

i‘ll tag some mutuals i especially want to thank under the cut, but thank you to everyone!! ily all so much!!

@madiisbroadway: madi!! you’re such an awesome person and i love talking to you sm!! your music taste is great and i love coming up with random theories and aus with you!! you’re awesome!! 💗

@malecacidd: em!! you’re amazing!! i love talking to you whether it’s about fics or just something completely random!! you’ve helped me a lot and i thank you so much for that!! 💚

@thearsonistunderyourbed: karson!! you’re an incredible person and i love talking to you!! you have great music taste and i love the fact that we listen to the same type of music!! you’ve become like a little brother to me and i love being able to offer you any kind of advice or anything when you need it!! 💜

@it-tastes-like-lizard: val!! you are actually incredible. from talking about how bad the winchesters were to crowley to our weirdest fictional crushes, you’re just so amazing to talk to!! the fact that you checked up on me after i didn’t send an ask today actually meant a lot. so thank you!! 💛

@thesunsetcurvephantom: ari!! you’re an incredible person and i love getting the music and gif asks from you!! you’re a great person to talk to and i’m so glad we started talking!! (tbh i was a bit intimidated by you at first 😅) but you’ve been so kind and just an overall amazing human being!! 💙

@futurearchaeologyprof: em!! i love talking to you and seeing all the bear stuff you reblog (they’re so cute). you’re such a kind and funny person and i’m so glad we started talking!! i hope you’re still enjoying the fruke playlists!! 💚

@a-mere-chaotic-queer: ash!! i appreciate you so much!! you‘re such a great friend and i love getting the nightly asks even night (even if it sometimes takes me forever to answer ksjsksk) you‘re such a kind person and i love talking to you when we do (we should really talk more!!) 🧡

@lunaleonorah: leo!! i love talking with you and creating the orchestra au together was so much fun!! you’re so kind and such a great person!! 🤍

@cinnamonstickrayofsunlight: apollo!! i know we haven’t talked but you’re such an amazing person!! i love all your content and your musical knowledge is insane!! 💙

@teenagedirtbag-dot-jpeg: dodie!! you’re so amazing!! ik we haven’t talked but you‘re such an amazing person and your art is amazing!! ❤️

@sunshine-stars: iris!! you’re so amazing!! i love talking with you and hearing about your ocs!! you’re such a kind person!! 💛

@understandably-odd: dewey!! i love your ducktails posts sm and your whole blog is amazing!! you’re such an incredible human being and i remember the time when you sent me a bunch of asks when i was feeling low!! tysm!! 🧡

@jatp-rules-my-life: i love talking to you!! talking to you june 24 was so funny and just an amazing experience!! you’re incredible and your blog is amazing!! 🖤

and thank you to all my other mutuals (because i’m missing a lot)!! you’re all so amazing and ily all sm!! please don’t ever hesitate to message me or just send random asks!!

[fleshblueberry]

Babe wake up im going to rant about my ocs lore because im bored

Tw/cw depression, suicide, kidnapping, addiction, unreality

I write angsty stuff for my ocs oops-

When i first started making my characters they were very different in alot of ways and they were very different from what they are now. But i some how managed to glue all the chaos of my ocs together into a semi-coherent story. I went through an insane amount of world building with myself and i honestly dont think ive ever writen or typed any of it out before! its all just up in my head (and you know my memory is trash so ive probably forgotten of alot of things i made before lol). Anyways- i have two main story lines for my characters. Ethan's story, and Vevlet's story. Although i must admit Ethan's story is less complex than velvets simply beacsue it acts as a story of prequeal to Velvets story line. (Alternate realities that happen to have effect on each other basically- we love space time junk)

Ethan's world is very similar to ours, the most similar out of any of my fantasy worlds lol. Ethan's story revolves around self-discovery. I mean for it to be a wholesome/lighthearted thing that quickly leads up to dark undertones (spoilers lol). Ethan's story begins with Eef pre-transition (AFAB to NB). We get to see Ethan learn about themself and have fun exploring emotions and what it means to be alive. Ethan comes from a run-down family (mom khs, dad mia). So he lives with his adoptive parents (who i have yet to design and think about- theyre lesbians 100% though). A major moment for Eef is meeting his partner Seth. As you already know Ethan and Seth are cute ass boyfriends and stuff but guess what! im jammed their story full of angst and edgy shit bc i "wrote" most of this when i was hella depressed! Anyways Seth's family is like moderally welathy, wealthier than most i would say. Seth catches feelings for the emo chick ofc (forgot to metion Eef was definately a hot goth girl before he transitions).... uh yea anyways seth ends up flirting and crushing on eef and eef is like yea sure im bored and sad why not. and they end up dating after a while. Theres an important moment in their relationship when Ethan take Seth to this dead tree. THis dead tree is very important also bc it is where his mother hanged herself, and Ethan doesnt quite remember that bc he was very young when it happened, but he knows it as a place of comfort and he goes there alot when he feels sad or alone. this tree could be taken as symbolizim but heheh ill never tell. anyways Ethan is like yo my fevorite tree and Seth is like wtf okay bro ily and all but why a dead tree with an unstable tire swing?? ANd ethans like idk but i like it here reminds me of my childhood (op my guy) and they spend the night there. Also when ethan comes out to seth as nonbinary seth is just like ok,,, because hes bisexual lol. anyways time skip and Seth has some addiction problems once he graduates, long story short- Ethan doesnt like it bc his dad was a druggie so he trys to help Seth and Seth raises his voice and ethan is tiny compared to his bf so hes naturally like terrified of being hit and he suddenly feels his world of happy and peace he build back up bieng destroyed once again so he heads to his mothers dead tree and decides life isnt worth it anymore, and he hangs himself in the exact spot his mother did.... once seth comes off one of his highs or whatever hes like- oh fuck i yelled and acted agro to my traumatized partner. and he immedatly goes to the tree bc its Ethans favortie spot but its to late. regret is the only emootion anymore... its over for them.

now youre probably wondering how the absolute hell does that tie into velvets lore?? well do i have a tale for you. Velvets sotry begins on her 21st birthday, she is out for drinks with her douchebag bf and her bestfriend. several drinks later she yells over blaring club music shes going to the restroom, and as shes walking back she sees her bf and her bestie making out and she doesnt even say anyhting and walks out alone. She is making her way back to her apartment very tipsy. She then hears a vechile driving beside her, she cant make out anyhting theyre saying and the people in the car get out and before she even relises whats going on shes thrown into the vechile and is being beaten and yelled at. She passes out as theyre driivng to somewhere. When she next awakes she is in a barn-looking place. Concreate walls painted red and straw all over the floor. she cant stand, her legs stung and so did her entire body. for several days- she doesnt know how long she stayed in this place unable to move or do anything. Weak and starving, she gathered up her last bit of strength and hung herself on a low board (havent really worked out the details on that scence bc i keep changing my mind but she does hang herself). Cut to a space of nothingness- legit nothing- exactly its impossible to imagine nothing. In the nothing sits velvet all skin and bone, and then an entity, a hooded figure with long hair, sits next to her. No words are spoke, but the entity looks at velvet longingly. Then it tears out its eye- just full on plunges its hand into its socket and rips it out. bloody mess honestly. the entity hands its eye to velvet, and she takes it. there is no thoughts here, no sound, only actions. Cut once more to a coriners room place? ya know the place with dead bodies and tables and shit- anyways a bright light emerges from dead!vevlets chest and surrounds her entire body. *cue stunned doctor mans* Velvet arises from her death with her scars healed over and... wings. Yup shes an angel now. I mean her world already had monsters and things of suppernatural belonging but- angels are rare. She makes 1 of 2 angels in their relam as of current. Angels are "made" from regrets. Regret overflowing from two sources- one long dead and the other recent. This is where ethan comes in. Ethan's regret from how he died was powerful and sad, powerful enough for his spirt- an entity- to reach Velvets. Velvet too, had much regret in her death. So young and so many things that could have been avoided. In the days following up to her death in the barn/cellar she only felt regret. Regret for all she did and all she didnt do. So much pain summoned the entity. Their powerful forces of regret pulled them together and allowed Velvet to return- but at a price for the both of them. the entity lost its eye- symbolizing a loss of humanity and conscientiousness. While Velvet lost herself, she no longer can view her world in the same way. She has severe ptsd- like episodes and halucinations. She cant go back, she has to live through he own grief. Velvets appearnace also changes quite a bit. Her hair got longer, she has two sleek gray wings on her back, and- one of her eyes are purple now. why does it hrut her to see that eye? why is it all so familiar yet far away. Her human brain can hardly understand all the changes. But she was gifted this- she knows she must try. And luckily for her society sees angels as higher beings. They are given the umost respect but they are also greatly feared because of how misterious their origins are. The only other known angel meets with velvet quite alot through her story, he will act as a sort of guide/plot device to make things a bit easier for myself (havent worked out his lore tho or even a design for him hjbfkjsdb). Anyways im tired and its 1:35 am so thats all the lore you get for now, plus its the stuff ive thought about the most so- i dont really want to think any furtherb ahead yet lol. to many little things to work out...... i love creating but oml typing hurts after an hour or so-

Jam out!

... I don't even know what to say to this

[2sunchild2]

Daminette God au

@ozmav I hope this makes up for the angst?

@mindfulmagics I think we talked about this like, two...three (?) weeks ago

@starry-bi-sky here’s the bulletpoint list uwu

Basically this universe, but they’re gods

The kwamis are called ‘The Council’ why? Bc I want it to. They’re like the ancient beings of the universe and all that Jazz gave the lesser gods a planet which is now earth. Fun.

Tikki is the ancient goddess of life. Ancient meaning she was there since the beginning of time. Same goes for the others.

No successor things bc I can only tolerate it so much. And if it did happen people would call Lila out quickly

I have roles for all of them yay

Adrien is the god of the sun, Chloe is the goddess of the stars (ilysm) and Luka is the god of the moon (my boo) (I’ll explain why he’s not god of music)

Rose is the goddess of flowers (I know I’m funny), juleka is the goddess of shadows (think Dr facilier from princess and the frog. What that shadow) she likes to scare people

Nathaniel and Marc, gods of art. One of visual art, the other of writing, take a wild guess on who’s who

Sabrina goddess of loyalty. nuff said

Kagami, one of the two gods of war. Also the goddess of discipline and battle strategy. (Ily bae)

Max god of strategy (not battle but other things), and intelligence

Kim god of competition

Alix goddess of time and speed

Ondine goddess of the sea

Mireille goddess of dreams and Aurore goddess of the weather

Jagged is the god of music. Don’t argue w/ me on this. Penny is the goddess of organization

Sabine goddess of motherhood, Tom god of youth (he has a youthful personality so it fits)

Idk for Ivan and mylene

Alya is a messenger goddess

Nino can be god of protection or something 🐢

Lila is the goddess of lies, treachery and mischief (seems fitting no?)

Marinette is the goddess of love (bby ilysm 💞) Why bc I said so. Everyone is at least slightly attracted to her.

Damian is the god of war and vengeance (you see where I’m going with this right) no one really likes him bc he’s always brooding and angry

Jason is the god of death bc he died that one time (that is such an inappropriate joke I’m so sorry)

Tim can be like god of alchemy or something (I need to preserving creating juice)

Dick is god of misfortune despite being so smiley (he likes to annoy people)

Too many gods atm

Y’all can add the quantic kids

Lila loathes Damian for always shutting down her lies

Marinette likes to chat with aurore and mireille on clouds. Luka and Chloe join when they can, Adrien is too shy

Tikki took a liking to marinette and gave her the gift of creativity. She’s still the goddess of love, now she can help the humans with their gifts to their loved ones

Adrien really likes Mari

So does Damian

And maybe Kim but then the boy is like nah we’re like sibling it’d be weird. Still gushes when she does cute things

Jason and Dick are the most annoying out of the batfam like dick if you wanna do your job do it right and Jason stop slacking off war isn’t fun is nobody’s dying

Marinette sometimes joins Chloe and Luka when they do the night thing bc there are couples who want a romantic night setting

Lila wants to be on marinette’s good side bc if she isn’t then she’ll have to face Damian

Marinette genuinely likes everyone. She, however, does not like being lied to. Lila tried to be careful

Kagami and Mari get along surprisingly well. People are weirded out when Chloe joins them too.

Alya and Mari aren’t as close as they are in canon but they’re still nice to one another and have picnics every other Sunday afternoon

Very protective Damian

Mari likes to make him flower crowns

She once gave Adrien her lucky charm bracelet to help him ask his crush out. He turned red and ran away. She’s never been more confused in her life

Ondine likes to dump bucketloads of water on Kim out of nowhere

Sabrina gets mad when people break their loyalty to their friends, lovers, etc. She goes on rampages

Alya has wings, Nino has a shield on his back

The gods like drinking a lot of alcohol. They also like this weird honey beverage.

Marinette once made Tim a friendship bracelet. It was pink and had his name embroidered in it. She thought he didn’t like it and he told her to fuck off and that he’s gonna wear it forever.

Jason got lowkey jealous but he got a ‘best brother of the year’ mug and a pink bracelet with his own name.

[scoopsgf]

hi beedee! my allergies are acting up today so that’s fun but honestly like even tho it’s raining and i feel like shit somehow i’ve been so happy today just like abt humanity and people like oh my gosh we really just existed and created and created and created some more, like art and music and literature and technology is all just stuff we!! came up with!! in our funky little heads!! and sometimes we’re mean to each other but other times we’re kind and i just- i just can’t articulate why exactly that makes me so glad to be alive but it does! so i thought i’d share it in case you need it bc this week has been tough but for whatever reason i’m feeling like maybe tomorrow will be better and for now that is enough for me, okay i’ll stop rambling, don’t forget to drink some water ily <33

oh my god i get so happy whenever I get an ask from you 🥺 it makes me so happy to hear that you’re happy?! ive actually had a pretty good day too despite the dreary weather!! i wrote for a while and now im chilling and watching TV, and it’s just been. hmm just a very much needed day of peace and calm. anyway YOU’RE SO SWEET I LOVE THESE GOOD DAYS FOR US!!! I hope the rest of your night is amazing!! <3

[wexhappyxfew]

Ho Shannon! I’d love for you to make a post about your writing process; if there’s something that you struggle with while writing, if sometimes you find yourself writing just because “you have to” and not because you feel like it, or on the countrary if you ever have your head full of ideas but can’t put it into words! (Always happens to me, that’s why I’m asking, ha!) I mean, tell us how you cope with all the struggles! I love that you’re so passionate about your own writing 💛 ily!

Hello!! Thank you so much for your question, I am so excited to answer it!! :) 

WRITING PROCESS

So just to start off simply with my writing process, when I start getting the feel for a book that I want to write or something that I want to play off, I get very into, very quickly, and I start writing little one or two sentence notes of dialogue or topics I want to pinpoint and soon enough I have notes that are FILLED with things!! And my writing process in general is a very loose one. I write when I want, I don’t have a plan in mind, more of just little things about my characters, where I want the plot to go, character dynamics things like that. But something that works best, is no promises to myself in the beginning, because I can guarantee that I’m not going to be kept on the path I choose in the beginning! I just write and see what happens because for me, personally, it turns out better for me because I just let the flow of writing carry me! 

Now to your questions!! 

Something I struggle with while writing is making sure that I continue to write like I did throughout the story and that I keep it consistent and that I stay true to my characters and their thought process and such. I tend to go off track and get distracted by things, easily really, and then I lose focus and start writing something I wouldn’t. I’m also hard on myself if you can believe it :( i’m just a perfectionist though, so I want everything to be the best it can be, even though it won’t always be perfect, but I try to the best of my ability. 

There are days where I find myself forcing myself to write just because I know if I don’t, I won’t ever get through the rough patch I’m in. So some of the things I do are play playlists of like soft rock, or gentle calming music and I immediately find myself drawn into the writing mood. Other times, I tell myself, you know what, don’t write, do what you want, that sorta mentality, because my writing for me is just for fun and I don’t want to stress myself out over simply just writing because then it wouldn’t be fun anymore and I’d feel that would suck :( Something else I do is look at quotes, about life and stuff and I feel the inspirational juices in my brain start flowing and immediately find myself drawn in - as you can tell, I easily draw myself into the context of writing LOL 

Now on the opposite side, I have more days filled with all the ideas and the inability to write it the way I want or fear I’ll forget what I initially wanted to write and I get overwhelmed. I then use notes, to write down topics or sentences or phrases just so I have something to look back on and just have there for myself as I write, which usually helps me remember most of the time. 

AW THANKS! I am super passionate about my writing because it has been such a good thing for my mental health especially in quarantine I feel because I can express myself through an art that is just words on a page. I can evoke emotions and feelings in people through words and I find that so amazing!! So thank you!!

I feel the most prevalent thing about my writing is that I do it for fun and if it doesn’t feel fun anymore, I know there’s an issue. I always find writing so much fun, so when I recognize myself getting into different moods where I don’t want to write, I have to stop and rethink. It helps!! And taking my time!! If I don’t feel ready for an update, I tell myself I’m not ready and I take all the time I need for it, and tell myself I’m doing this for me, for myself. Because that’s what matters - if you like your story, that’s all that matters. I feel that’s the biggest part of writing, if you love your story, that’s the best part. You control your story and no one else. 

Sometimes I’ll see comments on my stories, like your character should’ve done this, like that’s not their character or they’ll be telling me everything I’m doing wrong when I’m just trying my best?? And it just gets me down sometimes, because I do as much research as I can and I truly try my best, so I try not to let it get to me, but sometimes I can’t help but feel bad about it, like I messed up when I’m just trying my best and writing a story. That’s definitely something that gets in my mind a lot. And when people start telling me what my characters should do in comments, I get a bit peeved if I’m honest, because it’s my characters, not theirs and a writer knows their characters the best, they’re like children to us. I usually answer back kindly just saying that this is what the character in my head would’ve done, things like that. But it sucks sometimes and I know it shouldn’t be a big deal, but to have people tell me to do certain things that are out of character just bothers me because I know my character like my own child :) never let anyone say something to sway your decision. Always do what you feel is best for you for your story. 

And reach out to people!! I know people are always willing to give such good suggestions for stories and such good advice, even on the littlest things like character development and such! I always support the whole writers supporting writers thing - they may not know your character but they know things about writing that can help you expand so much and can give such great ideas and helpful tips! Writers are friends - great ones at that!! <3 

And something I want to talk about, just a helpful little tip I’ve learned about while writing like I have, is simply writing with the flow of things. Let me give you an example: 

The silent soldier sat with a loose fitting white shirt, that had some holes in it - it must've been the PT shirt guys wore underneath, and he had dirty OD bottoms on, with socked feet. His eyes had dark circles that surrounded his eyelids, and his eyes seemed emotionless, like a dark gate was pushed over them, concealing each and every emotion that was inside, back and away from sight. His eyebrows were slack, relaxed, but the stress lines around it showed. He was young and he already had the stress marks of a 30 year old. His lips had cuts in certain areas and his cheek had a tiny scar, from the war, Hazel assumed. His dark brown hair was greasy, he hadn't showered in a while and the stubble along his face was unkempt - but this was the war taking over a human life form, not a soldier of war.

This is from Chapter 7 of Ad Astra Per Aspera called The Silent Soldier. Something I like to do in my writing, is use description to my advantage as well as emotions. I’m actually creating a post about emotions specifically associated with The Soldier of Stars because I really talk about how I want emotions to really show whether they are happy or sad, I feel it is important :) 

I really like to go in depth, and describe the external figure or topic I’m discussing like “ his eyes had dark circles that surrounded his eyelids and his eyes seemed emotionless “ as the external description. Then I move into internal, based off emotions “ like a dark gate was pushed over them, concealing each and every emotion that was inside, back and away from sight.” I feel writing it like this, expands on that external feeling with an internal feeling as well, I’ve always liked using this concept. 

By the end, I usually relate it to the overall concept, something in this case that has to do with the impending war that has caused all this “ but this was the war taking over a human life form, not a soldier of war.” In the way I use it, I talk about as if there is this alien species taking over a human; in this sense it is something turning from a human to something that was that of a human-like form. By then ending it with ‘a soldier of war’, a soldier of war gives the idea of that perfect soldier on those posters of the war, and the previous description gives the complete opposite of the harsh reality and that’s what I hoped to portray!! If that makes sense though :) 

I hope this helped!! My inbox is always open, and feel free to ask ANY questions you ever have, I will always answer to help anyone and give any of my insights that I have!! I know writing can be stressful sometimes so if I can do anything to help I am always glad!! Thank you sm for the ask and I really hoped this helped!!

[addytheheartbreaker]

Fun facts about me/persona

•I'm a Filipino, a proud Filipino!

•My birthday is on June 12, zodiac sign Gemini.

•Suffers in a mental disorder; Borderline Personality Disorder.

•I loved everything involves "Duality", "two-faces", "Opposite elements", "Borderline" and anything with dual personalities (example: Good-Evil, Sweet-Salty, Angel-Demon, Good-Bad, Black-White).

•Fond of fashion, my main favorites are Yami-Kawaii, Lolita dresses, Ballerina dresses, Mask designs, Military uniforms, School uniforms and Filipino traditional clothing.

•favorite color Pink (depends on what shade that I am fond of), Blue (any shades), Black and White, and Red. However, Red is formally my old childhood favorite color but change it into Pink today because it is lighter then Red. Yet Red and Pink makes it a good combination.

•I am a fan of many anime, cartoons, songs and stories which makes me a creative and imaginative artist-author.

•been interest in drawing since I was about either 6 or 8 years old. Inspired by my cousin who likes drawing.

•started writing at age 13, I also owned many novels in notebooks. Unfortunately, I cancelled them except 3 complete novals.

•Owned Facebook, Pinterest, Wattpad and Tumblr.

•I collect my drawings (which is paper) inside 4 boxes which has been precious to me since childhood, jewelry contains diamonds, necklace, bracelets, rings, stones, ribbons, and 1 long locks of hair that has been cut.

•When you look at my persona my hair is very long. Its true my hair IS very long. I don't care what they say about my hair.

•If anyone asked me to cut my hair, I'll go cold shoulder or sarcastically respond.

•If anyone asked me which favorite food I like... Um correction What "favorite food"? There are alots of class foods in my opinion (example: pastry, dessert, appetizer Filipino food, theme or holiday food, type of soup, favorite flavor, etc).

•I loved RP with someone but sometimes I can be shy or confident depends what theme of RP I am into.

•I have a confession that I have many fictional crushes since childhood till today. And I still remember them!

•my first fictional crush is Andy Law from the game called "Crazy Flasher".

•I owned 3 stuff animals. A white bunny, a big white bear with a heart holding and a white-orange cat with a cat voice box inside. I loved stuff animals that is very soft and squishy also I like the stuff animal in white fur.

•my Chinese animal is the Snake. My favorite type of snake is a Anaconda, because it is huge and likes to swim. Accurately, I like to be on a cold place.

•Living in the Philippines is overreacting hot like no joke. This is why I like to go somewhere cold.

•My drawing are inspired by a game "Danganronpa", "Homestuck", "Undertale" and some favorite artist.

•I like Doll because it defined myself about my struggles and it is a "Dual" object representation.

•I can sing but not really good at it. I only sing something easy, sometimes I loved to sing lullabies or humming lullabies. My lullaby is "Ili ili tulog anay" (a Filipino lullaby) and "Moonstone" (my own song).

•I hate Gold so much it because I had no idea how I got into me but I loved Silver more then Gold. But I already have a reason on how I view Gold.

Gold is a traditional mineral in history, being recognized by everyone in the word. However, gold can make people greedy, worship and wanted to have it, I considered Gold a Sin. I worship and fond of Silver is because it is clear and clean while Gold is bright but dirty, Silver is the moon and water while Gold is the sun and fire.

•My favorite animal is a cute bunny and a dangerous anaconda. I can't choose 1 favorite animal and wanted them together is because I like anything duality (example: bunny- fragile, shy, soft, kind and submissive. Anaconda- dangerous, cold, predators, fierce and dominant)

•you guys may be saw me a innocent person but I always hide some naughty secrets behind the back of my head. (Don't shoot me...)

•My hobbies are drawing, writting, dancing, shop watching (like going at the mall and admired the product, what is it even called?), watching or listening on YouTube, sleeping and RP with the person I always RP with.

•My favorite flowers are Roses (pink, red and white), Poppy flowers, Cherry blossoms, Adonis flowers and White angel flowers.

•I am symbolize the angel-demon hybrid.

•I played games and I haven't played any games for a very long time.

•My OC's that I have created are my family. Weirdly all of them that I refer them as my soul brother and soul sister, because I create them as my family I deeply adore so much.

•My current anime/cartoon/TV series/games are The Masked Singer, Hetalia, Houseki no Kuni, Steven Universe, Detroit Become Human, Ace Attorney, Fnaf, Fran Bow, The Liar Princess and the Blind Prince, Little nightmare and Rwby.

•I hated when everyone misspelled and mispronounced my name (both my real name and nickname) it is annoying and irritating to correct them. I prefer my nick name Addy because my real name make people confused.

•My codename Heartbreaker. I was the one called myself Heartbreaker since I was 13-14 years old. Because Heartbreaker is someone who has a broken heart with a dark past. I have no idea there is another meaning of Heartbreaker.

•I basically like any type of music, but my favorite music is classical, rock, pop, lullaby, RnB and dubstep.

•I have a birthmark on my left wrist that is red marks, they often asked if I am allergic or sick. Its a birthmark alright!

•I have 3 scars, 2 is a small invisible scar (one on my forehead and the other at my chin) and a big, dark scar on my left knee that I trip on the road.

•My teeth are actually yellow because I don't brush my teeth its because I am too lazy to brush my teeth. I know it may be disgusting and unhealthy but I don't mind.

•I have a abnormal tooth from the right fang tooth. (Look at the monster form Addy where her monster sharp tooth on her right is not in perfect angle).

•My right thumb is rounded long while my other nail are rounded clean. Because it will remind me of my childhood.

•Bad habits of ripping off skin on my nails, lips and toes, always forgotten, always forgot what time or day it is and money spree.

•I have trust issues both public or here on tumblr. I am very careful to the person and read information of them before befriending them.

•the only way to gained my trust and friendship is patience, show me what you like, dislike and interest, and be nice to me.

•i am left-handed, even though I am left-handed I am so confused and frustrated into why does everyone surprised or shock about me as a left-handed person.

[ssfoc]

Do you think Harries hate on other boys and trying to make it look like they hate him because boys don't treat him like God? Harries have this perfect het image of him in their heads. Future legend and all when the boys have known him since he was just a Cheshire lad running around in a golden thong and this is how they treat him? Like when everyone was so in awe of his album and they're like "I'm not surprised. It's Harry" This is the only explanation I can find for them acting like this.

2/2 That's not me hating on Harry of course. I love Harry but not really fond of people thinking he can do no wrong. Like when they think he doesn't smoke or get high or that he's always nice when we have proof of him being petty and salty many times. He's just human. They put too much pressure on him.

••••••

Hahaha, golden thong!!! ILY.

UO, I think 1DHQ and Harry’s team create and encourage Harries like these.

They encourage them by allowing stalkers to gain access to exclusive events like the NOVA Red Room. People who do extreme things aren’t punished but are rewarded. The woman who grabbed Harry’s crotch when he gave the concert in Los Angeles was reportedly one of these stalkers who had met him multiple times.

Harries who tweet ugly things about the other boys (but especially Louis) get follows and likes from @Harry.

It’s exacerbated when Harry says, “My wonderful friends” instead of just saying “One Direction.” It’s exacerbated when Harry doesn’t tweet #8yearsofOneDirection, and in his tweet thanks only fans, one day late.

It’s exacerbated by a team that uses insider connections to get exclusive, hard-to-attain status (Rolling Stone cover before any solo music was actually released) but won’t do the hard work to build a real fanbase, instead relying on old tactics like beards, sexist jokes, and a song about a one-night stand to perpetuate an ill-fitting image.

One feels that Harry is conflicted with this image as well. On his own Instagram, there is a conflict of feelings. He chose images that challenge his team’s narrative.

With children.

Hidden by avocados, which Urban Dictionary defines as a gay man who seems heterosexual.

Awkwardly embracing the person who made his solo image.

Challenging his aggressively sexual image by being petulantly, aggressively sexual.

I was sad when Harry went silent on social media, because salty, acerbic Harry is So. Much. Fun. But the kind of godlike status you describe is so much fucking pressure, it’s unreal. I see how he has to cut himself off from the world just to live a real life.

Harry isn’t a boy. He’s a man. He employed hundreds of people on tour and he was and is around all types of people. He lives in a world where superficial beauty is highly prized, industry status can change on a dime, and mental health is not good. This fragile image encourages worship by a small portion of his fanbase, but turns away a lot of people who might otherwise appreciate him. It perpetuates the myth that his music is only for girls who want to sleep with him.

Sigh. It’s Harry’s life and he’ll figure out what he wants to do with it. He has a lot going for him at the moment. Let’s see what happens.

[omoghouls]

Okay weird question but I've been enjoying your content from afar for some times now BUT WHAT BAND OR WHATNOT ARE YOU WRITING FANDOM PIECES OF because now I'm kinda curious and want to know more about these characters and get to know them outside of piss because you write the characters really well and now I just,,,, I gotta know what they're like and why you like them so much omg,,,,,,

*softly cracks knuckles* Nonny you have opened a can of worms

So! The band I write about is called Ghost. Ghost is a swedish rock/metal band that is really theatrical! Meaning that, it isnt the actual singer or musician on stage , but rather, their personas, all cloaked in mask that hide their true identity(like, their are people behind those mask but, no one knows who they are!).

The plot (yes, there is a plot/lore to this band, not a lot of canonical but a good amount!) is basically; a chruch of Satan wanted to bring in more people into their chruch and cause so, they decided the best thing was to create a project that would hopefully bring in the people, that project being the Ghost Project; a band formed by the current leader of the church and their nameless ghouls (I'll get into them in a hot sec).

Before 2018 there were three leaders for the Ghost Project, all coming from the Emeritus line They were all the Papa's/Pope's of the chruch and the singers for Ghost. (fact; all three Emeritus and Cardinal Copia are played by the same man, each character has custom mask as to distinguish each character).

Papa Emeritus I was the first to start the band:

He was very old, but had some spunk, bringing curiousty to the cause. Kinda like baby giraffe on stage, timid in a sense, probably really nice. He was the singer for a while. Eventually they called for the next in the bloodline,

Papa Emeritus 2 comes into the scene:

Now he brings a l ot more attention for the project, people are taken by this Papa, he has a certain charisma that the previous Papa didnt quite have. He's a bit more cynical in nature, with scowl on his face bit dont let this fool you, this man loves to party and have harems. He had a very good run but eventually it was time to pass the role to the youngest Emeritus

Papa Emeritus 3:

He's young, spunky and a lover of memes, what's not to love about this flirty, filthy bastard? Papa 3 is the youngest and last of the Emeritus protge. He has people fawning over him, he ditches solely wearing his Papal robes on stage and dawns a more snazzy,hip outfit!

However, with all good things, there comes an end. And of course, the Emeritus bloodline had its ending with Papa 3. When Papa 3's time was up with all three of the Emeritus brother were """"Mysteriously""""" killed (by their father and head Sister)

But, what does that mean for the band? For the church???

😎 in comes our beloved Rat man

Cardinal Copia! Wait- a Cardinal? Not a Papa?? Well, our dear Copia has to work very hard in order to become Papa, since he isnt part of the bloodline! (and he seems to be a very good, hardworking, slightly flirty Cardinal, albeit an anxious, awkward mess of a human when around others) Currently, Copia is under the guide of the eldest in the chruch, the father of the three Emeritus brother; Grandpapa Nihil (soft, satanic old man, loves his wife and needs an oxygen tank, yet plays a saxophone)

Only time can tell with what happens to Copia (so far, he seems to be rising fairly quick, maybe someday we will have a Papa Copia♡)

Now,,,, Ghouls, ghouls are demons that play the musical instruments for the band! They are all silent (save for backup vocals) and use body language to speak and display their personalities!

Ghouls have many appearances!

(These being the ghoul appearances for each Emeritus!)

The ghouls that I primarily write about are the ghouls of Cardinal Copia♡

I have an entire post explaining which ghoul is which + a vauge about their personalities

http://omoghouls.tumblr.com/post/182662602174/bunny-please-help-i-love-your-ghost-fics-but-i

Okay this is getting ridiculous long and you're probably bored to tears but I s2g I'll stop soon

As for why I like this band so much? Well, first and foremost, it's my Special Interest😂❤

But also its fictional in a sense, a theatrical band, where there are characters, ones you can project upon, watch grow and see how they act. Also, I'm an absolute sluuut for the whole religious aesthetics, add satanism and darker themes and I'm sold.

And it's just, really fun to write for these characters, a sense of thrill yet comfort for writing for these characters

I highly recommend listening to this band if you want (Square Hammer and Rats are really good songs to start with, both are bops!)

Holy shit-this got very rambly and incoherent, but, yeah- 😂😂 Hope this makes at least a lick of sense for you nonny!! Ily💖💖💖💖💖

[enkindl3d]

CHARACTER INTERVIEW

BASICS  !

NAME .   John-Paul (given to him thanks to the nuns from the orphanage which means ‘gift of God’)  NICKNAME .  Jo  AGE .  Appears to be 20 yearsold but in reality he’s a couple of hundred years old GENDER .   Male SPECIES .  Witch

PERSONAL  !

MORALITY . lawful / chaotic / good / neutral / evil / true RELIGION .  He was brought up Catholic but he never truly followed it. SINS .  greed / gluttony / sloth / lust / pride / envy / wrath VIRTUES .  chastity / charity / diligence / humility /kindness / patience / justice KNOWN LANGUAGES . English, Korean, French SECRETS . He believes (and many others do too) that he is nothing but a simple hedge witch who caters to plants and all nature with an aptitude to creating medicine and potions for all intents and purposes using herbs, flowers the lot but really; Jo is something much darker and there is an untouched power in him that is dying to get out ready to consume him entirely.

PHYSICAL  !

BUILD .  scrawny / bony / slender / fit / athletic / curvy / herculean / pudgy / average HEIGHT .  5′10 SCARS  /  BIRTHMARKS . He’s got a triangular birthmark on the inside of his left wrist. It’s small and easily missed but if someone were to really look, they will see it. In this verse, witches all have a certain birthmark that shows what kind of witch they are. The triangle is unknown.  ABILITIES  /  POWERS . Other than his extensive knowledge (thanks to living for years and years) on potion and medicine making, Jo can conjure simple things but always with the help of his spell books. He can easily teleport from vast distances, he can revive dead plants which he  can extend to reviving small animals and communicate with the spirits.  RESTRICTIONS .  Jo’s biggest restriction is himself. He believes that hat he can do now is what he can only do. He doesn’t push himself to do anything further because he found that when he does; such as doing big spells by himself with or without a spell book, or reviving larger animals or a being, conjuring things; he passes out and doesn’t come around for days. This is due to him tapping onto the dark power within him which he is clueless about. 

FAVORITES !

FOOD .  Any meat that is roasted over the fire and dumpling stew. DRINK .  Herbal teas  PIZZA TOPPING .  Ham and pineapple COLOR .  He likes his dark reds and black MUSIC GENRE .  His music preferences varies due to being on Earth for so long but he does enjoy The Beatles quite a lot.  BOOK GENRE .   He has a large number of books in his home which are all about spells, medicine and also a couple of history books on witches like the Salem witches, magical beings on demons and faes, necromancy. He also has the complete collection of the Harry Potter series as he finds amusement with how humans view witches. MOVIE GENRE .  He enjoys any fantasy type movies just so he can dismiss the many wrong portrayals of magical beings. CURSE WORD .  "Damn” SCENTS .  Minty scents and the rain

FUN STUFF  !

BOTTOM OR TOP . He’s a switch but he prefers to be more bottom than anything SINGS IN THE SHOWER .  He’s not big on singing but he does hum from time to time LIKES PUNS .  Oh he loves puns.

tagged by : @intergalacticxmisfits (( thank you for tagging me in so many things bb i enjoy doing them so much ily

tagging : @minxygi @izbrane @somecrazylads @epigrvm

[jinwoowoohoo]

@cha-eunwoow and @sanhatation hit me with that x2 tag combo (💖💕💞) I was gonna put them both in this post but it.... got very long... so I will split them up after all 😅

First up is a Kpop one from lovely Liv (hey girl I hope things are going better for you!!)

To anyone who genuinely reads through all of this bless your heart and ily

1) 5 favorite groups?

f(x), ASTRO, SHINee, Day6, Dreamcatcher

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

Lol I just did this, so: Amber, Jinjin, Onew, S.coups, Wonpil (though if we can double from groups my girl Luna would 100% be here)

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

f(x) - they were my first group and will forever be my ults. I just love how unique they are both as a group and each member individually! Every member shines so much in their own way and can absolutely stand as artists in their own right (and have been proving so with their solo projects the past 2+ years), and when they come together they create things that are so cool and beautiful and unique 💜 Honest to god after I sat down and listened to their whole discography on Spotify for the first time, I listened to nothing but them 8+ hrs a day, 7 days a week for almost a month I was so in love (i'm not exaggerating you can ask my roommate aldbaj) (SM please let us have f(4) again I would literally cry). That being said I also consider ASTRO and SHINee to be ults, and could write whole paragraphs for them as well 💕 

(but y’all please support my girls, Victoria put out a Chinese single and should be following with an album, Amber’s halfway through releasing videos for her mixtape & Luna is releasing 2 digital singles this coming week! Krystal has no musical projects atm but you can check out her dramas and modeling~)

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

My kpop origin story revolves around me coming across the Electric Shock mv in 2013 and being both in love with and absolutely floored by Amber. A girl? In a girl idol group? With short hair?? Who presents in a masculine way?? I couldn’t believe it was something the companies would let happen and it was so. I don't even know. But I knew it was really meaningful and important to me. 3 years later I actually fully listen to the group (honestly thank got I needed new music to listen to at work) and I finally learned her name - Amber Liu. I'm someone who id's as nonbinary, and I've really struggled with my perceived femininity my whole life - its something I'm still working through. When I saw Amber, a person working in a very gender stereotype-heavy industry and culture, being able to present in the way she's comfortable and standing up for the rights of others to do the same, it just really touched me on a deep personal level. Even though I know she id's as cishet she still has done a lot for those of us that don't, and I'm sooo insanely proud of her for sticking to her guns and choosing to live her truth through all of the hell people have given and continue to give her for it. Not only has she stuck it to the haters by prospering, but she's taken her experiences and her talents and made them into absolutely beautiful works of art. 

She uses her music to express her feelings and talk about her struggles, and the fact that her work is so personal and has so much of her in it also means a lot to me (please listen to Borders, Need to Feel Needed, Beautiful, Heights, and this cover of One More Light NOTE: if self harm is a bad topic for you, maybe skip One More Light and the Borders mv (the song is fine and ultimately uplifting, and the mv does end happily). She has worked so. damn. hard. to pursue her dreams and passions, often having to rely on just herself and her friends to work when SM just straight up refuses to do their JOB as her MANAGEMENT COMPANY, and somehow she keeps doing it with that beautiful smile.

Aside from all the gooshy stuff, she’s just really goofy and fun (and attractive >>) AND she was born just 2 months before me so I feel there’s a connection (also my parents considered naming me Amber and she considered my name as a stage name??? #starcrossedlovers). Finally she has literally the cutest dog in the world please look at this picture and cry with me

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

lmaooo now that I’ve poured my heart out over Amber, lets look at the human meme that is Lee Taemin (i just picked one but my favorite meme is just. him.)

And a special shoutout to all of the rest of the SHINee memes, like I thought about linking just one but there are so many legendary classics how do you choose (I got to experience the burnt Gucci story in person though so a super special shoutout to that one)

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

I’ll do both my ults since this is my Astro blog but I’ve only talked about f(x) so far ;;;;;

For Amber, this picture has been my phone background for well over a year now so I guess this one?? It’s from the song festival when she and Ksuke debuted Breathe Again (many months before it’s official release) and she was just feeling herself so much during the performance (credit for the pic most likely goes to her fansite Ambossing)

As for Jinwoo adljasdfs I only have like 100 pics of him just on my phone this is fine I’m gonna pick this one, bc when he posted it I loved it so much I came very close to literally printing it out and framing it...... he just looks so happy!! And he’s being his most natural self, no hair/makeup, out with his family, doing something he loves. It just Warms My Heart

7)  Favorite Kpop MVs

Ok this is a whole can of worms, so I’ll try to limit it to just 10 I quite like?? (in no specific order)

1) Astro - Baby 2) VIXX - Error 3) Seventeen - Lilili Yabbay 4) SHINee - Boys Meet U 5) EXID - DDD 6) KNK - Rain (performance ver) 7) Oh My Girl - Closer  8) f(x) - Electric Shock 9) Crayon Pop - FM 10) Taemin - Saynoara Hitori (I know it was a Japanese release but ssssh I’m counting it WAIT HECK i just realized Boys Meet U was a Japanese release too asdlfjasf welp) 

Also shoutout to this cover Dreamcatcher did of Maroon 5′s Lucky Strike

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

I don’t have a single specific one, there are so many quality compilations (I have watched a surprising number of Seventeen as Vines videos though lmao) 

10) Favorite content creator(s) within the fandom?

All Aroha are super talented ok, If I listed everyone that came to mind we’d be here for longer than anyone needs to be....

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

the only fandom I’m fully in that’s  been active in Korea the past year is Astro :’) But that’s well enough, I really do love this community!

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

omg no why

F-Jinjin asldfjasdf

M-Amber

K- Onew..... no this is wrong :< I’m changing the k from kill to kiss ok? ok.

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Honestly probably Luna - she is one of the single most uplifting people in the world and she’s always ready for a good time! Queen of self love!

14) If you could date any idol, who?

I would never want to date an idol unless they were no longer/never an idol - trying to date around the antis and media would just be way too stressful on its own, plus the idol would be so busy all the time you’d barely get to see each other anyway

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

SHINee - Married to the Music

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

yes (depends on the idol)

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Yoon Sanha, my soft noodle, my potato son

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

@ Park Jaehyung meet me behind the Taco Bell at midnight

19) Favorite vocalist?

MJ/Luna/Onew

20) Favorite Rapper?

I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately and I’m honestly not sure??? Some contenders are Rocky and LE though

21) Favorite dancer?

sdflajsfadsf why must you hurt me in this way I’ll say Taemin because he really puts a lot of thought and self into his dance, and he’s actively trying to create change in the way the industry thinks about gender and dance

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

I think I pretty much touched on all that with Amber, so for Jinjin we both love dogs and like the drums, we can be quick to smile, we try to lead in an understanding/accommodating way rather than a total authoritarian way, we do That Face™ when someone is pushing our buttons lol

23) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

Kindness and an open mind

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

how....long do you want to be here adsflj I will say the song that gets me jamming the MOST at work is N.Flying - Hot Potato

25) Your worst wrecker?

I’m here today to talk to you about a dangerously beautiful man named Kim Myungjun

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I saw SHINee in Dallas with my bff in 2017, then I went to Astro in DC all by my lonesome this past February! (so I just need to see f(x) and I’ll have gone to all 3 ult groups) Also fun fact my good friend @jinjins-freckles was also at those two concerts, but we didn’t know each other yet for the SHINee one - funny how things work out~

27) Favorite choreo?

THIS. THIS IS THE HARDEST QUESTION. I CAN’T. IMPOSSIBLE. I’m not even gonna try and list some.... theres.... too many;;;;

28) Favorite live performance?

ok look first of all, you come into MY house, and ask me to pick ONE performance adslfj I’ll say SHINee’s Woof Woof bc I was absolutely obsessed with it after I discovered it, its just so fun and goofy but also bops hard as heck??? Legends Only

29) Favorite debut mv?

Hide & Seek cleared my skin watered my crops and gave me a lil smooch on the forehead

30) Recommend a rookie group

Dreamcatcher!!! They’re having a comeback in May please support our goth goddesses

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Astro - Puss n Boots

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

Since she’s tagged me a few times lately I’ll tag @myunghjun (and that’s it asdlj if you read all the way to the end consider yourself tagged too ok ily)

[post-bronze-medals]

PJO AU

Hi! I posted awhile ago that I have a Percy Jackson AU for Yuri on Ice! in my head and I thought I would finally get around to typing it all out. Super thanks to @forovnix​ for not telling me to piss off when I sent her most of this drunk off my face and for encouraging me. Jus, you’re the best, ily a lot. Also I heard through the grapevine that her and @actualyuuri​ are writing one together, which was the whole inspiration for this universe I have thought up, so I am crediting them too ;) . It is very long - so I will put it under the cut!

Let us begin with...

THE CHARACTERS

Yuuri

CHILD OF: Hecate

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Magic - specialism in spiritual and shielding; Mist control; Astral Projection into the lives of other Demigods and godly beings; Dance is his primary spell casting method.

BACKSTORY: After Hiroko had Mari, she found her womb was too damaged to bear another child. Wanting another child, they tried everything from medicine to, eventually, prayer. The only one who answered was Hecate, who was a distant relative of Toshiya from many generations ago. And with a little divine interference, Yuuri was made from three parents.

Yuuri’s eyes go gold when he uses his powers, a throwback to Kronos that Hecate thinks is kind of adorable. Zeus banned visiting their godly children back after WWII, but he can only really control what happens in the US, as it is the current seat of Olympian (and Roman) power. As such, Hecate has visited Yuuri four times a year since he was a baby, and drops in on him occasionally for a few hours at other times too.

Viktor

CHILD OF: Persephone

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Control of flowers and plant life - especially creating and killing them; Strengthen harvests in the early stages (springtime); Talented at poison creation; Spreads poison through his flowers (airborne) and generally though touch.

BACKSTORY: Victor’s mother had zero need or desire for a husband, partner or indeed, physical sex. She, being somewhat dramatic, prayed to Persephone in a ritual handed down from mother to daughter for generations but generally regarded as a bit. Persephone, bored and wanting to create some life in the world, agreed to help her conceive a child with her as the other mother. She however, recalling how much Hades’ indiscretions had hurt her, told him about her plans beforehand, and Hades’ was absolutely fine with it. He knew he had no room to talk about extra-marital children and he loved his wife a great deal. Something that came of her would surely be only a good force in the world.  

Victor has his human mother’s silver hair, and his godly mother’s eyes that cycled through colour according to the weather, the state of the plants around him and his mood. He settled on a teal he liked as his day to day eye colour, and controls himself to keep it that way. Persephone and Hades, taking advantage of the same loophole as Hecate regarding non-interference, bring him down to the underworld every so often. Hades is actually a very doting uncle and is immensely fond of Victor’s loving and giving nature. He teaches him about poisons and summons spirits Victor wants to talk to for a chat whenever he asks. Persephone loves him a lot as well, but in a more distant fashion. It was her that taught him French, and they like to sit together in the pomegranate orchard underground and read.

Yuri

CHILD OF: Apollo

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Graceful; Slight Precognition; Archery.

BACKSTORY: Yuri’s mum had a relationship with Apollo for two weeks, in which she could have sworn she was careful with condoms, but apparently not. Yuri was conceived and he left long before she found out or could tell him about it. The loss of the relationship didn’t really hit her hard, it was only really a fling to them both. She decided to have Yuri anyway, and once she recovered from the birth, she went straight back to work to earn money to support them all, leaving Yuri with his grandfather.

Yuri inherited his fathers colouring but his mother’s face. He also had Apollo’s artistic talents but enjoys dance the most, so generally ignored poetry and music - until he discovered hard rock at age 11. He is also a little precognitive, his instincts have got him away from more than one fight and also led him to the rink where Yakov took him on.  His mother doesn't care about his father’s absence but he kind of does, and really really hates the guy, whoever he is. Apollo never bothered to think of a loophole to the decree of non-interference and so never even tried to meet Yuri - he fairly quickly forgot about him and his mother when his newest conquest came around.

Otabek

CHILD OF: Thanatos

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Sense when someone is about to die and if it is their ‘time’; Gravitas; BACKSTORY: Otabek’s parents were cultists when they were younger, cultists in service of Thanatos. Although they settled down a bit when they were older, dropping most of their worship, Thanatos never forgot about them. He doesn't often get cults in his name! So when they were trying for a kid and it turned out his father was infertile, Thanatos helped out without even being requested.

Otabek’s parents love him a lot, as an unexpected and much appreciated surprise. After his birth they figured that it must have been some kind of divine interference and began to pray to Thanatos again. The god sometimes comes to chill out with Otabek and teach him how to use his senses. Unfortunately, his heritage makes him seem creepy af to non demigods. Yuri is his first true friend.

Christophe

CHILD OF: Cupid

PANTHEON: Roman

POWERS: See the truth of love - as threads binding people; Cause lust (orgies); Wings

BACKGROUND: Chris' dads are a very gay, very happy couple who are somewhat overdramatic (being theatre actors) but love with all their hearts. While performing in Paris they prayed they could have a child through their love and nine months later, Chris was dropped on their doorstep in Switzerland. Whether he is the child of all three parents, or of one of them and Cupid, or if he is adopted is unknown.

Chris is seriously loved by them, even though they definitely know something is up because he has large bird-like rose pink wings that show up every so often when he is excited and cannot control himself. His dad isn’t around often, it isn't his nature, but he leaves gifts for him whenever he is in Switzerland, so Christophe doesn't really mind. He has his parents either way!

Seunggil

CHILD OF: Athena

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Tactics/Strategy; Unshakeable calm

BACKSTORY: Seunggil has a single biologist father who had a one night stand with Athena when in the US for a conference. When he returned to S Korea, a son showed up on his doorstep and after confirming he was his son he rolled with it.

Seunggil was brought up as a scientist, to question everything, which only helps his sense of strategy. He is a calm person but if you rile him up utterly he completely loses it and is terrifying.He also is very interested in coding and technology. He never meets Athena and doesn’t care about it - his father barely knew the woman anyway. 

Phichit

CHILD OF: Venus

PANTHEON: Roman

POWERS: Charmspeaking; See love bonds

BACKGROUND: Phichit’s mothers are devotees to beautiful things, but most especially to dance. Venus saw them dancing and blessed them with a threesome in bed in exchange for them spending an evening dancing for her. Phichit was the result, as they found out several months later.

Phichit, like his mothers, loves beautiful things but prefers selfies and photography as his outlet, he is determined to capture the manmade and natural world in all its diverse beauty! Being able to charm people into doing what he wants means that he can be a little manipulative but he has a very strong moral code generally and would never hurt a friend.

Leo

CHILD OF: Morpheus

PANTHEON: Roman

POWERS: Send people to sleep; Influence dreams

BACKSTORY: Leo's dad has a very long and healthy relationship with Morpheus through his dream scape, where the bright colours of his artistic mind drew the sleepy god. They decided, after much deliberation, that they wanted a son as a sign of their love and to dote upon in the real world. Leo was conceived in a surrogate’s womb, but is of the two men’s DNA. Leo gets visited as regularly as possible by his godly dad in his dreams, as he is unable to leave the underworld to meet in person. He has never doubted that he is loved. He lives in Mexico with his dad but trains in the US / for the US when he gets his bracelet (more on that later)...

Guanghong

CHILD OF: Vesta

PANTHEON: Roman

POWERS: Fire, Constancy

BACKSTORY: Guanghong parents were unable to conceive and both being pure of heart, were blessed by Vesta so that they could have just one child. He doesn't see her often, but feels close to his godly mother when near a fire or a hearth. He is the emotional centre of his friend group and his sweet nature is pretty much never-ending, also he is asexual.

Mickey 

CHILD OF: Dionysus

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS:  Grape Control; Invoke Narcissism and other disorders involving delusion; Makes a party crazy fun when he feels like it (rarely).

BACKSTORY: Mickey and Sara’s mother is a single black mother from a big Italian family. Dionysus didn't want to test his father in Italy, although he probably would have been fine, and decided to leave the Crispinos alone ‘for their own safely’. They pair were raised by their grandmother and long extended family primarily as their mother works. Mickey is protective of Sara for multiple reasons that are Not a sister complex here.

Sara 

CHILD OF: Dionysus

PANTHEON: Greek

POWERS: Cause Maenad like madness with a touch; Make wine at will

BACKSTORY: Mickey and Sara’s mother is a single black mother from a big Italian family. Dionysus didn't want to test his father in Italy, although he probably would have been fine, and decided to leave the Crispinos alone ‘for their own safely’. They pair were raised by their grandmother and long extended family primarily as their mother works. Sara is very gay.

Mila 

CHILD OF: Venus

PANTHEON: Roman

POWERS: Create infatuations; Exceptional Beauty

BACKSTORY: Mila has a single father, who is a premier ballerino and remarried when Mila was seven. Mila was a typical Venus ‘one night of passion’ baby, who was dropped off with her father after her birth and then promptly ignored by her mother. She really likes her stepmum actually, who is a ballerina as well. Mila is very beautiful personally and also a dab hand at makeovers.

Phew - that is a lot! Dont worry, anything important will come up in the fic (if I ever write it...)

Now, onto the actual Plot...

THE PLOT

ARC 1: Yuuri begins to astral project as a child, while he is still learning to control his powers. Through his astral projection he meets the other demigod kids (the geographically closest first, then he ranges progressively further afield). He makes friends with them all and gets something of a crush on Victor, his skating idol (and pretty lovely guy when he gets to know him in person!) Monsters, able to smell their scent, are coming for them even though they aren't in America and everyone is pretty afraid. Yuuri, having the biggest heart,  decides to try to change that fact of demigod life at just age 11 and he is very very stubborn about it, asking all the gods of the underworld and all the friendly or neutral monsters he sees about it. He hurts himself a lot trying it, but after a year or so he managed to create a bracelet that holds in the demigod 'scent', making his friend safer. The bracelets have to be personalised to the specific powers of each child so the first one goes to Phichit (his first friend). Then he makes them all one as he meets each character in person, either posting them out or giving them at the novice and junior skating competitions he attends. The hardest to create was Victor’s, who as the first child of Persephone is very powerful. Yuuri ends up accidentally putting a piece of his Self into the bracelet as that is the strongest power he has. It is very dangerous but even after his upset mum Hecate told him what he had done, he could;t regret it. The life of his friend was the most important thing!

ARC 2: Aboveworld gods don't care for their kids by and large (see character notes above.). They often forget them as they are not under American jurisdiction and therefore won't fight battles for them. Only The underworld gods and those mentioned above really care. Even as they become friends at competitions and through Yuuri’s projections, the strain of the bracelets wears on yuuri and maybe eventually one bracelet snaps or becomes overwhelmed. No one blames Yuuri but Yuuri, they just didn't realise how tough it was to power the close shielding of their scent. They have to team up to defeat the monsters that come for them. There is a Big Battle Scene and despite their desperate prayer to the above world parents, none can help. The underworld ones do their best but it is the solstice - their absence would be noticed. The arc ends with them all being pseudo adopted by underworld gods.

ARC 3: They all decide fuck the above gods, they won't be beholden to them anymore. The decide to circumvent their monopoly on items such as nectar and ambrosia, in the process setting up in the Underworld and creating their own godly market/culture/empire for those who dont want to use Olympus. In the process, they make friends with or at least win respect from some monsters. who admire their chutzpah, and also their stylish fashion.

ARC 4: Camp Half-Blood need hep with something as of yet undefined ( a prophecy?). Nico knows Victor through the Hades/Persephone connection and also because of their underground empire. Hades favours Victor as an heir despite not being his son because of his love for Persephone and also his strong underworld connection through Yuuri, his boyfriend, who is also an immensely powerful son of the underground. Victor, having survived past his teens, is also very responsible and wise so is a generally good choice. The whole crew agree to visit the camp at Nico's request and to meet their siblings. Drama ensues...

Yes, There are elements not mentioned here (how do Victuuri get together? What about other pairings? What happens at Camp Half-Blood?) but hey, have to leave something for the actual fic. Hope this is interesting to you guys, I spent several weeks daydreaming this. Tell me your head canons if you want, what do you think about my godly parent decisions? I would love to chat about it. <3 <3 <3

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How We Are Staying Safe and Sane in the Age of Quarantine | Staff Article

As the days of quarantine due to the novel cornoavirus continue to pile up, it is all too easy to lose track of oneself, let alone what day of the week it is. This holds equally true for the Ones To Watch staff who currently find themselves under a lockdown in Los Angeles that is set to continue at least until the end of April. 

So, what exactly do we do when stuck at home for the foreseeable future? Play a lot of Animal Crossing and finally learn to cook with the leftovers in our freezer. This is how the Ones To Watch staff is staying safe and sane in the age of quarantine.

Island Escapism 

Animal Crossing: New Horizons could not have arrived at a better time. Amongst my friend group, the latest entry of the popular franchise is the first foray into the series for many of us, myself included. 

The part-life-simulator, part-resource-management game populated by adorable creatures gives a virtual space for us to visit each other’s houses, exchange clothes, and create our own a little oasis on a deserted island. It is the antithesis of the current state of the world. More than anything, this far too charming video game has served as a crucial bit of island life escapism in these uncertain times we currently find ourselves. I also now have the freedom to spend three hours making a rendition of the lofi hip-hop study girl in Animal Crossing, so there’s that.

-Maxamillion Polo

Cheez-Its, White Claw, and Home Decor

I don’t even know what day of quarantine we’re at anymore, but mine has consisted mostly of extra toasty Cheez-Its and the new flavors of White Claw (tangerine, ily). It’s been a hard health balance, because I feel like I’m working out more with all the IG Live-stream Hot 8 Yoga classes but the amount I’ve been boredom-eating has easily quadrupled. So… I’m over here being proud of myself for getting on my yoga mat, then quickly disappointed after my four Domino’s pizzas get delivered.

On a brighter note, I moved into a new house during the past two weeks! If you think about it, quarantine is probably the best possible time to move because you have no option but to unpack the 5,000 boxes staring at you as you turn on Animal Crossing. 

-Paige MacDonald

Anime and Virtual Connections

Anime. Lots of it. Recently "borrowed" my buddy's Hulu subscription and they have a ton of great ones. Currently rewatching Yu Yu Hakusho. What a classic. Aside from that, I recently bought Animal Crossing and that's always a chill time. OH! Lots of facetime. I actually call my friends like every 30 minutes. They hate it. But they love me so it's fine. Ah ha haaaaaaa. . .  Y'all ever just lie down in bed and wonder what your next show is going to be?

-Green Lee

Chopped: Quarantine Edition

Chopped: Quarantine Edition – how I now approach all meals during quarantine. Whether it’s using the ingredients in my cabinet that I would normally never touch or only having access to short ribs and Turbot because everything else is sold out during my weekly supermarket runs, I am definitely ramping up my culinary game. Watch out Le Cordon Bleu, you’ve got some tough competition.

-Hayley Henning

Foreign Films

Oh the age of social distancing, a time where we as humans are forced to confront the very real limits of our physical and mental capacity. While millions look for ways to better themselves in our newfound reality, I’ve decided to use my solitude to finally dive into the world of foreign film.

Gone are the days I limit my cinematic consumption to a single language. I shudder to think of the stories I have missed due to an unjustified aversion to subtitles. With humanity in a rare moment of global unity, what better time to engage with international narratives?

This quarantine season, I pledge to broaden my scope.

-Alec Wing

Waffles and TikTok Dances

With the world going on pause, and most of humanity taking time to stay in their homes and avoid the madness occurring, I’ve taken it upon myself to focus on becoming the best person I can. I’ve decided to master my chef skills without completely running through my quarantine stock. 

Some of my dishes include an ice cream waffle sandwich, bacon-wrapped sausage Links on a waffle, or anything that tastes good with waffles. I’ve also decided to start learning as many TikTok dances as possible to impress my peers when I’m back in the office. Stay safe. Stay wildin’. Wash ya hands kids and isolate.

-Joey Leggitino

Fresh Air

We constantly get lost in our screens – for fun, for work, for idling hours that just seem to fade away. But as the word “lockdown” becomes more pervasive and “stay home” grows synonymous with “stay safe,” fresh air has been the solace of my quarantine. Simply stepping outside my front door for a nice brisk walk around my neighborhood has proven more grounding than nearly any answer I’ve found by way of my newsfeed. Connect with the sun.

Also, connect with your loved ones. A phone call, a video chat, any form of truly engaging goes a long way right now during this bizarrely universal phenomenon. We’re all home, we’re all washing our hands. When you think of someone, call them. Rarely do we know that the person at the other end is (likely) as bored and as openhearted as you are when you make the call. 

-Alexa Schoenfeld

Running and Rom-Coms

Running and rom-coms. That’s pretty much all that’s been occupying my time during the lockdown in LA. As someone who has an unhealthy obsession with SoulCycle, I’ve been trying my best to fill the void by running outside and using Aaptiv, a workout app that has guided outdoor runs. I’ve also been binging rom-coms at an embarrassingly high rate. My top five on Netflix to watch if you want a reminder of how single you are: Set It Up, Life As We Know It, He’s Just Not That Into You, Her, and Valentine’s Day.

-Rachael Jansky

Bon Mots & Bon Appetite

I'd love to post that I've read these books in the week since I've been social distancing, but these are old music adjacent favorites that will serve you well. All are available on Amazon and kindle if deliveries in your area are delayed: A Visit From the Goon Squad by Jennifer Egan, A Brief History of Seven Killings by Marlon James, Kill Your Friends by John Niven.

I am no gourmand, so trust assured all I recommend is easy, especially if your prior version of cooking consented of warming things up. What you really need are the right tools, and short of martial law, all are available at your local major supermarket, Target, Walmart or the like.

Vacum-Sealer: If you, like me, hated cooking primarily because common recipes created a meal for four-plus people and you don't want to repetitively eat said meal for days on end, the vacuum sealer is your solution.

Sous-Vide: This process essentially allows for the most difficult part of cooking to be waylaid, cooking at the right temperature for the right amount of time. How about a device that heats up water to exact temperature and then turns itself off when it's done, its apocalyptic cooking done right. Paired with the vacuum sealer above (although most freezer quality plastic bags work as well), veggies, fish, meat all cook perfectly to the time needed. For flavor, a quick sear, broil or bake makes the ingredients indistinguishable from professional restaurants. Voilà, you are a chef.

-David O’Connor

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The Letters That No One Will Read

If anyone does come across this, know that these are old and I’m no longer in crisis. I’m putting these here as a safe place so that I can delete it everywhere else but still go back and read all of the guilt that kept me from hurting myself if I ever get to a bad place again. 

I wrote these coming down out of a manic episode during which I put myself in about 13,000$ of debt, pushed away a lot of good people, and decided that at the end of my big trip I would kill myself. Go out with a bang, so that everyone would remember the good times. Most of them were written on the plane ride home, and trying to say goodbye was entirely what kept me from killing myself. I don’t think a day will come when I can look every person who I love in the eyes and say goodbye, so I won’t. 

June 10, 2019

It’s an odd feeling, writing your goodbye letter. I’ve written this once before and it was probably a lot more eloquent than this will be. It was years ago. I had a lot more love in me then, even if I couldn’t see it at the time. All of my love is out of me now, I’ve given as much of it as I can and it lives with all of you now. Please keep it forever. I hope you can forgive me, but I know that you won’t. I don’t blame you. I blame me and I hope that you will too; this is all my fault. I have bipolar disorder. I’ve written about it at length, but I won’t give her any more of my words except what is important to this story, the story of how I failed you all. I have bipolar disorder and most of you don’t know what that means. The ones of you who think you do still probably don’t, but to the few who saw me in my true psychotic moments and stayed: thank you. My mental illness is what killed me, try to remember that in the moments when you hate me. Please, if you can, don’t hate me for this. I’ve known for a long time that I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ve felt so guilty knowing this and not saying anything, and I’ve felt even more guilty for the things I have said about how I’ve been feeling. I know I am so loved, I know this is going to hurt you all so much. I need you to know this is not spur of the moment. I have felt this way many times and I’m tired of being stuck in this cycle. I know this is awful, I deserve for you to hate me. I love you all so much. I’m so sorry. Aries We don’t talk anymore, but I still love you as much as I did the day that fate put us next to each other on the choir bus on our way to competition. The way I loved you always had me confused, but I hope maybe without me you’ve been able to sort it out. I haven’t been able to, I still see you in the faces of strangers and in the bottom of shot glasses. I hope you find your direction in life, or maybe you already have. Tell your mother I’m sorry for lying to her about the pictures; I still feel guilty about that. I feel guilty about a lot when it came to you and I. I never stopped loving you, even if my fear and insecurity made me bitter. Taurus Isn’t it fucked up that you were one of the most influential people in my life, all those years ago and under such abysmal circumstances. Kids are so mean, I’m glad we got to meet as adults no matter how briefly. I still think about you sometimes, I hope you’re better than you were. Your ghosts will always haunt you, but try to make peace with some of them. Thank you for playing pretend with me all those years ago under the city lights. I loved you, I don’t know where you are now but I’m hoping it’s somewhere better than where you were. You’re so talented, share that gift with the world for as long as you can. Gemini We’ve been through so much together through so many different parts of our life. You’ll be angry with me and I won’t be here to see it, but it’s justified. You’ve been through so much and do such a wonderful job calming your anger, I hate myself for adding to your struggles when you’re doing so well. Follow your joy, not your obligations. I haven’t gotten to see your talent firsthand, just glimpses of you dancing when we’ve been out taking the world as our own, but I have seen your passion. And your passion is beautiful. You are beautiful. Don’t let anyone make you think otherwise. Cancer My dear girl. We’ve been through it all together, haven’t we? You’re the sweet half, the good and pure half. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be strong for you anymore. You don’t deserve what I’m going to do to us, but but I know you aren’t surprised.  We’ve known this inevitability for years. Thank you for being the part of me that is responsible for all of the people that these notes are written to. You are the part of me that they’ll forgive, if they can forgive any part of this monstrosity that I’m soon to become. Leo Thank you for making me a part of your family for all of these years. I love you, and I love all of them. Please tell them I’m sorry. Tell A all of the wonderful things that I already know you’re going to tell her because you are a great mother. Don’t forget to take time for yourself, too, and that it’s okay to ask for help. Thank you for coming back to me again and again, through all of the turbulent years where our own warped mirrors made our friendship look shattered. It never was, and it never will be. Not even now. I’m sorry. Virgo However creation works, you and I came from the same star. You are so strong, and even when it’s so dark inside you are the only person on earth who can make me laugh until I don’t want to anymore because it hurts. You’re creating such a beautiful life and I’m so honored that I got to be a part of so much of it. I hope that you never stop learning. I hope you never stop finding the absolute best shows and movies and music. I hope you see Regina again some day, and I hope she sings a lullaby. Libra I Don’t be afraid to give your love away. Things won’t always turn out well, but it isn’t about how they turn out. You’ve come so far on your journey and you have no idea how much it means to me that I had the opportunity to be your friend and see your growth over time. Despite your struggles, you have been my voice of reason since before I knew that I couldn’t trust what my head was telling me. Thank you for all of the nights that you answered my frantic calls, talked me down. Thank you for seeing the bad and still being my friend. Libra II Our friendship was literally founded on you helping me in my hours of need. Over time it’s evolved from complicated calculus problems to life dilemmas, but there hasn’t been a moment in all the time that I’ve known you that you haven’t been a marvelous friend. I’m so thankful for all of your sound advice and have been so inspired by your determination and humor, even in the face of turmoil. Please hold on to that spark that makes you you, never dim yourself or let anyone tell you to tone it down. You are one of the most delightful humans I got to know. Scorpio I’m so sorry I put so much on you. You are my best friend, and you are worth so much more than you know. Please listen to yourself once in a while, you don’t give yourself enough credit for how wise you really are. I’m sitting next to you now and feel so much guilt that I can’t sit next to you forever like we promised. Follow your passions and follow your dreams. You love, and that is the most beautiful quality that a person can have. Remember to give some of that love to yourself, and make sure that you aren’t being led astray from your morals and your goals. Sagittarius I I never stopped loving you. We were so unhealthy together as friends and I’m sorry that I couldn’t see that and try to be better for you. Please take care of yourself. I forgave you a long time ago, I hope you can forgive me too. Sagittarius II You’re going to be pissed at me, and you’re right to be. Tell your family thank you for always being so generous with inviting me into the fold. Never stop believing in yourself, you’re doing wonderful things. I know we joke about luck, but you do deserve everything good that comes your way. I love you and the way you’ve kept your wonder and hope through every amazing and horrible thing you’ve gone through. Sagittarius III I love you differently than I’ve ever loved anyone. You make me feel so peaceful and so loved in a way that I had never experienced before. Be unapologetic in your goals, but keep yourself grounded. I love you, thank you for making me feel safe during times when I didn’t know what that meant. The problem was never you, I wasn’t able to take care of myself and in the end it all became too much. I mean every word I ever said, every time I send ily a million times in a row and every hour that I whined about missing you. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be what you deserve. Capricorn I I’m so proud of how far you’ve come in your personal growth. I’m so proud to be able to have been a friend of the the smart, successful, honest, fiercely loyal woman you’ve become and will keep becoming. We’ve shared so many beautiful, fun times and I treasure them now and wherever is next. Don’t let the world make callous, hate me if you need to but don’t hate the world. I love you. Tell your mother and sister that I love them too, and that I’m sorry I wasn’t as strong as they are. You ladies were always an inspiration to me. Capricorn II It still amazes me that after all of this time, people still call me by your name. I always get a nice laugh out of it and think of you fondly. Thank you for sharing stories about your adventures and for occasionally coming back home so we could have some of our own. Travel far and never stop dreaming. If you’re never sure of anything else in your life, be sure that you have the unmatched ability to make any place feel like home. Aquarius I I can’t write this letter. I love you. I’ve written you so many words, you can read them if you would like. I’m sorry. Aquarius II You were there for me in ways that no one else was able to be, and I’m so sorry I put that on you. Try not to feel guilty for moving on with your life, everyone who loves you wants you to be happy, and there are tons of us. I hardly know what to say- I’m letting you down and I promised you that I would always be there for you. I love you. Aquarius III You’re wonderful, and you’re never going to stop being wonderful. Remember that. Thank you for all of the stupid memes, all of the times you answered my late night calls, all of the laughter and inside jokes we made. Keep your head up, enjoy your life, travel far and see the world for me. I know you don’t always think so, but you’re one of the bravest people I know. Pisces I I wish we’d had less distance between us. You were my favorite mentor, the most perfect work mom I could have asked for. I’ve missed your smile and your laugh for a long time. I’m sorry that I didn’t come visit more when I still had the chance. Pisces II The brightest person I know, please never let the darkness take over. I know it’s there, and I know it’s hard, but you shine so beautifully. Thank you for keeping me on the ground when I was flying off of the world itself. You always gave me the best of yourself, made the best of our time together.