#THINKING ABT HIM ALL THE TIIIIIIME

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE YAYYYYY AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME I LOVE TORTURING MY FRIENDS <333333 PERFECT SPIKE WITH THE KNIFE VOLLEYBALL

>> yes yes yes I was absolutely picturing trickster seeing him on the news. Just like a shaky faraway video a civilian caught on their phone or something. but it's enough for trickster to see some of that dreamlike stuff and then ashe like. steps backward into one of his doors and disappears before a big wave hits where he was just standing or something. why does the trickster get TV service in his evil little chaos zone? why would the trickster be watching tv? I don't know! I dont care!! but he does and he is at least for this one moment. maybe he like. invades somebody's house and They were watching the news and he got distracted. idfk.

>> side note about tricksters territory I've been dying to picture visual parallels to the spirit realm even though i KNOW the chaos zone is different from the spirit realm they are still connected in my mind. also side side note on that topic i had a couple thoughts about clarence and mal in this au. and also the nilbog type situation where trickster first gets contained there. but that's for later it's trickster time now. speaking of mal though you know how when they first went to go find tide and they ended up in that haunted carnival. i think it would be REALLY really fun if tricksters territory was a city that had an adjacent theme park . for funsies and to play into the whole "his motivations are like a bored kid he wants to do things because they're funny" . i want the wards 2 follow muse through one of his doors and end up in an abandoned carnival. do u see my vision here

>> SPEAKING OF MAL AGAIN. EHEHEEHEE LOVINGGGG the fact that you said nhw trickster makes you feel the same way that canon mal does. i ALSO want to explode him with hammers so so so badly. BUT. i don't want him to be toooooo similar to mal because we do also still have mal in this au i dont want there to be Two Of Him. so while the whole using puppets to get Ashe to trust him thing is suuuper creepy and slimy and manipulative I don't think thats tricksters normal forte ? his usual style is busting in somewhere and causing chaos, but he knows the subtlety is what WORKS with ashe (btw the whole "oh people are Nice, Actually and my dad is just weird and paranoid" thing is EXACTLY what i was going for thank u for having the same brain cells as me) and he wants ashe bad enough that he's willing to force himself through the patience and slowness of it. but it's REALLY hard for him he gets frustrated so easily . maybe he's a little too eager one time and it freaks ashe out a little bit and shatters a little bit of the trust he's building up and trickster throws a huge fucking tantrum about it because now it's gonna take him even LONGER and UGH why can't he just go and take him NOW . using the taylor in her lair comparison again but while she's sitting calmly in her chair drinking tea the whole time, trickster is pacing around and kicking his feet and just going absolutely like

(there's a piece of pd fanart that i can SEND YOU NOW ACTUALLY- hold on ill do that in a second- that is pretty much what I'm picturing here like. his ass is NOT sitting still!!!!!!)

>> ohhhhhhhh having so many thoughts abt mark. having soooooo many thoughts about mark. i am still hung up on the muse/tricksterisms (give it up for DAYYYYY FIVE *Mr Krabs bell ringing image*) but maybe perhaps at work today I will type up a nhw mark essay in my free time. it should be slow today knock on wood. god. the aftermath of Overlord is going to be such a huge fucking mess. still not over the fact of u CASUALLY saying mark breaks himself out of the fucking birdcage. thinking forever about that thing bizly said once about mark being one of the smartest people they've ever met. yeah.

>> DAKOTA TIIIIIIM E. YEA YEA YEA YEA YEA even though we are in worm world and everything sucks so bad all the time and they are all so extremely traumatized. we CANNOT lose the dakota cole spirit. we cannot lose that energy. I love him so much he is so nice to everyone and so. bouncing around like crazy. maybe a little bit more subdued than in canon but it's still THERE. also ashe has been so very sheltered his whole life and mark is desperate to keep him away from anything dangerous so i don't think ashe knows a Whole Lot about capes? like he has the general base level knowledge that everyone has, maybe a little more (un)healthy fear of things like the endbringers but I think he's pretty neutral on the whole cape thing. his dad hates them but ashe thinks they're kinda cool from a distance. so I don't think it's like he IMMEDIATELY figures out dakotas identity, he's a little more distracted by the fact that Oh My God I have real friends for the first time ever to notice anything past the surface level weirdness in their living situation and behavior. maybe this is normal for kids his age, what does he know!

>> I LOOVE BTW. I LOVE THEM FINDING OUT ABT HIS POWERS THROUGH SOMETHING STUPID. YES THAT IS SO PERFECT. dakota yelling "HEY ASHE, CATCH" and throwing something at him. ashe is unathletic as fuck and so very nervous and awkward he can't catch for shit. pillow flying at his face he throws his hands up to block it and oh wow wait it's floating in midair! huh! weird! cue dakota FREAKING OUT "oh my god you have POWERS" do u remember that bit with Doug where dakota kept being so weird and asking him if he was a superhero. I think william and virion are very On Edge about this situation at first. they like ashe, yeah, but now he's a cape? who the hell is he we've never seen anyone around here with telekinesis. is he a villain in disguise trying to get to us? does he know our identity? oh fuck. but then they have a Talk and it's Fine

>> extremelyyyyyy weak over the post-leviathan scene. mark winters please give your son a hug im going to fucking kill you. side note of course tide is there. and he's got his own issues with His Boys recklessly putting themselves in danger and giving them their own earful about it but also I am not immune to the tidalwaveisms of him seeingggggg Exactly what marks motivations are. This is why he does what he does. etc. he's just a guy. tide is really normal about this and does not have a soft spot about it at all . turns away from the sight of mark kneeling on the ground with his arms around his son who is too slowly coming back to his senses and there's floating debris falling back to the ground around them and they're both bruised and bleeding and maybe theyre crying but this is a private moment for their family so tide grabs his boys by the arms (dakota and william, he knows virion understands enough to follow without too much of a fuss) and brings them away partially to give the winters their moment alone and partially to talk to his own pseudo-sons (huge bone crushing hug followed immediately by what the hell were you thinking?!) sorry I got kind of lost in the sauce about that. I think about the leviathan thing a lot. what was I talking about before this?

I think that's all for now actually. mark winters essay maybe incoming later I have to live up to my reputation of being perpetually unwell and insane over him. love and peace on planet earth prime. prime worm. whatever we're calling this version . 🤞🤞🤞

YEAYEAYEAG I FORGOR. TRICKSTER TIMELINE. SITTING DOWN WITH MY PENCIL AND NOTES!!!!!!

OKAY. OKAY. OKAY. this is all a bunch of half-formed-while-at-work ideas so if they dont make sense im blaming it on that.

first. backrground worldbuilding context. u know how nilbog is like . they keep him sort of quarantined because they let him take over a town and be a little king of his own territory there (at least i think this is what happened. to my understanding) . im thinking maybe pre-nhw times trickster was in a similar situation. hes this horribly powerful terrifying master but his big weakness is that hes motivated by chaos, motivated by finding things funny or entertaining. he doesnt want to take over the world in the same way a villain like coil does, he wants to take over things because theyre fun, because theyre interesting, because he thrives in destruction and chaos . if they just like... let him take over a town, let him have his little army of puppets to play with, he stays somewhat contained on his own unless any other cape pokes their nose where they shouldnt. i assume the prt would monitor him from a safe distance just in case, but he falls sort of low on the priority list when theyve got other issues to distract them. and this works for a while.... until he gets bored. hes caused all the damage he possibly can in his little chaos zone, taken over the last of the remaining civilians... theres no challenge for him anymore.

but HEY. news from one of the closest big cities... theres a new cape thats joined the wards team, and his powers look. so fun. imagine the possibilities for silly fun distruction with powers like that. so hes got a new challenge. He Wants That Toy. i think he approaches ashe using one of his puppets first. hes not stupid, he knows the prt is watching him, he knows if he leaves his city theyll be on him in an instant, so he sends like... unassuming regular normal people. theres nothing special about them they arent even capes. but theyve all got these glowing orange eyes. and it starts small- ashe accidentally bumping into someone on the street, and they smile at him as they help him pick up his bag. a cashier giving him a complement on his outfit. after a particularly rough fight with his dad, ashe leaves home to go to the wards house. its pouring down rain, maybe hes crying as he walks. a friendly stranger offers him their umbrella. asks him whats wrong. ashe winters, clinically lonely teenager who has had extremely rare and paranoid contact wiht the outside world for 10 years. does not see anything wrong with these nice orange-eyed strangers. call it naivety, call it innocence, whatever. hes not stupid though. every time one of these people talk to him, they have the same smile. the same inflection in their voices. one time he asks them who they are, why they keep being so nice to him. i think this takes the trickster by such surprise that. camera cut to him in his lair taylor style and he just. sits up straight eyes wide, huge grin on his face. yeah this is the one.

he drops the illusion of being different people and leans into it. he calls himself something insidiously innocent sounding. "just someone who wants to help" "are you familiar with the concept of a guardian angel?" << EUGHHGHG THIS ONE MAKES ME SICK. ashe isnt stupid. he knows thats weird. but the idea of someone out there who doesnt know him, doesnt know the horrible things hes been through and done, just wanting to help him for no reason. its tempting!!!!! so he doesnt mention his secret friend to anyone, just... accepts the gifts as theyre given. this guy doesnt ever ask for anything in return, even! it all. comes to a head though with the overlord thing.

im gonna switch now to kind of talk about ashe timeline outside of trickster stuff. the wards are together maybe a year or two before they meet him. ashe is in his rebellious teen phase, hes frustrated, he wants to have a life to live, hes tired of being in his room, hes tired of his dad not telling him shit and leaving for days at a time, hes just so. lonely. so one time, when mark is on a long weekend "business trip", ashe sneaks out of the house. now. mark is a tinker, you bet your ass hes rigged their house to the teeth with motion sensors and cameras and shit . but ashe is smart. ashe also has powers. ashe has not used his powers in a Long Time, but hes so mad and hes already made up his mind, he wants to get OUT and hes doing it TONIGHT. so he messes with marks equipment and leaves. goes for a walk. maybe goes to like. a gas station convenience store to buy a slushie wiht the crumpled 5 dollar bill he found in the pocket of the jacket he grabbed from the closet on his way out (its marks).

theres. some sort of trouble that he gets caught up in. something minor, maybe someone tries to rob the store while hes there or something. maybe its something silly like le frog. idk. but hey guess who is on patrol in the area to deal with it !!!!!!! its failsafe. and dakota has this bad habit of being Too Friendly with people. hey theres this kid my age who looks SUPER uncomfortable and hes hiding behind his long hair and this big jacket and he looks kind of miserable but he just has this ENERGY about him like . adrenaline. giddy excitement. something like that. and dakota is just drawn to him. at first its a "check on the civilians involved to make sure theyre okay" and then its a "wow youre a blue raspberry guy? i like cherry more but my friend really likes blue raspberry too, you kind of remind me of him, i think youd get along-" cole style! rambling! and ashe is just sitting there like. why are you. talking to me. (<< same inflection as why are you in my house bc i fucking love that those are his first words i miss you so much ashe winters) but internally hes like "whoa this is so cool this whole talking to people thing is so easy my first night out in 10 years and im already making friends with a fucking cape, okay-"

ANYWAY. whatever whatever dakota runs into him a few more times on patrol and because hes. him. hes always really excited like "HEY I KNOW YOU!" etc. idk! whatever! they become friends! he meets the rest of the wards when theyre out of costume, dakota seeks him out out of costume specifically because he wants to be friends but oh my god ive only ever talked to this guy as failsafe i need to talk to him as dakota. the boys become ashes first friends ever! and then he. excited that he has someone to talk to other than his dad for the first time in forever. he tells them or shows them or whatever that he has powers. and then he learns about them being wards. idk this in btween state is still fuzzy to me. he helps them out sometimes acting as a rogue. idk how or why he officially joins the team but he does somehow. eventually. mark is EXTREMELY displeased wiht this, but its at a point where... turning down the offer would almost be more suspicious. whatever. help me out here i havent throught about this part as much.

ANYWAY. SOMETIME AFTER ASHE IS OFFICIALLY ON THE TEAM. the leviathan attack happens. i feel so very strongly about the leviathan attack being the equivalent event to the Meatball Planet only like. so much worse. leviathan is showing up in some random coastal city called. idk. maybe brockton bay. for funsies. and all the capes in new haven are called on for the battle. (tide especially. but this aint about him rn). mark winters is the kinda guy who would hear that and go "no fucking way i want no part of that my first and only priority is protecting myself and my son i dont give a shit about another city or other capes" but. he has to go. because overlord wants him to go. for whatever reason. and mark, knowing about ashes whole thing with the wards now, puts him on total lockdown. dont even fucking THINK about going anywhere near this. i dont care if your team gets summoned, you. stay. here. etc etc etc. the wards, ironically, do not actually get summoned! they are really powerful, yeah, but the prime force is already goign to be there and the prt cannot risk their backup prime force also getting taken out because they dont have a third option to turn to right now. the boys Do No Like This because! tide is going. they want to go with tide. they plan to sneak away and follow anyway. ashe tells them mark put him on lockdown he cant go with him. they break him out and the 4 of them get to town in the MIDDLE of the fight. shit is baaad. they kind of regret it almost immediately. but theyre here now they have to fight. i actually think it would be cool if. like with the meatball planet thing. having the nhw there is a huge advantage and they start winning. but. i think this is the first time they see ashe's breaker state. maybe its because one of the wards gets hurt, maybe he sees his dad going up against leviathan alone at one point, idk. something in that vein. i think breaker state ashe is actually the catalyst they need to start winning against leviathan, the thing that distracts him enough right in time for scion to get there and do his thing or whatever. the battle is over, they have a REALLY hard time getting ashe out of his breaker state. (side note i think the only way ashe can really come down from breaker state is by having whatever threat set him off completely removed from the situation. however bc he doesnt recognize good from bad in this state, any sense of big power or sudden movement or whatever is enough to kind of reset that meter and it just gets harder to break him out the longer they make moves toward him.) personally, because im biased as fuck, i think it would be sooooooooooooo fucking good to have mark be the one to get him out of breaker state here. the wards have never seen this side of his powers, they dont understand why trying to help him only makes him worse, the battle is over shouldnt he be okay now? but mark has seen this before. mark knows, if only instinctually, what worked before. maybe itll work again. and hes fucking pissed, hes pissed that ashe is here, that he disobeyed him, that he put himself in the worst fucking danger possible, that this is all the wards fault etc etc. but he HAS to push that anger to the side for a second to get ashe to come back to his right state of mind. they can have a screaming match about it later when reality is not actively bending and breaking around them. i also think this would be good for the wards to see that mark isnt... totally a horrible person. they only really know him from ashe, theyre super biased against him they hate his guts from the things theyve heard, but here. they just. get to see how much he loves ashe and even though his actions fucking suck and ashe has been miserable as a result... hes not an evil guy. hes just the universes most hated man.

ANYWAY. BACK TO THE ORIGINAL POINT OF THE POST. reports from the leviathan fight and the new member of the wards whose powers turned the tide (ha) of the battle. this is how the trickster learns about him. so ALL THAT STUFF i talked about before happens . and then mark goes missing. ashe doesnt. realize it at first maybe. hes used to his dad being gone for days at a time, but hes never stayed away for longer than a week. day 3 passes with not even an update from mark and he starts to get a little anxious, day 5 passes and still nothing, day 8 hes. freaking out. the wards are maybe a little crass about it "that guy sucks you can just stay with us" btu then they see ashe is like. genuinely distressed about it and they say theyll help him look for him.

mark. maybe disobeyed overlord in some way. idk. he did something stupid that made overlord mad enough to punish him. the wards track down the guy mark is working for (i imagine their knowledge about What He Does in this au is a lot more limited than in canon. they know hes wavelength, they know wavelength workds for someone, but they dont know who that someone is). they track down overlord and bust into his base and its. idk. similar ish scene to canon. ashe sees his dad in whatever the equivalent is of the tube he was in in pd. hes unconscious, but they cant tell whether hes alive or not. this sets ashe off almost IMMEDATELY into breaker state. and overlords base is not . the largest thing in the world. maybe its like. warehouse sized. but its still an enclosed space. shit gets dangerous FAST. ashe ends up killing overlord and its pretty gruesome and horrible. when he gets out of breaker state and fully processes what he did, he just. runs. he doesnt know what else to do. hes scared hes upset he still doenst know if his dad is alive (did he just lose the only family he has left? was this the thing mark was hiding them from for so long? mark dead, ashe a murderer, is that what simurgh wanted?) . he thinks the wards will hate him for what he did so instead of fighting them he runs! and who. is conveniently waiting for him. a kind stranger with glowing orange eyes. who hugs him, tells him everything will be okay, wipes his tears away. how can i help? do you need somewhere to stay for a while?

ashe is gone for a handful of weeks before the note appears on the wards' door.

IDK. THIS IS ALL SO LIKE. VIVID TO ME BUT AS ALWAYS IF U HAVE OTHER IDEAS I AM SOOOO OPEN TO THEM. i have a lot more thoughts about the trust that trickster tries to build with him through his puppets but this post is so fucking long already that might just have to be a full separate thing . god. im so FUCKING unwell. nhw disease instead of brain there is nhw. ashe im so sorry we put you in the blender i promise i love oyu and want you to be happy. what are your thoughts i need 2 know. oauguhg. dying 2 talk about this. as if i didnt just write out like a thousand words talking about it.

[quiirrel]

yes I love Mike deltarune like a normal person. normally :)

[indiavolojones]

any Belphie fans out there? this is for a current wip so it's a bit of a spoiler if any of you have read my sex pollen fic on ao3.... but I'm trying to get a grasp on Belphie bc I hate the in game progression of his hatred > immediate adoration of mc and severe lack of uh, consequences or any kind of conversation other than “no you were under a lot of stress belphie, it’s fine buddy” 

so under the cut is a 550ish word snippet of a Belphie/MC conversation I'd like them to have and more garbled Belphie thoughts @ the bottom.

#uh, murder? (⊙‿⊙✿)

"That first night you wandered up the stairs to my room, caught up in your curiosity... you immediately didn't believe my story. I saw the suspicion in your eyes, and I wondered, why is she still helping me then? Is she stupid?" Belphie's expression is one of wry remembrance, as if he's picturing the night you'd met as he speaks. 

"At the time, your intelligence mattered little compared to how it would feel once I escaped and killed you," It’s the first time Belphie’s mentioned his betrayal with such a casual affectation to his voice. You don't think he would try again, not with your pact, but to hear him mention it still makes your breath catch in your throat. 

“And then I succeeded.” Belphie says, as if surprised, a slight tremble in his voice, “I watched Mammon cry and hold your corpse to his chest. I saw the horror in my brothers' faces. And I still felt right." A heavy, suffocating silence falls between the two of you.

"Tell me," Belphie looks at you as he speaks your name, "Is it possible to atone for murder?" 

What could you possibly say to that? 

"Could you ever truly forgive me? You were so quick to help me reconnect with my family, to say good morning to my face like I hadn't—" Belphie's eyes widen with shock as he remembers something, staring down at the chessboard. When his eyes glance back up at you, they're colder, more dangerous. This is the closest he's looked to the day he killed you, and it sends shivers down your spine. 

"I didn't use my demon powers to kill you the first time in the attic, you know. You freed me from my prison—you were so trusting when you embraced me—and I strangled you with my bare hands," Belphie says, a strange awe and detached cruelty to his confession as he looks down at his palms. You try to remain calm; Belphie is trying to elicit a reaction from you, possibly? But you’ve been wrong before. Holding the pillow closer to yourself, you search for Belphie's true message amidst your own growing discomfort—

“And now," he barks with laughter, fervor picking up in pace as Belphie seems to boil over, all the tension between you since his return coming to a head, "You're seriously inviting me into your bed? Are you not afraid I'll snap and do it again, but that I'll be truly successful this time? I know my brothers are. They watch any time I place my hands on you with distrust, worried that the last time they touched you will be their las—"

"—Stop," you say, and Belphie jerks his head up at you, startled from his tirade with parted lips and eyes wide at what he's said, what he was about to say. Only now do you notice you're shaking, tears forming but not falling from your eyes.

"I'm scaring you," Belphie realizes, deflating instantly and leaning back in his chair. He takes a deep breath as he keeps your gaze, as if he’s realized the both of you are too far down this path to go back now.

Softer now, he says, "You have my oath—I'm yours to do with as you please. I am at your mercy, and yet, you've been nothing but kind. Why aren't you taking your revenge?" With the desperate ferocity gone, replaced by exhaustion, Belphie's voice can only be described as small. 

"Is that the reason you made a pact with me?" You ask, quietly, and the impassioned severity has all but left Belphie as he leans over and covers his face with his hands. 

"So I could take revenge?" 

--

whooeeeee 

I’m just so dissatisfied with the progression of him in game.. especially because if I lay out Belphie’s story/traits in bulletpoints, it REALLY appeals to me.

- heavily prejudiced due to personal trauma - add another dollop of guilt bc lilith only started going to the human realm bc belphie was fascinated w/them (is this canon or just a damn good hc I saw somewhere? I forget. either way, it feels so right.) - villain doing what they believe is right, just fuck me up dawg - is being saved regardless of what he wants lmao mc is like “all aboard the healing family relationship train, you fuckfaces.” @ all brothers, don’t @ me abt this. - straight up murders a character only to get the ultimate slap to the face that they were wrong the entire fuckin tiiiiiime, like god, the angst. -*waves hand in the air* there’s some other belphie thoughts but yeah -bee once told me that belphie is actually what lucifer claims satan is. smiles being fake/his personality a facade and I was like OUHHHH... - belphie and beel processed their grief differently. he’s just a depressed older brother that lost his sister and is so maladjusted emotionally he’s just... angry and cynical while beel took it and it made his heart so soft.... not that this is a slight against belphie (until he tried to go on a murder rampage at least) bc people just process things differently! - anyway this started as me trying to flesh out my belphie thoughts a bit more and it became a #beel appreciation post

if you have other takes on him, I’d love to hear it bc I’m still struggling to get him myself!!! 

[arodrwho]

critrole 2.46 lb

o heck & o dang my dudes i’m so readye

SONG TIIIIIIME

recap recap recap recap tyme

pls give me that goodgood roleplay pls

caleb sounds so tired :(

he doesn’t wanna leave the boat :(((

everyone is caring so much for the caleb & being so nice

“i’m just going to take it easy today” :(

helo jester how are the u

“i’m okay” u are a liar my friend u are not the okay

thank u fjord for asking again

“u disappeared fjord” :(

“sometimes u just need to touch things” great wisdom from jester

“nothing. u have a compulsion. i just think it’s funny” silly nott

“i don’t bring a lot of muscle to this group but i do have a bit of knowledge. so in situations like that please just let me have a moment to look around the room please fjord” :( he’s so sad :(

“lots of books” “angry furniture” amazing

“lotta books. lotta books lotta books” :(((((

“you went and got stuff?” :((((((

“i call caleb!!” “we know” lskdghfg

“can’t fight a compulsion man” “u would know right” lmao

“i was invisible u guys. i wasn’t, i wasn’t. i wasn’t there” :(

“so we’re all still friends?” “oh woah yeah woah yeah i think everybody here thinks this is their fault”

[everybody but nott raises their hand] “i didn’t do anything wrong” you’re right nott ur absolutely right i love you

“i think everybody did real good” gosh. clay ur so good

:(((((( caleb is so sad

“what do we want?” “i think we want breakfast” “yeah get off this godforsaken boat” “and we can talk about that” :))))))))))))

this accent is frightens of the me

“felderwin was assaulted and the fields were set ablaze” NOTT ARE U OKAY is that not where ur yeza friend was from, is that not where u still send packages, notttttt buddy friendo hmgmgm

“maybe for like 50 gold we could get out though” lma o

nat 20 to find breakfast lmao

u didn’t know he was a vegetarian? silly folkses

aw no jester u need to Eate

“can we bring caleb some food?” “yes. yes we should. i can bring him some in my pockets” food-hoarding nott #confirmed

“u have bees here? can i see them?” gosh

i like this person they’re neat

ASHLEY HELLO i love u hi. it is nice to see u

YASHA’S TALKING AGAIN THIS IS SO NICE

“it would’ve been nice to be woken up” u sound so mad how are u are u okay i love you so much”

fjord oh my g o d.

please. please.

“he’s being very nice today” “he feels guilty” “i KNOW he feels guilty”

“is he hitting on you” “no” “i think he’s hitting on you” “no he’s not” “are you sure” “yes” lmao

NIPPLEBOTTOM god.

“kamordha” how u SPELL that

“your people” nott that’s rly rude what the fuck

blease don’t poke the temple it makes me scared

“did u self-echo”

shamalamadingdong

“we can worry bout that later it’s a wide wide world” fjord that’s really worrying honestly

when this was about finding out abt vandren i was like it’s cool i get u but liiiike

“u can teach me the language?” “i mean u just. hey bees” lmfao

“u guys were gone for a rly long time” :(((((((((( “u guys were gone for 6 days” “i looked for u guys everywhere in that room. i was just worried was all”

yasha :(

“thank u for looking everywhere in that room. that’s. that’s really nice” cad i love u

“i did say some things that i probably should not share with you nott” “like they were bad words or something?” “you cursed at my funeral?” fucking incredible

“because i didn’t know if you were alive or not” that’s rly sad

“didn’t want me to stay anymore didn’t want me to be part of the group”     :(((((((((((((((((

fjord u are so twtichy right now i love u

fjord practical,,,,,,

“well i can but i ran out of notches on my belt” yasha i love u so much

“well i’m glad u guys are safe for whatever the fuck it’s worth”

“i was just testin the texture” fjord i fuckin love you

y’all are gonna be so fuckin broke damn

:(

“can i have a hug” aw that’s rly sweet

“u want the spine lift” aww

“u are quite fuzzy i was curious” lmao

BEES!!

bees...

“i wonder what caleb’s up to right now............”

oh caleb i love u pls be okay

caleb is a morning pooper, the things we learn

“worn him like a scarf” :(

alarm and the tiny hut?

“it’s like an entirely new sphere” oh dang

“well you piece of shit you should probably just get to work” :(((((

hHOLy shit that’s some GOOD INK

corrupted plant life. CADUUUUCEUS y’wanna read the booke

beau. i love you?

that’s so sweet beau

“i really don’t wanna get stabbed in the middle of the night is kinda what i’m thinking so it’s a little still selfish i really don’t wanna die by one of these fuckers” this is the best thing you have ever said beau

“i have a confession. i don’t know what astute means i heard someone on the crew say it i hope it’s--” he’s so autistic i love him?? i love him. pleas e i cannot cope

did y’all get ur money back did u remember to go get it or do u not have the money now

“the rain begins” o. wellnow

“that’s one smart cow” that’s rly mean fjord

“she’s a piece of work. she’s great. piece of work” i love you cad. i love you. i don’t know what’s with your sister but i love you

i love you orly. i love you so much? “...smartass...” i loVE you.

i’m very scared.

pls talk to the jester yes

“you’re right. you really are a good liar. i think it takes one to know one. i think being liar means when i know you’re not and when you are. we all get sad, i just want you to know that, and i haven’t told you really any of this but i also had a kind of a lonely childhood i didn’t have a lot of friends my father was very protective because of something that he believed so i wasn’t allowed to have a lot of friends really any friends” :(((((((

but also @Sweet Beau Lore, :))))))

“i admire that in you. in my loneliness i just got angry and turned to bad things but in your loneliness you turned to creativity and i think that’s beautiful. i really do” gosh.

“i’ll tell you a secret” “o-okay” “sometimes i’m angry too” gosh

“and i’ll be proud of that too” g o s   h

i lvoe ? youe ?

“i don’t if i’m like bestfriend material that might be like a lot of commitment bc of my commitment of being first mate--but u don’t have to look far. for a friend. ANYWAY i’ll leave you to it” I LOVE YOU BEAU how dare you. stop being so sweet i can’t cope

“love you jess” “i love you too” hey i can’t live with this. this is too kind i am crying,

a trance??? a brEA K???? how rudE

ooooooooo

hey. hey this sounds really pretty

“the muted colors are comforting” goodness

Yasha Lore

“fleshless and bone, then darkness once more” oh no

you sense. something contacting you. and while it isn’t speaking with words you interpret it through language

“loss. loss is excrutiating. loss is paralyzing

loss is inevitable”

(o dang)

“loss can bring sorrow. bring hate. bring cruelty and darkness.

your anger is beautiful to behold, orphanmaker” ooooo

Deep Yasha Lore

“loss can instead teach you what is ipmortant. it offers perspective. it offers focus. might. the courage to protect what has not yet been lost. to be alone. to push others away. can prevent loss. but it also prevents growth. strength. purpose. how much how many will you lose until you find your strength?

show me. show me what is important. what is worth protecting. this storm was birthed only for you.”

hhhOOOOO

heck of the goddang yeah

a darkened spot, the impact muted. what you see there instead, a creature. a manlike shape made of crackling energy hot dang

2 vibrant wings of open lightning

o dang. odang. odingitydang

“are you him?”

i’m yellinG

who is HIM

hwAT does all of this MEAN

“all alone?” hey you can’t do those words anymore laura

“this is not who i thought it was”

travis miming raging in the background

“i’m going to unfurl my wings” oooohoohohohooo

my whole me is yelling

oh no oh no oh no oh no

yasha pls.

oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no

hey oh no

oh no

21 is not good enough ? :( OH okay okay okay okay you meant that was a no for the OTHER guy okay

jeez don’t scare me like that maybe damn

hey yasha maybe don’t die perhaps i love you

“glaring right at jester and you watch as it flares to twice its size”

oh no oh no oh no oh no

yasha pls do not like, die?

this is scary i am scared

o good u succeeded this time thank u

“i’m gonna try to climb up” oh boy

this is the coolest fuckin fight but also very stressful

yasha godfucking dammit pls do not die

i don’t like how this fight is going my me is upset

“and you’re falling” ohhhhhh

“i am at 1 hit point”

hhh’ohhhhh g o ddddd

“yasha. this is really important”

“he has really good insight plus he makes really good tea it will make you feel better”

“maybe see to the repairs before you get your fuckin tea?” “why don’t you stop being a dick?” oh DAng jester

this. thAT sure was a lot of STUFF my dude AAA

hello cad i love you what do u have to say today

“i need to keep trying to find him. i mean, i guess he’s found me” mmmmm

“well the ship’s name makes sense now” skdgjlkdfjhglsh

“the ship’s captain also eats balls!!” sldkgkjdhgk

i legit snorted y’all

“what made you leave in the first place?” “um.” “it had to be scary right if that’s all you’d ever known” “yeah i. i had to leave” “why?” “um. i did something that uh. i did something that um. wasn’t the right thing to do according to my tribe” “you can say what it is. i won’t tell anyone” “um. in my tribe, uh, it’s uh we have a matriarch of the tribe the champion and her name is the sky spear and” this is a lot of heckinG

YASHA LORE

“when you become part of the tribe you take a blood oath and you get a name and i was given the name orphanmaker and. when you become a part of the tribe as time goes on you are given a mate. um but i fell in love with someone else. that was not chosen for me” ohhhhh

“and we got married privately” !!!! “you got married yasha?” “i did. but they found out and uhhh. the punishment for that is death. and they killed her. and i ran away” :(((((((

“so. i.....i am a coward i guess” “yasha you’re not a coward” “well” “you’re one of the bravest people i’ve ever met” “thank you jester. but in our tribe you. when you get married it’s for life, so. uh. even if she’s gone, she always she’ll always be mine” “what was her name?” “her name was [??willa? zoalla??? how u say/spell??]” g o s h

“but i uh. i left and. i’m sure they were coming after me and i got into the wastes of xhorhas and something. something happened there’s time that i cannot account for i was out there for months by myself and it seems like i woke up months later and i looked different and i felt different and i woke up at an altar of the stormlord” g o s   h

“and he saved me. for what yet i don’t know. but hopefully, hopefully i can be a better champion for him. and. fulfill whatever purpose that he has for me”

“did he heal your heart? or are you still sad?” “i don’t know if my heart could ever be healed. but i’m okay with that. i feel like if it were put back together then. that means [???] would be gone. but i know one day i want to go back there and. i don’t know where she was buried but that’s. i have so many flowers to bring to her” bREAK MY HEART WHY DON’T YOU

“but. i don’t know. i don’t know what all this means but. i sometimes. i don’t know. i don’t know.” i am crying.

“i didn’t know” “i feel like sometimes i get nervous to get close to people cause i feel like i lose them. and then molly” “and then molly” “i feel like i am very unlucky or cursed but i don’t believe in luck” D: D: D: D:

“and molly. molly’s still with us” “yeah” “the same way that your beautiful wife is” “yeah. i think so. i think so”

so much yasha lore i wasn’t expecting this

i don’t really know what to do with it honestly to be honest

“maybe this is best kept to us” “i won’t tell anyone”

“thank you for trusting us with it yasha” “of course” “sometimes it helps to say things out loud” gosh

hey i’m sad.

i’m sad about yasha

all that stuff about loss from before is even more triple doubly sad because. because. because of the sad dead wife. it was already sad bc molly & ambiguous tragic backstory, but. but now it is even more sad

i do not know what to do with this

caleb still sounds so flat

please give this man some comfort. someone

please.

i am very glad everyone rallied around jester i am very very glad but caleb sounds so bad.

please let him have some comfort in some fashion at some point please

jester is not happy with fjord it seems like

“but i will say that you saved my life and i don’t feel as comfortable going into a battle without you”

“fjord you have a thing or two to learn from jester about how to talk to people and engaging with people on a personal level and she has what i would call the expert touch. she gets people she sees into their hearts and souls, and you are what we call a bastard man” nott i love you so much

“all right. this fucker” nott i love you so much

b o  yy

i just love nott so much. i love her. she is the best.

“i am out. he is a cat” “i got incense by the way” “...everything just changed”

poor caleb. he never gets to keep his cat anymore :(

a tower.........

“a little bit of movement” oh dear “humanoid bodies that are tangled in the seaweed a little bit” oh no

i love nott so much

fjord u are making such bad fucking choices

“that was for the crew!” “ffFUCK them”

“i’m kinda sick of it. it’s the same booze over and over again. but it’s getting to be a little bit bluhghg, like when u have too many rice crispies” relaytable

“pull caleb aside, pull caleb aside” hm

“can you fuck him up, can you--” nice

“i feel like fifty-fifty he’s going evil” lmfao. i love u nott

“will you stay close to me down there please” :( “of course i will. you’re puny and weak. physically, physically, mentally you’re--you’re a rockstar.” “your first statement was accurate” hm

“i give ‘im big kiss on his cheek, and it’s reaaaal smelly. me, not him” lmao

“i pull her even a little further away from the group” ogosh “i’ve been getting a little wrapped up in this team and we’re working as a team and i’d forgotten, you and me. i’d forgotten.” D: D: is this you trying to apologize for leaving her behind “well don’t, we’re in this together” “yeah” “don’t forget me, i won’t forget you” “stay close” “always”

they destrOYED it

pew pew pew fighting fishyfolk

u made it go wraithy that is concerning i do not think caduceus will b chill w/this

don’t anNOUNCE it cad is going to be UPSET

taliesin is shaking his head, cad is Not Happy

y EA there we are

“how are you going to handle the shaft” how dare you

“i’m glad you forgot about us before, it means you’re thinking about them. but i won’t forget about you” hey. stop making me sad

hm. rude

RUDE

in conclusion very cool but there was so much sadness in this episode