#THERES A LOT OF SHIT IN HERE I FUCKED UP 😭😭 BUT ITS TOO LATE TO GO BACK AND FIX IT NOW IM TIRED scheduled in advance post

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IKUUUU and the kagamines i guess

bonus: look at the detail on htis fucking cake i spent so long on it 😭

[redamancy-and-daisies]

DISORGANIZED THOUGHTS ON TODAYS SHOW 12/11

OH yeah dally also was like fondling cherrys skirt like ive never seen him get that close like actually put a hand on her really nasty

tilly almost fell off the car

just sitting there minding her buisness was soooo sad hes sounded so little😭💔

johnny braced himself like full arms up as if dally was going to hit him during his parents’ scene

his voice is so fucking good

kwp said that ur problem, chet (twice)

ace slapped sodas ass(and later when shes leaving the house it looked like he was thinking abt it but didnt lol GOOD ANSWER jason)

Daryl looked at the knife before jumping off the train and beginning of faft

maggie is SO DIANE LANE like real mean girl energy but then she opens up and shes actually just a sweetheart

(u were a hood or a collegiate) heard an older lady in the audience (that laughed just like my grandma :c) saying this during intermission

cried sm in faft

soda kept being like dw johnny hes just like this dw during ritfr

marcia neverrr stops looking at two bit

HUGE coke splash someone said “car wash” after

the car came down so far during the park fight u could see a lot more of johnny which was great

he seems so in shock like way less screaming fs

saw barton mocking steve it was sooo nasty white boy esp since pony and his brothers were the only non black people(minus johnny) in the gang today the mix was so great

also tilly is just such a stand out she’s so fucking good

the kids that came on a school trip here are going CRAZY

after ponyboy spit someone went “THATS RIGHT”

cherry couldnt stop smiling at the end of icttyan shes also taller than josh which is so cute

daryl was either too quiet or didnt say 16 so it sounded like they were both 14 lol

“its probably wrong to cheer when someone gets stabbed”(overheard at intermission)

darry was going so fucking hard like it was vicious like more than normal which is nice bc ive seen it 3 times but hes really turned it up today

also kwp AND barton seemed more drunk than normal

overheard someone else saying maggie is so diane lane

socs were so agressive after drive in

johnnys just a KID THEY BOTH ARE

they nod after faft like theyre gonna run away then oh shit too late

daryl johnny is soooo how i pictured him in the book (so is sky!!!!) sky might be closer to the book bc he has some edge to him but daryls just was soooo so sad and scared

also his wig isnt that fuck ass!! it was curly!

ACT TWO

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finally got to the fucking station after wandering in the dark and rain ok act two

cherry looked so sad at jft

SARAHGRACE MIC WAS ON‼️ SHE WAS SO CLEAR AND INCREDIBLE

“(back)to tulsa” was sooo sad he literally is just a kid

darry looked like he wanted blood w dally didnt get enough time to pull him on the car

jason was crying so hard at the end it was actually hard to watch just bright red falling apart he smacked brents shoe at “u get BITTER” and he was like hyperventaliting

and so was josh he cried smmm

saw tears in brents eyes i actually never have before

WHEN PAUL started sining in jft people like clapped/hollered his voice is such a slay it made people crazy

OH YEAH MAGGIE OPTIONED UP in “out looking for a fight”

paul throwing ace in the rumble never noticed that before

johnny hugging pony after damd and putting his head in lap 😭

ponys no after johnny died was devastating

HUGE laugh at “i got more inside me than just grease” but it mightve been brent’s “ok.”

this was the best brother’s fight ive seen like joshs first “shut up” was actually scary like a whisper

cant stomach little brother —theres actually no way in hell they snubbed his tony he deserves to break in and steal one bc he mf earned that he gets to this insanely devastating place 8 shows a week??? robbed

Josh’s high register in stay gold makes me cryyy

him hugging the clothes😭

soda kicking gravel on paul before the rumble

BARTON OPEN SHIRT IN RUMBLE never noticed/seen that before??

renniiiiii two bit was sooooo gooooood

maggie is SOOOOO pretty -ok ill leave u alone was so sad and frantic like she was abt to cry

titt jason sounded esp raspy early 00s country sooo good

i think joshs pony is soo believable as a 14 yr old bc of his height and vibe but i think hes my least fav pony😭but its more like u have 3 killer options & u HAVE to rank way not in a “trevor brody good josh bad” way yk

trevor is my fav pony and hes the only one i havent seen irl LMAO

oh maggies cherry wig is soo strawberry blond this is my second time seeing her shes fantastic

OH YEAH i never noticed before dally leaves the hospital he directs the ill snap a socs neck if i have to to cherry like whatever he was saying before that died on his lips bc he saw her and ive never clocked that moment before

[mellotronmkll]

Whats your favorite TMBG live tv appearance. If you had to pick one

You mean besides the one that was posted last night ??? Lol

Aaahaahahhhhhhh thanks for asking this it's so hard to pick one actually I don't think I can im gonna end up having to name honorable mentions 😭

But honestly for number 1 well im gonna have to go ahead and be basic and say NICK ROCKS!

Like I think for sure gun to my head if all tmbg videos are gonna be deleted I have to save this one its too good. Sooo much to love about it ....

honorable mentions kinda in chronological order cos im just going through my own youtube playlist I'm favoring mostly just like Musical Performances over like interview segments for the purposes of this questions because if the questions is what are my favorite tmbg interviews it will take me a long time to answer

I don't know if this counts but it did technically air on TV but this is probably just my favorite video ever period literally everything to me

Pretty sure this requires no introductions

this one because it was my gut reaction as soon as I read the question I've just always loved it and it's so special since it was their network television debut! I really like it a lot

Oh on letterman again but I've been really digging this lately

I fucking love this song and this performance of it flans is killing it as always and I love linnell swagging it out in that wrinkled and ill fitting dress shirt so awesome

This one literally made me realize I wanted to be a boy real and not an exaggeration they're so awesome man

THERES NOTHING BETTER THAN THIS flans ripping out the guitar strings at the end of til my head falls off omfg... and I love the interview the interviewer is really good and it's fun

You already know. His 44 year old ass went crazy on that stylophone

I just think linnell looks very handsome and nice here that's all I have to say really

FUCK I had more but I hit video limit. I was gonna say the seven performance on Conan next cos it does do some cocomelon shit to me. Ahhhb sad I hit video limit before I could get some old man johns in here but this already went way beyond the one you asked for

Ummm oh now that I'm finishing this list I'm realizing does jbtv count because . Then that would be the obvious answer for me but I kinda forgot about it until now

[pumpkinsy0]

ok TWO THINGS 1) happy late birthday @minty-bomb this ones for u, baby💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽 2) HAPPY HALLOWEEN :DDD i love halloween and i had to pull this art together in like 7 days, it was hell, pls like it, BUT YEA HERES SOME HCS TOO

•curly loves scream (specially the first movie) and watches it like its the inly entertainment on earth

•this halloween pony planned on just chillin at hom eating candy and watching movies but nope ding dong bitch ur bf wants to hang out🗣🗣

•now curly wasnt gonna b in a ghostface costume and just have his bf in normal clothes SO the plan was to make pony a like victim????

•like a last minute matching costume kinda thing :)))

•so they had to go to curlys house and get his fake blood

•why does he just have it lying around?????he wont say

•so after that the plan was to go to this party and just hang out, BUT soda wasnt gonna let pony go to a party w curly until the late hours without a fight

•fight ended pretty quickly bc pony has blackmail of stevepop in action (shhh they werent out as a couple yet)

•dont worry it was a brotherly joking type of blackmail, ponys not actually gonna tell anyone and soda knew it

•but hey if pony was willing to bring up the photo he must’ve rlly wanted to go so soda just let him go

•OHOH curly wanted to rlly sell his costume and fucking cut a telephone out of this rlly old telephone booth

•nothing of real importance happened at the party sooo TIME SKIP :DD

•now the trick or treaters r out and curly is scaring the poor kids and ponys apologizing for him

•curly kept stealing the bowls of candy ppl left out😭

•sometimes a kid would drop their candy and curly would get to it and the kid would ask for it back only for curly to fucking eat it in front of them and run away

•pony would b lying if he said he didnt take some of the stolen candy curly had

•okok it was a pretty cold halloween and pony was wearing short sleeves and the ghostface costume curly had was rlly fucking long n what not, so curly had his arm wrapped around pony a lot bc he was pretty warm

•curly had this fake knife and at some points he would like pretend hes about to stab pony and pony goes “dont stab me mr ghostface, i wanna be in the sequel :(((“

•OH YEA when pony opened the door for curly, curly went “whats ur favorite scary movie”

•BASICALLY they were just quoting iconic lines from the movie

•this also includes curly scary poor ppl in their houses, knocking on their door and saying “u should never say ‘whos there?’ don’t u watch scary movies???” to them when they ask “whos there”

•just taking absolute advantage of dressing as ghostface

•ok im talking about curly a lot but tbh pony was killing it too

•”hey pon can u pass” “im dead, cant”

•theres a photo somewhere of curly fake choking pony

•as a lil game pony would just b running like he was actually being chased and curly would try to find him

•so basically u would see this pretty boy w fake blood all over him booking it and minutes later theres this kid in a ghostface costume asking if youve seen his bf

finished this shit at 12:05am

[sorikkung]

omg why are you up so late you need Rest 😭

firstly i want to say i hope that didnt all come off as me tryna tell you why you should keep writing reader inserts instead of mxm fic, god no - the conversation simply got me thinking and i wanted to add my own two cents on the topic. by all means do go crazy and do what you think is best for your writing and your own enjoyment! even if you needed to put natgig on hold, i dont want to discourage you oml

you definitely don't write a total blank slate, because frankly, i straight-up do not read them SDHGJKDFJKGD i will click off a fic if the reader bores me more than the love interest captures me. it happens fairly often. i too tend to write mcs with personalities similar to mine cause its the easiest to draw from LOL but yeah if thats not how it works for you thats totally fine

that actually is a really big part of it - the audience already liking the character, or at least, the idea of the character, and thus being invested in them from their first appearance, rather than having to build that up over time. frankly, that's the main reason i read more fanfic than original content in general; my adhd is severe as fuck and its hard enough to focus on things i Am invested in, let along things that im Not (yet.) fanfic means less effort for me as a reader into processing new characters and getting a grasp of them. though, that also begs the question - are the original characters youre writing Intended to be liked? do you Want them to be liked right away? sometimes its helpful, especially when writing reader-insert romance, cause if theyre there theyre likely already in love with the character of interest, but sometimes making a character mysterious is harder to do in fic cause we already have a general idea of what theyre like, and anything outside of that could easily be read as just ooc writing. theres pros and cons, i suppose. you're right about the former being rather limiting, though.

for the record, imma just throw it out there that i Love in-depth character building of any kind so if you ever wanted help fleshing out a character you can hit up my dms anytime and id be happy to bombard you with questions abt them that could help you flesh them out. if you dont have an answer, that just means its something to think about!

yeah i also dislike y/n greatly LMFAOOO i just use "y/n fic" sometimes as a shorter way of writing self/reader-insert fic bc i am Lazy and that is a lot more letters. LOL i went through such lengths to exclude it from my latest oneshot that it actually stumped me numerous times, but i figured it out in the end. i honestly think i hate it more as a writer than a reader as well, but for different reasons - more just bc its clunky to write/looks kinda wrong?? and i associate it with the very typical fanfic "y/n" personality i despise so much, but to be fair, ive yet to have anyone refer to my mcs as y/n outside of my social media au, where y/n looks more like a username/online nickname and is less jarring to see than in prose, at least to me, to which i literally just read phonetically as yin. LMAOOO i see why it would be frustrating though, to feel as though the majority of people would only ever see the character as a stand-in for themselves and ignore any effort you put in them. which is really sad, considering i feel like 2nd person characters can be some of the most compellingly-written characters of all, with how deeply and personally you can get into their head - people brushing away all that depth honestly just feels wasteful, in a way. like theres just so much to work with there, and it just happens to be most popular in the genre were the audience wants you Not to work with it??? 😭 its hell in here.

but yeah dont worry you dont sound "incorrect" lmfao theres no right or wrong here really, and thats kinda the beauty of writing your own shit, you can just write whatever the fuck you want! so write whatever compels you, and if thats gonna be 3rd person for a bit, then knock yourself out! i cant promise i will read it as well bc frankly, i cant even read all the 2nd person stories im wanting to, but yk. if i do get around to it, i dont doubt ill be there for a fun ride <3

ok coming into ur ask box this time so we dont have to be confined to the comment limit LOL and dont apologise for rambling i Wanted to pick your brain abt this!! sdhfgjksdfk i see… misbelief about the world driving the plot forward rather than their own motivation, that actually Is a very common plot device in y/n fic now that i think abt it. whenever i try to make my mcs Intentionally vague, it's usually their appearance, or anything regarding their gender. like now that i think abt it i dont think ive ever even tried writing an mc that is vague as a character itself? bc to me, a vague character, a "blank slate", is still a character, just one that lacks any life to it. like, among the writers i like interacting with on here and typically enjoy reading most, the general consensus seems to be that most dont actually read y/n as themselves and see them as more of a vague oc anyway, even as a reader, as they don't actually have any interest in inserting Themselves into a story in the very self-inserty, projecting way y/n fic is known for, and thats why they prefer a really fleshed-out mc.

personally, as a reader i seem to be the niche in between where i Do like projecting myself into the story as a character, but i Don't like blank slate mcs - because theres nothing to project On. i project onto self-insert characters the same way i project onto fully-fleshed characters in regular media, or hell, the same way i sometimes project onto an idol's image themselves. a reader insert being in second person just kinda helps enable the projection, and of course im gonna feel More seen by projecting onto characters that are More similar to me whether that be in gender/pronouns/appearance/personality/etc, but like... i dont go into it expecting to see the Entirety of Myself, written by someone else. i go into expecting to see someone else, in their wholeness as a character, and have them written compellingly enough that i can slot myself over them because even if i wouldnt do things the same way they would, i can still understand them and get in their head enough to "be" them for a while, in a way? like, even if i dont Personally relate to them, if theyre written well enough i can relate to how theyre feeling. kind of. i dont know if this makes any sense. i guess i just like feeling like a part of the story as a reader rather than Watching a story happen, kind of like playing a story-based video game with a preset ending - i get to play out the story as if im a part of it, and im gonna enjoy it even more if the character im playing as is similar to me, but even if theyre not, it still feels like im them for the duration of that story. and playing as a character that has no lines or backstory just isnt Nearly as compelling as playing as a character with a motive. yk? like with video games a blank protag is more forgiving bc you can create your own, but thats what fic is for. thats intentional. but you dont write fic of fic to fill in the blanks like that, so those blanks needa be filled already, imo.

as a writer i like the focus to be on the relationship dynamic the reader has with any of the given love interests, and i don't know how to create a relationship dynamic between two characters when only one character has a defined personality. bc the first question i ask myself is "what are these two characters like together? how do they play off each other/whats their interactions like?" so at this point im like ok x is a snark and y is a sunshine so x teases a lot and y just eats that shit up and gives contrastingly wholesome responses. or something like that. just for a vague idea of what they look like interacting. n then when i start working on the actual Plot, the question is "what made them fall in love with each other?" and This is what i base the entirety of the plot around. i pinpoint the specific traits that theyd like in one another, then i craft the perfect situations for them to experience those traits and fall in love with them. to do that, i need traits for the love interest to fall in love with, and i need a criteria for what the mc will be looking for in the love interest, and such a criteria comes from personality. theyre such closely intertwined concepts to me that i cant separate one from the other, hence why my mc's are all closer to faceless, nameless oc's than a blank slate. the only thing making me hesitate from following melty's lead and straying directly into named oc 2nd person fiction is the fact that i as a reader do like inserting my own name as y/n lmfao on my pc i even have a browser extension that does it for me. but i can use that same extension to change an oc's name in someone elses story so its not a big deal to me as a reader, but i just wonder if there are readers similar to me but that would be thrown off by having a different name instead.

this is really long and rambly unprompted so i apologise SKDFJGSKDFK but ive been itching to get my thoughts out on the matter with all this talk abt how we approach writing mcs. i didn't realise how many longfic writers put so much effort into writing a character so intentionally vague for the purpose of making someone that "could be anybody." but then again, considering im personally alienated from 95% of the fic i read just as a non-woman polyamorous person (among so many other factors), i guess other readers are a lot more used to actually being able to see a perfect carbon copy of themselves in self inserts without having to squint too hard at the lines. huh. wonder what thats like. SKDFGJSDFKGKDF

adding the break as to not horribly flood the dash

i really like what you said about feeling like a part of the story rather than watching it. i’ve been extremely negative all night about this, but at the end of day, i obviously enjoy 2nd person pov. i would hope so, after the shit-ton i’ve read and written, and continue to read and write about it. there is something nice about stepping into the story and experiencing something in such a different way. i enjoy it as a reader, it’s a different kind of experience. it’s really neat.

to be clear, i don’t think i write a total blank-slate. like, to give myself a bit of credit i think all my mc’s have a personality for sure. relationship dynamics with people surrounding them, definitely. they’re usually headstrong and maybe a bit cocky, bc that’s what i like to read and frankly, am generally like LMAO. i by no means take out lines or subject matter bc it could be too much unlike someone reading it. but idk, i feel less inclined to spend as much time as i should creating a completely fleshed out character when i don’t even have an image for them in my head, and majority of readers are going to imagine that it’s themselves anyway (which frankly, as they should, it’s literally called reader-insert). it’s definitely not an everyone problem. like from what you said it definitely seems like reader-insert has helped you develop characters and dive into them, but i just don’t think it works the same way for me.

i’ve been thinking a lot about character building lately. fanfiction itself is one of the most helpful tools and greatest liabilities for character building. on the one-hand, you learn to bring an idea to life. you learn how to really embody a character or person, especially in rpf where you sorta can do whatever you want with no canon, but everyone has a sort of idea or interpretation anyway. but it also relies on the fact that your audience already loves the characters you are using, instead of you having to start from scratch to make them love them.

maybe that’s why my original oc’s feel flat in my personal writings. when people read “y/n” obviously they already care about them bc well, to a lot of people it is them. which is the literal point of reader insert, so i think it would be extremely stupid to discourage that. but for me it feels a bit limiting.

speaking of which, there’s this idea of “y/n” and god… GOD do i hate it.😭not reading wise, bc i understand the appeal and literally throw my name in there and have since i was a pre-teen, but writing wise. i stopped using y/n in my fics as a name holder bc i didn’t like it in there anymore and i couldn’t place why for a while, but i think it’s bc when people call my mc “y/n” it’s just like… in the end that’s all she is. i can put as much planning and shit into this character but she’s not really a character, she feels like a placeholder. at least when we refer to her as mc it’s like, she’s her own thing. she is the main character™️ but when people are like, i love your “y/n”! it’s like she’s compared on this scale of reader-inserts compared to an actual breathing complicated protagonist. it’s hard to explain and i think i’m doing a horrible job, but that’s how i feel about it.

you’re also someone who like, does not do this whatsoever, and comments and discusses the mc as an actual character which i really appreciate. bc you do also write, and i think you share perspective on that even if also inserting yourself into the story. i sorta do both too. you get it. i think this is in a lot of ways a me issue more than a collective issue, which is why it probably sounds a bit messy and maybe just incorrect lmao. but idk, the bottom line of what i’m feeling is if i really want to work on protagonist building and that’s my number one priority that i need to improve upon, why would i do it a genre where a lot of readers (and thus those giving the feedback that i try and use to improve upon) are going to often judge the mc solely on the level of relatability, imagine that it is them and thus view it as such rather than an actual character, i can’t (and shouldn’t) flesh out mannerisms / appearance, and overall just causes an extra level of struggle compared to a third person character that i can fully embody with none of these limits.

especially if i’m starting to realize how much i really like writing in third, it just seems like that is what’s probably the right path for me as a writer. i’m still going to write natgig because i love it and it allows me to do a mixture of all these things, i’m still going to write reader-insert. but if i’m working on individual character building and embodiment revolving around the protagonist, i think a necessary step for me is to redirect a lot of my energy into writing some third-person non reader-insert pov.

[jejciu]

I've been listening to them ever since late 2017 so these are combined both first impressions and the retrospective... Not including their very first album "bad latitudes" from 2014 bc it's not on spotify or youtube and not even their bandcamp 😭 they deleted it from all platforms (except their website which u can - and should - check out here) after signing their first label bc they wanted to focus on pushing new music BUT IT'S SUCH A SHAME BC IT'S SO AMAZING....... anyway

Floral canyon from 2017

GOOD! Great even, I think. I have a weakness for like this garage indie rock (? Lacking a better term for this but it feels fitting) and this hit that spot so perfectly. The album has such great vibes of like "this band you've NEVER heard before but they come from your hometown and they happen to be playing at this bar you're at rn with friends" and I really love that. All the fucking reverb in this too, I just can't help but adore that. Raw (in terms of the sound, not the lyrics or whatever) and familiar-sounding in the best possible way!!!

Best song: plugged in. Feels like Edgar Wright's Scott pilgrim song if sex bob-omb was just slightly more acoustic

Weakest song: girlfriend..... its their most popular song ever on spotify with like a 3 million listens and I CANNOT understand that. Every time I come back to the album I try to give it another chance but its just so..... meh. They have so many more MUCH BETTER songs!!! Even the very first track on the album is a million times more fun.

Glazed from 2019

Well........ Its not very good. I mean like this is obviously very subjective but..... There's none of that garagey vibe from floral canyon. NO reverb!!! :-( now it's just, you know, indie rock. It's not BAD bad, I'd enjoy it as a soundtrack to a fun movie, or if I went to their concert, I feel like then I'd be like yeah that's good! But unfortunately it was suchhhhhh a disappointment for me back when it got released. At that point I've spent the entirety of 2018 listening to FC and then the first single got released in early 2019 and I was like..... Oh. Oh, no. Oh, nooo..... FC raised the bar too high, I'm afraid!!!!!

The thing that bothers me the most about this one was that it just feels like some after-breakup music... Not exactly sad mind you, but it feels like someone still really salty and frustrated tried to express their feelings. It's not really liberating in any way, you're just listening to it like... Hm. Everything else is there, so what's up with the outcome? Did a white instagram witch curse this album?

Best song: apocalyptic/pressure (both are fine, not a huge fan of either but they're more than alright for casual listening)

Weakest song: city of stars. I'm sorry but it legit sounds like a song Hillary Duff would be singing in a sad moment of her 2003 movie while sitting on the windowsill watching the rain!!

Live from home from 2021

When this was recorded, few of their new singles from the upcoming album was released (I'll talk about that in a second), so this one is a mix of different releases. Theres not much to say about it, I like it but don't prefer it over the original versions. The fact that Allie X also released a live recording album about a month earlier didn't help, I think. Hers was truly breathtaking ("love me wrong" was just.... Holy shit!!!!! The superior version), so my expectations for "live from home" might have been a bit too high, sadly.

Best song: not the one (live).. It's just great honestly!!!!!

Weakest song: girlfriend (live).... Well!

Song(s) for a nice drive from 2021 (EP)

Very different from their other releases. Came out last November and although its not my favorite, it is good. Better than previous two releases for sure! Reminds me of Aly & AJ newer songs and I do like those a lot. A very sweater weather EP!!! Good for long drives indeed.

Best song: your after

Weakest song: NONE!!! like not that I think this is the best album of all time or something but all songs are very pleasant and there's no skipping around bc when I'm listening to it im already in like this calm, soft mood so everything is great.

NEW RELEASES (2020-2022)

For an upcoming album that I don't know a single thing about (what's the title? When's it coming out? The singles are pretty spread out in time so are they all gonna be in the album?)...... Its all SO GOOD. STUPID GOOD ALMOST!!! The very first two singles that got released summer 2020 - wind in my sail/hold tight - I was kind of like yeah that's fine. I'm not super hype yet but it sounds good! And THEN they released "for leaving you" and I KNEWWWWWW I was already in love. And then I also discovered they released two track single for Halloween 2020 and it was even better than I hoped for (why is it not on spotify? Hello?? It DESERVED to be on my 2021 wrapped).

The garagey feel of it is back and it's even better than in FC!!! The cover art of the singles is great as well, the retro vibe works soooo good with it. Almost all songs are upbeat and feel like summer. I love that.

Best song: paranoid or pulling the strings. Both are amazingggggggggg but unfortunately paranoid is only available on bandcamp! :( I really really hope it'll get released in the album as well bc otherwise I'm gonna die.

Weakest song: hold tight!, so far. It's kind of more mid but not bad either really?

To sum it all up, my ranking of above releases:

1. The new upcoming album singles

2. Floral canyon

3. Song(s) for a nice drive

4. Live from home

5. Glazed

Go listen to *repeat repeat!!!!!!!!!!!! Overall I really do love their sound, it's such a shame they're not more popular.

I'm gonna rank *repeat repeat albums because I can and want to