#THE FUCKING CUT IS TAKING ME OUTTTTTTTT

[berryunho]

rewatching my concert videos so if yall were wondering this is what my blood curdling scream sounds like look no further

[moonshynecybin]

i’m sorry the doctor who au is making me kick my feet making me giggle…

marc is like 20 listless after his persistent diplopia never made it to motogp… vale shows up when he’s working that shitty job you work when you’re 20 and saves him from an alien threat and! proves himself a. interesting b. useful (canonically smart and adaptable) and c. stone cold addicted to dangerous situations. ideal doctor who companion.

so vale whisks him away to travel through time and see the starsssss… it becomes very emotionally intense SO quickly. vale’s upbeat charismatic exterior shielding his DEEP trauma. hey just like real life uuhhhhhhh anyways. marc plucky intense goofy WAY reckless in a way that mildly freaks vale out. he tries to send marc away like at the end of s1 and marc STARES INTO THE HEART OF THE TARDIS and becomes briefly divine just to get back to him. insane times.

so. they follow the doctor/rose timeline pretty much the same until the end of season two where marc is like. i am going to stay with you the rest of my life and vale who is so lonely and immortal and knows marc is human and going to die before him… like literally these gifs you can spend the rest of your life with me… but i cant spend the rest of mine with you….

but he loves him so much so they never take that extra step of acknowledging the relationship even though they are forreal basically married. marc like no we aren’t together we just hold hands when we walk everywhere and live together and flirt literally constantly. they are fucking they do not talk about it. and the end of s2 happens and marc gets TRAPPED in a different universe and vale burns up a SUN just to see marc one last time and say goodbye… marc sobbing on that beach like am i ever going to see you again… I LOVE YOU. and vale is about to say it back but the connection cuts outttttttt what if i explode.

and then marc of course. devotes his life to getting back to vale and blows a hole in another dimension to get back to him. as you do.

(side note. when vale regenerates he just goes from bald to sideburns instantly. marc brings it up vale’s like time lords do this. it’s weird you don’t.) (he’s lying he just didn’t want to change his face bc marc likes it)

[artemiseamoon]

@yourlocalspacewitxch Okay, so, I wanted to give this a proper response because you are awesome and hype me up even more than I already am to write this fic. I will tell you again, your responses give me life and make me so happy when I read them. I know long responses take so long to do, and I want to thank you for that, I know it is no easy thing.

the meta-parallels - it's so funny b/c I didn't realize how much i do that until your comments, then i went back and was like "oh i do - do that" lol, so fun.

Calderoni - yessss same, when he first appeared in S1 I was like this guys gonna be interesting but there was zero thirst present. THEN, upon rewatch, esp in S2 i was 👀 looking, just a little, but in denial about it. Then i had to fully accept on rewatch number (redacted) that he is zero-fucks given husky bae and yes, i want some of that even if nothing about his immediate appearance matches what i go for. over the rewatches, i also started to understand his perspective more too, so it's no surprise this story finally came to life

Slate - yessss i'm obsessed, i wish that was my nickname, i wanna be Slate, i'm jealous of my own OC and also want to be her best friend

Slate and Ossie - totally homies, homies to the max and im now deeply longing for more adventures between them. I may, for my emotional health, need to do an Au oneshot where he lives and they get to make more memories

🎶Easy lover - would be the perfect song for the underlying tension lol, and as you so wisely said, Calderonis cool ass is playing it 1000% cool and Slate is pulling on every ounce of strength she has bc yeah, that happened and now she's gotta act normal. His mustache! omg yessss! That comment took me out. from her POV, even if she has a good poker face, it's like "now i have to look at this man like i didn't sleep with him"

Calderoni grabbing her up - yesss same, i feel the same with what you said there. Sweep me up please husky bae, that man knows what he wants and is wasting zero time. I have this headcanon that he's a mix of passionate/ dominant and soft. and all about aftercare, so its not just the act with him, he's gonna take care of you and bask you in softness after. and with the stress of this mans job, he lets it outttttttt in the bedroom. ultimate stress relief.

the danger level - I LOVE that you pointed this out, because YES! This is so freakin dangerous, the fact they were even at that same bar and interacted in public, dangerous. ANd it's one of the things that really compels me about this match, and the idea of a dea agent being the one who gets involved with him. The danger element is huge, and I bow to you, because thank you for noting that and commenting on it. PLUs the illegal task force element, yeah, this could blow up in their faces in so many ways, and the danger of it all is fully a turn on for both of them because they're like "yeah we could get killed, but this time next week?" lol (it helps when he's got a place in his pocket he can use safely to get his Slate lovin in) cause this man wants more, who cares how dangerous it is

Leyenda and Calderoni - EXACTLY! they were both being duplicitous and that turned into a shit show. And yes, Calderoni fucked him over but also, the man had to maintain his cover - its so tricky and layered! that's another reason I wanted to write about it, and focus on this part of the story for my story bc its not simple, there is no clear cut good or bad guy in the decision making. I love how complicated the whole thing is, the angst level is just ahhhhhh

Slate going to help while Daryl is like "stay your ass right here" - lol yes, she was 1oo% not going to let them do that alone, but at the same time, I was thinking "girl stay with Daryl" but i also think the whole thing would not have been as traumatic for her if she wasnt on the ground with them, and didnt have to see Amat and Ossie die with her own eyes. Danilo was already dead by the time she arrived. And the trauma of it all plays a huge part in her life in the coming months, and her what-are-we dance with Calderoni

Calderoni and Amat - im still crushed over this, CRUSHED, and still will never forgive Calderoni, yet i do understand he had to maintain cover- still, fuck him lol (did i create Slate to also deal with my own emotional reactions? very possible)

Calderoni to Walt - i LOVE that conversation, i had to use it, had to :) Slate was def battling with shooting Calderoni on the spot, she was this close. If it wasn't for the risk of a crew running up on them, she could done it. "fuck him in a biblical sense" had me rolling lol

Calderoni's dialogue- i really need to get back to learning Spanish because i do want to learn it, but also i need to know what they are really saying. That aside, for this and flashback scenes i do use a lot from the show, but i'm glad the non-show parts still sound like him :) PS your comments on guys on the job and what they really look like, yes 100%

( i too am a sucker for dark hair, dark eyes and cool under pressure)

you comment on the ending - totally, thats shit is so draining and exhausting, Slate just needs to be cuddled on the couch by her is this my man- or is it not Comandante.

ps: you are awesome :)

It wasn’t supposed to be this

A narcos mx one shot | Calderoni x f agent*

Words: 6,200 | read on A03

* read as an OC / her nickname is Slate and I did image her in her mid to late 30s OR read as a RC. I use ‘she’ not ‘you’

An: I made an exception and posted this in full, since I don’t think there anymore than 2 or 3 of us who crush on him. Anyway, I’m going back to my system after this, just previews on tumblr. This one shot is just the exception.

Warnings: violence, mention of injuries and blood, drinking, vague sexual content, drug traffickers, character deaths, lots of angst

Narcos disclaimer: I fully understand how sensitive all this is, which is why I struggled with writing for the show or not. But, I do, and I enjoy it so don’t plan to stop anytime soon. The show is naturally a very real trigger, so off the bat, you are triggered, block the narcos tag. I’m only one of many who write for this show (I blame the actors, it’s their fault, they charmed us). Filter the tag and save yourself and the writers unnecessary exchanges. Criminals, drug traffickers, drugs, really bad people who hurt so many are talked about in this show. In writing these little stories I’m not trying to erase that or gloss it over. Now that I’ve said my peace, remember it’s fully your choice if you continue and your fault if you get upset not mine. Last, if you don’t like the fic/story just move on. Plenty of other things to read. Don’t waste my time. Plenty of other fics around.

The full realization of what happened last night hit during the shower. She drank a lot; this job is stressful, and she usually limited herself to one beer or one drink as a calming agent for a few reasons; to keep in control and to avoid letting her defenses down.

Last night, she lost both those battles and ended up in bed with the Calderoni. Slate couldn’t put her finger on why she was drawn to him. They didn’t trust him, she didn’t either he’s not even her usual type but there was something about him.

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