#THAMK YOU MY BELOVED... some of these answers are a bit shorter than usual but my brain is leaking out of my head right now

[ruvviks]

🤡 👻 🙉 🐌 🥞 🎮 🌠AND 💘 for nathan [:

oc asks!

🤡 CLOWN FACE: Are they afraid of clowns? What “silly” fears do they have?

nathan isn't necessarily afraid of clowns, but they would make him very paranoid and on edge. he would not make eye contact with any of them because that's how they get you. he doesn't need to draw that sort of attention to himself

most of nathan's fears are actually very serious and even the smaller seemingly innocent things have a very heavy weight to them (such as getting scared when someone locks the door of the room he's in), so i wouldn't say he has any silly fears. they all stem from deep within himself and even if he himself thinks they're weird or stupid, his friends take them very seriously because they know how he's been hurt in the past

👻 GHOST: Do they believe in the supernatural or paranormal? Have they ever had any “encounters”?

so this is fun because nathan is a sceptic. all the way down to the bones. he does not believe in ghosts he does not want to believe in ghosts. everything that's happened to him in the STEM environments was horrible and bad but it made sense since it was all consciousnesses linked together creating a horrible nightmare environment. but ghosts in the real world? no such thing. that's not real. can't be. surely

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL: Are they good at keeping secrets? Do they share their own secrets?

nathan is the best person to trust with literally anything. he will not ever forget but he will also never talk about it to someone else your secret is 10000% safe with him and he is very serious about it. he never talks about his own problems though you couldn't waterboard any of that out of him

🐌 SNAIL: What’s their happy place? Do they have somewhere they can retreat to just chill out for a while?

nathan doesn't really have much of a happy place, more just a comfort place. his apartment is the safest place on earth to him and he loves it there, but at the same time it's isolating him from the rest of the world and being in there doesn't really make him as happy as other things could :( he needs the solitude and the comfort of that place at the same time which makes it very hard to break out of that cycle, there's nowhere else for him to go so he doesn't really have any alternatives

🥞 PANCAKES: What’s their comfort food?

any food can be comfort food to nathan if he craves it enough LMAO but in general he is a sucker for korean fried chicken. you could give him that whenever and he will eat all of it and if you then give him more he will eat more of it

🎮 VIDEO GAME: Do they play video games? What kind of games do they prefer?

nathan plays shooters!! he doesn't really have the attention span for any complicated storylines or puzzles or stealth or whatever so just straightforward run and gun blast your way through hordes of zombies or demons or other enemies type of games would be his favorite :]

🌠 SHOOTING STAR: If they had one (or three) wishes, what would they wish for?

nathan would wish for as much money as he needs so he can live comfortably without worrying about not being able to pay the bills ever again, with some extra cash to help out his friends too. most of his worries balance entirely on his home situation which is mainly stressful because of him being unable to keep a job and because of that running low on funds, he can't afford therapy even if he wanted to and can't get the proper medication that he needs and it's all turning his life to shit :( so to have financial stability would help him out so so much

💘 HEART WITH ARROW: Do they ever get crushes? What do they do when they have feelings for someone?

nathan gets crushes very easily but it mostly just boils down to people giving him attention and him mistaking it for romantic (or sexual) interest and it often leads to him trying to make a (mainly sexual) move to show that he cares about that person in return, since it's the only "love language" he knows... he THINKS he loves them in a charged way but it's generally just him feeling comfortable and safe with someone which hasn't happened much in his past, which is why he doesn't really know what to do with it. but most of it is just friendship

now that he HAS in fact fallen in love with someone he doesn't even realize that it's happened which is a very funny contrast with what i just described above. it's because it comes a lot more natural to him this time, and it doesn't feel forced and he doesn't feel like he needs to pay the other person back in some sort of way which takes away the whole trying to make a move on them and just leaves hanging out together and naturally growing closer over time. it's a lot better and healthier for him :]