#THE PAIN IS STILL RAW

[dramaism]

Naksu was a maid of his. She was also his betrothed. And in return for his unconditional love, she stabbed him in the heart with a sword.

[thinwhitedoc]

SHERLOCK | Martin Freeman as John Watson

[pepperpixel]

Yadda yadda yadda jinx is generally seen as a loose canon, does whatever she wants type of character, totally unpredictable. When in actuality, up until the last few episodes all of her choices and actions r motivated by wanting to please someone else. Hell. Even in the last couple episodes, the very Last thing we see her doing is ENTIRELY MOTIVATED by devotion and love and grief for silco, she’s taking out her frustration at herself and the world, and also honoring his wishes and dreams. By shooting a fucking bomb at piltover, she’s ensuring his life wasn’t in vain, she’s honoring him. In that moment

Her entire, self!!! is centered around love and loyalty. Is centered around other people, She’s motivated by an insatiable urge to prove herself, to be useful to those she loves, to show that she can help them and be there for them and be WORTHY of there love. That they haven’t made a mistake in loving her. To prove that she can be as pivotal to them as they r for her. She goes to the ends of the fucking earth to do this. And it ends. Terribly.

She puts the people she loves on pedestals and supplicates at there feet, she has no motivations most of the show outside of making the people she loves happy… she yearns for connection and love and safety. For a home that will never leave her behind, or crumble under her feet, (an indestructible home, That she can’t destroy just by being her…)

Which is why.. it’s so. Interesting and intriguing. How now, she has no one on that pedestal to worship, no one to drag sacrifices and offerings to the feet of, no one to spiral around and build herself off of. She is a person so *affected* by her relationships w others, but there is no relationship now, no one is stepping up to the plate to love her. She’s too much. For anyone. The one person who seemed to have unlimited patience for her is dead, because of her. and maybe vi could still love her.. but. She’s already soured that relationship. Already broken that one too. Broken all her favorite toys that made her so happy. That were there for her. And scared all the rest away. (There is a limit to what vi can support and forgive to reconnect w her sister. And I believe terrorism is crossing that limit ghgh)

And maybe, jinx is cutting that part of herself out on purpose. To be stronger, she’s realized she just. Isn’t made for love. That she ruins it all in the end. That it just makes everything worse. Messier. More complicated. She’s better off on her own, but for what PURPOSE! Who will she be now! What choices will she make!?! Almost all of her actions in the show were for others, what is driving her now, now that she has this gaping void at the center of her being. Where love used to be… what kind of person will she become, Without a guide to follow… a sun to orbit around. it’s sad honestly ghghg-!!! like yeah it’s not healthy that she is this way but there’s no THERAPY IN ARCANE. THIS IS THE WAY SHE IS! And now. She’s alone… it’s rough. But also intriguing…!! And I honestly have no clue how she’s gonna act in season 2,,, or what sorta shit she’s gonna get up to. but I’m excited.

[schneiderenjoyer]

This part has provided and honestly confirmed an insight that's been implied occasionally, but never openly stated as much as this moment.

Arcanists are less durable.

It's mentioned a handful of times how it's important for combat between arcanists to be quick and efficient. While they can be physically strong even beyond human standards, their limits are far shorter in comparison. They're far more prone to taking physical and mental damage quicker with their quick healing/recovery to make up for it, but not change just how fragile they are.

This is very insightful too as to why arcanists would be more inclined to fight using arcanum instead of physically as much as possible. Their arcanum gives them an upper hand where their physical stamina is lacking.

[hope-inthedark]

Growing Pains // Chapter Eleven

(Now Complete!)

Eighteen months later.

There had been a picture of a cottage on Aziraphale’s desk in the bookshop ever since the Apocalypse hadn’t happened the first time. On the day Aziraphale and Crowley moved to a town called Peacehaven, it was waiting for them. 

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This has been a long and storied ride, my friends, but we have come to the end of this tale. I hope that it has been a source of comfort for you, or at least that it has given you at least a fraction of the healing that I have gained by writing it.

I won't take up too much of your time, and I'll let you get to reading, but I'd be remiss not to mention the incomparable beta skills and friendship of @infinitevariety. Without Dee, this fic would not exist. Thanks a million, friend.

[radioactive-cloud]

this photoshoot is simultaneously the best and the worst thing that's happened to this fandom

[ruthlesslistener]

Loving an animal really is just you forming a bond deeper than words or any of your family relationships and nurturing a companionship that bypasses all others in terms of caretaking and raw affection and familial understanding despite millions of years evolved apart from each other and then having a chunk of your heart torn out to leave a forever empty bleeding wound when they die huh. And then you carry that empty bleeding wound around in silence for the rest of your life because nothing can ever bring back your companion and nobody else will ever know who they were or conceptualized what they meant to you

[k9punkout]

Sort of a rant about tpw fics, no hate intended to anyone. I love all the poppy war fics, this is just to talk about what I would like to see more of

Okay I said it before and I WILL say it again. I'm all for creating what you want, so pls don't take this as judgement, but I want to see more fanwork of tpw characters going crazy/overcome with anger. ESPECIALLY RIN AND KITAY.

Ppl tend to forget just how angry Kitay is in the series, and how he's not just "smart mouth big brain soft boy". Like, he nearly went insane in the series, ffs he killed Niang and burned Rin with a candle. He only has remorse for civilians, none for people he already has beef with.

AND AS FOR RIN, I'm a little disappointed with how many times her rage is played off as "eheh, cute lil tsundere bad at feelings". It's nice, especially in a modern au/no war au, I'm not saying I dislike that sort of thing, it can be very cute if done correctly. But there just isn't much about how genuinely angry she is, how she literally lost her mind. I want to see more of her just being full of actual rage and visceral hurt, and not in the "gentle sobbing" way, in the "screaming at the sun brutal murder tearing the room to shreds" way. I just feel like ppl write her as too calm and gentle sometimes.

IN CONCLUSION, these two are literally tortured to the point of insanity and there's not a lot written about that. THEY DESERVE TO BE MAD, because anger was the only thing keeping them going and it got them into terrible situations too.

[anarchy-and-piglins]

Farewell DSMP. You will forever be an unfinished symphony, but you were still one hell of a song. And I'm so glad I got to sing along.

[t4t4tclethian]

"don't die in front of me please, this is deja vu." - pearl to bigb at timestamp 27:16 of bigb's limited life episode 1

please excuse me while i *remembers it's unhealthy to make suicide jokes* transform into a sea slug and live out my days at the bottom of the ocean where i won't have to think about minecraft youtubers ever again

[dent-de-leon]

lying on the ground. All the times Molly ever died and came back to life, he and Caleb always found each other when they needed it most--

[aeide-thea]

sometimes it really is just like. is this all there is. feeling oversensitive & undersocialized—too sensitive to socialize—forever, bc you never got enough ~affirmation~ growing up (poor, pathetic baby; how long will you persist in singing the same self-pitying song…), & so never developed the proper emotional cushioning against the heartache & the thousand natural shocks, &c, &c, &c, &c, &c…

[henarikat]

I'm not in a good place I'm going to be crying all day haha haha haha!!

[conflitdecanard]

So yeah if you noticed I suddendly disappeared that cuz I was so sick I had no idea who I was, where I was and when I was ^^"

I'm still recovering from it ouh boi - It was a very strong sickness like I hadn’t had since I was a kid but I’m so happy to be okay again ! Tho I am careful still ^^”

[maskedrealities]

Just a reminder that you're beautiful inside and out.

Thank you for the reminder.

I don’t particularly feel beautiful but I appreciate the attempt. I’m more upset that’s two hours of my time I could have done something like eating wasted. And I’ve made the person doing my makeup upset because the three or four attempts they’ve tried have been horrible but I don’t want to lie to them and say “oh, yeah, I enjoy it” and walk around being self-conscious about something I don’t like.

So not only do I get to deal with feeling ugly and dealing with my face burning from products that aren’t meant for my skin and using too much remover products, I get to also play damage control because they’re upset.

Sorry for ranting with the ask, I genuinely do appreciate the attempts, though.

[andaniellight]

Episode 2 my beloved