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[causenessus]

i remember like before love notes started, it had kind of a different story line where yn was dating suga at first? i’m just curious him how that would’ve played out and how that would’ve effected the story! if you don’t mind sharing haha or if you didn’t write like an outline for that route then that’s ok! i’m just curious

AAA I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU REMEMBER!! I WOULD LOVE TO RANT ABOUT IT <3 i did outline the entire story basically with how it would've went with suga (before i changed everything) but i think it was pretty shallow bc i just had no idea what i was doing and i hate writing breakups and like,,, making people bad 😔 which are all reasons why i didn't go through with that plot LMAO but basically!! the main purpose he served was to be a conflict between y/n and suna bc obviously suna couldn't get super close or flirt with y/n if she was in a relationship but it was also difficult for her because suga was often very busy with student teaching and school so she'd end up hanging out with suna a lot. the biggest thing was eventually during that first new year y/n and suna spent together and y/n's feeling lonely, she's talking with the coffee enthusiasts gc about how she can either text suga or suna about coming to spend the new years with her and eventually she decides to text suna because she realizes that she feels way more comfortable with him than suga (who she often feels like she's bothering) so their breakup would have been a lot more of a "we're just not right for each other" rather than a "you did something wrong" type conversation!! suga was also going to be the one to actually bring up suna making art for y/n probably during their breakup or at some point, i was planning to have him mention her relationship with suna and how close they were and how that's kind of sus ig if that makes sense??? and the other big part was going to be in the last chapter when y/n and suna go to the love lock fence, suna was going to be so confused like "we're doing this as friends ig??? bc obviously she would've brought suga here if she was doing it romantically, right???" and then they'd put the lock on and she'd tell suna that she broke up with suga and that'd start the confession and everything <3 THANK U FOR ASKING!!! there's tons of reasons i didn't go thru with it and i'm glad i didn't lol but it was still definitely a possibility!! and i hope this makes sense i'm sorry my cat is on my lap and over my arms rn being the bane of my existence and so i can't type very well rn 😭

[error-dream-was-found]

ooooh okay, for the fic writer thing! 1, 4, 14, 16, 33, 40 and uhhh 56? bonus of 39 (if you want)

Thank you for asking <3

1. "Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi-chaptered fics?"

I prefer multichaptered fics ... my last attempt to write one-shot turned into 160 000 words long fic (still updating btw)

4. "Where do you find inspiration for new ideas?"

Everywhere ... seriously, it´s a mix of shower thoughts, 3 Am ideas and random things I thought of while reading another fics. For example the 'enderchest torture' idea hit me while I was reading some fic where to get Dream out of Pandora they hide him in an enderchest and my brain just went "wait for how long was he there? What was it like for him? Would it even be possible?" And I moved from there. That one is one of my less developed ideas but it´s a good example of my thought process ig. Or fics like 'monsters don´t deserve hugs but you aren´t a monster' came from that single sentence. I thought about it while reading some fic where Dream went "I´m a monster I don´t deserve nice things and it spiraled from there.

14. "how do you write emotional scenes? Do you ever feel what the characters feel? Do you draw from personal experiences?"

It depends on my mood ig? If that makes sense. Sometimes I really get into it and even make myself cry. But sometimes I'll ruin these characters lives with zero care. I certainly draw from personal experience as much as I can. Although I don't really have much personal experience with the stuff I'm writing about so *shrugs*

16. "How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?"

*counts on fingers* ehm ... well if I count in the half-baked ideas and all that ... I think I could have roughly 15-20? (I wanna talk about them T-T)

You already know about the superhero one (although I have new trauma for blob!), so I'll say a bit about a different idea one of my dremon fics perhaps? I don't have a name yet but the mail story line pretty much goes like this: Dream is a demon - cruel creature feeding off humans emotions, mostly happiness. Demons in common are manipulative, heartless and selfish beings that prey on humans.

The rest of the characters are mostly demon hunters (not sure on all members yet but Sapnap, George, Sam and Quackity are certainly there).

The plot basically begins when the hunters catch Dream. He's not very strong and thus not considered a serious threat. Instead of killing him immediately they decide to experiment on him (to learn more about demons), the problem is - Dream is the sweetest person ever. He's nothing like the other demons they've met and well it's kinda hard to dissect someone alive while they rant about the adorable cat that lives in the backstreet behind the convenience store ... (sry for ranting)

33. "Do you want to be published some day?"

Yes but unfortunately I'm not too good with creating original stories and my writing style isn't really good so .... maybe one day ... (until then the closest I'll get is printing my own stories ... that is also a way to practice book binding lol)

40. "If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?"

Honestly? I have no idea. There're just so many scenes I love and I'd absolutely love to see drawn. But if anyone ever were to make a fanart of my fic I'd be over the roof about it, I wouldn't care what scene it is I'd just be so damn happy that they liked the story enough to go through the trouble of creating the art. And any scene they'd pick would be perfect because then I'd know which scene they liked the most.

56. "What's something about your writing that you pride yourself on?"

... I'll be honest I don't think my writing is anything special, there are a few scenes I'm happy with but overall .... *shrugs*

But if there's something I'm really proud of it's probably the fact that I was able to write a story that many people enjoyed. When I started writing 2 years ago I never thought I'll have this many people not only reading my story but also liking it. Sure, it's not that much but it's a lot more than I ever expected! It blows my mind because I know that there are much better fic out there, yet people still decided to read something I wrote. It´s really crazy

39. "Share a snippet from a WIP"

daamn this is getting too long ... Imma sharing a snipped anyway! But what snipped .... I'm feeling like doing an villain arc today so I´m gonna post something from a story I haven't published yet and probably won´t be able to publish for at least few months:

Note: this story is still sitting in my drafts so the grammar check wasn't done yet, therefore there are extra grammar errors which I apologize for

He tripped over something. The tiny sharp rocks covering the forest floor dug painfully into his palms as he tried to slow down his fall and the pain shooting from his scraped knees pushed a new tears into his eyes. He just wanted to stay there on the floor and cry but hte monsters were getting closer. He can´t let them get him, he can´t! Desperately trying to wipe the tears out of his eyes, Dream stood up, only taking a second to glance back at the thing he tripped over. It looked like a fence … looking forward again, the blonde saw a tall dilapidated building. 

It was looming over him in the dead of night like something right out of a scary story his mom would tell him on these good nights when instead of yelling at him she'd put him to bed and if he was lucky she´d tell him a story. He wanted to ran away from the half collapsed building but as scary as it was the monsters were scarier. That building would provide him at least some cover and he needed that desperately. He won´t be able to run all night and the air was already heavily filled with the smell of rain. It was just a question of time till the storm begins. Encouraged by the hisses and groans from behind Dream ran inside. 

It took his eyes a moment to adjust to darkness that was even more prominent now. Once he did he realized he was in what seems to be an abandoned Prime church. He looked around nervously. The place gave him chills. It was clear that no one worshiped Prime here for years, maybe even decades and the place now had a sinister atmosphere to it. As everything holy did when it was forgotten for too long. The cracked, faded paintings of Prime´s angels looked down on him, it felt as if they were watching him, following his every mood. The wooden floors cracked under his weight and from the altar a soft clinging of chains could be heard as the incense swung in the light breeze. 

But the worst of all was the terrible feeling that he's not alone. That there´s something watching him. Someone. No, no he was just being dumb, this place is clearly abandoned. Maybe it's just an animal that settled here. Or these dumb angles. Yeah it must be the angles. It's dark and he's tired, he's just imagining their eyes moving to follow him. 

The first drops of rain hit the ground and a wind whistles through the abandoned church. Goosebumps raised to the surface and Dream shivered. It's just cold, it's just cold, it's just cold. The rain got heavier in just a few minutes. A lightning flashed through the sky and a thunder shook the whole building, just as a voice from somewhere in the shadows spoke up.

“Won't you look at that … a human. What a treat”

The question of who's there froze on Dream’s tongue as another lighting illuminated the inside of the church and the body less shadow floating in front of him. It had a distinct shape of human but none of its features could be seen other than two glowing eyes. It dived for him.

Dream screamed.

- story name: Sweet Little Nightmares (I'm more than willing to talk about this story :)

Sakra nechala som sa uniesť. Dúfám, že som ťa neunudila k smrti a gratulujem ak si sa dostala až sem ;)

[disastrouscanasta]

12, 17, 13, and 28 for the writer asks <33

12- a trope you’re really into right now

Fwb always and forever

Or situationships because I LOVE the applications it can have specifically to historical queer romance, I rambled about it to my pal krakerjaksstuff and it is taking everything in me now not to rant on tumblr.com

17- talk about your writing and editing process

I have an idea, so I just write that shit out. Start to finish, constantly making corrections as I go, that’s how I write, lol, it’s fairly uneventful

13- a fandom you’re thinking about writing for

I said this last time so it’s either the pacific orrrrr fallout. specifically because I want to write a fallout au for BoB and that counts because I say it does

28- your least favorite part of the writing process

I love writing. Even when I don’t love writing, I write. It’s just a thing. My least favourite part is reading it, to be honest. Or anyone reading it. Stuck in the constant loop of “look look look” and “don’t read thatttt”

Thank you for the ask!!!

[inkykeiji]

just read "I'm about to show you the beginning is the end" - it was amazing, by the way!! - and *god* touya-nii reminded me of my ex there. I won't go into all the nasty details but he'd often get upset with me over something small or out of my control, leave me (whether it be a breakup or ghosting me), and me having to contact a family member to get through to him and "compromise". His compromises weren't as nice as the little necklace Touya got reader but HEY thats not the point here😭

anywayyy reason im rambling about this is because when i was with him i used to ramble about him being like touya-nii in the positive senses - the way he was in bed, the little similarities, the way they spoke similarly, etc. And now that i'm out of that abusive situation, all I'm seeing is the similarities within the abuse and toxicity of reader's relationship with touya. The funny thing is it didn't even occur to me just how bad Touya was to reader because I was conditioned to think it was just barely out of the ordinary. Take away the branding and cheating and you had my relationship that i thought was healthy.

Sorry i made this ask so long but I just wanted to let you know how much I love your writing, and how much I admire the way you're able to make the toxicity of your characters subtle (I hope that doesn't sound weird??) I've always seen abuse portrayed really unrealistically and 90% of the time it's only physical abuse. It's honestly a little scary that I didn't register touya-nii or that ex as abusive because they're so good at masking it, and i love how you're able to portray it realistically. it's comforting in a weird way? I hate reading fluff because it just makes me feel worse, but the complex dynamics of your characters bring me back to reality and remind me i'm not totally alone. so to sum up my giant rant...

thank you <33

hi sweetpea <3

tw: abuse, toxic relationships

i cannot tell you how much this ask means to me, oh my gosh. thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences with me! <3

i’m glad it comes across as realistic, because it is heavily based off of my own parents’ relationship, and my father’s abuse towards my mother and myself. one of the several reasons i write such toxic relationships is to make sense of, process, take apart and put back together, my own experiences and what i grew up steeped in.

the other thing i wanted to say, especially since you mentioned not being able to see outside of the toxic relationship until you were actually and fully OUT of it, is that it’s written that way from readers perspective on purpose. it’s written from the perspective of a person who is so deeply entrenched in this relationship, in this tangled web of abuse and this manipulation, that they don’t actually see anything wrong with it. they’ve been gaslit and brainwashed in a slow, methodical, precise way, and it’s also where the ‘romanticized’ aspect comes from—because it’s coming from HER point of view, where she does truly believe she’s in love, where she may even, in some very twisted and brainwashed way, feel love for him, feel care and compassion for him. it is such a complex, grey area! (you may notice that when i write from touya’s perspective, it takes on a more obsessive, almost worship-y type vibe; ie he loves her soooo much, she's sooo good for him, so perfect for him, etc etc.).

abuse, and abusive relationships, are not black and white and i hate it when people attempt to portray them so simplistically. and the thing is, abuse of ANY kind (but especially emotional abuse) doesn’t just HAPPEN. it is a slow, slow progression and it can be extremely subtle; so it doesn’t raise any flags, so the abuser can trap their victim and break them down, etc. i wish, so desperately, that my mother left my father. but she didn’t, and she won’t, and as much as it upsets me because she is a literal angel on earth and deserves SO much better, it is ultimately her choice and i have to respect that even if i don’t agree with it. it’s her life; i can’t force her to do anything. i’ve discussed this with her before, and she told me this is the choice she is making. but anyway the point i’m trying to make here is, there are so, so, SO many reasons why someone who is an abusive relationship chooses to STAY in an abusive relationship; the reasons differ from case to case as it is such a personal thing, and we already have so much research and scientific/psychological literature conducted on this topic alone.

in touya-nii’s reader’s case, it is both because she is brainwashed and entirely dependent on him, and because she was already so fragile—already had such a fragile sense of self worth—and now the only place or thing she gets any validation from at all, that makes her feel like she is good and she is worthy and she has purpose, is serving him.

i’m so glad to hear you find it comforting, especially because i know EXACTLY what you mean, yes!!!!! 100%!!! i am the exact same way! 99% of the time i can’t stand tooth-rotting fluff because it just isn’t realistic to me, and isn’t realistic to my situation. i find so much more comfort in characters and stories that i can relate to because they make me feel less alone, too; like i’m not the only one going through this, or i’m not the only one feeling like this, etc etc etc. it’s one of the huge reasons why i find so much comfort in dabi/the todorokis: because my dad makes enji look like dad of the fucking year. so it’s nice to see that portrayed in a piece of art where i can go ‘okay, at least he would understand, he would get it; in his fictional universe he DOES get it’ etc. hopefully that makes sense hahaha

i’m so sorry that you had to go through this. absolutely no one deserves it, and i hope you are taking good care of yourself and healing and finding love and happiness and health and LIFE again in whatever form it may be. i am glad my work can be a source of comfort for you—genuinely, this means the whole world to me, it is such an honour to hear!!—and i hope it can be here for you whenever you need it.

i love you so much anon, thank you again for sharing this with me <3

[rebelguitargirl]

Not really a question. Just came from AO3. I just wanted to express how much your stories actually meant to me. I’m a 33 female and I’m married and relate your stories a lot. I appreciate your time and commitment in writing them. I couldn’t be happier and even if they weren’t finished, I was still happy. Sorry on behalf of the fandom. You should’ve been appreciated more for your hard work and I’m soo sorry you felt attacked. I wanted to personally thank you on here, away from AO3. I hope things are better for you now! Best of luck girl❤️

Hello, I’m glad you reached out and I’m sorry if my response took a while. I didn’t just want to reply with whatever because you took the time to send this to me. I wanted to take the time to respond to you as well. I’m really touched that I managed to lift your spirits with my words. I don’t think I’m the world’s greatest writer but I know I was appreciated and people weren’t mad about my writing or my writing style. They were upset with the characters and how I developed them and I can understand. I’m an avid fanfic reader myself and I can get upset when my ship isn’t together at one or more points of the story, but I trust the process. It’s been some years and I’ve had time to really reflect. I love to write and I want to return to AO3 but it would be a very slow, cautious process. I want to be an author one day and I know I need to be able to handle when people criticize my writing but to me, it didn’t feel like they were criticizing how I wrote. It was more of ‘oh these characters aren’t together’ and they took it and ran with it and when you have so many people just commenting about that, it was too much for me.

Sorry for the long rant, I try to clear up as much confusion as possible because I didn’t want to leave but I felt forced to stop writing because people couldn’t deal with character development. People didn’t trust my process and it was too much for me. I wasn’t asking them to praise me every time I put out a chapter. A book is all about developing a plot and characters but people didn’t appreciate what I was trying to do. I’m glad that my words were able to resonate with you, it means a lot. Thanks again.

Also, I’m not happy with how I responded but I was under so much pressure and taking so much heat that I snapped. It wasn’t my finest moment and I want to apologize to those who have stuck by me even after all this time. I can’t tell you how many asks I get and I really appreciate it.

[berryunho]

Heyyy, first of all glad to hear you're back!! Hope your time in korea treated you well, and that the trip back wasn't too stressful. Thanks for replying to my long asks lmao they were a handful but I'm glad that you seem to like them, tbh i had forgotten pretty much everything I had typed right as I sent it lol (except the part where I go full game theory matpat on HJ's bible, that one was a rant stored in my chest through the entire story).

I'm indeed still around, I was checking your blog every once in a while to see if there were any news so no worries, I'm hooked into your story enough that I'm probably gonna stay till the bitter end. Honestly, I adore fanfics that go so hard in terms of plot, when authors get me questioning everything that happens like The Answer has, thats when I know it's good and again I love your care and attention towards the development of mc's inner psyche, its so heartbreaking to see her falling down the rabbit hole but at the same time I want to go through the journey with her, I want to see it through as ugly as things may end lmao but yeah don't rush yourself, I'm sure we are all waiting for it with excitement for what you got in store <3 no need to feel pressured

ALSO, THANK YOU FOR ANSWERING THE QUESTION ABOUT MC ACCEPTING HIS "I RESPECT CONSENT" BS, I THOUGHT I WAS THE CRAZY ONE

Mc: oh boy i sure am glad he is respecting that boundary for me :)

Me: *pointing indignantly at his actions just a few chapters prior* am i joke to you? am i the one tripping rn?

Anyways, thanks again for the responses! Take your time with the next chapter, and much luck with the writing process. I can't wait to see more from you soon <333

-👁👁 (<- this is me reading the fic btw, judging my bestie mc to hell and back)

MWAH KISSES thank you sm dear <33 hehe thank you for encouraging me to take my time!! i think things come a lot more naturally when im not feeling pressured hehe but honestly theres nothing like writing to procrastinate doing schoolwork...!!!! hehehe i hope you enjoy the new chapter.....!!!

[choerrypuffs]

ok i was filling out luvdsc's form n i went on a whole rant about ur jeno demigod fic bc i just finished it so i just thought id spam u here too bc oml. first off thank u for posting it idk how long it's been up there but the pure Joy of checking ur acc & finding it: unmatched. second off sweet god im a sucker for bff2l but. that fic. made me a e2l believer i can't. i cannot. your worldbuilding (not just the author's, your contribution n integration of urs into it too) is so impeccable and the way every scene is mapped out so clearly u can effortlessly see it play out in ur head without even trying is just so. so pleasing.

- maybe im a hopeless romantic, maybe it's the disconnected world, maybe it's your writing (most definitely) but it just feels like this fic itself, not the story, is from a different time in the best possible way. it's just so raw and honest and while these days picture perfect writing is wonderful, your way of passing on images and scenes to readers makes it feel like more than just an picture box, idk how else to describe it but i felt so many things while reading n that's how yk a piece of writing is good: if u question ur life after it lol

sry for the spam, final msg i promise: but i can't imagine how much effort n dedication you put into that series. it's really inspiring. it's nice to read something this intense again. from the character growth to the funny bits to the way those two meat heads felt about each other n got us feeling in the process to that last scene, you've done a really lovely job on this n i can only hope you're as proud of it as we are happy to read, tysm n goodluck on wtv uve got planned next <33

wow i think this is the nicest ask i think i've ever received about my writing??? i am so floored that i genuinely am at a loss for words rn except thank you so so so so much ??? my mind is all over the place bc this ask has made me so happy but wow i've tried my best to gather my thoughts into a coherent response and i apologize if it's all over the place

first, i am SO excited that i have successfully converted you into an e2l believer as that is the superior trope 🧎‍♀️ and pls you are too kind !!! i'm so honored that you're praising my worldbuilding so highly omg you make my writing seem so much cooler than it is 🥺 the og pjo books can never be beaten, but i really tried to create that sense of community throughout the fics and i wanted to make sure the fics all connected with each other so that it truly felt like one universe (hence all the easter eggs) !! it makes me really happy that you were able to visualize the scenes in your head because i struggle with writing descriptions A LOT so i mulled over those for a while 💀 ESPECIALLY for jeno's fic because there was so much happening in it and more location changes than any fic i've ever written

FKJALKEL IM GONNA CRY OMFG IM SUCH A WRECK RN BC THIS IS HONESTLY ONE OF THE HIGHEST HONORS A WRITER COULD RECEIVE 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i wish i could express how grateful i am with more than just saying thank you but THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!!!! my goal is always to evoke any sort of emotion from my readers, even if it’s just a laugh so to hear you express how you felt during the fic makes me feel so accomplished 💗💗💗

DONT APOLOGIZE OMG YOUR MESSAGE MADE MY DAY I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE YOU TAKING THE TIME TO TALK ABOUT MY FIC ON CAT’S FORM AND TO LEAVING SUCH A KIND ASK IN MY INBOX 🥰💗💖💞💓💘💝💟✨🌷🌸 my period must be coming bc i am legit teary eyed as i’m typing rn 😩 and yes even though i like to complain about how much i suffered writing the series, i am genuinely proud of it but i’m even prouder of all the love and support i’ve gotten over this long ass journey 🥺 you guys have been nothing but lovely to me and hype me up even when i feel like my writing is shit and i hope you know how much that means to me <33333 not to get all sappy but thank you again ilysm ❤️❤️❤️

[zinzinina]

Sam my love!! 💕 For the fanfic asks: 30, 33, and 35! Rant at me babe. I wanna hear it. 😘💖

Thanks for playing, Jen! 💖

30. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst?

I like marrying these two together! I find it just hits that little bit harder

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

Answered here! ✨

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

I don't know if I have a whole rant in me, haha! I might say this instead: I still can't get over how fucking cool it is that we're all here making stuff in our free time for no absolutely reason but the fun of it. And everyone shares it with each other and screams with excitement over each others' art and edits and stories, and everyone is so kind and funny and talented and supportive of one another. It makes geeking out about Star Wars a thousand times more fun and I'm just so fucking stoked to be here, and to have gotten to know beautiful people like you, Miss Jen! x

fanfic writer ask game 🖋

[thesunnyshow]

Name: Janna

Writing Blog URL(s): @haechaaaaaaanssi

What fandom(s) do you write for?: NCT Dream, but I do get occasional inspirations for the other units.

Age: 16

Nationality: Filipino

Languages: Tagalog, English, German

Star Sign: Sagittarius

MBTI: INFP-T

Favorite color: Yellow, Purple, Black, Red

Favorite food: Any kind of sushi and pasta.

Favorite ice cream flavor: My mother's homemade avocado ice cream.

Favorite animal: Foxes, Owls

Coffee or tea? What are you ordering?: I have a profound love for tea.I'd probably order Earl Grey or Ginger Tea.

Dream job (whether you have a job or not): Lawyer/Prosecutor

Go-to karaoke song: Dance With My Father - Luther Vandross

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose?: Illusions (like Adelina Amouteru in 'The Young Elites')

If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose?: Not sure… Perhaps, the Elizabethan Era? Or the Renaissance Era? I guess, either.

If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you?: Absolutely.

Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken?: One horse-sized chicken. (The only thing running through my mind is the bountiful amount of chicken I'll be able to eat-)

If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been?: Probably the teacher's pet.

Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures?: Yes and no. I do believe in aliens, but not in supernatural creatures.

Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know?: I can fall asleep anywhere, at any time.

When did you post your first piece?: I'm not sure of the exact date but somewhere in September last year.

Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why?: I write fluff, angst, crack and suggestive, though I prefer writing angst the most. Angst comes easier to me than any other. 

Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships, etc?: For this blog I only write reader inserts but I've written for a few ships before. 

Why did you decide to write for Tumblr?: It was very unplanned (as everything always is when it comes to me) and was a decision I impulsively made. I think I thought it would be fun.

What inspires you to write?: Music, movies, tv shows, a single sentence on an ad on the subway - literally anything.

What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most?: Fantasy, non-idol au and college au's. 

What do you hope your readers take away from your work?: Enjoyment. The feelings I feel when reading a good book–absolute captivation and the utter need to figure out what comes next–and the emptiness that comes with finishing it. 

What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively?: Take a break and let the answer come to me naturally. If I'm really desperate to finish and the need to write is overwhelming, I talk to friends and brainstorm with them.

What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful?: My favorite work of mine is a tie between two of my timestamps: 19:49 - lonely lips and 23:33 - up to you. My most successful one is probably my Jaemin fic 'bye, my first…'.

Who is your favorite person to write about?: Haechan.

Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose?: No.

What is your writing process like?: Think of the idea, write it down and flesh it out a bit, forget about it for a few weeks-, remember and then finally start writing. For timestamps I usually read it through twice to look for errors before publishing, but writing fics is a way longer process for me than it should be. I tend to overcomplicate by changing things last minute and editing too much. I take a lot of needed breaks as well since I have this tendency to pressure and stress myself, but I'm working on that hahah.

Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story?: Yes.

What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand?: I absolutely love E2L/S2L and slow burn. As for ones I can't stand - can't think of any at the moment. 

How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you?: It definitely matters to me. I do my best to take all the feedback I get into account and to better my following writings. It also is really nice to read comments and asks about pieces I've written and I appreciate every single one of them.

Do you think art can be a medium for change?: Of course!

Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself?: There are times, yes. Whenever I feel like writing has become a chore, I remind myself why I started (writing) in the first place.

Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times?: There might be times where they have, but I am not aware of any of them.

Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr?: Yeah, my close friends know that I do and my mom knows I write (but she doesn't know about Tumblr).

What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers?: I love and appreciate every single one of you. Thank you so much for reading my writings, for following me, and for supporting me till now. When I first started this blog, never did I expect so much love and support and I am so so so so grateful for all that I have received. I hope my writings have brought you smiles, tears, and some comfort.

Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr?: Not particularly.

Do you have any mutuals who have been particularly formative/supportive in your Tumblr journey?: There are so so many of them but I'll just list a few of my earliest mutuals:

 @s4myj0 !! Ate Joy has supported me so much and has stuck with me since day 1 and I can't think of any writings of mine that I did not show her first (except my n.jm fic- that was a surprise hahah). I love her to bits and I am so thankful to have her.

@lateocu ! Has supported me ever since I started, has listened to every rant I've had, has listened to me go on and on and on about writing and Haechan on the bus and I love them with my whole entire being. They are one of my biggest motivators and are always there to help me. An angel.

@svftpeachy ! Gio was my first ever mutual and she was very very encouraging and supportive about everything. We haven't talked for a while, but she's someone very dear to me.

@hyuck-obsessed ! I AM SO GLAD, SO SO SO VERY GLAD AND LUCKY JACKIE STARTED TALKING TO ME. Jackie has been nothing but supportive and always gives me great ideas and I love her so much. I'm really grateful to have made a friend as great and amazing as Jackie.

@haechanhyung / @d-nghy-ck ! I absolutely adore Bronwyn. She is someone I can always turn to and talking with her is always such a delight. She's kind, caring, and is always so encouraging and motivating and I owe a lot of my confidence to her. I love her. 

Pick a quote to end your interview with: 

I will not be like a bird bred in a cage, I thought, too dull to fly even when the door stands open.

Madeline Miller, Circe

[metalbvcky]

10, 29 & 33 for the fanfic writer asks, please? 🥺

Heya Thaleia!!! I hope you’ve been doing well on this fine day :D Yesss of course!! These got long because I turned into a chatterbox lolol- I love talking about writing so it’s easy to fall into a long rant <3 

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for?

Hurt/Comfort is my comfort zone but I’ll be completely honest, I think I’m beginning to find the appeal of smut. It’s all thanks to Rose Blue and I can’t believe a simple plot bunny was all that it took. Hurt/Comfort is my “I wanna feel soft thing” while smut is turning out to be my “I wanna feel a lot of things but also wanna have kink involved too” lolol. 

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

Hey, speaking of outside my comfort zone! Smut used to be hard (ohthepun) for me but delving into it (I’ve written many oneshots before- fanfic and orig- but nothing too serious) I’m starting to really get a feel for it. And I love it. Having something I’m invested in while also pushing every kink button makes it all worth it. I figured out that I can’t write a generic (vanilla lol) smut oneshot because well, I get bored. I need feelings, drama, plot, kink, something more than just “A and B get it on via their couch- okay the end.” 

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

I’m super crazy about visualizations. I have an entire folder with photos and gifs for Rose Blue and it’s got over 150 photos. Not only do I save photos of the characters, but I also save house layouts, their work place, clothes, and so much more. When I need to describe something, say, a building, I look up what a building covered in vines would look like. Makes it easier to describe rather than go by what my brain thinks. Kinda like artists using reference photos. 

Also my outlines reads like an instruction manual lol. They’re super boring and to the point because I use them like a guide. Rose Blue’s outline is 12.3k and as I write, I add onto it. I can never 100% declare an outline as “done.” I can just get to the point where I’m like “Okay I can start here.” And maybe the scene I thought about won’t happen so I scratch through it (I never delete, I keep everything because you never know if you’ll need it again) or I might add a scene I came up with, or add notes, etc. 

And really, that’s just the planning process before I delve into writing pfft. When I write, I’ll vomit the first draft then come back and edit. Or sometimes I’ll re-write the whole thing. I did that for Buchanan Medical and a few others and they turned out a whole lot better. I’m really hoping I can avoid re-writing Rose Blue buuuut it might be for the better if I do. (because it’ll take longer VS editing) Not completely sure yet but hey, words on a page is better than no words! 

[winchest09]

12, 18, 22, 29, 33, 43, 50

❤❤❤

12) Do you want to break your readers‘ heart or make them laugh?

I don’t intentionally want to break my readers’ heart, but if the story leans that way then I definitely go with the flow instead of trying to force it to be something it’s not and take away it’s shine. However, I like to think I have more fluffs and smiles in my masterlist than heartbreaks. From now on, it’ll be laughs for a bit! 

18) What is your favorite writing prompt?

I love a good line of dialogue or a line from a song. It really gets my creative juices flowing and I start thinking on interaction of situations of where I can place it. 

22) Do you listen to music during your writing process? What music do you listen to while you’re writing?

Yes, all the time. It depends on what i’m writing. I tend to go with artists and songs to do with the moment. So romance, I find all the romantic songs. Angst, I go with heartbreaking, dramatic instrumentals or songs etc. But music helps me focus massively, also inspires me a lot too. 

29) What’s more difficult? Fanfics or original work?

I haven’t really written original work in a very long time but I’d say that the method is the same really. Just with original work you’d need to really think about characters back story, personality, relationships etc. Fanfic that’s already been supplied for you with your characters. Like we know Dean loves pie, adores his brother and his impala, likes classic rock etc. 

I don’t see either being more difficult than the other, just one maybe that little bit more time consuming in the planning phase. 

33) Do friends and family know that you write fanfics?

Yes. Not all of my friends, but my husband knows and my close bestie knows. My mum found out the other day and asked to read Life for Rent and I just laughed and told her no. My husband is super supportive of it though and even asks how it’s going and listens to me rant about ideas when he’s doing the dishes ahaha. 

43) Guilty pleasure tropes and scenarios?

I am a SUCKER for fake dating / fake marriage / fake engagement. Seriously. I just live for those fics. 

Second, and which I don’t see a lot of, I enjoy the modern fairytale AU. You know, Prince Dean or Knight Dean etc. I love those too! 

50) Can we get a teaser for an upcoming chapter?

Ahahahahaha I see what you’re doing here...

Of course you can have one, from Hello, Sailor that drops early next week ;) --

Y/N swallowed hard, her small fists tightening into balls as she tried to remain ladylike about the situation. She also felt the heat creep back into her cheeks as she was reminded of the earlier mishap with the wind. She was naive to think that moment wouldn’t come back to haunt her tonight, especially considering she was surrounded by the people who had probably seen it

--

Thanks for the ask, beautiful! xox

Asks for fanfic writers game

[blindbatalex]

21, 26, 33, 44 💖

send me fic asks!

21. What’s your least favorite part about the fanfiction writing process? Definitely the research.  i do a lot of research for my job so I do not like doing it for my hobby in my spare time too.  It was so nice for example when @onceandfutureprat handed me 90% of the research I needed for between your love and mine on a silver plate 💖

26. What’s your biggest distraction when writing? Tumblr, without question.   

33. What do you like writing better: one shots or multi-chapter stuff? Couple of times I have done multi-chapter stuff it was a lot of fun, getting comments on every chapter and readers helping shape how the story will go, but i also suck at sticking to a publishing schedule and the stress to write more on time is very real.  so i prefer one-shots most of the time.

44. Rant about something writing related. Very predictably, this has to be comments.  When I first started writing fic, I still felt like the truly great authors were so great they did not need any meager words I could leave on their fics -- that I would be a nuisance by commenting -- so I get where people are coming from but also man, it takes so much energy and time and sweat and blood to finish a fic.  it’s really disappointing to work that hard on something only to watch it sail into obscurity with maybe 20% of people who leave kudos taking the time to drop a line, even as simple a line as hey i loved this, thank you.  It matters so much. 

[iankabra]

6, 7, 8, 17 💕

omg !! thank you 4 the ask babes ily.

6. have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

So im the worlds biggest idiot and i for some reason thought it was reasonable to write a musical???? even though i havent the slightest idea how to do that and i fucking HATE theatre people. (jk jk all my friends are theatre kids theyre annoying but i love them) Ive been working on it a year and im still nowhere close to done bc i keep rewriting shit. it’s using mika’s music bc im predictable but i have a playlist of the songs i have in it, all of which have big choreographed numbers that rn exist mostly in my head. here it is lol.

i also do them for fics i write lol ive one for the rilaya one im putting off writing right now that i literally just made.

7. tell us about one of your characters who’s an absolute joy to write

Lord. So getting back into my musical (because ill talk about it to anyone who’ll listen or anyone who wont) I’m fucking in love with my baby boy Santiago. He is the only cishet man I have ever liked ever. Hes a Taurus, he loves kids, and he’s just absolutely stupid as shit, a fucking idiot. He’s a dancer!! he does ballet w my other character Brie and helps her w her girl problems bc shes got lots of them ALSO he doesn’t speak Spanish but that doesn’t keep my character Maya from ranting to him in Spanish all the time and he wants to be supportive but hes like i dont know what ur saying! god i could talk about him for hours.

8. have you identified any recurring elements or themes across your writing?

Gay. Lmao but really I write a lot of people who are really bad at dealing with their own emotions & push them deep deep down, which is like super obvious self projection but i find myself doing it every time.have you identified any recurring elements or themes across your writing?

17. at what point in the process do you come up with titles, and how easy or hard is that for you?

God am I bad at titles. I’ve been told on multiple occasions “oh that was good but why did you call it that lol.” I usually pick a title at the end?? except w fanfic cuz i always start publishing it way before im done bc i need instant validation.

[fanatic-musings]

A Rant On Being Fair (World Building & Characters)

Happy Saturday!

I hope everyone is enjoying the beginning of a good weekend.

I’m dedicating this post to a good friend of mine who was recently liberated from the armed forces and heading into college (Let’s pause to give him a round of applause here! *jazz hands*). He called me up a while ago to ask for help sorting out a few issues with a story he is attempting to construct, and I am always good for some good old-fashioned world-building.

As a bit of a background, we’ve known each other since his little brother was making 33s in English. If he didn’t know that I am always good to talk about world-building, creativity, and fiction, then I should probably reconsider our friendship.  

After about two to three hours on the phone with him, I tell him that he has too many moving parts for him to attempt to tell me most of them, coherently, over the phone, so he should email them to me.

If I’d known what I was getting into, I might have gone to mix a margarita before embarking on the attempt to comment on his story planning. It wasn’t the worst I’ve ever read, heard, or even as bad as it could have been. It was just bad.

After about an hour of commenting on a two-page document, I’m pretty sure that I would have had less of a headache just printing it out and tearing it apart physically. There were only two pages of actual text and about four pages of my comments.

To think, it was just Act I.

I’m a good friend, so I finished the full document, but while I was completing this impromptu creative consultation, I decided it would be best to start a series of posts on World Building and story writing. I have no idea how frequent this will be or what form it will take, but I think putting my ideas and processes out into the world might help someone not end up with four pages of comments.

Today’s post is mostly a rant on removing yourself and your ego from a story in order to write it. In short, it’s about being fair.

You can thank my dear friend’s terrible enactment of a strong female character and so many other follies against characters throughout literary history.

Is it that hard to write a strong female character? Or is it harder to imagine one that would be well received by the public? Yes, there are a hundred and fifty narratives about princes and princesses, rich guy/ poor girl tropes, etc, and there are a million and three rants I could go on about all of them; however, as a writer, don’t we owe something to our characters to at least treat them like people? To be consistent in our stories?

Let’s take a fun example: Hermione Granger. Not just because I’m writing a 1 Million Word challenge for Black Hermione, but because she’s a great example.

Clever, book smart teenager goes from a crush on Ron (which I still don’t understand) to Viktor Krum (which seriously should have been the end of it) to Cormac McLaggen (who I also would have accepted) in an attempt to get some sort of revenge on Ron and then back to Ron. There seemed to be a bit of cunning and street smarts in her more in the movies that the books, but let’s talk Hermione as a whole.

Don’t get me wrong, I love J.K., but I think it speaks to a deeper problem when even the artist has to say that the pairing that ends the series is not the one that should have been if she was being fair to the story.

Why is it that we as writer cling so tightly to our “imagining of the story” or someone else’s instead of being fair to the story? Is it just a lack of care? A case of ego?

I’d vote an inability to let the story take us where it wants to go. Writing is an exercise in control to a degree, but also exposes us to parts of ourselves we didn’t even realize existed, and that can be scary. In the midst of that wonderfully exciting rush we get creating a new world and meddling with the lives of people in the story, I think we cling to our positions as the author of the story as the end all be all of a story more often than being okay with exploring the world as it reveals itself.

Some people cling extremely hard and don’t even allow fans to transform the large plot holes or character misportrayals into something worthwhile through fanfiction (the people who request no fanfictions be written about their works). It’s your prerogative as an author, I’ve got nothing against people who specify that no fanfiction is to be written and posted about their work, but that doesn’t mean I don’t still question it and do some serious character observation.

It is frustrating to trudge through a story where a character’s motivations and actions don’t line up without an eventual explanation. I’m all good for a twist, but to make it a twist it has to be set up properly.

So, now that I’ve ranted a little bit, what is my point?

In the midst of creation, control, the heady pleasure of shaping a new world, please take a step back from it to examine the intricacies and how it all fits together as separate from you. Please examine the way you portray your characters and ensure that it does, in fact, make sense. Please don’t cling to the excuse of “this is the way I envisioned it” or “this is the way people wanted it” when it so clearly doesn’t work for the story.

Or at least allow people to take a crack at smoothing over or transforming the holes through fanfiction when you’re done.

  Let me know what you think of all this. Do you have any experience with this as an author or as a reader?

With Love,

E. J. Wolfe

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[pain-somnia]

Writer Asks

Writer Asks

tagged by @wolf08 :) thank you so much for the tag and sorry for being so late, i literally waited until i came home from work. Warning: this is LONG.

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

my tumblr url is based on the chronically ill made up term painsomnia. i have always had sleep issues but they got worse when i became ill due to being woken up constantly with pain. my username on FF is ChronicallyChill which is based on, yet again, me being chronically ill.

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/favourites, follows/subscriptions, visitor hits, kudos)

The Planning Of A Matriarch wins, hands down. I was so insecure and nervous about sharing anything I wrote but it was so well received! But it’s comedy and so much fluff and who doesn’t appreciate a little fluff? I have lost a lot of love for it because it was stolen and the whole event made me feel like shit. I think I owe a lot of it’s popularity to @mycherryqueen because she rec’d it on her blog. I plan on updating by the anniversary of this fic. But I may put it on hiatus indefinitely after that.

3. What is your FFnNet/AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

I actually don’t have one! I keep thinking I’m going to sit down and draw one or wait until I have the money to commission one of my favorite artists for something. I don’t create anymore but maybe one day I’ll dip back into it so I can finally have a profile icon.

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

OMG YES. I get sooo excited when I see familiar guest names or usernames. I get so gooey inside and melt when Spanish speakers leave reviews (I can read Spanish guys, feel free to review in Spanish if that makes you more comfortable!) because they wanna share their love even if they can’t write in English well. I have an absolute fave and I shouldn’t but I can’t help it. Monika aka @mcornilliac leaves the BEST reviews and she reviews every chapter.

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Oh tons. Tons, Tons, Tons! Here’s a few:

The Colors of Midnight by SouthSideStory is possibly my favorite thing they’ve written. I love so many of their SS fics but that’s the one I go back to the most. (also Providence, I love me a soulmate au)

Carrying On by Kiwako

Daimyo’s Daughter by Sakura’s Unicorn (but literally everything of theirs is re-read all of the time)

Spar by D.C. Filbert (warning: major smut)

Life After Detainment by merinxD

You Could See It Change by lavendersakurasasuke (it’s a Gothic Victoria AU but with ninjas!)

Chained by Kirikizu

xxlovendreamsxx has these LOTR AUs....fucking amazing. unfortunately I seem to have lost the link to them

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

lol...i’m just gonna say A LOT. I lost some of them when I didn’t have a FF account and if I didn’t I would have way more but trust me... A LOT.

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

NON-MASS IS WHERE IT’S AT~ give me more SS non-mass and I will be the happiest person in the world.

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

if I’m looking at it right....only 373 (me as an author not the individual works). and I love every single one of them.

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are 😨 of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

Sex scenes. I write it but I always feel nervous about them.

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

I wish I was more comfortable writing action. Also I do so much dialogue...I feel like it’s too much. I wish I was better at replying to comments (I try! like if someone writes me a hefty comment I’m likely to respond if I’m able to). Updating. If I could I would write and update every day.

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

I write for the most popular ship in the Naruto fandom. But I also write ShiItaIzu and as a friend of mine has said before I’m not on an island by myself, I am the island. Google ShiItaIzu and posts to my content is what pops up. my readers seem to like them though so that’s great.

12. How many stories have you posted on FFNet/AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

5. Soon to be 8 if I ever get to publishing the other three. (not including prompt drafts)

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

*maniacal laughter ensues* i have so many....fanfic and original work....some of them are prompts...I’m a mess

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

mostly in my head but some things are written down. Most of those are rough drafts already.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

No. I’ve made fanfics based off headcanons I practically threw at friends and they told me how they felt about them. But never. I don’t think I ever will, at least not for SS.

16. How did you discover FFNet/AO3?

uh...i have no fucking clue. August of 2016 was when I started loving Naruto again and jumped into consuming all of the SS content I could find. I just googled and read like...everything.

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on FFNet/AO3?

LOL....fuck no. I actually think I’m pretty insignificant in the Naruto fandom. But that’s okay.

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

no. maybe I should.... how about Loves? I’ll try it out in my next author’s note.

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

I don’t really have an author that inspired me. But @bkceallaigh is the reason anyone reads my stuff. she encouraged me to write and then finally publish a fanfic. And here we are.

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Write. Write what you feel. Write what you love. Write what makes you happy. Don’t worry about pleasing people, someone is always going to hate. Just write something you would want to read.

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

LMAO. no. the closest I actually get to planning is something like “this is my goal. let’s get to it somehow.” i think I've only planned one story and hopefully I’ll post that prompt soon (it’s the Shape of Water AU).

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Duh! I ranted and bitched to my friends. Some of them were sooooo bad. Like when I say bad it’s like they never even read the story or want to fore their interpretation on people. and then some anti-SS found me and decided to trash SS. like thanks...why the fuck are you here? so I will complain but I don’t care to confront them. Just...don’t like then don’t read.

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

Smut and action. Mainly ‘cause I want people to see the action in their head when I write but it doesn’t come out right... smut is bad sometimes ‘cause I get a little mechanical and describe the process and forget feeling sometime.

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

Currently I’m mulling over Can I Be Yours? and Kingdom For Two and A Gift From The Universe. I’m really into A Gift From The Universe because it’s non-mass and I’m going to put a lot of focus on InoSai and ShiItaIzu, way more than I’ve done before.

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

lol....I have my WIPs going on at the same time....I’m nowhere near finished.

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

nope. Just write when I can. And wish that I was writing when I wasn’t.

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

I want to say yes.

28. What is your favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

honestly....Kingdom For Two is my fic baby.

29. What is your least favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

The Planning Of A Matriarch actually. Like I could have done so much better. It’s still my baby but it’s the one that embarrasses me the most.

30. Where do you 👀 yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

hopefully with a finished original work lol

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

The easiest? I don’t know...I can’t really think about it right now...I guess for me, creating dialogue is the easiest thing....I’m really tired right now and may come back to edit this answer lol

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Telling myself to love what I write despite not getting the response that I want. There are people who love what I write and I move them with my writing. And I should appreciate what I get.

33. Why do you write?

It’s...so wonderful to see a world that’s trapped in my head come to life in front of me.

I will tag: @kuriquinn @roraewrites @xxxsasusakuxxx @randomwhorcrux @bkceallaigh and anyone that wants to do this

[timelessbian]

AAAAA!! IM LOVE YOUR OWL HOUSE FIC eda is my fave so it always pleases me to see fic of her :D chaos mum eda and clawthorne sisters angst. Hey wat do you think about the reveal that eda is (maybe??) The baby sister n also the possible hints that she has memory issues??? Hold on i gotta uhhhhhh slam the kudos button 200x

OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH ASBVBBABFAHBFHB!!! I am literally so obsessed with this show and i think both eda and lilith are such fascinating characters and their dynamic is so messy and realistic and SHDVBSHDABVHBDSV i literally just love them and i could scream about them forever!! thank you so much for reading, you’re literally so sweet and ilysm!!! <33

as for the rest of this ask, i’m answering after having watched 1x18, so i’m putting it below a cut a) for spoilers, b) bc it got VERY long, and c) i think my opinions are unpopular rn lmao

you literally didn’t ask for this, i just apparently needed to rant and ended up writing a fucking novel i’m so sorry asbvhbvdhdfbv

so i definitely did peg eda as the older one at first, mostly because of the lunch money incident, and her remarks at covention, and also bc something about lilith’s whole ‘ugh! stop making fun of me and do what i say!’ thing really gave me little sister vibes. i’m honestly not that put out but lilith being older though, and i think that especially after this ep, it kind of explains a lot.

lilith, as the oldest, was probably under a lot of pressure in general, with a lot of it probably coming from herself to sort of (in her mind) make up for her troublemaker sister. couple that with the fact that lilith herself has now admitted that eda was better than her even though she clearly never had to work as hard as lilith, and honestly it’s not a surprise there was some resentment there, especially if eda started shifting away from wanting to join the coven. eda also appears to have had at least some friends at school, but we haven’t seen any evidence of that for lilith. it’s extra tragic, bc they clearly grew up close! they went to coventions together and they used to race each other to kitchen, the ease of the way eda always calls her lily, and the moments of real love we’ve seen in earlier episodes really just makes it hurt a lot that the emperor could drive that much of a wedge between them.

speaking of the emperor, we’ve seen that indoctrination for the coven system begins early and that the emperor’s coven clearly has no qualms about targeting and recruiting literal children (ex: amity). so in lilith’s case, we have a teenager who’s upset about being overshadowed by a little sister who’s more popular and more powerful than her (and who’s apparently never had to work as hard) and who is therefore vulnerable to the emperor’s manipulation. there is no way in hell that i think it was lilith’s idea to curse eda. i think the emperor wanted it done and he had lilith do it to a) prove her loyalty to him and the coven and b) bc he had convinced her that it was what she deserved or something like that. 

honestly i feel like all of that really works because lilith is older, and i think it complicates their relationship so much more. lilith was supposed to be there for her little sister, but she wasn’t (and i think eda would probably also hate that she missed the signs, probably bc she was younger, which isn’t her fault obviously, but still). it’s clear from the way she immediately tried to take it back that lilith regrets cursing her, and i do genuinely think that she wants to heal her and protect her from the fate of the covenless witches, but she’s been brainwashed into believing the emperor even though it’s clear to anyone else that he has ulterior motives. 

so tl;dr: i think the reveal that lilith is the older sister (even though it’s literally by 2-3 years max bc she was clearly still young herself in the flashback) complicates their relationship on SO MANY LEVELS and it’s super fucked up, but i do really hope lilith gets a redemption arc bc there’s clearly so much history there on both sides and i am 100% here for the messy process of unpacking it all bc i want them to get to be sisters again!!

(i feel like i should clarify that none of this excuses any of her actions, especially when it comes to endangering and straight-up trying to kill luz. a redemption arc is not a get out of jail free card, and i hope that if she does get one, she actually has to work for it. there’s clearly just an incredible amount of history there and i think she’s a really well-written villain!!)

(also i am simply a villain-fucker first, last, and always, so take that as you will, lmao)

as for the memory issues, i think that there have definitely been enough offhanded comments about it that i definitely think it’ll come into play. i’m honestly not sure if it was intentional on someone’s part or just a side of the curse or the elixir, or if it’s completely unrelated, but i think it’d be really interesting to see that explored later on.

anyway, i am so sorry that i had to write a fucking novel to get my point across, but you asked for my opinions and i decided to wait to answer this until after the ep, so here they are! probably v unpopular but i literally do not care. i am simply vibing lmao.

but seriously, thank you SO MUCH for reading the fic and for taking the time to send me this!! it really did make my day (plus there might be more angsty sisters fic coming soon idk). and if you ever feel like screaming about the show or the sisters on anon or off, my inbox is always open!