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[lazygut]

@distantsuns​    what would it take for you to believe me?

‘ news report. ’   easy.  believing  is  a  fool’s  game.  stubbornness  lands  a  space  in  the  same  territory  but  being  stubborn  and  wrong  versus  stubborn  and  sceptical  but  non - committal  till  you  see  solid  facts  are  vastly  different  things.  you  look  like  an  annoying  cow  for  the  latter  but  the  long  run  feels  immediately  less  embarrassing  for  choosing  it.   

                ‘ or, ’   i  start  and  my  eyes  start  darting  around.  they  do  that.  that’s  what  being  knowledgably  sceptical  is,  right?  like...  looking  for  the truth?  eyes  darting,  never  resting  till  the  truth  is  uncovered.  proper sherlock  holmes  shit.  something  like  that.  not  just  the  thought  of  looking  someone  in  the  eye  for  too  long  making  my  skin  hot  and  my  whole  body  start  shaking  like  fuck  in  that  embarrassing  way  it  does.   ‘ or something in a book. something in like  . . .  a heavy book. i know news reports may not be accessible or realistic. ’   my  eyes  land  back  on  him.   ‘ and i don’t accept proof in pamphlets because i know people can just make a pamphlet and copy it at the library in like, what? an hour? that won’t fool anyone. ’