#THIS HURTS SO F*CKING BAD I'M DEVASTATED

[beif0ngs]

Sometimes taking a leap forward means... leaving a few things behind.

[its-the-3nd]

Selfish?

I feel like a terrible person. I have such strong feelings for someone, and sadly they aren't over their ex (per se). I don't know what happened between them but I know that it wasn't good. She hasn't said much at all about it (and I respect that she doesn't want to) but I can tell it's really hurt her emotionally. In saying all this, with how great things were for the short period of time we were working towards a relationship. I just really like her a lot and not being able to be with her in that way sucks. I know she's hurting and I know she's trying to deal with/heal from what happened, so I feel super shitty feeling the way I do about all of this. She has a lot going on in her life outside of that and in being so stressed she's isolated herself from most people (including me) which also sucks. I feel so much sadness from how distant we've now become because of all of this, but I also feel bad for feeling sad because we were never officially together. I from a conversation we've had that she's not mad at me nor does this distance have anything to do with me (per se) but it's just tearing me up inside, because I want to talk to her so badly. Unfortunately for me I don't know how NOT to feel things deeply, and having her treat me as well as she did, I got attached pretty quickly. I've never met someone like her who actually appreciated me and cared about me like she did. To feel actually valued by someone is such a great feeling. Ultimately I really hope she comes back in the near future. I don't want to lose her, as I'll never find another woman like her, but I feel so f*cking selfish for feeling that way. Of course I want her to be able to heal from the trauma and be happy (even if she doesn't want to be with me in the end), I don't just want her to heal so she'll date me. It's just with how good things were going, and the connection it seemed like we had, I'm just so terrified that in the end she wont want anything to do with me, and even though I'd respect her feelings in that way, it would still be devastating. God why am I such a terrible person?

[saintobio]

wait.. wait.. while reading this new chapter, i felt like i'm not breathing until the end.. and i feel like my heart is being torn 2x because of Kita and Suna. Why.. Why.. Suna.. I just.. I don't know what to say.. I mean, Y/n saying she wants to spend her life with him and then seconds later she saw the bite on Suna's nape.. Imagine how devastated and hurt she felt.. like, I can feel the huuurt!! Second, Kita sacrificed himself just for his friends to survived. Ughh great chapter by the way! 😭

Anonymous said

after reading part 9 I'm forced to believe you're a sadist😭

also we'll all just accept it if you say kita's secretly been indestructible the whole time and suna is immune. no questions asked.

Anonymous said

DAMN IT. FUCK. SHITTTT omfg it’s the fact that ive been waiting for this moment the entire time yet it still HURTS me to see that he actually got bit omg </3 and kita bby i can’t

@emis-little-fire said

Well then, this chapter was painful- 😃😃 i read the "heavy angst" tag and was like pfttt how bad can it be?? Hahah bad.

Anyway

1. Rip Kita you're the first death i cried about🥺🥺 fly high bby❤️

2. IF RIN F*CKING DIES ON ME IMMA LOOSE MY SHIT. he doesnt dezerv so much pain🥺🥺

But still, great chapter as always! Thank you so much for writing for us <3

ngl i’m currently writing part ten and am feeling so broken sdjkd don’t u just love heavy angst :’)